#(I'm getting this post out of the way NOW because I highly doubt anyone else will bring up the lore connected to Golemons design)

[esthermitchell-author]

Going to probably make myself worlds unpopular here, and get a lot of negative feedback (used to it), but I really have to say something.

However, before I start, lest you accuse me of being Ableist (I'm not. In fact, with my levels of physical disability, to call me Ableist would only prove how little you know me), I want everyone to understand that I've been a disability advocate for a very long time, and that includes ALL types of disabilities.

This isn't some kind of hate rant. In fact, quite the opposite. Consider it a gentle reminder (or as close as I can come to one... sorry, I'm a sarcastic, strange little shit, and I often say things in an effort to be funny that most people misunderstand *shrugs*).

Also, please remember that the same rules always apply to my posts. Whatever I say here is based on how I interpret canon, my own headcanon, my own life experiences, and my own opinions. It is NEVER meant to negate someone else's experiences, or to invalidate their opinions. Please, as you read, keep this caveat in mind.

Okay... Now that we've got all that out of the way...

I've seen a lot of talk about how "Of course Aziraphale / Angel!Crowley are Autistic. That's just how it is, and if you don't accept that, you're an Ableist."

EXCUSE ME? Unless you can point to the specific passage in the book or the specific moment in the show where they say "Aziraphale is Autistic/has Autistic tendencies" or "the starmaker is Autistic and that's why he does what he does" then you can't actually go around calling people names if they don't happen to agree with your personal experience of these characters.

I'm speaking with my authorial hat on, here. If someone read one of my books, and decided to declare themselves the end-all-be-all of authorities on my character(s) and tore other people down as "Ableist", "aphobic", "homophobic", etc just because other people saw something different in one of my characters (and without checking with me, the author, for confirmation), I would be highly annoyed. And since Neil has made a point of saying "if you see a character this way or that, then they are this way or that to you" (I emphasized the last two words for... well... emphasis), that implies that your way of seeing the character(s) is no more or less valid than anyone else's.

Now, I'll admit to being out on a limb in my defense of Aziraphale to the point that I don't think he's the villain he's being painted as, and I'm willing to die on that hill (this is my choice... I'm not conscripting anyone else to die on that hill with me), but my take of that has always been the understanding that it's been repeatedly said by the authors (both of them, to my knowledge) that Good Omens is a love story, and as such, the implication all along has been it's about Crowley and Aziraphale. That would make Aziraphale one of the heroes, and not the villain.

Also, at no point have I ever dissed Crowley (in any of his states of being) as being worth less than Aziraphale, either. They are, as I have continued to repeat, a matched set. That's how I see them. There's no one without the other. I see them as not wanting it any other way, either, based on what I've read in the book and seen in the series (and heard on the Lockdown audio)...basically, every canon source (as established by Neil Gaiman) portrays them as an equal pair, who want only to be together. And that has been my argument against the Aziraphale-haters all along. That if they truly want what's best for Crowley, and what would make Crowley happiest, then they should want him to be with Aziraphale, because that's what canon has established he wants.

Now, if you are Autistic, and you identify strongly with how Aziraphale (or the starmaker) acts as being similiar to you, then absolutely, for you, they no doubt are that way, and you are more than allowed to see them that way, and tell the rest of us all about how you see them that way, and why you see them that way. Write lots of amazing, ASD fanfic/comics/etc to show us your views. You're allowed to do all of that. What you are not permitted to do is call anyone who disagrees with you or sees them differently than you do "Ableist," as long as they're not being mean/derogatory about what they're saying. Calling people names for having a different opinion about fictional characters is just being exclusionary, and if you don't like it, don't do it.

This same rule applies for aroace people, demi/ace people (like myself), or anyone else in the LGBTQ+ community. Please, tell us all about how/why you see Aziraphale and Crowley a certain way. Write lots of fanfic/comics/etc that display whatever your personal sexuality/gender identity is. Draw all sorts of beautiful (or raunchy, if that's your thing) artwork that displays how you see them. But what you are not allowed to do is call people names or accuse them of "excluding" you, just because they choose to present their own viewpoint, as long as they're not being actively derogatory or rude. You don't have to read those fics/metas or look at those images. There are settings to avoid them if you wish.

My point is... there's plenty of room in the GO/Ineffable Fandom for all views and backgrounds. We just have to take a step back from our own narrow lenses sometimes, and realize where we're crossing the line from opinion into hurtful/rude. And we all need to keep in mind what the entire point of this fandom has always been -- to celebrate one of the most equal, beautiful relationships (however you define that word) to span the gap between literature and film. And a relationship requires more than one person, so lets just celebrate both Aziraphale and Crowley, and turn all this angsty animosity into creating a combined will toward their reunion and a happy ending for them both, together, in whatever form of relationship that takes.

Can we do that? Please?

#good omens #good omens fandom #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #aziraphale x crowley #crowley #azicrow #ineffable spouses #gomens #gomens fandom #go fandom

[abybweisse]

Hey Aby! In anticipation of the 205 chapter, I decided to go back and re-read Mey-Rin's and Bard's for clues of what may happen next to Snake and Finny. I noticed something interesting with both arcs - they both seem to hint at what their ultimate fates will be. While Bard's arc is all about meeting with wife and son while in a coma and he practically promises to return to them, Mey-Rin is an unwitting witness to a sex act, in an uncharacteristically graphic scene for Yana. Do you think that death is ultimately on the cards for Bard and (I guess) a marriage for Mey-Rin? Or is it all contained to their arcs themselves and does not mean anything beyond completing a mission?

⚠️ long post ⚠️

Assignments as foreshadowing?

I think that if Mey-Rin gets married, it would not be foreshadowed by her seeing sex acts through a keyhole.

She joined Qīng Bāng at a very young age and worked as a sniper, but she saw a lot going on around her. Well, as much as she could see without glasses. There were drugs, alcohol, and probably prostitution in and around the opium den, as well as throughout Limehouse district. One of her early assignments as an assassin was to shoot this guy at a hotel or perhaps in his own huge manor, right? He was a rival gang leader, and she shoots him while he's naked with some unnamed woman. He might have even been right in the middle of having sex when she shoots him. She's witnessed a lot in her young life.... Getting married to anyone would be despite the things she has seen and done. Reminds me of how Katniss finally settles down and has kids in The Hunger Games, even though she's been thoroughly traumatized by her experiences. So far, at least, Mey-Rin seems to have kept her mind pretty well intact. I hope she can continue to do so.

I think we can safely say she has somehow managed to remain a virgin up to this point, too. Otherwise, Georg von Siemens' inappropriate actions towards her wouldn't have been enough to make her question whether she was still worthy of marriage. Going by "Rin" and dressing as a boy until she joins the Phantomhive household might have been partly to protect her virtue. Good thing Haku was apparently only interested in her sniper abilities.

In Baldo's case, the interaction with Joanna and his son might be an indication he will have to break whatever promises he's made to them. At least for now. I mean, his claim he can now properly cook fried eggs is an exaggeration "Sebastian" calls out even before Baldo can fully return to the living realm.

I put Seb in quotations because I'm not sure whether Sebastian has infiltrated Baldo's coma or if he's just a nagging figment of his imagination.

Then again, maybe he will soon join them. We still don't have confirmation that he and the others safely made it out of Athena Sanatorium, thanks to a cliffhanger and moving on to the next assignment, with Finny and Snake. Next time we see Baldo et alia, they might be trying to take leave of the place... when Polaris freaking shows up, mad as all hell. Even if Ronald and William stick around and actually enter the fray (since it's another bizarre doll to take down), I don't see it ending too well. Baldo does seem to have this uncanny ability to survive, though, even if everyone else around him doesn't....

Either way, I highly doubt he will ever make it to Shanghai with the others, even if the others do. And if he stays in England and somehow still survives to the end of the series, this is most likely a false promise, as well:

Mostly because he's just that terrible in the kitchen.

I still somewhat hope Mey-Rin and Baldo end up together, despite their age difference. At least she is an adult already. Also, it was a very common practice in Victorian England for older men to marry much younger women, especially if those men were widowers. Much like Katniss again, perhaps Mey-Rin would only pair well with a man who has experienced much of the same trauma. Likewise, Baldo might now have trouble settling down with some completely innocent sort of woman. Katniss and Peeta go through the deadly and maddening games together. Baldo's been altered by war and losing his wife and son. Mey-Rin has been altered by her years as an assassin for a drug dealer and gang. Mey-Rin and Baldo have both been enlisted as servants for our earl, chosen because of their abilities and previous training; now they volunteer as pawns in this deadly game of chess against their young master's brother. Perhaps their bond will be strengthened by all this... if they live to see the end of it.

The main thing the first two assignments have in common, besides their basic instructions, is that Mey-Rin and Baldo each flashback to the events directly leading up to being offered positions as our earl's servants. Mey-Rin's flashback is triggered by Jane offering her the opportunity to switch sides. Her flashback shows us why her loyalty stays with our earl and Sebastian -- with the Phantomhive household.

Baldo's is triggered by Ada admitting her guilt as a survivor during warfare; Baldo feels much the same.

And he also develops loyalty towards our earl, Sebastian, and the other servants. Just like Jane ends up aiding the infiltrators, so does Ada.

As I'm typing this up, I realize "hunger games" describes both Mey-Rin's and Baldo's lives before: Mey-Rin is once fooled into biting a boot and is regularly given moldy bread to eat... while Baldo's battlefield starvation tempts him to cannibalize his fallen comrades. Sebastian barely arrives in the nick of time to stop him from eating the arm of Terry, or whoever that poor dead dude was, if it wasn't Terry. Sebastian shows up with a picnic basket filled with afternoon tea items and possibly more. The first thing our earl does to extend any kindness to Mey-Rin is provide her with the first hot, freshly prepared meal she's had in ages, perhaps as far back as she can remember.

Back to their assignments; they are paired with people who are in our earl's network but are not his servants. But Finny and Snake (and his snakes) are both Phantomhive servants, so do we get a major flashback from Finny, from Snake, from both, or from neither one? So far, Finny is having single-panel flashbacks and even briefly stating things he recalls to Snake and the top students. The orphanage reminds Finny of the research facility in some ways, and that could segue him into a major flashback. Since Doll is there, she could trigger Snake into one. However, before the assignments, they were the two we already knew the most backstory for, and we might never learn all that much more about either one. To deal with both characters, we might just continue to get tiny snippets here and there.

But Mey-Rin has a choice to make -- choose Jane's offer or remain loyal to our earl. She remains loyal, and Jane even helps her and Ran-Mao break up the blood collection operations there before parting ways. Mey-Rin and Ran-Mao just need to get to our earl and make their report.

Baldo still has a choice to make -- stay in England and return to our earl... or go with Lau and the others to China. Like I said before, he might never get to China, even if he tries. I do expect him to ultimately end up staying behind, possibly loaded down with fresh feelings of survivor's guilt. If Ada is still around when we get back to them, she might also decide to stay back and help Baldo take down the Aurora Society.

With Finny and Snake, I don't think Finny's loyalty could ever come into doubt. His choice might come down to whether he has to fight Snake. But I don't think Finny will see much, if any, choice in the matter if it comes to that.

Snake is probably about to hear Doll's full tale about the circus members' fates. Then his choice (and the choices of his individual snakes) is to either help Doll get revenge... or attempt to destroy her and shut down the orphanage. Snake is the last to join our earl's household, so he could end up the first to leave it (I don't think Tanaka has truly left). There's also the possibility that one of his snakes, like Emily, chooses Doll and must be eliminated.

There is foreshadowing in each assignment, but most of that pertains to what ends up happening in each assignment. I don't know what long-term foreshadowing there is in the assignments, other than perhaps some things not directly related to them... like:

The chance of Jane popping up again later because she hinted that she might

The shapes of souls and "aptitudes" hinting about soul transplants

If Layla ends up being Heathfield's daughter

If Layla/Al ends up being some experiment of Undertaker's regarding soul transplants

What I do see is each servant's loyalty being put to the test, and they must make quick, fateful decisions. Whatever choices they make during their assignments, they will ultimately affect the outcome of the story. Each assignment definitely has long-reaching consequences; they are not little bubbles of existence.

I hope I answered your question thoroughly. I stayed up too late working on this -- but not finishing it -- and have been half asleep all day.

#black butler #kuroshitsuji #baldo #bard #baldroy #mey rin #ch175 #ch189 #ch190 #yorkshire #wiltshire #assignments #foreshadowing #snake #snake's snakes #finny #finnian #anon asks #i answer #answered asks #ch205 #the hunger games #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #katniss and peeta #tw: trauma #tw: sex mention #tw: drug mention #oct 16 2023 #long post

[lestappenforever]

Hi. Someone just posted how they were watching Team Redline yesterday and people were spamming the comments section with “Lestappen” and mentioning Max’s lisps. I don’t know how to feel about all this because allegedly someone who was posting about Lestappen got blocked from the comment section after 20 minutes.

What scares me is that of course Max knows what Lestappen is now if he didn’t before, thanks to his team posting it. And of course, Redbull would never post something their golden boy hasn’t approved but that doesn’t give anyone else the right to ask Max about it. Max is not Charles tbh (not that Charles should be asked about it either) but Max is the kind of person who never talks about these kind of things. If he gets pissed, he’ll just stop streaming altogether or ask his team to shut it down (by it I mean Lestappen) because it’s getting out of hand. Charles faces issues head on (like that time he asked fans to stop camping outside his home because it was making him uncomfortable).

I would also like to point out it is not necessarily Lestappen girlies in the comments but rather people who have no boundaries whatsoever or people who want Lestappen girlies to look bad. I was once in a fandom that had no boundaries whatsoever and it ended badly and the ship can’t be mentioned without people wanting to pull out their hair. It’s just sad that Max has to deal with all the bullshit and that’s why he hates social media and being in the spotlight. Can we just enjoy what he and Charles offer us and in extension Redbull and F1 (sometimes even Ferrari) without making it weird? Thanks.

Hi anon!

I didn't watch the stream yesterday, but I can't say I'm surprised at what you're sharing. Now, I am absolutely certain that Max knows very well what Lestappen is, and has known for years. And even though I also believe that Max is also the type of person who doesn't let things like that really get to him, I am still of the opinion that it's a line you shouldn't cross.

Shipping is a thing that belongs in fandom. Sure, the social media teams of their teams see the appeal and know they can make a huge profit from using certain parts of shipping in their own channels, but that is something very different to people spamming comment sections with those types of things.

It should be (and for the most part, it is) common knowledge that you don't bring up those parts of fandom to the real-life people involved in those ships. The way I see it, there is absolutely no reason to try and shove those parts of fandom down the throats of the people involved, which is unfortunately exactly what is being done when you spam a stream, a comment section or anywhere else with shipping content, etc.

The majority of Lestappies are without a doubt reasonable, respectable people who would never even consider bringing those things to Max and Charles. But, as it sadly is with every fandom, there are going to be a minority of people who don't understand, care about or respect those boundaries. And then there are people who aren't even part of the fandom who just take some weird pleasure in being cringe and disrespectful towards drivers, and for some reason try to make it their life's mission to try and expose drivers to parts of fandom they shouldn't be exposed to. And as much as we wish it wasn't the case, those people are always going to exist. And they are always going to be loud about it.

Now, I personally don't think we need to worry about Max getting upset by any of this at all - he is notorious for not giving a shit, and I highly doubt Lestappen would be the thing to change that. I'd honestly be more worried about Charles being affected by it than Max, but I don't see it becoming a big deal for either of them. But that doesn't mean that people should try to shove Lestappen down their throats, either on social media or in real life. It's just a matter of common decency and being respectful towards other human beings, which unfortunately seems to be a bit too complicated a concept to grasp for a select few individuals.

Keep shipping and those parts of fandom away from the drivers, and enjoy it where it's meant to be enjoyed - such as in our delulu world of Tumblr. It's that simple. Nothing good is going to come from trying to force the two together.

#Asks #Anon asks #Lestappen asks

[locution-youngster-enjoyer]

Which Wordgirl villain would win in a fight?

Rules: No powers or gadgets. Just fists. The only exceptions are if their powers/gadgets are literally part of their bodies. It'll make sense when we get to the fight.

Ranking under the cut because it's a very long post

30. Amazing Rope Guy

Yeah this is a surprise to literally no one. He is considered probably the most pathetic villain in the entire city, and there are characters with absolutely no powers who beat him.

Pretty much every other villain is capable of escaping jail. He isn't. In The Rise of Miss Power and A World Without Wordgirl, he is seen stuck in jail while every other villain escapes or is out and about.

His only other ability other than his mediocre rope skills is his ability to imitate, but that doesn't really help him in a fighting setting.

29. Timmy Tim-Bo

Pretty much as pathetic as Amazing Rope Guy in a fighting setting. I was debating whether or not he should be above or below ARG, but for now i'm leaving him here.

I honestly don't have much to say about him. He most likely passes out mid battle. The only reason he's above ARG is because ARG is more likely to tie himself up in the rope.

28. Royal Dandy

While Royal Dandy is able to shoot paint from his hands and heal any injuries by just painting himself back up, his major disadvantage is that he's a Lady Redundant Woman clone.

Though he's clearly not the same as the other clones, he's still a clone. Lady Redundant Woman is completely capable of just zapping him out of existence.

On top of that, pretty sure he's canonically dead?-

27. Tobey

Some of you may be confused by this, but keep in mind, no gadgets are allowed in this fight. Only fists or any physical enhancements.

Without his 'row-bits,' Tobey is a literal child with zero athletic skills

26. The Coach

This dude is pathetic and sad and is the size of a child. His size may give him an advantage in dodging, but otherwise that's it.

25. Glen Furlblam

So Glen not only doesn't have any superpowers, but he's not very athletic or successful in general.

On top of that, he's a thin dude, so i doubt he'd have a chance at dog piling anyone.

24. Captain Tangent

That is a child with a hook hand he isn't allowed to use. His only advantage is his weight.

23. Victoria Best

Another literal child with zero super powers. (Ok, i get she has the laser eye.. telekinesis... thing, but that doesn't really do much damage)

The only reason she's above Tobey is because of her desire to be the best. If she's the 'best' at everything, that means her parents most likely signed her up for several martial arts, that she could be at least ok at.

22. Brent

Brent is in a similar situation as Tangent, with his only advantage being his weight. Since he is an adult, he has a greater advantage.

21. Mr Big

Mr Big also doesn't have any superpowers and is pretty much in the same boat as Brent. I'd say he's pretty equal to Brent really.

20. Reason

Reason doesn't have any superpowers, but he probably could create reasonable deductions on how to survive somewhat in a fight. Overall, he's just highly outclassed by everyone else.

19. Hal Hardbargain

This guy is really hard to place. I haven't watched a single episode he has a speaking role in, but based on what I have seen, despite the mechanical arm giving him a strength boost, his age and lack of any other powers probably leads to his ass getting kicked.

18. Invisi-Bill

First exception to the 'no powers' rule. The only reason he is exempt from the rule is because his power is a physical part of him.

Despite that, Invisi-Bill doesn't have much of an advantage. Sure he can stay out of harm's way for however long he's willing to stay invisible, but he is a thin guy with no other fighting ability and could easily be knocked out.

17. Big Left Hand Guy

Dude could murder with that hand.... if he knew how to fight. While he could smack someone with his hand, he doesn't have much fighting skill outside of it.

16. Chuck

Once again, no athletic strength. Just the weight advantage.

15. Dr Two Brains

Since there are no gadgets allowed, the doc is in a bit of trouble. However, he's seen to be incredibly quick, even avoiding Wordgirl in some scenes. I feel he can outrun many of the characters, but wouldn't really be able to throw a punch.

14. Ms Question

Kinda the same reasoning as Two Brains, but she could maybe throw a punch. I'm debating whether I should put her below him.

13. Kid Potato

He's an old guy who's not allowed to use his superpowers. Once again, his only advantage is weight.

12. The Butcher

All the same reasoning as his dad, except he's younger, so he's in slightly better shape.

11. Seymour

*deep inhale*

....Ok. Listen.

This mf INFURIATES me when it comes to this. For three reasons.

#1: The Rise of Miss Power

Assuming that every villain was locked away in the jail, that means every villain was able to escape (except for ARG). This includes Seymour which means Seymour either 1. Had someone else break him out or 2. Somehow broke out of the cell on his own.

#2:

Ok, this one may be a bit of a stretch, but it's been on my mind. In 'Tell Her What She's Won!,' Seymour locks Wordgirl and Huggy in a circular labyrinth room that he has control over via controls.

And in that room, Seymour causes the room to spin, flinging Wordgirl and Huggy into the walls.

I'm running off the assumption that in this scene, Wordgirl and Huggy hit the wall (including Huggy later bouncing off the wall in the cupcake game), and the wall doesn't break.

Later in the episode, not only does Seymour manage to stay standing while being tied up in metal bars, but he KICKS THE WALL DOWN???

How come he was able to break down the wall with his leg alone when two superpowered aliens weren't??

#3:

In "Who Wants to Get Rid of Wordgirl?" not only does he challenge Nocan the Contrarian to a duel, but he somehow holds his own in the fight

Admittedly, the fight doesn't last long, so maybe Nocan could've eventually bodied him, but that's still impressive considering Seymour's lack of muscle.

On top of that, he's fighting Nocan ONE HANDED, while Nocan is holding his own sword with two hands.

TL;DR: Seymour just may have the craziest sleeper build of the entire WG cast/hj

10. Lady Redundant Woman

This is another case of a character breaking the no superpowers rule. However, she can't be any higher than this. While she could dogpile people with her clones, she isn't very physically fit and wouldn't be able to do much damage. Plus, her clones aren't unlimited, and so once she runs out, she's in trouble. She's above Seymour because she actually has a superpower.

9. Granny May

Granny May without her super suit is actually pretty agile and quick and would most likely be able to do a good chunk of damage. However, I feel as though there is someone on this list who matches her talent, but has the advantage because of Granny May's age.

8. Leslie

Leslie is an incredibly intelligent karate master several extra skills. I'm kinda sad she can't be placed any higher, because her major disadvantage is that she has zero superpowers. That being said, she's no slouch, as she's been seen to overpower Wordgirl on several occasions.

7. Rhyme

I had to double check Rhyme's wiki because I was so close to placing her really low on the list for some reason. She's another character who breaks the no superpowers rule. Even without her ice-breath, she's got super speed and super strength, which I think just helps her defeat Leslie.

6. The Whammer

Even without his whams, Whammer is actually pretty fit, as he is scene pulling two cars using his waist alone (I forgot what episode, but it's the Coach's debut)

5. Nocan

Nocan and the Whammer are on pretty equal footing, but I think Nocan could be slightly stronger than the Whammer.

4. Eileen

This may seem like pretty high placing for a child, but keep in mind, Eileen is basically if Tobey was one of his robots (meaning she once again breaks the powers rule). She can do pretty intense damage, uprooting trees, severely damaging buildings, and much more.

3. Maria

Maria is a being made from pure electricity. How are you meant to punch her? She does have some weaknesses, which is why she isn't any higher.

2. Miss Power

Yeah this is a surprise to literally no one most likely. She's physically stronger than Wordgirl and all of the other villains, plus she also has super strength and super speed.

But who's above her?

The Learnerer

Ok. Listen. The implications of this guy's super suit makes him pretty insane. He's able to learn anything from seeing it once. It's no wonder why he only showed up in about 3 episodes, because he's way too overpowered. He'll be able to avoid anyone's attacks and fight back. Eventually, he'll learn all of Miss Power's tactics, and wipe the floor with her. This also makes him have the most unique exception to the no superpowers or gadgets rule.

TL;DR: The character voiced by Weird Al-Motherfucking-Yankovic is the strongest character in Wordgirl.

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[fucktheark]

(some) creepypasta/marble hornets music hcs :)

these are mostly from my own playlist they aren't accurate at all this is just 4 funsies lololol

also i highly doubt anyone will even see this post but if u do drop a song rec plz im struggling finding new music </3

tim (specifically him cs masky is too busy going apeshit 4 music)

old man music but like cool old man music (this is just what my father listens to LOL)

thinks he's got peak taste and snickers at everybody else's song choices

breathe - pink floyd

pet sematary - ramones

the chain - fleetwood mac

aerials - soad

lover, you should've come over - jeff buckley

hoodie

i pulled this out of my ass tbh but imagine 80s fan brian

kinda likes lil peep but would never tell a soul cs he thinks he's too old for it

doesn't rly share his music with anyone bcs he's afraid they're not gonna clown him for it

she's in parties - bauhaus

the brightside - lil peep

the ghost in you - psychedelic furs

messages - a flock of seagulls

hotel california - the eagles (cz y not)

jane

i never rly obsessed over her so this is js based on the vibes i get from the art i've seen of her (so pretty bruh)

echolalia - faetooth

nine while nine - sisters of mercy

closet - fleshwater

engine no. 9 - deftones

frigid and spellbound - spectral wound

nina

no way totally unexpected music

i think eventually she grew out of screamo and scene but never rly let emo go entirely

acid - ghost town

get away with murder - jeffree star (yikes)

what you need - bmth

freaxx - brokencyde (she's been in love with this album since it came out)

vampires will never hurt you - mcr

jeff

i like think that after what he did to his family he just kinda checked out from earth and stopped keeping up with most pop culture, so he's still listening to the same music he did back then.

peak edgy middle schooler vibes

never tires of his playlist

every now and again he comes across something new and gets obsessed with it immediately and probably forever

yen - slipknot

makedamnsure - taking back sunday

don't go - bmth

tourniquet - marilyn manson

crewcabanger - chelsea grin

toby

I-C-P FOREVER WITH THE JUGGALOSSSSSS

still enjoys twiztid even after the beef but secretly because it makes him feel like a poser

also likes jeff buckley but feels kinda cringe for it

the stalker - icp

house of mirrors - icp

my 1st time - dark lotus

2nd hand smoke - twiztid

grace - jeff buckley

liu

same reasoning as jane i know like nothing about this dude and even less about sully so i'm not even gonna attempt .

i fw his vibe tho

eye - smashing pumpkins

the man who sold the world - nirvana

heaven - talking heads

the sickness - imminence (he's gotta be a lil emo come on)

siamese twins - the cure

eyeless jack

this one is kinda hard tbh but considering his hypersensitivity to sound, i feel like he wouldn't enjoy anything too noisy

likes songs with a lot of bass because he can feel the bass reverberating through his body when he wears headphones

soft/airy vocals!!!! he hates screaming

doesn't rly stick with a specific genre just whatever makes his ears tingle lol

a forest - the cure

dark stone - holy fawn

hide and seek #1 - plastic tree

the thing - pixies

collabo - june freedom

BEN

bitch spends so much time on the internet he discovers new music every day

listens to everything but tries to flex the really obscure shit he finds in the depths of youtube (he wants to be cool but it's kind of pathetic.)

his playlist is MASSIVE and a mess, he usually has to skip through half of it before finding something he actually likes

i don't know why but he'd be into haunted mound

plays the majora's mask soundtrack when he can't think of anything to listen to

husqrider - turnabout

fentanylism - opiated devilsperm

starting over - lsd and the search for god

gou zin zan goku - deviloof

ugliest - $uicideboy$

laughing jack

he's old af and probably doesn't get modern music tbh

classical music it is

and opera

i'm not gonna make a whole playlist but he really loves erlkönig because of the story lol

#creepypasta #marble hornets #creepypasta headcanons #marble hornets headcanons #tim wright headcanons #eyeless jack headcanons #ticci toby headcanons #jeff the killer headcanons #nina the killer headcanons #jane the killer headcanons #ben drowned headcanons #laughing jack headcanons #hoodie headcanons #homicidal liu headcanons #i've fallen back into fandom activities oh no

[whysamwhy123]

✨Fic Writing Review 2023✨

Tagged by the wonderful dynamic duo that is @aerodaltonimperial and @perhapswhoknowsvamp and it's very fitting that those two lovely people tagged me because they're a big reason why I wrote much of anything this year! Took me a while to get this done because I wanted to get my last fic of the year out the door first. I'll put the rest below the cut, and fair warning - it's loooooong. This bitch doesn't shut up, so I rambled on. A lot.

Words and Fics

76, 222 words published on AO3 in 2023

15 fics published on AO3 (16 if you count that one kinkmeme prompt I filled and posted anonymously)

2 little tumblr ficlets

Top 3 by Kudos

Voice in the Dark - Hookhausen (not super surprising, considering it was a popular pairing at the time, and it was the fic I wrote for the anniversary event)

Kids These Days And Their Darn Phones - Hookhausen

Half Your Age Plus Seven - OrangeHook (I continue to be incredibly surprised how well this fic did, like...huh?!)

Top 3 by Hits

Voice in the Dark - Hookhausen

Voice in the Dark, Part Two - Hookhausen (how fitting, LOL)

Half Your Age Plus Seven - OrangeHook (Seriously, what was it about this fic that drew people in? More so than any of my other OrangeHook fics? Like, I'm grateful and all but also confused, like this fic is way too long?! And weird about the age difference?!)

Author's Favourite

As much as I'm loving writing OrangeHook now, I think Voice in the Dark, Part Two is probably the best thing I've written? Even though it's also overly long and gets weird at the end (very much did not expect it to go in that direction when I started writing it), I'm actually pretty proud of how that one turned out. I had a clear vision in my head for how each scene would play out and what I wanted to get across, and man, I remember how most of the Hook/Evilhausen dialogue popped into my brain late one night when I couldn't sleep, so I spat it out into a doc and then about a month later when I actually wrote the scene, I don't think I changed a single word? I just added everything else around it, all the not-dialogue parts. And it was just a lot of fun getting to carry on that story, especially as someone who hasn't managed to crank out a proper multi-chapter fic yet. Who knows, maybe I'll return to that world someday...

Fandom Events in 2023

Uh, well, I guess I did the whole Hookhausen Anniversary thing? And...that's about it. I'm pretty disconnected from the fandom at large, whoopsie daisy 😬

Upcoming Projects

Hoo boy.

I have over 5k words of a Ricky/Christian Sugar Baby AU thing written already. I haven't posted it because it kinda needs some smut and that's still not something I can really do. I might post it someday, if I can make something work, or alternatively do what I normally do and put an annoying fade to black in there. Or maybe I'll think better of it and never post it because it's very self-indulgent and I highly doubt anyone else would really be interested or want me to continue it or anything. But I have Ideas for it...so many ideas...

Also, in my ill-fated quest to try and make myself write smut, I kinda started a Ricky/Bill championship celebration fic. Maybe I'll revisit that? Try to get it done?

And then there's that one fic I really want to work on, but have barely started. I've vague-posted about it here before - it's an incredibly fucked-up Dead Dove fic about Daniel Garcia and a Very Bad, Not-Good thing that happens to him, and the subsequent complete mental breakdown that follows. I've had the idea rattling around in my brain for the better part of a year at this point, despite not making much actual progress on it. Every time I think about it though, I have new ideas for scenes or dialogue. I'd like to make it work, but I don't know if I have the writing chops to handle it, plus it would probably end up being super long and nobody would want to read it, so it'd feel like a huge waste of time on my part? And I've had the idea for so long, it's out-dated too. But still, the urge remains...

Oh, and I still have a ton of OrangeHook ideas I'd like to make happen. Some are, of course, about their age difference. Some would (ideally) involve smut. And others... *nervous laughter* Others would likely result in an ''Everyone disliked that'' situation...

Writing Reflection

I was thinking about making a sappy post about this and whoops, here's my excuse! I don't talk a lot on here about my tragic backstory because honestly, who cares? But I will say this - before January of this year, I hadn't written a word of anything in years. Fic or otherwise. I used to love writing, but Stuff Happened and it killed all enjoyment I got out of it, and I thought that's how it would be forever. Then, for reasons I can't even remember, I started reading fic again, specifically in this wild little fandom of ours, and y'all are just so talented that it made my untalented ass want to give it another shot. So...I did.

I remember when I posted my first fic in ages back in January, I thought ''Maybe about three people will read this and no one will leave a comment or anything, but whatever, I wrote a thing and that's something I haven't done in years so that's enough for me!'' And to be honest, I still think that whenever I post stuff now? It's crazy to me that anyone actually reads my stuff and gets some kind of kick out of it. But every kudos and comment floors me and brings me so much joy, I can't even express it properly. I have to say a huge thank you to anyone who's ever read one of my fics, left kudos or dropped a comment. Whoever and wherever you are, you made my day!

And look, I ain't delusional. I know that calling myself a small fish in the fandom would be too generous. But I'm fine with that - because I'm genuinely enjoying writing again and that's what matters most to me. Even though I've also rediscovered how stressful writing can be (🙂🙂🙂) when it comes down to it, there's joy and happiness in my life that wasn't there last year and that's all because I started writing again. And because some lovely folks here decided to let me know they liked what I was throwing out there. The years have not been kind to ol' Sammy Sam-Sam and this year was no exception, but getting to forget about all that shit and write my silly little wrestling fanfiction has been a great distraction and a comfort through this whole year.

So...yeah. Thanks to everyone who's ever commented on my writing, thanks to the folks who follow me on here (I don't know how you manage that though, I'm such an annoying bitch, aren't you sick of me yet?) and thanks to anyone who I've had the chance to chat with about writing and ships and whatever silly little ideas pop into my head (any of y'all feel free to message me at any time, I am always down to blab about whatever blorbos/ideas take your fancy). I'm hoping I can keep this train a-rollin' a little more next year. Still thinking back to when I started writing again, I made my new AO3 account expecting to write Dustjim only, but then I quickly decided I couldn't write those two well enough, and since then I've bounced around a bunch of different pairings, with a few rarepairs shoved in between for good measure. God only knows where my head will be at this time next year, LOL. I'd love to finally be able to attempt some of the bigger ideas I've been cooking up for a while now. Maybe I'll even write a proper multi-chapter fic? We'll see, but this bitch can dream, at least.

Rules:

Feel free to show whatever stats you have. Only want to show Ao3 stats? Rock on. Want to include some quantitative info instead of stats? Please do this. Want to change how yours is presented? Absolutely do that. Would rather eat glass than do this? Please do eat glass, I’ve heard it’s good for your gums.

I'm not going to tag anyone because I'm pretty sure everyone I know who writes has already been tagged? So if you're reading this and you haven't, go ahead and do it! By which I mean, eat glass. Eat all the glass that you want. Accidents happen in the dark.

#What is wrong with you Sam you should not be allowed to write #Also you really need to learn to shut up dude #This bitch went onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn and on #But it was kinda fun reflecting on The Year I Got Back Into Writing #It's been fun yo #Who knows what this next year will bring??

[my-strange-anime-ponderings]

Go Rush Episode 98 Preview Discussion ⚠️(TW: actually the most sad thing I've pondered about)⚠️

When I say that what I'm discussing is sad, I really mean it. The topic of su*cide comes up so I'm sorry in advance.

Episode Title Discussion

Extinction??? That's pretty horrifying. The implication is that Velgearians will go extinct. Does that mean that Zuwijo and Yudias are the only two left???

⚠️Probably the most triggering part of the post⚠️

What Zuwijo is doing here is basically suicide. He's duelling voluntarily, knowing that he will most likely die. No other way to put it. And dragging Yudias into it is pretty horrifying too since we know that Yudias is the most passionate about Rush Duels. When Yudias finds out that duelling speeds up the deaths of Velgearians, I can only imagine how horrified or hurt he would feel. Looking at the high possibility that Yudias survives (since killing off the MC is a risky move unless they plan to bring him, and by proxy, every other Velgearian) he would have basically assisted in Zuwijo's suicide. If Yudias does not survive? Um... definitely would be the most painful episode ever. Also it would be extremely selfish if Yudias doesn't know everything about what this duel could entail. (Yes I am talking about knowing that he could die beforehand. Because there is a chance that Zuwijo doesn't tell Yudias about the whole duelling kills Velgearians, though I highly doubt he would withhold such information but I had to mention it to prepare for such a possibility.)

The fact that Zuwijo seems so flippant about his oncoming death and even encourages it (most likely to feel like a 'real' living being, as this was a large part of his existential crisis in season 1) shows that he is not okay. Duelling on purpose shows intent to die. I don't think any of these guys were okay but enough about that.

⚠️The Poetic Part of the Situation (still triggering)⚠️

Now you're probably wondering: the poetic part??? Well, the fact that Zuwijo and Yudias' differences were solved through Rush Duels, the fact that they have been so close... that's the poetic part. To die with a loved one (can be romantic or platonic) is something. I don't know what that something is but it's a significant something. But what I do know is that it is poetic. And tragic.

But I don't think it's wrong to have a final request such as dying doing the thing you want. It's just that doing what you love is the thing that's killing Zuwijo here. After all, considering the fact that Velgearians are warriors, going out in a duel is the closest Zuwijo could get to dying in battle since that didn't work when he was actually supposed to die earlier. It would probably be seen as an honourable way to go. The fact that he chose Yudias shows how he feels about Yudias. I don't know how to explain it other than the 'I'd rather die to you than to anyone else' feeling.

Personal part (you can leave here I'm done talking about the show)

Regarding my personal feelings on the topic, it doesn't matter how the duel plays out or what is or isn't said. I will be sad. And I want to be sad. So I'm going to take a break from Tumblr until then because spoilers ruin the impact and this site is riddled with spoilers. Every time an emotional moment comes up I want to cry but I can't because I've already braced myself for the possibilities. Even with a situation as obvious as this, I have to escape the internet to feel the full impact of the episode as intended.

#go rush spoilers #yugioh go rush spoilers #discussion #TW #trigger warning #sorry in advance #this is pretty depressing #go rush preview discussion #maybe a vent

[notanotherzerofan]

A lot's been on my mind...

A lot of it either feel I can't really talk about or it's personal stuff that I prefer to keep private.

I will say this though: the rate AI is advancing if absolutely terrifying me.

Now, normally I prefer to keep posts as short as possible, so I because this is a rant and kind of spur of the moment (and also a long time coming), so I legit have no idea how long I'm going to run on this

Also want to point out before I get into all this, I don't hate AI, but the ways it's being used.

*TL;DR at the end.

Now, let me clarify, this is not just about the image generators, but everything involving itself in creative fields and possibly beyond. We're basically at the point where you can't tell what's real anymore. I say this as I just prior to me starting to write (March 27th) this I read an article regarding an AI generated pic of the pope that fooled a lot of people.

Then there's the issue that many artist were worried about in regards to losing work to AI. It's already happening, though currently in a different field: modeling. Basically, Levi's is going about testing AI generated models and claiming to do so in the name of 'diversity.'

And probably the biggest issue is people either remain ignorant to what's going on, don't care what's going on, or want AI to take control of everything.

I say of the former two (and basically everyone for that matter), you really should both learn and stay informed as best you can as this is an issue that has an effect on everyone. I also say this as someone who's looked a little further into how some of this tech (image generators specifically) work. Also be aware, just like anything on the internet, there'll be misinformation, so you probably shouldn't take one source as a definitive final answer (This includes myself as I'm just as prone to making mistakes and having bias as anyone else). On top on that, for the love of god, don't get your info from Twitter or Facebook.

Now, as for the latter, I highly doubt it's going to end up being a case of you being free to sit around and play video games all day. If you're hedging on the idea of UBI and live in the US or anyplace where government greed an lobbying is rampant, it's more likely you'll get barely enough to squeeze by, if anything at all.

Now, while none of these problems have easy solutions, there are those that are working for and in favor of people and human generated content. With lawsuits against image and text AI generators and with a group working on software that messes with image outputs I am somewhat hopeful that protections and more ways to fight back will come around.

In the mean time, I'm still going to work my craft, and you should too.

And by that I kind of also mean I'm gonna try to stop holding back on stuff just because I don't have a proper watermark yet. It's another thing that's going to take a while, especially since I'm going to be working with new software for this. In the mean time, I recommend if you do any sort of visual art you do the same thing too. Unfortunately for writers and coders, I don't have any suggestions as that's not my area of expertise (but don't take this as me saying, 'oh, ur on ur own, lol').

Now, admittedly, since I began writing this, some new info has come to light (*insert slowpoke meme here*). Apparently over 1,000 tech leaders, including Elon Musk (if even he is campaigning for this, then something is up), signed a letter on the topic of slowing down or even halting AI development. This is potentially good, but too be fair, it doesn't stop the damage that's already been done.

Like I said above, I'm hoping that protections for people from AI will become a thing.

Sorry if this seems like a downer ending, but I don't really know what else to say, and I'm not really a writer or journalist. This isn't the last I'll be talking about stuff like this though.

TL;DR:

AI is already affecting credibility and people's jobs.

Don't just take something on person of side says as truth; try to find a credible source (i.e., not Twitter or Facebook).

UBI is not an end all solution, especially if your government is known for it's greed.

There are people trying to curb some of ethical the issues from AI.

Keep creating, no matter what.

Tech leaders are campaigning for a slowdown/halting of AI development.

This won't be the last time I bring up stuff like this.

#rant #i'm not a journalist #not an 'april fools' joke #ai #ai art discourse #ai generation #deep fake #deepfake #ai text generation #ai voice generation #ai image generation #ai is becoming a problem #remain hopeful #people over ai

[n7punk]

a strange disease like me Cut Scene #2

Randomly found this in my fanfic Scrivener project the other day. It's part of the first scene of Chapter 1 of 'a strange disease like me' from the very first draft where Catra and Adora didn't actually know each other. I talk about that draft more in the fic notes, but I figured hey why not post this for fun, because I find the genesis of these things interesting. While this is the second cut scene I've posted, it is actually the very first chronologically.

Scene below the cut. The first few paragraphs in italics are pretty much the same as the final chapter, and in fact I had to edit that back in because the saved snippet started mid sentence from where I originally cut it to start over. I'm sure it was a little different in the very first version and of course I inserted references to Adora, but I tried to make it roughly the same and still flow.

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Catra stares at Melog. Or rather, she stares at the section of air in the produce section where she believes Melog is standing. Their general vibe is coming from that area, anyway. She narrows her eyes at the empty air and thinks stop it as loudly as she can. Melog is – sniffing, maybe? The psychic supernatural cat equivalent of sniffing anyway – some woman who is exceptionally picky about her apples, apparently. Catra will give her that all of them are bruised, but seriously, pick one.

Melog thinks she is nice. They haven’t even seen her face. From here, all Catra can make out is broad shoulders beneath her hooded track jacket, a blonde ponytail, and frankly criminal thighs. It should be illegal to have thighs like that and wear jogging shorts. She could cause a traffic accident. Not to mention how toned her ass is.

Okay, Melog has taste at least, but they also are not even supposed to be here. Catra glances around, finds no one paying attention to her, and gives a low hiss in Melog’s direction. She can feel Melog wilting, but her cloaked cat returns to her. Her cart rattles slightly as they cross back to the deli and hop inside the child seat. At least they shrunk down to normal cat size instead of the cougar they usually prowl around as. Light on their feet or not, Catra doubts they would have an easy time navigating the aisles of the grocery store like that. She has enough trouble with her shopping cart, and other people can see it.

Melog could always uncloak, but they tend to stay hidden when they follow Catra around in town, and she really is not sure if they are allowed in here. They certainly are not a pet, but if a manager stopped them, Catra couldn’t even give them an answer as to what Melog is, so she thinks they would get kicked out either way. “They just showed up at my backdoor one day” and “Google gives me nothing” probably is not going to result in peaceful acceptance.

Melog is highly satisfied with the annoyance they have caused her. Despite not being a pet, they are a cat. Determined to cause trouble, but fiercely protective when anyone else causes trouble for her. Catra would know – magicats are the same damn way. She still would appreciate if they would behave. Fucking subconscious reflection.

Fine, she is single, she has been for a while. So what. She would appreciate if her psychic bond wouldn’t go around trying to pick out partners for her. Yes, Catra noticed the girl’s everything even from behind and halfway across the store, but she should be able to quietly lust after jacked strangers without her cat outing her. She doesn’t need to go picking up some high-maintenance chick just because her cat thinks she is nice.

Catra glares down at the air they are currently occupying, ignoring the tut of someone is in a bad mood by a nearby lizardfolk who is so old she looks like she won’t make it through her next shed. Whatever. Catra has always been proud to be part of the anti-establishment youth, even if she is well into her twenties now. She certainly hasn’t figured out how to be an adult yet.

Melog has opinions about that, even if they keep them to themself. Melog thinks responsibility is overrated, but that is easy for them to say when they can just show up at someone’s doorstep and trick the home’s resident into forming an emotional bond that then somehow becomes a psychic bond that she couldn’t escape if she wanted to.

She doesn’t want to, yes, thank you, asshole. She glares at the space Melog is settled smugly in as she turns the corner and fucking rams her cart straight into another shopper. Catra’s fur stands on end as she stares in shock at the blonde who took a cart ramming into her with a mere stumble.

“I’m so sorry,” Catra manages, still staring at the blonde from earlier, who is turning to send her an offended look. Despite the look, she does not seem bothered. Then again, apparently she took the hit just fine. If Catra ran into that old lizardfolk it would have been curtains. Would she be charged with vehicular manslaughter? A shopping cart hardly seems like it counts.

The blonde pauses, glancing between her and the cart as if the action was the cart’s fault somehow. After a moment, she shrugs. “Blind corner, I get it. Just keep an eye out. A lot of old ladies shop here,” the blonde tells her, throwing her a cautious smile. Catra’s heart kind of does palpitations. The blonde’s eyes are blue, the kind of blue lame poets would write entire volumes about comparing them to crystal clear oceans and the shining midday sky.

Catra is Catra, though, not some poet, so she leaves it at pretty colour and decides she would like those eyes gazing up at her while she rails their owner through the mattress.

Melog tells her to keep her thoughts to herself. She tells them to fuck off.

“Yeah. Lost in thought,” she manages to get out, instead of something like how do you feel about bottoming. Okay, maybe Melog has a point about how long she has been single. The blonde sends her another sheepish smile, stammers out an awkward goodbye, and then continues on her way. When Catra finishes watching her retreating back and fabulous ass, she turns to glare down at the air Melog is curled in again.

“Asshole,” she hisses. Melog fucking purrs.

#ficmeta #fic cuts #strange disease

[constantvariations]

Rwby V9C2. This time i decided to put all my thoughts down as i watched the episode (i know most folks do this as a massive series of reblogs. No thanks lol)

You know its gonna be a gr8 episode when the very first line is a disingenuous trope aware quip. No wonder at the new world, no anxiety about how to get home. Nope! Just... bland disinterest. Did Joss Whedon join crwby?

I hate Little so goddamn much. Idk if yall read that one teaboot post where they talk about their hatred of Olaf from Frozen but I am reaching that level of irrational fury

As much as I like the uses of sweat drops and pop animation and frustration speech bubbles because they're delightful anime visual tropes... it's wayyy to late to be introducing those now. This would be like adding farting unicorns to The Walking Dead after half the cast was eaten. Again. Once more, I am asking what the fuck the tone is supposed to be here

Why is it called the Ever After? Wonderland rolls off the tongue way better and makes more sense for the name of a new world/dimension/whatever

So glad to be getting the exposition on the girl who fell through the world now instead of any organic weaving into dialogue prior. I love getting my information shoved down my throat all at once

I do actually like them discussing the tale. Different takeaways from the same story are always fun. Wish it could've lasted longer, I really want more conversations between these guys that aren't always directly about the plot

Okay, Weiss's doubts are good to hear. Sound like a lot of the stuff we've been saying, which may or may not be on purpose. Strange she doesn't mention her family at all, though, just the downfall of Atlas. Would've been really interesting to hear her thoughts on her parents and brother

Little needs to die. Now.

Weiss going back and forth between freaking out about the impracticality of their situation and taking charge when impracticality occurs is jarring. Maybe it's the smaller nonsense she can handle and not the big, abstract stuff? Guess we'll see

"I've always wanted to be long, but I'm still small." That's the funniest thing crwby has written in the last 5 seasons and it goes to the worst character. Typical rwby lol

Yang is absolutely intolerable in this auction bit. Knowing she's in a strange and illogical world, her first instinct is to be a cop? I've seen children act less petulant than her. Also, any item bought is probably more easily stolen from the buyer than the racoon, so why isn't that even on the table right now?

Did these idiot townsfolk really not know the gimmick? He's been at this long enough to be immortalized in a fairy tale, and I highly doubt there's enough space in Wonderland for him to never visit the same place twice. Unless everyone's memories get reset after a certain point, they should damn well know the coon is a con

Also that sword looks like it should be in Halo. Guess old habits die hard

Not this fucking Scooby Doo shit again. Can these characters stop interacting with the loop de loop sections before I throw my computer into the sun?

Wait that's Penny's sword? It's ugly as shit why you gotta do Penny dirty like that again

I find Ruby's expression of depression to be highly unbelievable. The excuse for so long has been that she's been hiding her emotions for the sake of everyone else, which is a fair enough point, but now there's not even a token effort. No obviously painful smiles, no jokes she breaks partway through, no overcompensating by hyping up too much. Ruby might as well be the goth girl at the top of the skyscraper from the All Star Superman comic for all the characteristically realistic depiction of depression she has

It worked well enough when she was alone and didn't have to fake for anyone - which is why everyone was so excited for Ruby to finally be free to break - but that was nipped right in the bud, and nothing has grown in its place. It's just... disappointing

#rwde #ngl the racoons outfit reminds me of scalan from critical role except way worse #the coon isnt even all that interesting either. i hate the name his methods are boring the things he wants are too abstract for me to care #conniving/trickster characters can be some of the most fun characters ever and this is how you do it? ugh #also that bumblebee 'moment' isnt in the main text bc i originally sneezed and missed it #which is so fucking funny and depressing on every level #hurrah they ALMOST held hands. something theyve already done several times. someone call the pride parade #this season is already a mess but at least it isn't actively pissing me off like the last season did w actually offensive choices #these are annoying or bad choices at most so far #cant wait for it to get worse lmaoooo

[misteria247]

Hey!! How you doing? I wanted to let you know that you're really amazing. I love you're blog. I discovered it some months ago and it has bring back my love for the turtles, specially Leo. The way you analyse his character and the others is just so cool and accurate, I love it! And it has encouraged me to start thinking about maybe opening my own blog. I have so many headcanons and ideas and fics I would love to share, the idea is so tempting! But there is this part of my brain that doubts if it would actually be a good idea. Any advice?

Hey! I'm doing good Anon and I hope that you're doing well!!! And omg bro.....I'm so honored that I reignited your interest in tmnt and that you enjoy my blog and posts and character analyses on the boys so much, especially Leo and I'm ecstatic that I'm able to get them accurately!! I'm also incredibly flattered that you think so highly of me, because if anyone is amazing it's you and everyone else Anon!! Like seriously you're amazing Anon and I'm honored and thrilled that you enjoy my insanity so much. And now to answer your question......

My best advice about making a possible Tumblr blog would be to do what you feel like is best for you! Tumblr can be a wild place and it's full of all sorts of insane things!! It's a fun place to vibe as well as an absolute dumpster fire lol. My best advice for you would be to just do what you feel is right!! And know that if you do make a blog and share your head canons, ideas and fics that I as well as so many others would love to see them and read them!!! Cuz we tmnt fans love and enjoy seeing new content shared by fellow tmnt fans and lovers!!! I hope that this advice was helpful Anon and I again I'm awed and pleased that you like my stuff!! Thank you so much for checking out my blog and posts and character analyses!!!

#oli talks #ooc #muns ramblings #mindless ramblings of a madman #not my gif #asks #anonymous asks #ask and you shall receive #teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #tmnt #rottmnt #brb crying cuz I wasn't expecting to get something as nice as this ask omg #I'm so happy that I was able to help get your interest back into the series it's so good!! #if you do join Tumblr let me know my friend!!! :D

[null-whump]

Whumptober Sneak Peek!

I've been planning this project for several months now, and I've been outlining a plot to go along with whumptober prompts since they were released. I'm so so excited to be writing in a completely different genre (sci-fi/cyberpunk) and even if I don't manage to post every day in October, I'm hopeful that I'll be able to get everything out there eventually! (fingers crossed). I've put a prologue/preview under the cut, and if you're interested in seeing more and want to be on a tag list when October comes around, just let me know! I can't wait! :)

No major warnings for this one.

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> Project Echolocation // Report #1

> Agent 2374 // status>unspecified // location>confidential

My first three days have been largely uneventful. My initial ‘induction’ consisted of various background checks and security screenings. I have been told that I will not be permitted to access any resources or information above public access until I pass each individual screening. They are consistently paranoid, if nothing else. I am confident they will not overturn anything of note; from what I have seen of their technology, they only have the capability to scratch the surface. Perhaps the screenings will become more extensive when I progress further into their ranks.

As of writing this report, the highest-ranking member of this organization that I have made contact with is a level-3 man known only as ‘Grim’. He seems to be nothing more than a lackey, one of the many level-3s in charge of keeping an eye on new recruits and showing them their place. He is followed around by another man, ‘Sol’, who I have yet to learn the rank of – likely another level-3. Sol seems even less a threat than Grim, as Sol is a mute who cannot speak to anyone not fluent in sign without Grim’s assistance. This is probably why the two are inseparable.

I have yet to be assigned a sector. Once I am, I hope to advance quickly to a level-2. I have glimpsed the ‘Leader’ once, and only briefly. My only information about any of the inner circle comes from chattering I hear among level-1s and 2s. It is largely inane gossip. Everything I hear about the Speaker is contradictory and unsubstantial. I can confirm our original suspicions that it will take a long time for me to complete our objective. Nevertheless, I am confident that we will reach the end goal in time.

<End Report>

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> New Recruit 5579 // Progress Report #1

> Grim (Sol assist)

The new recruit goes by ‘Cent’ – no last name provided. So far, he seems like a decent guy. Friendly enough, though a bit wary of everyone around him. I don’t like the way he was treating Sol - I don’t expect anyone reading this report to think I’m not overreacting, but I’ll say it anyway. He’s dismissive and rude and downright pretentious whenever he’s around Sol. Acts like Sol doesn’t even exist. But hey, maybe that’ll change. Don’t ever say I didn’t give anyone the benefit of the doubt. Cent does seem like a genuine person, so there’s that. He just has some issues to work through.

I’d recommend him for the tech sector; I saw how he acted during his screenings, and he seems highly experienced. Possibly a bit too experienced; I would advise high surveillance and additional screenings before moving him to a level-2. Don’t let him work tech alone.

<End Report>

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> New Recruit 5579 // Progress Report #1

> Sol (Grim assist)

The new recruit, ‘Cent’, is a self-absorbed prick who can’t be bothered to see past the end of his own nose. His name certainly fits him because he isn’t worth jack shit. I have some questions for whoever let him past the front gates, because they clearly weren’t paying attention. If it were up to me, I would lock him as a level-one at most, and that’s being generous. I don’t know if he’s an infiltrator of if he’s just fucking annoying but frankly, I don’t care. Don’t let him anywhere near the tech sector unless you want to get hacked or have your funds drained or be hit with a virus, or all of the above. He definitely knows his way around tech, and I do not mean that as a compliment.

Grim is reading this over my shoulder and says I’m being too harsh. Yes, Grim, I am aware that I’ve only spent three days around the man, and that was more than enough, thank you. If you insist on keeping Cent around, at the very least don’t let him past level-2. Just keep him away from me.

<End Report>

#my ocs: sol #my ocs: grim #my ocs: cent/dare #whump #:))) #i hope u guys like this bc i'm really enjoying writing it

[batmanrogues-scenarios]

Hello lovely!

I'm super excited to include you in my support rampage ❤

I've followed you for so long and now it's time for me to give back to you in the form of support. So grab some tissues just incase you get the feels and I hope this helps you out in some way ❤

It was either 2020 or 2021 I believe when I stumbled upon your tumblr and followed you. My internal calendar is all screwed up and so is my memory but I'm fairly certain I followed you before 2022... Infact maybe it was before 2020 but again I have no clue 😅

I'm always excited when you post a new fic and I've enjoyed watching you grow as a writer along the way through the years you've been doing fanfics.

I can't exactly remember if you've posted your own artwork before or if I'm thinking of somebody else (again I have a horrible memory 😅🥲) but if your banner is your artwork you're a really good artist too. Sure it isn't as "advanced" as some digital artists are these days but that doesn't effect the real quality of your artwork as they probably use different tools and programs to make theirs. Either way your artwork is unique to you and way better than what I can do with drawing people and even professional artists can always learn and grow more. And if anyone hates on your art I highly doubt they can do better than you as it's normally non-artists that hate on actual artists like you because they're jealous you can do better than them. Of course that doesn't mean people HAVE to like your art as everyone has different tastes but normally those people don't slam artists like haters do.

The same goes for your fics. Fic writers are usually supportive of eachother and usually little kids that have nothing better to do are the ones sending hate or it's just people who want to make people miserable.

So don't listen to the haters luv cause you're amazing as you are and even then everyone can learn and grow as both artists and writers.

Everyone can improve but that doesn't mean they aren't good at what they do. Never forget that.

It's been an honor watching you grow and gain a larger following, just remember to stay true to yourself, your morals, and your beliefs. Don't forget to take breaks when you don't feel very inspired and even if you feel inspired still take some breaks so you don't overwork yourself and burn out.

Here's to 2023 friend. And have a crown, you deserve it.

Thank you, you're very positive person and I can tell having you as a follower makes people happier.

I needed to hear that about my art, while thanks to the rest followers my confidence about it grew much more, I have a problem with art because I'm going to college with that and seeing other people's work can bring me down.

I will wear the crown with honor.

Although I'm interested where did you follow me because I created this blog in May 2022 so this part got me confused.

#anserw #stressyanddepressyfoodservice

[tachiisms]

Hold up, I'm only just now realizing this, Siri Tachi went undercover and did all that as a PADAWAN? I mean I guess she's from the pre-clone wars era where padawans could go still into their late twenties before Knighting but damn!

yes, so as far as we know, Siri went undercover while she was a Padawan. (she was 23* when she went undercover, so she was younger than Obi-Wan was in TPM when he's still a Padawan.)

I say 'as far as we know' because like I mentioned in the post that I'm assuming is what prompted this, the 'cover' that Siri would be able to fall back on if anyone ever found out her name, was that she left the Order as a Padawan. here's the passage from Path to Truth where Obi-Wan is narrating to the reader what happened when Siri left the Order two years prior to the events of this book:

"Her loyalty to Adi Gallia was unquestioned until they had fallen into a severe disagreement. Adi Gallia was known for her intuition, but not necessarily her warmth. She had taken the most severe path a Master could — she had cut loose her Padawan without recommending her for full Jedi status. Furious, Siri had left the Temple abruptly. Obi-Wan had tried to find her, but she had cut off any contact with the Temple. She had wandered the galaxy. Without her Jedi family, without any ties, she had fallen into bad company. And now she was using her skills to work with Krayn. It was an astonishing transformation, but Qui-Gon had taught Obi-Wan that he should not be surprised by the dark forces that battled within every being. Siri had battled her dark side and lost."

sooo yep! Padawan. (since as said in the previous post, I find it highly doubtful that there would have been any secret Knighting before she left, especially since she wouldn't have been able to secretly take the Trials before she left or anything.)

*I say 23 because that's what all the context clues point to except one, which personally I think is just a math error (which Jude and her editors have from time to time when listing specific numbers in time jumps lol). all context clues (except that one) point to Siri having left to go undercover right around the time of the Phantom Menace. the one that doesn't fit is that there's a prequel that says it takes place when Anakin is 7, and then a "six years later" time jump, which would mean that Anakin's 13, four years after The Phantom Menace, but that doesn't make sense with everything else we know, which is: -- Obi-Wan narrates that Anakin doesn't know that Zora used to be Siri and that Siri had been a friend of his, and everything we see of Anakin interacting with Siri/Zora is that he doesn't know who she is/has never met her -- Adi says that it's taken her two years to get to the level she's gotten to as Krayn's second in command, so if she's been undercover for two years, but there have been four years since TPM, it seems extremely implausible that Anakin wouldn't have met one of Obi-Wan's oldest friends (and at one point while Siri and Anakin are locked up together after he blows her cover he comments that he thought she hated Obi-Wan, based on the one interaction he'd seen, so he clearly has no idea that they'd been friends) --Siri takes Ferus Olin as her Padawan after returning from her undercover mission, and Ferus is a year/year-and-a-half-ish older than Anakin, and since canon at that time was that Initiates had to be chosen as a Padawan before age 13, if Anakin's 13 in Path to Truth, then Ferus would already have aged out or had a different Master and there's absolutely no indication of that anywhere in any of Jedi Quest or Last of the Jedi (whereas if Anakin is 11 in Path to Truth, then Ferus is 12, and Siri still has time to pick him when she gets back)

so it seems pretty clear that either the initial age of 7 should have been 5, or that the 6 years later should have been 4 years later, and that that was just a math error.

anyway that's probably way more than you were looking for here but this is what happens when you ask me questions! :)

#anonymous #I know right: /damn/ siri #(I love reminding people about how young she was at this time. and reminding myself.)

[roboromantic]

5 6 7 am thoughts

why do I keep seeing posts on this website insist that evangelicals try to convert prople just to have a larger "number of souls savef" count than others. like maybe that's a thing in some groups but like................I've never heard of any kind of reward for converting more people or anything.

also I gotta say it's a tad frustrating seeing people talk about how Mormonism is a cult and these kids are brainwashed into believing the world's against them etc. and being sympathetic and sharing resources on how to leave, but posts on evangelicals just paint them as cartoonishly evil. sometimes I'll see something that says it's a cult but there's never anything on how to leave (though admitedly it's gonna generally be less legally complicated than it is for mormons) or talk about how evangelicals are also made to believe that the world is against them or how evangelicals try to convert you because they truely believe it would save you from eternal torture.

like now that I'm out I see how infuriating it is to be proselytized to, but growing up in it? I was a super lonely kid who tried to make people more christian according to CoC values bc I was terrified of losing the few friends I had. also there was literal animal abuse involved where we were told we were bad people if we were more likely to rush to help the goldfish they fucking threw on the pavement than to try and save people from hell

like. when you're fundamentalist there's really no room to respect other people's beliefs, because respecting their beliefs (and boundaries) would mean condemning them to eternal torture

so again I get why people hate it and I definitely understand now how it's used to eradicate cultures etc. but I find it hard to hate the individual who from their perspective is just trying to help me

ironically though the insistence on isolating me and saying that anyone who isn't CoC was probably one of the biggest reasons I ended up leaving. how could heaven be this perfect place if my friends weren't there

there was this post in r/judaism linking to an article talking abt svara's upcoming teshuvot for lgbt halacha and it's something I've been keeping an eye on for a while for obvious reasons, but while I don't want to make any judgements until the whole thing is actually released, I will say from the phrasing in the article it sounds like they're approaching it from a different angle than I would. like it seems to be "how can I affirm my gender in a Jewish way" and while I can 100000% understand that, I'm more interested in "what are the issues that arise when someone is (in my case) halachically female but looks male and is it possible to resolve these issues in a way that's respectful to everyone and if so, how?"

like. there was another post by a trans man wanting to figure out how to respectfully interact w/Chabad and someone else (I think) brought up this same idea of one's halachic gender vs I think they called it sociological gender and it was kinda weird to me seeing so many people talk about how that's not a thing, can never be a thing, halachic gender is the only important factor, etc. bc like. I highly doubt anyone would say my halachic gender is all that matters if my bearded, flat-chested, (sorta) deep-voiced ass went to sit on the women's side of a mechitza. hell, I KNOW that'd cause a problem, I've seen it happen.

like personally I'd be fine with a trichitza, I ain't trying to sit with men (though again I can understand why being able to sit with one's gender can be affirming for binary cis people) and I don't particularly want to sit with women either even if marit ayin wasn't an issue.

where was i going with this. idk it's like 2 hours after i started writing this and im tired and still don't have adhd meds, this was never gonna be coherent im gonna try to go back to sleep

#religious stuff

[thoughtsfromtheether]

Depraved thoughts from a Depraved person

Lately I have found myself in a very weird position. I feel like I crave the physical touch from a man. I crave the lips of a woman.

Not too long ago I went to a "club" night where they played reggaeton all night, and in that time I felt the liveliness and sexual aura of everyone there. It was odd to experience as a woman. The smell of the sweat, and the grinding of bodies made me feel something. It made me think of the longing and the feeling of "want" that I crave from someone else. I try to move past it because, in truth, why do I crave objectification? I want to be looked at as hot and sexy. I want a stranger to tell me that they want me in a purely sexual way. I want the choice to tell them no and revel in the fact that I said no.

Sometimes I think about what my life would be like right now if I was a single woman. Not because I want that, because I REALLY DO NOT, but I am amused by the current state of dating. I think to myself... Would I be the woman that would kiss everyone I could at the club or would I be the person yearning for someone to love/care about me? Would I have the capability to fuck a random stranger? Would I be able to withstand a fling? Realistically, I highly doubt it, but I like to Imagine myself as this bad bitch who can take the soul of any man or woman. I think I have too many feelings. I feel and take infatuation too seriously for flings. If you tell me you care about me AND that I am pretty I feel that it's over for me. Still, I can't help but feel like I want to be objectified and be lusted after.

I once had a tinder experience where this piece of shit male told me that I was not hot. It was hilarious because I had the audacity to just ask this stupid moron stranger if I was cute or hot. The purpose was just to inflate my own fragile ego. I wanted to hear from a stranger "Yes, you are hot and I want to fuck you," but in its place I got "no, you're not hot but you are cute," and even though it wasn't entirely negative I just felt so irritated by it. I want to be an Alexa Demie, I want to be a Bella Hadid, and yet, I am just me. I am not hot apparently but as cute as a doll. I want to be sexy. I WANT to be hot. I want to be wanted by both genders and no I will not settle to be adored by just one gender. I wanna be the hottest bitch in the area.

In connection to everything I just feel like I wanna be someone people want. I want people to want to fuck me. I want men to worship the ground I walk on, and I want to kiss every woman in the world. I want to look a woman in the eyes and share a passionate kiss that makes it feel like we're trading pieces of each other's souls. I want men to see me and imagine what it's like to fuck me. Men need to imagine what it's like to fuck me because they never will. I want them to see me and know that I'm an amazing fuck. I want to feel like I am a luxury to have. I want to be someone's wet dream. I want to be thought of in the most disgusting way. I am just feeling so insanely depraved.

I feel like a slut. This post feels like the worst idea because it invites strangers to feel like they can just say foul things to me, but I need to get it out. I feel like I can't tell anyone. I feel like I am not hot and I need to be reassured that I am. I need to be told I am fuckable too. I need passion and lust. I need something crazy. I am feeling insatiable. I wanna feel like I'm not chained down while everyone pelts me with tomatoes. I wanna feel sexy. I might be out of my mind.

I hope y'all don't think ill of me for this but I just need to get this off my chest. I am normally not this gross and descriptive but I just don't know how else to describe what I feel I need in this moment. I'm sorry you took the time to read this smut, but I hope you enjoyed.

#journal #journalling #tldr #smut #longing #desire #passion