#Cant find the right words...

[scarycranegame]

thinking about. transfems. and trans girls. and how cool they are.. literally if you're a tgirl or girl-adjacent transgender person i want you to know that. you are so wonderful and beautiful and kind and talented.. we need you on this site now more than ever, and im so sorry about literally everything that's happened here. none of you deserve to be treated like this; you deserve so much better, and i'm sincerely hoping that other people (especially people with power to instate significant change that affects a lot of people) will understand this and work towards making this a safer platform for all of you. please don't let anything that's happening right now on this literal hellsite make you think that you're any less than amazing; i love all of you so so so much <333 please stay safe out there!!!

#not fandom #let's get serious #transgender #trans #trans positivity #trans rights are human rights #transfem #trans girl #trans women #trans pride #literally whenever i find something new that i love so so much and i look at who made it #its always a trans girl. always #how are you all so awesome at literally everything #also this includes nonbinary transfems!!! that should go without saying #everyone whos transgender and feminine in any way at all. i love you so so so much <333 forever and always #fuck photomatt this will always be the trans people website #on that note seeing so many people posting transition pics in light of this incident is. really inspiring to me #it gives me hope that someday i'll look the way i want to as well #just... i love trans girls. it cant be put into words how much hope you all give me just from existing and surviving #please keep doing it. please keep existing and surviving #its so so so important that you live #please remember that #sorry if this post is kind of incoherent my brain is. mush. because im thinking about how cool trans girls are #scary crane rambles

[arom-antix]

@fishshit I consider your post canon so I made it

Edit: I FOUND IT

Edit 2: Yakov trauma

Edit 3: I lied, here's the design rant

#i cant find the original post T_T #im going to search your entire blog if i have to #i will find it #anyway in the mean time heres something that started as a sketch and then went completely out of control and i am not sorry #i am beyond repentance you could say #it took me at least three tries to spell that word right on the illustration and english can go die #viktor deserves to be dramatic as fuck #yakovs aura was made of retirement papers when viktor showed him this #especially when viktor added that “oh by the way ill be wearing a big ass luxury designer fur coat” and then skated away #have fun deciphering the meaning behind all my design choices #for once i will not rant about them #ruins the fun #but if youre interested i do have a breakdown ready at your leasure #im sorry ive been listening to the song for hours now while drawing this and it just fits viktor so well i cannot #this is canon in my heart #arom antix art #arom antix #art #yuri on ice #yoi #yuri on ice fanart #yoi fanart #fanart #viktor nikiforov #also i am so sorry the mukbang comic is taking so long i swear i havent forgotten #some of it is done but its far from finished but itll happen #im going to finish it and you can quote me on that and come to my house and whack me with a newspaper until i do it if you want to #collab #religious imagery

[kylejsugarman]

jesse was a meth addict and a heroin addict (two extremely powerful appetite suppressants) and then enslaved and starved, so if he gets to alaska and wants to enjoy some nice warm hearty soup and fresh bread and something sweet too, thats Literally his god given right

#syd squeaks #do u. when u. when the. (starts short circuiting because I cant find the right words for what im trying to say) #food becoming something nice is just really warm #jesse pinkman

[sea-buns]

Forgive me if I'm a bit nervous about Gorgug this season. It's just that the last Zac Oyama pc was Colin Provolone, who was arguably one of his greatest D20 performances, if not the greatest.

Zac always does great with every pc he plays, but Colin was something else. He came out swinging with actions and words that were teeming with unspoken emotional baggage. The way Colin's presence affected the other pcs; there was this level of depth that I don't think I've seen in any of his other characters. It was understated and quiet in that signature "just a guy" way that he tends to be, while still captivating everyone instantly with just how raw it was.

Not to say we haven't seen emotional depth in Gorgug. It's just that, compared to the other Bad Kids, Gorgug's journey and progression as a character has been very... impersonal? Like, yes, he found his birth parents, and he found friends who appreciate him, and he faced his insecurities about his intelligence, and he navigated relationship troubles, and his trial through the claustrophobic bug-tunnels was a horrifically-uncanny parallel to how he's spent his entire life trying to make himself as small as possible.

But how much of that has actually changed him from the Gorgug we started with? I would agree that he's definitely happier with his life, given all the loving and supportive people that have been added to it when it used to be just him and his parents. And he's certainly grown into himself and become more self-assured in his abilities, even if he's still, and always will be, our anxious little guy. And there's nothing wrong with that. I've always liked how Gorgug was a representation of all the little things. The subtle acts and kindnesses that don't seem like much to most, but to some are everything.

We don't need another Bad Kid living in fear that their mouth could be shit-in at any moment. We've already got one-too-many.

All that being said, I just feel like Gorgug's personal story beats are much easier to sweep under the rug than everyone else's. He has the same soft and understated quality that Colin held, but they lack that extra oomph that pushed Colin over the edge from being just another guy in a series of dudes, to a character that the vast majority of us could not get out of our heads. He took someone who was anxious and softspoken, who ultimately never wanted to be violent— someone who is remarkably similar to Gorgug in many ways— and maintained that demeanor and core in Colin's character while still hitting us in the feels with character development at max velocity at every turn.

I think Zac gets better and better at this with every season that goes by. With each new character, there is always something that leaves me stunned in awe. And it's been, what, three? Four years since we last saw Gorgug?

I'm just,,, I'm cautiously optimistic but also going into a bit of a worry about what violence this man may inflict upon us

#i got SO carried away LMAO #i dont think ive ever written any posts about gorgug specifically #i made a lot about colin. and some about pib. and some more about zacs performances in general. #but never anything gorgug-focused. i just wasnt on tumblr at those other times that hed been on my mind like this #you can tell i still couldnt resist talking about colin lol #he was just so fucking good. a fantastic character all around. i cant imagine a better example to get my point across than him #when i do posts like this its all very much just me taking a vague idea and working with whatever comes out in the moment #so when i tell you i very much did not plan to get lost in the counterargument and had to stop for a second to remember what my point was #my point still stands but so does everything else #you dont realize it. how similar gorgug and colin really are. or how metaphorical the bug tunnel was. #or how gorgug IS the epitome of little details. small acts. quiet rights and wrongs. the faint causes and the even subtler effects. #u dont truly realize it until youre writing it yourself in a free flow fugue state and it all comes to a halt cuz youve blown your own mind #anyway i love gorgug and i love zac pcs and i hope this post makes sense cuz finding the right words was fucking hard hah #dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fantasy high sophomore year #fhsy #gorgug thistlespring #the ravening war #trw #colin provolone #zac oyama

[ganondoodle]

i kept trying to draw anything, literally anything but i feel like the little package of skill i have build myself just fell and scattered across the floor, anytime i try to grab ahold of a piece of it it slips through my fingers like wet soap

on days like these i wish i had been smart enough to be anything else but a mediocre artist, but im not, im not even smart enough to be decent at the only thing i call myself to be able to do, im never going to be able to draw like i want to and i struggle to make peace with it

#ganondoodles talks #i hate hate hate feeling like this #this ... utterly helpless worthlessness #the world is shit and turnign shittier by the second and i cant even find refuge in the one thing i can do #i know i know dont trust what you are feeling after 9 pm bla bla #i have had ups an downs but this far i havent fallen in a long time #i am nothing without art #and i cant even do that #however much it doesnt matter anyway #i feel like i am mentally starving #i know this feeling will pass #but i still feel it right now #i feel like im being ungrateful towards the many people that have answered my previous post too bc i couldnt even do a single silly little- #-thing #i cant even put into words what it feels like #overstimulated brain explode egotistical feeling of worthlessness in a world that doesnt care about human life or creativity #meaningless #im going to bed and will be embarrassed about this when i wake up #but it still feels so very real right now #wasting time and tears

[mimir97477906]

cw: transphobia, slurs

how interesting

#this post has 20k views. #i have so much to say yet i cant even #find the right words for it #i cant believe im seeing this months later

[cynicalstardustkingdom]

hot take but eddie giving steve a speech about how he should get nancy back and then will giving mike a speech about how el's always going to need him. i don't know where i was going with this i just wanted the gay people on my television screen to be happy. watching them force down their feelings so that they could help the boy they're in love with, see him happy and smiling because that's all that they want. even when it means sacrificing their own happiness. it's so personal and it hurts so badly.

#this doesn't make any sense im sorry #i cant find the right words #also yep imma keep talking about eddie being in love with steve as if its at all canon litetally just dni if that bothers you?? <3 #steddie #byler #eddie munson #will byers #steve harrington #mike wheeler #st spoilers #stranger things 4 #stranger things #romeo's ramblings

[skyburger]

whos your favorite of the crusaders from part 3... i think i love baofu the most tbh

#persona 2 #baofu #jjba #jotaro kujo #noriaki kakyoin #joseph joestar #muhammad avdol #jean pierre polnareff #persona 2 eternal punishment #kaoru saga #p2ep #p2 #this is making me laugh stupid hard ITS NOT EVEN A GOOD BIT. THIS IS A STUPID BIT. but its really funny to me right now #im too lazy to type out context for this just search like the words ''baofu'' and ''joestar'' and youll probably find it #i mean. if tumblr search decides to work. but thats not up to me #(all jokes aside if u like cant actually find it just send me an ask and ill find it for u) #...should i tag this. i might tag this. i think im gonna tag this i want to really confuse and/or annoy someone #maybe even both if im lucky #and in case you were wondering (which im sure you were not): #i did actually google heights for this and try to make it roughly accurate. like i put a stupid amount of effort into this #not that much. but like for what this is? wayyyy too much time went into it #its okay though i had fun. peace and love on planet earth #muffin mumbles #edit: just remembered i think tumblr only shows the first few of ur tags im going to move the character tags to the front #so if these tags seem like theyre in a weird order. Thats probs why

[whumpshaped]

whumptober 16 wont come together for me so im abt to scrap it. u guys r so creative. whats smth that comes to mind when u read the dialogue "don't go where i can't follow"?

#mine was gonna be abt a couple where one turned into a vampire #and begged for the human not to go in the sun :/ #but i cant find the right words #and october 16th is coming up.. #i need an idea i can Write #please help? #irlshaped

[wolfram-but-art]

Just recently saw your human Archimedes fellow and he’s such a goofy goober I love it. Do you think the mercs ever taught him any of the dance taunts / he picked up and mannerisms from the mercs?

Can’t be associated with the mercs if you can’t do the kazotsky kick.

rraahahhhH!!!!!! thank you!!! Archie is very much a goober fgysgfe and they most likely would!! at least it seems logical he's learn/see them at one point or another and he definetly picked up the merc's mannerisms (they're mostly verbal mannerisms, such as words in other languages/ sayings (Spy's French cursing, Dell's "darns!" and "dag nubbits!" and even Medic's nervous "aheh"s) he's deffinetly picked up some of Sniper's knife skills and accents from all around the base, seriously he can be talking and you would not be able to tell which accent is the primary one, each word is accented diffferently (Dialectologists hate him!!! see how!!!) he probably (once he's more grown up) also picks up a lot of self soothing behaviours on hs own like playing with his hair (slicking it back, twirling it ect.) or his fethers

anyways here are a few taunts that i liked (including the new Medic one (with his new cosmetic aswell)) no kazotsky kick tho, i found it's too hard for me to draw, sorry

#and yes i know spy's head is too small but i'm draing in whiteboard fox and i cant actually change the size to sorry #we'll just have to ignore it ig #also fun fact someone sent me a hate (anon(coward)) ask regarding the speeding meth ship today #at least i think it was #the ask said something along the lines of “they should be called speed because they're retarded” (their words) #and it was quite strange because i don't know what they meant by that but im assuming it was hatemail #like you know you can filter out the tag if you don't like it you know fysegfyse #i deleted the ask right after reading it but i find it quite funny now #anyways if you're that person reading this. send me another ask coward. #don't hide behind the safety of anonimity. hate me like a man. show your face #anyways #tf2 #tf2 fanart #wolfart asks #human!archimedes #tf2 oc #engineer tf2 #spy tf2 #medic tf2 #doodle dump #tf2 soldier #tf2 headcannons #also i know i souldn't entertain the haters but i think it's too funny to take it seriously #PLEASE send me hate mail. i *will* laugh at you /hj #also i tried diversifying his cloting a little bit and i think it turned out pretty okay #ALSO ALSO LOOK AT ENGIS LEGS OH MY GOD I FINALLY FIGURED OUT FOR TO DRAW SPREAD OUT LEGS HOLY GOD #i haven't drawn i a cuple days god it feels great to draw something again #also i really like Archie's shorts. they're cute :3 #sorry for long tags btw. i don't really do text posts

[grasslandgirl]

OHOHOHOOO ??!?!?!! THE DIFFERENT ALMOST REBELLION COLD WAR/WWII STYLE NPC ART FOR SYBIL???? LLOVOOVEEE

#I. CANT FIND EXACTLY THE RIGHT WORDS. BUT IM DIGGING IT #burrows end #d20 #d20 spoilers

[anervousmirrorball]

seeing taylor show affection publicly is .... something. im so filled with love for her. its just lovely

#arshia tell me you get what im feeling #because i cant find the right words to describe it

[shelbyxhughes]

# acting masterclass.

#acgas spoilers #acgas s3 spoilers #still cant find the right words to describe what she did in this episode #i am so proud of her #and the script was beautifully written #what an episode #acgas 2020 #all creatures great and small #anna madeley #audrey hall #all creatures great and small 2020 #acgas #edward hall #period drama #series 3

[localrobosexual]

i think i'm gonna try one of those weekly meal prep delivery services because genuinely at this point trying to plan meals every week and setting aside the time to grocery shop and prep and cook and all that shit is really getting to me and it's not lookin good here folks lol

#words of meg #i would have done this sooner honestly but there's like this. weird shame that kept making me not #because my entire family cooks and can cook well and likes to do it #and i've grown up with like. not cooking and meal prepping for yourself is lazy and bad #but i just really don't enjoy cooking at all #and i'm struggling to get proper good nutrition because i don't know what to make #and trying to find new things to cook is far too taxing and time consuming for me rn #and plus if i fuck up a recipe or i cant find the right ingredients or if i don't like it #then i don't have anything to eat that week #and i'd go hungry #i can't afford that shit the stakes are way too high lmfao #sighs #i'm still trying to work thru the weird shit my family left me with tbh #it's not weak or bad or lazy to need or want these things. life shouldnt be hard. accommodations are not the devil

[totentnz]

showerthought: it would have been kinda fun (and make sense) to have different voices for each lifepath (i dont mean different VA, just accents/dialects/way of talking etc)

#sammy says shit #for someone who considers themselves a writer i sure as shit cant find words #but yall get what i mean #find it kinda weird streetkid talks the same way as corpo #they do right? lmao i never played anything except fem streetkid #both my nomad and corpo attempt were masc v #and i didnt play them for longer than an jour #hour*

[flufflecat]

anyone else finding it really, really personally nauseating that the pjo show would remove gabes entire character and replace him with someone less abusive to make sally a Strong Female Character. like wow, im sure glad that youve proven that women who are abused are the REAL threat to feminism, and they should just try talking back more!! what a good message to send to abused kids. sorry, kid. i guess you just didnt argue hard enough and #Own your abuser into seeing how cool and strong you are. what do you mean that arguing with an abuser will only make them hurt you more? but look how snappy and cool and feminist sally is now!!! youre clearly just being abused wrong.

#pjo #gabe ugliano #any other kids who related to percy feeling a bit uhhhhhhhh like shit rn #saw a post saying how sally being 'less simpering and helpless' is a good thing #like fuck you. jesus fucking christ. #can you think about what youre saying for 2 fucking seconds. #lemme just go tell my mom that she needs to stand up for herself more brb #oh wait i tried that as a kid and guess what it got us. more abuse! #changing sallys story for the purpose of making her a 'stronger' character is disgusting in ways that i cant put into words #women dont have to be abused Well to be worthy of sympathy #and getting angry didnt fucking help me get out of being abused #this was the only story where my sister and i felt seen and were DEFINITELY not the only people who related to it #taking that away from kids who went through our situation is awful #and the fact that anyone would consider it necessary to... idk. fix how the book portrayed abuse? it hurts more than i thought it wo #fluffle talks #negative #personal #sorry im not tagging this post very well #i dont really have the energy to find the right tags rn