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carefulfears · 8 months

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very hung up on the first thing that mulder says about phoebe being "she was brilliant. i got in over my head. and, uh, paid the price."

#watching little sweet baby scully 3 months into her new job and new partnership #be appalled at her new cute work partner's mean ex-girlfriend #feeling like walter white screaming from his car trying to warn of danger approaching #dana!!! children weaned on poison consider harm a comfort!!!!#it gets so much worse!!!!#precursors to 5 years later and scully crying in her car telling mulder to just meet her at work because diana's with him #and she couldn't even walk in #'i got in over my head'#mr. black hole at the center of the universe #everything is his fault. everything is his failing.#even in that 'fire' scene where he says that he's just gonna help phoebe with ONE thing 'and then she's on her own'#and scully is instantly like uh huhhhh i don't see that happening #walter white screaming etc etc #txf.txt #fire #it just makes me so ill how that 1 week with phoebe signals exactly how the year they spend with diana will go. and scully has no idea.#she's only known him a few months. she just wants to help. she just wants people to be kind to him.#and then you blink and it's 5 years later and phoebe was 'brilliant' and diana is irreproachable and scully is 'making things personal'

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suffarustuffaru · 7 months

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I don’t speak Japanese so I’d LOVE to hear more about the differences between the English and Japanese Re:Zero fandoms

yeah sure its very interesting to me now that ive noticed it more lately :o !! though ok disclaimer - i dont speak japanese either hah so if anyone is seeing this and does speak japanese + is familiar with the japanese speaking side of this fandom please add info if youd like!! and of course ill be mainly speaking from the english side of things bc im more familiar with that yes (sorry anon again im not a japanese speaker T^TT so sorry if i tread on info you already know!!). but yeah im speaking from my own experiences given the Topic at hand. ive been in this fandom since... 2019?? which is so wild to me aljsdfljsd.

anyway so - i think the big difference is mainly that the english fandom and many english speaking people that engage with rezero are. to put it bluntly, misconception runs Rampant to a very Interesting degree. to the point where it seems like the english speaking side of the fandom is More. Aggressive. than the japanese fandom. not that the japanese speaking side of the fandom is perfect - also bc what fandom is ever perfect 100% of the time, tbh - but that the louder people in the english rezero fandom are. well its a Very low bar. Very low. and from what little ive seen and heard so far, the japanese fandom tends to understand rezero and its characters better than the english fandom. which ig makes sense bc you know, rezero is japanese media, and also im sure cultural differences come into play here as well (im not familiar enough on this to speak about it in depth but the cultural differences feel Pretty Clear even though i cant 100% put my finger on what they specifically are).

but also bc yeah. its not That hard to beat some of the english fandom when it comes to media comprehension. misreading rezero is unfortunately Extremely common, both in and out of the rezero community. its Everywhere - youtube, myanimelist, ao3, ff.net, reddit, twitter, various rezero discords - and from what ive experienced, rezero tumblr basically kind of feels like finding an oasis after crawling through the desert for days on end lajdslfjs. which is probs bc rezero tumblr is Smaller and also a lot of us seem to be lgbtq+ in some way or be allies, so you dodge a lot of the misogyny and homophobia that happens in other rezero english circles. its why you see a lot of openly queer rezero-related posts on here while its a bit more. barren. in other rezero english places yes. bc its more safe to post queer rezero things on rezero tumblr rather than rezero reddit for Sure.

im not sure how the japanese fandom is with that exactly but theres some interesting differences between whats popular in the english fandom vs the japanese fandom. i mean as an otto fan ive been noticing how hes more popular with the japanese fandom—and on top of that, ottosuba is Way More popular in the japanese fandom too. reinsuba and julisuba seem to usually be the most popular mlm subaru ships in both fandoms but ottosuba is like A Little Up There in the japanese fandom. not sure if its on the same level as a ship like reinsuba but ottosubas Definitely loved as a ship. from what little ive seen it also seems like ships like vichisha are more acknowledged by the japanese fandom? im not entirely sure on like—Complete differences regarding what the japanese fandom finds interesting that may differ from english fandom, so ill really have to look more into the japanese fandoms fanart and fanfic when i can bc im pretty curious too. in general though, it seems like the japanese fandom has a bit more variety…. you can find fanart on So Many characters in rezero (which already has a very Massive cast full of very fleshed out characters) there. not that you cant in the english fandom bc theres a Bit of variety too, but id more so contribute that a little more to the Big Cast and less to having actual variety in fancontent. and of course im not saying that the japanese fandom may be a bit barren in some areas of fancontent—bc inevitably when u have a big cast of characters, side character content is gonna be more sparse compared to the main characters, but to me it does feel like the english fandom lacks variety in comparison. (and also yeah. seems like the japanese fandom acknowledges gay ships more in general tbh.)

whats focused in fancontent makes it easy to tell what may be popular in a fandom in terms of how fans perceive the source material and what fandoms want to do with the source material, if that makes sense. and its very easy to tell that with the english fandom if you just hop on rezero ao3–or even better, rezero reddit given theres a fanfic ideas thread thats usually pinned right at the top of the site. again i havent looked at japanese fanfic for rezero yet (bc i dont know where to look oops ajdndn) but when it comes to the english fandom you can tell that theyre generally more focused on the female cast both in fanart and in fanfic bc. theyre women and many fans on say, reddit or various rezero discords, are cis straight men, so inevitably… well lets just say you can tell when a man makes content for this fandom o.o theres also the. very weird reaction fic trends and trends following popular fics in the fandom, the two biggest being the watching him die again and again react fic and re:forgotten, the former of which includes a harem plot with subaru and the main girls of rezero while the latter is one of those subaru gets tortured by his ooc friends and then he gets revenge on them fics. which i suppose says something about the english fandom too.

of course on ao3 its dominated mainly by english fics (of course not all fics on there for rezero are in english— big shoutout to all the non english fics on rezero ao3 ur doing great <3 — but the majority are in english). and while yeah ur occasionally gonna find stuff like queer content or side character content or rarepair content, its definitely not that big in amount and also comes with the risk of. Hate. if anyones reading this and remembers the lone star stuff. (if u dont know—lone star was a julius x emilia fic where they NTR subaru or some shit and then it got bombed with hate bc of the ship? yeah.) so yeah english fandom is very cis straight oriented, ironically with the nastiest people being the very people that rezero criticizes. though this is also my personal experience, i do know several people personally whove been in this fandom for a while or were here for a while and yeah english fandom isnt very welcoming at times???? and it seems like at the very least the japanese fandom is A Little Less Aggressive than the english fandom is.

otherwise. yeah im very very curious about more of the differences in popular content between the japanese vs english fandom. i mean the english fandom’s main focus on the female cast for. Interesting Reasons other than their actual character depth is… interesting. and the astreas being popular in general vs otto + ottosubas popularity fluctuating is also very interesting to me (but i have several guesses as to Why that is), among other things. yeah id love to know what else the japanese fandom likes about rezero and see more of their content. i also have to wonder if characters like emilia and subaru are hated less by the japanese fandom…. T^T well that and the english fandom and many english speaking people engaging in rezero have this interesting pattern of either hating subaru No Matter What, wanting subaru to Not Be Subaru (ie using him as a self insert almost or attempting to change him into virtually another character), or putting subaru on a pedestal and ignoring his flaws and mistakes and that he Can do wrong. like theres Really not a lot of nuance there. so i wonder if the japanese fandom is. A Little more chill when it comes to character opinions like this too.

#rezero #tldr: english fandom sets the bar so low (unless ur on rz tumblr) that the japanese fandom def seems a bit better by comparison #in terms of. Calmness levels.#every time i step into a rezero space that isnt tumblr i get a little worried my heads gonna get bitten off by someone HAH #recently someone tried arguing with me over how i interpret otto (this was on reddit) and then said stuff that showed they did Not #understand his character that well so that was awkward 😭😭😭#even just by looking at otto fanart from the japanese fandom it seems like more people understand his character there. in the english fandom #he is. either Not There or his flaws are just handwaved away or replaced with Different flaws #atm hes the most obvious example i can think of when it comes to. how differently characters can be percieved by different parts of a fandom #for rezero. like hes near invisible here but ottosuba being almost on the same level as REINSUBA in jp fanbase is crazy to me #kinda reminds me of the disney’s duffy and friends line and how it failed in the us but its SUPER popular in asia. really fascinating #and also yeah some of the english fandom seems. more loudly misogynistic and homophobic which is very unfortunate #also im sorry ill never forgive that random person on reddit i just said one (1) thing on otto and they came for my throat like fr 😭😭😭#ask #i do wonder why reinsuba is so popular but thats probs bc reinhards well loved too and also hes op. which is a bonus for the english fandom #bc theyre into all the power scaling stuff. and also reinhard gets the other bonus of being a guy and he isnt shafted by canon. hes treated #very sympathetically which is another bonus akdnsn #i say this as a reinhard fan btw but as an emilia fan im also crying bc theyre SO SIMILAR and yet why do people hate emilia….#but u know. reins a guy and we havent got his pov yet so there isnt much to hate.

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raayllum · 1 year

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As the years move on These questions take shape. Are you getting stronger Or is time shifting weight? No one expects you to understand, Just to live what little life Your mended heart can.

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galaxythreads · 1 month

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i know - i know - that querying involves a lot of rejections, and by god have I got them, but I got a rejection from an agent I really thought would like my og book and i feel really, really, really discouraged right now. :/

#me as person #i'm ready to throw hands with the stupid series and scream at god and burn everything #or just curl up into a very small ball and cry #i don't know i guess there's just...#querying is in of itself exhausting i wasn't expecting it to BE this exhausting #and I am trying really really hard to keep the agents perspective because I know that they have so so so so many requests #and they can only take the ones that they get brain rot for #and i get that #i do #but it's just #discouraging #to put your hopes out there and then it to end badly over and over #i don't know i rewrote chapter 1 (again) i've rewritten my query 3 times and i just kind a wish i knew what was Not Working #so i could fix that #because i think the book is good??? i just need to lure someone into the pages #i guess. i don't know. i just.

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seventh-district · 2 months

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#it is 5 hrs past my bedtime and i am awake listening to Two Hearts by Dermot Kennedy on loop and crying over Rotating Shifts. again.#i couldn’t resist the urge to read the latest chapter any longer but i knew when i did i’d get like this #so Why did i wait for my period to roll around. i have made. a silly decision lmaooo #i’ve complained abt it before but i’m conflicted about how much more sensitive it makes me #my nightmares usually don’t make me cry but oh i was a Wreck this morning #so why i picked tonight to read the fic that always makes me cry is beyond me #i have never met a fic before that had me in such an intense emotional grip #and it’s fucking hilarious bc it’s not that intense of a story!! like yeah there’s been devastating parts but i’m out here having to-#-take a break every single chapter bc i’ll read one line that hits my inner child like a truck and i have to take a minute to recover #but the whiplash this fic gives me is so fucking funny and the range in the storytelling from comedy to tragedy is just.. *scream-cries*#it has my favorite characterization of Sun and Moon that i have ever seen #this chapter wasn’t even that sad i’m just Making myself sad about it #but on another level it also makes me sad in the sense that i don’t think i’ll ever be able to write something that good..#all that i want out of my writing endeavors is to make one (1) person feel as strongly and as much as RS makes me feel #and i don’t know if i can do that. i don’t know if my writing has what it takes bc i can’t even describe exactly what it is #i don’t think it’s a science that can be replicated. things either connect with someone or they don’t #the way Sun goes from worryingly innocent ‘wdym we can’t invite strangers to live with us?’ ‘wdym we can’t adopt an adult that needs help?’#to fucking. tearing an animatronic in half in a fit of protective rage and blocking access to all dating apps to prevent you from-#-finding anyone else bc he’s your Special Friend and he can’t have his Daydream falling for anyone else!! no no!!#it’s not a new concept but i eat it tf up when Sun is actually the one you should fear the most #like no i don’t think he’d hurt Reader but i dread to think of the things he would do For them #the back and forth between childlike innocence and terrifying intelligence possessiveness and physical capability is just mmmmm 100/10 #and don’t even get me started on Moon. or i Will start crying again #he’s like yeah dumbass of course i’m gonna save you every time some POS man tries to **** you. of course i will you fucking crater-head #but i will complain at you about it the Entire way home and then i will steal your fucking toilet paper and pack you a raw egg for lunch #because i hate you 🖤 but Sun loves you and we would both kill for you 🖤 also i drank all of your chocolate milk 🖤 also i hate you :)#anyways i am paraphrasing obviously and dear god i hope no one who actually reads RS sees this bc i do not want my 2am ramblings taken as-#-any kind of Official Thoughtful Analysis of the story ok pls pls pls let me be insane abt my favorite fic without having to be articulate #i just have so many fucking FEELINGS about them. i am unwell.#i’m not even tagging this i’m just hitting post and going to sleep goodnight

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 1 day

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There always seems to be one kid who just screams like a tornado siren, all day long, at any given opportunity. Like, kid, I love you, you are precious and deserve all the happiness in the world; but please for the love of god shut up. There are people trying to learn here and you’re not helping them or yourself.

#I don’t like being harsh with people in general but if one child is raising the tension in the room to a fever pitch every single day #making it incredibly hard for the kids who are trying really really hard to focus when they already have focus issues #and because I know this specific kid gets absolutely spoiled rotten at home and is allowed to do whatever they want #you know… sometimes it helps to show the kid how they sound to others by demonstrating the obnoxious nature of The Scream #because when the parents do Jack Shit about teaching their kid discipline and courtesy; you have to be a parent in their stead #But do NOT continue to scream. You are an adult with adequate emotional control. Screaming should be be done EXTREMELY sparingly #and only utilized for demonstration purposes or to stop a brawl; not for bullying or intimidation #Don’t do a JoJo Siwa and TRY to make kids cry even though you may get stressed enough that you want to escalate on purpose #Again: you are an adult with adequate emotional control; don’t escalate unless the overreaching plan is to deescalate #if eliciting a startle response will stop harmful behavior and “snap them out of it” for long enough for you to get through #or if they just need to let all their emotions out at once so they can lose enough of that high energy to think critically #then sure #but you have to guide them back down very carefully and calmly; it’s a precise science #Don’t be mean about it; be genuine in your feelings and don’t go overboard. Genuine ≠ mean unless you’re evil #Or if you don’t feel emotions very strongly (like I do) then react like a “normal” person. Lie about being angry or sad if it is appropriat #Again: Your goal should not be to get the kid to do what you want; the goal should be to get them to feel good enough #so they are ABLE to do it in the first place #And the goal should also be to show them how their actions affect others if they are not aware of it #“Teach a man to fish” and all that. Don’t always check them; get them to check themselves #If a kid hits another kid when they’re angry at something completely unrelated; then 1.) redirect destructive behavior #and 2.) walk them back over to the kid they hurt and say:#“Look at [name]; look how sad you made them. [name] didn’t do anything to you #It’s okay to be angry but we CANNOT hit people when we are angry because it hurts and makes them cry.” Works great #Always remember there is a power imbalance inherent in EVERY child-adult relationship and NEVER abuse it #And if you’re not patient or emotionally stable enough to work with or have children; then don’t. Please don’t.#Children are not cute little dolls to play dress-up with; nor are they perfect angels; nor are they your personal stress ball #Having children is NOT A GAME. They are PEOPLE who will grow to be your age one day and everything you do affects them #Sorry I’m just tired of all these parents who shove iPads in their kids faces so they don’t bother them. You’re giving them an addiction

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musical-chick-13 · 3 days

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This is not different from any other given day, but it is, perhaps, more Significant™ given that it is her anniversary (<-the important one), which. You know. Crying over River again, etc. etc.

#I have one (1) hobby #it is crying over the same four not-real women #💜💜💜#her capacity for love is so much :( and it comes out in some really unhealthy ways and it makes her believe that no one else could ever #actually FEEL for her the way SHE feels :(#there's also something in here about how she's very much still A Murdergirl™ but the TYPES of violence we see her commit onscreen #and WHEN she commits them tells us a lot about her as a person but. perhaps in the future. when my brain is not solely taken up by #writing the same godforsaken fic

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tiabwwtws-art · 2 years

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Traditional art as I relisten to season one and try to get out of an art slump

#tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #magpod #jon sims #rusty quill #rusty quill podcast #tma s1 #tma season 1 #melanie king #jane prentiss #edit WOOOOOOOO!!!!! tumblr ate this post OVER and OVER it was AWFUL but now its here and in one piece YEEHAWW #enjoy the images i was about to cry from frustration #theres also another version of this post floating around with weird formatting.#its deleted here but someone managed to snag it before it was gone #that person left some very nice tags so. thank you for that <3 #but once tumblr starting being functional i didnt want to deal with 90% of the post being in a reblog so i reposted

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pezpenser205 · 18 days

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3am monday morning mood

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softwarmfur · 3 months

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when you get this ask you have to answer with 5 of ur fav songs and then send this ask to 10 of ur favourite followers !

Eeeuuuuuuugh....so hard to choose....okay these are not my top 5 but they are 5 I have randomly selected out of all my favorite songs:

- RELIGIOUS MAN - Mister Loco

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- Fire is Coming - Flying Lotus and David Lynch

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Public Pervert - Interpol

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Shredder sequel - Little Wings

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Little Pleasures - TOKiMONSTA and Gavin Turek

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#NEEDED COMMENTARY ON EACH OF THESE. IN ORDER:#1) idgaf if it sounds stupid the nacho libre movie and its soundtrack are personally important to me. this is my fav song on the OST #2) be prepared. this song starts with almost 2 minutes of david lynch talking about some david lynch shit. i heavily encourage not skipping #3) i could have put Evil on this list as it's basically interpol's most famous song and also one of my favorites. but.#if time is my vesselll then learning to love might be my way back to seaaaaa #4) i have so much i could say about this one....kyle field was a close college friend of my parents and i grew up listening to his music #out of all the songs on here this is probably the one with the most personal connection to me.#the shredder is already a heartbreaking song and shredder sequel is even more heartbreaking. it's good to listen to both in order.#Kyle also had a brief role in Creep 2. some of his songs also featured on the show Reservation Dogs. had me crying n shit #note: i had to put some random reupload on this list because the album this song is from is exceptionally hard to find online #5) another song i inherited from my parents. my grandma also really likes this song lol #LASTLY: i agonized over this all morning so if youre my mutual and you see this consider yourself required to do this.#and tag me if you do i wanna seeeee

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tragedykery · 1 year

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I hate. complicated friendships

#I love her but also.#I feel like such a bad friend for complaining about her but she’s just so. incredibly inconsiderate #like we planned to hang out ish at 1 pm today. suddenly she texts me like ‘hey I’m coming around 14:30 instead’#she knows I’m autistic too she knows how important having a schedule is for me and she pulls sth like that??#maybe it’s the fact that she’s an only child but she just expects the world and everyone else to accommodate for her #one time we were on a school trip and I was nauseous and I mentioned that to her and she just. made it all about herself???#like I get she’s got emetophobia but turning the conversation into a fifteen-minute-long rant about if I vomited to please not do it #anywhere she could see bc if I did she would cry and feel absolutely terrible for the rest of the day and etc etc etc #like bestie IM the one who’s sick here???#and like 50% of our conversations are just her venting at me (even more if you count the ones over text) and it’s. I don’t mind it when it’s #a normal amoun but she just treats me like an object for her to vent at and I Understand there’s stuff she can’t tell her therapist/coach bc #he knows her parents and she’s afraid he’ll tell on her if she talks about gender stuff (she’s not out) and I’m the closest trans friend she #has so I’m the person who understands it the best but it’s just. SO much #(but the moment I vent for once I just feel like she. doesn’t listen and that she thinks I’m just being too sensitive)#and that’s definitely my fault too bc idk how to communicate when she makes me uncomfortable with stuff like that #and she’s autistic too and doesn’t understand hints at all so I’d need to just State it and that feels so incredibly mean but.#there’s more instances I’m not typing out but just. ugh. I love her I really do and I feel like such a child for complaining about her on #tumblr dot com and I know I’m at fault too for not communicating when she makes me uncomfortable I’m not pretending I’m not to blame at all #but she’s self-centred and inconsiderate and. ugh #vent #elli rambles

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promiscuousasexual · 2 months

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no one’s asking these drivers to speak up and spew some judith butler level monologues on a situation they most likely know nothing about, we’re actually all begging them to shut the fuck up, or, if they absolutely HAVE to say something, some PR fabricated bullshit to gain brownie points like “it’s important that everyone feels safe!!” will do

#you all PISS ME OFF #i actually haven’t seen one person ask the drivers to speak out #so y’all are crying over scenarios in your own head #also why are y’all defending them so hard?#it’s embarrassing #they don’t know you lmao #i couldn’t imagine throwing away my dignity to defend a rich man when he doesn’t deserve it #idk if i should tag this #maybe just #formula 1 #and #formula one #debating adding the christian horner tag #but maybe not #this is more of a rant than something that i post to reach people #but anyway

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logicheartsoul · 9 months

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Ugh, I rolled both my ankles and I just. Wanna scream rn

I got it iced and I took a pain reliever but I just wanna 😔

#personal #it was a combo of 1) too dark 2) not paying attention where I was going and 3) being tired/exhausted when an elevation issue just made me #whoop end over it was not fun #one foot hurts more than the other though and a part of me wants to cry and the other just wants to facepalm at past me

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chevaliermalfets · 2 months

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god I wish I could stop being such a sensitive bitch over the DUMBEST things

#my advisor gave me feedback on my report and it's like 99% positive with some constructive comments on 'go into more detail on this'#and im really gonna cry over the fact that i had one (1) incorrect sentence in the 11 page report #??? get a GRIP girl!!!!#there's supposed to be mistakes it's a draft and that's why you're getting feedback on it #if i knew everything id already have my phd #rays european hot girl phd #like im not even upset or anything i was expecting the feedback to be a lot worse #im just the most sensitive person in the world