#I'm not on an analysis brain rn

[starlyte-writes]

Okay okay, no, I’ve thought about it I can’t fucking believe it but that was actually incredible???

I just, okay, LISTEN, throughout that whole stream I kept giggling at their jokes and how they behaved but I was also going in my head “this is so weird.” They kept breaking the fourth wall, making references to outside of “serious dsmp lore TM” and it was such a contrast to Wilbur’s normal lore streams I was lost.

But THEN I thought about s1 clips and vods and videos I’ve watched and how they always danced back and forth on the line of serious and funny in such a beautifully mastered way and I just- THAT ENDING SECURES IT.

This entire stream held the exact energy I’ve seen from anything that happened in s1 and I just feel so fucking blessed? Since I got into this fandom I’ve always been so crushed I never got to experience the making of L’Manberg or Pogtopia or anything around that time live and this?

I’ve been given one of the greatest gifts I could’ve ever asked for. I finally got to experience what I always wanted. It was sad, it was perfect, it was stupid, it was FUCKING UTAH, but it perfectly encapsulates everything Wilbur and Tommy brought to this server. It brought us right back to the beginning and I’m so thankful to them both for giving me that.

Even if it had to end in fucking Utah oh my GOD-

#star's analysis #dream smp #wilbur soot #tommyinnit #c!wilbur #c!tommy #c!crimeboys #tw cursing #tw caps #tw italics #i feel insane but the more i roll that stream around in my brain it was actually so good #like i wanna be mad it wasn't serious but that's what makes it so perfect!! #this whole fucking server started as nothing serious #L'MANBERG WAS A DRUG BUSINESS AND THEIR LIE WAS BLAZERODS MAKE YOU SHIT YOURSELF #i feel humbled #two years of my life for this ending #i couldn't be fucking happier i got to be a part of this GOD i'm so emotional rn FUCK

[currently-becoming-potatoes]

I think I've decided my gender is willful Shakespeare men

#coming from someone who has played both laertes and now romeo apparently #they feel... similar. there are similar vibes there. depression's whalloping me rn and i cant do coherent literary analysis #or voice whats going on in my brain #but they're different songs in the same font if that makes sense #maybe i'll go off the deep end and write a paragraph on these mfs #maybe #whatever it doesn't matter. i'm still sopping wet and unmedicated. it doesn't matter #it's just the inner machinations of someone who probably doesn't know all that much about what they're talking about #...there is love there. different kinds of love. but love that still drives them to do some stuff and die. ykyk #(i'm bullshitting rn please have mercy on me) #hamlet #romeo and juliet #shitpost #ramblings of a madman #(but the rambings are in the tags. does that still count) #horrendous literary analysis from a tired high schooler with nothing better to do :)))) #(don't unfollow me hamlet moots i know this is tremendously awful i'm trying to make my brain make sense)

[mikesbasementbeets]

the storm (part 1)

s2:

[rock you like a hurricane playing]

#the significance of all the storms hit me in s4 when someone said brain storming and i started thinking.......... #also every time i post one of these i start finding stuff i missed so. i'm sure i've missed some feel free to add on or lmk (up thru s2) #no analysis to offer rn just gathering things... been sitting on this one bc it's not very interesting yet. but i'll get to s3-4 #decided i'm going to just post these when i finish them and eventually i'll make a post linking all of them #if there's any motif you care about particularly feel free to lmk it'll probably encourage me to focus on that one more #mikesbasementbeets posts #compilations

[elftism]

with how ephraim = sun and eirika = moon, I've seen people come to the conclusion that lyon = starts but honestly I prefer lyon = the earth/planet bc I think it reflects better how much he depends on the twins

#something something he cannot live and thrive without the twins but too much of them is harmful for him #elftisms #fe8 #sacred stones #i just feel that lyon = starts doesn't work bc the sun is also a star and you cant place their relationship w the moon as easily #like stars are often pictured near the moon and that's it #idk I'm not in literary analysis brain mode rn #fe lyon #lyon

[sammy8d257]

Do you think the reason Dark Lord ended up fighting Chosen was because it was written in his code? Or he would've fought him anyway, regardless of his mission?

At least in my headcanon, I think due to the nature of being a code based entity, to a certain degree theres always going to be a slight drive to complete the task an entity was given

THOUGH

That being said, the ability to defy the "destiny" that was place upon someone has always been a favorite trope (? idea?) of mine!

I'm a little confused by this question thou, are you asking about the first time Dark and Chosen fought in AvA3 or are you talking the initial fight we see in AvA5?

If it's AvA5, then I think it has less to do with "what was written into his code" and more to do with Dark doing something that Chosen morally disagreed with and them getting into fight over it

(although you could make the argument that Dark being named "The Dark Lord" implied his purpose was to be "bad" and whatever he had planned in AvA5 was just another way to "fulfill" that purpose)

If it's AvA3, then there wasn't really a choice given at the beginning on whether or not Dark fights Chosen. Cuz quite literally, Dark was created and got sent out with no other information other than "Fight this Guy"

alskdjlgsgd

I'm going off topic now because my brain is running on a long day of work and 5 hours of sleep BUT

If you want an AMAZING fic on the dynamic of the Dark Lord and the Chosen One

I HIGHLY RECOMMEND @skala 's "Self Deception" story

BECAUSE THAT SHIT MADE ME FUCKING CRYYYYY

Here's the Link to the Ao3! -> [LINK]

Do yourself a favor and read it!!

#Sammy8D answers #anon #anonymous #the dark lord #the chosen one #ava dark #ava chosen #animator vs animation #ava shorts #fanfic recommendation #I haven't done a Dark and Chosen analysis in so long #plus my brain being mush rn #I'm sorry that this post is incomprehensible #if you get anything out of this post #I hope its reading the fic #cuz goddamn #its good #Sammy8D Stick Stuff

[full-of-malice]

it's another day where fang wants to talk about his fucking unhinged thoughts on miguel o'hara enjoy this headcanon list i have Proof [projection] on all of these actually and also this has to do with random goofy thoughts that i've had about them

these headcanons are all sfw and mainly either very character-centric or fatherhood-centric

he's asexual and arospec.

he has vitiligo [reasoning being that vitiligo is a skin condition triggered by a many things included auto immune issues, along outside sources including intense periods of trauma and stress. my personal headcanon is that he already had auto immune issues and then the trauma of losing his daughter caused him to get vitiligo]

transmasc.

autistic [i don't make the rules all spider-people are trans and/or autistic sorry]

he makes damn good mexican hot chocolate for gabi. he no longer has made it since her passing

he has ptsd

he was very invested in gabi's soccer games and tried his hardest to attend every single one and support her

his motivations rely primarily on guilt and moral obligation that he needs to repay for what he has done

he's a workaholic which plays into his issues of disregarding his own health and safety, and having a fucked up list of priorities and of importance and meaning, being goal oriented without caring how he gets there

he no longer views himself as a human due to the way he turned himself into a super-powered spider-man. this self image got even worse after gabi died

some of these are my very personal headcanons and others are me just rephrasing canon because i can't remember all my personal takes on him because my memory Sucks

i'm a simple man i see a mentally fucked up and traumatized man and i take him in as my own blorbo

#it is well known information that i will not shut up about this man and will infodump for hours sobbing with head in hands #free me from the prison that is my brain #i have more reasoning but i can't link shit rn so i'll link my analysis later #yes. i write fanfic that aligns with some of this stuff. be careful though because i'm unhinged #i have a whole fucking playlist for this man that i might post one of these days and no it doesn't have “ride” or “gasolina” #fandom #headcanon #miguel o'hara #blorbo #spiderman 2099 #atsv #atsv spoilers #miguel atsv #malice rambles #my post #fandom headcanons #my blorbo #my headcanons #fanfic stuff

[heartbeetz]

I love my fictional best friends a whole lot btw

#specifically my two ultimate besties #they're both genuinely some of my favorite characters of all time #thinking about spam rn. not even in my usual canon analysis way though. #so maybe thinking isn't the right word. I think I'm just Feeling #that's my best friend!!!!!! #vine boom sfx dot wav #<- that's the only way I can describe what's going on in my brain rn #I'm not in Soft love mode about my platonic f/os rn I'm in like. aggressive love mode. matter-of-fact love mode. #I can't describe it I give up #I just. like them. #roz posts #platonic tag

[everybody-hit-the-pyro-cue]

I think I need to be stuck in a time loop for a bit

#I want to draw but I have to do work I cant do work sp I fuck around on YouTube #my brain isn't comprehending youtube so I'm tired but I need to do my work bit I can't focus #so I get up and think about dinner I should've had 5 hours ago and wonder about the people leaving me on read #and those who I don't know where they are and rghhhhh head hurts not ideal #I finished something but it was a rant assignment I've drafted already #I can't formulate actual coherent history analysis rn and I need to take notes on teh background anyway #And accumulate sources and do a background check on the suthors and print out note sheets and I wanted to fill one out today but that's not #Happening I guess

[sigskk]

so how's that essay going.

do you think teen skk would be like this. assuming they're in a universe where they're enrolled into formal education. do you think dazai would procrastinate until the last minute j to get on chuuya's nerves and have an excuse to talk to him. do you think chuuya would be just as bad if not for one-upping dazai. he's coming over to his house just so chuuya can sit in the same room as dazai while he works. hey chuuya [insert question]? [blatantly incorrect answer]. okay thank you <333 [aware it was bs]. they take a break for dinner and dazai is sitting on the counter like a wet cat watching chuuya (he's helping). "you should've started this sooner" (also did not start this sooner)

#[ ask ] #[ rowan ] #it's about systemic issues in the school system but like a really small portion on it bc wow is it fucked #do you know what i should be doing rn. drawing sigma #i've had this sigma wip marinating in the brain for like half a week now #and this other sigskk one that i need to polish before posting it #AND I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT SOURCES FOR MY CHARACTER ANALYSIS #oh my god and my outline for that one essay i started rambling abt on the side #but NO #FORCED TO BE AWAY FROM MY BLORBOS. #ue ue ue #i'm just a boy i don't deserve this #i know i don't talk about my other interests on this blog but i still need to finish s3 of mdzs and svsss and yuukoku no moriarty #i have a daughter of evil dress to pattern. i have a haxxor bunny cosplay to think about. i have designs to draft so i can paint my cane #i have budget planning to take care of #do you know how hard it is to be a boy who wants a $490 doll #well #it goes on sale occasionally so it's $401 now #but like #still #head in hands #and then i have to start thinking about his clothes bc where the fuck am i going to buy tartaglia clothes that'll actually fit #it's a 70" #oh my god and i have shit i need to print for my tartaglia wall #big surprise to everyone that sees this my no.1 blorbo is in fact not sigma #AND WIGS i think i'm going to have to get a lot of wigs for him bc i need the colour to be right #and there's a 90% chance i'll dick up styling it #... #i had a thought that I think is a bit too weird to post on tumblr dot com on this blog #anyways. the essay is not going

[deeply-unserious-fellow]

Something I don't like about a lot of Vox takes I see is that they tend to portray Vox as someone who's unpleasant to work with and has weird ideas about what partnership means when really... he's not? He's not and he doesn't. It's just that two of the most prominent interactions we've seen him have are with Valentino(who is a fucking NIGHTMARE to work with) and Alastor(a man he has undisclosed, deeply emotional history with). But everyone seems to discount his OTHER important relationship: Velvette. Which by all accounts, is INCREDIBLY normal.

Like, yeah, their first interaction opens with her yelling at him, but that's less about Vox himself and more about Valentino. As they keep talking throughout the first bit of the episode, she starts calming down, and they just seem to genuinely get along? She has every right to look upset during Stayed Gone because Vox is being really weird and she's nOT THE ONE WHO ACTIVELY ENCOURAGED HIM TO DO THIS SHIT(staring directly at Val rn), but even then during the meeting after Stayed Gone she does actually. Participate. Unlike s o m e people. Despite being on her phone the whole time(which is literally her job-), she actually pays attention and contributes real ideas! Which tbh she didn't have to do at ALL like she did not have to put up w/ Vox's bs in RKtVS the way she did. There's also their phone call during the overlord meeting which, while I definitely think Vel was playing it up to annoy Carmilla, still sounded like a conversation between two ppl who genuinely like and respect eachother!

No matter what you think their relationship is(romantic, platonic, etc...), Vox and Velvette seem to get along REALLY well(outside of Alastor-related incidents). Like, better than either of them do with literally anybody else in the show. Vox & Val do LIKE eachother, but I find whatever the fuck is going on beneath the after the battles & masterless cattles to be DEEPLY upsetting to think about for too long(ex; any of my other posts abt their relationship), and the only other interactions we've seen either Vox or Vel have are Stayed Gone & Respectless, which are literally just song battles. Both of their only interactions outside of the Vees have been song battles. Aw fuck I'm getting off topic... BACK TO THEIR RELATIONSHIP AS COLLEAGUES- okay uh basically, I don't think they would get along this well if Vox was a terrible person to work with(note I said WORK WITH. Hate that I need to specify this but I don't think Vox is a good person overall, just a good business partner). I think Velvette is generally a good bench mark for both Vox & Valentino's relationships with other characters because she's their equal, their friend, and isn't in a weird toxic relationship with either of them. Their interactions with her provide a window into how they just generally interact with people. And based off of their interactions, Vox seems to be actually pretty decent to work with when he isn't being Actively Provoked for shits and giggles or trying to sooth the tantrum of a man child. Also when he views you as an equal and doesn't own your soul that helps too.

Edit: Hiiiiiiii just here to say that now, in the light of day, I don't really agree with everything I've said in this post? I wrote it at midnight while like half asleep so my ability to consider the fact that. We barely know anything about either Vox or Velvette at this point in time. Was kind of impaired I think. Cuz we really don't. I do stand by everything I said about their relationship to EACHOTHER, and I stand by the idea that we should take that dynamic into consideration for character analysis more often, but everything else I'm a little iffy on and I just woke up like an hour ago so my brains still a little fuzzy & I can't explain exactly WHY I'm iffy on it, but just know that I think the conclusion I drew is a bit of a leap in logic at the very least and I recognize that now lol

#Idk I just think their dynamic is vastly underrated and should be used for character analysis more often #vox has a lot more layers then I think the fandom tends to give him credit for #because it's more fun to make Alastor body pillow jokes #which tbh I cant even be particularly mad at bcuz if ur doing it for the laughs then there's rlly no harm in the long run lol #also I just want more Velvette character analysis she's fun #hazbin hotel #hazbin vox #hazbin hotel vox #vox hazbin hotel #hazbin velvette #hazbin hotel velvette #velvette hazbin hotel #gonna tag this as ship but platonic readings are welcome too tbh idrc #voxvel #velvox #staticdoll #late night ramblings #gal overanalyzes random shit

[lastflowerofyourhouse]

ok, i haven't personally read lolita and it seems like a hell of a book to tackle rn. i'm not saying i won't, i'm just saying i need more time and brain space before i attempt it. but people are saying that there are allusions to lolita in harrow the ninth? and just my cultural knowledge of the book isn't sufficient to draw the parallels on my own. so, can someone who's more familiar with lolita explain them to me and/or point me toward an analysis that explores them?

#jod #john gaius #harrow the ninth #the locked tomb #tlt #tlt meta #my post

[nerves-nebula]

I'm sorry if somebody already asked, but I'm curious. Do you already have planned when and how Leo finds out the others know about what Splinter is doing to him? And if you do, what's Leo's reaction?

I also wanna say your art is FANTASTIC!!! I'm very tired to do an extended analysis but just...SHAPES!! That's all I have to say rn. And obviously your writing and timing is impecable, you're very good at evoking specific emotions, specific sensations. I wish you nothing but luck on all your projects. Hope you have a nice day!

aww thank you <<33 i really do appreciate asks- i check my inbox all the time habitually ;_; and I WISH TO GOD i could draw more oftennn guhhh

anywho! i don't have the reveal planned exactlyyy, i have a few ideas about how it could happen and they're all good and i don't wanna lock any of them down as the One True Canon way it happens, but i guess I'll have to eventually.

there's the quiet one where one or more of the brothers tells Leo they know, when they're all older and living in an apartment together, and it's just kind of a quiet revelation in the night and Leo is like "huh. I guess that makes sense" and prolly some crying happens

then there's the really dramatic one at the farm house, where Mikey gets fed up and just blurts it out, and Leo denies it to hell and back and tries to get Raph and Donnie to think Mikey is making stuff up- until they reveal they ALSO know. And then Leo is like "it's not what you guys think you just don't get it- dad told me you wouldnt get it knew you'd be like this !!!" and it's a fucking dramatic mess and everyone leaves angry and crying and, in leo's case, feeling violated and humiliated

and i like the second one there more, but the first one is more akin to my real life experiences so it'd feel more ... idk. . . REAL to me?? and sometimes that's what I need. but also sometimes i wanna make things messy and dramatic for the sake of a fun scene.

there's various other ways it could happen to but those are the main two i've got bouncing around at the front of my brain rn. so yeah.

#nnstuff #ask #teenage mutant neglected turtles #tmnt leo

[highpri3stess]

Magic winx always cures my depression. Fr.

Now I've gotten your attention, i have a monsters announcement to make.

Unfortunately, I have been struck with writers block. Yes. Apparently churning out long chapters week by week is too much for me now (ADHD is also a funny thing. Especially unmedicated) Which means I'm extremely fucked. Hopefully my brain will not knock up even further as this easter celebration comes, since it would be a busy time for me and my muse isn't available rn. Plus that chapter is heavy and I don't want to fuck it up AT all.

But I wouldn't leave you guys hanging. I did promise a character analysis of each of them and why I selected their colours so possibly expect that today or tomorrow.

And if you want to talk to me about anything monsters related, please send me an ask (I'm not ignoring the ones in box rn, I will get to them.) Or hmu on discord. It could help with my block and may help me prioritize the storylines better or give me inspo to write. Thank you for you time.

- love, Monika

#moots ♡ #monsters ♡

[theabyssgazesalsointoyou]

honestly writing that fic did not go the way i was expecting it to go and now i'm thinking about jeremy and michael. what have i done to myself

tpg analysis abt jeremy and michael not really being on the same page has been done like a thousand times already so i'll pass. the entire point of their characters is that they mirror each other etc sure. what really got me thinking is michael missing the friendship they had before the squip, the jeremy before the squip. but not in a selfish way like how dare you have new friends or i refuse to see how much pain you were in to decide to take the squip. the squip fundamentally changed jeremy as a person and michael notices that. he can't not notice with how close they are. and with the firm belief michael shows that their friendship will last (see: tpg) he probably mourns that.

it's like,,,, okay sorry to bring richjake into this but i can't get my shipper brain to shut up i'm sorry!!! i legitimately hate how i can't make theories or do analysis or whatever without incorporating my personal shippy hcs into them but i can't help it. it's just engraved so deeply into my mind. the shippy hc is integral to the character dynamics and the story. also this post is shippy in the first place so you were kinda in for this lol. anyway if the richjake squip conflict is about jake never really having known rich outside the squip and having to rebuild a relationship with unsquipped rich the boyf riends squip conflict is michael learning to accept that jeremy has changed bc of the squip. do u get what i mean. i have a raging headache rn so this might not make sense but i have a point to make here i swearrrr

#bmc #be more chill #boyf riends #richjake #jeremy heere #michael mell #rich goranski #jake dillinger

[thatlittledandere]

PLEASE talk about xoxo droplets omg. im no thoughts head empty rn but tbh just i wanna hear every opinion you have about it,, i love when people share my Extremely Unknown Special Interest

Every time I think about how to explain the main characters to someone unfamiliar with them I can get through Everett and Shiloh just fine, normal short synopses, but THEN. NATE LAWSON. TRAPS ME FOR HOURS. Nate isn't even my favorite but I'm obsessed with him oh my god. This is gonna have spoilers for his route btw hold on

Like. I met him, and thought, in a true JB fashion, hot damn. He, he's easily the most attractive of the bunch to me shrsvhddh (Everett has so many qualities I love on paper but in practice. It's Nate he's the most handsome) Then I started to observe why he's in the Unfriendable Group and deducted that he's got a stick the size of a log up his ass. Simple enough. But WAIT THERE'S MORE

I started his route PURELY because he was hot shhddvhgd even though I disliked him hard after my first playthrough. (Shiloh. I didn't believe the warnings. F in the chat bois.) He's not JUST a stickler to the rules nooooooo he's a PERFECTIONIST. And a SUPERHUMAN. But HE doesn't see it like that nooooo he thinks he's just the only one who puts in any effort at all. People keep telling him his standards are unreachable but ~obviously~ they're not. If he can do it, so can everyone else! They're just not trying hard enough! And he doesn't try to be perfect, no, that's impossible. He just wants to be the best he can!

But it's never enough. There's always room for improvement, after all. Nate could get a perfect score on a test and still be dissatisfied, because he could have elaborated on that point in his essay more, or his handwriting got too close to the marginalia on one line and that is unprofessional, or he thought on that one multi-choice question longer than he should have if he studied adequately, etc, etc.

And because of this he's constantly stressed the FUCK out. He volunteers when something needs to be done, he helps out teachers, he takes it upon himself to make sure everyone else is ALSO acting properly, he puts at LEAST 100% into EVERYTHING he does, and there's always more to do. He has a part-time job at a warehouse as well and while the physical labor can offer a bit of a break for his brain, you can bet your ASS he doesn't stop for ONE second or stay on his break a MINUTE too long. How the hell does he live like this?

Well. What other choice is there? Things need to be done. They need to be done well. And obviously Nate knows the importance of rest to your health and performance, so he certainly eats and sleeps properly, but see these things are also scheduled and measured and optimized for maximum efficiency. But does he get REST, for REAL? Does he RELAX?

Yes, because he's best friends and roomies (the room is spotless At All Times) with Everett "2kool4skool" Gray (who would shoot me point blank for saying something so uncool about him). I Could write another essay on their dynamic but let's just say they balance each other out. Nate gives Everett direction, Everett gives Nate respite. Phew.

But I'm not done. MORE MORE MORE. Because I started talking about my personal relationship to Nate but got sidetracked by character analysis dghfsfh THE THING IS I disliked him heavily even some time after starting his route, and all the characters absolutely SHINE on their dates. But then. The unthinkable happened.

The class trip.

Now of course I already knew Nate was extremely high strung all of the time, but until that point I'd seen it either as an annoyance or a joke. But the class trip was, like, a disaster to Nate. He's spending more time with the group outside strictly defined areas and activities and therefore feels responsibility over their behavior. Obviously a new environment with new activities gives everyone more opportunities to act up. They have a schedule, but it's not in Nate's control, and he can't help seeing himself as like a vice advisor, and nothing goes exactly as planned or at ALL as planned, and everyone's doing it on PURPOSE his life is already hell and they're doing it to SPITE him or maybe they're just completely unfit to the title of human being that's been forced on these demons, and this is STILL SCHOOL they're still bound by school rules and they should LEARN things here and GET SOMETHING OUT OF IT for HEAVENS sake,

So it's no wonder he breaks down. And it was, it was fucking terrible. Nate's stress and anxiety present as anger most of the time, I didn't... I didn't see him as the type who would cry. Kind of figured Nate was one of those boys who didn't remember the last time they cried but guessed it was somewhere around fourth grade? Heartless of me. I really thought he was like. Pardon the expression. Above such vulnerability.

Of course he's not. He's a person, and a highly sensitive one at that. I guess I hadn't noticed it over what a hardass he is;;; And y'all I felt SO bad. And so awkward. Like. What the fuck do you do in that situation? This wasn't supposed to happen. It felt like we were breaking the script somehow. Like. "I'm not supposed to see this. Why am I seeing this? Do I need to? Fucking christ. Is this allowed? When can I leave. Uh. There there? Can't even pat him on the shoulder. Jesus just kill me"

And that scene changed everything. Nate cried in front of the MC and I could never see him in the same light again. I used to think he was kinda just a tough yet guarded guy and a demanding ass but oh wow he's actually just like. This dude has anxiety. This dude has problems. He's burning out at light speed and has been for the past what? Eight years?? Get him HELP.

And I HAVEN'T EVEN TOUCHED ON HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH HIS PARENTS YET. So they're the type who saw having children as just a step that responsible adults take at some point in their lives, and they were not prepared. And Nate was a difficult child too. Not on purpose, obviously, babies don't do anything on purpose, but he was particularity emotional even as a baby. He's just Like That. So his parents ehm eeeurgh tolerated him for a few years. Just kind of. Pushed through it. And then decided to give up and send him to a boarding school. Like they basically abandoned him there because they couldn't handle him.

And Nate is on hard denial about this. He tells himself it was the reasonable choice and the best for everyone, and he's not wrong, but he's also not ready to face the fact that uh. His parents very much just are not good at parenting and they don't actually know each other at all. "I respect them and they respect me" is how he puts it, and again it's not wrong but also christ he was not truly loved as a child and still isn't. Mommy and daddy hear that his grades are top of the class and he's very mature and responsible and respected by staff and students alike, and they're proud of him, but they do NOT know who he is as a person or how fucking terrible he's actually doing.

Not that Nate admits any of that himself. I can see how it would be difficult to face when you're already juggling fifty glass balls on a glass platter while riding a unicycle on hard stone floor.

Why is NATE is the one I give a private Ted Talk on regularly when none of the jerks are doing much better. He's just for fucks sake he, he's doing so bad. So bad. Maybe it's the incredibly harsh wakeup call I got? I cannot overstate how impactful that one scene was. HE CRIED. HE CRIED IN FRONT OF ANOTHER PERSON? HE BROKE DOWN?? NATE LAWSON HAS WEAKNESSES??? LIKE HE WASN'T JUST DOING ALL THAT FOR THE SAKE OF OBLIGATION OR TO LOOK GOOD ON A RESUME? HE'S REALLY THAT CRUSHED? I wasn't supposed to be there. I know it's a scripted event but I wasn't supposed to see that it feels not allowed. Are you still there? Thank you for reading go to sleep

#asks #andimhome #xoxo droplets #nate lawson #I'm insane. I'm crazy I'm craaazyyyy. asylum #you should imagine me from above through a fish eye lense as I'm typing this #I'm not going to proofread it sorry if my keyboard made it incomprehensible at times #I'll come back to fix it hold up on reblogging until then 👍 #(because everyone is totally going to reblog this yes. my words are irresistible) #thank you for this I've been dying to talk about nate Lawson. this time actually #edit i came back and fixed it. wasn't even bad!! i did so well this i deserve a 4 out of 5 at least #jb moment. kinda wish i was still in school so i could get this graded asadgsdg #did so well this TIME* in the earlier tag #christ. i did so well this time

[anulithots]

9 people you want to know better!

Thank you to @squarebracket-trickster for the tag!! (her post here)

Current book: Jujutsu Kaisen light novel: Thorny Road at dawn. IT IS EVERTHING I'VE EVER WANTED SLICE OF LIFE JJK AAA- Also also, fills in a few narrative gaps and helps with my overanalyzing. Part of the reason I love books and have to take my time with shows is because my brain tends to wander to overanalyze while reading/watching something. So books work with that better.

Current fic: None rn, but Carry me home Is so ridiculously good. Time travel suguru-centric fix-it-fic that doubles as a character deep dive. It's absolutely amazing.

Currently watching: Just finished watching Murder Drones episode seven and... holy herbs... holy herbs... what.

Next on my watch list: Rewatching Jujutsu Kaisen with siblings. Then rewatching the promised Neverland with siblings.

Current hyperfixation: JUJUTSU KAISEnNNNN! I want to do full analysis's of all the major characters soon... maybe when the manga ends?? ALSO EDITS GALORE I'M GOING TO LEARN HOW TO EDIT MANGA WHOOPDEEDOO. (I think my brain is slowly detaching from overanalyzing Gojo and will go back to overanalyzing the Tokyo Trio, specifically Itadori because he's my absolute fav.)

Last song:

On repeat. Also 'Is this what Love is' by Waisia Project has been on repeat before this. THEY ARE BOTH SO SO GOOD HIGHLY RECCOMENDED

Fav colour: Green and purple. The soft ones. Sage green with a rich purple or a soft dark purple compliment. I like warmer purple. And forests have the most lovely shades of green. Soft brush taps upon the treetops and patches of purple flowers beneath the richest red I've ever seen. (Japanese maple)

Sweet/spicy/savory?: Noo idea honestly. Sweets are nice. I'm slightly more spicy tolerant than average where I live. But compared to my family members? I'm mild tolerance. Savory is wonderous. I like chickpeas and rice the best for those.

.... Overall, I'm a fan of texture over taste.

Relationship status: Is it romantic feelings? nope. Is it a friendship squish? nope. It's a secret third thing. (the longing for a comfort person to obsess over and talk to for hours and have a queer platonic relationship because I don't want to be alone and I like making other people feel seen and heard. I don't care for the whole feeling labels when it comes to this sort of stuff. I just like fluff <3)

Last thing I googled: Something either biology or JJK related. I'm hoping my biology hyperfixation picks back up before the exams in a month.

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