#I’m sometimes disappointing

[severedegg]

?????????????????? i thought i posted this but apparently not???????? well its here now lol, did these just over a month ago lmao

#was trying to look for this as a ref n couldnt find it n got so confused #a lil stupid in the head sometimes but its ok #dhmis #dont hug me i’m scared fanart #dont hug me im scared #don't hug me i'm scared #dhmis red guy #dhmis yellow guy #dhmis duck #dhmis fanart #im. literally just. im disappointed in myself #ive cycled through at least 3 interest things just this month and they just keep circling #its ok because im in love with making art #ITS ONLY THE 7TH OF JANUARY. IM SPEEDRUNNING THIS SHIT #help me

[batfamdcposts]

I want a comic that shows how the batfam’s disabilities and/or health issues limit their efficacy and the frustration that brings. Give me all of Bab’s monitors going out, her sitting in the dark as her family fights against an unexpected or unknown weapon, and let me see the barely restrained panic. Let her stew in her helplessness, and let her rage at the inconvenience and unfairness of it all. Let her healing be nonlinear, because her incredible feats as Oracle don’t change the fact that she could rush to them right now as Batgirl.

Let Tim feel the proverbial leash of only being able to go so far for so long, because there’s a limit to how many doses of antibiotics he can carry with him. He’s blatantly defied almost every single authority figure he’s ever had, and this is what he has to obey? Let it interrupt his work, and let him obsessively wonder how much more productive he’d be if he didn’t have to spend the time counting and refilling his medications. Let Bruce coming back from a deep space mission be a reminder that there’s an extra step for him to be able to do the same. Let Tim feel the horrible, complicated, conflicting cocktail of gratitude and fury and appreciation and love and guilt when he finds out that each family member carries extra doses on them just in case they get sucked into a portal of some kind on Gotham’s whacked streets.

Let Cass feel the mosquito-bite hurt of not being able to read mission reports as quickly as her family of detectives and geniuses. Let the suggestion of a word-to-text program be offensive before it’s appreciated, because knowing something will be helpful doesn’t always mean she’s ready to accept it. Let her feel trapped by an inability to fully vent what she’s feeling because she doesn’t know the right words. Let her feel the hurt of some people not caring about what she’s trying to say because she can’t always communicate her ideas quickly or concisely enough. Let her hurt turn to rage, because if those people don’t matter then why is she so upset at their decision to disregard her? Why is there a niggling need to prove her worth and intelligence?

I’d just really love to see more of this in fics, comics, etc, because sometimes it’s hurtful even when it shouldn’t be, and sometimes it sucks in ways you never thought it would. Sometimes a disability or health issue actively impedes progress and makes you an inconvenience, and seeing these heroes deal with that would be so helpful in dealing with it.

#let me know of fics where they struggle and try #and continue to struggle and try #because sometimes you can’t fix it #but you can grow and live with it #I’m aware tim doesn’t canonically take antibiotics for asplenia #and that technically it may not be an issue in the new 52 #but welcome to the newest episode of ‘canon conflicts with itself so expecting me to care will be disappointing for you’ #it’s more impactful this way #and the other members have issues too #these were just what I remembered off the top of my head #dc #tim drake #batman #dc comics #batfam #barbara gordon #cassandra wayne #cassandra cain #red robin #oracle #batgirl #orphan #black bat #batfamily

[splatoon-confession-box]

You can criticize the game and still love it 🦑

#splatoon 3 #mun post #don’t let my annoyance with Nintendo make you think I don’t love splatoon #and I am having fun with what I get #I’m mostly just disappointed sometimes 🗿

[stergeon]

say it

Byleth makes Edelgard say swear words.

(~350 words; too stupid to post on ao3)

“‘Shit.’”

“Grotesque.”

“Give it a try.”

“… Shit.”

“Very good. ‘Ass.’”

“That one is easier. I’ve said it before.”

“Then why don’t you say it now?”

“I… er…”

“If it’s so easy, then do it.”

“… Ass.”

“Excellent.”

“Don’t mock me.”

“How about this one? ‘Cunt.’”

“Wh—I actually, um, don’t know what that means.”

“You don’t know ‘cunt’?”

“I don’t know what to tell you, Byleth, it’s simply not in my lexicon.”

“It means va—”

“All right, I understand. The gesture was absolutely unnecessary. I’m astounded at how many words there seem to be for the same thing.”

“If you think that’s bad, you won’t believe how many there are for pe—”

“Well, this has been a fun exercise and hopefully a source of great amusement to you, but I think I’m finished.”

“Wait, wait.”

“No.”

“One more, one more.”

“Mm, no. I don’t think so.”

“Please?”

“… You know it’s not fair of you to give me those eyes.”

“Is that a yes?”

“All right. All right. One more.”

“Yesssss. ‘Fuck.’”

“Byleth!”

“What?! You said one more, and that’s the one to say.”

“I’m—I am not—”

“Please?”

“You can’t pull the same maneuver twice in a minute and expect to succeed. That’s poor strategy.”

“Is it working?”

“… Regrettably, it is.”

“Then it seems like a good strategy to me. Just say it. ‘Fuck.’ It’s easy.”

“It most certainly is not!”

“Try it. Say ‘fuck.’”

“… Fuck.”

“Oh, that’s rich. That’s very good.”

“Are you quite satisfied?”

“Nearly. Now use it in a sentence.”

“Byleth.”

“I’ll give you one. It’ll be easy.”

“I did not—and do not—agree to this!”

“Just repeat after me.”

“No!”

“Say, ‘Byleth, I want you to fuck me.’”

“… Oh.”

“Go on, El. You can do it.”

“… Byleth, I…”

“Keep going.”

“Byleth, I-I want you to… f-fuck me.”

“Good girl. Wasn’t so hard, was it?”

“Less than I—ah—thought it would be.”

“Mm. Well, you’ve certainly earned a reward, haven’t you?”

“Yes, my teacher. Fuck…”

“Aren’t you a fast learner? I’m impressed.”

“If you don’t shut up and kiss me right now, I’m going to start swearing in earnest.”

“Don’t threaten me with a good time, Your Majesty.”

#fe3h #fire emblem #edeleth #edelgard von hresvelg #byleth eisner #ficlet #sterge.rtf #sick of having this knock around in my drafts so now it is loose in the wild #but it’s so dumb that i really don’t want to bother posting it on ao3 #if i got an email alert for this i’d be disappointed #besides i’m trying to pretend i’m hard at work on the vickyvesties right now #it’s not crack it’s just goofy #theoretically this takes place during the honeymoon phase of chapter 5 of shared space #since edelgard knows her swears by the time of muscle memory/shared space chapter 9 #edelgard’s combination teacher/praise thing is truly unfortunate but what can you do. sometimes a girl is a gotdam mess #it’s not weird unless you make it weird. but she makes it weird. #i think sometimes (like here) she drops a ‘my teacher’ accidentally and byleth politely pretends not to notice #because if she Did call attention to it edelgard would be mortified and that would be the end of whatever fun things they’re doing #frankly no one deserves to say fuck more than edelgard #but with that giant stick up her ass she’d have a hard time getting around to it without some goading #i also hc that dropping honorifics is generally a Huge Turnoff for edelgard due to power dynamic shenanigans #their relationship is Complicated Enough in canon before i fucked it up more in shared space lol #so byleth is really asking for trouble here #but i also reckon ‘my teacher’ is a vibekiller for byleth so if anything they’re just riling each other up now #godspeed girls. hope you shut up long enough to get some

[mangobubbletea7]

Not that I have a horse in this race, I’ve never been a wilbur enjoyer and I don’t listen to Lovejoy, but don’t tell me the same people who could do forensic analysis on Manatreed’s chin and read documents about Dream’s creepy ass Snapchat dms are gonna cover their eyes and plug their ears and go “don’t speculate” when there’s years of publicly available evidence that Wilbur Soot is a biter. Come on…

There’s 4 women all saying the same thing and describing the same guy, some of them naming Wilbur outright, no one says you have to immediately burn your Lovejoy CDs to support the victim, but the evidence is pretty undeniable and the least you could do is just be quiet and check back in to see what plays out in the next couple days. Getting mad at people for putting together publicly available evidence of physical abuse, when you obviously wouldn’t object to it being done to other harmful public figures in the content creation world, is mega cringe. If it doesn’t end up being him somehow, then y’all can go back to life as normal and no harm will have been done to him.

If this is true, and from the clips of Niki and Shelby talking about it, I’d be fucking shocked if it isn’t, Wilbur AT THE VERY LEAST needs serious help. Biting people repeatedly to the point that they’re bruising and having to cover up their arms is not fucking normal. I just don’t know what else to say about it

#the dream situation #the manatreed situation #<- adding those for tag blocking since I mentioned them #the Wilbur situation #<- if you need to block the tag go ahead idk how much I’ll actually be talking about it here but I’m just disappointed at what I’m seeing in #some other places about it and it must be said #you can’t ignore it just because it’s a guy you really liked this time #you don’t have to talk about it you don’t have to follow the situation closely you don’t have to delete your fan accounts but you shouldn’t #shame others for talking about it #mango speaks sometimes

[cat-in-the-desert]

Aerial Fox Service :P

#zedaph #zedaph fanart #hermitaday #catdes art #sometimes I’m disappointed I decided to only do a sketch each day & not develop these more but #I realized I can always go back and clean them up later #for now at least I’m consistently drawing something!

[lokiusly]

this is a delulu account btw 🤠💃🏽💅🏽

#idk who is on here for realistic shit but it’s not here!! #miss girl!!! why would I think logically about a superhero show #wildddd #I’m not going to interact but that’s crazy that people feel the need to police others #the post was not for you #PSA if you see a post you don’t like you don’t have to interact with it. just make your own post if it BOTHERS you that much #anyways Lokius is canon! #and if it ends up not being canon then !!! idk it’ll just live on here! and that’s disappointing but wow a community that all came together #for a love that they perceived to be true? in a romantic sense— yes that’s amazing. we don’t need your canon. we can thrive without it #would be nice though #talking to the void but if you know you know #also I think that sometimes we know that maybe theories are just that #but like also it’s fun??? let us be damn sis #god wouldn’t it be amazing if Lokius was canon on the MCU screen to the general audience? #manifesting it! #anyways even if they not canon there’s a branch where they are byeeee have a nice day! #brb going to touch grass lol

[fyorina]

there is nothing more heartbreaking as an older sister for your younger brother to call you at 3:30 am drunk and crying because there’s too much pressure on him and too many high expectations that he feels like he���s not living up to and not being able to do anything about it 🥲

#like i’ve been there 🥲 i’m STILL there tbh 🥲 and it makes me so sad that he’s dealing with all of the same stuff that i have to #our parents have always expected so much out of us it’s so suffocating sometimes #and i just feel so shitty bc i don’t know how to help because you know ?? no one ever helped me like #i can tell him the things i wished ppl told me back then but i know it won’t help #not really #and he was crying because he has no one to talk to about it because his friends & frat brothers don’t get it and just blow it off #and he was like ‘i just didn’t know who else to call i just can’t keep it all in anymore’ 🥲 #like how am i not supposed to cry bro #begged me not to tell my parents or our younger sibling because he doesn’t want to disappoint them #i’m just so 🥲

[loganslowdown4]

I wrote this a long time ago

After WTIT (can you believe it’s been over 2 yrs already?)😳

Anyway, you know how my brain doesn’t stop?

I think I was in spiral mode back then lol (it’s a bit angsty)

(And this is like worst case, I don’t think it will go down this way anymore) Enjoy!🤪

#my theories like to get away from me sometimes. #the reason I don’t think this will happen is mostly because of the length of time the finale will be #I was expecting a total breakdown crash and burn and then a rise from the ashes #that may still happen but now I more expect Thomas to apply his problems to like Lego metaphors or something lol #it’s still angsty but in a fun way? I guess #? #ok mostly it never happens the way I think it will #so it might pull some elements from my theories here but it won’t happen exactly like that #I mean of course it won’t #I think what I’m saying is I’ve let it go so I won’t be disappointed when it inevitably doesn’t happen lol #that was a lot of explanation huh? I’m such a nerd for this show #thomas sanders #sanders sides #roman sanders #sander sides #logan sanders #ts roman #patton sanders #virgil sanders #ts logan

[stargirlrchive]

Hi I have a genuine question I’m

Not trying to be rude in any way shape or form but

Do you do writing anymore? Because I don’t really see works anymore but I’m just genuinely curious if ur taking a mental break or smth or just not motivated

Oki hope you’re doing well and take all the time u need

hiii yes still writing just haven’t had much inspo lately :(

so i’m in a bit of a slump but hoping i’ll get out of it soon, sorry for not really posting :(

#i feel so bad sometimes :( #like i’m disappointing yall #💌 ; delivered #anon ୨୧

[stellarana]

Yikes if the forums are being taken down I need to go through and screenshot all of Azzanadra is disappointed. Also Molejarrat holes. I might post the screenshots for people who can’t be bothered to do it themselves. If anyone else knows any good funny ones tell me pls.

#runescape #rs3 #i sometimes go through and just look at Azzanadra is disappointed i’m gonna miss that.

[hoaxton]

This one’s gonna be hard for the tumblr girlies to grasp but hear me out: maybe………. you were SUPPOSED to feel upset about what happened to Marwa

#like sometimes bad things happen in media to make you feel bad #the shitty monster in the show about shitty monsters doing shitty things did something shitty???? #y’all like to forget the literal atrocities the crew commit on the daily #babes they all suck #and that’s why we love them #I’m so sorry the 700 year old warlord disappointed you :( #I’m begging you to expand the media you consume #google the word nuance and try again #nandor #guillermo de la cruz #wwdits #marwa wwdits #okay but actual not salty take: we as an audience have been watching the main characters do incredibly HORRIBLE things to people #FOR FOUR WHOLE SEASONS #AND WE LAUGHED ABOUT IT #the fact that the writers were able to make us stop a feel and THINK #“oh shit that’s fucked up” #is GOOD. that’s GOOD writing #in a show where most of the comedy comes from the audience laughing at bad things happening to side characters #you WANT the writers to be able to center you and viscerally remember #THAT THESE ARE BAD PEOPLE

[doctorweebmd]

I was thinking about this the other day and wondering why it’s become so much less fun to write for BNHA and I think it’s because… I’ve written too much?

Like being a one-off author was fine and fun and novel and people were so cool and supportive, but now I’ve got multiple long fics and people have started treating me like someone that “creates content” rather than someone who is writing for fun. And I’ve shot myself in the foot by continuing to write long-fic and putting my heart and soul into them and it’s like never enough, people just expect more and more and more and I want to keep giving and keep doing better but no matter what I write it’s just not ENOUGH

And like… this started a little after I finished Zero Sum Game but like… people have started forming “opinions” that they share openly about “me” - I can’t stand going into fandom space and seeing people say they can’t read anything I write, or they don’t like me as an author, openly ranking my works, saying xyz is overrated or mention me by name in shipping discourse or send me hate mail or update requests or just straight up telling me they’re not going to read what I write anymore… and these people don’t know me!!! I’m just an empty space to them!!! Just a machine that pumps out thousands on thousands of words to just look at an forget about instantly!!!!!!!!

Where do people get off honestly. Is it like this everywhere or is it just BNHA? Is it because it’s so popular that the community has broken down completely? Sincerely what the fuck how can anyone treat writers like this…

#literally got a comment like yesterday saying ‘I’m so disappointed this hasn’t been updated in a year! I need it’ #…fuck you actually? #I realize fics take 1-2 days to read #but all of this has taken hundreds of hours and YEARS to write #but sorry I don’t have the specific thing that you want to readily consume I guess #I am! not! a! content! creator! #nobody pays me! I get nothing out of this! why are people treating me like not a person! #and it’s just more and more frustrating seeing other writers mention stuff like this too #I realize I’m just venting now but whatever #like i feel like I built something over the past few years that I’m so proud of #but sometimes I want to burn it ALL to the ground #it’s not that deep #it’s just… I put too much of myself into this #which honestly is mostly my own fault #ANYWAY. that’s a big part as to why I’m jumping ship for now #I’d rather have fun and write whatever and have no one give a shit #than to give my heart and soul to a community that chews me up and spits me out #…. sorry I’m being so dramatic #the amazing wonderful kind people that have stayed around for these 3.5 years who still say kind words to me I love you so much #as always the negativity is the vast minority but that’s what hits the hardest I guess #I mean honestly I don’t care and will continue to write and do whatever I want #but wanted to reflect on my frustrations and make sense of it #.

[imaginethat0327]

Hey y’all - I am having a bit of A Time right now where stress and weird emotions are ruining my day 😬 this has been going on and off for a few days now and I’m at my wits end and have no clue what’s going on. Was hoping I could snag a few quick words of encouragement from anybody who’s up for it? I’m trying to figure out my work schedule so I can actually have a day off (pretty sure I stressed myself into getting sick the other day from the constant work) and everything feels so freaking overwhelming and I kinda just want to curl up into a ball and cry. But I know you all are amazing and always make me smile, so… yeah. A few virtual hugs?? Please?? Sorry to ask!! -Imagine

#Honestly just a few words would be nice #I love my family but they definitely are on the more “tough love” side of the spectrum #Sometimes I just need someone to tell me that things are going to be okay 😭 #And that I won’t fail finding an internship and lose my degree that I am trying to get 1.5 years earlier than most other people my age #And that I won’t absolutely disappoint everyone in my family and around me by not being able to handle the constant working #I’m so freaking tired all the time 😭

[callixton]

idk i do think if i’m totally honest w myself my biggest draw to being a director is that i get to put my fave actors in situations. like it is abt that relationship and trust to me + then i get to go here’s a Situation to have fun with and for the reasons they r my fave actors they go holy shit! fun!

#is this coherent. i love directing sm #i just really really really can’t wait for when i have the money and reputation to take on projects that i trust with people that i trust #it is not just abt this i am mostly reminiscing/hoping for the future #but also he sent me an ‘Idk im just stoked to work on it with you’ text abt understudying and king like. u don’t know how many of my shows r #- just an excuse to work with my actors on the characters and themes they care most abt #and this is it for him! which is v exciting. even if it’s still a disappointment overall #i just like. sort of realized recently that for me the Thing w directing is being able to create opportunities for people whose creative #- sensibilities i trust to tell the stories already inside of them #and sometimes that is abt a story i have too. but its a good 50/50 split #it HAS to be shared like it needs to be. and it needs to come from a place of care #man idk how i’m gonna get employed out of school but i will get to a place i have the autonomy/authority to do this my way if it kills me #ted talks

[lesbegays]

sometimes i remember the time that a professor told me my essay was the most interesting and insightful in the class and then i started skipping that class and couldn’t bring myself to turn in any more essays to her and i’m like damn i should go back to therapy and deal with that

#i really loved that class too and was passionate about the essay topics #it’s very frustrating thatbi sabotaged myself so badly #my response to compliments isn’t THAT bad anymore but it’s still genuinely pathological #ever since i was a little kid compliments have made me feel like i’ve set expectations that i can’t uphold and that i will disappoint #and like. i know it’s the neurodivergent gifted kid trauma or whatever #this knowledge that bc of what i later found out was adhd my ability fluctuates so drastically and i’m so inconsistent #the dysfunction was definitely at its peak in college lmao but it’s still there #idk like my church does this thing where once a month a bunch of old dudes go to a local brewery and drink beer and talk about theology #and sometimes i go too bc i miss talking about theology #and apparently the preacher told my dad he was impressed by how insightful my input always is and now i don’t want to go back lol #i know why i’m like this but i don’t know how to fix it