#AND IT’S HAPPENED BEFORE

[dreamertrilogys]

i need it to be next semester so bad because every day i spend the next 3 hours after english class recovering from the psychological damage i experienced (being flirted with & flirting BACK). except the thing is i actually have a class with her next semester too and not only that but my other friend who i’m in love with is also in that class. explodes & dies i suppose

#it’s genuinely so bad. i think i might #nvm i’m not typing that out. *** *** ****** * *********** ** ** ****** ** ********* ** *** *** **** #anyway #the worst part is it started as a JOKE because of the goddamn MEMOIR except when you jokingly flirt with someone for 2 months straight at #some point it becomes not a joke. and i think she might actually genuinely be into me which is INSANE (and like. as someone with severe #issues & problems disorder i would not make that claim lightly trust me) and like. idk what to do with it #.txt #fake ex gf #crushposting #<- the way these tags are about two different people. insane life i’m living rn #see at first it was like oh she’d date me just for fun which is fine bc i’d ALSO do that maybe yknow. but she might actually like me. and i #might possibly like HER. BUT LIKE. i really am truly in love with my other friend. like if he asked me out (which would not happen) i’d say #yes immediately. but if dani (fake ex gf/girl from english class) asked me out. WELL THAT’S HAPPENED BEFORE TECHNICALLY. well i’d uhhh. #flirt back and then we’d make plans to skip class to go out somewhere together next week while her leg was purposefully pressed against mine #ah fuck #BUT there’d be no clarity on whether it was a date or not. she’d just ask me to go somewhere in a really homoerotic way and i’d be like in #what way do you mean that and she’d be like oh? what way do you want want me to mean it and i’d shrug and we’d go on back and forth like #that for a bit without coming to a conclusion. and then we’d just go on with our lives and such #but like the thing is. if it came down to my friend/crush vs her. i’d choose my friend #AND IT’S HAPPENED BEFORE #like not directly but once i essentially had the choice of leaving school 5 mins early and walking home w/ her #OR leaving school 5 mins late and walking home with him. and i chose to walk home with him like it wasn’t even a contest #gf

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[randomfandomss]

#good omens #go s2 spoilers #good omens s2 #good omens season 2 #good omens memes #aziraphale #crowley #aziracrow #aziraphale x crowley #ineffable husbands #lmao ive seen a lot of these going around idk if this has been done yet anyway heres my take #it is literally the reverse that happened #i joked about it before the season released that what if after every crowley gies to super mega hell whatever 😭😭😭😭😭 #did not age well

[ninjasmudge]

thats a red flag narinder, get that crown back while you still can

+ top panel without text below the cut

#cult of the lamb #cotl #rspect my privacy at this time by not asking what came over me to make a fully colored comic #cotl narinder #cotl lamb #cotl aym #my art #actully im like really proud of this not sure why it happened but it did #anyway i have at least another 4 cotl jokes to get out right now #if you look real close you can see my hcs for lambs design before and after they got the red crown #and also i need everyone to notice aym and lambs eldrich shadow #and yes i know you can both name the cult anything AND you can have a cult in someones name with it being their cult but consider. funny #narinder

[ghosts-cyphera]

okay but !! jealous Ghost listening to the reader talk about their tinder date.

"Soap, he was fucking 6 feet tall, shoulde—"

"Taller than I am?"

From the deep rumble of Ghost’s voice, you raised a brow.

"No one’s fucking taller than you are, Ghost. Anyway," you turned back to grinning Soap, "he had shoulders for goddamn days, and his fucking hands—" You let out a deep breath, your voice touched with breathless amusement. "Soap, I swear when he touched me, I—"

The feeling of something reaching for your fingers cut your sentence short, and all it took was one glance down for your breathing to cling to your throat.

Resting against the palm of your hand were five fingers, covered by a skeleton glove. So much bigger than yours.

Longer, thicker.

Belonging to your fucking Lieutenant.

“Bigger than mine, yeah?”

You raised your sight to meet the gaze of Ghost, his head ever so slightly tilted, his eyes dark with amusement.

“No.” Your voice was slightly breathless as his fingers brushed against yours. “Not bigger than yours, sir.”

With a deep chuckle and his gaze not leaving yours, Ghost took a step back. “You’ll do well to remember that, darlin’.”

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#and soap and reader just look at each other like 'wait what the fuck just happened?' #before soap starts grinning and reader slides down on their seat fucking sweating and their heart racing #simon riley x reader #simon ghost riley x reader #ghost x reader

[fuckyeahchinesefashion]

#china #fun #video #he realises before i realise it #misellaneous #buhaoyisi = sorry; excuse me #sometimes accident happens

[baby-girl-aaron-dessner]

Palestinian poet, Mahmoud Darwish

#palestinian art #it’s so strange to continue life while a genocide is happening right before our eyes #free palestine #Mahmoud Darwish #palestinian genocide #think of others #free gaza #palestine #poetry #palestinian poetry #writers and poets #poem #poems #writing #prose

[odinsblog]

The crew of a massive container ship that crashed into the Francis Scott Key bridge in Baltimore early Tuesday warned of power issues before the collision, which caused the bridge to collapse into the frigid Patapsco River, officials said.

Maryland Gov. Wes Moore said the warning from the ship’s crew likely saved lives.

“We’re thankful that between the mayday and the collapse, that we had officials who were able to begin to stop the flow of traffic so more cars were not on the bridge,” Moore said. He called those officials heroes.

Moore noted that the bridge was up to code at the time of the collapse. He said the collapse was a “shocking and heartbreaking” event for the people of Maryland who have used the bridge for 47 years.

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#i was in dc this weekend for a funeral #we bounced over to baltimore to visit some family friends from childhood #i drove over that bridge twice!! #francis scott key bridge #baltimore #bridge collapse #baltimore bridge #glen burnie #i dont think it was an infrastructure problem #but if oversized cargo ships can gain that much momentum #then maybe they should be required to come to a complete stop #prior to going under a commuter bridge #that or maximum ship size requirements by bridge #or maybe use tugboats?? #it seems more like a regulation issue #and yes - even if it was an accident #someone still needs to be held accountable #or it may happen again #a very similar incident happened in my hometown #i think about 4 or 5yrs before i was born #sunshine skyway bridge

[marisatomay]

blah blah blah aging tumblr population etc etc if you are ever visiting a family that just had a baby, and you know that they have other small children, bring a little something for each of the other kids. it doesn’t have to be anything fancy but, even the most charitable, well-behaved child starts feeling left out and lonely after the nth visitor brings gifts and attention for their parents and new sibling and, either isn’t there for them at all or the only engage with them about their baby sibling, especially since their parents have probably been completely consumed with the new baby. make their day and they will remember that bit of kindness and attention from you forever.

#like i still remember when my brother was born my sister and i were bored shitless in the hospital and really lonely #because all of the attention was on our parents and nate #or if people did even say hi to us it was just to ask if we were excited about the baby #but when my aunt visited before even saying hi to my parents she came right up to emma and i and gave us each a beanie baby #she’s the eldest of four so like. she Understood. #and that meant so much to us skjfkdjdjkfdkdkdk #yes this happened in 2000 yes i still remember it what about it!!!!!!!

[locusfandomtime]

you know shit is getting real when a hermit is trying to solve a problem and it cuts to them in a call with cubfan and etho

#most recent example is hypno. but this has happened so many times. that was just the point i realised this was a pattern #locus fandom time #hermitcraft #hermitblr #ethoslab #cubfan135 #and the suggested solutions are always either tnt or oddly specific game mechanic you’ve never heard of before

[milfspiggy]

#polls #bullying #tumblr polls #poll #idk what the fuck to tags things as ever shrug #basically i was super super suspicious of anyone who ever asked me out by the time i got into high school #simply because it had happened so many times before #i just assumed no one would ever want to date me for real and that i was so comically disgusting that it was funny to pretend #anyways if this happened to you i'm sorry!! i hope things are better now

[dollya-robinprotector]

Luka - deciding on what to wear on round 7 to face Till

#I'll go to hell for this but hey let's not pretend this couldn't be one of the case I mean we're talking about LUKA #Also you know what #I bet Till would immediately tackle him to the floor and beat his soul outa his ass the moment he saw one of these happen #If Mizi can scrap Luka's ass then Till is more than capable of unalive this sick mf before taking a bullet #just saying hahaha... #alien stage #luka alien stage #luka alnst #dollya art

[chalice-light]

The difference between a strike and a boycott is the focus of what is being withheald

In a strike the supply is being withheald because the workers aren’t producing whatever it is.  It works by having the masses demand what the companies cannot produce and therefore, if the company wants to continue providing whatever it is in order to continue making money, they have to listen to worker demands

In a boycott the demand is being withheald because the masses aren’t buying or engaging with whatever it is.  It works because companies, obviously, need to actually sell things in order to function.  The point is to make the company change something about a product in order to appeal to the masses again

That’s why you shouldn’t boycott when a strike is on (unless the union says so) because it kind of cancels out the strike.  If there is no demand then witholding supply is meaningless - again, unless the union says so, since that means they factored it into their industrial action plan and believe it would be beneficial

I know people want to help but the reaction to call for a boycott whenever there’s a strike just kind of...... doesn’t

#kuro.txt #i know things to this effect have been said before but i needed to get this out lol #bc i feel like this happens every time theres a strike #wga strike #sag-aftra strike

[bluegiragi]

new moon (part 3)

early access + nsfw on patreon

#y'all mustve known this was gonna happen #also this was before i committed to changed my simon design and ooft OOFT #i am. putting my head in my hands #the art gets better than this i swear #cri #also this is all i can post or else tumblr will smite me #but know theres more to this comic #lmao #ghostsoap #monster141 au #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #captain john price #kyle gaz garrick #giragi art

[fearandhatred]

the genocide is fucking crazy bc at the end of the day it's so extremely xenophobic. like it is genuinely unthinkable for this to happen to a western or white-passing country. it would be shut down so quick

#fearandhatred #like do you think any government in the world would stand for people in america being constantly bombed and killed and starved #but because it's happening in some other area of the world that these people have never thought of or knew existed before in their lives #it's so alien to them that they're not even considered human beings anymore #like do y'all realise how fucked up that is #palestine #free palestine

[piratespencil]

This is so funny to me. Reducing them down to their simplest attributes. Turning them into symbols.

#this is some bouba kiki shit #also!! i said this in the tags of another post but i've finally gotten to the point in my op reread where i've hit the moment #when i stopped reading op back in like 2014 #that's almost ten years ago holy shit!!!! wild #i know a lot of what happens in later arcs bc i've been keeping up with the op fandom online #but it's weird to be reading chapters that i've never read before... new and fresh op content #(i stopped reading around chapter 750 btw) #(and this is from the sbs at the end of chapter 757) #one piece #zosan #kk talks about stuff #kk talks about op