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[rowen-is-somewhere]

I hurt so much I don't know what do to anymore

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

"why don't you speak to me anymore?"

... I don't know maybe because you made me hate myself

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

I just want a normal life... but what is normal?..

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

Drowning in my own thoughts, I need these voices to stop...

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

I feel so lonely right now... the world is just silence and I'm here with my thoughts

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

You controlled me for 7 years of my life and yet you're still trying to control me now... just leave me alone... please

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

Wake me up when valentines day is over, I'm already sick of seeing happy lovey posts

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

My head feels like there are a 100 people in it.. how do I make them stop talking

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

Do you ever cry so much that you make these weezing sounds like your struggling for breath?... no? Only me... okay..

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

I'm hurting so much, yet I don't know why..

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

"Why did you ignore me?"

I don't know maybe because you made me feel like I was in the wrong all the time because I didn't do things your way.

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

When I look into the mirror all I see is an empty figure without a thought or feeling...

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

Welcome to 2024... New year new... I'm still depressed

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

Do you ever feel like you're the problem...

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

Amber Heat

Dear Amber Heat,You were dragging me down for 7 years of my life, whilst I was fighting a battle within my own head you made it worse.

Everything had to be about you, it had to be about how you was feeling, what you were doing, Everything was centered around you, whilst I was over there trying to be a supportive friend and fake smiles as I'm drowning within my own body.

I never understood how you ignored my cries for help and just continued about your day, whilst I was there suffering you told me I was an idiot. You said I was an idiot for being depressed, for struggling, yet when you was struggling I was there to help you... So why was I an idiot and you can be depressed, but I couldn't?

You was toxic, so toxic I cried every single night wondering how you got to be this way, because you was never like this when we first met. Something changed and I'll never know what that something was, but all I can say now is goodbye.

So Goodbye Amber, I wish you well, even if you don't.

- Rowen

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[rowen-is-somewhere]

Amber Heat

Amber, you was always a very interesting character ever since I met you down on that small little planet where nobody, but us was there. You're face seemed familiar when I saw you at first, it wasn't until now I realised you been watching over me months before we even met. 

We got on well, exploring planets, galaxys and moons together. We had a total of 2,555 missions together, well that's including the weekend meet ups..

It wasn't until that day where the sun was shining and your heat began to rise... it was in July..  do you remeber?

- Rowen

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September's Sapphire

Remeber when we met in September? It was a cold evening, but somehow you managed to make it light up. Everyone said I was crazy for spending that whole September with you because you was just a stranger, but to me you was so much more than that...

Sapphire, you was my gem, you made me smile, you had a glow that just made me happy, but then October hit. You said you had a mission to do, something you wanted to succeed at. I didn't speak to you after you said thar, do you remeber how long I didn't speak? Hours maybe, you was worried, you had to speak to someone and ask them about me, I was hurting that someone I just met was leaving so soon...

I think it still hurts to this day, I speak to you over the phone whilst your still on this mission, but it's not the same, what we had back then it was something different, something I've never experienced with anyone else. I never felt happier...Sapphire if you're out there listening, I miss you, I miss our September...

- Rowen

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