#HE DIDN'T EVEN APPEAR AGAIN

[ifoundyoufake]

#im so disappointed #HE DIDN'T EVEN APPEAR AGAIN #sonic the hedgehog #sonic fandom #sonic fanart #sonic #sonic art #sonic the hedgehog fanart #sonic prime #cyber sonic #sonic frontiers #dark sonic

[andy-clutterbuck]

5x07 | Crossed

#Rick Grimes #* #rg #S5 #are you even alive if feral wildman rick didn't speak to some nasty part of your brain #he is done™ #and im about to invest in those kneeling pads people who garden a lot use #more sweat and dirt than man #he could look at me like that once he's done with me #im not picky #A MAN™ #my inner primal cavewoman is trying to make an appearance again #she needs to go sit by the newly discovered fire and think about her actions #he needs a bath #i volunteer #excuse me but the nose™️

[nelkcats]

Son of Assassins

After an argument with the Fentons where they admitted they were not his birth parents, Danny fled town. He kept up his communication with Jazz, Sam and Tucker of course, but he didn't plan to return until he found out his true parentage.

Maybe they had the answer to why Dan had tried to destroy everything during his mourning, was it something genetic that could be activated? or was he imagining it?

His search leads him to Nanda Parbat, a place he has had flashes of memories that are honestly not very good but was necessary in his search for answers. There he meets his biological mother who is quite upset by his presence and hides him before the guards can notice. Danny doesn't get it but considering he invaded a ninja base he guesses she's justified.

Talia confesses that maybe leaving the clone in a small town in the middle of nowhere wasn't the best of ideas. But the boy was too good at training for his own good and if he continued down that path he would be discarded by Ra. And it's not like she could give him to Slade, considering that Slade didn't know of his existence.

Although looking at him closely it was likely that she could fool Bruce into thinking that he was another of his children. It seemed that Slade's serum hadn't activated yet, or his hair would be white and his eyes would be bright green.

Now, how do you explain to a teenager that he is actually a clone destined to be the guard of the future demon head and was saved by her selfish desire to want to give one of his children a childhood?

#dpxdc #Danny is a clone #Slade and Talias clone to be exact #Slade doesn't know about him #Only LoA knows about him #He was destined to protect Damian #Ra expected that the clone would activate Slade Serum #But he never did #so he planned on discarding him and try again with another #But Talia liked the clone #ironically he remembered her to Bruce #even if they didn't have any relation #she saved the child #and pretend that he died on a mission #When the Fentons found him Danny was really confused #Even if he is a clone the League didn't speed up his growth #So he forgot about everything while growing up #Phantom appearance is like that because of Slade #or the serum inside Slade blood that never activated in him before #of course Danny have the serum too #that also explains all Dan attitude #dp x dc #dc x dp #slade wilson #deathstroke #Danny is Damian half brother #technically #Danny was really good into training #but Ra wanted a Super Soldier not a genius #dp x dc prompt

[aetheternity]

"Venti stans are low key annoying complaining about Venti not being the main focus of the Windblume festival."

First off we do not care. Second off ok???? Literally every character stan complains about their fave not getting enough screen time hop off.

It isn't even about screen time for me. It's about the fact that Venti hasn't truly felt like Venti in several updates. The last time he truly felt like himself was during Weinlesefest but even then he still didn't feel like the Venti we met all the way back during the first archon quest. And I don't wanna hear "hE hAd cHaRaCtEr dEvLoPmEnT." Cause no that isn't what happened, he regressed as a character. He's becoming fanon Venti in game. He gets used for alcohol jokes and Paimon calls him lazy then he dips. 🙄

"He was just in the Lantern Rite.." Shut Up. Shut Up. Shut all the fucking way up! He was terrible in LR and honestly if you cut Venti out of LR you basically have the same event. He did literally nothing of substance and he shouldn't have been there at all.

The first Windblume festival centered around Venti and showed us more of Venti being Mondstadt's archon. The second Windblume festival has barely anything to do with him. Excuse us if we're fucking disappointed, we have every right to be. Like I said literally every character's stans complain about them not getting enough screen time. Yeah sure if every Mondstadt event centered Venti it'd get old but the biggest problem is they decided to center a MONDSTADT EVENT around fucking SUMERU CHARACTERS. Fucking Collei gets more screen time than any Mondstadt character. Which wouldn't be a problem but this is a main Mondstadt event. Even though Venti was in LR 3 he wasn't a main focus he was a background character to the rest of the cast. Which is what Collei should've been cut out Tighnari and Cyno.

Mondstadt has so many underutilized characters and their screen time got spliced for the Sumeru fuckers who already have too much screen time. The entire last five updates have had Cyno in almost everything and Tighnari as well and while Collei has less screen time than them she has yet to be under used. If this was about Collei meeting up with Amber again they could've had that in a different event. If this was about Collei facing her anxiety it could've happened in a different event. They should've just had Sucrose helping Mondstadters cause guess what? You think this is going to be the last time a nation's event gets characters bombarding in? Hell no Fontaine is coming soon we're one hundred percent going to get nation festivals with random characters that have nothing to do with anything probably until the end of the game.

We'll see how happy ya'll are when your fave gets less screen time for some randos that have nothing to do with the nation you care about.

#venti #windblume breath #windblume festival 3.5 #tw vent #idc if this sounds entitled #like what're you going to do about that #like we literally just got Mika introduced and he has less screen time than the sumeru cast so far #we have fucking Noelle and oh shocker I didn't see my baby Diona anywhere looks like they forgot about her again! #this is a main Mondstadt event you can't slap the title Windblume festival on it then have it mostly center randos from other nations #even if Venti wasn't the focus Collei should've had less screen time #She has plenty of time to get over her damn anxiety in another event this shouldn't have been so about her #genshin impact #come at me fuckers #i said what i said #i said what needed to be said #And I'm not taking it back #And yes I am saying all of this while having enjoyed Cyno's appearance but I am still disappointed and I have the right to that

[nasuverse-most-breedable-tourney]

Genuine question, why do people think Scathath is so good at sex? Like yes she's a hot anime woman but is there any part of her character that I've missed that indicate any interest in sex?

#like many of the celts in actual lore. They love to fuck. Like at every opportunity or minor inconvenience. Scathach is among those people #Scathach in canon fucks her warriors she finds worthy (she actually didn't fuck cu in the tain though she considered it) #in the Scathach pre-release story in fgo. She offers guda an exclusive pass into her bedchamber if they're curious. An insane offer honestl #she also gives Fergus a shot in the release but she has him do the normal route which is defeat her in battle which he knows is a deathwish #fergus even contemplates that competing against Scathach with the reward of getting to fuck maybe worth dying for #know that Scathach in fgo generally contradicts her true desires all the time as a mask to appear more professional and teacher-like #she doesn't actually want to die. she wants to know what it's like to live again. as a mortal. to yearn for life #early fgo she showed a lot of disinterest as protocol but in truth she's actually super down to fuck as much as the other celts. #summer shishou will say she has no more interest in love at her age but literally moments after she'll be like what if we fucked as a bit 👀 #nasuverse head game tourney #propaganda ask #ask

[michaeljoncarter]

sick of living like this. where the hell is simon baz

#pretty sure the last appearance he had was in dark crisis... for one panel... where he didn't even have a line #please..... im dying #free my man they've imprisoned him AGAIN #and it's metaphorical this time which is arguably even worse

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

wow, a lot of people are telling me to watch the 4.2 trailer. what's got them so excited? i mean it's just a normal version trailer- (spoilers below the cut)

OH MY GOODNESS

F F FOUL LEGACY COMEBACK?!?!?!?!?!?! FOR REAL??????? OH MY GOD BLESSED DAY BLESSED UPDATE THIS IS THE BEST TRAILER EVER

ahem ahem

Foul Legacy sweetie I've missed you greatly I'll be waiting to hug you (but knowing the storyline i probably won't get to ;-;;;;)

look at how pretty and cute he is aaaaaa i wanna kiss his cheeks so bad i've been moth deprived for a literal AGE

if hoyoverse replaced Foul Legacy with the leaked Abyss knight looking guy one will be so fucking mad.

(also forgive the awkward and blurry photo i genuinely couldn't snap a better one)

#hush n shush wifi #wifi plays genshin #genshin spoilers #kinda? i mean the trailer is out for all to see #i say this as someone who keeps up with leaks: i did not expect this but OH it is SO welcome #to be fair i usually refrain from story leaks because i want to go into it mostly blind #but i didn't see ANYTHING about Foul Legacy appearing ohhhhh my godddd #my moth deprived heart is healing. the world is in order again #unless they get rid of Foul Legacy. then the world is very much NOT in order again. #he gets a full cutscene....... i'm gonna be eating so well on tuesday #anyways haha how are you all i swear i'm normal again :) #good evening :)

[optiwashere]

That new Fallout TV show reminded me why I avoid a lot of video game fandoms lol.

Dick jokes in my Fallout? Please ignore the porn star quest line in FO2 or the variety of crude sex jokes in every single game.

Anti-war, anti-fascist, anti-nationalist, and anti-capitalist rhetoric? Well, there's surely no thinly veiled satire in the first... all of the games (other than 3, probably) that deals with the inherent absurdity of capitalism in the face of nuclear war, touching on such topics as genocide, human experimentation, isolationism, and tribalism.

#random fandom thoughts #(I won't even get into the absolutely vile racist shit I've seen) #I thought the show was mostly pretty OK! Way better than I expected #but I love Walton Goggins like I love breathing air #and I was staring completely disrespectfully at Sarita Choudhury every time she appeared #the cast is just generally really strong and I didn't feel like there was one weak link #I originally worried about Ella Purnell's character but then I realized that she was the “pure paragon/good” role after ep1 and yeah #she plays that role exceptionally well #though writing-wise there's a couple moments that felt like her character was ping ponging a bit (a certain head and then jerky) #but like... super minor things that were again more of a writing issue than her acting #I'm most looking forward to seeing what they do with Aaron Moten's character tbh -- he played Maximus perfectly

[thenwethrowitonthefire]

Shout-out to everyone who survived a "fun" easter with the family

#fucking hell #it started with finding out my dad smoked in my car when I picked up my sister #who was equally dreading the day #my mum turns into the world's tensest and judgemental presence. worsened by my aunt #then hell for autistic people (of which there are multiple present) #multiple deaf people means one uninspired conversation that isn't interesting in any way. #combinations of passive aggressiveness and people not saying a thing because they can't participate. voice volumes too damn high #weirdass food situations. Very full table. so many smells. #this goes on for over an hour. wishing for literally anything but being there. soul crushing. #then you still have to sit in that room for 2.5 hours. it just goes on and on. #my autistic deaf dad physically looks like how I feel. my mum and aunt keep piling on top of him to demand his mental presence #i leave the room once (to get my phone to show pictures to my uncle) and am immediately followed upstairs by my mum #who demands I don't leave the room (What's next. following me when I need the toilet?) #me and my sister are so bored we start throwing paper planes and fake fighting. #Which amuses the bored and the deaf #but of course my mum and aunt have opinions and this is not allowed. only soul crushing boredom allowed #they complain to each other over it while aggressively doing dishes #finally it ends because my mum and aunt start insisting my dad should go to bed if he's 'that tired'. *sprinkle on some additional ableism* #still sitting through a conversation about allergies one of my sister's friends has. my mum preaching that people should take that seriously #(meanwhile i had to cook for myself for 9 years because when my allergies were really bad no one bothered to check if i could eat something) #me and my sister go sit upstairs to discover our mum has made things we care about vanish in her room #and made things appear that should not be there #I've washed the interior of my car and hope the smell will go #you think it's over after that. but woke up with the realisation that even more things have disappeared from my sister's room. #i can't remember a time when things left outside of my room didn't disappear #I don't know why we do these family gatherings at all. no one has fun on days like that. #the housing crisis isn't making these things easy. my sister is losing her place to live again as well #she'll go hiking for a month and then work on a campsite over the summer #maybe I'll go house sitting again. idk. #can't make commitments a few months in advance like that because I'll cancel everything the second Sparks announces anything important

[thefaeriefeatherdark]

I do think the wildest part of the Skyrocket/Connie concept is that Visaggio seemed to legitimately believe that Kon-El is like... a D-List superhero. Which is just like, a wild thing to believe considering the Comic Kon won in a fan poll hadn't even finished coming out at the time she pitched her idea.

#dc comics #dccomics #superboy #kon el #Like if she was maybe 15 years younger I'd get it? Because that'd be growing up on 2010s comics where Kon didn't have a book for most of it #But like Kon was in books during the 90s. He was in books during the 2000s. He was in books until like 2014? #And then he came back in 2019 and got a book again. #Kon's at worst a lower c-tier character but probably more like upper C-tier? #Constantly in adaptations pretty consistently in or has a comic. #The big periods where Kon hasn't been in comics is like 'Kon was killed because of stuff happening in editorial or on a corporate level' #Like it's from 2006 to 2009 (dead) and then 2014-2019 (Dead + weird N52 stuff). #Arguably Kon was sort of not in comics between the end of Bendis YJ and then YJDC... But he did have appearances. #Also there were like 8 events during that time and frankly Suicide Squad was using Match which I'll count. #Kon doesn't always have a solo book but he tends to have one more often than lots of other characters. #Even when not in a solo he still tends to be in team or Superman books. #Will add that I don't oppose Kon being trans conceptually and I've given my thoughts on that specific outline for a story before. #I just think in future check that a character is a D-list character before deciding to do a massive reinvention

[victorluvsalice]

Valicer OT3 Week, Day Three: Childhood Friends

Day Three of @ot3-week's OT3 Week, and we're up to a cute prompt -- "Childhood friends!" So naturally I couldn't resist writing the trio hanging out together as kids. :) This is supposed to be a Victorian!AU, though I suspect it might feel a little bit more modern than that...the important thing is, there's a grand old party happening in the halls of Christchurch at Oxford, and Smiler and Alice have already found each other and decided to sequester themselves away from all these boring adults in their own private table fort. But tummies have started growling, and so Smiler is venturing out to get snacks...

--

“I’m gonna get more snacks!”

“All right – make sure to grab some of Mama’s Welsh rarebit!” Alice said, arranging the cards into neat piles. “Then when you come back we can start building our castle.”

“Definitely,” Smiler said, shooting her a grin. They grabbed the edge of the tablecloth and lifted it – then, seeing no adults had eyes on them, scrambled out from under the banquet table that they and Alice had claimed as their personal hidey-hole. And I thought this party was going to be boring, they thought, scurrying toward the table where the Welsh rarebit sat, along with a few other cheese-based dishes the various attendees were nibbling on. Adults never want to have any fun when they get together – it’s just talk talk talk about boring stuff. Especially Father, going on about “social compliance” and all that...it’s a good thing that Alice is here! I can’t wait to hear another story about Wonderland – it sounds amazing! And I bet that, without the adults interrupting us, we can build a castle using all of the –

“Now, I don’t want you embarrassing me at this party, Victor, do you understand?”

Smiler stopped, turning toward the entrance. Standing there, having their coats taken by the coat-taking-man, was a hunched-over skinny man with a large mustache, leaning on a cane; a very plump woman in the fanciest dress Smiler had ever seen, fanning herself like it was the middle of summer; and a little boy, about Smiler’s age, wearing a suit with shorts and staring at his feet while the woman – presumably his mother – went on and on about how the Liddells were Very Important People and how they had to make a Good First Impression and how Victor was to Stay Quiet and Look Respectable, like the boys in magazines. The boy – Victor – was nodding along to his mother’s litany, trying to stand up straight and do as asked, but the look on his face...

“Now, Marmaduke, I understand that you’re a little – confused, at this age. But the simple fact of the matter is that you can’t just decide that you’re not a boy. It’s simply not done. Where would society be if people just started declaring themselves not one thing or the other? You have to learn how to be socially compliant. True happiness comes from obeying your elders – and you want to be happy, don’t you?”

Smiler frowned as the woman turned away from Victor, leaving him to tug at his tie as she swanned off to chat about boring things with the other adults. It seemed like, with a mother like that, Victor was about to have about as bad a time at this party as they’d feared they would have. And that was a really bad time indeed.

Well, good thing I’m here, then, Smiler thought to themselves, then marched up to Victor, putting on their best smile and sticking out their hand. “Hullo! I’m Smiler!”

Victor nearly started right out of his skin – maybe they should have been a little bit quieter. He stared at them a moment, glancing from their face to their hand and back, then hesitantly took it. “Uh – I’m – I’m – V-Victor,” he stammered, clearly out of his depth. Maybe people didn’t talk to him much? That would be sad if so. “Your name is – Smiler?”

“Well, it’s what I call myself,” Smiler told him, pumping his arm. “My real name’s awful. But Victor’s a nice name! Do you want to play with us?”

“Us?” Victor repeated, blinking.

“Me and Alice!” Smiler pointed at their table, where Alice was peeping out, clearly wondering why snacks were taking so long. They waved to her and pointed to Victor – she glanced over, then nodded and waved back. “She’s really nice, and she tells great stories,” Smiler informed Victor, grinning. “And she’s got cards – we’re gonna try and build a castle! Do you like castles?”

“Uh – yes?” Victor said, as if he wasn’t sure of his own opinions. “I’ve n-never made a card one b-before, though.” He dropped his gaze, playing with his tie again. “I’m k-kind of clumsy.”

“That’s all right – we can show you how to do it!” Smiler promised, taking his hand so he didn’t accidentally strangle himself. “Come on – we’ll get snacks, then we can go and play!”

“I – um...” Victor’s gaze went to his mother, chatting with some other adult Smiler didn’t know and didn’t care about. “I dunno...”

“Aw, come on,” Smiler wheedled, tugging his arm. “It’ll be fun! Don’t you wanna have fun? Be happy? Like, real happy, not grown-up happy?”

“Happy...” Victor looked at his mother a moment more, then over at Alice, patiently waiting for them to decide what they were doing. Then his mouth formed a determined line, and he nodded at Smiler. “Yes. Let’s go make castles.”

Smiler beamed. One happiness problem – solved! Take that, Father. “Great! But, first, we gotta get some of that rarebit – and I think there’s some cake too...”

#ot3week #valicer #prompt #fanfic #victorian AU #kidfic #victor van dort #alice liddell #smiler alton #okay I had a lot of fun writing this one #the trio as kids are so cute :) #though again I actually wrote this from Victor's POV to start #with him wondering why he was even at this party #and then getting startled by Smiler when they kind of just appeared beside him #but that ended up not working the way I wanted it to #and I didn't like that (since Victor didn't know any better) I had to refer to Smiler by the wrong pronouns #so I swapped to little Smiler on a rewrite and suddenly everything clicked :) #part of me thinks this could be the opening to a Valicer take on the 'Somebody I Used To Know' idea #where Victor got yanked into the events of AMA #would encourage me to finish up those posts I have on Smiler's Otherland already! #oh and Smiler and Alice hanging out under one of the tables is inspired by something I used to do as a kid #my parents sold books at bookshows and I'd amuse myself with books and such under one of the selling tables #felt like something Alice and Smiler might do! #queued

[losttranslator]

like most Christian movies risen is cheesy and biblically dubious at times and gets loads of cultural stuff wrong for the sake of being recognizable to a primarily American audience but I'll readily admit the poor roman tribune's absolute bafflement at these religious weirdos who keep talking about love and stuff has me cackling unhingedly

Like, is it sound biblical doctrine and is it historical believable? No? Is it hilarious and do I enjoy seeing this random shmuck lose his mind going through what's essentially a very disturbing psychological thriller from his pov while the disciples are overflowing with joy? You bet??

The guy is dealing with horrifyingly decomposed dead bodies trying to find the right cadaver and previously sane soldiers going crazy and dead men being spotted alive and strange supernatural phenomena and angry gods and unexplained madness and religious fanatism spreading like a contagion, and meanwhile the disciples (and Jesus) are all like HELLO BROTHER WOULD YOU LIKE TO HEAR ABOUT THE BEST NEWS EVER :D :D :D

#Help my man Clavius he didn't ask for none of this #I gotta admit this is the first time in a while I've enjoyed any part of a Christian movie #even if most of it has me rolling my eyes and going “THAT'S not how it happened” #THE DISCIPLES WOULDN'T PRONOUNCE THE NAME OF GOD AND THE HOLY SHROUD IS BOGUS (for starters) #And there was no stranger - much less a roman - when Jesus appeared to the apostles #But I AM having fun with the tonal dissonance #Poor clavius is dreaming of blood and storms and his sanity is crumbling to dust and it feels like the end of the world #while to everyone who knows what's going on it's the single greatest thing that has ever happened and ever will #Risen 2016 #Resurrection #Bible movies #(Also in the list of things that get on my nerves no the spreading of the Gospel didn't hinge on one roman protecting the apostles) #(I hope they psychologically disturb that man some more he doesn't get to think he's that important) #(Centering a roman while getting some pretty basic stuff about Jewish culture wrong is also annoying) #(The beginning of the church are entirely and unambiguously JEWISH.) #(This character is like. 10 chapters too early.) #(Peter doesn't announce the Gospel to a roman until WELL after Jesus has ascended to heaven and even then it takes a direct order from God) #(And cornelius was already a follower of God and not pagan.) #(So Clavius just doesn't fit. And inserting a pagan guy as a witness to Jesus' most intimate moments with his disciples feels off) #The Gospel doesn't spill to the nations until God decrees it's time for it to happen. I don't like this romanisation #But again the first half of the movie had me laughing even though I could rant about its flaws for two hours

[prettyboykatsuki]

fang i couldn't find ur meta blog but i wanted to ask ur opinion/analysis of bakugou's "what part of her was frail" from season one against ochako if u have any <3

@fangs-animereview thought i havent posted anything on it in ages.. rip all my half-baked hxh meta posts about shounen trope subversions

i dont know if i have any particular analysis of that but i do think that scene highlights an interesting element of bkgs character which is that he is decidedly not very shallow

i think often his arrogance or projected arrogance makes his fandom image a guy who is shallowly obsessed with appearances. but i think for him to say what part of her was frail kind of speaks to the fact that the opposite is true. that bkg doesn't see people as their appearance but measures them by what they're capable of

#return to sender #people always write bakugou to be this arrogant and shallow wad which is such an interesting projection of his character #because even at the worst of his arc at the beginning #his obsession with deku didn't have as much to do with deku being quirkless as it did with deku himself #bakugou used dekus quirklessness against him but i dont believe that it was really bc of that #he just. was deeply intimidated by dekus character and pointed out his weakness #but that speaks to the fact that bakugou is an immensely good judge of character #he sees people specifically for their quality and capabilities #and ochako isnt the first or last example of this #he does this with shindo yo and accurately assessing him as a fake and shallow snake. and again #when he's talking to kirishima pointing out how his greatest strength is being a wall and encouraging him #and again in season five where he utilizes the individual talents of his team to win the training match #bkg sees people as their qualities before he sees their appearances #so this projected idea that he would care about appearances is truly very bonkers to me lol #katsuki <3 #its one of those things about bkg i love very much tbh

[ngmn2002]

Hmm.... ~

46 chapters before...

If that happened, then we shouldn't have waited for 80 chapter to get a confirmation about what Tsukasa is in ch 95.

#we could have simply known about this fact in ch 21.too early on.about 6 chapters after the chapter Tsukasa appeared in for the first time #if that happned it wouldn't have taken about 6 years and a half. instead it would be half the year only. #why didn't you think about this with Tsukasa before? he came into the story a long time before Sumire.right.Nene? #................. #thinking about it... it's way too early for us to find out so.... #i think that's why you didn't notice a thing... #even though the discovery in ch 95 didn't really make such a difference...since i guess all the fandom knew about it? #since long ago? #and... even after nene knew in ch 95. it wasn't brought up again... nothing was said to Hanako... so..? #maybe we will get back to this fact again when it's finally No.7's time to rise and shine. #after we're done with No.1 and No.3 and maybe some characters backstories #in ch 200 or something... #such a long time... #jibaku shounen hanako kun #jibaku shonen hanako kun #toilet bound hanako kun #hanako kun #jshk #tbhk #yashiro nene #yugi tsuaksa #akane sumire

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

Thinking again about the line "I am what you made me" and how it's an example of really thoughtful and quality writing despite what angry fanboys might say because it simultaneously means "You cut me down and watched me burn and left me to die. You did this to me. You made me," and "You and the Jedi Council restricted me and suspected me and failed me and called it teaching. I am who you trained me to become. You made me." It's an attack on Obi-Wan on every front, reinforcing every aspect of his guilt, and beyond that demonstrates to Obi-Wan and the audience that Vader takes absolutely no accountability for his own actions. It's an incredibly clear picture of the depth of the hatred Vader has for Obi-Wan, and all it took was six words. That is how you write.

#kenobi series spoilers #kenobi series #obi wan kenobi #meta #anakin skywalker #star wars #and then i could go into why it's so perfect that the only thing obi-wan could say is 'what have you become?' #he's never seen vader in this form before--this terrifying spectre of death who is so utterly evil even in appearance #this stiffer more brutal robotic being who kills without question and without any purpose beyond causing pain #who still somehow feels exactly as obi-wan remembers. who is still *anakin* but yet is so utterly not #and how obi-wan doesn't know what vader has done or even what he's capable of. he didn't know he was even alive #he's entirely in the dark and is terrified to learn what horrors vader has inflicted on the universe #horrors that are obi-wan's fault. vader is an instrument of terror that obi-wan created #so that lack of knowledge and absolute dread of what vader has done and what he will do make obi-wan ask 'what have you become?' #while simultaneously he also is asking 'how have you fallen so far? how could you who i once knew so well now be so unrecognizable?' #'what have you become' instead of 'what have you done.' not merely doing evil but becoming it #'what have you become' instead of 'who.' not only is he someone obi-wan doesn't know he has become something less than human #and obi-wan can't say anything else because beyond the fear and the exhaustion he is once again devastated by anakin's fall #it's the mourning for lost potential. for lost goodness. for lost intimacy and friendship and love twisted into vile and bitter hatred #a recognition and a reminder of everything that was as well as a despairing denouncement of everything that is #all of that in four words. and the equally devastating response takes only two more. these are men who know how to hurt each other #and that kind of knowledge can only come because they once knew how to love each other just as deeply as they now wound each other. #everything they do is so wrapped up in everything that came before and it is one massive and neverending explosion of agony #because most of all--vader hates every fiber of obi-wan's being. but he can tell in obi-wan's words that obi-wan still loves him #nothing is more painful than hatred met with love. #quality meta seal of approval #my meta posts #kay can i just catch my breath for a second #kay has a party in the tags #the tragedy of darth vader

[damiemontclair]

Me: *gets back into bsd fandom through the anime after years away*

Tumblr posts suggestions: hello yes your favourite character apparently just died in one of the most recent chapters of the manga, have fun!

#bsd #bsd spoilers #I have no idea what is even going on I haven't caught up with the manga yet; I'm barely up to date on the anime #And thus my knowledge ends at 'chuuya and fyodor appear to be dead' #I have no clue what happens in the manga last that and now I feel like dropping this all again like a hot potato #Because the point was that I didn't want to get hurt getting attached to silly little anime men again only for them to die #But here we fucking are. Somebody fucking kill me now pls. #Hu. Wait. Maybe chuuya will bring him back. Hes still a vamp right? He could bring him back. Right? #Abilities can only be activated if you're alive right? Right???? #(yes I know I am grasping at straws but that would take care of two different issues: #Bring dazai back and nullify the vamp ability on chuuya; thjs bringing soukoku back. Right??) #God I am supposed to be sleeping I have work in the morning; not be up at 1am freaking out about accidental tumblr spoilers #And trying to come up with wild theories why and how dazai will survive this #Also fuck everyone who doesn't fucking tag their spoilers bc I for one had the bsd spoiler tag blocked #But some people in the bsd tag did *not* tag spoilers and I don't pick what tumblr suggests to me beyond blocked tags #damie talks