#I am still beholding

[correct-hermitcraft-quotes]

Beef: I am the Cleo of maps

#hermitcraft #a quote #vintagebeef #that he is #I love this guy #VintageBeef Hermitcraft season 9 ep39 #I know Season 9 just ended but can we appreciate the madman that is VinatageBeef #wtf was this project man #I am still beholding #mod evil rat

[fisheito]

He's a magician

#how does eiden keep doing that #that. naked magic. tablecloth sweep but suddenly it's rated oops for selective nudity #this is the 2nd time i've drawn eiden motion blur swiping yaku's clothes off. will this become a pattern? #yes i am still thinking about aegis r2. naked apron forever #i know there was probably an interlude. a moment between R1 and R2 [R1.5] #where eiden said TAKE OFF YOUR CLOTHES ok now put the apron back on #and yakumo's all ??? JUST the apron? ?? ?? #then we go into R2 and it starts with yakumo questioning eiden's costume direction #but i wouldn't put it past eiden's mystical part time abilities #to be able to selectively nakify his clan members #haHA! behold! the art of misdirection! NOW WITH SEXY CONSEQUENCES!! #at some point in the future eiden will show off his tablecloth swoosh trick (the legitimate one. that actually uses the tablecloth) #and yakumo will be mildly wary the entire time. hands hovering near his crotch area as he was lucky to do the FIRST time #anyway eiden performs the trick successfully. no one's clothes slide off. the tablecloth is swooshed. the dishes are intact. #now we can either leave it at that or go the route of Violence #like the dramatic samurai strike. there's a moment of nothing . THEN EVERYONE IN THE ROOM LOSES THEIR CLOTHES IN A GUST OF WIND #EIDEN'S ULTIMATE ATTACK!!!!! PENULTIMA NAKED FLAME RENDING SHREDDINATOR RISING TORNADO!!!!!!! #nu carnival #yakuei #yakumo #eiden

[clay-pidgeon]

LESBOY JANE CROCKER HELL FUCKING YEAH (use he/him for jane here hes a trans dude 👍)

#my stuff #dove arts #homestuck #homestuck fanart #hs jane #jane homestuck #homestuck jane #jane crocker fanart #transmasc jane crocker #lesbian jane crocker #butch jane crocker #lesboy jane crocker #hs fanart #transgender jane crocker #LOT of tags i am just REALLY proud of this and want all possible jane fans to see it #Behold His Cool Butch Swagger! #couldve made him fatter but i am still extremely proud of this #IT LOOKS COOL!! COOL JANE!!! #jane crocker

[asouefanworkevent]

another fall is upon us! another woevember is coming!!

what is it?

woevember is an asoue fanwork event week, that will take place from november 12th through november 18th, 2023. last year there was a different group of characters each day, and this year, each day of the week is dedicated to a different location for a series of unfortunate events or all the wrong questions.

what do i do?

the prompts will be revealed now, so everyone has time to make something. between now and the week of november 12th, you’ll create fanworks about the prompts, and then post it on the corresponding day during november 12th - 18th!

don’t forget to tag this tumblr (asouefanworkevent) in the post so i can find it and reblog it, and tag the post with #woevember !

what do you mean by fanwork?

everything! fanfic and fanart are of course allowed, but woevember has always been meant to be an event that is as big or as little effort as you want! fanwork also means edits, gifs, analysis posts, headcanons!! your cosplay!! your photography!! your photosets!! your web weaving!! your super short fics!! your sketchiest drawings!! your most ramble-y half-fic idea posts!! your wip scenes!! you merely saying 'lemony snicket, though. am i right?????' (and you are. you're so right.) whatever you are moved to make from the prompts! i want people to be encouraged to and be able to create even something small that didn’t exist before for the snicketverse, and share it with other people!

are there any rules?

to keep the event open and comfortable for everyone, no explicit content. also, as always, sibling romance and age gaps will not be tolerated.

do i have to make something for every day?

only if you want to! feel free to just make something for one day if you want :) the point of having a different theme for each day is so some part of canon that you like comes up eventually, and you can at least make something for one of the days. or you get struck by an idea you might not have considered before! i want to get people thinking about all the intriguing people and places in asoue and atwq and the exciting different ways we can interpret and create from the same idea.

what are the prompts?

the description under each prompt is just some ideas to get your brain going -- feel free to take them in another direction too!

november 12th - olaf's mansion

to celebrate the 24th anniversary of the bad beginning! what becomes of the house post-canon? was it olaf's family home? what sort of nefarious, or, perhaps, completely innocent shenanigans have occurred here, pre-canon? does this house also have a secret passage somewhere?

november 13th - the baudelaire mansion

did beatrice and bertrand build the mansion? what sweet pre-canon moments have we missed with the baudelaire children and their parents? what visitors came there? do people still think the mansion remains are haunted post-canon? what sort of new home do the baudelaires make for themselves when they return to the city?

november 14th - the clusterous forest

the wild and lawless place. what was it before the water was removed? what sort of beach or shore was there? where did the water go? does it ever come back? what does lemony, or anyone else, find in there? does another train ever come through after the thistle of the valley? do the stain'd-by-the-sea crew ever go in to investigate it? what sort of rumors might be created about a place like the clusterous forest?

november 15th - the hotel denouement

the last safe place! is it vfd-owned, or denouement-owned? what happens down in the archives? are the archives ever found? what sort of firefighter or firestarter meetings have taken place here? what relationship might they have with the preludio hotel? what were the denouements up to at the hotel? what hotel, or what sort of home in general, might frank and ernest create for themselves post-canon, with dewey's absence?

november 16th - the masked ball

the duchess of winnipeg's masked balls have so much potential! what happened at that last one, where lemony tried to contact beatrice? when was that? what happened at past balls? what is the duchess's relationship with the parties? (whether the duchess is jacquelyn or r or jacquelyn is r's daughter is up to you, dear reader!) what costumes do they all pick! or is there even a different masked ball you might have in mind?

november 17th - the reptile room

to also celebrate the 24th anniversary of the reptile room! what becomes of this house post-canon? how did monty come to own the reptile room, where does his herpetology career fit into vfd? why was the quagmire mansion connected to it? how did jacques get there and find quigley? what other moments with the baudelaire children in the reptile room might we have missed -- or pre-canon moments with the baudelaire parents? do not forget about our beloved, the incredibly deadly viper!

november 18th - free space!

there's tons of other locations, too! prufrock prep, heimlich hospital, 667 dark avenue, paltryville, caligari carnival, the city, the punctilio, veblen hall, the orion observatory, the opera, the sewers, the hemlock tearoom and stationery shop, the museum of items, the museum of bad breakfast, the snicket mansion, the quagmire mansion, the island, the mortmain mountains, lucky smells lumbermill, wade academy, killdeer fields, anwhistle aquatics, the queequeg? or do you care not for locations! use the free space to write about the character or relationship or thought of your choosing!

if you have any questions about anything, feel free to drop me an ask or a message!

happy creating, and i hope to see lots of you november 12th-18th!! ✨

#asoue #a series of unfortunate events #atwq #all the wrong questions #lemony snicket #woevember #thought i would be posting this a little late but then i saw last year's post was on october 12th so lo and behold! #your mysterious moderator is AHEAD OF THE GAME! #someone called me that after wicked way exchange and it made me so thrilled. i AM your mysterious moderator. most of the time. #slightly worried that 'locations' are too vague or still just repeating last year but i am trying to spice it up! #while also trying to hit all options!

[binah-beloved]

So I know you HC that Binah won't let you anywhere near the Well (yes I've read the whole blog basically in one sitting because... I need more Binah in my system.) But consider this

She avoids you assisting her with extractions as much as she can. Maybe she sends you off with "urgent" reports to other sefirot (the higher the floor, the better), whenever she has to draw from the Well. But she can't keep this up forever. You DO want to be at her side when she has to go through THIS nightmarish task. Anyhow you do end up assisting her. How does that make her feel? Maybe your presence anchors her to reality and keeps her sane more than she'd care to admit? Maybe she instinctively covers your eyes at some point without even realizing it?

we all need more Binah in our systems

when the day finally comes that you're by her side, the only thing Binah feels is fear. it's not something she usually experiences, as even degraded Arbiters are stronger than anyone needs to be, but she knows the sharp pain in her chest is fear, cold and unyielding. you're so fragile- even the best weapons and gear she gives you won't be able to defend you from the Well- but you're also so stubborn, insisting that you accompany her

"No one should have to do this alone". that's what you told her, and what you stand by. so reluctantly she brings you to the Well, watching its waters illuminate your features in an emerald glow and telling you to stay close

the task hurts as always, eating away at her thoughts and tearing bits of her identity away. but this time, you're there, standing beside her and holding her hand; every time you squeeze her fingers, the pain relents just slightly, and Binah feels like she can breathe again. when you take a step closer to her for comfort she carefully pulls you into her arms, tucking her cloak around your shoulders- you can stay in there for the entire time, if you'd like. she doesn't mind. you make sure to give her a soft hug when you feel her stiffen, the only indication that she's in distress, and after a moment her muscles unclench and her hand comes down to caress your own, wrapped around her waist

finally everything ends once more, a sigh of relief slipping from your lips as you leave the room. your head feels blurred and heavy until a hand rests on top of it, a glint of emotion in Binah's eyes as she quietly thanks you for what you've done today, and before she leaves she gives your hand a small, tender squeeze

you don't notice the single tear that drips from her eye when she turns away

#project moon #lobotomy corp #library of ruina #binah #binah lobcorp #binah library of ruina #hello professional binah lover #i am also a professional binah lover #you might need to take a sick day after being in the Well's presence for so long #and lo and behold binah arrives to take care of you #she keeps up a stream of simple questions throughout the day to get your mind working and occupied with other things #and gently shushes you if you have any nightmares #if she's still particularly emotional from the previous day she might stare at you and start silently crying #if you ask she just holds your hand and tells you to take care of yourself #that's her way of saying that she can't bear to see you suffering or in pain

[hella1975]

ive got an essay due at 3pm tomorrow and ive not even looked at it i am so so unserious about my degree and by the grace of some higher being i somehow keep managing to crawl through it's actually getting a bit funny

#me and an old friend of mine used to have a running joke during a-levels that im just one of those people where shit Works Out #and it started bc we shared two a-levels (english and economics) and in BOTH classes i regularly didn't do the homework #or the reading etc and yet it would ALWAYS work out for me #like we'd walk into a class neither of us having done the homework and they'd get yelled at while i went under the radar somehow #or that one english essay i got the highest score in the class when i literally hadn't even read the fucking book it was on #and when we pointed the theory out it started just becoming really prevalent #like no matter how late i am for things i'll arrive and by some miracle the thing im late for is also late (e.g a train or teacher) #like im just one of those people that has very very mundane luck #and low and behold i am fighting this degree with bloody fists putting the absolute bare minimum in for my own sanity's sake #and i SOMEHOW keep pulling through. literally failed two modules last year and STILL got a 2:1 average #and the last essay i wrote was the worst essay id ever done in my life and i get my standards are higher bc ik im good at essays #but the point still stands and you know what? i got a FIRST #literally was pure waffle i have never blagged it so hard and i got a FIRST #and all this shit just makes me cockier and cockier and go even more by the skin of my teeth and it ALWAYS WORKS OUT #it's soooo silly but im not complaining. anyway ill keep u posted about this essay <3 it's econ history so is actually interesting #but the most ive done for it is ask the sc ai lmao and for context degree-level essays usually require a good few days of graft #live love laziness #hella goes to uni

[fatherentropy]

I also doodled Luke last night before bed just ‘cause I wanted to draw something and his Happy Devil Day message happened to be on my twitter dashboard so y’know

#CWart #Obey Me #Luke #Obey Me Luke #behold a baby son boy #I didn't post it at 3 am because it was 3 am but also like I couldn't tell if it was uuuh crap or not. I still can't #but yeehaw amiright #I haven't even drawn Diavolo yet and suddenly Luke lmfao

[keeps-ache]

!! oooooooooops !!

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #oc #pink space #HI HEY HELLO :DDD #i have redesigned this man so much this year. beHOLD!!! new hair :DD #or new bangs at least lol #i've been meaning to change if for.. about a yearrr lmao #bc i accidentally made his hair almost exactly like cap's . oof hfbhs #//also POW WHAM WHACK- SPARKLES EHEHE #i am so happy n glittery rn idk why hvshf :DD #//let's see what i have a changed about him #- shoes have a solid design now #- jacket stays closed #- ourple suit was redesigned and then completely scrapped and redone lol #- added a little jewelry. but i forgot about that so maybe next time hfbv #- figured out the eyeball situation #- made him a housekeeper + maintenance worker's design but it was v lazy n i'm still workin on it lol #//Oh i also made a font w/ my handwriting :D #i didn't really use it here but it's really useful bc i get v picky n anxious about where my signature goes lmao #//4 more posts til 2000 >:3 #4 more til 200 on artstreet ! #//i love the number 20 a lot #no reason for me saying this i just think it is The number of all time #2020 was the optimal year for literally anything #and Boy did Anything happen fhbvsh #not an optimal age i think but in every other capacity you can 100% rely on the number 20 #just say it outloud. twenny. twenny. or twenty if you really say it so lol

[winglesshopeful]

finished the war eternal questline, and the fake-out Aurene death had me punching the air when the commander and what's her dick the crystal sylvari pulled out that last crystal from her "body"

#dont judge me i have a hefty headache and i feel. Bad. but i am still thinking abt this scene rhdghdgg #the repeated death flags had me terrified. she had a vision of her own death for christ's sake dgfdgffg #she was impaled repeatedly by brand crystal. everyone convinced she was dead. lo and behold #plant mom and charr dad clear away the purple then we learn the ramifications of a dragon eating a fucking lich djsjdhsudhd #'praise joko' indeed braham #only good he ever did was in the belly of my dragon friend djdjfjdjfj #gw2 #guild wars 2

[correct-hermitcraft-quotes]

Beef: I am the Cleo of maps

#hermitcraft #a quote #vintagebeef #that he is #I love this guy #VintageBeef Hermitcraft season 9 ep39 #I know Season 9 just ended but can we appreciate the madman that is VinatageBeef #wtf was this project man #I am still beholding #mod evil rat

[jacksintention]

Still unwell about Rilke and PH

I love the dark hours of my being.

My mind deepens into them.

There I can find, as in old letters,

the days of my life, already lived,

and held like a legend, and understood.

Then the knowing comes: I can open

to another life that's wide and timeless.

So I am sometimes like a tree

rustling over a gravesite

and making real the dream

of the one its living roots

embrace:

a dream once lost

among sorrows and songs.

#There's in Rilke and especially in this particular book a lot about the world‚ created in the beholding and loving it‚ #and one existing to love the world. There's so much about the world being created by that loving and knowing the world of one individual #person that loves and knows it. A kind of feedback loop of existing and being by love and knowledge that is all a participation #on the act of creation. The person coming to exist to love and know the world‚ and creating the world by loving and beholding it #This is also present on Juan Ramón Jiménez‚ among others‚ but 5 yo me was obsessed with those poems. ANYWAY #This topic made me think of Lacie a lot but in this particular poem that topic + the 'I'm sorry' scene + the figure of Lacie beyond Lacie‚ #a Lacie that's legend and real‚ a Lacie always sitting under a tree‚ life ending and life expanding so to speak‚... #That kind of knowing it all in a glimpse that is knowing in an instant and eternal (which again reminds me of Kierkegaard‚ #fitting I'd say with Rilke). I'm explaining myself terribly but I don't want to talk too much haha But yeah it all seemed very fitting #There was another poem about spiralling so to speak around god that I also thought was very Lacie but very PH in general #('I live my life in widening circles / that reach out across the world. / I may not complete this last one / but I give myself to it / #I circle around God‚ around the primordial tower. / I've been circling for thousands of years / and I still don't know: am I a falcon‚ / #a storm or a great song?'). The spiralling around god in what is still some sort of emanence or reflection of it while being also #different iterations of the self which all reflect it also reminded me a lot of Cantor's transfinite numbers #Which again is quite fitting and coherent with the other authors and PH imo‚ but I may be biased. Anyway yes. This reminded me of Lacie #I didn't plan on drawing anything at first and now I have to flinch to read the poem #I hope I'll recognise enough of what I've written when I eventually come back to this #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later #mine*

[musical-chick-13]

Thoughts on toxic yuri?

One of my very favorite storytelling concepts, I love it when women make each other worse. <3

I do think it's important, for me anyway, to note the difference between a dynamic that's toxic in one direction versus something that is mutually toxic. The first one doesn't really interest me a whole lot, usually because it means one character suffers constantly without being allowed to do anything else--at the very least, it will come across as the more ""normal"" character not really being that into the relationship in question. I need BOTH parties to be unhinged.

The important thing for any fictional relationship (though we're specifying toxic yuri here, obviously) is that it's interesting. If there is no limit to what the women can do within a dynamic, then there are an infinite number of ways for that dynamic to go. And while you can learn a lot about a character through examining their values and positive qualities, you can learn just as much (if not more) by considering their flaws. And those flaws really come out in the case of toxic yuri; characters get to show the uglier parts of themselves in this context, which I am always a fan of. A fraught, complex relationship, when written well, can be a really great way to psychologically explore the characters: what inspires them to act this way? why do they think this behavior is acceptable? if they don't think it's acceptable, why do they keep doing it? what do they think about the concept of love as a whole? how far would they go for intimacy or to be understood? how do they view other people in general? and probably most importantly, what led to them developing the beliefs underlying their actions in the first place?

From a more "psychologically, why do people enjoy this" standpoint, mutual toxicity often goes hand in hand with extreme obsession, extreme jealousy, and a willingness to forgive a whole lot of horrible shit. Which, yeah, in real life you don't want to be in a relationship like that. But I think there's a lot of emotional resonance in exploring those feelings. The idea that someone will never leave you. That they think so intensely about you specifically that they'll break anything and anyone to stay with you. That even if you're the worst version of yourself, someone will still want you because that's still you. Someone knows exactly how to fuck you up because they genuinely understand you. Things in fiction that we would never want in real life can be incredibly interesting or even cathartic to witness from a distance. I think we all feel things that scare us sometimes (or even simply feel an innocuous emotion so intensely that it scares us), and looking at unpleasant feelings within fiction can help identify, parse out, process, and successfully cope with those feelings. And I think, at the end of it all, a lot of people want to matter to someone, in some way. It makes sense that some creators would take that concept-of meaning a great deal to another person, of affecting them deeply-to its absolute extreme through writing.

(And also, consider. That I am very gay. And that horrible women are very attractive.)

#good morning I am here to make my Thoughts™ everybody's problem :) #THANK YOU I LIKED THIS ONE A LOT #multi t(ASK)ing #also thank you for making 'yuri' pink that delighted me #me + messy wlw media <-this too is yuri #behold! a creation! #also re: mutual toxicity. I understand that this is quite a thing to claim to want when probably The™ wlw ship of all time for me is #mireille x silvana #but a) mireille is rather unhinged on her own outside of her relationship with silvana courtesy of being a highly cynical assassin #(and is herself not immune to doing some pretty intense shit for the sake of people she loves) #b) mireille is committed to KILLING silvana for said toxic behavior. #& also c) their rivalry is so DEEPLY personal that mireille is still obsessed with silvana even if it's for...not the same reason silvana #is obsessed with mireille. like the TYPE of obsession is different but the LEVEL of obsession is the same. if that makes any sense. #(also. some of the ways mireille acts suggest that hate might not be the ONLY thing she feels toward silvana. there's obvious homoerotic #tension on silvana's end but I think there's some on mireille's too. at the very least she seems to regret that silvana wasn't #the kind of person mireille originally thought she was. along with probably a sick sense of pseudo-respect) #mel screams about fictional ladies again #writing #fiction #toxic romance #(<-not really sure how else to tag this)

[princess-of-purple-prose]

[ID: Two pages from Trigun Maximum. In the first, Rem cries as she passionately exclaims to Vash, "Don't throw it all away! Don't let it go! Don't say you'd rather die!" Young Vash seems shocked as she exclaims that she wants to see the world together, because it's made up of more than worthless people. Rem's face is scrunched up and flushed, tears beading at her eyes as she cries.

In the second, Marlin fondly tells Vash that Meryl and Milly worry when he leaves them and that he needs to learn to let people help him out, because they want to do so. Vash seems surprised, then begins to cry. He looks similar to Rem, with flushed cheeks and tears at the corners of his eyes, as he cries, "... Don't... Just... Don't tell me something like that now!" End ID]

Like mother, like son.... [starts bawling so hard I choke to death]

[ID: Another flashback page with Rem and Vash. Vash smiles with contentment and says, "But... if you hadn't stopped me then... I never would have know that when you cry, Rem... you look like you're laughing." Rem is still teary, but she smiles happily. End ID]

Bonus :')

#trigun spoilers #trimax spoilers #i was looking at a post with this marlon+vash dialogue and then i was like. wait. that face looks familiar #and LO AND BEHOLD #i am so unwell about rem and vash SO sick in the head about them #i love you rem. genuinely an incredible character and person and you were dead before the story started #speaking of. i was saying this to percy (ty percy for listening to me :) ) #but i think that the marlon bit showcases rem's ideals manifesting in the series #if you can't love the world people in it will love you and if you can't love yourself people will love you still #love keeps you alive and love keeps you alive and love keeps you alive #god. anyway #hope it's cool i used indents for the ids! i don't usually use it on my own posts but it felt more readable for this one #trigun #my posts #kay talks #described #described by me #i don't think this'll maintag so that'll be the extent of my organizational tags lmao #also hi i edited the marlon panels myself (vash's reactions are actually on a separate page) i'm pretty proud of it :) #rem saverem #vash saverem #trimax

[piningprecussionist]

Your kind comments about my fics absolutely make my day thank you so much 😭

Np!!! They really are a delight, tysm for making and publishing them ^^

#asks #txt #cassmouse #i am. So Tired still fjdusjfhdd I just got a phone call that woke me up so i figured I'd check tumblr and lo and behold-- #but seriously i have been really enjoying your fics. idk if ill have something to say every time but i will certainly try lol #you've actually commented on my fic before so ty again for YOUR comment-- it's not exactly broadcasted that thats me so i guess gl guessing+ #+if it isnt obvious lol. but it was very sweet and appreciated #anyway. im gonna try and get a little extra rest real quick and then I'll probably come back for standard posting purposes #✌️

[rat-hand]

No one does the babygirlification of Sam Winchester like Dean.

#he has been on this train the whole time #he would call that man his girlfriend #I am still in the first season so as far as I know he probably does #sam is his little meow meow #spn #supernatural #sam winchester #dean winchester #wincest #gencest #Dean teases Sam about being the girl the monsters want so frequently! it is hilarious to behold #babygirlification of Sam Winchester #babygirlification

[biohazard-inevitable]

My adhd hyperfocus has me doin all sorts of fucking reorganizing and cleaning today like i’ve completely stripped my bed and am washing everything as well as reorganizing my manga shelves to make more room for more manga (i basically doubled the space i had and also as you can see one piece has its own special section due to length) and im contemplating rereading/rewatching my hero academia since i cant bring myself to get rid of the volumes or figures.)

I also might deep clean the rest of my room but i have to be up in the morning to go to school so- idk if I’ll do that tonight.

Idk where ANY of this energy came from but it sure as hell is here.

#lifeblogging #personal #anyways BEHOLD!!!!! #my manga collection #10 years in the making!!!! #you know its 10 years cause if ya zoom in you can see hetalia volumes #a lot of these series are unfinished #tokyo ghoul is finished imo cause i consider RE a different fuckin beast #i also have yarichin bitch club hehe~ #i intend to complete fire force and blue exprsist #as well as demon slayer and fullmetal’s hardcover copies #the hardcovers of fullmetal are my favorite #i find it hard to ‘keep up’ with series though #i likely will complete the my hero collection if only to have it for the day i return #idk somethin about it still lingers #i also intend to add dunmeshi and more ito collections to the vast array #as you can tell I am a shounen fan~ #i am of course also working on completing the one piece collection #the top shelf is for the figures that will eventually be on display #i have a smaller seperate shelf for non manga works like some western comics #i have volume 1 of the walking dead compendium and all the latest copies of the TAZ comics #and volume 1 of boyfriends #i am very VERY proud of this collection it is one of the many constants in my life