#Also I can't sleep

[fennopunk]

After so long of not being able to use my fridge normally, because there was so much spoiled food I was afraid to touch, it feels weird and exciting to have a fridge that really has edible food inside.

Okay, the jar of pickles is slightly suspicious, but only slightly. And other than that, everything is good. No moldy food. Nothing's rotten. Nothing with concerningly high alcohol content.

Yes, the fridge still requires good cleaning, but I can now use it normally!

#diaryposting #also I can't sleep

[there-will-be-a-way]

Today I learned that one of the peeps at my ward is the weed dealer of two of my former roommates. The world is a small place lmao

#personal posts #tw drugs mention #psych ward blogging #Also I can't sleep #So I very quietly unloaded the dishwasher and made myself a instant soup and tea #been quietly switching between sitting in the group room and the smoker room #I smoked 40 cigarettes today #I'm Coping ™️ #life is a mess #but hey #I'm still here #and plans are being made to move back into assisted living #(also I already spent half of my money for this month and literally can't remember what on)

[altarwaiting]

apparently I can only get stuff done at 3 am...learning a lot

#personal #also i can't sleep

[silverior968]

I hate being sick even more now than I did before my brain surgery, because while I was at the hospital my nose was stuffy because of how high the AC was. So, now whenever I breathe in with my stuffy nose, for a second I feel like I'm back at the ward with a stitched up neck.

As a side effect I crave chocolate pudding because one of the employees in charge of feeding the patients, whenever she was making her evening rounds she'd be like "here's a treat for you" and give me chocolate pudding (actually 2 of them on the first day that I could eat). I would have gotten the pudding anyways, but her calling it a treat made it feel way better. I hope she's doing well.

Anyway yeah now that my nose is stuffy and I feel sick I wish I could have a chocolate pudding, but I don't have any, can't walk to the store and don't want to ask my parents to bring me some because I get the feeling that when they told me to call if I needed anything, they meant like cleaning or buying necessary stuff. I think I'll buy some when I get better, though

#not art #text post #Also I can't sleep #It's more annoying than anything else tbh #Like being sick in general #And pain too #If it's not debilitatingly severe I'm like “ugh can we get this over with?” #I don't think that's a good mindset to have about your body being in pain #But at the same time it was necessary for my survival to develop that mindset because of the chronic headaches #But now that those have mostly let up I'm just left with this weird toughguy mindset #Maybe I'll get better at seeing sickness and pain as temporary and rare states where you need to be kind to yourself with time #Anyways I'm gonna go make myself some porridge if I can finally get the Jam jar lid open

[ineed-to-sleep]

Collection of bg3 sketches I've been nibbling at over the month. teehee

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 fanart #astarion #karlach #shadowheart #gale dekarios #tav #orin the red #bg3 tav #oc.nawen #I'm soooo normal about these characters like so so normal not obsessed w them at all #still upset u can't sleep w orin tho #you can sleep w mizora but not w her??? I've never been so heartbroken #ALSO I've had to reject gale after astarion confesses his feelings and oh my god #he looked at me with the hugest roundest puppy dog eyes I've ever seen #I still feel bad abt it tbh #the image of him looking at me like that. burned into my mind #sleepyscribble

[tawaifeddiediaz]

you know what boils my blood.

over the last 2 weeks, i've seen countless patients walk into my urgent care center, symptomatic for so many things, refusing to get tested for covid and flu, citing that they don't want to knowingly bring it to their holiday tables. i had a patient tell me, verbatim, "i don't want to test for covid, because i don't want to be the asshole who brings it on a plane."

i understand that - i understand that holidays are times where people look forward to meeting loved ones that they might only see once a year, or where they get a break from the hectic back and forth of their lives.

but here's the thing - whether they get tested or not, they will bring whatever they have to their holiday tables. it's pure recklessness to know that you're sick, and walk into someone else's house spreading the disease.

today, january 2, i saw 91 patients, many of them who have tested positive for covid and flu. many of these patients are the same ones who didn't want testing 3 days ago, until their events were over, and now, they will have to reach out to everyone they know to let them know that they were positive because they were showing symptoms well before their event.

the next week or two? we're going to see many, many more, all people with symptoms that started around christmas. these are the only two viruses we test for rapidly in our office, but they are potent and can be fatal in many people.

so here's why i wrote this post, and maybe it's a little late, but - if you care about your loved ones, please get tested if you know you're sick. it doesn't have to be at a clinic if you don't want it to, because the over-the-counter tests work just fine too (if you test within 5-7 days of symptom onset). just...please don't try to run from the knowledge that you might have covid, because immunocompromised people, elderly people, people with co-morbidities like asthma, pregnancy, diabetes, etc...many of them may not recover. and they may not be sitting at your holiday table in the future because of it.

#zee rambles #this isn't to guilt trip anyone #but im so so tired of people coming in and just refusing testing because they want to see grandma or whatever #and on top of that people are avoiding vaccinations and all that too?? #we all lived through the pandemic - everyone saw how many people unfortunately passed away from it #now because of vaccinations and some amount of herd immunity we're finding milder cases in healthy people #but that doesn't mean its gone #that doesn't mean it doesn't have long-term repercussions even in healthy people and that doesn't mean people aren't still dying from it #honestly i just needed a lil rant #and if this helps at least one person??? im all for it #also i can't sleep so here we are spilling thoughts into the voidddd

[pseudophan]

anthony is dead: the funeral roast (paid content)

#daniel howell #amazingphil #dan and phil #phan #smosh #anthony padilla #mine #my content #hi sorry i can't get a hold of the person who shared this clip with me so i don't feel comfortable posting it in full #however i'm not a good enough person to Not Gif It #so here u go here's a bit of it in gif form lol #i'm going to sleep i'm sure by the time i wake up the full video will be up #oh also oh my god this clip gives me such super amazing project vibes i almost cried #ok. anyway. it's 8:20am. im drunk still. goodnight im finally going to bed x

[salamispots]

on to the next gift wip

#rug hooking #fabrication #wip #purely personals #don't mind the really warm lighting haha #had to undo most of the face/head the first time because something wasn't working out #as well as the paws but a lot happier with how it looks now #also discovered the delight of using extremely uneven chunky yarn #scrubs hands over yarn loops every time I trim off the extra yarn tails sticking out hahhkjfd #can't really go to sleep yet so have this wip

[rennenaway]

I mean

I'm not wrong?

#francis mosses #thats not my neighbor #tnmn #Kisses for all the artists who draw him as the pathetic middle aged guy he is #Mwah mwah #But like i see this so often #It's mainly the Doppelgänger fanarts who are like crazy yandere-fied #Which idm they're supposed to be that way i think #But like there's so much fanfic with this guy being the absolutes 'alpha male' ever #Which is so funny cause look at him #He just wants to sleep #Also can't believe that these shitposts do better than my actual art

[ruporas]

good mornings throughout the travel

[ID: Two comics of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. The second is underneath the read more.

The first is in four panels and follows Vash and Wolfwood through hotel rooms. First, Vash and Wolfwood exit adjacent rooms, and Wolfwood has sparkles floating around him as he exclaims, “Rise and shine! Ready to go?” Vash frowns, displeased, and says, Urk— Good morning to you too.”

Next, they’re in a room with two beds. Wolfwood is awake and fully dressed. He’s sitting on the bed and smoking, back turned away from the viewer and he says, “Wake up already, sleepyhead.” Vash sits up with his eyes still closed and yawns before saying good morning. After that, they’re sharing a bed, and Wolfwood gets up and says, “Morning, sunshine. Time to get up.” His body shadows Vash from the sunlight. Vash is still lying down with a blanket draped over him as he mumbles good morning.

Finally, they’re embracing in bed, both shirtless. Sunlight shines on them, but their contact allows their shadows to drape over their faces. Vash smiles, kisses the top of Wolfwood’s head, and says, “Good morning, Wolfwood.” Wolfwood sleepily says, “Mph, g’morning, needle-noggin’,” snuggling into on Vash’s shoulder. End ID] ID CREDIT

TRIMAX Vol. 10 Spoilers under read more // bonus comic

[ID: The bonus comic starts with Vash asleep in bed, fully clothed with his hair half-black. Someone says “Good morning,” and Vash says, “Morning, Wolf—w...” He trails off as Livio, holding a plate of food, stares with abject shock.

Livio says, “I’m sorry.” Vash, smiling but sweating, says, “No, it’s my bad...” Livio repeats, “I’m sorry.” Vash says, “Geez, stop apologizing,” and cuts off Livio’s “I—” with a “Good morning, Livio.” Livio quietly mumbles, “... Good morning...”

Vash sits up from the couch he was sleeping on and looks down, thinking, “... That’s right. I won’t wake up to you anymore... I have to get used to that...” End ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #i just think. when theyre traveling for a long time together #sleeping in the same inns sleeping in the same rooms potentially as they get closer #realizing they dont need to pay the fee for 2 bedrooms if theyre comfortable fighting back to back #realizing they dont need to pay the fee for 2 beds after one night of being forced to sleep in same one since all the 2 beds rooms ran out #and being comfortable with it - and then after their feelings are shared #realizing theyd rather sleep and rest peacefully next to one another #and wake up slowly and enjoy the mundane while they can #i drew ww waking up first bc i dont imagine he sleeps much tbh. i think vash is a light sleeper too and more often than not #and vash goes to bed just bc he knows if he tries to leave ww would follow him #i also think vash never had someone stand guard for him before even if that isnt what he wants out of ww to do. but knowing that ww is #there means that he can actually sleep peacefully without worry that someones going to drop on him immediately. i think he'd get used tothat #and ww -- as he opens his heart more to vash -- gets comfortable staying in bed a little longer #sleeps a little better -- especially when they start to share a bed bc there's a warmth there that he can't help but cave into #bc he hasn't had that in a long time. #ruporas art

[renecdote]

do you think Bruce ever lies awake at night thinking about all the things he has taught his kids and how it seemed like a good idea at the time but maybe some of those habits are actually more bad than good

#Dick Grayson #Bruce Wayne #Batman #DC #how many times has alfred told bruce to step back from a case? #to sleep? to eat? to take one moment away from an obsession so it doesn't drag him fully down? #and yeah the thing dick can't leave alone here is looking out for bruce #but it's also the case. the cape. the need to Fix things #dick is all but saying 'I love you' here #but I'm sure bruce is just hearing the echoes of his own obsession in the kids he raised into vigilantism #and I bet it haunts him that he has made them even a little bit like himself #having many feelings about them......

[callisteios]

i made a uquiz to figure out which greek god you share vibes with

#uquiz #quiz #classics #gods #greek gods #i made this on no sleep so im sorry if its a bit rude #tagamemnon #also no one told me these take effort to make #i mean not a huge amount #but still #herakles is a result but im 99% sure you can't get him #you're welcome :)

[petr1kov]

here's the scene i've mentioned before where nemesis and melinoë talk about hypnos, for those who wanted to see it!

#hades 2 #hades game #had to comb through my recording of my playthrough to get it. but it's worth it #there's another scene where nemesis says melinoë shouldn't talk to him because he's not listening #to which she replies that hypnos for sure must have been sensing her thoughts and emotions even in sleep #and nemesis is like oh yeah. getting a feel for other people's thoughts and emotions is sooo hypnos. lol. lmao even #i can't wait for the reveal i want to see how melinoë will react #i might make a compilation of hypnos related scenes for those of you who are also weirdly into the little guy like i am

[riverofrainbows]

My ribs are having problems in a new way

This is just annoying frankly

#it's two ribs further down from where my usual rib problems are #own post #disability #i think i know why they're acting up at least #also I can't sleep #not in the reads fanfiction until 4 am way until my eyes burn but in the tries laying down and my brain won't shut up way #ironically over the fanfiction I've been reading for the past handful of days

[doppel-dean-er]

headcanon (circa Scottish safe house) that whenever the archivist complained about being hungry, either for statements or just general Human Hunger, Martin gives him a little tidbit of his trauma like "does this help? am I helping??" and the answer is always no.

"Martin, that time you got locked in a closet for like an hour because the handle broke isn't connected to any of the fears"

"You weren't there"

#“I can see it exactly in my mind from an omniscient perspective. you were fine” #“BUT I WAS SCARED” #“YOU'RE ALWAYS SCARED. YOU CAN'T JUST TELL ME ABOUT A TIME WHEN YOU WERE SCARED THAT'S NOT HOW IT WORKS” #“UNGREATFUL ASS. IM SLEEPING ON THE COUCH” #also can't stop drawing jon in big flowy shirts. pirate man #the magnus archives #jonmartin #jmart #jarchivist #martin blackwood #doodle

[astrolavas]

my art style is too simple for this but just know that when i draw post-ttt hunter, in my mind he has central pink-brown heterochromia. like this, kinda:

#just..... so neat to me #i love the brown but sometimes i miss the pink + it being a visible grimwalker feature so THIS is how i cope #also To Me his eyes also absolutely reflect pink in the dark still #the owl house #hunter toh #toh hunter #my art #? #my sketches #my doodles #hunter #my toh talk #headcanon #nicole talks #there's also the quite popular complete heterochromia headcanons where his right eye is brown and left magenta #but i can't FULLY commit to those cuz ig the logistics of it depends on what fully happened and WHY hunter's eye color changed. magic-wise #and we don't knowwww! and i'm not sure what to go with and it's gonna bother me if my headcanon is not Air-Tight XNSKSJK #and even if it's “he gets flapjack's eyes thus only the right one” it also won't let me sleep at night cuz #there's the fact that we've SEEN flapjack's left eye open! which might've been an animation error but AUYGHGHHH..... #also . 2 different eye colors make color palettes harder LMAO i make them slightly different when i draw him with brown eyes vs pink. so! #but central heterochromia....... oh my mind is SET on this. like it's canon To Me