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(re)starting over again | kth; 1

plot | Your four-year relationship with Taehyung was going well and strong. Until he was involved in a car accident, resulting to him losing some memories. By some, it means everything that happened five years ago. Things he remember? His friends, his bakeshop, and his ex girlfriend from the past. With that, you tried to keep up, restarting over again.

words | 4.3k

genres | fluff, angst, amnesia au

pairing | taehyung x reader

warnings | mentions of blood, leukemia, amnesia, dui, oc is a nurse

note | unedited. like, raw writing. i’ll edit whenever i can. a lot of marvel. author’s note is below.

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“I’ll be out at six in the evening.”

your eyes scanned the list, which contains the schedule and time duties of the nurses of the whole hospital. it’s currently your fifteen minute break and you are spending it on your phone, talking to your boyfriend.

“great. i’ll wait by the usual spot.” taehyung said.

“okay.” you smiled and looked on your wristwatch. “the shop’s not open yet?”

“it’s already open since two hours ago. a little crowded actually. many students are coming since we got new pastries to serve.”

“well, maybe you should go back to work.” you quipped.

you heard taehyung chuckled, “nah, jimin can handle it. i am talking with someone important.”

you can feel your cheeks warming up with his words. although it’s been four years since your relationship began, taehyung never failed to make you fall for him just like the first time. he try his best to always put you first, above anything else.

“did you have your lunch?” he asked.

“if you consider tuna sandwich as lunch, then yes. i already had my lunch.” you replied with a sarcastic tone.

“take care of yourself. let’s eat something better later, okay? how about—”

“hey, y/n. it’s jimin. sorry for interrupting but i need your boyfriend outside. bunch of middle school kids are in the bakeshop right now. i can’t deal with them alone.”

you cannot help but to laugh when jimin cut taehyung off. you can hear your boyfriend in the background, shouting at his best friend. taehyung then got his phone back.

“sorry about that, love. i guess, i’ll go back to work now.” he mumbled, sounding annoyed. “boooooring.”

“oh, come on.” you laughed again. “i’ll get back to work too. my break’s ending in two minutes. love you.”

“love you too. i’ll message you before i get there.”

“okay, okay.”

the call ended with you, smiling like a fool. you kept your phone back to your scrubs’ pocket. you continued the rest of the day going rounds to your young patients. you work in the pediatric unit in the hospital. almost everyday, you meet different kids with different health issues. they usually stay for a couple of days or weeks. you only have one patient who was there before you even worked in this hospital.

“you look happy today, nurse y/n.” your patient, naeun, said.

she is the patient you have ever since you got here. the little girl is suffering from a rare form of leukemia. but, you never see any loneliness from her as she was always greeting you with her sweet smile.

“i’m always happy, naeun.” you told her while checking her vitals.

“but you are smiling much wider today.” she replied.

“that’s because someone made me smile today.”

the kid’s eyes widened as her lips formed to a small circle, “oh! oh! is it your prince? the one who’s in your phone?”

the prince was of course, your boyfriend. there was a time when naeun saw you phone’s lockscreen, which is you and taehyung in a halloween party. you were wearing costumes as disney characters and taehyung chose to have the casual prince charming look. seeing this, naeun believed that you are a princess who works as a nurse who also have a prince. you don’t want to ruin the kid’s imagination. so, you just let her think that way. plus, you find it endearing.

“yes, naeun. it’s because my prince is treating me well.”

“how’s the wedding planning?”

you looked to your co-worker and best friend, jisoo, while cleaning up things in your locker. you noticed her letting out a small smile as her eyes shined with excitement. she sat on the bench, changing her work shoes to more comfortable one.

“it feels stressful but exciting at the same time. we went to a garden yesterday for the wedding venue and it was so magical! it’s like a fairy place.” she shared. “also, yours and the other bridesmaids’ gowns will be sent out tomorrow. also, taehyung’s and other groomsmen’s suits.”

“finally! i get to wear something other than my scrubs.” you quipped, making the two of you laugh.

as you sat beside her to change you footwear too, she asked, “how about you?”

“how about me?” you asked her back, pretending that you don’t know what she’s talking about. but when she gave you the you know what i am talking about look, you gave up on acting dumb. “we’re fine. me and taehyung already talk about our future plans for a long time. so, i am not really not that eager to get married. i’m just waiting for him to pop the question.”

you gave jisoo a reassuring smile. you are not in a hurry anyway. if taehyung won’t propose any time now, it’s fine. but if he pops that question, you are already sure what to answer. you don’t mind when or where he will do it. as long as you have each other, you’re fine.

“oh, i wish i have your patience.” jisoo chuckled.

when her phone rang, she excused herself to answer it. you also noticed your phone beeped because of a notification. it was from taehyung.

love

sorry left the shop a little late. i’ll be on my way :)

you replied a simple ok with a smile. gathering up your bag, you see jisoo all prepared too.

“joon’s already waiting outside. how about tae?” she asked, since she don’t want to leave you alone.

“he’s on his way. it’s fine, i’ll wait by the shed.” you told her.

you two walked out of the hospital together, waving goodbye to your other colleagues who’s still in duty. both of you no longer wear your scrubs, just some everyday clothes. you saw namjoon’s car resting near the waiting shed, where you and taehyung will meet. jisoo hugged him while you just waved at him.

“are you sure i can leave you here? we can still wait here with you. right, babe?” jisoo turned on namjoon who nodded.

“it’s fine.” you repeated. “just go home already. get some rest!”

you smiled at her. namjoon gave you a small bye before letting jisoo inside the car. before leaving, she rolled down the window and waved at you.

“text me when you get home!” she yelled as they got away.

alone in the well-lit shed, you sat on one of its bench. you looked at your watch, it’s ten minutes past six. you thought that taehyung may be close now since the shop is just a twenty minute drive to the hospital. although it’s not that far, he does not want you walking alone. so, he still picks you up. sitting there, you just watched on whatever passed by you. people, cars, and the dark sky with the moon glowing. since you’re still in the hospital’s waiting shed, you can see two ambulance leaving. it lets out a loud siren with its swinging red lights. after a few minutes, you felt a cold blow of wind, making you hug yourself. reaching for your bag to get your cardigan, your phone rang. it’s your boyfriend.

you accepted the call, “hey, love. i’m here in the usual—”

“hey, y/n. it’s sungho from the paramedic team. taehyung just got in an accident.”

you immediately stood up, dropping your bag that was on your lap. your throat ran dry. you felt your heart beating much faster than you had seconds ago.

“we have him right now with us. we’re on our way to the hospital.” sungho ended the call.

you tried to stay calm since that is what you were trained to do. but failed after you saw two ambulance coming back to the hospital. you picked up your bag and ran back to the hospital. you see other nurses you know waiting by the emergency room. julia, one of your friends, looked at you, surprised and confused by your teary expression.

“why—”

“taehyung!” you cried when you saw your boyfriend on a spinal board from the ambulance, with no signs of awakeness.

you paused when you witnessed blood coming from his forehead. you tried to go near him, calling him, but as they moved him to a bed to the emergency room. everything happened quickly that you ended up standing there in shock while tears are rolling down your cheeks.

“here, eat something.”

jisoo handed you a paper bag but you just shook your head, rejecting the food. you’re calmer now but still in shock. it’s been two hours since you saw taehyung being pushed to the emergency room. it took minutes before you moved on the spot you were at a while ago. julie kept you company after she aided the other patient. she tried to calm you and messaged jisoo about what happened. next thing you know, your best friend is hugging you. now, you three are waiting by the emergency room. you and jisoo sat on the cold, metal row of chair while namjoon stood on the other side.

“maybe you should go home first, i’ll go with you. namjoon can wait here for taehyung.” jisoo assured you but you just shook your head again.

“i... i can wait. i’m not hungry. i don’t feel like sleeping too.” you answered, almost emotionless. but a single tear rolled down your cheek again. “there’s a lot of blood from his head, jisoo.”

your best friend felt sorry on how stressed you are. she hugged you and whispered it will be okay over and over. she pat your back gently to calm you again.

“how are you, love?”

no one answered when you got in taehyung’s private room. it’s been four days and your boyfriend is still unconscious. there’s a bandage wrapped around his forehead. he also had small scratches and wounds on his face. fortunately, no bones were affected. only his head. the doctor said that he may possibly wake up any moment. the driver of the car crashed on taehyung’s car was drunk and speeding by a red light when it happened. the guy is currently in police custody.

since almost everyone in the hospital knows the of you, your other co-nurses are willing to take cover of your duties. you spent those four days taking care of taehyung, just in his room. jimin took over their bakeshop during daytime and drop by the hospital at night to let you take a rest. jisoo and namjoon would bring food time by time and stay for a bit after their works.

“hello, y/n.” jimin greeted you, just walking out the comfort room. he checked the time. “it’s still early. did you even sleep?”

you tried to smile, “i tried. i can’t. so i thought of just staying here.”

“oh, okay. i’ll go get some coffee. do you want some?” he asked.

“no, i’m fine. thanks.” you replied.

jimin left the room, wearing his cap. once again, you tried to talk with taehyung. you heard that talking can help to wake him up. you told him about your day. it’s not really eventful since you got nothing to do. but to go back home and hospital.

“i miss you, love.” you tried not to cry, biting your inner cheek. “please wake up.”

you ended up napping, resting your head on taehyung’s bed. you slowly opened your eyes when you felt his hand moving from yours. you looked up from him, he’s awake.

“love?” you called him and he looked at you blankly.

you immediately clicked the button that was placed to call the nurse. taehyung just followed you with his blank stare.

“how do you feel?” you asked me as you wait for the nurse.

“who are you?”

your smile immediately dropped as you heard that. a doctor and nurse came in and checked his vital signs. you were left quiet on the side. you tried to process what taehyung said.

he got his head hurt, y/n. maybe it’s trauma. you tried to talk yourself about it. the door opened again and you looked up. jimin is visibly shocked as he held his coffee cup tighter, spilling a little.

“jimin.” you heard taehyung said.

the doctor asked for you to talk with her outside when they finished. before walking out, you see jimin approaching taehyung.

“how are you, tae?”

“what... what happened?” taehyung asked back.

jimin and you looked at each other before you follow the doctor.

“he doesn’t seem to remember everything.” you muttered. “i mean, he remembers his friend. but he don’t remember me nor the accident.”

“it can be because of the head injury he had. if that’s the case, we should run tests to know.”

“what.. what happened?” taehyung asked his best friend.

he barely remembers anything. his last memory is having a drink with jimin after the first opening of their bakeshop. his head hurts. when he opened his eyes minutes ago and saw a girl beside him, he tried to call her the name he remembers.

lily

but the girl did not move. he tried to move his hand and that’s when he saw you moved. you seemed surprised too when you see him awake. taehyung thought that maybe you were in the wrong room. but when you asked him, how is he. he can’t help but to ask who are you.

“you got to a car accident nights ago. you were asleep for four days.” jimin explained.

“car accident? did i drove drunk?”

“no, the guy who crashed on you was. you were just on your way to pick y/n.”

taehyung squinted his eyes as he tried to remember the name, “y/n?”

jimin looked at him, “your girlfriend.”

“no, lily is my girlfriend.” taehyung answered with a smile. “me and lily have been going out for almost six months.”

“that was five years ago, tae. you and y/n have been together for four years now. namjoon introduced you to each other in the shop.” jimin tried to talk calmly.

“but we just opened the shop.”

jimin can feel his heart breaking on what is happening now. it breaks for you and taehyung. he saw how stressed you were for the last four days and now he feel bad that his best friend seems to forget events in his life. jimin reached for his phone in his pocket to show it to taehyung.

“it’s september 1, 2021.” jimin pointed out.

it’s 2021 and the last thing he remembers was back in 2016.

“the doctor said that it’s dissociative or selective amnesia. because of the accident, he forgot certain memories of his life. based on what jimin told me, he forgot everything after their bakeshop’s opening. he... he basically forgot about me. us.”

you sighed before resting your head low. namjoon, jisoo, and jimin looked at you in pity and sadness. you wanted to cry again. you wanted to ask why does it have to happen this way. but you know you won’t get answers. you look at taehyung, who’s sleeping peacefully.

“will his memories return?” namjoon asked.

“no one knows. they said that there are cases that they come back fully or bits by bits. there are also cases that it stays like that.” you replied with a threatening sob.

you eyed on jisoo, who seems ready to hug you anytime now. but you tried to smile and just shook your head. minutes later, you spoke again.

“also, we can go home tomorrow. jimin will help me with taehyung and our stuff. i took a month long leave. so i can take care of him.”

you sighed again before looking at them, “thank you so much, guys. everything meant a lot.”

each one of them gave you a warm hug. in every hug, you felt like you’re giving in as your knees felt weaker. jisoo hugged you the longest.

“it felt like we’re starting over again.”

“welcome home!”

as soon as you opened the house’s door, taehyung spotted picture frames of him with you. he seems really happy with you on those images. he tried to identify each picture.

“don’t worry. you don’t have to force yourself to remember it.”

he looked at his side. it was you, staring at the pictures too with a small smile. jimin, on the other hand, dropped your bags straight to your bedroom.

“do you want to eat first or take a rest?” you asked taehyung.

“rest.” he replied.

you nodded and walked him to your shared bedroom. seeing a single, large bed, taehyung can’t help but to feel uncomfortable. he knows that you two used to sleeping together. but he remember nothing with you.

“i’ll go sleep in the guestroom for the meantime. sorry, i still haven’t move my stuffs. i’ll move them tomorrow.” you told him, like you’re reading his mind.

“thank... thank you.” taehyung said awkwardly.

“no problem, lo— taehyung.”

you walked out awkwardly, leaving him alone with jimin. taehyung sat on the bed and he can smell the mix of his perfume and a lavender scent. he was removing his shoes when jimin stood in front of him.

“y/n is nice, okay? don’t be shy to ask for help or talk to her if you want to know something. you guys will get along well.” jimin assured him. “if you want to talk to me, just give me a call anytime. here’s your phone.”

he handed him a model of phone that he just saw for the first time, “my phone?”

“yep, you bought that like a year ago. it’s almost the same as your old phone. but it’s bigger.” jimin explained and taehyung nodded. “i’ll have breakfast here with you tomorrow. so you won’t feel awkward, okay?”

taehyung nodded quietly. he feels like a kid. but he’s thankful to have jimin with him. also, you. even though he doesn’t really know who you are except that you are his girlfriend.

“so, why did lily left me?”

taehyung sat on one of the empty chairs in the bakeshop. it’s been two weeks since he went home from the hospital. so far, living with you is like living with a housemate except you cook him something to eat everyday and help him when his head hurts. he felt less awkward with you. it’s not like he consider you as his friend. but he finds you caring and nice, just like jimin said. now, he’s with his friend, who picked him up, since he feel bored staying at home with no one to talk to except you. he’s still shy on chatting with you. plus, he have questions he knows that he can’t ask you.

“she did not leave you, tae. you are the one who asked for a breakup.” jimin replied while wiping the counter.

“that’s not true.” taehyung said. “how can i breakup with her? i mean, you know how much i like her.”

“actually,” jimin looked up to him. “you did not tell me why. you literally just knocked on my door one evening, drunk, to tell me you broke up with her.”

“ugh, i hate myself! she was perfect!” taehyung grumbled like a kid.

jimin looks at him, who seemed offended, “it’s not nice to talk like that. you literally have a girlfriend.”

“that i barely know.” taehyung replied carelessly.

“did you even try to know her?” his friend snapped back. “you know, tae, i understand that you are in another timeline. but don’t you think that it’s a little mean to talk about y/n like she’s just a stranger. do you even want to know her?”

taehyung can feel that jimin was mad and the guy only got mad a few times. looking back on the last two weeks he had with you, he can see how nice you are to him. you always make sure to make him comfortable with you. you give him space without even him asking. he notices how you serve him his favorite meals every time. you did not force him to remember anything. maybe there’s a reason why you’re with him.

“yes.”

“how are you?”

“i can still do it.” you replied as you fall on your bed.

jisoo is on the other line. she just finished her shift while you just finished moving your stuff from your former bedroom to the guest room.

“how’s taehyung?”

you rolled on your side, “still quiet. although he asks when he needs something or thanks me when i helped him, he still didn’t asked about us. maybe he’s not interested.”

you heard your friend sighed, “maybe he’s shy.”

“i don’t know. i’ll just wait. it’s fine.” you told her. “let’s talk about your wedding! do you have the date already?”

“oh, yup. we’re thinking of the last week of next month. by the way, did your clothes came?”

“oh, i ha—”

you paused when you heard a knock from your front door. you stood up from your bed and walked to the door. you’re not expecting anyone. so, you thought maybe it’s the package. but as soon as you opened the door, you decided to end the call with jisoo.

“tae? what are you doing here?” you asked him, confused. “i gave you the key, didn’t i?”

taehyung scratched the back of his neck timidly, “yeah. i... i just don’t want to barge in like an intruder.”

five years ago, he lived with jimin in an apartment. so, even though he have his own key to this house, he still thinks that it’s not his. it’s someone’s home. you and taehyung only bought this house months ago after saving for it.

“well, you’re not an intruder when you have your key.” you quipped. “come in.”

you opened the door wider to let him in. and for the first time since you went home from the hospital, you got to be closer to him. a simple brush of his arm to yours is enough to make you miss him more. even though it was just a split second, it was able to make you miss hugging and cuddling with him again.

“did you cook something for dinner?” taehyung asked as you locked the door.

you turned around and saw him in the living room, sitting on the couch while holding the remote.

“i thought you’re spending the night in jimin’s. so i did not prepare anything.” you replied truthfully.

taehyung eyed you, “how about you? what will you eat for dinner?”

your heart swells. it’s a simple and casual concern. but, it came from taehyung. it reminds you of the last time you talk to him through a phone call. he always points out to prioritize your health. you looked away from him as you felt your cheeks warming.

“maybe i’ll just order something? like, chinese food?” you answered.

“great. make whatever you’ll order two. let’s eat together.” he said, looking back on the television.

“how about jimin?”

“he forgot he got a date for tonight. so he drops me here before going to his date.”

you giggled with thought of jimin forgetting his date again. while you make a call to order food, taehyung watched whatever’s playing in front of him. the truth is, jimin don’t have a date tonight. taehyung asked his best friend to drive him, since he can’t drive for now, after closing the shop. after that talk with jimin, he went on the day, thinking if he should spend more time with you. maybe if he will know more about you, he’ll understand everything. he knows he have issues. so, he wonders how you stayed together, even bought a house.

“oh, you’re watching that.” you sat on the other single sofa, meters away from taehyung.

taehyung noticed what’s playing, it’s a marvel movie. he knows because of the characters. but the movie seems unfamiliar. some of the characters he knows looks a bit different.

“what movie is this?” he asked with pure confusion.

“avengers: infinity war. we watched it in the cinemas together.” you shared.

“i don’t remember.” he looks at you apologetically. but you just gave him a smile. “the last one i remember is civil war.”

“it’s fine. if you want to, we can binge watch those marvel movies. from doctor strange to black widow. then, shang-chi.” you offered.

hearing this, taehyung had a surprised expression. it seems like he missed a lot for five years. he felt like a steve rogers but with an amnesia. on the other hand, you find him adorable with his reaction. you two already watched every movie and mini-series in marvel except the recent ones because of the accident. but you don’t mind watching it all again. you love it. of course, you love him too.

“maybe we should watch three to four movies each day to catch up.” taehyung suggested as he munched on his food.

you just nodded as you placed the last piece of egg roll on his rice. you know he likes it too much that he ends up eating almost all of it. taehyung thanked you before continuing. you two are watching doctor strange.

“what do you think?” he waited for your answer.

“whatever you want, tae. i still have two weeks before getting back to work. i love marvel.” you told him, making him smile.

it’s the first time he have someone with him to watch these movies. jimin found it boring while namjoon is more of a dc fan. lily have other interests. so, taehyung feels great to have you with him.

you cleaned up after the post-credit scene. taehyung insisted on helping you even though you don’t want him moving around. you two ended up sitting on the couch.

“how’s your head? are you getting head aches?” you checked on him.

taehyung shook his head, “it’s good. just felt a little dizzy while in the bakeshop.”

you nodded silently. that’s when silence took over for a few minutes before taehyung cleared his throat.

“y/n, i think we should hang around more often.” he told you and he swore he saw your eyes shine brighter.

“really? you want that?” you asked him.

“yeah. like, we’re together for four years. i want to know why.”

he waited for you to say something but when he looks at you, you just gave him a smile.

a lot sweeter this time.

a/n: this one is a sudden idea. sorry. i know i haven’t posted anything for months but i can’t let this one out of my head. it was supposed to be a one shot but it’s too long to my liking. i had to cut it off. second part is on the way. your thoughts would mean a lot. thank you. take care, loves <3

ps. i can make a taglist if you want to.

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