#Ponders End

[blithe--spirit]

This park is a five-minute ride away from where I live, in Enfield (north London).

#bicycle #biker #cycling #biking #cyclist #bicycling #bike #cycle #bicyclist #ponders end

[dubmill]

Ponders End, Enfield, London; 7.6.2020

#photography #photographers on tumblr #dubmill #London #Enfield #Ponders End #England #UK #Britain #concrete #bridge #1937 #1930s #River Lea Navigation #urination spot #original photography #original photograph #walk #Ponders End to Waltham Cross via Epping Forest #2020 #07062020

[cringefail-clown]

what if... hal got his hands on different pair of shades later on in tb au...

still on theme

#homestuck #homestuck au #turnabout au #homestuck turnabout #dirk strider #lil hal #hal strider #ive been pondering this for some time #probably would happen like at the very end methinks

[regina-del-cielo]

Maybe it's a 'study finds water is wet' type of thought, but

considering it's an action movie whose overall plot is "immortal warriors Fuck Shit Up™️", I think it's significant that in The Old Guard the thing that makes Copley pull red strings through his Murder Conspiracy Board and say "[Merrick] doesn't care what [Andy]'s done with [her immortality]" is the people they save, not the ones they kill

Most of the Conspiracy Board is him circling random newspaper headlines and faces on old photographs to (more or less realistically) follow the immortals' treck through the world and big historical events. Which is, in-canon, not much different than putting portraits from different centuries next to a picture of Keanu Reeves and saying "they look the same, clearly Reeves is an immortal!"

But then there are the connections. A little girl holding Joe's hand in WW1 becoming the youngest (and first) woman to be awarded a Nobel Prize for Medicine (suck it, Kozak). Or the grandchild of a family that Andy saved from [something] helping people escape from the Khmer Rouge genocide in Cambodia.

They are warriors. They have fought and been in the midst of countless wars, major or minor, throughout history. They must have killed as many people as they saved... and yet.

It's not them taking out a random warlord or dictator or rabidly hateful politician that has tangible repercussions in history. It's the children and families they get out of war zones, save from accidents, protect from natural disasters. People to whom they give a second chance at life, and grow to change the world (or even just their own world), like a mysterious stranger once changed theirs just by holding out a hand or patching a wound.

I don't know I just think it's particularly neat

#my ponderings #the old guard #I know we all love to play the 'if you could go back in time and kill One Person who would it be' game #but I think a movie that makes it EXTREMELY SATISFYING to see the Bad Guys die - #- having 'actually the best and greatest changes happen when people help each other' as its underlying message... #it means something #I also think it connects to Andy feeling like nothing she does changes anything at the start of the movie #for 80% of her life you could Solve A Problem by Taking Out The Guy Causing The Problem #especially in battle! you kill the general and you win. if you win the Problem Is Solved #but then everything becomes More Complex. the Problems™️ are globalized and/or systemic. #and Winning a Battle means just killing people. it doesn't Stop The Problem (nor really end a war) #so it feels useless #and even when they save people... they can’t stay in people's lives for long because immortality #which means they can never know what happens to the people they save #they don't (and can't) have the full picture

[originalaccountname]

There was one line in that last volume right before where the pages had been torn out. It was something the protagonist said to the assassin. “People live to save themselves. It’s something they realize right before they die.” - Oda Sakunosuke, Dazai Osamu and the Dark Era

He had told me his name the first time we met. I had forgotten it for so long, but it was only just recently that I remembered. His name was Souseki Natsume. The same name as the name of the author on the cover of that novel. - Oda Sakunosuke, Dazai Osamu and the Dark Era

#trying to give others what you think you needed. what you think saved you. what you think made you better. #surely that will work for them too? that will keep them safe and alive? helping them will make you good in the end? #THEMES #ponder think contemplate #i'm sure there's more we could fit in here but this thing is getting really long really quickly and you get the point right? right? #part meta part theory i'd say. what's up natsume. what do you have to share with the class. #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd meta #apparently i talk sometimes

[clove-pinks]

BONUS: I have to draw the resulting soldier.

#war of 1812 #polls #dressed to kill #i have some contradictory options on here #i am pondering where this will end up #infantryman with both musket and sword who also has an officer's sash (due to being evil) #or will it be all hat decorations? #napoleonic

[canigirl]

gonna need a scene in beyond the spiderverse where prowler miles finds out about the life he was supposed to have and just Goes Apeshit . he deserves it man he’s just a kid

#the prowler miles brainrot is terminal #bro had like 3 minutes of screen time and i still can’t stop thinking of him #beyond the spiderverse better do him justice idc he deserves his happy ending #give him a friend PLEASE i bet he’s so lonely #prowler miles #miles morales #atsv spoilers #spider man across the spider verse #across the spiderverse #miles 42 #parker ponders

[404-art-found]

There has been a criminal lack of mermay ultrakill content! and I am fixing that!

#ultrakill #v1 #mermay #thoughts #my art #I ended up w other ideas for mer-versions of other characters.. pondering #tail based on a thresher shark; fins Vaguely of a swordfish; moves fast and slaps enemies into oblivion

[assiraphales]

yet another case of zoro why are you looking at him like that. zoro. zoro. i'm waving my hand in your face. zoro look me in the eyes WHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT HIM LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#zolu #alabasta was THE awakening for zoro imo #the desert gave him too much time to ponder. his brain was working overtime w no meditation/nap breaks or working out #and he was faced with a lot of luffy's cons. getting lost getting into trouble hyper. but at the end of it he was also faced with the pros #why he cares for luffy so much. why he'll continue to follow him. why he'd do close to anything for him. #he told chopper; luffy gave me another goal #and I think that was as close as an admission to his feelings as he could get in that instance #and after he came to terms with it all he couldn't help thinking -- yah he's an idiot but he's MY idiot

[fisheito]

collab #2 with @xenole i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS

#I AM SO SORRY I DREW YAKUMO AGAIN ADFSJEIADKS LOOK OK so xenole gives me the tiny crying yakumo. #says DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and THUS i get to thinking #my immediate thought was #i'm going to make oli breast boobily while comforting him #bc i was determined to draw xenole's fave this time. i swore it to myself. i WILL stop being so self indulgent #but the chibi on chibi comforting scene didn't sit right with me. it was too straightforward. not something i would draw normally #it was hhhh as u say.... not on brand.? it did not inspire me. idea benched.... #so days pass and i'm still pondering ideas on what to do to the sad spaghetti. #configurations of clan members danced in my head. some defending yaku. some comforting. some bullying #the ideas usually involved at least oli or kuya bc once again. xenole bias #then while i'm in the shower i got frustrated with my lack of ideas and thought #i'll jujst eat.him. just. chew on him. i'm tired of him #AND THE IMAGE OF KUYA EATING YAKUMO FOR BREAKFAST POPPED INTO MY MIND #originally it was going to be kuya eating yakuflakes and oli giving him serious side eye but then the brain went #WHAT IF IT'S YAKUMO WATCHING KUYA EAT YAKUMO. THAT IS FUNNY. IT MUMST HAPPEEN #BUT I REFUSED at first. i was angry at myself. this is not a competition to see how you can STILL sHOVE YAKUMO into a drawing. #plus the composition would shrink xenole's chibi down! i would take over so much space by comparison! THE DISRESPECT! TO THE COLLAB PROCESS #but once i get fixated on smth...well. i ended up doing the idea and just praying xenole wouldnt eviscerate me for it #i'm sorry my liege. my grip on the reins was weak. the goofy clown horses went stampeding #so idk now it's the two of em having a peaceful breakfast in kuya's cabin but only kuya is at peace and yakumo's this close to a breakdown #i feel like there should be something in the space between them. a speech bubble or something . something mean is being said #yakuya #nu carnival yakumo #nu carnival kuya

[alackofghosts]

from concerning the book that is the body of the beloved by gregory orr

#i hope those words are in the right order i feel so groggy #slept TERRIBLY #woke up at 3am and managed to doze off lightly until 4:30 but it didn't feel particularly Restful #but at least i hope this means i won't end up napping during the day #Ardbert #warrior of light #fanart #speedpaint #i draw sometimes #Final Fantasy XIV #i kinda wanna have a tag for the fake retro stuff so they're all in one place but i need like 7 months of pondering time #if i Need a tag

[mafuyuakgae]

goodnight, sweet prince

#persona 5 royal #goro akechi #p5r #my art #wanted to draw this concept for a while now #is it too morbid i wonder..ah well! #its my bday today and i always end up pondering the orb (mortality) leading up to it #not sure if this concept even makes sense in his context but oh well

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

the last scene of season three of killing eve is definitely, like, the true ending of killing eve, isn't it?? you can feel that everything builds to that conversation that they have where they're really honest and open and understanding with each other, and villanelle being the one to initiate walking away out of love for eve shows her growth, and the absolutely stunning choice of MUSIC and the EMOTIONS on their BEAUTIFUL FACES and the TRYING TO WALK AWAY and the TURNING BACK and that magical little chime of hope that rings us out into the end credits. like, that's the absolute perfect moment to end that story on that absolutely sums up everything. the weight of what's happened and the promise of the future; the fact that they just can't stay away from each other presented as something beautiful and golden in that moment instead of something ruinous. i love their time together in the finale of season four because their chemistry is so good and it's so incredible to finally get to see them having fun together and loving each other, but everything felt so off all season, and the end is horrible and empty, and i think it's because they were trying to extend the story past its natural ending, which was that scene on the bridge at the end of season three. i almost wish i could magically eternal sunshine season four's existence out of my brain, except that i don't know if i'm strong enough to part with all the romancey moments from the season four finale. aughhhh!

but truly: killing eve has the perfect series finale, it's just that it happened a season too early.

#and as soon as they decided to not have eve and villanelle be together in s4 after that s3 ending it was just a betrayal of everything #i to this day have no idea why you would make such a god awful horrendous writing choice #agh! agh!!! anyway. #it's funny because part of it is just this weird alchemy where i can't totally voice why the s3 ending is the right ending but you just KNO #that it is. that that's the moment. #anyway i'm sad about this glorious love story ultimately being so mishandled! how are you! #dollsome's deep thoughts #killing eve #you know it's a wild and crazy saturday night when i start pondering Killing Eve Trauma

[nantokanarusaa]

Ao no Flag (SERIES FINALE SPOILERS!!)

Seriously, don’t read this if you are planning to read Ao no Flag. That being said, go read the manga now!!

Finally finished reading Ao no Flag and I have so many feelings. Non-coherent, rambly, messy feelings. I was looking at reactions online and what mainly boggles me about the reactions to the final 2 chapters is people being “how is Taichi suddenly gay??” My friend living on this big planet he never was (he’s bi). He most likely just realized it later in life. Did the events of his 3rd HS year help him figure it out? Heck yes. Is he suddenly bi? No.

Not all queer people pop out into this world and instantly know they are queer. Heck, it took me 23 years to figure that out. It’s not like Taichi instantly realized he likes Touma and started dating him. He knew Touma mattered to him somehow, but it took him multiple years to realize how, as evident by him maybe starting his relationship with Touma after 5 years when Touma contacted them all. He gained life experience and grew.

People go through a lot of learning, unlearning and growing. Especially if you are outside of societal expectations and norms. Taichi grew up learning to and wanting to blend in with society. “Be normal, don’t stand out too much”. Add to that low self-confidence and you feel stuck. Feel like there is only black and white. only one right answer to life. It can be very difficult to look out of this dark box, trust me, I had a tough time and sometimes still do. But it feels like Taichi thought and thought and pondered even back in high school and came to the decisions that he did.

And isn’t that what the series is about? growing as a person, making mistakes, learning, allowing yourself to be visible and vulnerable, and eventually, making choices, even if they don’t make sense to anyone else, and continuing to do so?

These two pages really hit me hard and I was wondering why. And then it hit me. This is possibly the happiest I’ve seen Taichi be since his childhood. Like genuinely happy. He’s reached max happiness points and is sharing those with Touma. He’s made his choices, and he’s happy. You can and are allowed to choose what or who makes you happy.

That’s all that matters.

#ao no flag #blue flag #blue flag manga #toumatai #is there a point tagging it as spoilers? might as well #ao no flag spoilers #blue flag spoilers #he ending and series in general does have it's flaws but it has become a near and dear one to me #anyways isn’t it amazing how different people have different perspectives and that how you have lived your life changes those #Taichi be gazing at Touma for multiple panels and people be like aww friendship :“) #the way the omamori was want jerked him out of his rage? heck the way he treasured it? their whole conversation on the beach #HE WAS GENUINELY CONSIDERING TOUMA'S FEELINGS FOR HIM!?! NO STRAIGHT GUY WILL EVER PONDER THAT MUCH #i'm alright #also all the hand holing symbolism which im sure other people have talked about better #which also raises the point: let kids express themselves freely without putting gender roles on them #god the hand hold rejection from Touma as a kid was a gut punch #last thing #KAITO HOW DARE YOU NOT SHOW US GROWN UP TOMA AND TAICHI TOGETHER #I WANT TO HAVE A CIVIL CONVERSATION WITH YOU #ok that was long thanks for reading if you have?? <3 #my feeling for this series are immense #oh have i mentioned its from JUMP!? of all the publications??? #granted jump plus gives the creators a lot more freedom but still?? a bi protag?? with a gay main charecter along with multiple queer #confirmed or coded characters? #dint think it could be real #kurosaki rambles #PS i want Ao flag to get a boom in popularity again so that we can get an anime adaptation #if done well and respectfully it will have so much potential #if done well and respectfully it can have so much potential

[morgan-n-cheese-91]

How often do you think Obi-Wan borrows a friend's cloak and the loses it?? And then has to do the walk of shame that he lost their cloak?

#Like how often does Bant Quinlan Luminara Anakin have to pack a couple extra cloaks because by the end of the mission they are -3 cloaks #I'd love to see a fic where Obes loses on of his borrowed cloaks (Anakin's) and so now is sitting in his room pondering his mistake #Bc he can't go to his bf bc his bf is sick of him loosing his shit and having to pick up after him #he cant go to his kids bc he lost one of his kid's stuff and between the two of them he's going to be teased to the point of harassment #star wars #cloaks #obi wan #anakin skywalker #codywan #obi wan kenobi #commander cody #bant eerin #quinlan vos #luminara unduli

[kiwiana-writes]

firstprince tailor shop au

ONE: Henry doesn't find out until much later, but when Alex was first approached about taking on tailoring work for HRH Prince Henry of Wales, Shaan gave him the full NDA—the one that gets given to Oxford hookups and guests staying at Kensington—not the slightly more abridged one external contractors and other service providers receive. If pressed, he would of course insist it was a simple mistake. (Shaan does not make mistakes like that.)

TWO: The first time they meet, Alex spends 40% of the time ripping the absolute piss out of whoever was tailoring Henry's suits before Alex came along, 25% of the time talking shit about the entire concept of a monarchy and everything he hates about living in the UK, and the remaining 35% of the time moving his hands around Henry's body as he takes measurements in a way that is both completely professional and utter torture for Henry.

THREE: The flirting never stops. It's overwhelming: half the time Henry is half-naked, or Alex is on his knees, or both, and Henry just has to grit his teeth and not react.

FOUR: Henry and Shaan arrive one day, a few months in, with instructions from Buckingham: ensure that Henry's depression-related weight loss isn't noticeable, because it isn't seemly. The resulting stream of absolutely infuriated Spanglish on Henry's behalf is the moment Henry falls in love for real.

FIVE: It's not the innuendo, in the end, that goads Henry into finally kissing Alex. It's the look in his eye one day when he smoothes the lines of Henry's suit jacket into place, the way he calls Henry beautiful with no hint of a tease in his expression.

[Send me a potential AU and I’ll tell you five fun facts that would happen in a story.]

#au five fun facts game #ask meme response #bigassbowlingballhead #every time you respond to one of these I end up with that song in my head lol #also I pondered this the other way too - fsotus Alex and tailor Henry - but ultimately the shaan nda thing was too funny