#I dont want that for a child ever again

[tomatoart]

to stay the same sad, sorry mother

#resident evil 7 #resident evil 8 #mia winters #rosemary winters #eveline re7 #rose winters #resident evil #resident evil fanart #blood #do u guys ever think abt how insane the mia development is in such a good way. like being an alone single(ish) mother w a bioweapon baby #who just wants a family. then they kill that kid and they escape just to be doomed to the same life again. i dont think shed EVER view her #life w rose as punishment dont take it like that. but more so her life is a punishment to pay for her sins via the cycle of being given #everything back. just to end up with the same isolating issues she had in re7 #her motherhood is so interesting!!! i think shed have a lot of complexities w it.. a balance of unconditional love out of fear of how badly #she messed up the first time. oh my goddd #i love herrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr shes my fav re chara ever and like. all time top faves in general. i love her so much GRRRRRRRRRR #idc if this looks kinda ass n rushed but i had to put it down ^.^ #a childs loving grip too LOL *goes insane*

[francy-sketches]

Hiiiii guess who finished her pmv. finally. um enjoy :3

#asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #valyrianscrolls #cersei lannister #and a bunch of others I don't feel like tagging them #wrote some of them in the desc if you scroll past my ramblings. the others I hope you can tell by context clues i believe in u #my art #pmv #it's finally joever oh my god #i dont want to look at it ever again. this is my child and I'm abandoning it at your doorstep 🏃‍♂️💼 #btw confession time I started this before finishing adwd so like if you notice book inaccuracies. just ignore it #tbh towards the end i was just kinda going off the song lyrics more than anything #also like her hair should not be that long I think. the show poisoned my brain bc they do fuck all for like a year post walk #n e way ill talk about it more tomorrow probably. im gonna be so annoying about this btw I WILL force you to watch it #istg if it flops 🔪

[eternallovers65]

Thoughts about dramatrio as a forever viewer (and occasionally bad and baghera viewer)

RP WISE!!!! DON'T GO BOTHER THE CC'S

From q!forever's perspective, you can see how the dramatrio was always a duo and not a trio. qbad and qbaghera do not trust forever, and if they do, they don't trust him enough for their secrets.

- They never supported qforever during his presidency (qbad did vote for him, tho). qbad always complained about everything forever did, even tho qforever always tried to listen to him and everyone else.

- qbaghera did not told him the secret about her childhood, but she told qbad. Just like bad didn't tell qforever about the fed worker he kidnapped but he told qbaghera.

- "Oh but qforever took his waystone first" he did that because he asked for an item and no one helped him, so he got tired of helping people but no one helping him

- Also, qbaghera is dapper's mom, and qbad is pomme's dad. qforever was never included in this conversation.

- They say forever will get easily manipulated by the federation because he's the president, but yesterday both bad and baghera said they don't think cucurucho is bad

- They both banned forever from their houses

Anyway, they like to have forever around for the fun part of it, to joke and all but when stuff get serious they don't tell him anything and keep talking about him behind his back. And the only people that actually trust qforever is the favelafive

#i saw people saying that qbaghera was in a lose lose situation yesterday but idk you tell bad but you dont tell forever??? #'oh because hes the president“ when did qforever ever betrayed his best friends??? during the whole pill arc he still tried to help cellbit #also the whole argument goes to shit because now bad and baghs are saying cucurucho isnt bad as if he didn't lock up phil or torture cellbi #this was always a duo during the serious moments and only blind people dont see this and say qforever is acting like a child #and i think this started when q!forever hit leo during his attack but even tho he redeemed himself foolish doesnt hate him for that #and has forgiven him somehow baghera and bad dont and they have this idea that forever is impulsive even tho he can be quite the strategist #when he wants and again he always does everything for everyone and theres zero retribution from them i mean forever literally did that part #for bad two days ago and told he would try to make bad and baghera happy even tho he doesnt know whats going on with them bc they dont tell #anyway im tired of forever being the good guy always i need him to actully wake up and just stop caring #qsmp #qbaghera #qbadboyhalo #qforever

[fleshdyke]

#csa warning for tags #ughhh ik i was just talking abt this but man. Man. constantly bullied as a child + raped as a child is a brutal combo huh #completely irreversibly fucked up sense of intimacy. i dont want to have sex with anyone i dont care what ppl think of me looks wise but i #also care more than anything and want people to want me so bad #like when ur only experience with anyone at all finding you desirable is being raped at 6ish. fucks u up man #was constantly told by everyone i knew that i was undesirable from day fucking one. i was always the one ppl would dare their friends to #'ask out' bc everyone thought i was that bad. i never had those rumours of 'some boy likes you' without people laughing in the background #all of my friends. even the ones that were also weird kids and bullied etc etc always have stories of other kids having crushes on them or #whatever. and i just never had that. it feels like i missed out on something important #i want to be pursued by a guy i hate i want them to not leave me alone. i want to feel like im in danger. and i know how fucking disgusting #that is but i cant help it. like i feel like thats the only way im going to feel normal and wanted like theres not something inherently #wrong with me. and i know how dangerous that is but its not like it matters anyways bc still no one likes me at all. #and i know how stupid of a thing it is to obsess over like what am i 9 years old? but i just cant get it out of my head #like idk i feel like the only way im going to actually feel desirable at all is if someone tries to rape me again. or if i feel like i have #to worry about someone raping me again. i know i wouldnt feel that way if someone was like. nice about it. #bc if someone genuinely liked me and was a decent human being about it i wouldnt be able to see it as anything other than faking it for pit #i wouldnt be able to believe it. even if i wasnt waiting for them to drop the joke and start laughing at me i would always think it was jus #an act bc they feel bad for me. the only way i could ever think it's genuine and that i'm desirable at all is if someone sexually #harassed me. like idk how to explain it but thats the only way i could feel desirable at all #bc it's the only way i've ever been desirable. when i was a kid. #and it terrifies me so bad bc i know how fucking disgusting that is and how self destructive it is #but i still feel like i dont even have to really worry about being assaulted. bc i still believe im completely undesirable at my core. #i dont believe i could be desired so i dont believe i have to worry about being raped. bc no one would want to anyways #rambles #vent

[spitblaze]

todays award for 'man what the fuck' goes to reddit for making me see pr0/-ship discourse in goddamn 2023. thought we were past that but i guess not

#spitblaze says things #i am once again reminding ppl that media and fan content are not created or consumed in a vacuum #you do not need to whitewash all 'taboo topics' from any work but maybe like. warn people up front. listen to minorities and csa victims #consider if yelling at strangers on the internet is actually helping anybody at all. esp the people you purport to be helping #realize that most people think grown-adult and literal-child pairings are gross for a reason and they arent just pearl clutching prudes #(im talking like 'this character is 10 and this one is 35' not 'this one is 17 and this one is 18'. yes ive seen it. yes i hate it) #idk. have a set of personal values rather than trying to align urself with some movement or group or whatever #also maybe give a little less leeway to ppl making purposefully tittilating csa content? even if it IS fiction??? #at that point its not 'exploring dark subject matter' anymore its just jerkoff material. maybe you can afford to be a bit more discerning #also. learn what a maladaptive coping mechanism is please #thats it i just. dont want to think about this shit ever agaaaaaain

[batcavescolony]

I'm back talking about Harry Potter and Snape's worst memory because while I hate the author y'all bug me.

Snape worst memory isn't James bulling him or string him up in front of the school, (that was bad I'm not saying it wasn't) it was Lily ending her friendship with him because he called her a Mudblood. With evidence.

To prove my point we have to go read the Deathly Hallows when Snape gave Harry his memories! We get to see the scene again but this time the thing that sticks out the most is Snape calling Lily a Mudblood. Now if that's not enough proof the next memory goes like this.

*Outside Gryffindor Tower*

Snape: I'm sorry

Lily: I'm not interested

S: I'm sorry!

L: save your breath... I only came out here because Mary told me you were threatening to sleep here.

S: I was. I would have done. I never ment to call you a Mudblood it just-

L: Slipped out? It's too late. I've made excuses for you for years. None of my friends can understand why I even talk to you. You and your precious little Death Eater friends- you see, you don't even deny it! You don't even deny that's what you're all aiming to be! You can't wait to join You-Know-Who, can you? I can't pretend anymore. You've chosen your way, I've chosen mine.

S: No-listen, I didn't mean-

L:-to call me a Mudblood? But you call everyone of my birth Mudblood, Severus. Why should I be any different?

*Lily leaves. Memory ends*

The next memory is Snape becoming a turn coat for Dumbledore so he could keep Lily safe because Voldemort wouldn't spare her.

Snape has had worse experiences then a teenage James Potter being a bully (even if it was shitty). so we look at the rest of the memory and lo and behold what do we see? The actual worst moment of Snape life, the moment he lost Lily forever.

#I just saw someone say they hated Lily because he's was too hard on Severus all he did was call her a Mudblood. #Yeah just called her a slur...And found it funny when dark magic was used on someone. And joined a hate group that would kill her. #And would've let her child and husband die if it ment she lived. bffr 🙄 lets put this in real world terms! #you're a minority (pick one) and you go to a school but their are some people who hate you for existing. but its ok you've got your bff! #now years go by and bff is still your bff but theyve changed. they're hanging out with those aforementioned people who hate you for existin #and yeah you dont like it but they're your bff since for ever so you make excuses. but then bff starts calling people like you slurs... #now bff hasn't called you slurs so maybe its just peer pressure you let it slide its your bff. now you find out that not only are there #people who hate you for existing there is his hate group and they want you and people like you dead. obviously you dont like his. now bffs #friends they want to join this hate group... and bff doesn't deny it. ok thats not great. bffs friends who wanna join the hate group have #now moved passed just calling people like you slurs. they've went and beat the shit out of a person like you that you considered a friend. #and bff.... they say that it was just a joke. but are again not denying wanting to join the hate group that wants you dead. you love bff so #you just keep your mouth shut. now the day comes! bff has now called you a slur. and you cant make excuses anymore. they're just like their #friends and you cut your losses because again bff and their friends want to join a hate group that wants to kill you!!! #its not poor litte Severus its poor Lily. she thought she had a friend and HE betrayed HER! but but but why didnt she stop him from joining #she was a child! she was in a new world with no idea! she was in a whole nother house! and its not her fucking job to fix him! he joined th #hate group HE KNEW HATED HER! if he truly loved her he wouldn't have joined. but but but its not that- ADROMADA TONKS could be a Slytherin #and not be a Death Eater and her family was pure blood. she could do it! so could Snape. #severus snape #lily potter #snapes worst memory #the marauders #harry potter #the deathly hallows #lily evans #put some more respected on her name. #fuck jkr #james potter #slytherin #how can you be a snape stan and not like lily that 80% of his personality. #snape

[rewritingcanon]

the amount of times i gotta pull words out of my ass to describe a shooting star when writing this fic:

#theres more but i dont want to add more than 10 photos LMFAO #this is why i cant have a beta reader. their eyes will cross over #literally every word i can use out of the dictionary #magic hour #scorbus #harry potter #hp #hpcc #cursed child #scorpius malfoy #albus severus potter #scorbus fic #scorbus fanfiction #rewriting #my fics #this may seem like im flexing but i need everyone to know that im not exaggerating when i say ive had to go into detail anout a fucking— #—comet over 10 times in one fic. the joys of trying to turn a visual masterpiece into written form (i aint ever attempting this again)

[olli-online]

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#cant help but feel thisis all i deserve and all ill ever know and it feels like im having my skin peeled off of my body #i just want to be 3 years old again before anything bad happened to me i just want to restart #maybe i dont deserve that but idk if i have any more strength in me to keep trying to forgive myself and forgive everyone else #wouldnt it have been a nice end if i did die in that hospital the last memories i have being in the bed painting with shitty brushes with #my dad while i was hooked up to every possible machine. at least then i wouldve gone out as a child who still had their innocence and #not an angry lonely unlovable adult with nothing to offer but the worst of myself

[thequeenofcarvenstone]

Yes yes okay Buck with babies is very cute uh huh but like... I just cannot see Eddie wanting another kid. And like idk them being a family of three is just!!! It's so good!

#eddie diaz #evan buckley #9 1 1 #Christopher diaz #i feel like im the only buddie shipper who doesnt want them to gain another child somehow #like idk eddie and chris are such a unit and a team and eddie struggled so hard with being a dad and i dont think he ever fell in love with #being a parent but instead with being CHRIS' parent #like im sure if he somehow acquired another kid he would step up and be a great dad to them too but hes not actively seeking out being a da #again #and like buck and chris have such a special bond too!!! #like buck saved his life. hes his best friend. chris snuck into the icu to tell him to get the fuck better #the buckley diaz family is a family of three to me im sorry #buddie #buckley diaz family

[bonnieisaway]

spoilers for like every second of scissor seven

#i almsot pissed myself laughing at cola getting shot in the face because i put a vineboom over it #help me god #scissor seven #killer seven #seven #thirteen #go away if you dont want to die #BOOM #im a shadow killer BOOM #of xuanwu BOOM #im laughing so fucknig hard #the whole point of this joke #was supposed to be that im not laughing at the tragic moments #and they were shocking #but now im fucking giggling #because i put a vine boom over a child getting fucking evaporated #oh my fucking god #im not gonna take a second of this show seriously ever again #help me jesus #heres some uh healing paste BOOM

[themagnadefender]

screaming crying eating glass at the smosh news and ian and anthony interview !!! so happy to see two friends reconnect and let go of so much pain in favor of their relationship and to find love in what theyre doing and creating with one another again! was literally crying through half that video because friendship breakups are so devastating !!!! excited that they got their channel and that mythical was in full support of them like the good dads they are, and probably as a duo themselves KNEW what that meant for ian when he brought that to them 😭😭

on the other hand i am ALSO lowkey worried. i mean i know ian said that smosh pit and games will basically be the same and that he’s excited for the main channel to get an identity, or to kind of reclaim what that identity once meant for smosh, but hmMmM idk the thing that ian said about smosh turning into this entity that focused not only on what was going on in front of the camera but highlighting all the people behind it too and this cool community of a company put together by the people in it and watching it, ESPECIALLY after what happened with defy and having to rebuild all of that with mythical’s help, is why i love what the channels are now too!! i like how the crew is loved and shown as well as the cast and i dont want the bitches who hated on smosh after anthony left to,, idk just be stinkers to this very wonderful group of people who put out GOOD content too!! i will defend them to my fucking grave, tommy and rachel and greg and lisa and kiana and zoe and garrett and erin and I SWEAR TO GOD PETER and rock and marcus and heidi and just!! everyone MAKE those videos what they are, and what they are is such a good, fun, and genuinely funny time !! i just dont want anyone coming back to smosh with the mindset that only the ian and anthony stuff is any good and then using that to go hating on the other stuff, or the people always saying they miss the old smosh somehow feeling ?? idk like vindicated or using this as a tool against these people to make them feel bad. i know i cant stop people from commenting shit or talking shit, but i wish i didnt have to think that those people are probably on their way :(

i’m excited for the change! i’m worried too! but at the end of the day, ian saying that he’s willing to burn down the channel he has been with since the beginning so long as he’s doing it with the person he started it with is enough for me to trust them.

#smosh #I KNOW RANDOM POST FROM MY SILENT ASS #i just had to put my thoughts on it somewhere LOL #outing myself as a smosh girlie ✌️ #have been since i was a wee child #which is why im like anyone who didnt even give smosh a CHANCE after anthony left #dont talk to me or my emotional support youtube channel ever again #i just dont want the gang to break up #love anthony returning but i dont want anyone leavING ME #idk why they would but you know #change ripples until it settles #idk #ANYWAY #congrats to the boys!! #so proud of them and thankful they allowed us into that conversation because it was sooo heartwarming to watch

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Just found out my two siblings are in my mom's will, but not me. Also my grandpa has told the entire family about his engagement. Except for me. Also my dad told my siblings that he and my mom bought a plot of land. Can you guess who they haven't told?

#these tags are about to be a massive trauma dump tbh so avoid if you want #when i was fifteen i came out as trans. and my mom was terrible about it. and my dad was up for a promotion so we were considering moving #and i found a list of my moms pros and cons for moving. on the pros was 'people there dont know about (deadname)' #so that was ideal for a suicidal fifteen year old to find. and tonight i just learned that im not in her will #both of my siblings are. but im not. and its just always been like this #im treated like im not part of the family anymore. and it's been that way since i was fifteen #i heard from my brother that my grandpa is engaged. and he told both my siblings about it directly. he never told me #i reach out to my parents. i never hear back. my aprents text my sibling to check on me (sib and i live together) #everything is kind of shit rn. one of my rats is dying. my family doesnt love me. im broke. my best friend and i arent really talking #because he fucked my ex gf and now things arent really the same anymore. strangely enough. he doesnt reach out anymore #so i have no one to talk to about any of this shit #last night i was crying about my rat and i guess my roommate heard it cuz this morning they said #'are you okay? if you ever need someone to talk to who will never bring it up again you can talk to me' #and thats the most loving thing ive heard from someone in months. from a woman ive known since august #im. just. at a loss. since i found out tonight. that im not in my mom's will #its not about money. or assets. its about the fact that im her fucking child and both of her other children are in it but im not #after she dies shes willing to help them out but i can get fucked ig #i wonder if im gonna be invited to my grandpas wedding. i wonder if any of them would want me at their funeral #i wonder if any of them would come to mine

[hauntingblue]

BACK TO ONE PIECE LETSGOOOOO

#nami put luffy in a cage.... dont let sanji see that.... again nami demonstrating how she is the strongest ever..... #why is franky the boat akshaksjskqjqk ROBIN NEARLY 1000 MILLION YEAAAAAHHHHH #sanji exploded </3 rip the smoking got to him..... luffys snapshot in the cage beaten up akdhsksjsk #jinbes theme is a banger.... buggy lmaoo chacho means president??? that is so funny... CHACHOOOO!!! also buggy owning croc money... banger #these two divas sitting cross legged on the couch bullying buggy.... ajhdkajsa buggys bounty akdhsksjsks #this whole episode was so funny lmao buggy.... #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1086 #luffy wanted yamato to join the crew omg....... i mean of course but he was maaaad.... i kew yamato was a nakama for sure #marco telling luffy ace would be proud of him and smiling.... didnt that happen before and he got sad??? development #SERAPHIM?? THE NEW PACIFISTAS?? why tf does she look like hancock??? OMG MARGARET!!! FUCKING BLACKBEARD??? IN AMAZON LILY??? #baby angel mihawk too??? what is this.... KILL BLACKBEARD YES!!!! THROW HIM INTO THE SEA!!! LET THE SEA RECLAIM HIM!!! #so pretty sure what garp was talking about were the seraphim pacifistas..... just keep making things worse old man sure #koby is gay confirmed see.... helmeppo got got... the downsides of being bisexual... #BLACKBEARD GOT HER!!! GET YOUR FUCKING HANDS OFF HER!!!! #episode 1087 #hancock lying on rayleighs legs omg... those are her parents ALSO SHAKKY EX KUJA CAPTAIN AND EX EX EMPERESS??? RAYLEIGH????? #why does amazon lily have a giant portrait of luffy on the palace facade akdhaksjaka i mean i DO know why..... #who tf is wang zhi and what did koby do.... and blackbeard is NASTY!!!! RAYLEIGH GET HIM!!! this reminds me of shanks in marineford... a lo #koby kidnapped by blackbeard?? omg kuma....... he is alright.... why the cherry blossom petals in between them ajdjsksjwk #see how sabo is alive.... but why does koala have blue eyes and orange hair now.... luffy having a crisis #i was thinking is carobou om that fucking barrel and YES why us brook crying akdhsk what do you know #zoro using luffy's words against him.... but i dont think ace is a good example of this.... zoro and sanji fighting about who is on top.... #luffy asking robin for news.... BUT ROBIN I WANT TO KNOW!!!! omg this ending???? WHAT DID LUFFY SAY???? that was beautiful............. #he said he wants to give everyone freedom i know it... and he needs to be pirate king for that.... he knew since he was a child..... #omg....... the one piece is freedom for everyone and for some reason roger couldnt do it he wanted his son to do it..... #back on my theories grind.... #episode 1088 #LUFFY!!!! THE MAN THAT YOU ARE!!!!

[fleshdyke]

hchkvgjvfj

#csa warning for tags #goddd being raped at 6ish and brutally bullied is a hell of a combination #i was the one kid in not only my grade but multiple above and below me as well that the boys would dare each other to 'ask out' #absolutely CONSTANTLY. like jesus #by the time i was raped i'd already been bullied pretty badly for a while. including being constantly told i was ugly by all the boys #which is like. a huge reason i was raped in the first place. i still dont know who it was but i can only assume he took advantage of me #being constantly bullied to abuse me. as child rapists so often do #but like i was always the one that would be 'asked out' as a dare bc why would any of them want to talk to me #it was so inconceivable that any of them could want to be near me let alone 'go out' with me. they didn't even bother trying to hide the way #they laughed. like they didn't try to hide it bc they knew no one would do anything #and this happening to me fucking constantly for years on end throughout my ENTIRE childhood. that fucks with you man #like i dont think its even possible for anyone to like being around me at all. let alone find me attractive #there's still never been a single person who's had a crush on me or whatever #like all my friends have stories about annoying boys having crushes on them when they were younger. and what does it say about me that im #the complete opposite. and like it's so stupid because who fucking cares what 10 year old boys thought in 2016 but it really really fucks #you up bad man. like if anyone ever does come to be attracted to me for whatever reason i dont think im ever going to be able to believe it #i'm always going to be waiting for the joke to end and them to start laughing. i'll always be waiting for the other shoe to drop #and the worst part of it all is that i fucking want to be raped again #being raped as a little kid is the only time anyone has ever wanted me. it's the only time i've ever been desired. and i dont even like sex #but it's just the only time anyone has ever loved me in a non parental way #like i have one crush story to all my friends'. and it was a grown man that raped me when i was little #and i want to be raped again so fucking badly not because i would enjoy it but because it would prove that someone actually fucking wants me #i want to be sexually harassed and not in the way i usually am. i want to be catcalled and have to be scared walking around alone #i want men to grope me and say disgusting things and rape me because then i would finally be fucking wanted #it would prove that i'm actually likeable in some capacity. that i still am #im so scared that now that im grown im just a lost cause. because i was only desirable when i was little. now im just nothing #and i know i shouldnt even care but its so fucking hard to shake. i just want someone to love me #and i love my mom so much but i want them to love me because they want to and not because they have to #rambles #vent

[wakinguponsaturday]

me @ me: stop thinking about your 'permanently on hiatus' teen Inquisitor fic. it's been 7 years. you are so busy right now you don't have time to pick this back up

me @ me: she was ELEVEN when the mage rebellion started. she was sent to the Templars as a political maneuver to bolster her family's reputation when she was EIGHT. her sister died in her arms days before they received word of the conclave. and you're just going to abandon her. wow

#dragon age #dai #im sorry i ever left you lil baby trevelyan #and i want to rewrite the first 8 chapters SO bad. i was apparently addicted to sentences with minimum 3 clauses at 17 #i have ideas again! fuck! #the newest one is that shes actually only 15 when the conclave happens but she lies and tells josie that shes 16 #because thats a 15yo thing to do and then she would be too anxious to admit she lied #and then when everyone goes to celebrate her 18th birthday in the time bw the endgame and trespasser #shes like okay i have to come clean about this. im so sorry. and everyone goes why??? did you do this?????? why not just say 18 then?? #and she goes i honestly dont know what to tell you i was more panicked than ive ever been in my entire life and then i ran with it #god. i missed my anxiety ridden child #emery #em.chats