[It’s about time I felt so depressed and angry again…obviously my parents continue to be a continuous benefactor of my low mood, but now I’m just more sad than anything. Sadness lingers like a cloud on me at all times. I can’t seem to scrub it away. I can’t even die yet because my siblings would be sad lol. I need to review the document I made a month(?) ago to keep myself going on.]
i’m so fucking done with the duffers just treating the characters like these unstoppable unflappable machines that get only mildly affected by what happens to them unless it’s relevant to the plot, while they’re a group of literal teenagers/young adults going through unimaginable interdimensional life-threatening horrors while suffering from immense physical and psychological damage most people don’t get to ever experience in their life. like. what the fuck.
so i really like fics like this, because i need to see the party actually paying attention to the way steve was incredibly fucked up by the bats and stop just being okay with him acting as canon fodder. anyway. great, silly, but in a sad, desperate way. and by god, everything better turn out good for them in the end per the author’s design because i literally won’t accept anything else.
@walkingsaladshooter just thank you for this, from the bottom of my heart.
see I am very disjointed from a lot of nine/ten fandom discourse because I genuinely believe that in a different world where space boy was not to be seen, had an older Rose gone to the hospital and bumped into a certain Doctor Jones by a vending machine or as she was taking Rose’s vitals, she would have instantly hit it off with Martha. and probably flirted with her a little on accident and then on purpose when Martha flirted back
i feel i’ve been a bit self absorbed lately but i’m not sure where to begin, any advice? my friends are v understanding and i want to be the best version of myself and not wallow in my own self misery anymore, and they also deserve a better version of me
As far as where to begin, that is a step that only you can decide for yourself. Though if you are struggling with something, theres no shame in going to talk to a therapist when you need one. Otherwise, I’d suggest maybe some self help books or journaling about your feelings
As far as your friends are concerned. Listen to me. And listen to me carefully. IF YOURE FRIENDS ARE BEING UNDERSTANDING THAT MEANS THEY GENUINELY CARE ABOUT YOU AND WANT YOU TO BE OKAY. To them its not about ‘them deserving a better friend’. To them its about the fact that their friend is struggling with something and they just want YOU to be okay. And sure, being a better friend may come along with the healing process. But you need to realize that you cant and never will be a perfect friend. Because that doesnt exist. Your friends love you for you, even with your flaws.
So you see, it’s important while you are working through your own feelings to realize that you actually have really good friends. Who are more concerned about you getting better than anything else first and foremost. And that’s probably what they want you to be concerned about as well. Things come in steps, you’ll get there anon
i feel like. i want to ramble a bit i guess. about things people don’t really care about but i’m a usually a silly billy on the blog so i don’t want to break that vibe so i don’t know.
Watching that second diamond scene was something else. It just made MC look like she’s continuously getting played. She lets a drunk Drew take her into his room, say all the right things except for the one thing she actually wants to hear, yet they still end up fooling around? It’s so sad that it starts to circle back into being funny again 😭💀
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: this Buck/pregnancy storyline is the absolute worst and honestly it gives me “couple has baby to save their relationship” vibes except except with Buck’s life and it’s worse cuz he doesn’t even get to keep this one and it’s gonna end in disaster and we all know that but none of the characters seem to think that and it makes me worried about where they are going with this
My neighbors, who have been attempting to edge me out of our shared laundry room and making my home life a pain in the ass: hey, bad news, our lease isn’t going to get renewed in January, we won’t be neighbors anymore :(
Me, the real reason their lease won’t be renewed: oh no, that’s too bad >:)
Just started gotham season 5…most of its great!! However can I just say as a disabled person I hate what’s going on with Selina. I know they were trying to reference the killing joke but I just….don’t care? Cause the way they did it was so odd and it doesn’t make sense to do that to a character they obviously can’t make that big of a permanent change to so it’s just turned into a “character would rather die then be disabled” thing and … I kinda hate it… Might change my mind as I watch the rest of the show and this is obviously not a super coherent nuanced thought but yeah it’s just bumming me out