#I didn’t have it in myself

[thedoorsofmyheart]

“I didn’t have it in myself to go with grace…”

#my tears richochet #folklore #taylor swift #lyric quote #is it romantic how all my elegies eulogize me #relistening to the album #so much to think yet no words to say #look at all of my tears #I have loved you #I didn’t have it in myself #I couldn’t not love you and I couldn’t love you #I couldn’t hurt and I couldn’t not hurt

[foolsocracy]

gotta add another noir variant to the gang

#the goober ever #see guys I can draw spiderverse art…. #spiderverse #across the spiderverse #peni parker #peter porker #peter benjamin parker #peter b parker #gwen stacy #miles morales #my art #noirverse #a little bit #I always say to myself: thank god Pete didn’t have fog lake in the 1930s to kill himself to #cant decide of gwen and Pete would be besties forever or if their angsty emo energies create the frienemies of the millennium #itsv #atsv

[krystaldeath]

Cotl Textposts

Alts:

#i have two more one is suggestive and the other is kind of a trod au one. idk if I just wanna wait till I make more or post them now #and if I do post them now do I post them together or separately??? hmmm #anyways. ignore how the sprites almost all have a white box w them. I asked for transparent ones but I was not given them #and I didn’t wanna spend time making them transparent myself #cult of the lamb #cotl textposts #cotl #cotl shitpost #narilamb #leshycat #leshy x yellow cat #yellow cat x leshy #lamb x narinder #narinder x lamb #white bg

[fumifooms]

#i miss my wife tails #dungeon meshi #chilchuck tims #Dunmeshi memes #girl with merch meme #Hello chilchuck nation #I have nothing to say for myself. Doing this was like art therapy #This is gonna be me when we win and there’s so much dunmeshi merch out #There are panels I didn’t get to put in… Sad

[theskywaslookingback]

When I was 12 I was going to be married and have two children - Kathryne Elizabeth and David Chase.

When I was 9 my mom told me that when she was pregnant with me and took a bath, I’d roll around in her stomach like a dolphin. The thought made me sick.

When I was 17 I was in love with a boy who was a good childhood friend, and I wanted to marry him so bad I chased him away (we haven’t spoken in 13 years).

When I was 15 I kissed a boy for the first time. We dated for six weeks. I kissed him twice more, and the first time he put his tongue in my mouth I gagged.

When I was 16 I told my best friend that I didn’t understand the big deal about sex. In fact, I thought it was kind of gross. She laughed and told me to grow up.

When I was 6 I licked a boy’s desk in school because I wanted to give him cooties. I thought it was something like chicken pox.

When I was 18 I kissed a girl for the first time and thought “oh”.

When I was 14 my friend stayed the night and wanted to know if I wanted to kiss her. I told her no, because she had a boyfriend. She said it didn’t count because we were girls.

When I was 20 my stepmom told me that she thought asexuals were broken or mentally ill in some way. I stormed off to my bedroom and cried, but I didn’t know what I was crying for.

When I was 18 I had sex with two girls. After it was over I lay by myself at the edge of the bed, cold and hollow inside, and didn’t understand what I was so upset about.

When I was 11 I wanted to be a stay at home mom when I grew up.

When I was 19 I had sex with a guy for the first time. I didn’t hate it, was my first thought. My second was that I needed a shower as fast as possible.

When I was 7 I was hugged by someone and screamed because I didn’t want them to touch me. I didn’t have the words for it back then.

When I was 20 I had a panic attack before my fiancé came over to visit, because I knew we’d be alone and I knew I couldn’t tell him no.

When I was 20 I told him no and it didn’t matter.

When I was 15 I got caught looking up porn on my dad’s laptop. I got in worse trouble because it was gay porn. “You’re just upset with boys right now, you’ll grow out of it.”

When I was 5 my dad would read parts of the Bible out loud every night. He paid special attention to the parts condemning homosexuality, like he knew somehow even then.

When I was 19 I heard the word asexual for the first time, and dismissed it out of hand.

When I was 25 I cradled it to my heart like a balm.

When I was 20 I decided I was never going to have children.

When I was 19 I thought I was pregnant, and decided to kill myself if I was.

When I was 26 I said the words ‘asexual lesbian’ for the first time to myself, and crawled under the covers to hide.

When I was 28 a friend sent me a comic about aromanticism. I saw all the parts of me that were on display there and decided I wasn’t strong enough to acknowledge it just yet.

When I was 27 I told my friend that the only time I wanted to be married was when I was sick and wanted to be taken care of. The rest of the time the thought terrified me.

When I was 15 I told myself that no one would ever love me.

When I was 29 I decided that I didn’t care.

When I was 13 I thought I knew exactly what my life would be like when I was 30.

When I was 30 I was relieved to have been so wrong.

#happy birthday month to me #and late pride i guess #idk i was thinking about all the words i didn’t have as a teenager and all the ways i tortured myself before i learned them #personal

[little-pondhead]

[sorry for the tiny text!!]

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Danny: Wait, how did you learn to do that???

Fright Knight: *violent flashbacks to Clockwork's Sailor Moon era*

#doodles from a pond #danny phantom #fright knight #okay so I’m trying to figure out my preferences when it comes to comic making #and here’s the results I have so far #how do I even tag this #anime man fright knight au?? #this was supposed to be a Halloween special and then I didn’t finish it on time #I’m gonna go question myself in a corner have a good day

[wasawillows]

the thing that gets me about people being like “she was forcing the connections in invisible string” is that the whole song isn’t solely about them being in the same place at different times or all the different times they could’ve met but didn’t. its about “you were living your life, doing these things, while at the same time i was living my life and doing these other things and we had no idea each other even existed.” that’s literally the whole point. she wasn’t saying “omg i used to sit on green grass and read and you used to wear a teal shirt at your job and teal and green are almost the same color omg connected” it’s just “isnt it crazy that we’ve been living on this earth all this time never knowing each other and having no idea we’d one day come into each others lives?” like im sorry i know yall dont like joe anymore but have you guys really never had the thought, while cleaning your room or making dinner, that your soulmate exists and is doing something right now, too, and that one day you’ll sit and compare the timelines of your lives with each other? like thats the whole point of the song!! not we had all of these crazy almost run ins. that’s what makes it so pretty to think!!! that they were always connected through every insignificant moment of their lives and all those little insignificant moments are essentially what led them to each other.

#this has been bothering me and i didn’t want to say it bc i didn’t want anyone to think im defending joe or anything #just defending the entire concept of invisible string bc i myself have always thought about the invisible string my whole life #taylor swift

[idolomantises]

I’m cool with people making succubus/incubus/cambion OCs based off of the guide I provided. I actually didn’t expect so many people to be interested!

#txt #I basically made one so I didn’t have to worry about repeating myself in the comment section #monsters and girls

[toastcryptid]

Some old never posted sketches of a homebrewed Batman AU I was crafting alchemy-like by taking my favorite aspects of each incarnation and putting them in a blender until smooth and emulsified.

#he’s so kitten 💕😔 #batman #Bruce Wayne #I have civvi sketches as well somewhere along with an epic-length nites app document outlining my vision #I was very earnestly feeling myself with this one LMAO #if you read my notes on these images No You Didn’t

[excelsior9173]

this photo has done untold psychic damage to me

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#ramble on exie #sleep token #sleep token iii #sleep token iv #i genuinely have been looking at this one for an unhealthy amount of time #when is it my turn #i want someone to grab my head like that when they kiss me #and again… just insanely unhinged over the new looks. they unleashed a part of myself i didn’t even know i had lmao

[god-of-this-new-blog]

“‘Cause if it gets you through the night. Well then hey, hey it’s your night, and that’s your right, it ain’t my business” — The Paper Chase

#EVERYONE SHUT THE HELL UP HE IS HAPPY HE IS GOD HE IS KIRA AND HE IS HAPPY BECAUSE HE WON #if you think Light didn’t throw up and scream-cry-laugh for hours after killing L you are WRONG #per my convos with the wonderful dykelawlight #this one goes out to u xoxo #Real Tags: #death note #lawlight #light yagami #l lawliet #my art #death note fanart #deathnote #anywayyyy #As Monica and Isa and Myself have said Light is Roman Roy coded as fuck #he can not handle funerals at ALL #you all wait and watch out for when I give you the ‘is he in there can we get him out’ Light at Soichiro’ s funeral moment #Until then #for now you get Light’s horrific Pyrrhic victory

[stuckinapril]

I will entrench myself in literature this year no matter what the fuck it takes

#forgot how euphoric it felt to just be seen by a piece of writing #I’m excusing myself for last year bc I was having the busiest semester of my life & then traveled shortly after #so I didn’t make reading a priority #but no more. i have to consume more this year. it makes me feel so good whenever I’m down in the dumps #it’ll be hard in tandem w all the other shit I’m juggling but I’ll make it work #I’ll make it a priority for my mental health lol #just like I have to pop my vitamin pills every day I have to READ MORE to STAY SANE #teen me consumed so many books & i wanna go back to that. full on literature girl for 2024 #p

[delizbin]

Effie’s first year as an escort was… interesting! Life threatens aside (and some death here and there), the parties and dresses were nice :)

#I am aware this is not the kind of “wall” scenario you all wanted but I have something in mind okay stick with me #be patient #:) #he would never threaten her the first year c’mon … wouldn’t he tho? #black and white because my mind doesn’t properly function so this is the maximum of productivity for me I guess #hayffie #this really happened I was there I can confirm this #he isn’t a ray of sunshine for sure #she must have tried to interfere at the beginning just to drop the ball 3 years in or so #hoping for the promotion right #this is my blog I write whatever I want in the tags okay? okay #shish I really just want to shut myself up sometimes #while am I still writing aah #capisc just popped into my head and I had to make him say that for some reason #he was drunk of course but at least he didn’t vomit on her here and there

[rotteneldritchhorror]

One of my favourite things about being disabled is the excitement and happiness when you can do small things that others might find easy

It’s such simple joy to be able to make yourself a cup of tea for the first time (or the first time in a while!) or to just make a simple meal that you couldn’t before! Finally figuring out how to make something that doesn’t overwhelm you, etc etc

It’s a joy in the mundane that ableds need to learn from sometimes /lh

#I just made myself a cup of tea for the first time in a while and I’m proud of myself #even though it didn’t taste good and had to have someone else fix it for me #am still very proud of myself #disabled #disabilties #disability #physical disability #mental disability #autist #being autistic #autistic experiences #autistic #all the autism tags cause my experience is due to my autism #actually autistic #autistic spectrum #autism #autistic adult #autistic culture

[echosong971]

facing that one shovel puppet before the patch

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#i didn’t have TOO much trouble with him myself but i thought this was funny regardless LOL #anyways enjoy this very quick animatic lol #lies of p #neowiz #lies of p pinocchio #p #pinocchio #shovel puppet #animatic #echosong971 #art #digital art #fanart #lies of p art #lies of p fanart

[femmeconomics]

hate to say it, but part of ending the stigma around sexual assault means not assuming every woman blames herself. yes, female socialization encourages it, but that doesn’t make it a given, and the goal of all of these campaigns is to eventually diminish the proportion of women who do blame themselves. it is entirely possible, and increasingly common, for women to experience sexual assault and not feel shame or guilt, which we should be happy about. but instead, there are only so many times you can hear “you know it’s not your fault, right?” before it sounds like “it was your fault”. and there’s only so many times you can hear “don’t blame yourself” before it sounds like “you should blame yourself”. because it feels good to say, doesn’t it? sure, you don’t believe she’s guilty, but you do believe she should feel guilty, so that you can disabuse her of the notion. just something to consider.

#i think we are very pleased with the idea of female shame #even among people who genuinely do not believe women are at fault for being assaulted #you are still meant to pay the penance of suffering and self destruction #god fucking knows why #“i got mugged” “aww don’t blame yourself for walking around with those fancy shoes and visible wallet okay? it’s not your fault” #you’d be like girl what. i didn’t fucking say it was my fault but your mind sure jumped there fast 🤨 #“my mom died” “wow. do you feel terrible crippling shame for everything you’ve ever done wrong in your life? #up to and including causing your mom’s death? because that would be totally wrong if you did” #like how could that possibly be an appropriate response #genuinely i think the feeling that i was going completely insane post-being raped because no one would believe i didn’t blame myself #was like. solidly half as traumatic as the actual event #like. it is okay not to feel guilty and shameful. it’s great actually. you’re not having the wrong response.