#I might also be delirious

[bloodanddiscoballs]

@kingcatnine and I have been talking about Heavy x Spy ever since he sent me this post:

And I knew INSTANTLY I had to draw it when Rowan said it was them skfhfj so enjoy

#tf2 #tf2 spy #tf2 heavy #tf2 pyro #heavy x spy #russian roulette #send me ships #I had a lot of fun with this #I might also be delirious #it’s been a week and a half and I have slept mmmmm 7hrs? #team fortress 2 #tee eff queue #spoovy #Dez Art

[luzsadventures]

coming straight from my three page long notes app essay I wrote at 4am after seeing the barbie movie, some thoughts on why barbie is definitely aroace, and why that means the world to me tbh:

BARBIE IS AROACE. TELL ME IM WRONG.

barbie not wanting to be with ken is so important. she never has to explain herself. she’s just not interested. and that’s okay. she’s never shamed or ostracized because she’s not interested in ken. it's not played for jokes. there’s never even a moment of “well, maybe barbie will have a realization that ken's been there all along and they'll end up together”. nope, there’s never any expectation. and it’s not even in a girlboss feminism, “she doesn’t need a man” kind of way. she just doesn’t want that, and the movie respects that. the movie respects what she wants, which is something we don't see much when it comes to aroace rep (or like most rep when it comes to women tbh).

barbie also turns down ken in a way that makes it clear that she's just not interested. there's no hesitation or sugar coating to it. we see this in the "girls night" scene in front of the dreamhouse, when barbie says simply, she doesn't want ken there. even later on when she turns him down in ways that are a little nicer, she's still very firm in her decision. time and time again we see barbie knowing what she wants and asserting it. we live in a world where when turning down men women always feel the need to be nice about it and "let them down easy" either out of being polite or sometimes as a safety precaution. regardless, to see barbie be able to be firm in her decisions is so empowering.

I love how this subverts expectations, bc we know ken is (supposed to be) barbie’s boyfriend. she’s everything and he’s just ken (although we can get into the nuances of that statement some other time). that is the role ken has always played. so to have that subverted, to make it clear to begin with that barbie is not really all that into ken is such a nice change.

this is also SO important because barbie is a beacon of “stereotypical” femininity, and has also been historically sexualized. so the fact that the movie lets her be feminine and girly but she can still not be interested in ken is amazing. she is still allowed to be herself, and her femininity is neither tied to, nor does it detract from her want to not be with ken. the movie said girls can be feminine without being tied to male attention !! girls can be feminine just bc its fun !!

I can talk about this for hours it’s so genuinely healing for me. I doubt many others picked up on it, hell idk that this all was intentional, but I loved it <3

#some of this might not make sense bc it was 4am and i was delirious #but i stand by my statement #i'm also open to the interpretation that barbie is an ace lesbian #that also sounds about right #she's definitely some flavor of queer #barbie #barbie spoilers #aroace barbie real #aroace #aromantic #asexual #aroace rep #aroace representation #barbie 2023 #the barbie movie #barbie movie #greta gerwig #margot robbie

[knifearo]

seeing all those posts from ppl ab how miserable they are without a partner like sorry can't relate. i'm doing great and in fact i hope i die alone 🖤

#THIS POST IS ABOUT NON-PARTNERING AROMANTICISM #like unironically! i hope i die having been by myself my whole life!!!! #in a romantic/traditional partnering sense. in the way that people usually mean 'die alone' #to me there is such poetic beauty in my life ultimately being about myself. #and also i think saying that i hope i die alone fucking rocks. #fuck you and your societal standards. i am going to aspire toward the worst thing you could imagine for yourself #and i am going to hold such joy in it. your worst nightmare is my perfect future. my jubilation. my victory. #i'm going to be by my fucking self and it's going to be my decision and i am going to be deliriously happy. #SO fucking excited about it. looking forward to a long and fulfilled life and i hope i fucking die alone :) #new favorite phrase so obsessed with it can't stop saying it. i fucking hope i die alone!!!!! #i might be so lucky!!!!!! #aromantic #aromanticism #arospec #aro positivity #aspec #talking

[touchlikethesun]

i do think that the 3rd years must feel some pressure to be more responsible around the 2nd and 1st years, not to an insane degree but like it is there, and so it's really really nice when there's a scene with just them joking around with each other and being silly like they're high school boys they're kidsss they're so silly they're so funny suga's love language is screaming and violence daichi's kags impression is spot on i love them i love them a lot

#so much going on #but like the 3rd year parent jokes are annoying but at the same time i do get the sense that they aren't as comfortable messing around like #this with the 2nd and 1st years like there's the tiniest littlest bit of distance bc they're older and they're supposed to be the mentors #i always like to see them more relaxed like this we don't see it all that often #also i think they might be slightly delirious here bc this is after the practice game with fukurodani #so they're coming off a week of INTENSE training and many many (so many) penalties #anyways the third years are underrated pls love and appreciate them #azumane asahi #sugawara koushi #sawamura daichi #haikyuu #karasuno third years #summer training camp arc

[queermania]

#I think I might be delirious #but also this is peak comedy to me #right now in this moment #spn polls #mp

[a-s-levynn]

So i had a dream last night which wasn't a nightmare and i even remember most of it! which is super exciting. I barely ever remember dreams that are just simply that so this is a fairly rare occasion for me.

It was weird tho

But it was.. i don't even know what it was so let me ramble about it in the tags a bit

#there was this bioluminescent and also biotoxic creature in a city at night #it was bipedal sort of humanoid shaped but with definitive deep sea features #it had that transparent skin and flesh and body with bioluminescing highlights #which i have no idea how it worked because the entire dream took place in a city enviroment on very much dry land but it's a dream innit #the face was definitely not human more a jumble of fishy features #it was gorgeous btw in a humanoid monster sort of fascinating way #it had this weird feel to it that it's something very old that should not be here now.. some sort of reminiscence of a bygone era #i might try to draw it but i don't know how successful i'd be to be honest #anyway so i was part of a group (don't know what kind exactly) and i never seen any of them i just knew they existed #and there was this innate knowledge that the creature was kind of hunting or more like luring us but we also were hunting it #i don't know if it did something to us before or we just had this unexplainable pull towards it but we definitely were fixated on it #and it was supposed to be a big threat even just by existing and walking around but also would have been bad if it was dead #but i don't know why was it so bad because the “toxicity” of the creature wasn't lethal it just made you stuck in a blissful delirious stat #just by being too close to it and which in most cases would fade when it moved away so the other alternative felt way worse #cuz if it would die something else would have gotten loose which would have been worse than the delirium #it was some sort of unstoppable deadly madness i think.. at least that was what i felt the dream eluded to #and i think we wanted to neutralize it somehow but we had no idea how to avoid disaster that surely would come if it dies #but it would have also revitalize nature on a basically divine scale by giving it's body back to it so there was this dilemma the whole tim #but none of us would have any answers so we just followed this inner draw regardless of the uncertainty #and the entire dream was basically us lureing the creature somewhere but simultaniously it was somehow luring us in as wel #to the same spot #it was a vast moonlit fieald outside of city bounds surrounded with tall dark trees and the sky was littered with stars #and a sharp cliff to one side #so we arrived there and we were standing on opposite sides and look towards each other #but looking into the creatures eyes literally woke me up #there was a noise it made and i know i understood it as words inside the dream but i can't remember what it was after waking just the noise #and that was it #it wasn't long i think tho it felt that way

[lil-vibes]

hc that chuuya doesn't get sick often, but when be DOES, it hits him like a train. he'll sustain fevers that should send his body into shock for days at a time. his skin becomes so, so sensitive that he will not tolerate anything touching it that isn't the three (3) very specific blankets that he bought for this specifically or dazai's hands (but only his hands)

he's so sensitive that touching dazai's bandages will make him retch but then again if his scars rubb a little too much onto chuuya's skin, he'll want to claw it off (chuuya feels very guilty abt this btw). once dazai realized what the issue was he blew like,,,, half of his monthly salary to have arm covers custom made with the same material as those blankets so he can touch chuuya without causing the other unnecessary pain next time he gets sicks

#sick fics are so beloved to me #chuuya; delirious with 42° fever: #dazai; stressed: okay okay this is fine everything is gonna be FINE - #hes sitting there. debating if he can call yosano and reasonably explain what exactly hes doing in a pm executive's home #also hc that post coruption chuuya loves to be touched by dazai and so he goes with that and then almost hears his own heart break when #chuuya pulls away violently from dazais touch bc it has NEVER happened before #anyways yeah #the og draft had like. 4 correctly spelled words bc i worte it when i had a fever myself #i also have like 2k ish words writen for this #bsd #skk #chuuya my love #dazai #personal hc #my hcs #soft skk #writing prompt #fic idea #might come back to this

[kenobihater]

1 am sautéed pierogi save me. 1 am sautéed pierogi. save me 1 am sautéed pierogi.

#quetiapine always makes me SO fuckin hungry so i always gotta eat a full meal b4 taking it else im up cookin in 30 mins fully delirious 😫 #nearly passed out making pasta one time bc id taken my meds on an ENTIRELY empty stomach. it also might have been due to an addisonian #crisis and a drop in blood pressure but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ not sure i even have addison's disease so w/e. the meds DEFFO contributed tho lol #len speaks

[popcornfromhell]

The only thing giving me life atm is nice mmutuals and watching numbers go up and that fear that you feel when you almoast fuck up a survival game. Its so intoxicating. Is this why peaple parachute? Is this why we take unnecessary risks? Idk but god DAMN almoast dying in my zombie survival game is making me feel ALIVE idk how really to describe it its so intoxicating

#i might be delirious and having a suger crash bc i drink my tea and coffee eith like 10 sppoons so ofc imma speak my mind im a free GIRL now #ive also had like idk 20 or more cups #cups i ment mugs #large mugs #like those mugs youd find in a ps1 or 2 game where small things are slightly larger #imma post a pic just now

[mothram]

#diana's music diary #less delirious today cause I didn't take the sleep meds last night #think I'll get some stuff done today -:) #I'm looking at SSDs atm #cause I'm very tired of running out of space and 1TB is not cutting it ;; #girls just want to hoard all of their music in FLAC quality is that really too much to ask? #I've also uh #been looking at thinkpads a little cause I need another laptop for one of my projects... 😳😊 #probably not gonna get one today but I might browse some secondhand ones at least and consider a bit... #feeling even just a little bit of focus today has been nice... #let's try to make the most of today.. and make it nice and good and cozy n.n #(also I've been trying to get into maidcore for a while but lately something clicked and I suddenly got way into it -:3) #Youtube

[benchtrioupdates]

Ranboo posted on TikTok!

#mod vee #tiktok #ranboo #billzo #i just got back from an amusement park and i am fuckinf exhausted im gonna watch community or something and pass out #actually i might start the good place ive been wanting to do that for a while #also i find it kinda funny that the main character of the good place is played by the voice actor of Anna from frozen #i dont know why thats funny to me it just is #sorry im lowkey delirious i was just in 90 degree fahrenheit weather for like 5 hours straight i was drinking water but still

[riddleturner]

recently started da2 for the first time!! just started act 3 and this mother fucker. hes living in my brain and will not LEAVE

#anders dragon age #anders da2 #anders dragon age 2 #dragon age 2 #da2 #da2 anders #im so . deliriously obsessed w this man. he is breaking my HEART #idk Exactly how it ends but i . i know it is not good. #im also like 12 years late to the party but i care him very bad. da writers why are you The Way You Are. Id Like To Talk #anyways! might try digitizing this bc i dont usually do physical art but he is in my BRAIN and i had sm free time at work so :^) sewer man #i also dont rlly post sketches! or post....much of my art at all LMFAO bc its usually oc stuff but. if my da2 blorbies brainrot presists #maybe ill doodle sm more!!

[jennycalendar]

hats off to my mother for guilting me before i even am on the plane. it’s like she’s decided to be on the clock about being terrible now that this is officially a day i’m spending with her even in the loosest philosophical sense

#musings #i am deliriously tired and want to murder someone and also be asleep and also cry #might try n channel that into writing on the plane but realistically my brain is radio static

[buthappysoverrated]

okay okay I can finally watch frank vs russia I’m liveblogging

#hy speaks #I just had two exams and they were awful #i also sleep very badly for the past few days so I might be slightly delirious at this point #iasip #iasip s16 spoilers

[louwhose]

redraw of the first time I ever drew Link two years ago today!! I really like how it turned out and also love seeing the improvement from year to year!

2022 and 2021, respectively, under the cut

storytime because why not I have you here anyway but each of these so far has been done in a slightly different medium obviously the first one was on paper just colored with water color markers and the second was on the drawing app on my phone and the final is on my laptop because that's where I've been doing art more lately and other storytime is that when I did the first one it was actually just a gift for my friend I wasn't actually into LoZ yet and then later that year I played botw and got into so that's why I wanted to do the redraw the first time and now I've kinda just been into ever since so I figured why not make it a tradition

also I did post the first redraw here

#also when I finished it I was delirious because I was tired and just stared at it in a daze for 30min going “he's too pretty” #legend of zelda #breath of the wild #loz #botw #lou draws #also I was a little eager to do it so I actually finished this in january #and the thing with link's fingers on the sword in the newest one is a reference to the picture of myself that I took as a reference initial #edit on the day of it getting posted: if I had realized the totk stuff that would happen shortly before I might have made it totk link

[anderperries]

you know,,, i feel like the reason i ended up nonbinary is because i would read both the dangerous book for boys and the daring book for girls as a kid

#molly babbles #i still have a couple spin-off books in my closet #also im kinda delirious from smoke and being sick so this might be too niche