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rushingheadlong · 7 months

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Today is the 30th anniversary of Brian’s concert at the Palace Theater in New Haven, CT, USA. And since this is my favorite solo show Brian has ever done, I wanted to finally put together a proper post about the concert and why I love it so much.

First, a bit of background about the tour in general… For about 40% of the shows on the tour, the Brian May Band was not the main act at all. From late February to early July 1993 Brian was touring almost exclusively in support of Guns’n’Roses; they had some shows during this time where they were the headlining band but those were (generally) few and far between. It wasn’t until October 1993 that Brian set out on a tour that was exclusively his, with the Brian May Band as the only headliner and with no other support bands joining them.

It’s also important to remember that nearly everything about solo touring was entirely new to Brian, and while he can look back on it all with fondness now that ‘newness’ did cause legitimate issues during the tour itself. One of the biggest recurring problems was the new wireless system they were using for the Red Special.

(Brian, sans curly lead, at Brixton Academy)

The lack of cable meant that Brian had the freedom to move around that he needed as a frontman, but it also meant that they were dealing with constant signal issues and interference. And by “they” I mean Brian and a temporary guitar tech, because this tour took place after Jobby left but before Pete Malandrone came along.

So, with that out of the way… Why is this my favorite Back to the Light concert?

Well for one thing, it’s the best quality bootleg we have from the tour. Really the only video that’s in better quality is the professionally-filmed Brixton Academy show, and that one was edited for release to remove the explicit ending to Love Token and Brian’s cover of “God (Dream Is Over)”. In fact for the longest time the October New Haven show was pretty much the only source we had for “Dream Is Over” at all because it was never performed when they were touring with GNR.

So even though there weren’t any special one-off songs during the New Haven concert, this is really the only easily-available (i.e. on youtube) bootleg we have that includes the original full setlist and the complete encore. Some sections of video are missing, but they’re generally short moments between songs; very little of Brian’s actual performance is missing, and even better the audio quality is fantastic as well.

That's not to say that it's a perfect bootleg, or even a perfect show for that matter. The technical issues that were endemic to this tour are absolutely present here too, from Jamie’s guitar not coming in on his solo to major tuning problems with Brian's acoustic. But IMO that doesn't detract from things too much at all, because the band is far enough into this whole production that they know how to work around these things. You can see those moments when Brian gets frustrated but it doesn't get the best of him, not like it did in South America:

(Brian frustrated by technical issues in Chile)

By the time October 1993 rolls around the Brian May Band is a well-oiled machine. They know how to brush off the mistakes and cover for the inevitable problems that happen during any live show. And when things are going alright for the band and Brian looks more happy than not during shows, it's sometimes easy I think to forget how very not alright Brian still was on a personal level.

Because this final stint of touring kicked off less than two years after Freddie's death. The therapy that Brian found through Back to the Light wasn't in the making of the album, which was nearly finished before Freddie died, but in the touring specifically. Which means that by the time the band rolls into New Haven, Brian's been working through his grief onstage for less than a year. After knowing Freddie for over 23 years and spending 16 of those almost exclusively performing live with Queen.

Saying that Brian was still "not alright" in October 1993 is actually a massive understatement. The worst of his depression, anxiety, and grief is absolutely still there, but Brian keeps working through it - both literally, as he continues with the tour, and figuratively as he uses that tour as his therapy.

But as anyone who’s been in therapy can tell you, it’s not always linear. So when your therapy is performing with your band and you have a momentary backslide…

Well, you pretty much get this exact concert.

I’ve talked about some of this before, most recently in this post where I talk about Brian’s visible reaction to the audience participation in Love of My Life, but honestly I did that moment a disservice by stripping it out of the context of the rest of the show. Because yes, he’s reacting to the audience there (and I'll talk more about the audience later) but critically Brian has been off his game since the start of the show.

(Brian already looking Over It™ after only a few songs)

If you haven't watched (m)any of the BttL concerts, it can be hard to pick up on a lot of this without the additional context of Brian's behavior during other gigs. Brian has always been the most confident while performing and he's comfortable with this band now, so on first watch it’s easy to see him enjoying himself and think that the few moments of overt discomfort are outliers born out of Brian’s unfamiliarity with being a frontman.

But once you start watching more of his concerts, you realize that Brian only seems so comfortable because he’s avoiding going “off script” in his interactions with the audience whenever possible.

The first time this is really apparent comes at the start of Love Token. The introduction to the song is pretty standard across the tour, but what's missing is Brian talking to the audience before launching into things. He tells them, "You guys are great." but the rest of the typical chatter and comments about not having been to New Haven in a while are turned into part of the Love Token opening monologue.

(New Haven, before Love Token)

In contrast, a week later in Milwaukee, Brian does the happy-to-be-back bits entirely separate from Love Token and he explicitly mentions when he was there before with Queen. He's having a genuine moment with the audience outside of the music, and you can tell from his tone of voice and how he’s talking that he’s not doing this on autopilot.

(Milwaukee, before Love Token)

That's something that seems simple, but it still requires talking off-the-cuff to a theater full of people. And if you're already having a rough night, why put yourself through that if you can simply roll it into part of the song and make it a bit more routine for yourself instead?

Then we get into Love of My Life, and I know I already talked about some of this before but amazingly that moment where Brian physically curls in on himself during the song is not the only tell that this isn’t a good night for him.

Again, we have to take a look at Brian’s interactions with the audience because LoML is one of the parts of the show where he can’t avoid talking to them even if he wanted to. What he specifically says can vary wildly from one night to the next, but there are three main beats he usually tries to hit:

Asking the audience to sing along

Telling them that this song is for Freddie

Acknowledging that he wasn’t the one who originally wrote the song

I say “usually” because Brian doesn’t always mention that 3rd point. Often he just says that this is for Freddie and launches into LoML, without any commentary on the song not being “his”.

Sometimes he does mention it but leaves it a little vague, like in March 1993 in New York when he said, “This is something that I don't usually sing and to be honest I get doubts as to whether I should or not.” And sometimes he laughs it off a bit, like he did in Milwaukee in October 1993 when he said, “And it isn't because I was thinking that I have the right, it's just because I really wanna do it."

Regardless of how it’s said, Brian’s emphasis is still on the song being for Freddie. Any comments he makes about his “right” to perform it are almost always secondary to his assertion that he’s doing this in memory of his friend - but not when he gets to New Haven:

(New Haven, before Love of My Life)

In New Haven, Brian (accidentally) puts the focus on the song’s ownership. His slight hesitance and fumbling over his sentence inadvertently puts the emphasis on his own anxieties and mental state, so when he does mention Freddie his grief seems to come through stronger than it may otherwise have done.

Then Brian starts playing and although we have to acknowledge again that he’s having technical issues here, you can still tell the difference between his background emotional state on this night and his frustrations with his guitar. Because when Brian’s problems are external, he reacts and emotes to them externally - but when his problems are internal, he reacts by turning inwards on himself.

(New Haven, during Love of My Life)

Both of those gifs are from LoML. On the left he’s clearly frustrated by the guitar and/or his playing. He’s making a face, shaking his head, trying to adjust to fix it… He’s not exactly going out of his way to hide that there’s an issue there.

But on the right, when the audience sounds a bit too much like they would have with Freddie and their singing is starting to get to him, Brian’s reaction is to close off. He goes still, his face becomes blank, he turns the mic away from him so it can’t pick up any noises if he starts crying again…

(Yes, again, because I’m not going to swear on my life that that’s what’s happening earlier in the song…. but Brian does wipe something away from his face and sometimes that’s enough to make you wonder…)

(New Haven, Brian wiping his face during Love of My Life)

A few songs later and we arrive at Too Much Love Will Kill You. It’s another moment for Brian to talk to the audience, although he usually doesn’t say anything. At both Milwaukee and Brixton, Spike starts playing and Brian just comes in singing. But in New Haven, Brian feels the need to give the audience a little “warning” before they start…

(New Haven, before Too Much Love Will Kill You)

This is Brian’s anxieties coming through again, plain and simple. There’s no need to tell the audience that this part of the show “terrifies” him. If anything there’s a stronger argument to be made that the better, safer option would have been for Brian to say nothing rather than priming the audience to expect this to be imperfect.

Except the audience has already seen the imperfections. Even if they aren’t picking up on every little tell that Brian is having an off night, at this point they’ve already gotten through LoML. Everyone in that theater has already beared witness to his small come-apart during that song, and you know that Brian is absolutely still thinking about that moment as Spike starts the opening notes of TMLWKY.

Here he is, about to sing another slower and more emotional song, only this time he doesn’t have the familiarity of his guitar to fall back on or to hide behind if something goes wrong again. If he’s remembering LoML then surely the audience must be thinking of it too - and surely they must be waiting for him to fuck up again, so clearly the best thing for Brian to do is to preempt this song so the audience knows that this is difficult even on the best of nights.

That’s obviously all speculation but, as someone with an anxiety disorder myself, sometimes it just makes you want to apologize for everything. Whether you’ve actually done something wrong is irrelevant, because the anxiety will always find ways to make it feel like you’re “failing” in some way.

Brian can’t outright apologize to his audience. He’s stuck in his frontman role with a certain script to follow and he can’t break kayfabe to say “Sorry” without ruining the entire atmosphere of the show. What he can do is to admit to the things they should already know - in this case, that being onstage without his guitar is unusual and uncomfortable for him - and let them infer the rest.

He does nearly the same thing again when he talks to the audience at the start of the encore. He always thanks them for coming out to the show, but it feels a little more heartfelt at New Haven.

This part is impossible to gif but the first thing Brian says is, “Let me tell you, this is no bullshit, you guys are amazing. Because there's not that many of us here tonight and I appreciate you guys turning out and making that kind of noise.”

And I promise I’ll get more into the audience in a bit, but the fact that this wasn’t a well-attended show is SO important here as is Brian’s acknowledgment of that. This is really his last chance to say anything to the audience and he decides to specifically thank them for being loud enough to make up for the lack of attendance.

If that doesn’t say something about where his anxieties may have been focused - and what moments from the show struck a genuine chord with him - then I don’t know what does.

After that, Brian only has one more thing to say before he starts introducing “Dream Is Over”...

(New Haven, before the encore)

This is as close as Brian can get to saying, “I’m sorry but I’m doing my best.” He’s saying that he’s giving the audience everything he can and it sounds like an apology anyway. And then he has to steal himself to start the intro to the song, which he always has to do, but it hits a little harder when it’s preceded by that and not by something more like this:

(Milwaukee, before the encore)

And if you’ve made it through this nightmarishly long dissertation about every reason this show is heartbreaking and all the ways you can tell that Brian is having a rough go of it, you’re probably wondering “Rushing what the fuck is wrong with you that THIS is your favorite???”

Which, valid. But it’s my favorite because I think it’s both incredibly important and, honestly, very humbling to see Brian like this.

This isn’t the Tribute Concert, where everything is still so raw and performing hurts as much as doing nothing at all. This isn’t 1992 in South America where Brian can channel his grief into his frustration and push it out on the techs every time something goes wrong. This isn’t an opening show for GNR, where Brian’s time is more limited and even if he gets emotional he’s (probably) not the reason everyone in the theater is there.

This is Brian, not quite two years on from Freddie’s death, still mourning and still extremely depressed and anxious. And this is what it looks like when Brian has to push through that and put on a show anyway. The ways in which he both pulls away from the audience and tries to open up to them give insights not just into the state of Brian’s mental health at the time, but how that affected everything else about him from the way he carried himself to his mannerisms to how he followed the script of his own concert.

The October New Haven concert is a stark reminder of the depths of Brian’s depression and just how much time it takes a person to claw their way out of that.

And the other reason I love this concert is that you absolutely can also see the progress that Brian has already made.

Because despite the 2,500 words dissecting all the ways in which Brian was not fine during this show, there are still plenty of moments where it’s abundantly clear that he was enjoying being able to perform his music with this band.

(New Haven, Brian looking happy)

He’s visibly delighted every time he realizes that Jamie has shimmied over to join him without him realizing. He keeps looking over to everyone on his right and grinning. Whenever he really nails a difficult guitar line you can almost see the confidence boost that it gives him.

Yes, Brian is depressed and struggling but when he’s onstage he’s still Brian fucking May. He’s in his element and he is nailing it, despite the technical hiccups and emotional moments and everything in-between.

I love this concert because you see the depths of who Brian is as a person: his musicianship and how he uses that as a crutch to keep himself moving forward, the love he has for both the friends he’s performing with and those who are gone, his fears and anxieties and moments of deep self-doubt, the guitar legend he grew up to be and the incredible frontman he didn’t realize he could be, and the tired person simply trying to find himself anew after 20 years spent as someone he can’t return to anymore.

And there’s one final, very important reason that I love this show so much: the audience. (I promised we’d talk about them eventually, didn’t I?)

Brian has always been someone who thrives on the atmosphere of a live show and by god was New Haven determined to give him everything they could. They were loud, they were enthusiastic, and you can see Brian responding to that.

(New Haven, Brian looking happy because of the audience)

Brian pulls himself back together after the audience starts cheering for him during LoML. During band introductions they applaud for him long enough that it bleeds into the next song, and despite himself Brian smiles at it. And every time they recognize a Queen song you can see Brian responding to something familiar to him again.

Do you know how hard it was to get even these three gifs? Not because finding the moments was difficult, but because this audience is enjoying themselves so much that their arms are blocking the view more often than not.

Look, I am stupidly biased about this show because I’m a CT native - not from New Haven, but this is still a “home” show for me. Brian walks out wearing that tank top and I get why he wore hometown shirts for the encores even though I fucking hate Yale. This show could have been the most run-of-the-mill, routine concert imaginable and I would still find some way to write 3,000 words waxing poetic about it.

But this wasn’t a routine concert - or maybe a better way to put it would be, this was an incredibly routine concert made remarkable because of far Brian’s mask has slipped and what that inadvertently reveals to us. It’s incredible because the quality of the bootleg means we can actually see the little details of expression that otherwise are often lost.

The October New Haven concert is my favorite from Brian’s first solo tour because it proves the entire point he was making with the album. It’s a performance that shows us that Brian was finding his way Back to the Light - and that even when he was still in the dark, he was “still the same old [him] inside” despite everything that changed.

#brian may #brian harold may #brian may solo #queen #queen band #text #long post //#ramblings #brian #HEY WARNING THIS IS 3200 WORDS SO CLICK THROUGH AT YOUR OWN RISK

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ryuichirou · 5 months

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Today’s replies~ I’m still skipping some of the older ones that require a lengthier reply…

In today’s menu we have some random ships, some Ortho with Vil and (a little bit) Idia, some JackVil/RookVil, some Rollo and other stuff.

Anonymous asked:

QUESTION!

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT SEBEROLLO AND JACKSIL

Everytime we get an all-caps ask we imagine it’s Sebek yelling at us LOL

Don’t have much thoughts about JackSil, can’t remember any significant interactions (granted, we haven’t watched a lot of the events and vignettes). Based on their personalities, they could work as a ship and work for each other quite nicely, but it’s not really the type of dynamic we’re usually into. Unless I’m missing something…

SebeRollo is honestly very funny, because both of them are so petty and stubborn. I love how Sebek completely ignores Rollo and keeps calling him “human” despite Rollo grumbling that his name is Rollo quietly to himself very angrily… And when Rollo doesn’t need to play nice anymore, they would have the most hilarious super childish fights and yell at each other very big and scary words like “reproachful” and “pathetic simpleton”. Their relationships with Malleus would also be a nice fuel for this…whole thing.

Unlike Jack and Silver, I have no idea how they could work, but both of them really need to get laid to chill the fuck out, so they really should help each other out.

Anonymous asked:

Imagine Sebek getting jealous of Neige dating Silver and he just says it’s cause Lilias son deserves better than a lowly human

lol Sebek is a champion of coming up with reasons to rationalize his own feelings towards someone. So even if Lilia would approve of Silver’s relationship (and he absolutely would), Sebek would still think that Neige is completely unworthy, even if it’s just stupid Silver we’re talking about. He’ll also tie it to disgracing Malleus somehow…

Anonymous asked:

Has Idia ever been jealous to see Ortho and Vil together?

Good question. I think he has.

Idia and Ortho were each other’s closest people, heck, their ONLY people. And while Ortho is extraverted and open to new experiences and relationships in life, Idia is like the opposite of that. He is extremely attached to Ortho, and seeing him being so close to someone and so eager to spend time with them (and maybe even have romantic feelings towards them) probably pains him greatly. But Idia is also very happy for Ortho being able to live his life the way he wants, so he’ll probably suffer in silence. Maybe get snarky and moody once in a while though…

But both Ortho and Vil would probably see through Idia façade.

Anonymous asked:

I kind of like the idea of Neige being unexpectedly creepy to either Vil or Epel

Mostly because it clashes with his whole innocent appearance and makes whatever he does more pronounced

Yeah, it’s fun! I already mentioned the actual ending of the Snow White fairytale, but I still think about it sometimes. Darker motifs and Neige are a nice combo.

It’s such a contrast to his usual behavior.

Anonymous asked:

Let me just say I love whoever had the Ortho x Leona dream, now let me low and behold you. Jack railing Vil except Vil was not expecting how primal Jack is and how bitey he can be. Rook is stressed because only he gets to do that and now there's a bit of a competition between the two as Jack is a beastman and Rook may as well be arguably worse than a beastman. After Vil has probably the longest night in his life, he complains about having to cover it the ✨ evidence ✨ before it starts a scandal or he is complaining about his sudden new hiatus to heal lmaoo ~🐩 anon

Oh god this is the best lol

Rook’s reaction would be interesting: I can definitely see him becoming antsy and restless, wanting to claim Vil “back”, but he would also get so genuinely excited to have this “fight” in the field of love with an actual dangerous and primal beastman. He would probably have the most fun and want to do it again at some point, even though he did feel very jealous…

I also really like it when Jack gets uncontrollably animalistic. Makes every Jack-ship so much more fun~ (now I’m thinking about that one JackVil artist on pixiv…)

Poor Vil, but honestly it’s his fault for always hanging out with either complete animals or beastmen. Yes, the joke is that Rook is a complete animal lol

Anonymous asked:

Thoughts on Lilia x Jamil?

Interesting and has potential! Mostly because of Jamil’s dreams of travelling and seeing the world, and Lilia having a lot of experience with this sort of stuff. I feel like if they were to travel together, they would actually have a wonderful time and have quite a funny dynamic. It’s unusual for Jamil to hang out with someone like Lilia, I think, despite the fact that his chaotic behavior is similar to Kalim’s sometimes.

Jamil would probably join the squad of people who kind of sort of maybe have a little bit of a crush on Lilia lol but he is also mature/pessimistic enough to tell himself that it’s not going to get anywhere. Unless?

Anonymous asked:

SPOILERS FOR GLORIOUS MASQUERADE BELOW

so I've just wrapped up the EN version of the masquerade event (specifying EN for clarity, I'm unsure of any differences between translations)

in the chapter "straight to the dunk" in book 5, when che'nya and neige show up, Rook reacts in such a... interesting way, in my opinion.

he does his genuine shock expression (as opposed to his kinda fake looking surprise where he throws his hands up), and then smiles but with a sweat drop on his face as he addresses neige, while his model slides over to and slightly behind Epel's.

the game doesn't linger on it much at all but genuinely it makes me wonder if he isn't shy or nervous around neige, as probably his biggest fan

(this could of course also be the game just giving a little nod to book 5 without outright acknowledging it so there's no spoilers but still it's such an interesting reaction, to me, simply because of how bold rook usually is)

Sorry for the late reply, Anon!! We’re rewatching the event now, and I kind of wanted to wait until I get to this point, but I am so ridiculously slow that it’d probably taken ages lol And I do remember the scene you’re referencing!

If I remember correctly, back when we watched this event for the first time, I joked about Rook physically having to force himself to grab Epel to stop himself from jumping Neige. Also as a reminder of what happened during Book 5: look at Epel, Rook, don’t forget, look at Epel!!

This is just a joke of course, you’re probably right: this was just a fanboy getting nervous. Which is interesting, because he doesn’t seem to be as nervous at the earlier points of the event when he saw that Neige is here…

(maybe I’ll come back to this later; maybe not)

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trashcanwithsprinkles · 11 months

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when ur spouse says “i love you” but Ajax Tartaglia Childe 11th Harbinger of the Fatui quite literally:

met the love of his life in another reality, decided he didn’t want him to suffer or see his pseudo-sister/best friend die so he hatched a plan to prevent an eon long war thatd kill thousands of gods, MULTIPLE of which were Moraxs allies, successfully entered the abyss and found his master in another reality and recruited her to the cause, fought of a shade, held hands with morax after that (just a touch of affection for a treat), saved zhihao from the dream evil god guy, saved moraxs future son xiao which is now ajax and moraxs son that i guess they co parent with guizhong, then ajax proceeds to travel to snezhnaya and beat the shit out of celestial gods and get ANOTHER child and three random siblings that are actually his in another universe, bring them back to morax, make morax (unknowingly) fall in love with him, obtain cryo powers, then RETURN to snezhnaya with a kiss on the forehead, make it up to celestia after zephar threw a fit, get stuck up there, start a riot, then the Avengers of Teyvat come back him up (including his soon to be husband and basically sister in law (wait i cant remember if gui was there or not), as well as his kinda master), and they win that battle. AND MIGHT I ADD AFTER THAT, they then travel back to ajax’s own world to prevent Celestias attack on his world and inevitably the archon war as well, HE THEN REUNITWS WITH HIS REAL MASTER, TSARITSA, COWORKERS AND HIS BITCHADD FAMILY AND PROCEEDS TO KILL GOD,??? and then they all go back home.

and he does all this so morax doesn’t have to suffer the emotional turmoil of losing his friends. ajax did this for what he knew as a FICTIONAL character in a video game. bruh stopped an armageddon for his husband and didn’t think morax was gonna fall in love with him this man is denser than a metal ball i cannttttt 😭😭😭

anywYs super good chapter!!! i always laugh about this specific fic bc compared to the soulmate chili fic u posted it took like nearly 400k words to get them to realize they’re in love with eachother but it took like 130k ish in the soulmate one 💀💀 i’m so stoked for the next chapter. can’t wait for what ur cooking up!!!

you're right lmao 😭

i think the reason why things went so comparatively faster in itysg is bc zhongli was already 6000+ and childe was kind of faced with the idea that zhongli might want to marry him like- straight-up from the first couple of chapters, so like,,,,,,, coupled with the fact they know they're soulmates from the get-go, i think that kind of expedites his crisis to the next step hahah;;

and also bc in cyanide they spend most of the fic doing literally anything else so there's no time to question feelings lmao

but it's still very funny indeed;; i think cyanide is the longest i could possibly write it bc of all the shit they have to do that keeps them from thinking about it. you'd have to have an even longer plot or start their relationship from scratch (no interesting first impressions and no 'i know you from the game' ordeal, or even have them start as like- enemies, and slowly worky your way to friendship and then love)

but i really don't plan to write that, cyanide is i think on the longest spectrum of what i'm willing to go 💀

(catch me writing 600k next time, given my track record of not controlling what i write)

aaaa anyway thank you!! happy you're enjoying it!

#ily <3

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infizero · 5 months

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one day i will make a beautiful full rewrite of sonic forces like ive always dreamed of doing since i was a 14 year old girl

(ok so um. i started writing stuff in the tags and it accidentally got so long i went far beyond the tag limit. whoops. so this is just an actual post now. read more for my insane sonic forces rewrite ramblings)

i want to so fucking bad. every time i think about the wasted potential that is forces it makes me so depressed ToT i cant help but love forces despite it being garbage. the soundtrack is banging, the character customization is fun, i LOVE infinite, it attempted a darker story like the good ol days..... its so fucking bad but there were so many cool ideas and it drives me insane

also its one of the few sonic games i've actually played firsthand. purely because it was free on like the playstation game pass thing or whatever its called. and i did genuinely have fun with it even if it was pretty easy. also for the longest time of me being a sonic fan, forces was the latest mainline game. that era is when i got into sonic so idk. i cant help but look fondly on it even though its writing choices drive me fucking batty

while thinking about all this i came up with an interesting idea. so. there's something so fucking cool to me about infinite and the avatar's dynamic like. the way that infinite, despite his powers... him being a mobian and that scene of him flying right beside you and stuff..... idk its like he feels more on your level then some like ancient god villain or whatever.

that flying side-by-side scene esp inspired this but ANYWAY. what if, to make him AND the avatar character more interesting.... they were like. childhood friends or something. or just knew each other in the past in general. that would add SO much depth to their interactions within the game of like. infinite calling them weak. flying side by side. infinite's whole classic "character trying to reinvent themself" thing.

like infinite is using the power of the phantom ruby, trying to become strong because shadow called him weak and everything <- which btw this motivation has gotta change/be expanded upon cause this shit is still so silly. shadow called him gay and that's infinite's whole motive. cmon now we can do better than that

ANYWAYS. but that desperation from infinite to become an entirely new person - changing his name, wearing the mask, etc etc. that could become even more interesting if you add someone into the mix who knew infinite BEFORE his transformation.

and i know i know the avatar is supposed to be able to be projected on and stuff whatever whatever. but like idk man. plenty of protagonists have pasts that are part of the story even tho they're customizable. and besides it wouldnt be like a full backstory for the avatar. just the fact that they knew infinite once upon a time. and maybe something happened that split them apart or something. idk. but whatever happened between then and the events of the game wouldn't be elaborated upon, so you'd still be able to come up with your own story for your character if you want to.

and then the avatar's presence in the story could present a conflict for infinite. maybe despite him trying to act like he doesnt care, he like. hesitates. or lets the avatar go at some point. or something. and that gets him in trouble with eggman <- on that note. MORE CONFLICT BETWEEN EGGMAN AND INFINITE. im a little fuzzy on that aspect of the game but from what i can remember that never really goes anywhere. i want infinite being fickle about eggman's orders to MEAN SOMETHING!!!!!

also. i guess infinite could still ambiguously die at the end. but he'd definitely survive and show up in a later game, a la shadow. i need him to. my special boy.

anyways but going back to the avatar and infinite. i rlly think this could make both of them far more interesting than they are now. infinite rlly doesnt have like. an arc over the course of the story? hes just kinda. there. we get his backstory but in the present he kinda just. fights you a few times and then he dies. the end. this would actually give him something to do during the story, even if it was just like. brooding over why he let the avatar go or something.

and like..... i feel like forces SHOULD focus a lot on infinite? at least more so than the actual game did. like it doesnt have to be a shadow sa2 situation where like the whole game is centered around his story but i honestly... wouldnt be opposed to that either. like the war stuff is not that interesting im gonna be real.

also btw OBVIOUSLY the whole "sonic being imprisoned and tortured for 6 months with zero consequences" thing would be changed. that shit is so stupid and pointless. idk for sure if i'd just get rid of it outright or alter it, but probably the latter. cause like it IS actually an interesting scenario: how would these characters react to sonic being presumably dead? (long-term. 06 does not count LOL)

like that genuinely is a fascinating scenario to explore but i think one of the main things is that it would have to take place soon after it happened. none of this 6 months later amy wistfully going "sometimes i still dream sonic is with us....." shit, that is so dumb. WHAT is the point!!!

i'd want the story to start like fairly soon after sonic gets captured. and it wouldnt just be "sonic characters act as war generals" simulator. if we're doing this we are going ALL in. full focus on the characters' emotions and mental states which fluctuate over time. at the beginning they're hopeful but as more time passes with no sign of sonic and them losing more and more land to eggman, things start to crack. that could genuinely be so interesting to watch as long as it was treated with the actual seriousness it deserves instead of the cop-out edginess with no repercussions that the actual game has.

speaking of this part. TAILSSSSSSSS tails in forces was the wasted opportunity of the century. im gonna be real after having so much time to think about it, i really dont think that tails cowering after sonic was defeated was THAT egregious. i definitely think it could've been handled better, considering he had both beat chaos before and thought sonic had died before, BUT. tails is, at the end of the day, still a little kid. no matter how much hes grown and everything, thinking his big brother is fucking dead is probably still gonna fuck him up big time!!!

i also think that the idea of tails out on his own is SO fucking interesting and i am so mad every day that they barely did anything with that. maybe tails DID stay with everyone else at first. maybe after enough time everyone else presumed sonic to be dead and tails got upset because he knows sonic can't be dead, he always comes back, he did last time this happened right? and he left one day without telling anyone, attempting to try and find sonic himself.

and then he comes across omega all trashed up, and him fixing him, oh, idk, ACTUALLY MATTERS? (crazy i know) omega gets fully restored (plus some upgrades, of course) and it becomes the two of them against the world. throwing in a little craziness here but what if omega sticks with tails bcuz tails (who is definitely um. a lil more fucked up from everything) promises that hes directly interfering with eggman here, and that he'll actually allow omega to full on KILL eggman if/when they get the opportunity to. (tails is not fucking around) i just really need these two working together to be a thing.

rouge and shadow could also be MIA. i dont know if i'd want them as part of the larger resistance, they'd probably just be trying to help stuff on their own, but maybe at some point they'd realize that shit is really fucked this time and the only way they'll be able to stop eggman's reign of terror is by joining forces (lol) with the larger group. power of friendship and teamwork and all that, as is forces' main theme.

anyways. this is kind of all ive got swirling in my brain right now. i dont know how i'd tackle sonic's imprisonment itself. i definitely dont want to be in a position like the canon story where sonic should 100% be traumatized by what happened. bcuz i feel like thats probably a bit much lol... so maybe keep him imprisoned that whole time but get rid of the torture. idk, if we want to really get crazy with it we could throw in a whole thing where its like hey eggman why arent you just killing him? isnt that what you've wanted to do this whole time? funny how you're... keeping him alive like that. isnt easy bringing yourself to kill this kid you've basically watched grow up huh? even if he is your biggest enemy. idk that could result in way too much going on. but it could give a reason for sonic being kept alive + a reason why his imprisonment wasnt too crazy bad. just spitballing here.

ANYWAYS ANYWAYS. for real thats it I NEED TO GO TO BED. good god. maybe i'll rb this post at some point with more ideas if i have them. hell maybe i'll even write this whole thing someday..... regardless. GOOD NIGHT NEW YORK CITY!!!!!!!!!!

#serena.txt #it is almost 3am. ive been writing for like an hour straight i think. maybe even longer than that.#i am literally about to pass out so apologies for the probably numerous errors in this. this is pure serena ramble right here #but i would appreciate if you read it lol

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themadsquirrel09 · 5 months

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Some years ago I lost my password

Now that I remembered it, I'm back! And I bring you:

A lot of Keneric / Kenman /The Moon /Coonsterion 'cause I ship Kenny and Eric from South Park hardcore.

My art tagged #withasquee

Fanfiction under the tag #Squeethelines

South Park images, GIFs, analysis...

Stuff I find funny or useful.

Posts are usually SFW, but this is an 18+ blog.

To the awesome people I knew here n I lost contact with

I love you!! Some of you have been inactive for the longest time, some of you might not even remember me; but if you do, don't be afraid to write to me.

To the awesome people that are welcoming me now

Thanks to you all! If you want me to check your art, and give you an honest opinion; if you want me to join a challenge; if you just want to tell me a weird dream you had, my ask is open! I'm so busy, but most of the free time I have I wanna dedicate it to this fandom, to the people who keep it alive, and awesome.

A bit about me

You can call me Stan or Squee. Use the pronouns that feel right to you.

I'm here to have fun!

English is not my native language; I know enough to communicate, but I don't get it sometimes when you use slang.

I run The Keneric Askbox, and I plan to post again soon.

Aside from Keneric, I also ship Creek, Twenny, and Clybe. I think Style, and Crenny are cute!

I draw, and write for fun, and as a profession.

I will go down with this ship.

I'm The Mad Squirrel hun, ain't that says it all?

With love: (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ Stan

#About #general information #my ask box is open #if u maybe wanna know more #about me #about the blog #south park fandom #writer #artist #fan artist #keneric #kenman #shipper #my vault #south park #sp kenman #sp the moon

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hikari-ni-naritai · 8 months

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go go prime numbers^^

2. Are relationships ever worth it?

yes!!!!! every relationship has been worth it, even the ones tht sucked and crashed immediately causing me infinite pain.

3. Are you a virgin?

i mean, this is a real ship of theseus question. ive heard your body replaces all its cells every 7 years and its definitely been at least that long, and plus my whole sitch is different down there. so like. no i cant in good faith say that i am.

5. Are you in love?

hard to say honestly. i was at one point, and then those feelings changed into something more manageable. i dont know what to call them now. probably 'love'.

7. Can you commit to one person?

i basically cant do anything else. i dont form those connections with anyone new once i have them.

11. Do you ever want to get married?

i dont know. i used to for sure! now its like. i dont even know if i want to do romance anymore.

13. Do you get jealous easily?

i get jealous of things you cant even imagine. they should lock me up for the shit i get jealous of.

17. Do you like kissing in public?

i dont think i have any particular feelings on it. i would probably be more likely to get shot if i did it these days than back when i was actually kissing people.

19. this ones not here! wild

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

literally nothing would be easier.

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?

of course not

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

VERY proud to admit that after taking hrt for a few years i have!

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

i dont think so? i have dated someone who my friends hated one of us but it wasnt her, it was me. and they kept trying to hook her up with someone else (who also had a gf at the time). shitty friends, really.

41. Have you had sex so far this year?

hahahahaha no lol

43. How long was your longest relationship?

how long was tht shit..... uhh like nearly 6 years?

47. How old are you?

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

well i sure hope nobody is mad that im talking to people! thats some emily behaviour. people should not exhibit emily behaviour. shes too jealous for her own good. anyway theres nobody im talking to with intent to date so the question's moot i think.

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

oh god uh let me grab the only good picture of me ive ever taken.

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

if im meeting them online its Vibes. if its in person, like. general body shape? i am definitely not looking at their face bc thats where the Eyes are and we are not about that.

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?

uhh. something nice where we can walk around outside without a schedule and without being bothered. the botanical gardens are good for this generally.

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?

i mean is that defined as 'dreams where you cum in real life' bc , basically every single one of those ive ever had has been 'you are trying to find the toilet'. not really very kinky. if theres another definition id love to hear it. if its 'dreams about sex' ive had so very few of those and i think the closest to kink they ever came was a doctor lady giving me a vaginal exam.

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

organize an ff14 static that doesnt disband until we clear the thing we set out to clear. my greatest dream.

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?

god but i feel jealous so often about everything. i think it was when my friend mentioned.... talking to either her gf or her other friend, i got jealous about both but i dont remember which one happened more recently.

83. Who was your first kiss with?

the girl i dated for 6 years.

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puppyeared · 1 year

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Hi!! I really like ur art!! Ur artstyle is so cute it makes me wanna explote. Can i ask for ur ocs? (Their designs, names, etc) i wanna know more abt them!!! :]

YESS OMGB IM GOING TO BE SO ANNNOYING ABOUT THIS

augusta is a revamped oc that i made in grade 6, so technically shes my firstborn!! don’t really have any story for her, she’s just there to float around in my head lol

originally she was like, a brown and white fox with two tails and her special power was that she could use the tips of her tails to draw things made of shadows lmao. very edgy.. but it was everything to grade 6 me <3 (if youve been here for the longest time you might remember but shhh)

but now she's a part time astronaut who harvests stars for fuel and food on earth!! she drives her own spaceship called the moonfish, so just overall she has a very spacey theme and i like drawing her with stars or moons. her motif is supposed to be the five pointed star :o)

i also forget to draw it sometimes, but she has a dog collar that turns into a space helmet when you pull the tag! id like to imagine what work is like for her and what led her to become an astronaut, and maybe some stuff about her personal life like when she was younger. will probably make a doodle dump for that

despite being an astronaut, shes actually not that good at math and science and i figured its fine because thats not as needed in her world? theres probably magic if she can walk around on the moon in a dress so its more a fantasy or dream thing to me

before she was living on a house on the moon so she could go to space all the time, but since she has vincent and anton now i think she probably stays with them on earth <3 would be cool if she kind of tethers her ship to the house like a balloon, i should probably draw that later lol

speaking of!! shes in a relationship with @poicyss oc anton!!! i thought they would get along well, esp since auggie is a huge chatterbox so i think she'd be a good conversation partner. but theyre so cute!!! shes extremely curious and doesn't really give herself a reason to dislike others until theyre mean to her, so she'd definitely want to get to know anton!! theyre in love your honor!!!

their son vincent was also meant to be a one off because i wanted to see what their child would look like, like one of those crack ship memes lol. obviously i got attached cause hes so dang cute and he probably has a mix between his parents personalities ^^

i talk bow's ear off about them constantly but like!! theyre so cute!!!! my blorbos!!!!!!

these are presto and soleil!! theyre rival magicians who hate each others guts for stealing the others spotlight all the time. they both became world famous magicians around the same time so they've been fighting each other for attention for a while lol

the thing is that their magician identities are secret from their civilian identities! this means absolutely no one is allowed to know their civilian selves AND nobody in their personal lives know they happen to be the magician. also, the names presto and soleil are their stage names!!

so what happens is that they happen to enter the same apartment at the same time as theyre changing out of their costumes, which means they accidentally discover each others civilian identities and magician identities lol!!

the reason why this happens is that they both happened to apply for an apartment, but the building manager (mrs. koi) is very old and forgetful so she accidentally gave both of them the same apartment thinking she only gave it to one of them.

the other apartments in the area are also too expensive because theyre bigger and newer compared to mrs. koi's apartments, so they reluctantly become roommates >;o)

thats basically the context for them but i really have no idea what else i wanna do with their story, probably just roommate shenanigans and shit lol. im a huge sucker for rivals to friends/lovers so this is constantly on my mind lmao

i was also thinking of making other tenants for the story so maybe like eccentric old man, single mom and her five year old, idk? theyre just a bunch of silly little guys to me :o)

also i think they'd each have their own style? i imagine presto is more of a stage magician with the wand, and he enters the stage through a huge top hat, just playing with classic magician cliches. soleil is probably more like mind boggling shit on americas got talent, maybe street magicians and a phantom thief kind of vibe

these guys are minor inconvenience (min) and delaney!!! their story kind of revolves around luck and coincidence lol

min comes from a family of internationally wanted phantom thieves who hide out in a small town. he's actually a red panda adopted into a family of raccoons, but the thing is that they're colorblind so they can't really tell the difference. the only things that really set him apart is that he's not extremely smart (but decently smart) and he's very clumsy, unlike his family

this means his family doesnt ever take him with them on heists, but only because his clumsiness could give them away and get them all caught. eventually he gets fed up with being left out and decides to do his own "heists" as practice to get better so he can come with them someday

but since he knows most of the people hes stealing from in town, he doesn't actually keep what he steals. he just does it to try and get better with lock picking, disabling alarms, etc. and eventually puts everything somewhere the owner can find it

also extremely important to know is that even though min is extremely clumsy, he actually has stupidly good luck which balances it out. somehow, even if he trips on nothing, he will manage to land a sick backflip on the way down. there is no explanation for why this happens. his family thinks it's because he has a four leafed clover birthmark in an embarrassing place.

the thing is that his luck only works on him, not on his surroundings. so if he was in a group of people that get splashed with mud, he would be the only person not to get splashed no matter how close you are to him. this leads to a lot of misunderstandings lol

on the other hand, delaney is normal and she really had nothing to do with him until she was walking home and somehow found him stuck in a vent trying to escape. she felt bad for him and helped him out, mostly because she didn't know he was stealing and thought he was just dumb, but that kind of triggered a bunch of coincidences where they cross paths, specifically while min is in the middle of stealing and delaney eventually helps him out

they don't even really want to see each other until one time delaney finds him and he gets hurt trying to climb out a broken window. she patches him up and they kind of have like some sort of acquaintance relationship to the point where they wave when they see each other, and eventually meet up on purpose EHEHE

#THAT FELT SO GOOD TO LET OUT YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #long post #ask #oc tag #my oc #my ocs #augusta #vincent #delaney #minor inconvenience #soleil #presto #mrs. koi

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lovelywingsart · 2 years

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//AU// Name

-- Karl Heisenberg X OC (AFAB, She/They) --

This one was cute to do, and I do kinda hope people get the reference on one part because it's kinda a dunk on previous things. uwu (I thought it was funny, at least.) But also this was one of the ones I was stuck on for the longest, and so while it also may not be my best, I'm just happy I got it done... :'D

**Remember, check out the Masterlist for more! <3**

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*Warnings?: Small mention of medical issue, some internal thoughts, otherwise just some sweetness in general

Summary: Everyone needs a name! Unfortunately the duo didn't have one picked immediately like most would think...

Better a bit late than never, right...??

The room was quiet after the past few hours of movement and cries, shifting things around and making sure the newborn was content in his new world and the mother content in hers. Emelia kept her hold on her son, having calmed him with feeding and a nap shortly before. He was now wide awake again, however, small bright eyes searching where they could as his mother cooed over him constantly with every tiny movement and noise.

She still couldn't move her legs. Despite well over a day being past, the damage the birth had done was still causing lack of motion, though the feeling was slowly starting to return with the help of the Cadou. And so she kept her baby settled either in her arms or against her thighs as they rested on the bed, gently moving his arms and hands as she clicked her tongue in a light, playful manor.

Heisenberg himself sat at the small table in the corner, having brought down a few written plans to add to while occasionally looking over. It was... strange. Hearing small noises from the infant, along with Emelias happy cooing and gentle words was an odd change from the silence and normal talking he had gotten used to recently. And while he still didn't want to leave her side, it both made him uncomfortable and fascinated him...

Emelia kept her cooing as her son took her fingers in a tight grip as she held his hands. This was like a dream for her... One she didn't want to wake up from.

"My sweet boy..." she smiled, her voice quiet with a singing tone. "You're calm now, my little love... What's going on around you, hm?"

She could feel the fathers glances every now and then as she spoke, though that didn't break her focus. His nervous curiosity simply amused her, though she didn't push anything even, if she did want him next to her. The last thing she wanted to do was to scare him away again, especially now.

She kept her gaze on the infant, tilting her head slightly as a sudden thought crossed her mind. She wanted to say something... She wanted to call his name-

But he didn't have one.

"What is your name..." she nearly whispered. Heisenberg paused his writing, now fully looking back at her.

"... You of all people didn't have a name??" He asked, and she glared at him.

"I had no idea what he was until I saw him, Karl..." she huffed. "I had a tad more to worry about at the time. A name wasn't on my mind."

He stared at her before giving a soft grunt, setting down the pencil and leaning back in the chair. Well, she had a point... There was certainly more to be worried about at that point in time, and he hadn't been around to consider it until recently.

"Alright..." he started, crossing his arms. "Let's think of names, then. Any good ideas?"

She tilted her head in thought, her gaze moving to the floor. There wasn't too incredibly much she knew, and she would admit it. A few came to mind, but...

"... Albert?" she offered. Her response was met with a stunned look, his nose scrunched with mild distaste.

"Wh--" he started, now fully facing her. "Who the fuck names their kid 'Albert'???"

"You asked if I had ideas...!"

"I asked if you had any good ones."

"It's not horrible... I've seen it in books before." she mumbled.

"It's terrible."

Both nearly jumped as the infant made a noise. She turned her attention to him, and Heisenberg snorted.

"Seems like he agrees with me." He joked. Emelia rolled her eye.

"Let's see what you have then, hm?"

He snorted again, tilting his head to the side. Clearly he had the same issue as she did... It was a few seconds before he finally spoke.

"Hans?"

She shook her head, and he shrugged.

"Leo?" He said, scrunching his nose as she shook her head again with a quiet 'no'. "Alexander..."

"Perhaps Edward?"

"Fuck no." He grumbled. He was silent for a moment before giving a mischievous grin. "Karl?"

"Only with a 'C'." She deadpanned. He frowned.

"That's just insulting."

"I will not have two of you."

He began to chuckle as she stared at him with an unamused expression.

"All due respect Doll, you already do." He joked, and she rolled her eye again.

She returned her focus to the infant on her thighs, meeting his bright eyes with a smile as he attempted to shift and look for the other voice.

"Perhaps... something with a tad bit of meaning, then..." She said quietly, taking his hands in hers. She leaned down slightly, gently bringing his hands up to her face to press small kisses against his fingers. "You should have a name to be proud of, shouldn't you, love? Once we get out, everyone should know who you are..."

Heisenberg seemed to pause at her words. His abrupt silence made her look up, and he stared at the ground as if he had a realization.

'Meaning'...? Something with meaning?

Thoughts rushed through his brain as she watched his face go stoic.

"... Karl?" She asked, a concerned frown now on her own face.

He didn't respond, suddenly focused on the 'task' at hand. She kept her gaze between the two boys as he tilted his head. Given his own history that he knew, it was almost difficult to come up with something that mattered to him, or at least enough to give a child a chance... He wanted to avoid anything that would tie back to all this, to all the hurt and trauma both parents had endured thus far. But this... This was all he knew-

His head suddenly lifted, his gaze falling on his son.

... Or was it?

He kept quiet, though there was a rush of familiarity in his eyes as a sudden idea entered his mind. He shifted his jaw in attempts to work out words. Emelia froze, unsure of the gears she watched turn in his mind, and she didn't move as he took a breath.

"... Adalwulf." He said suddenly, his voice lowering with a mild accent that was familiar to both of them when he occasionally spoke his language, though his tone was flat as if he were in a near trance. It almost made her jump, but she kept her eye on him.

"... What?"

He relaxed and cleared his throat at the sound of her voice.

"'Adalwulf'..." He repeated, though much lighter in tone as he shifted in the chair. "It, uh... It's German... Like... Y'know..."

She was quiet for a moment as he shrugged and gestured to himself slightly, thinking before giving a small, intrigued smile.

"Oh. It's... nice. Better than the others, I suppose... I would dare say a tad strange, but look at us..." She joked, and he shrugged.

"I... Kinda... I guess, yeah. 'Strange' doesn't really cover it for us." He said, rubbing the back of his neck almost nervously. "I guess it's... 'out there', all things considered... Few things kinda mix with the meaning, but I guess to dumb it down simply, it's along the lines of 'noble wolf' if I remember right..." He tilted his head. "It's old, probably not used commonly anymore given the time, but fit for the pup I guess. 'Unique' is probably the word I'd use, only 'cause he's... um... my..."

He trailed off, his own rambling registering as he met her gaze. Emelia stared at him, her eye wide with simultaneous amusement and, to his surprise, joy. She enjoyed when he rambled on about things, often just listening no matter how short the rambling was. But this was... Well, it was sweet. It was their son, after all... It meant he cared. And she knew damn well he cared far more than he was willing to admit.

He stayed silent for a moment, registering the stare slowly.

"... You don't... have to use it..." He started slowly, his voice quiet as he shifted his gaze to the papers on the table. "It, um... It's just a suggestion. That's what we're doing, right...?"

She kept her eye on him, tilting her head for a moment. He was... nervous? Moreso than she expected.

"Adalwulf..." she said, letting the name rest on her tongue while looking at their son once more.

She went silent. Her smile grew as she watched his eyes move to look up at her. Her gaze softened more as he made a small noise, and she relaxed. The infants hand moved, gripping along her fingers more as she looked at him. The name was perfect for him... She could already tell.

The sound of the chair creaking made her glance up, watching Heisenberg lean forward in sudden interest and curiosity as he caught sight of the movements. She didn't move, herself, but instead smiled at him with a gentleness in the golden gaze paired with... something else. It was enough to make him freeze- THAT wasn't a look he saw often... Nor was it one that made itself known in general until recently. Maybe only once or twice to him, though nonstop since the child was born the day before... It made his heart speed up and a small heat enter his face as it registered.

"I think 'Adalwulf Heisenberg' has a nice ring to it..." she nearly whispered, and he nearly fell out of the chair while still sitting, catching himself with his hands on his knees.

"... what???"

She chuckled, the sound thick with amusement and a genuine happiness.

"Well... I don't think 'Walsh' would have the same... charm when put together for a full name..." She looked back down at the infant, wiggling her fingers for him. She clicked her tongue softly as he looked down with a wide, curious gaze. "I would assume he'd be considered your 'heir' as well, yes...?"

Heisenberg stared at her, his eyes wide. His...

"... I... Y-Yes, he... He is..." he managed, unable to find proper words for whatever was in his mind. He was quiet for a few moments more before clearing his throat. "... What about you?"

He tilted his head in confusion as she chuckled quietly again. She suddenly scooped up the infant comfortably and cradled him in her arms, angling him to allow him to see the rest of the room- and the father that currently stared back with wide eyes.

"He's still my son too you know, no matter what his name is..." She said, leaning back and getting herself comfortable with an amused smile. "I wouldn't suggest it if it wasn't something I'd want for him. 'Heisenberg' is a proud name after all, isn't it?"

His eyes flicked between her and their son in a confused amazement, though he simply nodded as Emelia looked at the newborn, happily clicking her tongue. His thoughts ran wild as they fell into a calm silence once more, listening and watching her interact. Naming the child hit him quite a bit more that this was real, and even more that something so pure was able to exist in hell they were in. A purity that now had his own name, one that he had slowly begun to think had been tainted over the years with blood and bad luck. One that everyone else had grown to fear and even despise, and what he would have internally considered a curse to place on someone else.

But this?

He stayed still and simply watched, taking in the knowledge that a new, currently day-old generation would carry on his name, by choice of the mother instead of him. A choice that he had come to know was the other way around, but one he knew he most likely wouldn't have been able to bring himself to make.

But in his thoughts, he figured maybe... Just maybe, with this new life and opportunity...

Maybe he could be proud of it again.

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cdmagic1408 · 2 years

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"I speak for the underrated" - CDmagic1408

I am Caroline, and I speak for the underrated. I speak for the underrated for the underrated needs all the love it can get! 💖

"I speak for the underrated"—and by extension, the “under-appreciated” and the “underrepresented”—is a phrase I've always believed in my whole life

growing up I was never in the popular crowd, nor was I always into the popular thing...instead I was more interested in things my peers looked down upon…like animation, cartoons, or younger kids shows, etc.

but because of that, I was always shy to share my interests with people, and shy around people in general. the last thing I ever wanted was to be made fun of or ostracized for liking something they thought was weird or different...but luckily I was also never one to cave into peer pressure. i never thought what i loved was weird or different in my own world so I never sacrificed what I truly loved for what i was never really into 😌

so I loved what I loved in secret. i did that for the longest time up until I graduated high school

by the time I entered my dream college, I realized I was finally in a place where I felt more free to express who i was without being outed for it 🥳

then Onward came out, and then the pandemic hit. it was then that I had an epiphany💡 I was tired of hiding. I didn’t want to keep my mouth shut or have a brain chock-full of thoughts to myself any longer. I wanted to speak out for what I believed in. and being a creative person, I best do that through writing and art ✍️

so everyday when I open my goal to speak up for media (like Onward) that I firmly believe deserves more appreciation and attention, I usually tell myself with a smile as I put together a post, write down an idea, draw, or simply think about how much I love Onward—“I speak for the underrated”

I loosely based this phrase off of “I speak for the trees" from The Lorax because the trees were important to him. and in my case Onward and the underrated are important to me

now if you all know or remember the story of The Lorax, it was about respecting the environment because without it, the world can be an unsafe and depressing place. the same goes for Onward. without it there’s less representation for just three families like the Lightfoot family, there’s less representation of a creative diversity, and there’s one less representation of a healthy and strong sibling bond...

without all those things, someone like me—who loves fantasy, who also lives in a just three family with a mom and an older sister, who knows what it's like to have social anxiety—doesn’t feel seen 👈

I’m reminded of another favorite quote from The Lorax that I also believe rings true to small fandoms like Onward: "unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. it's not."

I know my love for GE&H and this make it seem like I’m a major Seuss fan...you’re not wrong! I loved his stories growing up too! but this quote in particular has stuck with me for a long time. I remember I would find enjoyment in reading it over and over because it felt so meaningful and special to me for some reason. but outside the story, I never really had any reason, no cause of my own to back it up in my own life. but since joining the Onward fandom, I feel like I have found my purpose for it! 📖

as someone who was lost in the crowd and never really seen at school herself, I can literally feel the underrated-ness of things like Onward. I can see the beauty and details of things the majority of people would rather not pay attention to because what the majority of people are interested in have enough love to back it up with no signs of ever fading away. but the things they don’t pay attention to that I do ✨shine✨ like a geode. it may look rocky and rough on the outside, but on the inside it’s a shining crystal. you just have to look deep inside it to find the greatness it contains 💎

to this day, I still love animation, I still love the PBS shows I watched every morning before I went to school, and I love Onward. no one will ever take that away from me 😎

I will continue my endeavor to make sure that things like Onward are loved, represented, and appreciated no matter what it takes because I believe in it 💗

so give the underrated, the underappreciated, and the underrepresented a chance! who knows? something that might not seem significant in the eyes of the majority might just become your new favorite thing 😉

...and that concludes this TED Talk 👏

#quotes #true story #cd's rambles #onward #pixar onward #onward pixar #disney onward #onward disney #pixar #disney pixar #pixar movies #underrated film #underrepresented #unless #the lorax #dr seuss #cdmagic1408

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spookybeandoodle · 2 years

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The getting to know the blogger thing but I only ask hyper specific questions; don’t gotta answer them all tho:

- what is in your personal opinion the best and worst places to be at the start of a zombie apocalypse? Please tell me why.

- if you got to choose how you die but like, fake your own death how would you choose to do it and get away from the situation unseen?

- what’s your favorite thing to draw?

- do you have a favorite prehistoric period in time? Personally mine is the Paleozoic and specifically the Cambrian era(horseshoe crabs evoked durning that era and I love them<33)

- what not edible object would you eat if it had no consequences and it tastes good?

You don’t have to answer all of these, but if you do answer the zombie one I’d love that because it’s a running thing to talk about surviving the zombie apocalypse with my friends and I’d like to hear your thoughts!! :DD

Woaaah that’s a lot of questions 👀

But I’m ready to answer!

-Look I have no idea why but I’ve always had a fear of a zombie apocalypse happening while I’m at an amusement park. Imagine your on a ride having fun, come back and uh oh a zombie infection has started and the ride operator has left and your just stuck on the ride left there to be bitten by the zombies. It’s like super unrealistic I guess but I truly think it would be the absolute worst! Now the best place? Hmmm that’s a bit harder. I guess at like a farm. Probably still have cable so to be notified about the zombie apocalypse on the news and since your distant from people you have a better chance of building up a barrier/defense since the likelihood of a mob of zombies heading your way are kind of low (or I would assume so).

-this is such an interesting question but I honest to god don’t know how I would get away with it. So I think I’ll have to unfortunately pass on this one 😔

-girls.

I love love LOVE drawing girls!!! But besides that I also really love drawing puffy sleeves! The bigger they are the better! It just fills me with so much serotonin I don’t know why.

-What’s the time period where they go kaplooey? Okay so fun fact: I was actually fucking terrified of dinosaurs as a kid. I mean like a deep rooted phobia. I couldn’t look at or even hear people talk about dinosaurs for the longest time. Fucking hated them as a kid. Most of my dreams back then were just the same dreams about dinosaurs on repeat. And that happened for YEARS just having the same dreams. I’ve finally gotten over it by watching Jurassic Park but I still have that deep rooted fear of them.

I do remember watching a video talking about how the moments the asteroid hit through the ozone layer affected the dinosaurs and how fast everything went wrong for those guys. It’s freaking scary and I feel bad for them. 😔 If there’s any cute tiny dinosaurs I would love to learn about them.

-I like things with weird textures so maybe cardboard, or glass. Definitely glass. If it was edible I want some company to sell it like pop rocks. I want to be able to eat light bulbs too. How come we can put it in our mouth but it’s dangerous to take out huh? What kind of fucked up sorcery is that? Also not an object but lava. I FEEL like I should be able to touch it and eat it but I can’t??? I don’t know doesn’t make sense to me. Or clouds. Why look so fluffy if I can’t eat?

I hope these answers were interesting! The questions sure were! I had a lot of fun answering them! The zombie I had to sit and think about for a while cause it is something I’ve thought about before being in a household that loves watching the walking dead and me who loves playing zombie games.

Anyways thank you so much! And sorry for the long wait for this!

#these were so interesting!#thank you for sending them my way!#I love questions like this #I’m sorry about the murder and dinosaur one-#I can’t believe I got to talk about my fear of dinosaurs #whenever I tell people that they’re always like really?#get to know me

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"School Reunion" thoughts

liz sladen milf moments. liz sladen milf moments. liz sladen MILF. MOMENTS.

i remembered this episode being kind of cat-fight-y. it definitely isn't. i think last time i watched this episode i was partially or fully unfamiliar w classic who, and while i still haven't reached the sarah jane era, i've now seen enough to GET it

it's just. so respectful and good, to me. i'm not very familiar w toby whithouse as a writer, i think most of his episodes (upon googling) are kind of mid. huge fan of "town called mercy" tho

does anthony head remind anyone else of anthony hopkins? clariceeeeeee. i love to see him in a show better than buffy, he's a talented actor but also so good at ridiculous hamminess, perfect for a show like doctor who

do you think rose as a dinner lady is later deliberately referenced later by bill's introduction? anyway

i think this is a fantastic story for straddling the line between classic and new. it references sarah jane's time with the doctor without getting too bogged down in old history (only one episode after we referenced the other longest running companion in the show's history; now that new who seemed to have its sea legs, maybe kindly referencing the old era?). k9 is fun and i like to see him. mickey-as-tin-dog could be an essay on its own. sarah jane is able to say "i loved my time with you, you showed me wonders beyond my comprehension" but also "you ditched me quick and never talk about me anymore, i'm one of many" like. it acknowledges the roles of previous companions while also saying that everyone's time ends eventually

rose and sarah jane laughing their asses off at the doctor while he asks what's going on is amazing

like, i think in hindsight the function of this episode (bc the real plot is severely weaksauce, no shade) is priming the audience for rose's departure. it says "the doctor has had many companions throughout the years, and even the ones he loved will someday be a distant memory" cause that's what's gonna happen, right? the audience has to be prepared to accept martha, and while rose is extraordinarily important to ten (more so than maybe any one companion has been to any one doctor historically), the show/the doctor will have to carry on after she's gone

and of course it was a huge love letter to classic who. iirc davies would have grown up watching four/sarah jane, this would've been his own dream come true. also why some of his stories will reference the macra and the celestial toymaker. insane man. moffat openly admits to being a deranged fanboy but let's be clear, davies is just slightly more subtle about it, he's no less a massive nerd. we like to see it

liz sladen milf moments.

#School Reunion #Doctor Who #DW s2 #besides its too rewatch

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I posted 1,851 times in 2022

That's 753 more posts than 2021!

43 posts created (2%)

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I tagged 372 of my posts in 2022

#disney - 17 posts

#taylor swift - 12 posts

#tangled - 12 posts

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#personal - 8 posts

#i love this - 7 posts

#actually phobic - 5 posts

#new dream - 5 posts

#this is cool - 4 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#and i think maybe a good measurement of it is how often i think something along the lines of kinda want to be thrown off a cliff oh wait no

My Top Posts in 2022:

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Hello all! The animal today is a black cat in accordance with Halloween and (more importantly) Midnight's release in less than a week! I think we have an exciting week ahead of us, eh? So I want to know, what is your favorite thing about release week? Mine personally is being surprised by all the little fun things Taylor does during the week! And of course getting new music (duh?) So what is yours?

Let's share what we're most excited for this week and remember to tag animalanon (if so desire) so we can all share our excitement for this new album and show Taylor (and each other) some love! And remember, each of you are wonderful and deserving human beings who are very much loved 🥰. Now let's have a party!l (squirrels are not invited) 🥳 🥳🥳.

-animal anon

Hello!

I think just the experience of adding to all the memories and connections I have of/with Taylor, her songs, and the fandom is my favorite! I have very specific memories of listening to each album throughout the years and I'm excited to see where Midnights will fall in my life story. What moments will it soundtrack? Which songs will mean one thing on Friday, and something else entirely to me next year? Which one will be my best friend's favorite? What will the rest of this era look like? Every new thing is exciting. (Also, super cool that it's coming out just 2 days after my birthday!)

3 notes - Posted October 16, 2022

Sometimes I read fiction with a protagonist who has a phobia of germs (or OCD that presents similarly) and everytime I'm struck by how relatable they are. I don't have those conditions, but I do have my own phobia. Sonething about it just hits. These characters withstand their own battering thoughts, cope with the same actions over and over, and feel the tide of anxiety that rises and falls without notable cause. It just makes me feel less alone, I guess? Like it isn't just me who's haunted by my own brain and tires myself out seeking safety.

5 notes - Posted January 22, 2022

Every time Taylor mentions being an outcast as a child being the root of her current actions, I am over the moon. There's something so close to my heart about her acknowledging it. This shared experience is what drew me to her in the first place, the way we both sat at that lunch table and nobody wanted us there! The way we looked at girls with shiny, perfect hair and felt some mix of jealousy or fear. The way every kid like us grew up, and now we're all adults. Adults who carry those responses and fears and coping mechanisms everywhere we go.

6 notes - Posted October 27, 2022

My Lover anniversary hot take is that people who criticized the album's focus on romantic love while saying Soon You'll Get Better doesn't belong on the album should shut the fuck up

6 notes - Posted August 23, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Obsessed with Taylor having friends who will defend her. We all know we'll be here, doing that, til the end of time. But it's nice to see the celebs and artists around her join in too

30 notes - Posted January 25, 2022

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cosplayprincess21 · 1 year

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I posted 471 times in 2022

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Blogs I reblogged the most:

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I tagged 226 of my posts in 2022

#dr stone - 176 posts

#dcst - 168 posts

#dr. stone - 151 posts

#drst - 127 posts

#gen asagiri - 72 posts

#asagiri gen - 72 posts

#ryusui nanami - 59 posts

#senku ishigami - 54 posts

#kohaku - 51 posts

#nanami ryusui - 42 posts

Longest Tag: 114 characters

#seriously ive rewatched dr.stone. how i met your mother. the originals and moriarty the patriot multiple times now

My Top Posts in 2022:

Senku hcs

Oh this shall be fun

Realizes he's aromantic asexual in middle school. Everyone else was going on about romance and dating and all that other stuff, and all he cared about was science.

Was the one lecturing people in elementary school about why certain super powers can't be real and crushed the hopes and dreams of those wanting lazer vision

Would secretly leave Taiju money or other things he needed but pretended he had no idea where they came from

Since hes the definition of aroace, his gaydar is never wrong

Tried to figure out if he could turn himself into a robot as a kid, it did not work

Speaking of robots, he had robot pj's up until he was 11 in which he traded them for science ones

His experiments would make stay up late into the night, so naturally, he developed a taste for energy drinks.

At night he will sometimes think of Byakuya and remember all the memories he has with his dad, he might try to act like the man was embarrassing and all, but deep down hes a kid who never got to say goodbye to his dad

The only two people he can fully confide in are Taiju and Yuzuirha

While its common for kids who are adopted to want to know about their biological parents, he doesnt. He had Byakuya after all, and Byakuya is his dad, nothing else matters.

Hope you like them. Senku is a very fun character to make headcanons for.

45 notes - Posted March 28, 2022

no one in Dr.STONE is an autistic retard so why do you plan to make a post about it? just cause you're retarded doesnt mean they are

congrats you got me to use Tumblr Desktop instead of my phone because im going to have a lot to say.

First of all, fuck off with the R word here, its an outdated and harmful term thats rooted in Ableism. Secondly i was going to ignore this and delete it when i saw the first line but then you also decided to insult me so you know enjoy getting your ass handed to you.

But whats wrong with noticing that certain characters in Dr.STONE are ASD coded? Like everyone accepts that Ryusui has ADHD but being autistic is something bad right? News Flash it isnt. Also show me where in the manga that Sai and Yuzuriha dont show traits of autism? i feel explaining to you would be a waste of energy but just know this is only going to make my post on it even longer cause holy fuck the beginning will now have a rant about people like you. Do me a favor and never send an ask here again and kindly fuck off.

Also this comment really pissed me off and i was going to focus on just Sai and Yuzuriha but now im gonna add Magma,Senku and Ruri to this as well cause ive also been seeing them as ASD coded but have been keeping that to myself.

47 notes - Posted August 13, 2022

so i finished fmab

sobbing crying wailing etc it was SO GOOD and completely destroyed me at the same time fhjfjkfjhfkjhsahjsdjhfkjdjghdkjsk definitely the anime of all time

welcome to the world of FMAB. The obsession will never leave, and the pain gets worse with every rewatch. But with that also comes seeing little things you never noticed before which makes the series even better.

47 notes - Posted January 23, 2022

Ok so ill be posting about the final chapter soon but. IM SO HAPPY SENKU DIDNT GET ANY LOVE INTERESTS. HES AROACE AND STAYS AROACE HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

54 notes - Posted March 6, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Ok but i really need to know what people have against aroace characters? Like theres nothing wrong with any character being aroace but for some reason it just causes others to be so upset and for what? Ive seen it with mostly One Piece and The Disastrous Life of Saiki K. Luckily havent seen it as much with Dr.STONE or at least on tumblr. The number of people ive blocked on tiktok for getting upset about Senku being CANONICALLY aroace is ridiculous. But yeah can someone just explain this to me? Cause aroace exist and we do deserve to have our representation in media and not in the "oh im rude because im aroace and thats my only personality" way. But in a way where we ardnt dehumanized for not feeling romantic or sexual attraction.

331 notes - Posted July 1, 2022

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stilllostinthedaydream · 1 year

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Ho postato 1.972 volte nel 2022

Sono 1.068 post in più del 2021!

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Ho taggato 1.972 dei miei post nel 2022

#tv series - 453 post

#funny - 267 post

#wang yibo - 229 post

#xiao zhan - 197 post

#animal - 193 post

#taemin - 119 post

#cat - 100 post

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Longest Tag: 127 characters

#i just saw it everywhere and i thought it would have been a good idea to watch the series and the cartoon and to read the books

I miei post migliori nel 2022:

If you receive this, you make somebody happy! Go on anon and send this to ten of your followers who make you happy or somebody you think needs cheering up. If you get one back, even better! 🖤💞

This is so cute! Thank you 🥺🥺

0 note - Postate 2 dicembre 2022

Hey, stranger 😘 3 and 12 for the end-of-year asks

3. Favorite musical artist / group you started listening to this year? Taemin. I have listened to the same few artists for years, so imagine my surprise when he got me invested.

12. Talk about a new friend you made this year. Mmm, it’s not actually a friend I’ve made this year, but we got real close a few months ago. I thought she was that kind of confident, bubbly person who’s always talking and making noise, but she’s actually insecure, very attentive. You could talk about anything without feeling judged. She’s really sweet and kind. (She’s also the biggest simp, I would have never imagined that).

Thanks 😘

Ask me some?

2 note - Postate 4 dicembre 2022

Il mio post numero 1 del 2022

tag mutuals you’d like to get to know better

Thanks @voxofthevoid for the tag 😘😘 (making a new post ‘cause I don’t really like when they get too long)

Favourite time of the year: spring 😌. Little birds start to come out again and it’s not too hot. It’s perfect for lazy days.

Comfort food: pizza (duh)

Favourite dessert: fetta al latte or cannoli

Things you collect: failures probably. In all seriousness, I don’t really collect anything if not museum’s tickets and plushies maybe?

Favourite drink: hot: coffee, cold: tea

Favourite musical artist: absolute favourite is paramore, but right now I’m really into taemin

Last song you listened to: 2 kids by taemin

Last movie you watched: I haven’t seen a movie in so long I can’t even remember. Maybe fresh?

Last series you watched: I’ve just finished the sandman on my own and bad buddy with my twin

Series you’re currently watching: rewatching the untamed ‘cause my finger slipped the other day, it wasn’t my fault. And Love between fairy and devil

Current obsession: K-pop and bls to be honest. It really opened up a new world to me

Dream place to visit: don’t really have a dream place, I just know where I wouldn’t want to set foot, ever

A place you want to visit again: florence

Something you want: too many things and nothing all at once to be honest

Currently working on: Latin exam 🫠

Tagging @lilyinthesnow and @tutifaitroppiproblemi if you want

2 note - Postate 2 settembre 2022

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ser-rctslcyer · 2 years

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NO SAY YOUR DRAGON PIECE I WANNA HEAR

AAAAAAA!!! I REALLY WAS JUST GONNA GET SAPPY FOR A MOMENT IS ALL BUT FUCK IT NOW IM GOING!!!!

truly didn't think anyone wanted to see my bullshitting in the tags but uh here we go

LONG POST AHEAD (SPIN WENT FUCKING BRRR)

[below the cut is me being very sappy about my love for dragons]

Intro

Okay so I know you might mean about got/hotd (and i will get there) but I very much adore dragons and just need to scream about them for a sec.

Ever since I was little, I always had a huge affinity for dragons. I don't know what exactly drew me in but it probably had something to do with their amazing designs, colors, and personalities they got to have. I own like several different dragon books (4-7) because that's how obsessed I was as a kid. I wanted to know anything and everything about them, not realizing dragons have such a vast lore and change between depictions-- but little me did not give a fucking shit. I collected a book that went through like the basic overview of dragons, I got another book (drawing book) that went through different types of dragons, and a few more that I can't remember off the top of my head. Anything remotely dragon related I wanted because I was that kid. Not to mention the vast amount of drawings and writings I did about dragons. I made oc dragons, backstories, came up with a different language — I’m pretty sure I even talked about dragons in my school work. I was obsessed man (still am).

Now I watched a lot of different shows/movies/games even that had some dragon in it-- and it would instantly become my favorite thing from it. So obliviously , I grew attachments to a lot of them but here a just a handful who mean the most to me, the dragon kid--

Mulan - Mushu

I will never not love this funky lil man, okay? Like who the fuck doesn’t want a little pocket sized dragon to follow you around?

He's giddy, exuberant, and most importantly funny. Honestly, why I probably love Mulan so much is for him alone. I know I wished, for like the longest time, to have a lil dragon who would follow me around everywhere/talk to me— that was the dream for me. Although the boosts himself up to sound all big and bad dragon, he really comes across as friendly which I enjoyed a lot. He’s comedic but in the end proves that’s he’s truly has a big heart. Most book depreciations I had read had always either made the dragon big and scary or like all-knowing and untouchable. For me, as a kid, Mushu was a little hilarious red dragon that could keep me company, give me advice (albeit maybe a little bad), or just chill in my company. He was the almost ideal dragon in my brain I wanted to bond with and take on grand adventures.

Spirited Away - Haku/Kohaku

Now, I preface this with I have Spirited Away in DVD— and would put that disk in religiously; that was my movie.

I love Spirited Away (one of the first anime movies I ever watched) for all the incredible character designs and to the sheer magnitude of the fantastical setting it take places. As a kid, I wanted to explore those strange worlds between and see all different types of people, creatures and just experience fantasy. Like, yeah is it pretty fucked up watching your parents turn into pigs-- but holy shit, yall see No-Face???? My fucking beloved right there; I adored them immediately when I watched that movie. like their design, although “basic” is very fucking cool and they’re such an amazing fucking character, even without having to say much. Absorbing creatures and using their voices to speak but also gaining their personality-- there is so many layers to No-Face, it’s impossible not be intrigued and infatuated with them. (

I say all this (not cause i was drawn off subject) to say--

Of course was also drawn to Haku. Yes, kid me had a big fucking crush on him(i mean truly who didn’t have a crush on hm bro); he fits my lovely lil blorbo niche perfectly. The stoic yet observant character was very interesting to me and I wanted to know more about him upon immediately seeing him. Then there was his dragon form, which is one of my favorites till this day; the white and green fur is iconic. He’s a bit more feral in that form but he’s not feral for no reason. His name has been stolen from him, forgotten so he acts accordingly; untrusting, aloof, and callous until Chihiro saves him from Yubaba’s control. Once gets his real name again, he’s free again and he does what he is meant to do. The reveal of him being a river spirit, and the way in which his dragon moves, smooth and flowing like water-- it’s simply perfect!!!

HTTYD - Toothless

Now I wasn’t the biggest biggest fan of How To Train Your Dragon (I say having seen the 2nd movie in theater), I did enjoy the seeing all the varied types of dragons in the show, especially Toothless. First off, Night Fury is a hard name for a species of dragon. The concept of a disabled dragon was something I’ve never seen before, and it was very cool to see a dragon adapt to having an artificial limb. Then there was also the retractable teeth, which I thought was fucking cool too. Toothless’s curious, cat-like, personality was very nice to see and I enjoy the little goober.

Hobbit Trilogy - Smaug

I know The Hobbit trilogy gets a lot of shit but I can’t help but to like it for a bunch of different reasons. One of those being Smaug. Look I know every other dragon on this list has been actually either sweet or they’re not really mean but I just had to like this motherfucker.

Foremost I absolutely adore his design, I think he also has another great and amazing dragon design. The sheer eyes scene at the end of ‘An Unexpected Journey”, had lil ol kid me wiggling in my fucking seat. He’s so fucking big (even though he’s one of the smaller ones in the universe) and seeing how easily he tore about Laketown in meer seconds was terrifying-- but also super cool. His look and movements are very fucking creepy too. The way he shifts around when talking to Bilbo when he first discovers him, it’s very clear it is a predator stalking his prey. He knows he’s intimidating and uses that to his advantage; keeping his movements slow so his “victims” can get the idea that he is this massive, undefeatable being. He’s proper and respectable, his ego and pride getting the best of him because he knows there’s nothing they can do to hurt him; they can’t possibly kill him. Then when he’s finally angered, his stature changes and he begins using his body like the weapon it’s designed to be. He’s agitated and swats with his tail and tries biting a whole lot more because at this point he doesn’t give a fuck.

Smaug is such a douche of a dragon too, he embodies the typical dragon instincts (wanting his big ol pile of dwarf gold) whilst being a snarky bitch about it. He’s both archetypes of dragons in one, all knowing and an asshole, who doesn’t care who the fuck he’s got to hurt to get to his fucking gold. He toys with Bilbo, simultaneously warning him of Thorin’s downfall but also making him fear the things to come. Then when he finally sees Thorin again, he eggs him on-- knowing how easily he gets under his skin, knowing that really he can’t do anything to hurt him; he does the same thing with Bard. He uses his words to pick and pry at people’s head because he’s got a superiority complex; he is a high being, why should he listen to anyone else? I love how strong his ego was, how much he really gave no shit about anyone else and how even visceral his death was-- like watching a flame finally die out.

GOT/HOTD - Rhaegal, Viserion, Drogon, Syrax, Caraxes (spoilers btw)

What you’ve all been waiting for!!! So funnily enough, I did come into the GOT scene pretty late (around s6-ish) and I really enjoyed lots of things about the series-- especially the dragons.

I adore the design of these boys so much-- they huge, different colors, spiky and look like they can (and very much will) turn your ass to dust. But at the same time we can see their thoughts and emotions through their eyes, how they process the words from Dany or the emotions from others. I truly think they have a level of empathy, besides with Dany, and their little softening expressions as they recognize those emotions and then go about doing their dragon business.

The depiction of dragons in GOT is really one of my favorite, because just like humans they have bonds, whether it’s between their rider or even each other. Rhaegal, Viserion, and Drogon being Dany’s children was so sweet to me because even through the struggles they recognized her as their rider, their mother and wanted to protect her and they also see each other as family. They’re a unit! It did hurt badly seeing their reactions to Viserion’s death and then Drogon’s was painful because their own little family fell right a part through their fingers. We see how badly Dany takes it but also Drogon who loses his brother’s and his mother in the process. He’s hurting just as bad but there is no comfort as he still wants to follow his mom to the end, and there’s no sympathies for him from anyone. I like to think him burning the throne was a way for him to process his ever growing grief, destroying the thing that had destroyed the only family he had ever known.

Okay so with HOTD I am very happy to see dragons back again, like bro I missed them so much.

I love the relationship that Syrax and Rhaenyra have, it’s so sweet and perfectly mimics how Dany was with her children. It’s very clear the dedication the two of them have between each other and she easily picks up on Rhaenyra’s emotions. I love Syrax’s color, although there is something about her face shape that I don’t really like, she’s a beautiful dragon.

Then there’s Caraxes (i apologize for the bias that is about to come out). I fucking adore Caraxes, his design is literally everything, like god he’s so fucking badass. The blood red color, the horns; truly a magnificent dragon indeed. I read somewhere that he’s deformed which is why the way he looks like how he does and also sound like that and I still think its amazing. He works with his elongated body, using his long neck like he’s a snake. He’s so fucking beautiful, I adore him.

It’s very clear he’s got the same strong bond with Daemon and he’s clearly very protective of him. Perhaps they bond in a way because they both feel out of place in the family (dragon lineage for Caraxes) because they’re so different from everyone else.

In conclusion - i think got/hotd dragons and their riders should go off and chill on beaches and be happy because they deserve it.

Closing

Now if you made it this far (or just scrolled all the way down), I congratulate you; you made it through me losing my entire fucking mind. Truly I haven’t had a big time to talk about dragons like this in a while or in such detail and if you read I hope you enjoyed my thoughts. There are so many cool and interesting things about these creatures and I always and happy to see all different sorts of approaches to them. Anyways ramble over.

#rct squeaks #loser idiot chattering #as you can see i have strong feelings about dragons

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