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villainology · 9 months

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ⓘ BASIC / OTHER INFORMATION !

001. most of my fics are wrote with sub!fem!reader in mind, however I will occasionally write for gender neutral and male reader, also occasionally I will write for dom reader!

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007. do not ask to be mutuals, I don’t like forced friendships, and quite frankly it makes me uncomfortable. if you want to be friends then let it happen naturally, but don’t pressure it otherwise I’ll probably just block you.

ⓘ WHAT I WILL WRITE !

• aphrodisiacs, anal, age gaps, breeding, breath play, bondage, cumflation, cum eating, cuckolding, corruption kinks, dubcon, dacryphilia, daddy / mommy kink, drugging (sometimes), degradation, femdom, fisting, fear play, gun play, knife play, kidnapping, lactation, monsterfucking, noncon, pegging, pet play, power dynamics, praising, roleplay, stepcest, spitting, somnophilia, tentacle fucking, water sports, and more.

ⓘ WHAT I WILL NOT WRITE !

• age play, anything involving animals, child abuse, eating disorders, extreme gore, foot fetishes, gender dysphoria, heavy drug use / addiction (heroin, meth etc), high school student × high school teacher (college is fine), suicide, stds, self-harm, scat, snuff, vomit, vore, and probably more.

ⓘ FANDOMS & CHARACTERS !

attack on titan — [ annie leonhart, armin arlert, connie springer, eren jaeger, erwin smith, hange zoë, historia reiss, jean kirschtein, levi ackerman, mikasa ackerman, pieck finger, porco galliard, reiner braun, sasha braus, zeke jaeger ]

baldur’s gate 3 — [ astarion, dream visitor / the emperor, gale, gortash, halsin, karlach, lae’zel, shadowheart, wyll ]

dc universe — [ dick grayson / nightwing, jason todd / red hood ] *more to come soon*

dead by daylight — [ the artist, the doctor, ghostface, the huntress, the knight, the legion (frank + joey), michael myers, nemesis, the nurse, the oni, the pig, pinhead, the plague, pyramid head, the skull merchant, the spirit, the trapper, the trickster, albert wesker, the wraith, + all survivors except nick cage ]

devil may cry — [ dante sparda, nero sparda, v, vergil sparda + dmc reboot dante, kat, and vergil ]

genshin impact — [ albedo, alhaitham, arataki itto, beidou, cyno, dainsleif, diluc, dottore, kaedehara kazuha, kaeya, kamisato ayato, kujou sara, ningguang, raiden shogun, shenhe, shikanoin heizou, tartaglia, thoma, venti, wanderer, xiao, yae miko, zhongli + more ]

honkai : star rail — [ blade, caelus, dan heng, jing yuan, gepard, himeko, kafka, luocha, nanook, natasha, sampo, serval, welt, + more ]

jujutsu kaisen — [ choso, kento nanami, mahito, naoya zen’in, ryomen sukuna, satoru gojo, suguru geto, toji fushiguro, + more ]

overwatch — [ ashe, brigitte, cole cassidy, genji, hanzo, junker queen, lifeweaver, moira, ramattra, reaper, reinhardt, zarya ] *more to be added*

resident evil — [ albert wesker, ada wong, chris redfield, claire redfield, jack krauser, jake muller, jill valentine, luis serra, piers nivans ]

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rwbytales · 9 months

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RWBY Search & Rescue: Island Maturin

RWBY Tabletop RPG Homebrew Story

OK so there were a few people who liked or commented on that post i made so i figured I would put it here so i dont have to do everything seperately persay, and tag everyone who said something!!!!

Plus I really like this so I'd love to properly have it down somewhere to go back and reference or if anyone else is interested in something or using stuff or anything!

I'm super excited and I'm gonna start with the premise of it and stuff and like if yall wanna hear more or the details up to what i have or have questions id love to know cause it'd probably help me. Eitherway this was a lot so ima put the deets under readmore!!!!

@eviltomb @caeruleum-feniks @utallige @a-d-h-dragons

So to start, I came across this Unnofficial RWBY TTRPG Rulebook Some things I either didn't agree with and wanted to change, or wanted to make certain things easier to find for player reference/ character creation, of which is outlined here if you're interested in seeing. (This was also a character sheet i found i had them use for reference to make the character) Most of it is changes to dust, potential for Team Attacks to do better and deal more damage, as well as a Team Leader for flavour who gets bonus Initiative and can give a small bonus call for a full team attack.

I also worked with each person to create a custom Semblance based on what type of skill or power they wanted to have, and adjust aura capacity and semblance use to actually require aura as well.

I did basically give them unlimited ammo, they just needed to reload as needed, and only had limited # of dust colors available to use based on what could reasonable be used by them and their backstory, so I made sure they would have to manage some sort of resource in someway, which did work out in my favour in the end.

(I recorded all(my 1 shot was 6 sessions so i called it a chapter instead) of them since it was my first time DMing a tabletop game and wanted to be able to reference it. and I want to transcribe them eventually into more of a story format)

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So for premise(this was not created this way but ended up during/after creation of the story because my team wanted to continue and was interested in playing more)

But I settled on a timeline because I dont want to have anything to do with current RWBY really, so some thigns have taken liberty and there may have been minor adjustments to events in the timeline, granted we never got exact dated anyway, just general timeframes.

So basically, this first story takes place after the party team has graduated. I'm imagining Hunstmen Academy is basically 4 years of school, the last 2 years could be... kind of part time? Because you are more so in the field than in school itself, sometimes going to other continents/schools or extended missions with veteran huntsmen or something meaning you would be gone for quite a while as well, you're just below freely licensed hunstmen, and often are treated as real huntsmen, especially when accompanied with veteran huntsmen, whether that treatment be good or bad.

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One of my favourite things abouyt RWBY is how everything is pretty much based off mythology, fairytales, or just fiction media in general, so I wanted to try to add in as much of that as I could to my story.

The first Piece I want to give is this

Search and Rescue: Mission Log

It was what the player characters would know about the mission and situation going on, basically this would be the reference they can look at at any time IC to check whats up or whatever.

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BASICALLY before Into too much detail the overall thing for it

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An island suddenly shows up near the shores of Anima, near the kingdom of Mistral, mysterious disappearances near the beach just days before the island showed up. Numbers of grimm increasing, causing more unrest in the nearby towns.

There are near forgotten fairytales of islands that disappear and reappear, that move and then never seen again. This island though, has been there for 7 days, through the fog and storm. Unmoving, unchanging.

They've sent curious hunters, team SIOC(Sirocco) out the day it arrived to investigate, but 3 days after have lost all contact with them.

Now 7 days after the island appeared, and 4 days after contact has been lost, missions have been revised and they've called for a search and rescue on the island.

Players team, PMAV(Primavera), then accepts the mission and is flown almost an hours time to the island where they have to realize they should have thought about a landing stratagy if they haven't already and get yeeted out of the airship.

If you can't tell by the name, the island itself is actually a giant grimm tortoise, this thing is huge, it is ancient, and has a grimm forest on its back. Looking at it, you can't tell really. There is a heavy dark mist that surrounds the thick forest once you get close enough to see, and once in the forest, the canopy is so thick between that and the mist, you can't hardly tell night from day.

There are pools of grimm on it's back, causing new grimm to be birthed from them constantly, meaning there is always a threat, and many new grimm that they come in contact with. ( I found cool looking oc grimm on deviant art or made stuff up for them to make it different, but also had known rwby grimm as well)

The mysterious island, while also being a world turtle, (this being named for Stephen Kings work), it's also going to double as the Black Forest, where many fairytales were said to take place.

To allude to this more, I did decide to add in a.. rendition of Salem, obviously taking the place as the witch, as she has been called many times. I did kind of reuse the thought of Hansel and Gretel, because I most of the cast of RWBY seems based off stories in the black forest and didn't want to reuse any of those.

So I have, Cwrell & Margarite Katad, twins that take their place in this sense.

(Gretel means Pearl, Margarite also shares that name meaning, with Cwrell meaning Coral, thus giving the twins names that have relations to eachother, while still being able to allude in someway to their OG tale and bring colors to mind. Then their last name Katad, meaning animal skin/leather, pulling from the last name commonly associated with Hansel& Gretel, Leiderhosen which are a type of leather garments.

Pearl, actually has the ability to create physical illusions pretty much, which are more stable if they are placed over a physical object(disguising an object as something is more stable), thus allowing her to make a tent look like an oddly placed cottage in this oddly placed island.

Cwrell,has the ability to track via semblance/aura use. So they can see remnants of colored aura left behind in locations where it was lost or used, and can use it to track where to go/where others are.

They are clearly, instead of working against the witch, are working as the witch direct underlings. I have ideas for backstory thoughts on the Katad twins but idk if itd been too much or something

Eventually, while they are on the island for a few days searching and such, they do come across the twins, who try to trick and attack them as they seem to be getting too close, or causing too much of a ruckus for Salem's liking.

But upon finding human remains and such scattered around and questionable abandoned tents and such, they end up finding out via a lost scroll they hacked into, that there seems to be a reason people were being taken and not just killed. It's hard to tell because presumably the scroll belonged to a member of team SIOC, and the notes and such are scattered and don't make sense. Like someone was scared, they didn't know what was happening, they were in a rush. Without more information, the most that can be gathered is that people were being experimented on, and newer grimm were more focused on taking people as opposed to just killing them. The experiments done looked gruesome, and there was mention how they could hear the pain and screaming at night and during the day echoing through the trees.

Eventually, in the end, they came across a claring with many grimm pools, flashes of bright silver light flashing and screaming almost in unison with it and all. They see a woman they never heard of, who we know as Salem.

An encounter starts as the team doesn't seem the woman is up to any good, which doesn't work out well as she just.. stands back up and continues, a large Praying Mantis-eque grimm, that towers nearly twice as tall as the people, the shape of its head and the main part of its body looks very earily human, moreso than any other grimm seen before., basically a fight ensues between the grimm, with salem there, and basically salem/her grimm pet kill the players at that point, in the spirit of teams unknowingly going against a big bad evil immortal lady that cant be killed and being killed because they didn't know

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Basically, Salem was trying to create Grimm experiments using humans and such, all of them being horrendously failed experiments of varying degrees and such. None of them worked, but all seemed very very painful and brutal and inhumane. All done in different ways dependant on what hasn't worked before.

The sucessful experiment that the players come across, is a very special one for 1 reason that seperates it from every other one.

She used the Silver-Eyed huntress from team SIOC as the base this time, and something about that specific trait meant she was able to succeed at creating a grimm hybrid. This basically serves as the Prototype of The Hound, that we met in Volume 8 of RWBY.

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builder051 · 2 years

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For the 200/300 word things, I have two ideas, both for tube verse. One, Steve having an NJ for some reason (maybe pre J-tube?) and throwing it up. It's happened to me a couple times and is not fun. Or two, something more slice-of-life-y where something goes wrong with Steve's health and James is sending messages through the portal, but is getting no response. I hope you feel better and things get easier! I love your writing <3

Thanks!

This tidbit will have to be scheduled very precisely on the timeline.

If you're familiar with what I've already set up for We fit like an Enfit (Tube 'verse), this is basically right after Steve has his initial appointment with a PCP--who kindly walks him down the hall to the check-in desk for the emergency room. Doctors tend to do that when people show up with life-threatening symptoms.

He hasn't gotten back together with James yet (they're like, post-breakup friends who are really still in love and both are super sore about it). Steve's still (supposed to be) working regular daytime hours in the office, and Darcy is the world's worst HR rep, along with the other positions she covers.

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Steve's glad the nurse has taken his left arm as real estate for the IV. That means he can still scroll through his phone with relative ease. He keeps his elbow tucked close so nobody can snag his dominant arm away. He already has a tube up his nose for quick-start nutrition. But apparently he needs sugar, salt, and sterile water pumped into

"Ow--" Steve grits his teeth and goes back to holding still as the needle makes contact under his wrist bone.

"I'm gonna call somebody," Steve says, trying not to slur around the NJ. He swallows on autopilot, as if the outsized, undercooked spaghetti noodle will go down like swallowed pasta should. But the tube stays resolute. And positively nauseating.

Steve scrolls to Darcy's contact and selects the call icon, then uses the tips of his fingers to hold the phone to his ear without jostling the warm blanket or the gloved fingers of the nurse now placing tegaderm and tape over the fresh line.

"What?" Darcy answers, sounding perturbed. "It's 5:02. You called my desk phone. I'm off work."

"You picked up. I just have to tell you--"

"Well, I knew it was you, or I wouldn't have picked up." Steve hears the telltale creak of Darcy leaning back in her swivel chair. "So give me the deets. How was your appointment? What did they say?"

"That's what..." Steve pauses and swallows again. The tube down his throat makes it impossible to feel anything in the esophagus. But there was definitely a twinge. Somewhere under his diaphragm. Somewhere that tended to reverse courses and turn out messes.

He breathes, then tries to explain. "Once I answered the, like, wellness questions, and she took my vitals, the doctor said I needed to be admitted."

"You have been really sick." Steve imagines Darcy putting her feet up on the desk. "But to be in the hospital? That's shitty."

"Is there, like, paperwork?" Steve barely gets the words out. Whatever was caught in his diaphragm is in his ribcage, and he can feel, in addition to the next pending heave, a painful scrape working its way up the side of his throat.

"I'd have to look that up," Darcy says. Then, "Are you ok?"

Steve can't attend to his phone anymore. He's already spitting bile, and when the end of the tube languishes its way out, covered in snot and spit, the sudden emptiness brings a rolling gag. Steve clutches his gut and squeezes his eyes shut. He coughs. Then retches again.

Steve digs in the side of the bed for the nurse call button.

"How may I help you?" someone asks from what sounds like the other end of a walkie-talkie.

"Um--" Steve starts.

"Were you talking on the phone to your girlfriend and you done dropped it?"

"What?" Steve stifles a belch and wipes his mouth on his freshly placed IV. "Ouch." Only then does he realize that his call to Darcy is still connected, even though his phone is on the floor now.

"Steve? Hey! It's not funny!" Her voice sounds shrill and tinny with the room's terrible acoustics. Steve feels terrible for giving her what was probably the shock of a lifetime.

"Honey?" the walkie-talkie voice prompts.

"Oh. Yeah." Steve will go along with it. "And I puked up my tube."

"We'll get you set up again. Don't you worry. And tell your girlfriend I said that!"

"Sure." Steve goes for a deep breath, but he can't stop himself from laughing a little.

"What?" he can hear Darcy demanding from the floor. "What's so funny?"

"I'll tell you later," Steve says. "It's a great story; I'm sure you'll love it."

#fanfiction #fanfic #starbucks sunday #we fit like an enfit #tube 'verse #hospitals #emeto #emetophilia #j tube #NJ tube #nasal tube #gastroparesis #sickfic #steve rogers #darcy lewis

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every-dayiwakeup · 2 years

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ANOTHER!

What do the boys do for date nights? If they have them, how they feel about them, who's idea was it? ALL the deets about date nights.

Oooooh-

I think Steve would want to go all out and take Billy somewhere fancy, but Billy doesn't feel comfortable with it. Despite his mask of arrogance, at his core he prefers simplicity, and he assures Steve that it doesn't matter where they go.

Steve suspects that Billy doesn't think he's worth being "pampered", so he tries a new tactic: ordering food from restaurants and putting them in to go containers.

Billy thinks it's all charity, and he's not used to having someone treat him. Plus if he finds out Steve took him somewhere that he took Nancy, well at first he gets... a little upset.

I would say Steve loves dates, and he loves pampering the people he cares about. But he also understands that Billy still has doubts about Steve's feelings for him, and the last thing he wants is for Billy to feel bad about anything.

Also, Steve wants Billy to stay longer at his house (and away from Neil), so they go grocery shopping and Billy teaches Steve how to cook. It's messy, and Steve hasn't had a home cooked meal in a minute, so I think he definitely starts to appreciate Billy's simplicity and it gives him more time with his lovely boyfriend.

Another thing is, Billy is terrified that someone will see them together and tell Neil, so if they do go out on dates (like to the movies or whatever) the kids go with them (they scare off other movie goers sometimes so the love birds can have the theater to themselves).

Sometimes they use disguises, or Billy sneaks them into a showing (Steve can't deny its kind of fun).

They spend a lot of time at Steve's house, which Steve assures Billy several times that he's fine with. "No matter where we go, right?"

Since sometimes Billy can't stay very long (because he was to be up at like 5 to cook breakfast at his house, and Neil gets suspicious), Steve orders in, and they watch movies. Steve likes to sit on Billy, or in between his thighs, and lay on his broad chest. Billy is glad that it's dark, because you best believe that boy is blushing!

They cuddle on the couch, and its guaranteed the other falls asleep.

Billys heard from girls how the thrill of a relationship, and the romance as well, sort of fades the longer the relationship goes.

But about a year in (Steve has kept track of everything, from when they first met, to their first kiss- he's a sentimental sap like that) and the two are still on cloud 9.

Steve sometimes decorates the house a little to resemble a restaurant, and have the kids serve them. He opens his door, grinning at Billy, a flower in his teeth.

Billy has wooed many girls, but he's never actually been wooed. Max tells him to get his head out of his ass and enjoy it. "You deserve nice things, too," she chastises before going out to meet Lucas.

When Steve makes him his favorite dinner (Mac and cheese and hot dogs) and gives him a massage, Billy's resolve starts to break.

"Maybe I do deserve nice things," he moans out when Steve massages a knot in his shoulders.

"You, Billy Hargrove, deserve the best of the best, and you don't need to settle for less," Steve says, leaning in and kissing his forehead.

"Cheesy, Harrington," Billy murmurs, pulling him into a kiss, his hand gripping the collar of Steve's yellow sweater.

But maybe he and Max are right. Maybe he does deserve a little cheesiness. Preferably the cheesiness of Steve Harrington.

Flash forward to their 400th date (Metallica concert in California), and Billy has been totally cheesified.

Its the happiest he's ever been. And of course when Steve sees Billy happy, he's happier too.

#thanks for the ask!#i definitely rambled lol #im pretty sure i derailed from the question #i hope this answers your question #redchat #redsbox #billy hargrove

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tilliwriteapine · 2 years

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So, my great friend and a childhood inspiration, Dave Griffin, reminded me that we have started Mental Illness Awareness month.

And I have multiple. Major Depression. Anxiety. Social Anxiety.

I have had anxiety since before I can remember. I would go to sleep away camp and wake up every morning and vomit. I would go away from my family or home and vomit every morning. I would later find out that this was a classic sign of anxiety. Thanks for giving me the deets, nursing school!

Depression hit me probably *during* nursing school, and I remember having a difficult time in college. Anxiety was also a huge factor. But I wasn't diagnosed with depression until post nursing school and I was living on my own and working my first full time job. I wasn't far from my parents (about an hour away, but in a very familiar area, Gladstone, OR), but my brain chemistry was definitely fucked up.

Got started on medication. I believe I changed medication right before I moved to North Dakota.

I upped the dose in ND, and even got a therapist because oh hey, I also had Social Anxiety. TERRIBLE social anxiety. It crippled my ability to really function outside of work (I have no idea how I kept my job. I am approachable to patients but not strangers on the street?!). I once went to Dairy Queen, ordered a basket, and got my food. Realized I didn't get my ice cream sundae. But instead of politely asking for what I paid for, I just couldn't. I literally fucking couldn't. And so I didn't get my ice cream. I remember talking to my therapist about that specific interaction and, while so kind and gracious, he was so confused on how I couldn't ask for what I had paid for. I was too 😅

It was during my 18 months in ND that I struggled, not just with social anxiety, but also my depression. While panic attacks are more anxiety driven, I believe they are also a sign of depression. And boy, did I suffer some intense panic attacks. I remember my first one ever - I had either been exercising or been doing something at the gym, got into my car, experienced some nerve wrecking thing, and broke down, crying and hyperventilating. I was a LITERAL disaster.

Shit didn't stop there. I also was severely suicidal. My therapist weekly would ask about this specific symptom, and if I had a means to harm myself. I never did, never had a plan. But I thought about it a little too much. Depression fucked with my brain so hard.

I tried finding a job more close to home - Seattle, back home in Portland - but was rejected countless times by places I greatly admired. I remember breaking down after a For King and Country concert, depressed I had spent my parents money to go home for three in person interviews and ended up with zero job offers. At that point I had put in my 4 weeks notice and was either moving home or moving somewhere.

I was graced with a job offer for PSL BMT in Denver, and my spirits lifted.

I have still struggled with Depression, but not as severely as it was in ND. I've changed my medication during this pandemic, and feel Wellbutrin is doing well.

medication is NOT the devil and it saved me from killing myself.

I still struggle, a TON, with anxiety. Especially recently. I am so uncertain about what I want to be happy and where I want to be in life. My crutch is school 😅 Go figure!

but I need whoever is reading this to know that mental illness is NOT a short coming of your failings. It is a disease of the brain. There are ways to manage mental illness: therapy, medications, cognitive behavioral techniques, books - everyone needs something fine tuned to THEM to walk through life functioning. There is situational issues, seasonal blocks, and other factors that may influence when and how a mental illness surfaces.

But please know you are LOVED, you are PRECIOUS, and you are VALUED!!!!

I am mentally ill. But mental illness does not control my life.

❤️❤️❤️❤️

#Mental illness #mental illness awareness month #awareness #depression #anxiety #social anxiety #life

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tetsuskei · 2 months

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happie friyay mrs alberich >v< ! ! ! hweheh i am here to inquire abt u + ur hubbie kaeya n how u like to wind down on a friday evening after a long week of work ! :3 gimme all the juicy saucy deets ! !

hi coco, happy wednesday (excuse me for answering late) >_> !

i think we like to wind down by getting together and drinking some quality wine. we would horseback ride somewhere and lay on a blanket and look at the stars :> i think that when kaeya is away from people, he does not put up a front and is way more vulnerable than usual since he trusts me so much ! he will share whatever on his mind, especially if something is troubling him. it’s important he doesn’t feel like a burden when expressing his feelings and needs, and i always remind him that ^_^ 💗

also i won’t get too nsfw but i can imagine kaeya after a few glasses of wine wouldn’t be opposed to doing certain activities on a picnic blanket outdoors (not that he needs a reason or alcohol to be honest) 🤭

#kaesu ☆

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ilikereadingactually · 2 months

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A Dark and Starless Forest

A Dark and Starless Forest by Sarah Hollowell

this was a compelling read! it had a claustrophobic feel to it that suited the story, and was creepy enough that i ended up reading most of it during lunch breaks instead of at night in bed. those are positives for me! i like when a book sucks me into the experience.

i really liked everything that was going on here, too. there's magic, and an uncertain forest filled with frightening things, always a great temptation/threat combo. there's a house full of magic girls, of an admirable variety of ages, races, genders, sexualities, abilities, and body sizes. there were honestly so many of them (eight, i believe?) that i had trouble keeping them straight--my only nitpick about the book was that they were introduced in detail all at once at the beginning, and that information wasn't repeated or spread out enough through the book for me to hold on to it.

but! i adored Derry, the POV character. she's fat, she has plant magic, she protects her sisters in both good and questionable ways. her flaws are about temptation and self-doubt rather than about her body or her (presumed) queerness, and that's always a relief.

i was also really impressed with the portrayal of abuse in this book, especially difficult to nail with a first person narrator; Derry and her sisters are "cared for" by Frank, who controls every aspect of their lives, doesn't let them leave the house "for their own safety," pushes them to strengthen their magic through stressful tests, and puts them in time out when they--well, you get it. whenever he feels like it. i think it takes particular skill, and either good research or life experience, to slowly build the case against Frank in the perspective of someone under his control the way this book does. it's very well done!

imo the ending leaves room for a followup, and if Hollowell writes one, i will read it!

the deets

how i read it: an ebook from Libby! i think i'll buy this one next time i'm in a bookstore, i need more magical fat girls on my shelves.

try this if you: love some darkness in your magic and some mystery in your plotlines, like to simmer in righteous anger, or are fat and wanna see that rep!!

maybe not for you if: you need to avoid a first-person narrative of abuse.

a bit i really liked: i'm just so in love with how Derry is fat but it's not a plot point! casual fat!

The magic I sent into the earth flows back into me. Tiny gray flowers bloom on my shoulder and descend across the thick fat of my upper arm. It doesn't hurt. It's a gentle push under my skin, a tug from somewhere above it, and then I'm growing my own flowers. I barely register them in the moment. I brush them off, leaving no trace, and wait for judgement.

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scnderland · 6 months

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