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dollypopup · 4 months

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the more I think about it and rewatch his scenes, the more I cannot help but realize that Colin is coded as a neurodivergent character. At least, I can very clearly see how Luke Newton, a neurodivergent actor, is playing Colin as a neurodivergent character

a special interest in Greek mythology? in traveling? neurodivergent

taking people's word at face value without 'reading between the lines'? neurodivergent

not being able to read Penelope's feelings regardless of how 'obvious' they are? neurodivergent

brain constantly bouncing around from one idea to the next (as in the books)? neurodivergent

not saying the 'right thing' and admitting to having to rehearse important conversations? neurodivergent

all that rejection sensitivity and regret he had well over a year after his engagement blew up? neurodivergent

masking in public? the whole 'charming facade'? neurodivergent

the man straight up STIMS, I mean how often do we see him fidgeting or playing with something? he has an oral fixation like no one's business, always eating, rubbing his mouth, licking his lips

I just can't unsee it

and, one day, i hope our fandom is going to be ready to recognize how many of the things we've unjustly called him an 'idiot' or 'stupid' for is actually just him existing with a neurodivergent brain and how hurtful that can come across to us neurodivergent peeps who identify with him

#colin bridgerton #polin #bridgerton #luke newton himself has ADHD like i'd eat my HAT if he's not playing colin as ND #sure maybe colin doesn't have the words for that in the time period he's in. . .but nd folks have always existed #even when the language for us doesn't #hell. . .even his reaction in S2 when no one is interested in hearing about his travels #TELL ME THAT'S NOT AN ND RESPONSE??? how many of us have infodumped about our special interest #and had no one listen to us? it really does hurt!!! it discourages!!! and we get upset about it just like he did!!!#we stop talking about it *just like he did*#we dismiss it- JUST! LIKE! HE DID!!!!#anyway 'colin bridgerton is an idiot' is my villain origin story #we're leaving that shit in 2023 #colin bridgerton is a chaotic little gremlin is SO much better of a trope #also also cause it's just on my (neurodivergent) brain.#a lot of the polin shippers who have been made to feel unwelcome in polin tend to be colin fans. . .and a lot of us are nd #inch resting #colin is a neurodivergent character #he is my baby boy #and i'm tired of the ableism #and even if he ISN'T explicitly ND- a lot of the behaviors we call him stupid for. . .are relatable to many ND people #and seeing the reaction be a blind 'he's so dumb' is really sad #we're not stupid- our brains just work and process differently #that's all

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brittie-frog · 3 months

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I had ideas that I keep describing as funny but that is definitely not the right choice, more so fun to see explored:

- after basically being told that Jaiden is the second-time parent guaranteed to accept her child and Em watching all the others if not outright accept, at least spend time with their new egg, having Jaiden get on and meet Em for the first time and outright reject motherhood and abandon her

- also if the eggs lives got reset again so Em goes back to 2 to keep a semblance of 'this is a perfect place' and 'forget that we left you in danger for like a month because we didn't want to sacrifice our unethical science research' and still no one tell q!Tina that Em lost a life at all until one day someone mentions it off hand and Tina freaks the fuck out - unlikely but maybe... if they don't reset and still no one tells q!Tina it might cause a bigger freak out so I'm debating how secure in her life I want Em to feel

#qsmp #apparently i love angst in my minecraft rp #Em is struggling already as my little neurodivergent egg but im just gonna keep having ideas to pile on more #im sorry #but am i #i just want Tina demon lore its all i want #but also that second idea would probably cause teaduo angst and i dont want that #let my sapphics be happy #qsmp empanada #qsmp jaiden #qsmp tina #qsmp bagi #qsmp prison #i love you Em i'm sorry for my brain at 4am

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spinnysocks · 3 months

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do any other neurodivergent people feel like you're in autopilot mode. especially if you have a daily schedule that's rarely broken, you're kinda going through the motions, such as working then trying to ignore all your distractions to relax? cause like. i just realised i haven't responded to 1 friend and 3 family members in weeks 😭

#i knew i hadn't responded but i couldn't put in my brain the process to respond to them #i feel really bad 😭#but it's okay they're used to it #it's just me #it's nothing personal against them it's just how my brain functions each day #if i tried responding to everyone who messages me every day i'd get so overloaded #gotta give myself time to Not Socialise #and sometimes that pushes out people i haven't seen in a while #because Not Visual = Not In Mind a lot of the time #which is worse. cause i haven't seen them and i haven't responded 😭#it's okay this is secretly my reminder if i forget again #tumblr and yt and spotify are some of my relaxation tools #but tumblr is also the place that i can kinda get snapped back into reality #such as rn #spinny rant #neurodivergent #neurodivergent experience #neurodivergent struggles #neurodivergent stuff #autistic #autistic experience #autistic things

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dabidagoose · 6 months

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Desperately desperately need to ask ppl why they randomly come up and talk to me but it can't sound emo cause really I'm just wondering how they got to that decision in the mess of social norms and expectations

#ok I'll admit it is a *little* emo but that's just cause I'm down mediocre. I'm also still very curious outside of the emo. how do ppl just #talk to ppl. why do they feel like it'll be a good fun interaction. and it is! but how do they know. how do they decide. what are the #mechanics going through their brain to take that leap #it's not me thinking I am not deserving of ppl talking to me i am cool and fun and have a hot cock (no cock) but it's a big leap #sorry y'all my neurodivergent is showing

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puppetlooselystrung · 7 months

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i love how werewolves can account for so many things. trans allegory. mental illness/mental disorder allegory. probably could go for neurodivergent allegory too if you ask the right people who think it that way

#metronome.txt #ever since i saw that one werewolf post about werewolves being an allegory for being selfaware of your mental problems #and fearing just because youre not currently a wolf doesnt mean its not still deep within #or something alone those lines cause i havent seen the post in a long long while #it like definitely changed something in my brain that made me go ohhhhh my god ok haha ok yeah i get it haha oh god yeah #and now im like #oh yeah. werewolves can def be an allegory for disorders. especially when they act up and when you feel awful about it #definitely a way i look at my bpd episodes now in days. have been for probably a year now.#also pretty much why i go 'oh yeah im a werewolf girlie' much akin to im a wolfgirlie or a doggirlie or whateverrr its part of the illnesse #but enough explaining what i mean about that shit. its just cool thats what it means to me #but its so cool seeing how to a lot of other people its a trans or gender kind of thing #and when i said neurodivergent i just meant like. knowing that youre different then most people deep down. its the alienation #if that makes sense #but thats again something youd have to ask someone who does see werewolves that way cause im sure theyre out there #they could explain it better

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toastsnaffler · 7 months

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its actually nuts how missing a single vaccination has shaped my entire fucking life. like not only would I not be deaf if I had gotten it on time but I probs wouldn't have adhd either 🫣

#like yeah I have a family history of adhd but im pretty sure the current model suggests u can be genetically *predisposed* but the actual-#development of adhd is thought to be closely linked to environmental 'triggers' like childhood stress or head injuries lol #or in my case brain trauma. fun fact: a suspected 62% of kids who survive hib meningitis later develop adhd symptoms #vs. 5% incidence in the general population.....#when I first heard that I was still in denial bc i thought of adhd as a 'natural' condition like ur just born that way #so if meningitis survivors displayed symptoms that didnt mean they were ACTUALLY adhd. except literally all adhd is-#is a collection of symptoms its not some tangible 'switch' thats flipped in some ppl and not others. maybe thats a rly obvious statement-#but I found it kinda hard to get my head around. i guess just bc of how a lot of psychology is viewed by the public innit #anyway being deaf + nd kinda fucking sucks yall better be jabbing ur babies with every vaccination possible or im coming for ur knees #its funny bc it sounds like im saying watch out !! vaccination may PREVENT neurodivergence NOT cause it !!#*andrew wakefield voice* u wouldnt want a child with autism #but thats not what i meaaaannn obvs ur kid not getting xyz disease that could kill them is the number 1 most important thing #its so cringe actually bc hib b incidence has been down to abt 2 in every 100 000 babies since the vax was introduced in 1985 #so I was one of like. probably less than 10 babies to get it in the fucking country and they misdiagnosed me a bunch of times #bc it was so uncommon + I had some rarer symptoms plus the only way to actually CHECK is to test spinal fluid which is a faff #if theyd realised earlier then i also wouldnt be deaf bc it wouldnt have been as severe. just a series of unfortunate events i guess #anyway. immunology is so fascinating i wish id focused on it more in my degree tbh #over and OUT #.diaries

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xerospaced · 1 year

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Auditory overstimulation last night led to my first meltdown-

I was gonna say in months but I actually had one a few days ago pahaha but the first one in months caused by sensory overload (coz i thought i would have silence and didnt grab my buds or plugs and i did not have silence but hell). It was intense and horrible.

And today was just... so much sensory input. And I was struggling but I managed.

But... I've lost my water bottle. I never lose my water bottle. I've had it for years. It's the one I use every day.

I got in the uber on the way home, not two minutes later I realised I didn't have it. I feel... wrong. I feel sad. I am so uncomfortable and I don't like knowing I'm not gonna have it for the foreseeable future. I don't even know if they will find it at the place I was at coz I may have left it at a secondary location and I am just...

Nnnnnnnnngghhhhhhhh

I hate pile-up. Meltdowns and whatnot are bad enough. But if there's nothing in the following days I can at least recuperate. But I feel so volatile rn. And now that I've lost something that is an every day item in my life I feel incredibly... I dunno. Something between uncomfortable and unstable. Do not like 😭😭

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microwaved-cheese-sandwich · 8 months

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I also have an internal monologue constantly but it's like talking to another person. I mean I'm talking to myself but as if it was another person. So I also think/say "you have to do this", "please be calm", etc .

I thought it was what everyone does... isn't it?

sometimes! peoples thought streams are all different. many people think in first person, some in second or even third; usually ppl use different perspectives at different times. lots of thoughts aren't words at all, just a flow of feelings and concepts. personally I often talk to myself in second person. I also sometimes use 'we', referring to myself as speaker and listener. how and why this kind of thing happens, and how common it is, is probably beyond my expertise. but i promise you are not weird for it lol

#it brings up some interesting questions about how we conceive of the self in different scenarios #maybe sometimes its easier to use 'you' because conceiving of oneself as a different entity makes it easier to put things in perspective #or give orders or make observations yanno. we often give other people's thoughts more credence than our own so its a pretty neat trick to #pull on yourself i would say #same/similar thing with 'we'#i use it cause it makes me feel less lonely which is depressing i know #but also we give the thoughts of collectives/groups more weight than those of one person so its also useful for making judgements #internal monologues are so so interesting #i could talk about the way i think for a very long time which is lowkey narcissistic but i havent exactly been in anyone elses head so #some people dont have a discrete internal monologue; its like just a flow of concepts and impulse #sometimes thoughts can be chains of interconnected memories images and sensations esp for neurodivergent ppl #for me my clearest thoughts/emotions are tactile/proprioceptive impressions of shape and movement that i then have to pick up and examine t #understand what they mean exactly #like ohhh this thing made me feel *hands smoothing on the underside of a round smooth cold stone structure with weird amounts of affection #and the tensing that indicates they are getting ready to lift*#like what does THAT mean #anyway that was a very long tangent #you are normal. everyone is different. brains are cool. end of story #autism squeaks

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sickly-victorian-boy · 1 year

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What is your Hogwarts house?

I’d rather not align myself with media created by people who are currently causing immense harm to people similar to me and many of those I care about. Sorry.

#HP was my childhood fixation and just thinking about it stings #I know it’s irrational but neurodivergent child me latched onto that world like a barnacle #and as a result most of my happy childhood memories are now tainted with the knowledge of how horrible things truly are #I am fully in favor of appreciating works while still being critical of them and their creators #HOWEVER when the works and creator are presently causing harm and not long-deceased it’s an entirely different situation #at least my primary ‘house’ color was my favorite color anyway so redecorating my formerly themed room wasn’t too difficult #I could just remove overt references to make my space less horrible to be in #anon - my apologies for rambling and for not answering you #the topic is just quite unpleasant for me and my brain won’t let me go unless I muse over things #I’d rather enjoy both wizards and academics in entirely different ways thank you #also I apologize for any typos it’s nearly a quarter to four am

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deathgirl3014 · 2 years

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Okay hear me out...

Body swap movie, but they get the mental stuff too. One is neurotypical and mentally stable, the other is neurodivergent and depressed. They get swapped and one feels like they're finally getting a break while the other is just "How do you live/function like this?!"

#i don't know #did I think of this cause I want a break from my mind? maybe #body swap #neurodivergent #mental stuff #I kinda just wanna know how other people's brains work #I also wanna know how other people would react to having my brain

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cocklessboy · 10 months

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The biggest male privilege I have so far encountered is going to the doctor.

I lived as a woman for 35 years. I have a lifetime of chronic health issues including chronic pain, chronic fatigue, respiratory issues, and neurodivergence (autistic + ADHD). There's so much wrong with my body and brain that I have never dared to make a single list of it to show a doctor because I was so sure I would be sent directly to a psychologist specializing in hypochondria (sorry, "anxiety") without getting a single test done.

And I was right. Anytime I ever tried to bring up even one of my health issues, every doctor's initial reaction was, at best, to look at me with doubt. A raised eyebrow. A seemingly casual, offhand question about whether I'd ever been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. Even female doctors!

We're not talking about super rare symptoms here either. Joint pain. Chronic joint pain since I was about 19 years old. Back pain. Trouble breathing. Allergy-like reactions to things that aren't typically allergens. Headaches. Brain fog. Severe insomnia. Sensitivity to cold and heat.

There's a lot more going on than that, but those were the things I thought I might be able to at least get some acknowledgement of. Some tests, at least. But 90% of the time I was told to go home, rest, take a few days off work, take some benzos (which they'd throw at me without hesitation), just chill out a bit, you'll be fine. Anxiety can cause all kinds of odd symptoms.

Anyone female-presenting reading this is surely nodding along. Yup, that's just how doctors are.

Except...

I started transitioning about 2.5 years ago. At this point I have a beard, male pattern baldness, a deep voice, and a flat chest. All of my doctors know that I'm trans because I still haven't managed to get all the paperwork legally changed, but when they look at me, even if they knew me as female at first, they see a man.

I knew men didn't face the same hurdles when it came to health care, but I had no idea it was this different.

The last time I saw my GP (a man, fairly young, 30s or so), I mentioned chronic pain, and he was concerned to see that it wasn't represented in my file. Previous doctors hadn't even bothered to write it down. He pushed his next appointment back to spend nearly an hour with me going through my entire body while I described every type of chronic pain I had, how long I'd had it, what causes I was aware of. He asked me if I had any theories as to why I had so much pain and looked at me with concerned expectation, hoping I might have a starting point for him. He immediately drew up referrals for pain specialists (a profession I didn't even know existed till that moment) and physical therapy. He said depending on how it goes, he may need to help me get on some degree of disability assistance from the government, since I obviously shouldn't be trying to work full-time under these circumstances.

Never a glimmer of doubt in his eye. Never did he so much as mention the word "anxiety".

There's also my psychiatrist. He diagnosed me with ADHD last year (meeting me as a man from the start, though he knew I was trans). He never doubted my symptoms or medical history. He also took my pain and sleep issues seriously from the start and has been trying to help me find medications to help both those things while I go through the long process of seeing other specialists. I've had bad reactions to almost everything I've tried, because that's what always happens. Sometimes it seems like I'm allergic to the whole world.

And then, just a few days ago, the most shocking thing happened. I'd been wondering for a while if I might have a mast cell condition like MCAS, having read a lot of informative posts by @thebibliosphere which sounded a little too relatable. Another friend suggested it might explain some of my problems, so I decided to mention it to the psychiatrist, fully prepared to laugh it off. Yeah, a friend thinks I might have it, I'm not convinced though.

His response? That's an interesting theory. It would be difficult to test for especially in this country, but that's no reason not to try treatments and see if they are helpful. He adjusted his medication recommendations immediately based on this suggestion. He's researching an elimination diet to diagnose my food sensitivities.

I casually mentioned MCAS, something routinely dismissed by doctors with female patients, and he instantly took the possibility seriously.

That's it. I've reached peak male privilege. There is nothing else that could happen that could be more insane than that.

I literally keep having to hold myself back from apologizing or hedging or trying to frame my theories as someone else's idea lest I be dismissed as a hypochondriac. I told the doctor I'd like to make a big list of every health issue I have, diagnosed and undiagnosed, every theory I've been given or come up with myself, and every medication I've tried and my reactions to it - something I've never done because I knew for a fact no doctor would take me seriously if they saw such a list all at once. He said it was a good idea and could be very helpful.

Female-presenting people are of course not going to be surprised by any of this, but in my experience, male-presenting people often are. When you've never had a doctor scoff at you, laugh at you, literally say "I won't consider that possibility until you've been cleared by a psychologist" for the most mundane of health problems, it might be hard to imagine just how demoralizing it is. How scary it becomes going to the doctor. How you can internalize the idea that you're just imagining things, making a big deal out of nothing.

Now that I'm visibly a man, all of my doctors are suddenly very concerned about the fact that I've been simply living like this for nearly four decades with no help. And I know how many women will have to go their whole lives never getting that help simply because of sexism in the medical field.

If you know a doctor, show them this story. Even if they are female. Even if they consider themselves leftists and feminists and allies. Ask them to really, truly, deep down, consider whether they really treat their male and female patients the same. Suggest that the next time they hear a valid complaint from a male patient, imagine they were a woman and consider whether you'd take it seriously. The next time they hear a frivolous-sounding complaint from a female patient, imagine they were a man and consider whether it would sound more credible.

It's hard to unlearn these biases. But it simply has to be done. I've lived both sides of this issue. And every doctor insists they treat their male and female patients the same. But some of the doctors astonished that I didn't get better care in the past are the same doctors who dismissed me before.

I'm glad I'm getting the care I need, even if it is several decades late. And I'm angry that it took so long. And I'm furious that most female-presenting people will never have this chance.

#transgender #queer #transmasc #lgbtqia+#trans man #sexism #medical sexism #feminism #male privilege

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letrashbag · 9 months

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I'm making this post so I can rant in the tags, it feels safer, like no one will see it, but I'm still screaming into the void y'know?

#no actual tags cause this shall not be found #mental health is a doozy now aint it #my sibling and I always joke that we have the same mental illnesses and I always say we operate on the same frequency #cause we have a lot of similar mannerisms and behavior #our brains just think in really similar ways #however #they are autistic (not diagnosed but its veryveryvery apparent #no discussion #research and experience have dictated it so)#its something that has been really hard for them to admit and acknowledge (imposter syndrome rsd and dysfunctional family issues etc)#then we reach the issues #they have implied (and sort of said) that we think similarly and act similarly because I may also be neurodivergent #I struggle with a lot of the same family issues as them (since it's the same family)#which manifests itself as a constant desire to be special and validated but being aware that I am constantly seeking that validation #(and people pleasing but thats a different conversation)#so I've been down the road of “social media diagnosed me with ADHD” before but I constantly doubt myself because #I'm probably faking it for attention; but I don't tell anyone and don't get attention; which means I'm trying to trick myself into believin #it's true so that I can get attention without feeling guilty; but I do feel guilty; but it's just my brain convincing me that I do so that #can continue this behavior and be noticed; but I've been doing these behaviors for a long time I can point out instances where I did stuff #like this before I knew it was neurodivergent trait; but am I sure that it was actually before? maybe I'm just making this up to validate #myself; but I have been doing some of these things that my sibling does that we both call out being an autistic trait; but clearly I'm jus #doing it since they're doing it; but I'm not consciously deciding to do these things; so you're just mirroring your sibling and you're #neurodivergent friends and the internet creators that you see; but isn't mirroring a neurodivergent trait?; which is why you're doing it to #validate your claim to be neurodivergent which means you're a terrible person who thinks that being neurodivergent is quirky and cool and #everyone hates you or everyone should hate you including yourself.#so yeah #it's a constant circle in my head that just keeps getting more and more vicious #and I want to admit that I have stuff going on #but since I don't have a diagnosis it feels like I would be just crying for attention and being a disgusting human being #cause there are things that I do that I can tell I am not doing consciously (but I may have just picked them up as I am constantly absorbin

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minakoainosupremacy · 10 months

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Ok I’ve seen a ton of polls asking which senshi is your favorite, but I’m curious about people’s motivations for who their favorites are, and in what ways we relate to and connect with different characters. What kinds of connections do different characters emulate with viewers? How do people see the senshi in terms of friendship and compatibility? Who do people feel like they would connect with the most? Which senshi would be the most popular if they were people irl? Do our perceptions of the senshi change when we think about them in relation to the show as opposed to thinking about them as individuals/individual entities? Are our motivations for liking characters different from senshi to senshi? For instance, on almost every poll I saw, Mako was the most popular senshi. Do people love Mako because they see aspects of themselves in her? Do people love Mako because they want to be friends with her? Do people love Mako because of how she interacts with the other characters, and thus she might be less popular out of context or in a different context? Do they love her for her character and personality, and if so, specifically in or out of context of the show? Or do they just think she’s super cool? What drives us to like these characters, and what kinds of connections are we making when we feel more connected to one character vs another?

#brain screams #I NEED TO KNOW #and I get it also not clear always #I know why I love Minako and it’s a mix of things #from least to most significant I’d say:#character out of context; relationship to the other senshi; character in context; want to be freinds; see myself in her #I could go on a RANT about seeing myself in her cause sooooooooooo many ppl hc Ami as autistic and a lot of ppl say Usagi has adhd #but do ppl hc Minako is nd??? noooo she’s always tbs sporty popular NT girl #I’m like NO.#if she was the Usagi prototype why wouldn’t she also have adhd??????#like o relate to Minako SO much BECAUSE of my neurodivergence #she does fun gender stuff in the manga and is just such a hyperactive blunt sometimes socially clueless energetic positive character #and I love her for that. I feel like I am a cross between Minako and Ami cause I’m all the !!!!! of Minako but the reserved of Ami #but for whatever reason people don’t seem to hc Minako as ND nearly as much as Ami or Usagi. and fair for Ami like no hate on that hc.#I’m just sad that ppl seem to see Usagi as ADHD but not Minako. sigh

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vamptastic · 1 year

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i also just don't understand the neurochemical theory for ADHD i guess. i mean, as far as i can tell, stimulants have genuinely helped me a lot, especially with sensory overload and being able to activate focus at will more often. but they haven't changed the core part of me that just goes too fast, if that makes sense. when i was a kid, most of the adults around me were convinced that (and it sounds fucking stupid, sorry, i promise i am not making this up) i was like... so smart that i had excess neurons that fired so much it caused literally every symptom of ADHD you can imagine. sensory overload was because i had like, heightened senses and took in too much data, talking fast and on a train of thought was because i just thought faster than other people, stuff like that. it's definitely a lot better than being told i'm stupid and defective (though i got a fair bit of that too, depending on the adult), but pretty obviously pseudoscientific and also the reason i didn't get diagnosed till age 16 despite the extremely obvious flags i was throwing up. regardless, that explanation that my brain was simply structured differently, that i basically took in too much data too fast, always spoke to me a lot more than the idea that it's caused by my dopamine receptors only. i just don't generally link most of my symptoms to my emotions or adrenaline levels most of the time. certainly it plays a part, but the way i talk, the sensory stuff, and the way i learn and process new information seems to be largely unexplainable with dopamine levels.

#i suppose i am kind of also just describing autism #and it's entirely possible that i just have comorbidity going on #but psychiatry is far from an exact science and i can't help but wonder if there's more to it than brain chemicals and maybe its more to do #with electrical signals. god that sounds dumb i need to learn neuroscience #i hate gifted kid shit man it's so stupid. i had a good teacher for most of it that mostly just had us do like #typical stuff for autistic kids tbh. different puzzles and logic games some sensory stuff #she did a lot of cool stuff with different tests she had us take about learning styles and whatnot #but it's stuff most other kids could've benefited from so there was no real need to have it be its own program #also you got in on an iq test but got kicked out if your grades dropped which is dumb and kinda defeats the purpose #they probably should've given everyone iq tests at the beginning of each year and based it on that #...scientific legitimacy of iq aside #i do think there is some merit to the sort of horseshoe theory of intelligence they used #it was basically an ese class for high functioning adhd and autistic kids #and maybe high intelligence does cause neurodivergent symptoms but ive yet to find valid data to prove it #i mean i think most of the other kids wouldve found it boring but only with that one teacher #later teachers that my siblings had just had kids do projects and research stuff #i do think i would've acted out a lot more without that as an outlet for the ole noodle. also helped w executive dysfunction a ton #it just. could have been a regular ese class for kids w/o intellectual disabilities. the gifted label is dumb

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candyskiez · 8 months

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so, you've heard shows be recommended because they had gay characters. you don't really know what they're actually about though, and don't know if they'd be something you'd be into and are worried about spoilers. here's spoiler free plot summaries of em!

The Owl House

The Owl House starts out as a typical teenage girl goes into a fantasy realm story, but with a twist. Actions have consequences. The protagonist is a girl named Luz Noceda, who was being sent to a camp to make her behave normally by her mother after causing too much trouble at school. She ends up finding a place she's always dreamed of: a fantasy world. A world where everyone's so much weirder than she is. And she thinks, maybe if I don't belong out there, maybe people will like me here. Maybe I can be special here.

It's a story about found family, propaganda, erased history, living with disability, religious trauma, and neurodivergence. It's fundamentally a show about people who's brains work differently finding each other and making a family that treats them right. Definitely my favorite of the ones on this list. It's about people who've been oppressed being pissed about it and about finding yourself again after giving up on everyone around you for so long. It's basically a show about being a minority and trying to be understood and to understand yourself in the process. It's about growing up neurodivergent and how isolating it feels and figuring yourself out. It's about repairing broken relationships and parents who fuck up. And it's just. Such a love letter to anyone who was the weird kid in school. It's sad and heartbreaking and also so hopeful, and it's wonderful.

Content warnings: Abuse, Death, Grief, Animal Death, Suicidal thoughts, Vague suicide attempts, Depression, blink and you'll miss it s/h, body horror, religious trauma

She Ra and the Princesses Of Power

Adora was raised in the Horde since she was a baby, being fed propaganda about how cruel the princesses were. After learning how the horde actually was, though, she defects. But there's one problem. Her best friend, Catra, stays behind. Adora finds a sword that can transform her into She Ra, and might be the key to figuring out who she really is, while Catra takes her place as force captain.

It's a story about abuse, at the end of the day. Adora and Catra were stuck in a golden child and scapegoat dynamic, despite how much they care about each other. This leads to them knowing everything about each other but not understanding it. There's a fundamental disconnect between them, because both of their traumas are completely different. They have complete misconceptions about each other. Even in their initial split, they both have completely different perceptions of what's going on and why the other is upset. It's not a story about magic princesses, it's about the cycle of abuse and what makes it so complicated. Does it have flaws? Yeah. But ultimately I really really enjoy it, and when it does something right it does something RIGHT. Get through season one, it starts kids show-y but it gets very good during later s1.

Content warnings: Abuse (obviously), body horror, gaslighting (and I mean actual gaslighting, not what the Internet thinks gaslighting is), suicide, depression, flashing lights and eyestrain during the finale

Steven Universe

Steven Universe is a sins of the father story. Steven is the son of the leader of the rebel group The Crystal Gems, who's name was Rose Quartz. He navigates the confusion of being half gem and half human, as well as trying to figure out the mess of the rebellion and what his mother left behind. He's constantly in her shadow, for better or for worse.

It's a story about grief. How it impacts relationships, how it taints history, how it impacts family. It has some definite flaws, but ultimately it's about very flawed people who have lost so many people in their life trying to cope with it. Trying to handle what they lost and trying to adjust to life without them. It's about how expectations fuck a kid up and about agency and just a show about complicated relationships in general, at the end of the day. Also, it has some FANTASTIC music.

Content warnings: Grief, Abuse, body horror, very creepy people I don't know how to tag, heavy allegories for homophobia

Nimona

Nimona is a story about a guy who gets framed for murder. His name is Ballister Boldheart, a commoner who hoped to become a knight. It seemed everyone was waiting to watch him fail, so it was no surprise when he was the immediate target. Heavily injured and away from the man he loves, he's left alone trying to figure out a way to prove his innocence- until a strange kid comes into his life. This kids name is Nimona, and while he is intent on proving his innocence, she gave up on being anything but a villain a long time ago.

It's about deconstructing the model minority myth, trans rage, propaganda, and with a healthy dose of "FUCK the police".

Content warnings: Heavy injury, on screen suicide attempt, flashing lights

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Spiders, their senses, and Angel Dust implications

I already screamed to @xxqueenofdragonsxx about this but figured I’d put it out there because I was doing research and I can’t stop thinking about it.

While we don’t know how canon it is to the show, this does have some implications for fanfics and is fun to consider.

Spiders don’t have ears. Or noses. Or tongues.

People have already made jokes about Angel’s lack of a nose, but it tracks with that fact. We also don’t see his ears, although we have seen his tongue (which, given he isn’t an actual spider there can be some allowances made.) Yes, he doesn’t have pedipalps to act as a substitution for his nose/tongue, but that isn’t the only place they can smell/taste things.

It’s their legs/feet(?). Their legs and bodies have sensory hair cells that allows them to detect vibrations in the air, as well as changes in electrical fields (which… Vox and Alastor implications? Can Angel sense them.) Humans hear via sensory hair cells too, but those are concentrated in the cochlea of the inner ear and surrounded by the outer/middle ear system (eardrum, etc.) Spiders don’t have that. They also have chemoreceptors that can smell and taste things.

Now, as someone who didn’t know much about spiders it’s cool to think about in terms of a character with some spider-like characteristics. But then I thought about this other aspect of Angel

His clothing

More specifically his constant usage of gloves/long sleeves/boots. We know he hates his spider feet, and yeah, the usage of gloves and his blazer can be to fit his style, but it’s also fun to think that maybe him wearing them is an active attempt to reduce sensory input? He’d still get some vibration input because the fabric won’t block everything, but it won’t be as direct. But since spider sensory organs aren’t localized like humans are, this could essentially be the equivalent of wearing a headphones. (Also do you really want to taste every single thing you touch?)

Which brings me to the second order of business: when he DOESNT wear his gloves. We do see him have to be bare for the camera, and if you consider him wearing clothes as a way of sensory modulation, he could essentially be forced to get all that input. Sensory overload would already be so ways in a place with so many sounds, lights, smells, etc. but imagine if you also have to do that when not used to such a level of exposure?

In humans there’s a condition called hyperacusis, which is basically a reduced pain and discomfort threshold to sounds. Some everyday ones can cause pain. Some neurodivergent people also have sensory sensitivities like that, in both cases sometimes headphones can help to reduce input.

The thing is though, if you constantly wear them you’re reducing your own threshold. It’s not recommended for people with hyperacusis to wear earplugs all the time because it makes them even more sensitive when not wearing them.

So, if you apply the same principle here, there is even more reason to consider the idea Angel would have some level of overstimulation just from not having his clothes on, combine that with the work environment, what he has to do, and the emotional turmoil of it all and that just makes it worse.

Which… with me anyways I’ve found when I’m too overloaded my brain tends to nope out and dissociate. So that could be what happens to Angel as well.

Then, there is one time outside of the studio we see him with uncovered arms and that’s the battle at the hotel.

Here, he’s wearing gloves but his arms are exposed. So it could be said that he’s allowing himself access to more input while also not overwhelming himself. He still has a buffer with the gloves on, but he also has heightened awareness for things around him.

Again, the amount of this actually being applicable in canon is hard to say. Sense we don’t know how spidery Angel really is (since again, he does have a tongue) and what level of research went into that aspect of their character designs. But I think it’s a fun thing to consider.

So uhhh… yeah. Totally normal about this all as someone who totally isn’t interested in audiology, hyperfixating on hazbin hotel, and neurodivergent myself.

(Update: there is now a fic)

#I would like to state that this post is based on 2 am research of jumping spiders and spiders as a wholes sensory perception #so if there is any wrong information feel free to correct me #excuse me while I combine my special interests in a post #hazbin hotel #angel dust #angel dust hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel headcanon #hazbin hotel analysis #hazbin hotel meta

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