#Sam reads you wrong

[zepskies]

Hi, how are you?

I was wondering if you could write something like "Dean reads you wrong" but with Sam Please

Hey, lovely!

I'm doing well, thank you. 💜 I hope you are too! Hmm, I'm still working through my current bank of requests, but since "Dean reads you wrong" is so fresh, it got me thinking about how Sam would go about this...

Pairing: Sam Winchester x F. Reader

Summary: It's hard for Sam to admit he wants you...when he thinks you might want his brother.

Song Inspo: "If You're Gone" by Matchbox Twenty

Word Count: 1,600 Tags/Warnings: Fluff, angst, fear of unrequited love, mutual pining

Imagine: Sam reads you wrong.

When Sam falls for someone, he's...well, what he would call self-aware.

But also cautious.

He knows his own track record with women. He knows the life he leads, and has resigned himself to giving up most kinds of normalcy or domesticity.

And maybe, a part deep in the back of his brain has given up on the idea of love.

That's why it's so damn confounding...how you've managed to take him by surprise.

He's always been able to rely on you. Whether it's sharing the brunt of the research with him when Dean loses focus, or staying up with Sam on late nights, sharing mugs of tea and quiet conversation, bonding over familiar tastes in books, and '90s grunge music, of all things.

You also confessed to him, late one night, that you have a growing collection of mugs, fuzzy socks, and vinyl records, despite the fact that your record player has collected more dust than the bunker's old storage room.

You're wonderfully weird.

And you're unfailingly loyal to who you consider "your people." And Sam thinks (knows) he's fortunate enough to be included in that small circle.

Sam also knows, deep in his gut, no matter how much he tries to "rationalize" it away, that you're special. And special to him.

You've managed to do more than just slip under his skin. When he thinks too hard on it, he can admit it (just to himself). You've infiltrated all four corners of his heart so deeply, he doesn't have a prayer of scooping you out.

Some days, it's all he can do not to reach out while you're chatting away, filling the silence.

He can picture it like a scene in his mind: of interrupting your mouth with a gentle hand on your cheek, tilting your face up to his and showing you, with or without words, that he wants you...

And yet.

He can't help but watch how you are with Dean.

You two tease each other, bicker and gripe over coffee grinds left in the coffee pot and who ate the last of the leftovers. You fight with Dean over the remote on movie night (once, damn near smothering him with a pillow).

But you also dote on him, making sure Dean has one of his favorite desserts every time you go out to buy groceries. You swap his beer out for water when he's not looking. (And though Dean frowns and grumbles, he doesn't argue with your raised brow and imploring look.)

It's not quite flirting, but it's not quite platonic either—at least in Sam's eyes. You and Dean seem to have something.

And sometimes, your playful banter with his brother makes Sam sick to his stomach.

Like today, when Sam’s sitting at the kitchen table reading while you're making a cup of tea. The silence between you two is amiable, like usual.

Sam steals a glance at you and has to smile.

"Going with purple polka dots today?" he asks.

You look over with knitted brows of confusion, until you follow his gaze. You laugh sheepishly and wiggle your toes through your fuzzy socks.

"The floor is cold as hell," you defend yourself.

Sam's smile deepens a fraction as he turns back to his book.

"They're cute," he adds.

You turn your face to hide your blush. The mild thunder of heavy boots announces Dean's presence as he pops into the kitchen.

"Oh good, you're cooking. What's for dinner?" he asks. You turn to give him a familiar narrowed look.

"Who says I'm cooking?" you counter.

"Well, you're doing something on the stove..." Dean peers over and catches a whiff of the concoction you're brewing. He grimaces. "Second thought, I'm good. That smells like ass, whatever it is."

You roll your eyes at him. "It's just green tea, Dean. You know, health?"

He levels a deadpan expression at you as he opens up the pantry.

"I see your 'health' and I raise you...Doritos," he says. He digs his hand into the bag he's just pilfered and crunches a mouthful in your face. You can't help but splutter a laugh and push Dean away.

"You're ridiculous. If you catch a heart attack at 50, don't come crying to me."

"Hey, at least I'll die happy."

"Oh, right. A silver lining there. I'd hate to see what your arteries look like," you tease.

"Has anyone told you that you're unsavory?" Dean asks, continuing to crunch with an open mouth.

You smirk. "Is that your way of calling me sweet?"

He snorts. "Sure, sweetheart. We'll call it that."

"You know, I'm not your sweetheart," you point out.

Dean discreetly glances his brother's way with a sly glint in his eyes. Sam doesn't see it; by now he's trying his damndest to keep his eyes in his book and ignore the way his stomach is clenching, chest tightening.

Dean shifts his attention back at you and reaches down to brush your chin with his thumb.

"Not yet, but you could be," he says, in a flirtatious edge that he's never quite taken with you.

You're wide-eyed for a moment. In the end, though, you choose to take it as teasing. You push his hand away and give him an annoyed look.

"God, you're such a clown. Order a pizza if you're that hungry," you rejoin, and you pour two mugs of freshly brewed tea. "I won't even bother offering you one."

"Nope," Dean says, popping the "p." He walks out of the kitchen, giving Sam a firm slap on the back. Sam coughs and shoots his brother a frown.

Dean has the gall to wink at him before he walks out. Like he's having his own little private joke.

Well, Sam isn't laughing. He stares down hard at his book. He tries to ignore everything he just heard and saw out of the corner of his eye.

It becomes too much. He takes up his book and heads out of the kitchen.

He just doesn't see the way you frown as he walks away. There you stand, left holding two mugs of tea for you and him.

Sam returns to his room for a while. He's not hiding. He's...reading.

There's a knock at his door, and if it's Dean, he swears he's going to open his mouth and tell his brother to leave him the hell alone, like he's some kind of moody teen.

But it's you.

"Hey," you greet, after the door creaks open. Sam softens.

"Hey," he says, clearing his throat. "What's up?"

"You," you reply. You bring him his hot mug of tea and set it down on the desk where he sits.

"Thanks," he says.

You nod and place your mug beside his (Lord of the Rings themed, of course), and cross your arms as you lean against his desk.

Sam turns toward you in his chair. His hands rest on his thighs. His gaze travels back up to your face as he tries to keep his neutral, but welcoming to whatever you want to ask him. (He buries his heart deep, as he instinctively does whenever you're near him.)

"You okay?" you ask. Your brows furrow the longer you gaze down at him. Just staring, like you know he's hiding something. Like you can see straight into him, into the shadows where he keeps most of his thoughts of you.

This is perhaps the only area of his life where he's a coward.

"Yeah, I'm good," Sam replies, in a tone that suggests, Why wouldn't I be?

You quirk a smile. "Why don't I believe you?"

Sam swallows. For once, he's not sure what to say to you.

"You know you can talk to me, right?" you say softly. You take a subtle step into his orbit, almost between his open legs. Your demeanor says that you'd gladly listen, do whatever he asked of you. Because you're just that kind.

Sam's mouth twitches upward. "I know. I'm fine, really."

"You're fine, or you're Winchester fine?" you raise a brow.

Sam chuckles then, showing a flash of his smile. It lightens you.

"Maybe a bit of the second one," he admits.

You smile and inch closer, resting a hand on his shoulder.

"Yeah? Tell me," you say. Your voice is soft, but not quite a whisper.

It leads Sam to sigh. He grasps your hand where it lies on his shoulder. For a moment, he debates internally. He realizes then that Dean's antics earlier might've been more than just teasing. Maybe it was a subtle nudge—to stop wasting time.

Damn it, just do something, Sam thinks.

When you squeeze his hand back, it's just the small push he needs. He glances up at you.

Then he takes your hand and holds it between both of his, with care. He tugs you forward, surprising you as you step forward between his legs. Your mouth parts in soft surprise when he reaches a hand up to your cheek.

You still look surprised, blushing up to your ears, but you're not pulling away. In fact, your widened gaze moves from his eyes to his lips.

Sam smiles. He tugs you down to him and enacts a living daydream, finally kissing you with everything he has. Everything he’s had locked inside.

You respond to his mouth in kind; the subtle gasp of breath against his lips sharply cuts off as you sink into his kiss. Your trembling hand comes to his cheek, grazing the dull prickle of stubble. When your fingers dive into his hair next, it’s his turn to take a deep breath.

With each new kiss, he explores more of you. His hands find your waist, and he gathers you against his chest. You find purchase on his strong shoulders and give into the opportunity to straddle his hips, sitting in his lap while he continues to make your heartbeat wild in your chest.

Sam slows the kiss, only because his brain is starting to catch up with his heart. He wants to see your face, to make sure this is what you want.

He finds that and more when he looks up at you.

He brushes a strand of hair behind your ear, tenderly brushing his thumb against your cheek.

"Does that answer your question?" he asks, with a soft laugh. You join him and press your forehead against his.

"I don't know,” you tease. Your eyes are dancing, both with amusement and relief. Because your heart has wanted this for even longer than Sam's.

You lean back in to whisper close to his lips. “Maybe I need a little more clarity."

Sam takes you at your word.

AN: It's been a long time since I've written for Sam! 💜 I got in another request for him a while ago. I may dust that one off soon... Until then, let me know what you think of this!

(And don't worry. I didn't forget about the Soldier Boy imagine I promised. That will come out at the end of this week, most likely!)

Read Dean's version: "Dean reads you wrong."

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[la-pheacienne]

George Martin, 2013: "In a very basic level winter is coming for all of us. I think that’s one of the things that art is concerned with: the awareness of our own mortality. “Valar morghulis” – “All men must die”. That shadow lies over our world and will until medical science gives us all immortality… but I don’t think it makes it necessarily a pessimistic world. Not any more pessimistic than the real world we live in. We’re here for a short time and we should be conscious of our own mortality, but the important thing is that love, compassion and empathy with other human beings is still possible. Laughter is still possible! Even laughter in the face of death… The struggle to make the world a better place… We have things like war, murder and rape… horrible things that still exist, but we don’t have to accept them, we can fight the good fight. The fight to eliminate those things.There is darkness in the world, but I don’t think we necessarily need to give way to despair. One of the great things that Tolkien says in Lord of The Rings is “despair is the ultimate crime”. That’s the ultimate failing of Denethor, the Steward of Gondor, that he despairs of ever being able to defeat Sauron. We should not despair. We should not go gentle into that good night".

JRR Tolkien, 1962 : "One reviewer once said, this is a jolly jolly book, all the right boys come home [...]- this isn't true of course, he can't have read the story. [...] Human stories are practically always about one thing, really, aren't they? Death. The inevitability of death. . . . . . (He quotes Simone de Beauvoir) 'There is no such thing as a natural death. Nothing that ever happens to man is natural, since his presence calls the whole world into question. All men must die, but for every man his death is an accident, and even if he knows it he would sense to it an unjustifiable violation.' Well, you may agree with the words or not, but those are the key spring of The Lord Of The Rings".

"Lotr is all rainbows and unicorns and Asoiaf is nihilistic and grimdark". Wrong, and wrong. In all its hope and radiance, lotr often gets very dark, and despite all the death and suffering, the hopeful moments in asoiaf shine bright. The meeting point of these two is this: having hope while in despair, and even better, refusing to give up because you have to go on despite not having any hope left.

#the fact that in possibly his most famous interview tolkien literally quotes 'all men must die' LIKE #GEORGE #I SEE U #you have studied the Professor really hard grandpa just speak your truth free urself! #don't get me wrong for me the Professor will always and forever take precedence there is absolutely no question about it BUT ALSO #stop pitting two bad bitches against eachother!! #i think about all of these a normal amount #and this is why i'll never lead a normal life #ridiculously long post #but i couldn't leave anything out #i must say i cried a little when i read them all back to back #especially the last sam quote #lotr #valyrianscrolls #tolkien #tolkien quotes #asoiaf quotes #lord of the rings #the hobbit #aspa reads tolkien #aragorn #frodo baggins #sam gamgee #bilbo baggins #brienne of tarth #jon snow #jaime lannister #bran stark #daenerys targaryen

[aspic31]

i wish making shit was the norm i wish everyone created i wish poeple had the time and materials to create and access to educational ressources with no financial conditions-

#can you tell im mad at capitalism robbing all of us of our time. #sam speaks #you reading this pick up a craft it's amazing #oops wrong blog. anyways the main blog is full of me losing my mind

[angelsdean]

seconds away from making a new spreadsheet for my rewatch where i keep track of times sam has been a hypocrite or manipulative towards dean, or hasn't owned up to his own actions, or has projected his own insecurities onto dean and twisted dean's words / put words into his mouth (all his "i'm a freak YOU think i'm a monster" whining etc etc)

#it's like. i don't Want to be sam//crit but then sam///girls will come in acting like he's an innocent baby victim who has done no wrong #and like. LMAO. yea sure #and the thing isssss. i Like when it's like this. when sam's just as flawed. when they're both messy and their dynamic is complicated #but you gotta acknowledge that these things go both ways #and also ??? you Have to stop reading dean on the surface level the way you read sam #bc sam was Meant to be read more literal esp in the beginning bc he was the POV character / main #and dean was being filtered thru his POV a lot so the dean we see =/= the real dean #leaving dean to subtext and demanding a deeper reading from the audience and reading between the lines #but anyways. *steps off my soapbox* #vic.txt #vics spn rewatch

[cockworkangels]

the thing about late season sam is that the writers do give him plots but they don't even try to handle them with the bare minimum of care so a lot of them end up falling flat or not going anywhere. we get glimpses of what could have been with like sam leading hunters or witch sam, or anything that could have been done with sam and lucifer, and the samgirl living in my head is picking up all the crumbs offered by the writers and assembling them inside my brain to resemble properly executed plots that let him be a fully fleshed out character again.

#do Not take this the wrong way i love late seasons sam #but the writes did not give a fuck about him #also like you can read late season sam's lack of agency as a result of trauma and well i don't want to think about that for to long i'm #gonna start biting #sam winchester #spn #da.post

[smallishdoggo]

The idea that Dancer didn't and couldn't have known that FCG was a person, and is thus absolved of any responsibility for treating them like an object comes up every once in a while, and, like. Folks. She knew FCG had enough capacity for thought to be worth lying to. She lied to him about having made him. She cannot have considered them basically a toaster. Like, are we imagining that Dancer is out here lying to Pussy the Second to make herself seem smarter?

She bought FCG and restored them, and knew from that restoration that a lot of the technology behind FCG was beyond her understanding. She knew FCG could talk and reason, which is something no automaton we've ever encountered is capable of (excluding aeormatons). She spent four years with him, watching him be very very noticeably different than other automatons. She didn't need to know that he was an aeormaton or what aeormatons were historically capable of; she had all the evidence she needed to understand FCG as a person, and she just didn't.

Like, I can fully believe that she understood all that, that FCG has the capacity to think and feel on some level, and just decided that none of that made them a person. Cause that's the way FCG has thought about themself since their introduction. They think, they feel, they want things, just not how a person would. Not important, not weighty enough to matter.

And I think that matters when thinking about her! Specifically when thinking about her relationship to FCG. Dancer fucked them up! She raised them, he didn't know any other life than the one she built for him till murderbot mode. And I do think she has some responsibility for that. I don't think you can just say that she didn't know any better. She knew a lot! And she could have sought out more information on ancient automatons and their capacities. And she didn't! She knew enough to know she didn't understand FCG and how they worked, and she just. Decided not to do anything about that. She just decided that the thinking feeling robot that she bought should just be a thing that she owns and makes use of, and who cares where it came from or what it might do in the future.

I don't think she's a monster or anything, but it's wild how allergic this fandom is to considering her to have profoundly hurt the person she BOUGHT AND OWNED. Particularly given how gung ho this fandom tends to be about characters having the right to enact bloody vengeance on anyone who has ever made them feel bad.

#i know some people have argued that Dancer didn't lie #and that FCG just assumed that she made him #and Dancer just didn't tell them that they were wrong or anything for ??? reasons #but that's fucking stupid #so I'm gonna assume it's not true until told otherwise #and it will be fucking stupid if it is true #Sam didn't come up with the 'dancer didn't actually make you' twist #Matt did #and can you imagine your DM just saying 'hey guess what this character in your backstory was totally unlike how you wrote them' #'i have not re-contextualized things and added elements that put a new spin on what you thought you knew' #'i have simply decided that your character always had access to this information and just didn't ask' #every explanation that I've read for how Dancer could not be responsible in some way for FCG's worldview is just #'Have you considered that Matt might be a shitty DM?' #and i have considered that #and i don't have any problem saying that something Matt wrote is shitty #maybe he did maybe he didn't #doesn't matter to me

[saltynsassy31]

I NEED to get this off my chest

Just...ignore me DO NOT COME AFTER ME

Idk if anyone will even see this and altho I hope I'm not the only one in this I rather be ignored and I don't think anyone who follows me cares so here goes

Okay, I really wanna read a glitch in time, but a part of me just... I can't. I haven't been up to date on a lot of Danny Phantom stuff, and I am trying. I am just busy, and I am trying to rewatch the show to refresh my memory first and foremost cuz it has been a hot second, and girlie over here needs a refresher cuz she got the memory of a goldfish

But the reason I can't specifically read glitch in time, even tho I have it with me right now is that...well, I hate the finale of the show, I specifically hate Sam and Danny getting together, especially the way they did, I knew they'd probably be end game but to have it confirmed hurt my soul, I've been avoiding it for that and I know it's silly IM SORRY but it's true 😭😭😭

I feel bad cuz I've only heard good things about it, especially with Vlad, who i love, and I WANT TO, and I hate that what's holding me back is this of all things, its so stupid, I know, I fucking know but UGH! I can't help but cringe. When I first rewatched the final season a while ago I couldn't even finish it

I liked them as friends tbh, it just worked better, imo so I shrivel up inside seeing the two as anything but friends

#salty rants #ignore this little rant #danny phantom #only tagging this for organisation sake #cuz mobile tumblr is shiiiiit #but yeah #i guess you can call me a salty greyghost shipper #whatever #im not ashamed of being a greyghost shipper #and im not sorry over the fact i thunk they would have been better #but i really do not mind if people ship them #sam and danny i mean #i really dont! i see why and all #it just...for me personally it sucks #im not gonna tagret people who ship them #and if you follow me and like them #you do you bbg i aint judge #youre probably judging me harder for being such a baby over this XD #I'll get to reading it eventually dont get me wrong #just gotta watch the show again before i do #but im still scared #and i know this focuses on sam and danny but i also really dislike the finally and im scared how thats going to carry over to the comic 😔

[quietwingsinthesky]

no, genuinely, like. Ben can’t sleep one night and Dean goes, “oh, don’t worry, I know how to fix this,” and starts offering Ben a drink. and Lisa (<- horrified) goes, “what the fuck are you doing.” Dean just grins and says, fondly reminiscing, “It’s fine, my dad used to do this for me all the time.” Lisa does not let him give her son alcohol. Dean, instead of taking this to mean that his experiences are not universal nor normal, decides that Lisa’s just sensitive about her kid and actually, he was the one with a normal childhood here and getting drugged until you were knocked out because your dad couldn’t handle taking care of you and your crying little brother at the same time is a normal experience.

and yeah anyway later he gives that shifter baby some whiskey. sam doesn’t say anything because he’s soulless and doesn’t care about the baby, but normal sam probably would have at least gone 😬 in the background.

#drugging jack doesn’t work or make him fall asleep. a thing that dean is infinitely frustrated by. #jack doesn’t even know what’s happening he’s just like :( this tastes bad and it isn’t helping. i want sam instead. he’ll read me a bedtime #story. meanwhile dean is pouring him another glass going shut up just knock yourself out already #dean winchester there is so much wrong with you #dean winchester #spn

[kerstrel]

i miss 2020 mcyt fandom vibes........

#musings from beyond #genuinely i miss being obsessed with the bee duo/clingy duo/bench trio #I MISS BEING OBSeSSED WITH THE DSMP #i wrote and read a lot for them fkdjhgsf #i miss the sbi #don't get me wrong #i still love the creators #(wore my ranboo hoodie yesterday) #but there was something about that time period #it was just magical #thank you wilbur soot tommyinnit tubbo ranboo philza techno foolish #you guys ruined my humour #BUT #now :) now :) now i can look back fondly #watch them grow and support them in their own endeavors #I WILL GO TO A LOVEJOY CONCERT #i will Not make the mistakes tommy made in getting a flat (affectionate teasing) #i will continue to grow and am currently obsessed with grian #hahah that's a funny twist ain't it #also also also the way i was so obsessed with sam :sob: #i loved his streams :] #lil creeper man #but #yeah #i miss 2020 mcyt #looking forward to 2024 though !! #i'll probably be rewatching/reading old fan content #man #...

[zepskies]

✍🏽 (Small) Writing Update...

Just as a heads up: someone has already requested the "Sam" version of my latest Dean imagine: "Dean reads you wrong."

(I should have anticipated that, really. 😂)

So because the idea intrigued me and I haven't written for Sam in a very long time, I'm working on that next! 💜

"Sam reads you wrong" -- coming soon!

Summary: It's hard for Sam to admit he wants you...when he thinks you might want his brother.

#Sam reads you wrong #coming soon! #reader requests #sam winchester #sam winchester x you #sam winchester x reader #sam winchester x female reader #zepskies update

[donut-button]

Before the beloved comic con suit, there appears to have been another Sam & Max mascot suit made to advertise the cartoon. We know Max at least had one. This is as much confirmation as I can find at the moment. These of course could be wrong and I’m only speculating based on information here.

Sources:

The Sam & Max Homepage (fan site)

Totally Fox Kids Magazine - Spring 1998 

#sam and max #sam & max #sam and max freelance police #could be wrong and im open to be corrected #tried to find any info about this fun fair at all and nothing #i even checked fox kids commercial breaks recorded on yt during april and may 1998 and nothing #when i first read the magazine page i didn't think much of it and didn't think it was an actual suit - like maybe some cut out you take a #photo with or something #but mascot suit make way more sense #also the magazine photos are my own because i couldnt find any scans of this issue online #every other issue with sam and max content has been archived but this one so i just had to take the photo myself sorry #sorry if this ends up being wrong but this is really making it look like there's some lost max mascot suit out there #unless im late to the party and its common knowledge akjsdfhkjsd #the cartoon #mascot suit #own photos #website findings #i also thought maybe they just put max here and the trademark stuff because they used max to advertise the event on this page and he's not #necessarily there but- that doesnt really make too much sense and would be false advertising in a sense so.. hm #my own photos

[whysamwhy123]

HALLEJUAH!! I REMEMBERED HOW TO ACTUALLY FINISH WRITING SOMETHING FOR A CHANGE!!

Of course, it's not any of the fics I wanted to finish. I went back to what is essentially my bread-and-butter now and wrote a short-ish, random OrangeHook fluff. But considering how much writing's been a struggle as of late, I'm just glad that I successfully finished something. I was back in one of those stretches where I couldn't seem to write much of anything. And this fic isn't about their age difference or Hook being a cuddlebug, so...progress?

Unless I decide I completely hate it (which is always a possibility) expect something to drop on Valentine's Day, tis the season, after all.

#What is wrong with you Sam you should not be allowed to write #Small victories you know? #Will I ever get sick of OrangeHook?? Apparently not #Can't even remember the last time they interacted on screen but that ain't stopping my brain LOL #On a more serious note - I really do hope that I can get back into the swing of things and make some real progress #On the bigger fics I want to work on #I want to finish the messy angst OrangeHook fic at some point even if it's unlikely to appeal to anyone #Annnnnd deep down in my cold dead heart I still wanna make an honest attempt at that DG Dead Dove fic #Even though that would be even more unappealing + a huge undertaking because that bitch would be loooooooooong #Also I had a slightly less angsty OrangeHook idea recently about them having their first fight and I wanna write that too for some reason #And there's still a part of me that really wants to continue Business/Pleasure because I have soooo many ideas for that AU #But that would require me to get over my inability to write smut #And I don't know how to do that (would appreciate any advice on that if you've got some...) #But at the same time I don't wanna beat myself up for not being able to write much - if anything - most days #This is a hobby after all - it's supposed to be fun #There ain't no deadline and it's not like I'm letting anybody down #Just gotta do at my own place #And write whatever absolute trash I want to write 😈 #My tags are always so obsessive like SHUT THE FUCK UP SAM #But if you've actually read all these - hey. Thanks. Love ya 😘

[monstermoviedean]

three things you need to know about dean winchester. 1) raised from age 4 to protect his little brother at all costs. 2) told at age 27 he might have to kill his little brother to protect him. 3) sacrificed his life to bring his little brother back from the dead.

#w*ncesties DNI #i was thinking about that deancrit i saw yesterday and. #look i know morality is not easy black and white. i know there is no accounting for the full measure of a person's life. #i know it's reductive to say x good deeds cancel out x bad deeds #however. this is my fictional character boy and i want to #like. if you are genuinely deancrit. not you think he did some things wrong or you just don't like him. #but genuinely vitriolic hatred because you think he's abusive #i need you to look at these three true and uncontroversial statements again #i know i haven't seen dabb era. i know many people hate dabb dean. i know he mistreats jack and cas and sam. #but i want you to look at these three statements again. #and i want you to think about how these would shape your personality. how these would alter your actions. #how they would encourage you to do awful things. #i'm not saying he should never be held accountable for his actions #but genuinely if you cannot empathize with him at any point. i don't think you can empathize with me. #like. yeah he's fictional but have a little fucking compassion. #i say this as a loud j*hn hater but despite what dabb wants you to think dean is not john. #OH and to the very kind person who advised me to stop hate reading. thank you again. #i wasn't hate reading and i haven't been dwelling on it I was just driving and thinking about Him and listening to his playlist #spn

[angelsdean]

dean's kinda right for calling sam a selfish bastard in 1x11 because like, in this instance sam insisting they do what HE wants very much WILL result in two people getting killed. like it's a certainty. if they turn around and head to california two innocent people WILL die.

while they're driving and discussing the case they figure out the window for these disappearances is consistent across the board: second week of april. then sam say this is the second week of april.

sam sums up the gist of it, john's sending them there to save this next couple before they vanish. this job isn't just about hunting some monster or spirit in the area that may attack, the attack is certain. the pattern has been consistent for years. it's very likely another couple will disappear / die. and it's already the second week, there's no wiggle room, no space to pause and come back to this case later.

still, sam insists on dropping the case and heading to california. the demon and getting revenge is more important to him right now than saving lives.

dean says, this is important. saving lives is important. and sam says he understands, but his next statement shows he really really doesn't. because he says "I'm talking one week here...to get revenge." ONE WEEK is exactly the amount of time you don't have. Letting this case sit for one week will ensure that another couple dies. Revenge can wait. John can wait. It's been over six months at this point without word from John. Now that they know generally where he is, it can wait. One week won't change much on that front.

so, i mean, dean IS kinda right. sam IS being selfish in this moment (and stubborn. he is thee Most taurus)

yes, dean is also a bit defensive and deflecting because sam won't stop insisting dean's a mindless little soldier and dean also feels some resentment at sam for just leaving him to deal with john on his own (1x06 shifter monologue) and some of those feelings are a bit unfair (but dean's allowed to feel them! just like sam's allowed to feel his anger and resentment toward dean! they can feel things even if their perceptions of the situation are not 100% true). and this scene is playing off as an echo to sam leaving for stanford, he's going to california whether dean likes it or not! and that's gotta be dredging up some bad feelings for dean. but dean's still right about sam acting selfishly here. sam says he understands that hunting is important and this job is important, yet he's willing to let these people die and be collateral in his quest for revenge.

(side note: it's also very interesting to me that when sam asks "that's what you really think?" dean owns up to it right away. which is a nice contrast to the last episode where sam under ghost-possession says a whole lot of shit to dean, fulled by his anger which the ghost is exacerbating, and it's very obvious to dean and the audience that sam does feel those things, even if the words came out harsher than they might have normally. but sam insists at the end of the episode he didn't mean it !! but from dean's reaction we can tell dean doesn't buy it. but here, dean doesn't beat around the bush. he's angry with sam, he's annoyed that sam is putting his own feelings and need for revenge over what dean believes is the more important part of their job, saving people. and so he says it! and maybe it's harsh and sure he'll feel bad about it later, but it's healthier to say how he really feels abt the situation then pretend everything is fine)

in summary: AITA for wanting to drop a case that NEEDS to be completed this very week or else two people WILL disappear and likely die, just so i can track down our dad who's been MIA for *checks notes* over six months, because he's closing in on the demon that killed my mom and girlfriend and i just want to get revenge already !! even though california's a big state and it'll take me at least a day or more to get there and there's no guarantee i'll even find our dad but we can work this case now and save lives now but i just, don't wanna :/

#yes this is probs reads as heavy samcr*t but like. LIKE. dean literally is not wrong in this situation #and i'm not even saying sam's wrong for wanting to find john / avenge jess but like. buddy !! it CAN wait !! #there are SO many variables that do not guarantee they will find john IF they go to california #but it's very very likely they WILL be able to save these people in time if they go work this job #anyways. i do love sam. he's my stubborn taurus younger sibling. i have experience with these things ajdksfk #sometimes your younger sib is just. Wrong and so very stuck in their mindset and you gotta tell em off a little #vics spn rewatch

[titsthedamnseason]

my cousin showing up to my house today to ask me if i’ve ever heard of daisy jones and the six because she just started reading it vs me roping her into a 2 hour conversation about it because it’s my favorite book and i’ve read it 14 times

#miss did not know what she was in for my goddddd #my empire expands. i keep getting more and more people to read it muwhahah #she was all about the sam claflin casting but miss was not a riley keough fan #i was like DO NOT SPEAK ON HERRRR #daisy jones and the six #mine #one thing about people reading this book is that yes i want them to but it’s My Book. like you can’t have wrong opinions about it #i already own it. all tales have to be run by me for approval

[saturnsuv]

after 2 years and 129 days i’ve finally decided i like exile

#i think this is an unpopular opinion i’ve kept to myself for the last 2 years and 129 days #but i didnt like exile when folklore came out #i listened to it again recently and the vibes were right this time #sometimes the first time you listen to something the vibes are wrong and you can’t like it yet #well now after two and a half years. the vibes are right #sam speaks #edit: i’ve just realized this reads like i’ve been in exile for two and a half years