#a nice lil refresher exercise for me!

[sekwar]

new film

#sekwar's art #artists on tumblr #abstract film #ambient #i made this in two days by taking random clips from my camcorder and throwing em in after effects for some aesthetics #i think it's cool! i haven't used after effects in foreeeverrrrrrr #a nice lil refresher exercise for me! #Youtube

[ahiddenpath]

Life Update

Ramblin' about life beneath the cut.

I've been wanting to write one of these for a while, but... It's been hard??? Like- It just seems like such a task, somehow xD Maybe it's difficult to translate into a lil post?

I've been at my new job for nearly 5 months. It's hard to explain the difference between this place and the last. At my last company, the mental/emotional strain was high for everyone. The layoffs, people leaving without new hires, and trying to shove equipment from the locations my company let go of into the one remaining building... It was a lot of challenges and job insecurity, which translated into coworkers being constantly on edge. Not a good environment.

However, I loved my boss, I knew what I was doing, and I was perceived as experienced and capable. I never went in wondering if I'd be able to do what was asked of me. I also worked 9:30 to 4:30 most of the time, although I often didn't break for lunch (usually it was 10-20 minutes at my desk, shoving a packed lunch in my face while doing computer work).

At my new place, everyone is so... So goddamned smart. And so nice! There's not a single buttface at work! My company is successful and growing, people are curious and motivated and brilliant. The company offers career progression (something I've never had before), we're fairly paid, we do innovative work and push the boundaries of science, buzzword buzzword buzzword.

But good god, we work hard.

I've learned more in these nearly five months than I think I ever have in my life. Hell, this is more than I probably learned in six years at my last place, and definitely in the six years before that. The amount of information I absorb every day is just bonkers. I spend far more time not knowing what I'm doing than knowing.

I feel like an absolute rube. The truth is that I've been assigned nothing but difficult work, lol! I fall asleep and wake up thinking about how to make my experiments work, my anxiety constantly tells me I'm an idiot and everyone else thinks so, too. I currently have an entire work day of overtime mentally logged- I've been trying to leave early to offset extra hours here and there, but instead, the total of extra time keeps growing. I'm considering taking a sick day to counter balance it.

I don't spend as much time online anymore. I know I've been missing posts and not keeping up, but it can't be helped. I haven't been able to create as much, either. I'm worried about burnout and being able to keep this up. I try to tell myself that growing as a scientist is exciting and worthwhile, but instead, I end up questioning if I have what it takes.

I'm not sleeping well, I haven't exercised in weeks, I'm not creating much or refreshing myself during my time off. I'm considering setting up a few therapy sessions for advice. As I said to my husband, "All I want is a job where I don't need therapy to figure out how to cope with the stress from the job."

And the wildest part is... This is a good job at a good company. We just work too hard with too high expectations. I'm back in that position where eating, drinking, and using the restroom are difficult to fit in- meanwhile, my boss wants me to do all of this extra reading "when I have time," and he asks why I didn't attend social events, etc.

I know from therapy that my job is to deal with what's in front of me in the healthiest way, and if that involves reframing how I think about it, then fine. I haven't figured out how to do that.

And I suppose I don't have much else to say! My focus is constantly taken up by work, so uh... What else would I say? I hope you're all doing well and maintaining that balance that I can't seem to find right now. Take care and be well <3

#hidden's life

[moviestarmartini]

pilates princesses — jude bellingham x reader.

summary: jude cannot fathom spending a minute without you on his free day. even if he must wear a matching set to working out.

wc: 684

warnings: bulleted format, clingy!jude, nothing too crazy tbh just a lil fun

A/N: i literally had this idea while doing reformer pilates at like 6 am (i've been doing it for at least nine months) so enjoy my loves xx

during the rare instances Jude had free time he became impossibly clingy. 

in your shared slumber, he held you as if you were just going to bolt out the door any second. 

you still managed to slip out of his arms carefully to prepare for your pilates class, needless to say, he wasn't happy. 

“Where are you going? Are you abandoning me?” you heard the raspy voice as you exited the shared closet, fixing the bra straps of the matching set. 

“Baby, I told you last night I had my pilates class. I’ll be back around eight-thirty and we can have breakfast together, okay?” you cupped his face, pulling him down to place a kiss on his temple. 

but that wasn’t enough for him 

“I’m coming too,” he announced, heading towards the closet. 

seeing as he wouldn’t budge and started his morning routine, you called ahead to the studio and asked if there were any reformers left and to please excuse you for the lack of notice. 

they were accommodating as you were always nice and never late; overall a good and loyal customer. 

“This was supposed to be your rest day.” You complained softly as you started the car, your boyfriend hopping in the passenger seat 

you also then realized you were wearing the same color scheme, eliciting a soft giggle followed by a shake of the head

“It’s an active rest day, then. We’ll grab breakfast after this, right?” 

“You’re in this just for breakfast?” you laughed as you set motion towards the studio, the streets starting to fill up with people starting their day 

you knew he just wanted to spend every waking moment by your side 

the staff at the studio had always been the nicest, knowing you by name and asking how everything was as Jude filled out a form 

“Don’t be surprised if you’re the only guy here, maybe some other will show up.” you warned as you entered the studio, you were around five minutes early so they were a few reformers still left 

the instructor approached the two of you. he first greeted you before turning Jude, introducing himself and asking if he preferred english or spanish, though whatever he chose he would still speak both languages 

he explained the whole mechanism of the class, how the machine works and how everything must be done.

he also acknowledged Jude was strong (that was an understatement), so if something felt like light work, to call him up so he could up the resistance by adding another spring.  

Jude listened so carefully, his brows lightly furrowed as he thought and nodded along, and you found his willingness to learn very endearing 

everything started out fine with the warm-up exercises 

but when the video on the small screens above projected the exercise, you could hear Jude snickering.

“I’ve got to open my legs like that in the air? Just like you did last night? I see where you have learning those positions,” He asked you in a cocky half-whisper, noticing how you gave him a side eye but still laughed. 

“It looks like I’m going to receive it wide like Rashford.” You noticed him mutter under his breath, and you really had to pull yourself together and not burst out laughing resulting in losing your core balance right then and there. 

at one point it was surprising to see him struggle a little since he wasn’t the most flexible out there, but you knew it was a matter of development and getting used to the exercises 

“That was extremely fun.” He told the instructor after the class was done and everyone stretched. “I might bring my boys out here; it was really refreshing. Thanks mate, I appreciate it.” He was so educated and a proper gentleman it only warmed your heart further. 

“What are we having for breakfast? This pilates princess thing has me starving,” Jude yawned, stretching in the passenger seat. 

“Let’s go to our favorite! I’m dying for their overnight oats.” You beamed, catching how he texted his experience to the group chat with his teammates with a tiny smile on his face.

You were definitely joining them in that class. 

#jude bellingham #jude victor willliam bellingham #jude bellingham x y/n #jude bellingham x reader #jude bellingham x you #jude bellingham imagine #jude bellingham blurb #football blurb #football fic #𓈒ㅤׂ 𓇼✽ — writing !

[positivityfortoday]

☀ PositivityForToday’s 10K Celebration ☀

There are SO many things worth living for and reasons to smile and be happy! With the help of my lovely followers/friends, I have compiled a list of 1,000 things that make people happy, for my 10,000 amazing followers! Hopefully, this list is able to help you, make you feel better, or give you a reason to smile today! 

☀ 1,000 Happy Things ☀

Seeing cows while driving

Moss on really old fallen trees 

Seeing a lil baby you don't know in public, and they smile at you!!!

Parents doing their kids hair or just people doing someone they care about’s hair

Really ragged old and well-loved stuffed animals 

When the dandelions start blooming

Spring blossom

Daffodils

Bluebells

Sharks

When you're sitting outside your house or something and people passing by wave and say hi

That feeling in the summer when you have your window open and you're listening to your favorite music

When someone does a hobby just because they enjoy it even if they aren't the best at it

Comfort shows and books

People speaking their native languages

When my brother gets something to eat and always gets me something he knows I like

When I finish a crossword 

When I see something that reminds me of someone I care about

Paintings

My best friend (I love her so much shhhh don't tell her)

My dog! I love him 

My little sisters! Adorable, creative, and very witty. I love them

Music! I get the happy shaky feelings and just,,, y e a h/listening to songs

Singing! Especially for band practice!

Sunlight beams in the morning

The moon

Eagles

That feeling when you’re with friends and you’re all laughing so loudly, and you just feel complete

Talking to my favorite people/talking to my best friend

Sunrises and sunsets

Seeing the stars

Cats

Butterflies/Moths

Snails

Warm sunshine

Purple gel pens

Hugs

My children

Sunny days

Beautiful views

Spending time with my family and friends

Playing badminton

Cycling

Playing with little kids

Playing with dogs

Whales

Animals doing daft things 

Talks and walks with my son 

Morning breakfast and coffee 

A good spicy lunch

Laying in my bed at night and just checking on current affairs and news

My boyfriend

My friends 

Art

Owls

Minecraft

Voice acting

Petting my dog

Smelling Flowers 

Feeling a cold thing when I’m warm or a warm thing when I’m cold 

Giving and getting kisses

Random texts from friends

Coffee flavored chocolate 

Singing

Moths with big white wings

Underdone scrambled eggs

A rainy night

Bubbles

That first warm day of spring

Going on hikes

Being outdoors

Candy

Chocolate 

The smell of playdoh 

Taking photos

Getting new clothing 

Candles

Birdwatching

Going on picnics

Writing poetry

Reading books

The holidays

Making people smile/laugh

Coffee

A nice warm blanket

Eating ice cream

Snow globes

Lightning bugs

Flowers after the snow melts

The smell of rain

Sitting on the steps early in the morning

Being the first to wake up

The feeling I get after running

The comfort of a favorite shirt

My girlfriend 

Family

Random acts of kindness

Babies

When I play with my dog by pretending to run at her and she goes crazy with excitement 

My cat 

Rain

Baking

Piano (playing or listening)

Small flowers

Flowy skirts/dresses

Wholesome romances

Hearing a song for the first time and loving it immediately 

Playing my flute

Horses

Listening to vinyls on a record player

When someone remembers a little detail about you

Painting my nails

Doing yoga

Doing exercise

Beating a personal record

Rainbows

Making crafts

Taking a shower after a long day

Going to the zoo

Going on vacation

Being at the beach or near water

Watching Netflix

Going to the movie theatre

Watching a live play at a theatre

Learning something new

Teaching someone how to do something 

Toasting marshmallows and eating S’mores 

Cupcakes

Seeing a shooting star

Taking a nap

When someone compliments me

Decorating my room

Picnics

My favorite band

My favorite celebrities

My favorite actors

Setting a new goal

Collecting rocks

Putting on fresh clean sheets

Seeing Christmas lights

Listening to birds chirping

Giraffes

Camping

Sitting by a bonfire

Eating mashed potatoes

Bullet journaling

Driving in the car with the windows down

Dancing

Looking at pretty pictures

Concerts

Funny jokes/puns/memes

Fireworks

Sparklers

Pretty clouds

My favorite shoes

Getting new art supplies

Making photo edits

Making gifts for my friends and family

Getting gifts from people 

Balloons

Succulents 

Playing an instrument

Drinking a nice cup of tea

Iced tea on a summer day

Eating fresh fruit

Getting my hair braided 

Eating at a restaurant 

Being on a boat

Swimming

Making new friends

Finding an animal in nature 

Pumpkins and pumpkin patches

Carving pumpkins 

Autumn and all the beautiful colors

Acting for theatre

Making video edits

Wearing a costume for Halloween

Dressing fancy

Finding four leaf clovers

Pressing flowers

Scrap booking

Handwritten letters

Stickers

Hummingbirds

Elephants

Eating breakfast 

Gardens

Inspirational quotes

Wearing my favorite necklace 

Baby animals 

Little streams and ponds

Foxes

Sun shining through trees

When it’s foggy out and you can see dew drops on plants and spider webs

Being on a swing

Finally accomplishing a goal you’ve been working on 

When a new season of your favorite show comes out

Doing my makeup

Cleaning and organizing 

Daydreaming 

Taking a bath

Christmas 

Watching funny videos

Wearing sweaters and hoodies

Fuzzy socks

Helping people 

Little figurines and objects

Popcorn 

Brownies

Looking out the window 

Wolves

Opening a window for fresh air

The smell of coffee 

Watching YouTube videos 

Getting a haircut 

Seeing a deer in the woods 

Watching birds fly

Finding shapes and objects in the clouds 

The smell of fresh laundry

When someone tells me something reminded them of me

Stepping on crunchy leaves

Animal crossing

My switch

Softball/baseball

Basketball

Soccer

Seeing cool cars/old cars

Rollerblading

Drawing with chalk on a sidewalk

Going to bed early

Stargazing

Making progress

Checking things off my to-do list

Taking Polaroid pictures

Going for walks

Jogging

Going to the library

Starting a new book

Finishing a good book

Playing board games

Koalas

Slippers

Big trees

Sunlight coming through the windows

Waking up on Christmas morning

Getting book, song, movie, etc. recommendations from my friends

Making music playlists

Finally receiving packages I ordered in the mail 

Baking desserts

When my favorite song comes on

When people make playlists for each other

Finding new characters to ship

Having free time

Sticky notes

Sunbathing

Traveling

Peace and quietness

Alone time

Meeting my step/exercise goal for the day

The people who love me

Soup

Coloring books

Getting into bed after a long day

Pillows

Fandoms

How unique and different everyone is

Getting a lot of work done

Looking forward to my future dream job

Playing video games

Being on Tumblr

Taking time for myself

Practicing self-care

Face masks

Finding money you forgot about

Holding hands

The smell of apple pie

Starting a new tv show

Getting letters in the mail

When the seasons change

Summer

Mugs and teacups

Smoothies

Breakfast food

Disney

Going into the woods/forest

Trying new creative outlets

The smell of sunscreen

Eating the food you’ve been craving

Knowing and feeling that people care

Telling a good story

Laughing so hard can’t stop and your stomach hurts

Late summer nights

Late night drives

Sparkles

Glitter

Listening to people I love talk about their favorite things and what they’re passionate about

Listening to podcasts

Turning up the volume of my music

Putting my headphones in

Blasting my favorite songs through my speaker

People accepting and supporting others for who they truly are

Wearing something cozy

Soft light

Love

Warm weather

A well-rested night

Waking up in the morning and feeling refreshed

Knowing that every day is a fresh start

Well written characters

A book I can get lost in

Sloths

My parents

My siblings

My grandparents

The feeling of sand beneath your feet

Heated blankets

Bagels

Toast

Getting something for free

Samples

Constellations 

Mason jars

Practicing a new skill

Finding a new hobby

Lazy weekends

Mac n cheese

French fries

Having deep conversations with my best friend

New jeans

Going to IKEA

Skirts 

Dresses

Doodling

When other people are happy (especially people I know and love)

Marching band

Sleeping in

Having the day off

Getting new books

Playing guitar

Playing ukulele 

Random compliments

A change of scenery

Cuddling

Waking before the sun is up

Reading old letters

Zebras

Exploring

Building Lego sets

Using photoshop to make edits

Journaling

Walking along the seafront and breathing in time with the waves

A good rom-com or nostalgic show

Writing lists

Pinterest boards

Looking back at my accomplishments

Talking on the phone with a friend or family member

Wrapping presents

A blue sky

Loving someone 

Waterfalls

Washi tape

Penguins

Donuts

The color yellow

Sleepovers

Cooking dinner

Kind gestures

Trust

Inside jokes

Songs that make you feel nostalgic

Seeing other people’s art

Comfy clothes

Wearing pajamas

Calligraphy

When someone calls you by your nickname

Going to Target

The first sunburn of the summer

Ramen noodles

Chinese food

Thrift shopping

Flower fields

Flowers growing in random places, like through a crack in the sidewalk

Writing

Sparkly snowflakes

When it snows on Christmas

Mixing paint colors together

Perfectly shaven legs

Puddles

The color red

Thunderstorms 

The smell of flowers

The ocean 

Adult sized onesies

Driving a golf cart

Fairytales

Cartoons

The color blue

Pasta

AO3

Crickets chirping

Seeing everyone’s houses decorated for the holidays, especially Christmas

Other people sharing what makes them happy

Monkeys

Being understood

When someone texts to make sure I got home safely

Iced coffee

Becoming better at communicating with others

Seeing a friend for the first time in a while

Good morning and good night texts

Drinking a cold glass of water

Deep conversations in the middle of the night

Collecting sea shells

Building blanket forts

Tan lines

Being under lots of blankets

Making better health and money choices

Getting chills from a song even after hearing it countless times 

Liking how I look

Hot chocolate

Finding new music

Buying cute things

Wearing an outfit I really like

When someone tells you how glad they are to be your friend

Gardening

Watching raindrops race down a window 

Trying new food

Finding exactly what I was looking for 

Planning my future

Finding a song that perfectly fits my mood or describes how I’m feeling

Writing little notes to people

When someone tells me I did something good

Eating ice cream on a hot day

Making friends with animals

Going to football games

Seeing people genuinely interested in something

Snow days

The last day of school

Winter break

Spring break

Thanksgiving

New Year’s Eve

Turtles

Sitting outside on a cool summer day

Watching rain

Watching the ocean waves come in

Netflix binges

A new movie release I really want to watch

Driving with a window down for the first time in the spring 

Taking a cruise

Giving helpful advice

Getting helpful advice

Doing a favor for someone who needs it

Someone referencing one of my fandoms or something I love out of no where

Learning and knowing stuff

Doing something physically challenging or scary

Listening to my bedroom fan while I fall asleep

Coming up with a new creative idea 

Finding something I wanted at the store on sale for a good deal

Finishing all my assignments on time or even early

Hugging my dog

Taking my dog for a walk

Teaching my dog a new trick

When strangers stop to say hi to my dog

Listening to audiobooks

The weekend

Finding a new flavor of chapstick

Drinking Kool-Aid, it makes me feel so nostalgic

Watching nature shows on a weekend morning

Watching cartoon shows on a Sunday morning

A good TV show, most likely something I've watched before because that way I know it ends well

A good, delicious comfort meal on a Friday night by myself 

A café in the city centre at noon when it's not filled with the morning rush or afternoon coffee breakers

The stars from my childhood bedroom because they're the brightest here

Listening to my favorite playlist really loud on a long road trip and singing to myself loudly in my car

Having an entire day to myself without interruptions from anyone

Opening the curtains first thing in the morning 

A new jacket

Going to the cinema on a first release day because it's always super exciting and full of people anxious to see a movie they've been waiting for forever

Listening to live music

Riding roller coasters

Going to amusement parks

Lizards

Seahorses

Starfish

Eating fair food

Feeling an instrument vibrate when you’re playing it

Hearing my dog snore

When my dog dreams in his sleep 

Wearing a new piece of clothing for the first time

Feeling the sun on you

Eyes in the sunlight

Seeing city lights

Singing in the shower at the top of my lungs

Looking at someone and them knowing exactly what they’re going to say

Laughing till you cry

Being under a blanket

Going to craft stores

Watching boats

The idea of traveling the world

When my dogs let me lay my head on them

Listening to an old song and having it bring back memories

Candy corn

Crazy socks

Quotes

Fall and the leaves changing color and the crisp feeling in the air

Making snowmen

Making gingerbread houses for Christmas

Making videos with family

Burning a candle

Booping a dog’s nose

Getting letters/notes from people; writing them

Snow globes

Dr. Pepper

Doc martens

Fortune cookies

Potatoes

Easter

Finishing something

Skipping rocks

Warm rain

When someone opens up to you

Finding the right words to say exactly what you wanted

Animal footprints

Eating outside

Fairy lights

The smell of a hotel

Windows

Meeting a new dog

Dolphins

Getting magazines in the mail

Being in the woods as the sun starts to rise and the animals wake up

Warm days

Adirondack chairs

A warm breeze

Clothes and blankets hanging outside to dry

Feeding birds

Aquariums

The color green

Tie dying things

Going to art museums

Going to science museums

New albums from my favorite artists 

Seeing moss in nature

Finding cute little mushrooms 

When a dog wags its tail a bunch and is excited to see me

Playing fetch with my dog

Obsessing over something and having someone to talk about it with

Going on a walk with my best friend and talking about life

Looking at old pictures and reminiscing on good memories

Reading a book that's so good your brain wants to read faster than it can

Laughing with friends about the weirdest things

Being appreciated for doing small things you wouldn't even have thought about yourself because it's something you *just do*

Being creative

Watching animals

A story I can't put down

Stretching

The moment when you listen to a new song/album by your favourite artist

When you're at a concert and anticipating the moment before the band comes out

When at a concert and they play your favourite song live

The moment when someone compliments your outfit 

When you see someone wearing merch of something you like 

Seeing the sunrise/sunset 

Watching the sun rise out of the water or sink down into it as it’s setting

This ecstatic feeling in general when you're just living in the moment with people who love something as much as you do

Hugging my cat and smelling his fur

Listening to my music by myself and singing to it 

Making edits I’m really proud of 

Losing hours in a good book or fanfiction

Writing sentences that I actually like 

My siblings and my parents when they're being chill and funny

Watching my favorite tv shows and movies and yelling about them into the void 

Finding a new good song 

Fresh out of the shower + fresh clean sheets feeling when you go to bed

When I come downstairs in the morning and my dog greets me right at the bottom step with her lil’ tail wagging

Knowing that if I ever needed someone to chat with, someone would be there to lend an ear

Tigers

Lions

When you shuffle your music and the exact song you want to hear plays

When all my family is around the outdoor fire on a summer’s evening

When my nieces and nephews give me squishy kid hugs

Being home alone and being able to cook or bake in the kitchen without disruption

Driving around with a friend in the evenings and just belting our favorite songs

Seaside walks

Disney World

Seeing live theatre

The sun shining on leaves and stone buildings

Dancing when I'm alone

Color-coordinating my outfit

Floating on my back in the sea

The smell of summer nights

The smell of winter mornings

Colorful things/environments

Bunnies

Walking along lakes/rivers/the sea

Spending time in nature

Taking care of my plants

Giving affection to my loved ones

Listening to other people's stories

Reading about people I've never met before or places I've never visited before (especially if they are now just a part of history)

Embroidering

Pandas

Swimming in a river or the sea

Stargazing (my favorite moments usually happen an hour before sunrise)

White-caged-bird

Feeling the breeze when I spin and my heartbeat when I dance for an hour at a time

All the wonderful smells of flowers and colours that nature has to offer

Sharing good laughter with someone

Feeling like I belong

Travelling and discovering new customs of different cultures

Hiking or foraging

That feeling when I'm approaching the end of a really good book and I let myself be engulfed by the fact that it's a unique experience, that I'll never experience as the first time again

Observing my local fauna

Petting and taking care of an animal (double the joy if it is friendly with strangers)

Drinking a good cup of honey tea

Finding a perfume that suits me

Eating something sweet

Enjoying a meal with others

Cat paws tapping on the floor

Dipping a biscuit into tea

Trying to catch leaves falling from the tree

Having sunlight hit your face when you’re napping

Objects that cast a rainbow when the sun shines through them

Seeing patterned shadows

Ambient mood lighting

Sleeping

Wearing jewelry 

Cheese

Playing chess

Fresh air

Going somewhere new

My Mom’s cooking

Being inspired

When someone holding your hand rubs their thumb lovingly in circles

Picking strawberries

Otters

Painting the walls of my room

Wind chimes

Seeing that your favorite people are active online

Finally understanding something you were struggling with

The excitement you get when someone reblogs your writing or art

Getting a new notebook or journal

Appreciation

Validation

When someone tells you they love you and mean it

The smell of freshly baked bread

When my dog falls asleep on me

Making new online friends

Found family

Finishing cleaning my room

When someone lays their head on your shoulder

Doing something right on the first try

Finally sitting down after standing for a long time

Getting goosebumps from hearing or seeing something you love

Seeing a gorgeous view

Loving someone and them loving you back

Freshly baked gooey cookies

When a song comes on and everyone starts singing

When I’m out for a run and it’s hot and it starts raining. Nothing makes me feel more like a human than getting caught in the rain on a run

Swimming in the ocean

When people are talking about something they really love and get carried away trying to explain it all to you

Puppies

Being in the middle of nowhere and actually getting to see the whole sky of stars that you never get to see in a city

Finding people that love the same things you do

 When something silly reminds you of someone you love; like every time I see an orange and green gummy worm I think of my sister

When you’re hugging someone and they squeeze you a little bit before they let go

Weather where you can leave all the windows open in your house

Trampolines

Driving with no destination in mind

Falling asleep to the sound of rain

Hearing other people laugh

Laughing only because you hear someone else laugh and it's just so contagious

The first snowfall of the year

Disney movies

Listening to someone tell stories and they have like 15 side stories in between the main one

Romantic movies

Bubble baths

Smiling between kisses

Wearing sweatpants

A clean house

Pizza

My computer

Cheesy pickup lines

When people tell me they miss me

Cool spring mornings after a storm

My job

Butterflies

New shoes

Oversized shoes

Caramel apples

Volunteering

Meditating

Running my blog

Finding sea glass at the beach

Getting my nails done 

Planning vacation

Hot cider

Telling people I love them

Writing in my gratitude journal

Eating homegrown vegetables, fruit, and herbs

Remembering a good dream I had

Happy endings

Colored pens

Decorating for the holidays

Finishing a really good tv show

Leopards

Summer rain

Thunderstorms where I can just open my window to the full extent and just watch and listen

Calls with my best friend

Seeing a meme and sending it to my friends

Getting an email from AO3

That moment when you get an idea for creating something

Walking barefoot on the grass

Sending thank you notes

Writing events I’m looking forward to on my calendar

Dippin' Dots

Spicy food

Seeing a full moon

Eating cookie dough

Eating seasonal food

Bubble wrap

Going to the car wash and getting rainbow soap

Dark chocolate

Soft blankets

Weighted blankets

Soft drinks with crushed ice

When I get an unexpected phone call from someone I love

Wearing flip flops

Longer daylight hours

Having a BBQ

Frosting cookies

Making cupcakes in the microwave

Watching the Hallmark channel during the holidays

Taking selfies or photos with people I love

Putting on lotion

The smell of a baby’s head

The Office

Online shopping

The smell of freshly cut grass

Surprising my family or friends

Looking at the clock when it’s 11:11

Being productive

Quilts

Doing good on an exam

Someone doing a favor for me (especially when I didn’t ask)

Eating pancakes with syrup

Origami

Sprinkles

Confetti

Waving at people

Giving high fives

Complicated Handshakes between you and your best friend

Naps/feeling well-rested

Eating one of my favorite foods

Hearing good news from/about a friend or family member

Looking at nature (these days it's seeing squirrels in my neighbour's garden and looking at my plants and trees)

When make someone happy or feel like I made a difference (including a satisfied client)

Success (good grades, a gifset that does well)

Hugs from my mom

Learning new things

Chatting with my friends because they’re all amazing people

Group watches of my favorite tv show or movie

That feeling when the house has just been cleaned/when I’m freshly showered

Making jokes/laughing with people

Reading fluffy fanfics

Driving on the road to a destination far away, I love the trip as much as (if not more than) arriving at the actual place

Reading affirmations

Green tea

Getting breakfast or lunch from a nice restaurant 

Learning about topics that won’t benefit me; like Chinese history, geography, ancient flora and fauna, etc. just things that I find cool 

The jokes my girlfriend makes, especially when they’re the same ones she always makes

Stories from the past! Stories from history from people who actually lived through it

Stories in general, just hearing the life experiences of people in completely different positions from me. I love hearing people’s stories

Drawing intricate things, like old buildings, landscapes, and plants

Cooking a nice meal

Grocery shopping and farmers markets especially 

My cat! All of her weird little habits too, like how she stands in front of my feet so I’ll push her where she wants to go 

Botanical gardens

State parks

Museums

Art galleries

Listening to stories my grandparents tell

When people tell me about their life goals and dreams

Being surrounded by the people I love 

Living the best life I can

Partying hard the night away

Daydreaming

Sunflowers always make me smile

Warm tea

Big fluffy clouds in a blue sky

Friendly babies

Hearing a past favorite song

Singing karaoke 

Biking riding

Helping others

Chocolate milk

Sweets and fruits

Having fun doing things I love

Dragons

Video games

My favorite things

Writing

Affection

Exercising

Being on Tumblr

Pinterest

Looking at flowers and plants

Playing with my cats

Chatting with my friends (at the moment it’s through zoom, of course)

Finding new ways to decorate my room

Window shopping

Spending time with my boyfriend

Wearing my favorite outfit/accessory

Eating something delicious

The cool side of my pillow 

Tears of joy

Woodpeckers

Reading poems

Hugging trees

Tree houses

Airstreams/campers

Playing frisbee

Making sculptures

Puppy ears

The first day of spring

The first day of summer

Sending silly photos to my friends

Building sand castles

Winning prizes at the fair or arcade

Marbles

Cacti

Scrolling through my phone

Writing fanfiction

Seeing someone you haven't seen for a really long time

Putting together collages

Printing out photos I love

DIY projects

Sewing 

Crocheting 

Listening to steel drums

Haunted houses

Going through a corn maze

Picking fresh fruit or vegetables

Bubble tea

Starbucks

Dunkin donuts

Disneyland

Disney Princesses

Climbing trees

Finishing errands

Rewatching my favorite episodes

Scrunchies

Milkshakes

Ice cream blizzards

Listening to acoustic versions of songs

Hot tubs

Rubber ducks

Coconut flavored food

Dipping fries in ice cream

Discovering a new type of animal

Seeing hot air balloons

Frogs/toads

Splashing in puddles 

Having plants inside my house

Teddy bears

Iridescent/holographic things

Bird houses

Breakfast in bed

Crystals/gemstones

Ziplining 

Dew drops

Glow sticks

Flower crowns (especially handmade ones)

Spring rain 

Watching other people make art

Lighthouses

Finding heart shaped things in nature

Thinking of getting my own apartment

Coming up with a new recipe for food

Cookbook recipes passed down through families

Bookshelves

Making pretty yogurt bowls

Seaside houses

Flying on planes and being in/above the clouds

Flower bouquets

Looking at and learning about the planets

Fruit snacks

Palm trees

Weeping willow trees

Cherry blossoms

Eating cake

Decorating cakes with eccentric icing designs and colors

Whipped cream

Having snowball fights

Hearing Christmas music

Tattoos

Wearing rings

Green grass

A tidy organized desk with cute desk supplies

My craft room

Hammocks

Little cottages

Cotton candy (and cotton candy flavored things)

Looking at all the paint pallet colors in paint stores

Stamps

Taking silly photos in photobooths

Going to the mall

Making jam, especially strawberry jam

Reading outside

Finding a bird nest and watching eggs hatch

Looking at photos of my family and friends 

Finding old flora and art books

Eating fresh corn on the cob with butter on a summer day

Lily Pads

Icicles

Inner peace

Sitting under a tree

Not having to turn on the light in your room when the sun is shining through

When restaurants have patios you can dine at

Fishing on a pier

Seeing old couples in public

Making gifs

Trees swaying in the wind

Anime

Dying Easter eggs

Laying in the trunk of a car and watching the clouds or stars

Night lights

Flower shops 

Outer space

Kitchens

PB&J sandwiches

Toasted Cheese

LoFi music

Listening to/watching ambience videos

Turtle necks

Peaches

Looking at old maps

Figurines of the earth/globe

Honey and bees

Cheesecake

Seeing footprints in sand and watching them be washed away by waves

Anything related to the moon, stars, and sun

Reading my horoscope (even if I know it’s not real)

Archways decorated with hanging flowers

Yogurt

Pudding

Knowing that I’m not alone

Ancient roman sculptures

Macarons

When someone tells me they care about me

Weddings

Watercolour

Birthday parties 

My brother

My sister

When my dog leaves his bed to lay in the sunlight

Doing mini photoshoots with my friends

Hand making bracelets/necklaces (friendship bracelets)

When someone calls me darling or honey

Love letters

Game night

Skateboarding

Stress balls and squishy toys

Starting something I’ve been wanting to do for a long time

Playing cards

Doing puzzles

Word searches

Kittens

Ordering takeout

Stepping out into the fresh air

Creating vision boards

Getting a massage

Writing positive affirmations

Lunch dates

Standup comedy

Listening to classical music

Nature/animal documentaries

Having someone there to listen to me

Listening to someone when they need it

Accepting myself for who I am

Looking back and seeing how far I’ve come and all the progress I've made

Doing something my future self will be thankful for

Speaking up for myself

Being near loved ones

Finding time for my hobbies

Giving myself time to rest

Saturday mornings

Marrying the one I love

Discovering new things

Going to new cities

My idols

Pastries

Feeling the wind on my face on a car ride

The sensation of music in my ears and like nothing else matters

People who have my best interest in mind

Simplicity

Fulfilling my dreams

Discovering a new ice cream flavor

Knitting

Making myself a priority

Knowing that I am important, and I matter

Thank you all so much for following me and supporting my blog! It means a TON! I never expected for this blog to become popular, especially because I originally started it to help myself get through some mental health issues. I am so happy to be able to share my journey of healing with you all! It means the world to me to help or make a positive impact on even just one person’s life! Each and every single one of you is amazing!! You matter and you are SO important! Thanks again for your everything! Have a great day!!! Sending sunshine your way!! 

#10K Followers!!! #WOW!! #Thank you so much!! #Positivity #Happy List #Reasons to Smile #Happy #Happy Things #You are so amazing #You Matter #<3 #jkshdfka #this is the project I was working on #thanks everyone for the help #ilyasm #I loved reading all your submissions so much #you all are so sweet ahh #this was so fun to do #I hope you like this

[forgive-the-sea]

omg rinaaaa i love the holidays!! 🥺🥺 and also early congrats on the milestone!! you deserve it and much more!!! can i get a lil drabble with Bokuto and #23 from the "winter/christmas prompts"? 🥰

Anny!!!! 🥺🥺💖💖 Thank you for this request!! It was so fun to write!! I hope you enjoy it!

Happy holidays!! ❄️ ily and I’m so glad we met on here this year!!!! 💞

Bokuto + “Let’s go for a walk. No, we won’t freeze.”

You’re cozily sat on your living room couch, curled up in a warm blanket while you sip on a cup of tea and look out the window admiring the beauty of the fluffy snowflakes that gently fall from the sky. The first snow of the year was finally here.

“Bo, look! It’s snowing.”

Bokuto is lying down with his head in your lap, watching an exercise video Iwa sent him. You look down at him, glare from his phone reflecting on his face, nose scrunched in thought as he takes in the information from the video. He takes a moment to look away from his phone screen to look at you. Your eyes meet his golden ones and you smile as he slowly sits up to look out the window.

“Oh, wow, yeah!” he says excitedly, eyes gleaming and smiling broad. He straddles you, grabs your shoulders, and looks you in the eyes before he speaks. “Babe, let’s go for a walk.”

You chuckle at his childlike reaction and begin to run your hands through his hair, which he wears in its natural state so it falls messily across his face.

“We could do that...or...we could stay here--nice and cozy--and cuddle?” you drawl out while wrapping your arms around his neck.

He strokes his chin and averts his gaze in thought, “Hmm...tempting...but the snow is so pretty!!!”

You roll your eyes, but smile nonetheless as you pull him in for a soft kiss.

“You can’t buy me off with kisses, you know,” he pouts. “Come on, please? We won’t freeze!”

You laugh at his childishness. “Okay, okay. Only because I love you.”

“Ha!” he exclaims before pressing his lips to yours in victory and running off to get dressed.

"Ready?" he soon calls out from the entryway of your shared apartment, clad in multiple warm layers, his parka, scarf, gloves, and the pom-pom beanie you bought him recently.

"Yep!" you respond walking up behind him to put on your boots before following him out the door.

The ground is covered in a pristine layer of snow and you hear the soft noise of the snow under your shoes. The cold evening air that hits your face feels refreshing and snow continues to fall dusting both of you with small icy specks.

You walk hand in hand with Bokuto and admire his features as the combination of the streetlights and the white landscape cast a heavenly glow on him. You watch as Bokuto sticks out his tongue to catch some snowflakes. The corners of his mouth curve upwards in a smile when they land and melt once they hit his tongue.

You can't help but feel your heart squeeze in adoration at the sight of him and you smile, eyes sparkling with love. He looks over at you and notices the look in your eyes. In sync, you both move in for a kiss. With your hands cupping his face and his arms around your waist pulling you to him, your lips meet. The kiss is slow and meaningful, as you each pour your love for each other into your movements. When you part, you're left with a warm fuzzy feeling that radiates throughout your whole body, effectively mitigating the winter air.

Still in each other's embrace, you look into Bokuto's bright eyes. "You know, maybe snow isn’t too bad after all," you say with a smile.

#anny✨ #holiday celebration 2020 #bokuto x reader #I’m so sorry this took so long!!!!!!!!!!! I really under estimated how busy December would be #I didn’t forget!!!!! #I will be rolling these out tonight and tomorrow!!!!

[sweetcatastrophex]

lil update on living in self isolation (with jake and his dad). i’m not gonna lie i don’t mind being inside all the time. i don’t mean physically tho like jake and i go for walks/jogs/runs frequently and take the dogs out to get air and sunlight and exercise and stuff but i mean not needing to be anywhere is nice. i’ve been living in my pajamas, just like t-shirts and sweats all day every day, just wearing comfy clothes all the time, showering less, wearing no makeup... it’s a nice change. refreshing actually. now that i don’t have to be out constantly i have more free time — something i’ve basically been wishing for for so long. i have time to tap into my creative side again, like picking up the violin, reading poetry, editing videos, taking photos, drawing... i’ve been taking time to do a lot of reflecting as well as planning. really honing my goals and manifesting the life i want to live, or continue living, bc i feel as though i live my dream life every day. i have a career i’m passionate about, healthy family and friends, my dream man. i feel really grateful, which reminds me, i’ve also been journaling more, including lists of what i’m grateful for. i also want to make a vision board. and i finally have time to knock out stuff that’s been on my “secondary” to do list for a long time. it’s really nice.  before this, everything was so rushed and i was feeling overwhelmed, often. i barely ever had time for myself. i would work for about 10 hours a day in the office, stop home (or not), go to a school board meeting or whatever other event i had to cover, rush to the gym and rock climb and do cardio, then get home around 11/11:30 at night and need to go to sleep. then do it all again the next day. then the weekends would come and i would rest, sleep, relax, feel guilty about not getting things on my personal to do list done, go back to work monday, repeat. the cycle was draining. i am so happy the cycle was broken. 

[iulia70s-blog]

(found this pics on tumblr)

Today was such a good day. Of course there were a few bad things but it doesnt bother me that much because i was sooo productive today.

In the morning, after i woke up, i stretched and did a little session of tidying up my room. It was refreshing.

I then went to the fridge, got an youghurt and did a lil studying for a test i had today.

Then i had a mental breakdown

Well, what can i say, i gotta tell you the whole story. I dont have a perfect life

Then i went to school, still worried about the test and reread for it again, in the breaks between classes.

My friends were a pretty sad and annoyed today too, but like them, and like me, everyone was (except the ones who didnt cared at all about their grades)

The day went on and the phisics test came. I did a really good job actually (i love the teacher and his way of explaining, so i put some extra effort in his class). Im pretty sure ill get over 80%

The nice thing is that, before the test started,he said he has a surprise for the ones who do the best at the test. He then got oit of his jacket 3 tickets to a party at another high school he teaches at.( everyone wanted the tickets because 1. That hs is the best one in the city, and 2. A popular singer was coming to that party).

In the middle of the test, when i already wrote a full page, the teacher came to my desk and put the ticket on it and said:

Its yours.

Boy, if i tell you i was sooo happy, but not because of the ticket, but because he was proud of me(?). Im one of the students who always are active in class and i didnt(amd still dont) want to dissapoint him.

Yeah, so thats the tea. I didnt go to the party because my mom wont let me (im not mad tho,im actually glad because i had more time for myself) and i gave my ticket to a dear friend of mine who wanted to go.

I got home and started working some problems and the homework for my math class, did an assignment and some exercises for chemistry and something extra, that the teacher didnt asked for(hehe).

I then worked on an drawing for my art class and here i am now, 00:34 am, writing on tumblr for people that i will never meet and i will never know

#100 days of productivity

[phrvsh]

in a months time after I keep up restricting my intake and the arm workouts and I keep seeing improvements I’m going to be able to weigh myself for the first time since high school (last ed lmao). I’m excited honestly feeling like this is great discepline and I’m motivated. I feel like I have a refreshed understanding of what my body actually wants.

So far, I’ve been:

not eating until at least 2pm most days

drinking lots and lots of water always

never drinking full fat soda

cutting down my carb and cheese intake

eating cold green grapes when I get “snacky”

never never buy snack foods or even go down the aisle, I don’t need them I’ve been smoking too much damn weed lately and I have to stop munching on bad shit. past few weeks I’ve had no money for food so it’s been easy to avoid foods that trigger a binge.

eating slowly 👏🏼 omg this has been a godsend I’ve sometimes served up more than I’ve wanted and have been able to halve what I was going to eat by slowing down on each mouthful.

Feeling hungry is nice again and lasts less and less long. I’ve found I’ve been eating slower and becoming fuller with less food and I might be finally tapping into my body properly. For a long time I’ve been over eating and too dependent on carbs, just like Beyoncé I’ll be cutting out carbs (starting slowly). I want to maintain all of this. I want to keep seeing improvements and being able to put cute outfits together easily and be confident in who I am cos I’ll be thin. I’m starting to see definition in my arms/chest/decolatage, I want to drop at least 3 cup sizes and go down to a C cup. I want to start to feel the bumps in my spine, I can see my neck tendons and stuff in there from certain angles and idk it feels new?

This week my goals are:

get better at having water bottles ready all day. I love half frozen water bottles with all my heart ❄️

start going for walks daily

roll out the exercise mat and start doing core exercises as soon as my period is over I’m not crazy lmao

Feel free to follow me on my fun lil journey of weightloss n self control. I do just want to disclose I have had an ed in the past, I’m not sure what this is but I’m ready to show some self control as I’ve let myself go (anti depressant meds are fucking horrible). I want to be fucking thin and I’m going to be. My body is going to listen to me and I’m going to be in control. Also just wanna say I feel like my life has meaning again and I can fucking do this. ✨Send me tricks and tips PLEASE ✨

#self #me #personal #thin #skinny #weightloss #ed #relapse? #who knows #motivation #thinspo #depression

[vulcandroiid]

lil life update for ppl who only follow me on here

life’s good! currently having an allergic reaction to the red tide algae plaguing the gulf coastline right now, which sucks, but other than that everything is pretty good.

still working at the bar downtown which is super fun, everyone there is like a big family and it makes it bearable working in the service industry. it’s good knowing people you work with care about you and are looking out for you and shit.

sagan is teaching middle school for the 2nd year now, and they love it. we just had our 4yr anniversary, as well! we’re chillin and making plans for the future and are on a health and exercise kick right now, lol.

our roommate moved in with her family bc of her pregnancy so it’s just sagan and me here now, and it’s kind of nice to have our privacy and our own space, though i do miss seeing my friend so often.

i haven’t done any drugs (including smoking weed) since st. pats day so i’m in the clear to apply for county jobs now and am actively looking for library positions. changing fields freaks me out bc i know i will be broke as shit, but it will give me the opportunity to do the things i want to do - go back to school, volunteer, have a social life, and be there for my significant other and my family.

i got a new car! probably my fav recent occurrence. spock (my old Honda) started really struggling a few months back and breaking down from something new every week or so and he was getting very expensive to maintain and was not even reliable so i had to find a new ride. super sad saying goodbye but i do love my new car. it’s not brand new, just new to me, but new enough that i have, like, bluetooth instead of a tape player, lol. it’s a lexus hatchback and it’s a hybrid so i spend like no money on gas on a regular basis, it’s so dreamy. it’s a white car and super fast so i named him asfaloth.

i’ve also been reading a LOT more instead of being online which is so refreshing. i started reading annihilation by jeff vandermeer and loved that, then i rolled right into the old kingdom trilogy and have been devouring it. i’m about a chapter from finishing abhorsen and then i get to read clariel and golden hand for the first time ever so i’m stoked about that. i also don’t have a tv anymore so i pretty much just read or do puzzles when i4’m home.

i’m still struggling with finding time and motivation for art but reading really helps. i’ve only done a few lil sketches and one watercolor recently though.

anyway i just ordered Uber eats so bye

[lightforgedeve]

Meetings, Clouds and Brands.

Dear Journal, Eveneah and i went onto our job together to meeting with the Grand Mistress, she's the one i was talking about last time. Unfortunatlly because of me we were late, i got a bit lost in the plaguelands. Whoops. Though it didn't seem to bother them. We carried on with our meeting, once again it was a lot of talking that i felt wasn't going anywhere, i'm not saying Eveneah is bad at her job, i just don't get it. Honestly she is fantastic at it, she has done very well with us, she knows far more than us of this world. Anyways, so once again i stepped in and tried to push the conversation. It worked a bit and i feel we got things worked over faster, which was great because than i was able to ask about her toes, i haven't been able to see them yet though. I also got to learn some interesting things about the different types of elves here and why their cultures are different. Not to mention learning how they actually look a bit different, well some are more noticeable than others. The Grand Mistress was very kind to be able to take her time and tell me all this and answer my questions. I think the people she had with her were a bit shocked. Eveneah was getting impatient with me and pulled me along to leave. Oh! And she's also really pretty! Her hood kind of hides her face a bit, but she has a very pretty...silhoute about her. She really holds herself well and moves beautiful, plus i get a really good feeling from her. It's almost firmiliar but i can't quite put my finger on it. Anyways, we said our farewells and went on our way. We ended up bumping into Aursuna and High Vindicator Brutula on our way back. Apparently they came to check on us. It was kind of funny how they exchanged words, it almost looked like how i imagined worried parents talked to each other. It really made me giggle. It's rather nice knowing i can feel safe and have a sort of family like thing here. It makes me feel more motivated to do them proud and really show them that i'll work hard and do the best that i can. We headed back to Telaar and reported in. I got a bit of a sense that the High Vindicator might be upset with me still about what happened in the last meeting. It's...making me worry that my promotion is just a means for me to learn some harsh lesson, or a type of punishment. I am not sure what to do with such thoughts or feelings. I don't really know what i'm in charge of doing or really understand what's expected of me from this. I will have to dwell on it tomorrow, i have been granted the day off to rest so i think i'll do some light explores and enjoy my time in the sun and relax in a meadow somewhere just to watch the clouds. Least, i hope it's not a rainy day.

Dear Journal, Nagrad is a truy beautiful place. I slept in a bit more than usual today, had a delious breakfast of mixed berries with Talbuk cream yogurt with a clefthoof steak marinated in a light apple mead, and some scrambled condor eggs with some salt and pepper. A very filling treat for sure! It was all so delicous! After such i did some light reading in my room to wake up a bit, than began my morning routine exercises. Beginning with a fifty sit ups, fifty squats, fifty push ups and can't forget the lunges! Fifty of those as well of course. But of course, before and after any work out one must always stretch! That's the most important part! And hydrating, you should always have some water on hand. After ensuring i did another good stretch and gather a couple water flasks i proceeded with my three hour run. I just stuck to the main roads in Nagrad and just followed along. Going a hour and a half one way and than going back. It was such a beautiful day, it made me excite to be out and about and just enjoying the air. It was so peaceful and relaxing, i've never been really able to just enjoy my excirse routine like this before. It made me feel a whole new way and way more refreshed than before. The crisp clean air in my lungs, the soft gentle breeze cooling my body as i went on my way. The fact that clean real water wasn't far off so if i ran out of water i could just refill it. The sounds of...just life. All around me. The Clefthoofs on their marches, the Talbuks dancing free and clear. The birds gliding through the air in peace. The sounds of bugs and frogs and fish by the waters. I admit i had to take a moment to just cry by the road. Just...the peace and changing enviroment, untouched, so clear, so crisp. It was so different. It was something i've never really known or seen before. After calming down i finished my run. Than proceeded to clean myself off and have a good lunch. Just a salad of grass, lettuce, diced tomatoes, some berries, spinach. Mostly green, but the good stuff! Of course, i hide the grass in to save myself the odd stare. I don't get why i can't eat it, it's yummy, especially with a nice drizzle of whatever salad dressing is called. Think it has like some vinegar or something in it? I'm not sure, but we have it and it's yummy for my tummy! I also had some bread, i think it was made with some oats here. It's really good and has a bit of honey it in. I really am liking sweet things. After lunch i took a light nap, just a few minutes to let my body rest and relax. Than i set out to find the perfect spot, off to explore! I found a nice lake to sit by, i layed out a blanket i brought with me and relaxed some more. It was a bit strange at first, i don't think i've ever just sat somewhere quietly before and done....nothing. So it was hard getting comfortable at first and there always seemed to be this one rock under my back. In time i a slowly settled and was able to just sit and watch the clouds, at first i started counting them and than lost count and than i started noticing some of them had shapes. I couldn't help a grin and start listing what they looked like! Oh and of course i brought my Marsuul with me. He seemed to really enjoy his time too. He ran around a good bit in the grass, stalking random bugs and other small critters before curling in with me to rest.  And than of course we played a little bit with a stick. I'd throw it and he'd go get it and bring it back. Was a lot of fun. I really should name him, i just...can never think of anything. I've had him for about three years. He's still so tiny though. I really wasn't sure he'd make it. As it was starting to get dark we headed back home and went on to have supper. Which was a hearty meal of clefthoof stew with carrots, potatoes and celery chunks. It was delicious. However it made me think back on the stew Eveneah is going to teach me to make and i bet that's going to be even better! After supper i went on to clean off once more and am winding down, before i go to bed i think i'm going to write out what i think being an Arbiter is going to be about, what this all means to me and what i believe i am to do. Oh and of course i have to brush my teeth and buff my hooves before bed. Anyways, i'm off for now. Talk to you later!

Dear journal,

Today was the big day. I have been nervous all day. I did my usual morning routine, but i think i missed some things and i didn't go for my run. The day sort of just...passed me by. In the afternoon the High Vindicator and i went over what was going to happen during the ceremony, a general run down, so on. I didn't even think to ask him about what it all meant, i just felt...it wasn't right, espically at this point. I'm not sure, i feel...perhaps lost? I'm not sure. I think i've lost him abit, least with how we could have been working together. I'm not sure. Somethings lost, that's how i feel. Before i knew it the ceremony was taking place. A lot more people showed up than i thought would, i became really nervous than. However, i think i did well keeping myself proffesional and serious through it. Didn't mess up anything! Though i didn't get to thank everyone for coming personally as i was busy heading off to meet with the Grand Mistress once more with the Exarch and Aursuna and Eveneah. Though it was nice meeting with the new group joining our alliance, believe it was the Vindicari Templari. I asked the Exarch about them later to get some general information. We also had the City State come with us and one of them was kind enough to give me some gold as a gift! I was stunned! Apparently it was from multiples, but i also suspect it was just from the one man. I never caught his name, but i've seen him before in Amberstill. I think he's a guard like me. He was quiet the last time i saw him, however i think he's a nice guy. I get a good feeling from him. So i was happy to see him once more. I still can't believe i got such a gift. It made me very happy. I was able to talk to a few, mostly to lil Verha, she's so cute. it reminded me about making that swing, i'll make sure to do it tomorrow. The ceremony went well, the burning of my brand was the only thing that bothered me. But it didn't last long and it wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. The Exarch even did a beautiful speech at the end, reconfirming exactly what we stand for. Which is with agreeing with how we should be doing things in the future and is on par with the Grand Mistress. So i was very happy to hear him say it, out and clear for everyone, and most especially our allies, to understand. It made me feel proud and feel better about standing out to the High Vindicator. As the others went on downstairs, the four of us i mentioned before went to meet with the Grand Mistress.  Where once more the Exarch confirmed our stance is aligned with hers. The two than had to talk privately so than Aursuna, myself and Eveneah spoke. At first i had no idea what the two others were talking about, but than i realized they were talking about mating pairs. I thought it was cute that Aursuna brought it up to Eveneah. It once more reminded me of a parent figure. Than i think she mentioned on for when Eveneah retires or carries on that i am to take over? I'm not sure, i just sort of wasn't really understanding most of the conversation at hand. I agree of course that some day Eveneah should enjoy retiring, as their life span is not long like our own and our purpose is so others can have such lives as we work to preserve it. But.. i mean. Is that what Eveneah wants? And...she's still young. I think, so why think of that now? Soon the Grand Mistress and the Exarch returned. He asked is we had any other questions, besides me having earlier asked to see her toes, which again she evaded me! At such anyways, Eveneah inquired as to why the Grand Mistress had an interest in me. I wasn't aware she was, i thought i was just doing my job and going where asked to. But apparently the last meeting only happened if i was coming or something? I don't get it. Anyways, apparently she thinks i'm firey because of what i did at the Ambertstill meeting, when i spoke out. I don't quite get it, but i think it's a good compliment. I've never been called firey before. After which the others started leaving and i wished to ensure the Grand Mistress was going to be safe on her way. We talked for a few moments more, she was curious about my fascination with toes so i explained it to her. I also came to a conclusion that toes...are a bit of an advantage in battle. As they help one shift stances and move about more easily. As with hooves you must rely on what's under your hoof to enforce move-ability, but with toes you don't need to so much. Talking with her only made me start to like her more. I really look forward and am happy to be working with her in the future. I hope it doesn't end after the campaigns. Upon her leaving i headed back to get ready for rest, however i saw the Exarch and decided it was time to unfurl how i've been feeling towards the High Vindicator and talk about my promotion. He's really a wonderful speaker and really helped me feel better about how i have been feeling. He expressed some concerns as well and i was able to get a better view and understanding of himself and the High Vindicator. I really think now, after all this, i really need to make this title my own. I am going to embrace it and really show that it is something amazing. My job is to ensure the safety of life, ensure civilians are not harmed in the coming days and to keep an eye on those who would veer from the path of the Light by being consumed in their own need for revenge or hatred. No matter the form, i will show the High Vindicator that life, all life, is worth preserving. If i'm just to be a symbol or something for him to show blame upon when something goes wrong well guess what, i'm more than that and i'll ensure things go well! Because i have allies too and i know together we can plan this out perfectly and save many people! Whew, i think that's still going to be a lot of work, but it'll all be worth it!

#richard benning art #orginal art #brutula #morgeth #ante tiriosh #world of warcraft #orginal character #draenei #lightforged draenei

[deepstheeskimo]

What’s a ‘gym’?

What a day. 

Went back to the gym for the first time since Locky-D and even got a lie in because its not 24 hour any more. Deeps and his bucket full of underlying health conditions seems to have just about navigated the pandemic so far without ending up on a respirator or a hospital floor like those videos from Spain, one of which would have probably been the case due to my shadow of an immune system. 

Trying to take on COVID would be its version of when Moe dresses up all smart but ends up marching across the whole stage into the ‘rejects’ section.

Anyway, mask and antibac at the ready I turned up at opening time (to see less people and to ensure at least semi-clean equipment), joining the 15 or so others in the queue. Can only describe it as being like Chinese seaweed - a strange and unexpected success. 

Obvious changes have been made but I didn’t foresee the banning of spotting, that, ahem, ‘PTs’ would constantly clean equipment or that there would be ample antibac and disinfectant. Sadly there were security tags attached to these bottles at which I’m going to stoically let out a long slow sigh rather than react to by showing a middle finger to everyone I meet. What kind of horrible little mob of people (no way we deserve the word ‘society’) have we become that this would be necessary? Shame.

The decision to close whole walls of lockers instead of binning off multiple spaced columns of these to provide a social distance also seemed questionable but whatever. I trust the science all right, just got no faith in how its enacted as policy. The way that this most recent lockdown has been handled within hours of Eid al-Adha shows that yet again. Ah shocker, Plato right again and I’ve ended up back discussing how blinkered and unthinking this country has become. Must stop that.

Other news: no bugger else used the showers post-workout but I was more than happy to make the place reek like refresher shower gel. Used one of my microfibre towels for the first time since March and I’m happy to report it seemed to not have put on any lockdown lard. Hope it hasn’t been doing favours for Joe Wicks on the side...

Also saw some of the old characters: lil duracell bunny girl running on the same treadmill as ever, wide eyed guy who always looks like you’ve just caught him up to something he shouldn’t be and of course, the guy that looks like he’s out a video game. This guy is amazing. About 6′3, stupid stacked and more ripped than a yellow pages on an episode of Guinness World Records. Always fully colour coordinated clothing with brilliant skin, amazing trim (shaved apart from the top - dyed blonde), great teeth and covered in tattoos. No wonder he strips to his tiny white Y-fronts in the changing rooms to look at himself in the mirror for a good twenty minutes after each session. He also hairdryers his entire body but never showers. Perhaps taking more performance enhancing drugs than a Soviet deadlifter impacts more than your muscle definition.

I wonder what they and the new guy (I’m calling him ‘very serious fella wearing a shirt that reads KOREA ARMY’) all thought of ‘wheezy kid that only ever wears Adidas’ today as I took on my cable machine? I don’t care really because I loved it. Every second. Such a buzz to be back because as much as I’ve exercised every day, kept up the running and made the best of it, I frankly don’t have a cable machine or a squat rack in this one bedroom flat. My mental health took many an elbow to the temple during the heavier lockdown period and losing the gym hit me. It’s been the way I begin my daily routine every single weekday for about three years*. Who cares about some Citroen Saxo lad’s fortnightly Nando’s in comparison to that?

It’s also meant less ability to release the pent up frustrations of days of Zoom, electronic head-pecking and mindless spreadsheets that are finished off by a nice dose of Krishnan on Da News showing the latest inatalment of What A Selfish, Backward Bunch Of Bucktoothed Yokels We Are. 

Argh, ok that’s the third time I’ve discussed it. Enough.

*and I’ve gone for years longer than that too, but I’m not properly counting them because I used to finish those sessions off with a stroll to get a Costa Creamy Cooler or 4 pack of Greggs sausage rolls. Oof.

[pasteldesk]

advice for incoming freshman

hi guys, rachel here! i’m about to go to 10th grade & i’ve recently seen a lot of posts about incoming freshman stressing, so i thought that i’d give you a couple tips! (i’m not really suited to give advice since i just survived 1 year but from my experience, here you go)

HIGH SCHOOL ENVIRONMENT

it’s going to be okay. sure, maybe not everything will go your way this year and it won’t be perfect, but don’t stress too much over it!

older kids won’t pick on you. i can’t say that this goes for all schools but as for mine + many others, the upperclassmen will usually leave you alone. they might not like freshman, but they won’t start trouble with you.

stay out of drama. once high school starts, that One Group™ will start having problems and you might want to get in on it or see what’s happening. stay out of it and you won’t regret it.

as for the question “what if i get dragged into drama?” usually if you don’t go looking for trouble, it won’t go looking for you. unless you’re harry potter. then you’re screwed.

not everyone is mean. not everyone is nice either. make your own friends and stay away from the people who you don’t want to be with. if they won’t stay away from you, tell someone.

don’t be afraid to ask for help! either from teachers, peers, upperclassmen, etc. people will help you if you ask for it.

choose your friends wisely. this is a huge one, because (and i know you’ve heard it before but) YOUR FRIENDS SHAPE A LARGE PART OF WHO YOU ARE. if you need to cut some ties or distance yourself from people you think you need to get away from, do it.

DIFFICULT CLASSES [INCLUDING AP/HONORS]

if you’re taking an AP class, find or make friends immediately. it doesn’t even have to be friends, just find people who you are comfortable around. i promise you, if you find anywhere from 1-4 people in your AP class to be with, you will have a much better year. you guys can help each other and study, it’ll be so much easier + less stressful. going through an ap class on your own is not fun. 

i had 3 other friends i made in my first ap class and that saved me. we studied together on tuesdays during late start, video called every night before a test, and helped each other if one of us didn’t understand. saved my life.

have at least one folder specifically for your AP/Honors work. put everything in there. i promise you, when you come back during finals week/AP test week, you will be so happy you did it.

be organized. you will thank yourself when you go back to all your notes/work during finals week and not have it in a mess. use binders, folders, etc. to keep track of everything. label your stuff and put name/dates on all your papers. be hermione granger!

do not plagiarize. or else you’re dead. (!!!!)

take breaks every once in awhile! you don’t have to stay in every weekend to work on homework, go out and have some fun!

STUDYING

do not cram. i know that procrastination exists (i am a professional Procrastinator™ trust me) but you will die halfway through the year.

take study breaks! get a snack, do some light exercise, stretch, etc. it’ll refresh your brain.

if you procrastinate:

put away all electronic devices. turn off your phone. if you have to have it on, put it in a different room. if you have to use a computer, download something to block the websites you go on: tumblr, facebook, etc.

set a timer or jot down a certain time you want to finish something by. this helped a lot during ap when i needed to do key issues but i didn’t have motivation. compete against yourself.

example: “i have to finish up to the end of this page in ten minutes”

if you like listening to music, i suggest putting on classical, instrumental, or anything without words (like the sound of rain or a coffee shop). it’s hard to concentrate if you’re singing while doing homework.

try to set little goals for yourself. when you accomplish one, you feel more motivated to finish the rest.

start your homework as soon as possible. if you want to check social media, do it for only 5 minutes. don’t get dragged into it, you’ll end up finding yourself having a ton of work to do at 10 pm.

study groups are great! teach the content to your peers, it helps a lot, trust me.

OTHER TIPS

if you practice a musical instrument/sport after school, try to do that first. after 6-8 hours of school, it’s good to take your brain off of school onto a different subject. once you come back to do your hw, your concentration is better and your mind is refreshed.

if you can, listen to music without earphones/headphones. it’s scientifically proven that they can damage your ears and affect your hearing ability. listen to your music directly from speakers or the device.

if you’re really tired, take a 20 minute nap. no more, no less. 20 minutes is the best amount of time for a nap.

if you can, try going to the library or a nearby coffee shop. it forces you to do your work instead of milling around or procrastinating.

do harder work first, that way you won’t dread it more and you get it off your plate. after that, everything else will seem easier.

i hope this helps and i’m always here to chat if you need anymore advice! good luck, lil beans <3

#rachel #rach's #advice #high school #incoming freshman #high school advice #og

[brightynb]

so everyone is talking about their imaginary studios;

and i wanted to share with you my own personal story, that will probably turn into a ten page essay. but i want to prove to you all that if you believe in something, and in yourself, you can achieve it.

okay boys and girls, grab your refreshing beverages and get comfy because today i am going to be sharing with you the development of my (semi) imaginary dance studio history

okay, so it all began in january 2008. lil ten year old me was sitting at home, bored out of her mind because it was summer holidays (i’m an aussie, summer runs dec - feb for us), we were in the third or fourth day of a huge heatwave (i’m talking 45 degrees celsius, ty mother nature xx), and i was going through some post-dance-recital-depression. we don’t run classes over the summer here and i was missing the routine of attending dance each night.

because it was so hot outside it wasn’t a good idea to leave the house. i’d just lost my favourite pair of thongs flip flops for those of you who refer to thongs as a pair of lingerie the day before because they’d melted to the sidewalk :((, that’s how hot it was. so i was stuck inside, all day, wishing i had something to do that didn’t involve bratz dolls or cleaning up after my damn tamagotchi that for some reason pooped every two minutes (!!!). i was silently wishing that i could go back to the dance concert and redo that weekend all over again, because it was always my favourite time of the year (other than christmas). 

then, because i was such a creative little nugget, the idea popped into my head that i could make my very own dance concert, right here in my un-airconditioned house (mum straight up refuses to use our central heating/cooling system for the cooling element, nice one m8).

so i ran down to the little den area we have, found my cd player and cd stack, a pen and a notebook and plonked myself down in the middle of the room. now, you have to remember that this is 2008. youtube was still developing and i was only ten at the time, so the only videos i recall watching at that point were ‘charlie bit my finger’ and ‘charlie the unicorn’. spotify was non-existent and iTunes was too complicated for my little brain to understand. so i had my cds. and boy, did i have some cds. you could build a house out of them.

i went through every single cd i had and picked out music. delta goodrem, hannah montana, MIKA, the jonas brothers, camp rock, rihanna, crazy frog, so fresh 2007, aqua, backstreet boys, nicki webster... i was absolutely living getting to decide on the music and the theme and whatnot. once i’d found my favourites, i then organised it into style, ‘age appropriateness’ and likability. then i assigned it to certain little groups. each group had a jazz, a lyrical, a ‘contemporary’ and a tap (lmao). i designed the groups, who their teachers would be, when they would perform what, and the running schedule of the concert. i made up names for the students, who the ‘good’ ones were, who the favourites were, who the bad ones that got shoved in the back or taken off stage were. who the popular ones were, who was on the competition team, who’d had a clean sweep all season.

then came the time to do the actual concert. i designed choreography (usually jumping from spot to spot as different people had featured parts lmao) and thought out routines. i was absolutely loving my life. i look back on that summer and honestly it fills me with so much nostalgia because that was when i truly discovered my passion for choreography and dance.

as the years passed, my little studio grew with me. every year i’d look back on my studio, modify the bad bits, create a studio timetable, come up with a new recital if i could find time or motivation. it was my escape, you know? if i’d had a shit day at school, if i was feeling lonely or bored or sad or happy even, i’d go back and focus on my little team and develop it, change things, remember the kids that i’d labelled as ‘bad’ in the first season and imagine their progress. imagine the graduates from my first year and wonder what they would be doing with their lives right now. writing this up makes me feel crazy but honestly, it gave me so much joy and i could go for hours just focusing on my lil company. 

for the longest time i believed that it would stay imaginary. that it would be my little secret. that i’d never get the chance to open my studio and run/manage it. that was until last year.

in australia, we have a specific vocational course designed to qualify you for dance studio management. i became eligible for this course through a ballet school in sydney this year, should i pass my final ballet exam in july. it would mean travelling to sydney, a 3 hour drive and 1 hour plane flight from my town, to complete thirty-two ballet exercises in a studio i’ve never been to with an examiner i’ve never met. it would mean missing out on my 20th birthday celebrations with friends because i would be working my ass off in a city i’ve never been to, thousands of kilometres away from my home. i was nervous and tired and lethargic and just praying to the heavens that i’d get a pass, that this would all be worth it and that i could just get something right for once.

well my friends, i didn’t pass. i NAILED THAT BROTHER PUCKER (side note if you get that reference i love you). i was accepted into the course and my studies begin next february. i’m right on the edge of making my little ten year old dreams come true. it’s going to be hard work, it’s going to mean sleepless nights and days fuelled with caffeine and cold toast, but i am so ready for this next phase in my dance life. 

THE END

#story of my life #delta goodrem had some bangers back in the day #we got the party by hannah montana was the finale btw

[simba-bonfamille-lyons]

☾ ♥ ● ♦

I put this under a readmore bc it’s LONG AS FUCK im sorry

☾: Favorite moment from your Muse's canon, and why. (If your Muse is an OC, then favorite aspect of their story.)

i love this question.

Belle: my fave is def the scene where she’s taking care of the Beast after the wolves attack them and he gets all grumpy and she Shuts That Shit Down. i take so much of my inspo for belle from that scene alone tbh--but i also do love the opening sequence and how could you not love I WANT ADVENTURE IN THE GREAT WIDE SOMEWHEREEEE

Simba: ugh, so many good moments, but the best scenes in the whole movie are def the stars scene with mufasa and when simba sees rafiki. i also LOVE LOVE nala and simba’s reunion. also, ofc, okay this part is def my fave: the running back to pride rock UGH THAT SCENE

Toulouse: FFT FFT FFT!! that was legit the only part of the movie i remembered from watching it as a little kid. also when he and ber are fighting on the piano, i love that scene, it’s so cute.

Bambi: the part where thumper and bambi are like hanging out and thumper is teaching bambi to say shit. and he’s like BIRD BIRD BIRD BIRD and he’s walking along following this lil butterfly, ugh so precious my darling.

Perdita: gosh there is not a lot of canon perdy tbh but i do love her and anita’s relationship. also when she’s kickin ass and taking names to save her babies. also how she really doesn’t want to get covered in coal and pongo says “c’mon perdy time to put on your make up!” 

Sweet: everything?? about him??? he’s so great?? all his lines?? but i love the part where he’s taking care of the old king the best bc before that moment he’s kind of been liek quippy and comic relief but u get to really see his compassion and strength and steadiness in that scene and i love it.

Maui: his backstory, definitely. that was what made me really interested in playing him bc he totally models slyth but is actually a big ole puff and just wants people to love him. also i like the scene where he leaves moana after she Fucks Up (tm) i know that’s probably a weird scene to love but idk i thought it was super interesting.

Hercules: alskdjfladjkflaskjdfljfl EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM?? herc is just my precious darling. but i love how awkward he is but then how FIERCE he gets when he’s protecting people. like you think what a soft marshmellow how is he a hero and then when faced with danger he RISES and it just always warms my heart. my fave is the hydra scene bc that’s the first time he’s like rly sUCCESSFUL as a hero and it’s such a good fight and he uses his strength to his ADVANTAGE ugh i lvoe hercules.

Attina: ahaha she also doesn’t have a lot of canon, but def my favorite is when they find out that ariel has been #gettindown at the club and attina is like NO ABSOLUTELY NOT and hten everyone makes puppy faces at her and she caves so easily. i based a lot of her character on that. like she seems like a hardass but she’s rly not she wants her sisters to be HAPPY

Akela: gosh, he really does not have a lot of canon to go off of at all, in either movie. i’m gonna say the Law of the Jungle. That’s really important to his development in my head. also the scene in the live-action with grey where he tells him that the runts get eaten sometimes bc it’s like the only time he’s not the Serious Alpha but to me it just showed this like softer side to him? that was playful--and i based a lot of his character on that.

♥: One thing you love about your Muse.

Belle: laksdjflkajdf what don’t i love about belle? i mean as a character as a whole i love how inspiring she was to all young girls who loved to read and encouraging girls to be SMART and not be SHY about it. to EMBRACE their bRAINS which is such an important lesson for young girls. and i really love that about my belle too. that she is very demure about a lot of things but DO NOT QUESTION HER INTELLIGENCE. it is the one thing she will unflinchingly defend about herself and i don’t think we see that enough in female characters.

Simba: i love how much simba loves himself. i make fun of it quite a bit, bc he can be so over the top with it, but i really appreciate his level of self-care because that’s something i struggle with. like--not so much confidence, i have a decent amount of that but just, he really does take care of his overall physical health. he exercises, he showers, he eats properly (tho i mean he eats a lot too and lets himself indulge which is important). but he like idk keeps his beard trimmed and takes care of his skin and this sounds like a really weird thing to admire but since i struggle w depression, it’s nice to see ppl who function normally even tho he also struggles w depression. ALSO i love his flirting. haha. inspires me to be a better flirt.

Toulouse: kind of self care too, in a way? i love that lou is unapologetic about who he is, even when he doesn’t like himself. and he really does take care of himself before anyone else. like he does not let other’s opinions (except his siblings) influence his decisions and that’s something i struggle with. it actually makes lou one of my most genuine characters, because if he is sweet to you, if he helps you, if he protects you, he’s doing it because he wants to, not out of any obligation. as someone who struggles to say “no” to people, it’s admirable.

Bambi: ahaha honestly there isn’t much i admire about bambi. not because he’s a bad person but because he’s a teen who is still finding himself and struggling with a lot of self loathing and is in that place in his life where he is making mistakes. but, i do like that, writing him, im getting a--chance to look back and rexamine teenhood from a new perspective which is interesting and fun.

Perdita: i love how FIERCE she is. i always say perdita’s attitude is mine if i didn’t care about what people thought of me and that’s definitely true. i love that the first impression that paul got from her was she didn’t care what anyone thinks BUT i love that she really actually does too bc it just adds so much dynamic.

Sweet: gosh i love how level-headed he is. as someone who is temperamental i really appreciate characters like sweet and poca and haku who are very centered and strong and sturdy. i appreciate their calm presence in my head. i also LVOE how poetic writing him is. he’s one of my characters i feel like i can indulge lyrically in my words with the most.

Maui: i love how conflicted maui is. i love that he has this really stark duality to him and is much more than his cocky exterior and he genuinely really does care about people, not just about the attention, though that is a big draw. i also love what a BOY he is. it’s really fun to play him walking that line of fuckboi and genuine person.

Hercules: what a PRECIOUS MUFFIN HE IS. i just love the whole super strength but has no way to control it thing. it’s just a great duality to play with. like he is so gentle and so afraid of hurting people but has this awesome power. he’s just very precious to me just so sweet and good and pure. 

Attina: my self indulgent bae ahaha. i love that she’s a MERMAID i love that she’s so bubbly. i don’t have any BUBBLY characters. and she’s so happy and smiley. i mean, simba is kinda like that both of them just Radiate Joy. and i also love playing sisters. i love love the family dynamic and the fact that there is so many of them, because it just leads to such RICH character development. i love what a romantic she is. i love how soft and kind but how protective. how scared but how brave. ugh my beeb

Akela: he’s another really calm person. i love that akela doesn’t linger on his mistakes. he has regrets. he acknowledges when he’s done something wrong and then--wait for it--HE MOVES ON. he doesn’t dwell. he doesn’t beat himself up. he picks himself up and dust himself off and moves on. which is so refreshing bc most of my characters are wallowers ahhaa

●: If you could say just one thing to your Muse, what would it be?

Belle: GIRL I S2G GET SOME FUCKIN SELF CONFIDENCE it just really annoys me that she needs to be poked and prodded into feeling good about herself bc she’s so BRAVE AND STRONG AND KIND AND WONDERFUL she’s perfect and she SHOULD KNOW THAT SHE IS WORTH GOOD THINGS

Simba: honey, stop, trying, to, please, everyone,, it’s not gonna work and you’re just gonna wind up making a mess of things. also i love you /pets

Toulouse: i s2g i have so many things that i could say to toulouse but if i could ever interact w some real form of him u know what i would do? i would give him a goddamn hug. just a good, long hug where he can put his lil head on my shoulder and just relax. he craves physical affection ppl

Bambi: i would give him support about his choices and tell him it’s okay to be afraid but he should be brave too bc being brave is the best fuck u to all the people who want to scare you.

Perdita: i understand why you did what you did and i don’t blame you for it. 

Sweet: keep doin you babe

Maui: IT’S OKAY YOU CHEATED JUST LIVE UP TO IT NOW (also you are real hot and we should date)

Hercules: embrace ur powers lil honey u are wonderful

Attina: relax babe you should take care of YOURSElF (she won’t listen to me)

Akela: i’m sorry about your family *gives him snuggles*

♦: Relationship with your Muse.

im gonna answer this like “how does the muse come about” kinda deal bc this question is weird

Belle: well her voice comes so easily to me i love it except it’s SO thinky. she is always who i write the longest posts on bc she just examines everything but i love it bc i so do not think like that but it opens my mind to interesting thought processes i haven’t explored myself before. though i also edit her the most bc her dialogue is SO HARD. it’s getting better tho as she gets more confident but it only takes one set back to go back to stuttering and holding her tongue.

Simba: gosh. i love his voice. it’s so COLORFUL. i can write simba all day because even in his darkest moments he is so BRIGHT and he feels everything so deeply. i love his background. i love writing about africa and islam and how he is bisexual and his race (but in the little things like how he has sensitive skin and likes movies like Hairspray lol). he’s really so different from me in so many ways, but he’s also an accumulation of like all the men in my life i’ve admired so he has a v special place in my heart.

Toulouse: gosh i love toulouse. idk his voice comes SO naturally to me. he is, without a doubt, the character i just instinctually know the best. i can’t even explain it but he just popped into my head completely formed. i knew everything about him almost immediately and even the things that came later just fell into place so easily. i just love him because he is so complicated and dynamic and feels so deeply while also having a really complicated relationship with those emotions. writing him is both frustrating bc he always makes the same mistakes, but very easy for me.

Bambi: ugh i love bam. he’s another one that i just loved from the start. i wanted him for so so long before i actually got him and he just mad sense to me. i love his shyness. i like writing his view of the world since he def has so much influence from books and movies and he thinks in like tropes a lot and i’ve never written like that before and it’s super fun.

Perdita: i love how concise she is. i love all the sharp language i get to use with her. how every sentence i feel like i hit the period mark really fiercely. every sentence is important and to the point. she doesn’t like meander and as someone with flowy writing it’s nice to be able to know that i can do shorter stuff.

Sweet: UGH i love the poetry to his voice. making him a poet was a great move on my part bc i just looooove it. i love his voice. how calm. how gentle. how wise. and beautiful tbh. also all his experience is really fun to write. he’s like a fully formed person.

 Maui: i think i mentioned this but what a BOY he is. i love it. i love being able to play with the line between saying shitty sexist things but not knowing they’re shitty and sexist and really being a (mostly) genuine person but not always kosher or PC or anything like that.

Hercules: im still getting used to his voice but i really like how much he curses lmao he is like FUCK FUCK FUCK in his head at all times and i love that bc he’s so soft and smol and it’s such a funny contrast. also i get to play with humor and irony a lot with him and that’s fun. hopefully i can do more allusions to mythology once i start working with his powers more and that’ll be fun

Attina: i love her OCD. i think it makes for really interesting writing because people with OCD repeat phrases and stuff a lot and always having to be hyperaware of her actions like--remembering she doesn’t like to touch people and remembering that she locks the door nine times and that she doesn’t eat food from public places. it just really plants me in her head every time i write her.

Akela: his connection to nature. tbh being able to play as a wolf im ngl. but also a LEADER that people RESPECT AND LISTen TO. also i love how his voice is sad but not depressingly so. so it makes it really interesting to write like balancing all that emotional with his cool, level-headness. 

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[k8eatsphl]

k8eatsla pt 2 & 3: namhau & luu’s, tito’s tacos, wedding food, james beach

damn the second and third day of my l.a. stay was such a blur! also sorry i took like NOOOO PIX lol so this is a boring post for pure documentation. but here’s a map (thx u for inspiration patrick): 

day 2

saturday morning i woke up at 4am cuz was still on east coast time. chilled in bed til 6 then headed out for a run/hike around the baldwin hills park and the ballona creek bike path.

the bed and breakfast i stayed at serves breakfast from 7-9am, so got back to my room at around 8:30 to shower.

breakfast was served in the kitchen on the island. namhau, the wife of the couple that runs the b&b, served fruit salad with strawberries, blueberries, fuji apples, plums, and apricot. to go with the fruit there was yogurt and some granola she made (pumpkin seeds, dried fruit, coconut). also she made all of the dishes that she served in--rly nice little cups and tiny little bowls, and these plates that looked like lily pads. she also gave me some rly dark coffee she made in an aeropress.  really nice!

while i was eating my fruit and yogurt namhau toasted a poppyseed bagel and used one half to make me an avocado toast with pesto, avocado, feta, and walnuts in honey. it was sooo fuckin good! i told her i’d pay like $15 for it in a restaurant lol. the other half of the bagel i got plain and tried each of her three homemade jams: orange marmalade, blackberry jam, and raspberry jam. def the orange marmalade was my favorite.

i stayed at bfast way too long talking to namhau, luu (the husband), and another guest james (production engineer at CAVA GRILL going through a divorce living in arlington va...learned a lot about him). headed out at 11am to walk to my noon massage appointment in west culver city.

after my massage i grabbed tito’s tacos, which is a popular but contentious taco place in culver city. contentious cuz the tacos are like school cafeteria tacos: yellow hard shelled tacos with beef and yellow cheddar and iceberg lettuce. 

i got one beef taco and one beef and bean burrito. every order also comes with a side of chips and salsa. got my box of taco/burrito/chips and a mountain dew (lol dk why i got that, it just slipped out when she asked what i wanted to drink) and sat at a picnic table in the sun. i thought i took a covert pic of my food but turns out i just took a pic of my lap! it’s okay though, the box was not photogenic...just a pile of tortilla chips.

the beef in the taco and the burrito was way diff than i expected it. i did actually like the taco. the beef in the taco was more like the beef in a tamale...like pulled, seasoned beef. almost fluffy. there was a lil too much cheese tho and it kept falling out, but i just let it fall on top of my chips and melt in the sun so i got fake nachos.

bean burrito was insane! it was like...a volcano of hot beans and beef chili. so dangerous and messy to eat! it was not my favorite burrito...i thought i would love it, cuz i love refried beans. but it was just too much.

the chips were a’ight, a bit stale. the salsa was more like gazpacho...felt like the tomatoes they used weren’t ripe so it was kind of a grainy, light, but refreshing, dip.

after titos walked back to the b&b to get ready for the wedding. stopped at copenhagen bakery on the way to pick up some apple strudel because namhau talked about liking it. they didn’t have strudel tho! so just got a couple of danishes.

i got to the wedding too early to be seated (!) so went to the mandrake bar across the street from the venue (smogshoppe) and had an aperol spritz, which was nice.

at the wedding i was still full from tacos! they were handing out hors d’oeuvres from gina’s dad’s restaurant/catering company? looked mostly like flatbreads. i tried one speck one and it was good. u kno, a flatbread. for my dinner i chose the branzino with salsa verde. at the table they also served family-style sides: white asparagus, israeli couscous salad, roasted potatoes, and spaetzle. everything was good! i really enjoyed the fish. 

for dessert they had a dessert buffet with tiny little cannelles, almond tortes, crostatas...very german lookin desserts.

day 3

slept in a bit (til 6!) and showered and packed up my stuff, cuz was gonna be checking out of the b&b at 11. was first to arrive at breakfast and all the food was much the same as the day before. the main diff was instead of avocado toast namhau made sourdough toast with tahini, cucumber, and mint. we also had the pastries i bought from copenhagen bakery.

alex and gina threw a brunch buffet from 11-1:30 so i headed out after breakfast. decided to WALK to santa monica from culver city (mistake) and james (the divorcee) wanted to walk with me cuz he wanted exercise and company. didn’t have the heart to tell him i’m a lone ranger, so was like ‘sure but u kno this is a 7 mile walk’ n he was like ‘sounds good’. we walked and talked for 2 hrs. mostly we talked about how he’s excited to live by himself for the first time, how he picked out his new mattress and furniture, and how he wishes his son (19) wanted to travel around the world. i told him about wwoof and workaway.

at 12:30 we were still walkin and i was like ‘shit if i want to get to alex’s buffet i better call an uber’. so we got a car that dropped james off at venice beach and me off at the restaurant. by the time i got to the restaurant (lunetta all day) most of the food was picked through, but i still got a plate of bacon, potatoes, and some lemon ricotta pancakes.

after brunch we went to alex and gina’s house and hung out and drank sparkling water lol. and a bunch of ppl like chain smoked weed in the backyard. i’ve never seen so much pot consumption. it all felt very l.a. 

at 6 folks were starting to disband to find dinner and i really wanted to see santa monica/venice beach still. so peaced out and took an uber to the boardwalk at venice. at this point was hungry, but none of the restaurants looked good.  i walked back and forth for like an hour or so and was starting to get really hangry. after sunset decided i’d just go to the airport and find something to eat there (which in a none hanger state i know is not a good idea).

at the airport went to james beach, which funnily enough, is a restaurant in venice beach i decided not to go to. i’m sure the food at the venice restaurant would have been better. i got a $21 salmon club sandwich and they were fuckin out of fries!!! so got a side salad and also a ballast point ipa. rly liked the ipa.

when the sandwich came out i was severely disappointed cuz it looked tiny and wimpy. but actually it was really good. the bread was toasted rye and it was super buttery. the salmon was overcooked (hey ho) but the bacon and avocado was rly nice. and the salad was surprisingly good...with grape tomatoes, bleu cheese, and a balsamic vinaigrette. tab was $45 :< :< :< 

at midnight my plane boarded and i landed in philly at 8am this morning. very exhausted from talking to so many ppl and walking ~12 miles a day! glad to be back in philly.

[scottyunfamous]

The Importance of Self-Care

Hellur, fancy face!

Welcome to another highly inappropriate weight loss journey post. It may interest you to know that I’ve recently (as in like 5 hours ago) embarked on a lil experiment with a 14 day teatox created by BooTea. It was recommended to me by one of my girls who has lost maddddddd weight (like MAAAADDDDD weight), so I thought ‘Shit den, lemme see what it’s really saying.’ I’ll be doing live updates on my Snapchat and will deliver a full honest review in 2 weeks’ time on your fave new blog (…yes, I mean this blog lol).

Onto what we’re actually talking about today…

When I began my weight loss journey again I had an idea of what to expect; the resisting of temptation to consume things I shouldn't to improve my diet, the physical challenges I would have to overcome to improve my fitness, the discipline to keep at it, and creating the mind-set to help me grow mentally and emotionally on this sometimes very fucking emotional experience.

When we take on these trying ass journeys, it's never a flippin straight road or uphill climb. Nope -the shit goes up, down, left, right…generally any direction you don’t want it to. When it comes to our body’s reactions, there's only so much about it that we can control. Ideally, everytime we eat a piece of salad, drink a glass of water, or do anything that resembles some semblance of exercise (walking to the fridge counts as cardio. Don’t @ me.) we want to see that we are 15 pounds lighter when we step on them scales, but that's not how the shit works.

When you first jump on this weight loss ting and you change yo shit up, your body is on a mad one. Weight loss is you and you are weight loss...then your body gets used to your new diet and routine, which means you've got to push a little more. It's a constant challenge, especially when you aren't blessed with a fast metabolism.

If you’re like me, the constant (self-imposed) pressure to go harder may be a lot for you to deal with mentally, especially when shit isn't going to plan.

Last week I had my cheat day. The following day, Mr took me to a hotel. I got high as fuck, and for those of you who enjoy God's magic flower, you already know how them munchies will have you fucking up a plate of food like it’s your last meal. I ordered too much then ate too much... I should probably stop smoking… Anyway, the following afternoon I stood on the scales to see that I'd gained 3 kilos.

I.

Was.

Up.

Set.

I stripped off and stood on the scales again: 2.5 kg.

I went to the bathroom: 2 kg.

Embarking on these journeys then putting on a significant amount of weight in the process is the worst. You feel like a failure, like you didn't try as hard as you should have, that maybe cheat days aren't for you. As you shrink it’s like you get even harder on yourself because you can’t come this far then go backwards. That’s not progress. Honestly, it doesn't get easier, you just have to get tougher, but tough doesn’t always equal…well, tough.

The thing that has carried a heaux throughout this last year has been making sure that I fucks with myself, heavily, like on a whole other level of extravaganza. Self-care is one of the most valuable remedies I’ve learned through this process, simply because it pushes me to continue without berating myself and gives me a stress-free way to pick myself back up when I’m down.

Do shit that makes you feel good about your fuckin self, betch. It’s okay to take a lil break and switch off for a hot sec to get your head right. It’s vital.

Here’s a few self-care activities that I love that you can try out/incorporate into your own self-care routines for those dayswhen things don’t go to plan.

When I feel like shit I listen to music with high vibrations, the kinda music that makes me feel like a cheeri-heaux (get it? Cheerio...cheri-he...anyway). I sing along at ig’nant volumes and dance in the mirror to it like it’s just me, by myself, and bitch when I say dance in the mirror I’m talking that carefree black girl 'wow wow wow thots' shit that you may not do in public because it’s that peak (in my case, extremely whorish or neeky). Listen, I do not fuck about when it's music time. Lemme get sad and fling on some Cheetah Girls (DON’T PLAY LIKE YOU DON’T FUCK WITH THE CHEETAH GIRLS PLEASE); a heaux will be strutting like she means it and freeing my uckin mind all up and down my room, doing dramatic hair flips with my wig and not caring if it flies off coz ain’t nobody but me there to see it. I’ll be doing big big international diva in my bedroom, singing all the harmonies and adlibs by my damn self all at the same time, because I am a one-bitch-band. Issa wave.

D’you know what else is a vibe, low key -herbal tea. You will drink a cup of peppermint tea and feel like your soul has been cleansed and refreshed, bitch!

Next: baths, and not just any regular bitch bath, nope. Heaux I‘m talking that ‘I done used half the fucking bottle of bubble bath, this water is so hot it will probably burn my skin so I’mma have to ease into it, there are candles all over the place like say I‘m being romanced but really I am romancing my damn self, I got that Sade on in the background and a fire ass book to read, so I will sit in this shit till my skin is wrinkled and the water turns cold, then I’mma top it up with more hot water because bitch, I aint done yet!’ kind of baths. Hooker, it is imperative that you go all out for these self-care baths. Stay in there for 5 hours. Enjoy yo’self!

Personal grooming is also my shit.

Ain’t no better feeling in the world that when you have removed all of the hair from your body. You feel like a vivacious velvet vixen, just be rubbing your thighs together for fun because the shit is smooth.

We doing the whole fuckin’ face regimen tonight, heaux! I’mma exfoliate, lather it in some weird shit that promises to tighten my pores, put some cumbers on my eyes and lay back because I’m bougie and tonight, life is a spa, rinse it off, use my face wash, get that micellar water, clear these pores, get that toner, then bitch I will slap on the thickest layer of Astral you have seen in your life (this tip came from Muva Amber Rose), and just sit there and let the shit marinate.

Wash your hair. Use all the products, deep condition yo shit, massage yo fuckin scalp! Yes betch, you smell like a coconut summer breeze and it’s wonderful!

Do your nails, do your makeup, because sometimes the shit that will bring you back from the edge is remembering how truly tun up you are, and realising that you’re on this journey and this ain’t even your final form. THESE SKREETZ AIN’T READY FOR YOU WHEN YOU REACH YOUR GOAL BITCH, HOW ARE YOU SO FIRE NOW AND THERE’S MORE FLYNESS TO COME. FUCK OFF. YOU ARE TOO MUCH!

Clear your space. Fling on some good music and tidy your room, change the sheets, dust, polish, sweep and reorganise some shit, then light you some incense and relax. This is heaven.

This is another good one; get your thoughts out. When I’m too wound up I write out exactly how the fuck I feel, completely unfiltered ‘cause ain’t nobody reading the shit but me. By the end of it I’ve talked myself down of whatever ledge I’m on, I’ve found a resolution to my problem and my peace is back where it should be.

Go outside. I’m not telling you to go hug no trees or nothing, but it’s summer, there is a park somewhere, just go there by yourself and just be amongst nature. Sometimes being surrounded by plants and animals and shit reminds you how small and magical you really are in the grand scheme of things, that whatever you’re worrying about may not be as deep as you think, and that you will get through it, because bitch, you've gotten over all the other shit in your life and you’re still here, getting these haters mad and thriving.

Take a nap. You remember when you were younger and it was nap time and you just were not on it, these days, as busy as we all are, naps are luxury. Literally, when I get too overwhelmed, it’s nap time. Shut off the world and dream a little dream of no stress. By the time I wake up, I’m good.

However, if you don’t have time to nap, I strongly recommend meditation. For those of you who follow me on Snapchat, you’ll know that I’ve hopped back on my spiritual journey and that my life is on the up because it helps to keep me focused and centred. Being that I fell off for a while, it’s not always easy to meditate without getting distracted, so for those of you who this is new to or if like me you have a little trouble clearing your mind, here is some great meditation music. Literally, all you have to do is set a timer for 10 minutes and concentrate on your breathing and nothing else (saying ‘so’ when you breathe in and ‘hum’ when you breathe out in your head or out loud also helps –recommended by Deepak Chopra). When your time is up you feel a little calmer and clearer.

Go to the gym. Yes, I know, it’s horrible and it makes you get hot, tired and sweaty and there is no dick involved, but girl, working out is scientifically proven to improve your mood because of the endorphins that it releases (endorphins are the chemicals that make you happy).

Understand that you are the captain of your yacht (I know the saying is ship, but I think yacht sounds more bougie and extra, so well go with that), and part of being the captain of your yacht mean that you are in control of yourself at every given moment, even when you don’t think you are. If shit goes left you can either choose to be upset about it and let circumstance control you or you can control your circumstance by choosing to find a lesson in every bad situation. Every negative experience you have can teach you something, if you let it.

It’s all about perspective, heaux. Look at where you went wrong and decide how you’re gonna handle it should it pop up on you again.

This is my best tip so I saved it till last -yell nice things at yourself in the mirror. When you’re feeling down about fucking up, or the way your body looks or whatever, all you’re focusing on is lack. You look for all the results you haven’t acquired yet and you beat yourself down about not having them, overlooking everything that you do have. I stand in the mirror (sometimes naked if I need a lotta love) and I compliment myself. When I first tried this method of affirmation, I begun with all the things I physically liked about myself. As my confidence grew I started finding the good in stuff I wasn’t too hot on: “YOU CAN REST SNACKS AND BOOKS ON YOUR BOOBS AND TUMMY. IT’S LIKE HAVING A DELUXE BUILT IN TRAY, LIKE ON A PLANE. YOU’RE LIKE A PRIVATE JET, BETCH!” I then moved onto my personality: “YOU DON’T SWEAR TOO MUCH, YOU’RE JUST FUCKING PASSIONATE ABOUT SHIT, PLUS SWEARING MAKES SHIT FUNNIER. YOU’RE BASICALLY A COMEDIAN!”

The reason that I harp on about building yourself up mentally throughout this process is because of the times when it’s not as easy as you’d like it to be. It’s important that you can be your own support system because you may not always have someone to lean on. Once you’ve shown yourself some proper love and respect, your mind will be right as rain (never understood that saying. Rain is dead.) and you can get back on track without having anything fucking with you.

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Love Scotty x

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