We saw in the comic when Meau was absolutely destroying the scientists to find her baby, that when "Steve" escaped...he was carrying TWO jars of something, not one. Does this imply that there is ANOTHER Mewtwo being developed out there? After all, canonically, there are actually two Mewtwo...a "male" and a "female", the female fought the Genesect in that one movie...the male is the one we are more familiar with now...so those two jars, were they just perhaps a bunch of extracted DNA and other components, just in case their first try failed or something, so they had backup components, or does it actually mean that SOMEWHERE, another Mewtwo is being made?
Just got my kudos email from ao3 and someone left a kudos on my very first fic that I’d ever posted! Like, I wrote that bitch waaaaaay back in 2016. Back when little tiny weeaboo me decided that the world needed to read my fics even though they were kinda mostly just trash. 🙃 But it was there. Right there in the email. And I ended up just staring at it and going, WTF??? People still like/are active in the Voltron fandom???? I thought we all died back in like 2018.
Story time: I found my old laptop in my grandparent’s basement over the weekend and the original BHOC fanfic I wrote back in high school was in it! I’ve posted the rest of the story -- that I thought I lost, which is why I never re-posted the entire thing again -- and it’s available on fanfic.
Read Broken Hearts On Canvas (original) on FF if you’re one of the incredible readers who has messaged me asking for the complete story over the years.
Thank you for continuing to read my little story and your amazing messages of support!
I like to think of myself as a ‘secondary character’ type person. Not in a self deprecating way, but in a more ‘let the protagonist take the epic highs and lows’ kind of way. But sometimes the envy eats me up. I know the lesson there is that for big wins you have to risk big losses, but that doesn’t feel fair. I want to be important for the sake of it. I want something to be a part of because I am wanted.
I’m tired of wishing for the romance that would sweep me off of my feet and into the sunset like the end of some sweet movie or novel.
I’m tired of praying to feel arms around me to hold me sweetly and tight. To feel the warmth in my chest and that dumb smile on my face.
I’m tired of feeling like a supporting cast member in someone else’s story. Where nothing happens for them unless they are there to support the actual main cast member in their obstacles.
I’m tired of yearning for the unattainable people. The ones who mean so much to my heart and yet the ones that will never see me the way I see them.
I’m tired of dreaming of those stories where someone’s eyes open and they can really see me.
I’m just tired.
And I know I’m a couple days I’ll feel back to normal and it will be business as usual. It’s just been on my mind this last few months and I’m tired.
And before you ask, I know I’m going to be fine. Just feeling my feels tonight.
*Speaks into voice recorder as I look at my computer screen* Some ideas for more World of Remnant stuff. Grimm Behavior Classification and Grimm Harvesting/Looting... or would that really constitute as WoR? Maybe a fun fact?? Do people even care about these sort of things?
Hmm, I should just shorten this damn 2nd chapter, maybe I'm having trouble with it because it all feels so messy and rushed. Save some of the later stuff for chapter 3. Maybe I'm just psyching myself out because I'm too worried about it not meeting the same reception chapter 1 got? It's not like every chapter has to be perfect. I've certainly read some good stories with rollercoasters of quality between chapters. Hell the first one wasn't even that good and people liked it.
...I hate when my brain thinks too much. I should really see about going back to the doctors and getting prescriptions again.
God my inbox is so damn full, you know I've answered about 790 asks on this blog in the last five months? Wanna guess how much I still have in my inbox? Another 340 asks lol. Yall are some very curious people. That's a good sign isn't it? Got people's attention and interest. I should go through them sometime and answer some of the older ones, give some pleasant surprises for people who sent in old asks.
Alright enough rambling tonight. Plan to reorganize Chapter 2 tomorrow, cut some of the later stuff so I can better improve the chapter set up and dialogue. Luckily dad has been helping me out by being my beta reader. It's a tad embarrassing showing my old man my anime-highschool action-adventure fanfiction, but he's a good sport about it and knows books like nobodies business... I'll surprise him with some whiskey tomorrow, he'd like that.