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itrulyhatethisworld · 21 days

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i just wanna cut everyone off and rot away in my bed

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shimmering-ocean · 2 years

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#i don’t understand #I had a decent day #I had one of the best nights I’ve had in a while #yet somehow #I feel like I’m going to die #and I’m feeling just so lonely #and to top it all off I’m dealing with intrusive thoughts saying what’s the point #delete later

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year

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Critical thinking failure: did not consider all the options.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #season 1 #wei wuxian #it’s hilarious to me how fast wwx jumps to ‘omg was there something going on between lwj and mxy #and thats why he’s acting like this?’#because *clearly there is no other alternate explainations!#wwx believe me; mxy was your kinnie all the way #but in the same way one adopts a fanon interpretation as an alter #LWJ would clock the discrepancies so fast you would need to get a neck brace. In the least sexy way #wwx really lucked out in getting the body of a guy everyone already thought was a bit odd #but had lwj *known* mxy? yeah the song wouldnt have even been needed #oh man…now I’m a bit sad thinking about lwj spending time with the wwx impersonators #just hoping to feel a little bit of familiarity…a little less lonely

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ropebuny · 5 months

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I want a dad so bad I’m going to cry and throw a tantrum. I don’t want to be an adult, I want to stop thinking and be taken care of like a kid & feel safe and cared for again

#been really needing and craving the attention of a strong and caring man a lot more than usual lately #I think it’s because I’ve been so stressed because of school and exams this past week #idk I’m just feeling so. lonely and sad and #I really miss having a father figure in my life #and it’s been so hard lately I just keep distancing myself from everyone because I’m overloaded with work #and idk. I just want to lay down in someone’s arms and feel okay again

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podcast-hemocytoblast · 8 months

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I think something that often gets overlooked about the Lonely is that it isn’t just the fear of being rejected, abandoned, and unloved.

It is that, but it’s also the heavy sense of dread that settles in your bones when you realize that whatever danger you’re in, you have to deal with it on your own. It’s the realization that no one is around to hear you scream and that no one is coming to save you. It’s the feeling of calling emergency services (911, 119, etc.) and asking the operator when help is coming, only to be told that no one is coming, because they’re all tied up on other calls right now, so it may be another hour or so before anyone gets to you. It’s the visceral terror you feel when you finally realize that the help you need is never going to come, or if it does, they won’t be there until it’s already too late for you. It’s realizing that you’ll never see your loved ones again, and wondering if anyone will ever find your body, if anyone is going to care that you’re gone, if anyone is ever going to find out what happened to you, if anyone is even going to realize that you’re dead.

#tma #the magnus archives #tma lonely #the lonely tma #the lonely #cw death #cw isolation #cw depressive thoughts #ask to tag #i feel like the lonely gets sort of watered down a lot and tends to be portrayed as depressing or tragic but not really horrific #and it’s not necessarily bad but i just think there tends to be a lot of missed potential in depictions/descriptions of the lonely #maybe it’s just bc i’m schizoid af so i don’t really think of isolation the same way that other people do #in the sense that a lot of the things other people find unpleasant/scary about being alone….just sound kind of nice to me tbh #idk.

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daffi-990 · 24 days

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Seven(ish) Sentence Sunday ✍️

Tagged by @wikiangela 😘

Haven’t had the brain capacity to get much writing done since Friday, but I did manage to tippity type a little something something for LA Lonely 🏙️ . So have some of Buck’s inner self deprecating thoughts.

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As the weekend rolls into Monday, Buck tries not to think about Eddie but somehow the guy has burrowed under his skin, an itch that Buck can’t scratch. He finds himself doing a double take at every fit, 6 foot brunette man that he encounters while on a call, both disappointed and relieved that they aren’t who he’s hoping for.

Not that he’s hoping to run into Eddie again. The guy didn’t leave his number or take Buck’s, and Buck’s been playing this game for so long he knows what that means. Because Buck is only good for one night, maybe a weekend if he’s lucky. No one wants to take a chance on him.

He’s used to it, so he doesn’t understand why he can’t get Eddie out of his head. The sex was good - incredible actually - and Eddie was hot. And kind. And his smile could light up an entire room. And Buck really needed to get a grip.

Eddie had his fun and then he left. Just like everyone else.

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Also sorry if I forgot anyone .. there’s been a few url changes and it’s gotten a bit confusing 🫤

#daffi writes #wip: la lonely #I wanna finish the last chapter of rivals soooo bad but the smutty beans have taken a break to recharge #doesn’t help that I’ve also been feeling pretty shitty overall these past few days #(I’m okay - just period hormones and a stupid cold)#anyway .. I’m enjoying this little fic #it’s almost at 5K and I still have so much I wanna cram in haha #can’t seem to just write this happened then this .. no I gotta dive into the details and stretch things out #*long suffering sigh*#😅#buddie wip #buddie #also if anyone is concerned: no Eddie did not just have his fun and leave #he is very much enamoured by Buck #allllll will be revealed in the end

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cats-and-cacti · 7 months

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Thinking about Roman Roy and how he had no one to hug at the funeral and how he was taught that love is violence from a young age so he went and got himself beat up the very next day and how he didn’t think he looked tough enough so Kendall hugged him so tight it burst his stitches and he was bleeding from his wound and that was love to Roman I'm sick to my fucking stomach

#it’s like. have u ever been so lonely that u take the worst treatment just to feel like someone is close to u #that’s Roman on a constant loop forever #he had the most fucked up arch they all did but he did I’m screaming #roman roy #succession #hbo succession #kendall roy

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sciderman · 3 months

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You said that if you dated Peter or Wade it would make you miserable. Which– Okay fair, Wade does have a history of purposely hurting the people he loves.

But what about Peter? Why do you think dating him would make you miserable?

because I’ll always know I had the option to climb a 6’8 cyborg and I passed that up for a sweaty little twunk that I perpetually have to remind to bathe (sorry peter)

#I don’t know. I don’t think peter is good boyfriend material. I think his insecurities would get exhausting.#Wade has bottomless patience. me… I don’t know. I don’t think I could. I’ve got my own stuff going on. I don’t want a Project.#peter is definitely a project. and he needs someone with shed loads of patience and perseverance.#me I just. I wanna have a good time. so. come to me my big beautiful time traveller. whisk me away.#take me to the beach. you can disappear after I don’t mind I’m not needy. just spend a beautiful romantic week with me.#sci speaks #I don’t really know what kind of person I’m compatible with really actually.#all my relationships have been. pretty short.#and I don’t think it’s any fault of my own really. and I don’t feel any loss over them at all. like at all. I wish I did. but I don’t.#a sci has so very thankfully never felt heartbreak.#but it makes me kind of question what kind of person I am when it comes to this sort of thing.#because I really don’t know.#I don’t know if I want commitment. I don’t even know if I want sex these days.#I … weirdly… am so devoid of yearning these days. like I feel content right now on my own. I don’t even feel lonely.#I used to yearn but I think I’ve moved past it. and I kind of just want to have a good time.#and that doesn’t even . involve a relationship or anything anymore. like I don’t think I want one actually. it feels like I’m Over it.#it’s kind of great because I’ve never felt so calm in a long time. all because I decided that I don’t. actually Need anything.#I don’t need anything more than what I have. and that’s brought me rest after So Long being restless.#but if a massive time traveller came and whisked me away on sexy adventures how could I say no

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itrulyhatethisworld · 23 days

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i wish i could stab myself over and over again

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novelconcepts · 7 months

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My brain will not let me process the whole of Usher until it throughly, and I mean throughly, analyzes everything about Juno. 😂 I absolutely loved her character. And she wasn't even really the point!

Oh my god, Juno is the best. I loooove Ruth Codd, I love her deliveries so much, and to have this outsider to the family who went through hell, thought she was getting the fairy-tale ending, and then…just got more bullshit piled on. Damn, dude. The fact that she just keeps trying even though these kids (almost all of whom are her elders) give her NOTHING in return. And she still shows up for them! She’s one of the only characters I sympathize with through the show, and I loved her whole “nah, man, I’ll take three years of hell over more time with you” thing. She’s brilliant.

#ask #the fall of the house of usher #tfothou spoilers #I’m not familiar enough with the details of Poe to know if there’s a Juno in his writing (I assume there is)#I immediately jumped to the Juno of Roman mythology instead #the wife who takes absolutely no shit. who is married to an absolute nightmare and who rises above #but mostly I just love how Codd makes her this hilarious relatable young woman #who genuinely feels for these people even though they treat her like dogshit #she’s so lonely and she wants so badly to have a family and I love her

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last-in-line-for-hell · 2 years

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Wei Wuxian’s relationship with Jin Ling is one of my favorite parts of MDZS.

Yeah Jin Ling is reasonably wary, reasonably angry, after all he’s been told time and time again that Wei Wuxian murdered both of his parents in cold blood. But then time passes and the picture that people drew of Wei Wuxian doesn’t quite match up with the real thing.

Here we have a kid who is positively aching for affection, who was raised to be standoffish and even cruel to those around him if it meant getting further ahead, who has no friends but a dog, and yet, we see how much he changes, all for the better, simply by having Wei Wuxian come into his life.

Then Wei Wuxian saves Jin Ling again and again and again. Then Wei Wuxian makes sure to teach him, and listen to him. Then Wei Wuxian speaks to him with unmistakable affection, freely given.

Jin Ling still has his thorns, in the end, but he can’t help but drift to Wei Wuxian’s side, and Wei Wuxian in turn will always keep his arms open, happy to have Jin Ling in his life as more than just a remnant of his beloved shijie’s memory.

#mdzs textpost not art #listen I will forever cry about their relationship #wwx is so fucking good with kids man #JYL AND JZX both in the afterlife watching WWX come across JL: ‘oh thank god’#JL before WWX: always angry and lonely and feeling not good enough #JL after WWX: has friends and affection and humility and confidence #I’m just saying #there was a reason WWX’s shidis adored him #and a reason the juniors love him too even if they tease him #JL is not immune to WWX’s freely given affection and teachings 🙏#this month is just gonna be me talking about WWX and his relationships at random huh #maybe one day someone will tell JL about the truth of his parents’ deaths #bc it’s honestly disrespectful to JYL to take away her sacrifice and autonomy by saying she was murdered

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nuppu-nuppu · 11 months

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Ignore if you don’t want to read about me being stupid once again

#pls dont read if you cant handle venting and whining #once again i am here to say that i am the loneliest person alive and i feel like i can’t grasp the basic consept of friendship and do it lol #like idk how to be friends #i feel like i will forever be sad and lonely #and i know everyone will say you can talk to me and i know that but i’ve just been by myself for so long that i don’t remember how to have #actual conversations with people i feel like i am disconnected from reality #i feel like i am an extremely unlikeable person and that’s why i was all alone in highschool and idk i am oversharing on the internet again #because it’s the only place i kind of feel safe doing it #pls take care of yourselves first before comfoting me or anything im sorry i sound very pathetic #how do i start living again #how does one live anyway #im just in my head all the time #this was supposed to be hot girl summer but it’s once again summertime sadness #im so stupid!!!#im so anxious and depressed that i dont know what to do with myself #im so sorry for oversharing i have a therapist dont worry im kind of taking care of myself #but the eternal loneliness just wont let me go #idk how to be a person anymore #i’m just sad #thinking of going to a church and pretend to be a believer so i could have a community again lol

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purplecatghostposts · 5 months

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Obsessed with the fact that while Hoody does wield a gun at a point in the series, his actual main weapons are a fuckin’ lead pipe and his fists. He may operate behind the scenes through most of the series but the second he doesn’t have Masky/Tim to fight for him, he’s not hesitating to beat the shit out of someone.

He full on WACKS Alex with no hesitation and drops him like a stone in Entry 67. He beats the shit out of Alex in the tunnel in Entry 76. He throws some punches at Tim during their fight in Entry 83.

Hoody seems so cold and calculating for most of his TTA Videos and appearances, but put him in any situation where he’s forced to make split decisions and he does not take long to choose violence.

#marble hornets #back to remind you that my Brian Brainrot never quite ends #I just need to get inside his head. what’s going on there #there’s so many sides to him. he’s ruthless. he’s protective. he’s cold. there’s something sad and lonely about him #one of my favorite Hoody entries is what I think is Entry 68?#Where it shows where he lives in the woods. and it’s so fucking sad.#you live like this??#it’s not even cleaned up a little. even if it’s just one of many places he lives in it’s like #you still spend time there. and if you’re willing to live like that for weeks and months and years on end without making an effort to clean #it can speak to your mental state #I dunno maybe I’m projecting but there’s a difference between an organized clutter and just a disastrous one #you feel?#I’m rambling #SB Speaks

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a-beautiful-fool · 3 months

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#i just feel so fucking lonely right now #like i’m going through a best friend breakup #my sibling never talk to me and they all kinda do their own things and i’m the odd one out #i literally only have friends on this app #but like. i don’t really have anything to show for #and maybe i am unlikeable and the only reason people on this app follow me is because of false perceptions of me #and like. literally everyone i know is in love #like i just feel so lonely sometimes

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lavellander · 1 year

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really enchanted by the idea of morrigan making herself the aforementioned stuffed animal, but it’s entirely anatomically correct and based on a friend she made while she was shapeshifted as that particular animal

#if I’m feeling really spicy maybe it was based on a friend she made who either migrated away or died. hm #also she knows flemeth would chastise her for having it (or possibly get rid of it) so she lies and says it was an exercise in memorizing #an animal to shapeshift into it better. or something to that effect #I just hve so many thoughts that ultimately boil down to wishing morrigan’s childhood had been less lonely for her

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kissmefriendly · 1 year

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On a slightly more serious note, I just wanna post this before the final entry, not counting the epilogue. I’m so, so thankful for Dracula Daily. It’s been an absolute blast beginning to end, reading discourse, seeing the jokes and memes and all the art, reading theories and reactions. And getting to be apart of that! Reading this book again in this format was a hell of an experience but the fact that I didn’t do it alone, I don’t know. We’ve all gotten to experience this book in a new way in real time together. I love that. And I hope that it won’t be just a one-off event, either. And even if it is? But this? It’s been wonderful. So, thank you to everyone for collectively going nuts over a 130 year old novel. Thank you for posting and making those artworks and memes and analyses. Reminds you you’re human and not stuck and alone.

#sorry for being emotional lol #but seriously #I didn’t exactly make new friends or connections #I’m not exactly someone people like seeing post etc etc #but you know what? I got to be in the same room as a bunch of strangers while we all shared an experience #on a personal note #I looked forward to DD everyday because irl I’m pretty isolated #even online I’m isolated this is my 5th or 6th blog. and it was just nice to feel apart of a group #and yeah we still have the epilogue and all but tbh #idk I don’t want it to end #I don’t wanna go back to being alone #I loved talking about this book with y’all I loved seeing your art and theories #it was exciting!#I read this book when I was 8 and my mum had never read it and my brother was too young to #so reading has always been very lonely #but this? this was amazing #and I really don’t want that to end #it’s less about the book itself and more about the people I’ve read it with #which I guess is rather at the heart of the book #dracula daily #dracula #so long and goodnight #lol

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