#I’ve done so much this year

[angelic-eros]

Sometimes I wonder how much of myself I have to bend and shape and work around before someone will say they’re proud of what I’ve become

#I’ve done so much this year #I’ve been published as a model in a magazine and a book #my face was on display at comic con this year #I did my first ad job #I’ve travelled across the country for conventions #I’ve finally started earning money for my work #and I still feel like it’s not enough #or that this is just the standard somehow #because no one seems interested in any of this #and I’m starting to feel like all of this is just expected of someone creative and I’m stupid for being excited #sorry I had to vent a little #I’m very tired #and I feel shitty #and I want to feel talented #or pretty or photogenic or something #my copy of the magazine I’m in arrived today #and all I can think about is how many people just stared at me when I told them like it was nothing to them #or sent one word responses #and I don’t get it #vent

[wyvernspirit]

Gem has opened the end portal, sent an army to fight and kill the ended dragon, infected nearly the entire server with the boogeyman curse, did the most red tasks in one episode, killed the remaining yellows with Pearl, Scar and BigB AND killed her OWN allies to gain a max of 58 HEARTS

Your honour she’s girlbossing

#geminitay #secret life #secret life smp #life smp #am I missing anything?? #she’s done so much I’m scared I missed something #THATS MY MINECRAFTER YALL :DD!!! #proud to say I’ve been a Gem fan for nearly 3 years thank you 🙏 #wish I found her even sooner tbh

[sassycordy]

every friend group should include stargate atlantis edition 🤞🏽

audio credits: littleredinmotion/ ib/rm: aeschylusfilms & softdecades

#sassy cordy edits #i know i’ve been editing stargate a lot so i hope ppl aren’t tired yet! #and if you are … oops my bad ahah #i’ve been wanting to make this for YEARS so i’m v happy it’s finally done eep #my bffs guys i love them so much #stargate edit #stargate atlantis #john sheppard #rodney mckay #teyla emmagan #ronon dex #elizabeth weir #carson beckett #radek zelenka #aiden ford

[prideprejudce]

the more i think about Oppenheimer the more disappointed i get because at its core it’s such an interesting story to tell. like the whole manhattan project catapulted the entire world into a new atomic era that we could never go back from whether we were ready for it or not. and the fallout from the project not only changed and devastated the lives of hundreds of thousands of people (including of course the victims in hiroshima and nagasaki + the people living in new mexico where they tested the bomb) and the continued generational trauma of the bombs. also just the general mass panic and fear that the Cold War instilled into every citizen in the states who were literally waiting to one day be just annihilated by a nuclear attack. the whole creation of the atomic bomb had so much impact on the world. so doing a deep character study of both oppenheimer and his colleagues on the moral ambiguity of their work in the project and the outcome of it is such a great movie concept. but the film didn’t feel like that at all. instead Nolan gave us the watered down story that he’s best at and spent almost three hours forcing us to watch whether oppenheimer had to lose his disneyland government fast-pass due to his communist ties or not (spoiler: he does) and how strauss doesn’t like him because he got his feewlings hurt once. all the other scientists and physicists were given one or two minutes of screen time and were really just names to a face. the actual bombs creation was given a sidelong glance and trivial explanation at best. and of course to tie it all off the main female side characters were either naked/having sex for 80% of their screen time or was given the character depth of a piece of tissue paper

#oppenheimer #oppenheimer spoilers #oppenheimer negativity #I’ve had all day to think on this and the more i do the sadder i get #i wanted to like this film so much #i thought we were gonna be given a deep dive into this character and the bomb #but the result felt shallow and contrived #the movie focuses so much on fitting as much info as possible in three hours that the story just couldn’t breathe #scenes between characters lasted all of two minutes before we were launched into another scene to two new characters #and oppenheimers personal motivation/desires just felt ambiguous the entire time #like he busts his ass to build this bomb but then all the sudden develops a moral compass when it’s done? #where’s the character depth?? what makes him so passive about some things then suddenly driven for others? #and Florence and Emily Blunt were ripped off and characters were reduced to common tropes #it’s just so disappointing….i waited all year for this movie too

[fakeoutbf]

we thought we had it all

[do not repost]

#fob #fall out boy #fobedit #art #smfs #sm(f)s #so much for stardust #so much (for) stardust #so much for (tour) dust #fob fanart #fob edit #lyric #lyric art #ghostofhome #magic 8 ball edits #i’ve been sitting on this for a bit but i think it’s done so fuck it! #wanna work on a tourdust edit / remake too before the year ends 🤞

[yeah-thats-probably-it]

Listen. If Bertie Wooster got stuck in a time loop, it would take him 3-7 days to notice anything out of the ordinary was happening, depending on how eventful the original day was. I don’t have time to explain right now

#i’ve been thinking so much about bertie in a time loop i have like half a fic plotted #which is a problem for me because i am not a habitual fic writer #haven’t done creative writing in years #i might have to give it a shot though there’s just something about bertie voice that calls to me #jeeves and wooster #bertie wooster #jooster

[gods-favorite-autistic]

I think there’s something ironic about how one of the things Kristen was told about Helio and why she should come back is the idea that the bad things that have happened to her wouldn’t have happened if she’d stayed Helio’s chosen one.

But like the very first time she died she was still with Helio. Through most of season one despite her questioning her faith she was with Helio. Some of the worst moments of her life happened in the name of Helio. Her parents essentially kicked her out and kind of disowned her in the name of Helio. Her own coach tried to kill her in the name of Helio. While she was still with Helio. If being with Helio would’ve stopped her from dying the second time then why didn’t it stop her the first time.

And like the most recent episode only proves that point because Buddy was supposed to be Kristen’s replacement, the new stand in chosen one for the salvation they longer have (because they chased her away. Because she wasn’t what they wanted her to be). And he still died. He was betrayed horribly and Helio didn’t help him at all, as far as we saw. There was no warning, no divine intervention on Helio’s part. And no matter how much the church or his grandpa wants to pretend he is he is no chosen one to be cherished and kept alive at all costs unless for the greater good. And unlike Kristen he can’t simply bring himself back from the dead.

If Helio was really all that great maybe he shouldn’t have let his two favorites die so horribly huh.

#maybe if helio was actually benevolent and forgiving he would’ve told kristen to turn around in that temple #thinking about how the church that regarded kristen as so holy and upstanding turned their backs on her the second she stopped being perfect #something about how even kristen’s dead goddess tried to do more than Helio #this episode has me thinking so much about kristen and helio #I think this show has the most media analysis I’ve ever done in my life #autism (mads) speaks #fantasy high #fhjy #fantasy high junior year #dimension 20 #fhjy spoilers #dimension 20 fhjy #dimension 20 fantasy high #d20 #d20 fhjy #d20 fantasy high #kristen applebees #buddy dawn

[palossssssand]

Reconciliation

Old dome squadmates Trito and Kinoga get together at Trito’s place to catch up after years apart and a meeting by chance on the surface.

⚠️Warning for suggestive content below + implied chest trauma

After several weeks of chipping away at this, the comic is finally done! Very happy to have rendered a full 7 pages of oc stuff. Please give it a read!!

read the full 7 page comic on twitter! <-please do not click if you are a minor and view at your own discretion, this link contains explicit 18+ content. Thank you!

For the lore, includes stuff from splatoon Octo Expansion: Trito and Kinoga were a part of an octarian military squad living in the domes, Kinoga being their squad leader that many looked up to and admired. There were 6 of them who considered each other to be their closest friends. Upon hearing about the tests from Kamabo Co. and the allure of the Promised Land, Kinoga wished to seek it out in order to find a better life for their squadmates. A difficult decision, since it meant leaving them all behind, promising to come back and take them there.

Kinoga enters the metro trials and soon realizes that the Promised Land isn’t what they expected, their hope crumbling when they encounter one of their sanitized squadmates Agara, who followed suit to the metros soon after. Kinoga narrowly escapes, eventually making a break for the surface, carrying the shame of unwilling to return for their squadmates with them (it’s justified, of course, there might not be an easy way in, they might get caught again, Agara is gone)

Trito enters the Metro not too long after Kinoga does, wanting to catch up to them, and an accident that occurs in a test early on results in Trito’s near sanitization, giving him his scar. Terrified, and realizing what happens to his fellow octolings, Trito is unable to return to his squadmates, not wanting to break the news of their loved ones’ untimely fates. He hides away on the Metro until the events of OE happen and Agent 8 dismantles Kamabo, opening an opportunity to escape to the surface. Unwilling to face the possibilities of going back, Trito takes his chance to leave, starting a new life and feeling that it’s for the best if he doesn’t acknowledge it, though he missed his friends dearly.

Years later, Trito and Kinoga run into each other on the streets of Splatsville by chance, and the implications of them both being on the surface and alive hit them, having to carry the burden of leaving their loved ones behind and finding out the truth, knowing the other felt exactly the same, not knowing the fate of their squadmates and not wanting to think about the possibility of them being gone. They have a tearful reunion about it, and set up a meet later, to sit down and really talk, and get into a brief argument when the topic of returning to the domes comes up. Trito’s in disbelief that Kinoga never went back down to check on the rest of their squad, wanting them to have been a better person than him, who was too cowardly to do so. Eventually they do reconcile, and end up at Trito’s place to hook up, where the above comic takes place :]

#my art #my ocs #splatoon #suggestive #trito #kinoga #aaahhhhhh this is finally done!!!! #a small drabble turned into a sketch turned into a full fledged rendered comic. blowing up #in any case I hope people enjoy this as much as I do…they are so everything to me #splatoon ocs #I have so many thoughts about these two that I could not articulate in a tumblr post. they miss each other so so much #its about the. I’ve known your body. and coming back after years and going oh…this is new… #there’s no context where trito would be able to reveal this to kinoga except for boning #only kinoga could look at it and immediately understand. sparing him the pain of explaining what happened and reliving it #if it had been anyone else he probably would have stopped them the moment the hand went under the sweater #but he’s just so so caught in the moment of the reunion. and the everything . Auughhhh #stealing this from a friend but theyve changed and they haven’t changed at all. I’m going to be ill #chest trauma #‘what if they explored each others bodies’ or whatever. okay #if it wasnt clear enough or implied trito and kimoga are octolings from the underground domes #nsft #oh and the. really long lore explanation <33 teehee #they are so so much #not partners but more than friends. secret third thing. guh #its about holding each other so tightly and physically for confirmation that they weren’t seeing things and that the other was Really There #like the fate of their friends not on their mind constantly and then it all comes flooding back and all of a sudden it opens the door #for finding the others and now they won’t have to go back and face the possibility alone #IM GOING TO BE SICK!!!!!!!!!!!! #this has got to be the most ive rambled in the tags I’ve just been rotatinf them with fado for the past barely a month and they are #tritonoga

[bloob-art]

OOPSIE did this weeks ago and forgot to post- Not the Drake design I said I wanted to make but I wanted to Skyrimify my OC Jem for my AU 👀

Look at him, why is he hot-

Jem is a Barbarianesque mercenary that was once a bandit that pillaged villages in his youth during the Great War. He turned a new leaf and put his old bandit life behind him and used his strength and crime knowledge to become a mercenary.

#I plan on writing out his TH page with info #he and Drake might share a story together but he definitely isn’t associated with the main crew of the AU #I’ve done so much dev for this au it’s years worth #wish I could share it all but I would only disclose that to close friends since it a personal project #Skyrim AU #art #my art #Skyrim #Argonian #OC #ref sheet #reference sheet #Jem #TES

[hellsite-hall-of-fame]

can you stop trying to be funny and post unrelated stuff and just reblog the famous posts like you're supposed to

unfortunately I cannot

I did create the “the hellsite answers” tag so it can be blocked if you don’t want to see asks

but there are other blogs that I think only reblog posts (like @worldheritagepostorganization and many others that I can’t think of at the moment) that you’re free to follow if you prefer that

#ngl 2 years ago this would have made me cry lmao but it didn’t so I call that *growth* #no but the cursed asks and color of the sky shit is hellsite-y af and brings me joy #but when I do answers asks I make sure to also reblog a post that same day because yes that is the point of the blog #but I do apologize if it’s annoying and you’re not alone because lots of people do unfollow when I answer asks- as they’re free to do #which you’re absolutely free to and i’ll slow down on the asks but won’t stop because i’ve been answering random asks since the beginning #(like legitimately i’ve done this since I started in 2019) #but I do very much apologize but you’re free to not follow me if it’s not what you like from your legendary post provider #there are many many others out there more worthy than I #ask #the hellsite answers #anonymous #hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit

[paradoxolotl]

I am very sad and could use some happy if anyone has a drop to spare

#I know I’m not like ‘around’ anymore #but if you had a moment for me I would very much appreciate it #I’m in the stage of creation where I can see my skill level is lacking from where I want it to be #and the words in my brain are not translating properly onto the page #unfortunately this year has done its best to turn me into dust #and then beat me down some more #so I have not been able to tear at it until it snaps and flows again #which has been cool #losing my form of escapism and all #anyways #it doesn’t matter #tell me a joke #pet pics #a silly story #your favourite thing you saw today #the world is beautiful and wide and more than any of us #I’ve just been caught in grey wash

[shima-draws]

Sorry I haven’t been posting as much art lately, I’ve been pretty dedicated to working on my shop merch :’D But I’m totally down to do another art challenge!! If you guys wanna vote 👀

#Shima speaks #I’m a little under halfway done with my One Piece charms! #I might post a sneak peek here at some point #Polls #Also if I do the kiss meme I’ll probably combine it with a palette challenge! #But like the subtle one. Kinda like the couple I did last year #Anyway my back is causing me problems again so that’s probably a sign I’ve been at my computer too much lmao #I’m gonna try really hard to keep doing my stretches so it doesn’t flare up 🤧

[soullessjack]

this isnt rlly a serious post more so than a thought I need to verbalize but like. there’s an INSANE difference between the fandom being like “hey what if jack was actually his age and got to be a little normal” vs y’all treating a grown ass man like he has to cover his ears when someone swears or sleep with a nightlight on because he’s afraid of the dark, and throwing the P word around to anyone who thinks he’s attractive. one of these things is not like the other.

#there’s a layer here about giving jack the childhood he specifically chose not to have #and ignoring his other choices because that’s just. idk a running theme with any character who struggles to have autonomy #but whatever idk #genuinely i think the past year or so that I’ve spent talking about this has burnt me out #either that or I’m just too fixated on VB to really care too much #like obviously I still care about it and wish more was done to help but it’s not really a warpath for me to walk currently #just. #I’m just tired dawg #it’s like talking to a deaf brick wall #please just do some research into infantilization I cannot keep having a one sided conversation with people who don’t care #spn #jack kline #baby jack #spn fandom #fandom critical #fandom ableism #tfw2.0 #not even just ableism it’s the whole mischaracterization woobified bullshit all over again #and the using baby jack as a prop for everyone else but I digress #jack: *chose not to be a child and hates being seen as one and is more than willing to get violent if he thinks he has to* #y’all for some fucking reason: he’s just a widdle baby he can’t handle the scary movie he needs his daddies to take care of him #I’ve already said all these things before #i am tired. so tired

[justaboot]

Let’s make a deal if I finish my finals today (this week? Unclear) I’ll write the Louie & kid!Della time travel fic to complete the set

#pls help I need so many pats on the head and so much caffeine #I’ve done kid Della & Dewey #I’ve done kid Della & Huey #I need to complete the set #I wanna write a Christmas fic so bad but it’s not gonna happen #maybe new years

[kawaiikenna]

When you have to do so much fucking math for a fic. And yet that’s the only reason why you would do that much fucking math to begin with. Would someone be willing to check it? It’s for my Dad from Mars fic and it does contain spoilers for the end of chapter 5. So beware. :3 Linking the fic so that you can read if you’d like. ^w^

~~~

If walking from the high school parking lot takes about 10 minutes and their apartment is two blocks away; that means that it would take Danny about five minutes to walk one block. The GIW stopped him about half a block away from his house. Meaning that their initial confrontation happens approx. 7.5 minutes after Danny left the parking lot putting the time at…2:36am. If that’s the time that Danny pushed his panic button and J’onn foregoes the Zeta tubes completely he would get there in approximately 45 seconds. Because Martian Manhunter’s speed is calculated at 7 miles per second. Which then places him going 420 miles per fucking MINUTE. The Watchtower is probably somewhere between the Thermoshpere and the Exoshpere making it approx 190 miles above Earth. 190/7=27.14 But he could be going faster because Full Send, Danny needs him NOW. And yet, within those 45 seconds is when Danny gets horribly injured by the GIW. But Kenna, the math says that he would get there in 27.14 seconds not 45. Well, we have to factor in that he Density Shifts through the Watchtower. No matter how fast he wants to go, he can’t just rip through the Watchtower without a care. So that’s where the extra 18 seconds comes into play. The time is now approx. 2:38-2:39am depending on the seconds and how long J’onn’s conversation with Batman was. Which was not very long to begin with.

There are probably at least 12-15 agents piled into the van. Say Danny is able to take out at least seven of them before he’s shot down, that leaves 5-8 agents for J’onn to take care of. Even if he defeats them all in record time this would still probably take him at least 5-7 minutes because he’s not only fighting the agents but is also having to protect a severely injured Danny. This does slow him down but not by much. After he has secured the unconscious and probably injured agents J’onn would immediately scoop up Danny and head to the nearest Zeta. Why? Because he doesn’t know how exactly suddenly traveling to space at exponential speeds would affect the teen. So he’s playing it safe. Say that takes him another 5 or so minutes because he’s not going full speed due to the aforementioned reason. It is now approx. 2:44-2:46am. Zeta portaling is near instantaneous so I won’t be factoring it into the final time.

Once onboard the Watchtower they would have to travel down several floors to get to the infirmary. This would probably take another 5-7 minutes depending on if they could get the elevators to override and give the Martian and injured teen a straight shot down. As soon as they get there there is a flurry of movement and vague disorder from the sudden appearance of a probably coding patient. They most likely spend another 5 minutes trying to coordinate a plan and gather relevant information on what happened as well as what they need to know about health history. It takes them another 2-3 minutes to prep the OR and Danny. Another minute or so and the surgeon meets J’onn to glean some extra information. He can’t remember anymore so that’s when he calls Jazz. It’s currently between 3:00-3:04am. Jazz is attending the Ivy League School of her dreams, which puts her at 3 hours ahead of where Danny and J’onn had moved post chapter 4. So for Jazz it’s 6:00-6:04am.

~~~

I had to do so much math just to figure out what time it was for Jazz at the end of chapter 5. I mildly hate myself because I’ve been working on this damn time problem for a good chunk of the past 3 hours. I really hope that I did it all correctly. I literally just googled things to find the numbers to plug into the corresponding equations.

#danny phantom #dp x dc #danny fenton #dc #dp #dc comics #dc x dp #martian manhunter #justice league #so much math #I don’t think I’ve done this much math since I was in high school seven years ago. #it makes me want to cry #like legit ugly cry #over fucking math problems. #math help #ao3 fic #fanfic #please send help

[starbuck]

various thoughts:

i would like to have a significant other

i would like to develop my personality a bit more before meeting a significant other

i should wait until after top surgery before even considering seeing anyone bc i’m gonna be much happier and more confident after that

i want to know my local area better

i NEED more pretentious local friends who are willing to experience new things with me in my local area

i need to read and watch and listen to and DO more and i have the time to do it now, so i need to make it happen

#there is literally just SO much i haven’t done that i need to do #every time i experience something new i am filled with more love and become more powerful #and it becomes something else i can share with others #i’ve always been hesitant to do this - but maybe i should set actual goals… #and select specific things ahead of time to keep myself on track #i think it’s fun to keep the film list loose - but i could still schedule them #and schedule out like. a book every 3 weeks or something REALLY reasonable like that #unless the book is super long and needs more time #book-scheduling makes sense to me bc i’m less sensitive about what i read than what i watch #2024 ‘resolutions’ incoming?? #i’ve never made New Year’s resolutions before bc i hate pressuring myself #but i actually WANT to do things so like. 🤷🤷 #i’m sensing some good potential here