#and having a lot of anxiety problems

[mccoys-killer-queen]

I'm about to leave the country for the first time aaaaaaa

#i am also sick lol #and alone #and having a lot of anxiety problems

[uncanny-tranny]

To any disabled person undergoing tests to find What's Wrong: I hope your results come back the way you hope and that you receive the help you need. I hope you are not denied care, I hope you are taken seriously even after this, and I hope that you will be taken care of compassionately

#disability #currently going through something like this for myself and while i doubt there's anything 'wrong' i still did it #people are always weird about people who are disappointed or devastated about 'normal results' but... #...it's because normal results don't mean much when you still have the issue at hand... #...if my test came back that my back is physically normal that doesn't indicate that i don't have back pain does it? #because i am still in pain so often even if i have a 'physically normal' back... #...just as an example but i don't think a lot of abled people 'get it' #also like... if your tests are coming back 'normal' every time that might give your care providers pause... #...and they might just start infantilizing you or treating you like a hypochondriac... #...'are you SURE [problem] isn't just anxiety?' 'are you SURE you're actually experiencing [x] or are you exaggerating it?'

[casart]

..•Perception Distorted•..

#casart #sanders sides #virgil sanders #anxiety sanders #heeyyyyy wowie some good ol' virge art<3 #kinda getting some feelings out w this one coz my depression and anxiety have not been great #shit really piling on and giving me a lot of distorted thoughts and dissociative episodes haha #anyways time to give my problems to my boy!! ah yes healthy coping uwu

[protosstar]

having lyrics addressing how mental health is just completely dismissed coupled with all that religious imagery in the staging hits incredibly hard when the cultural mindset in serbia is one of "mental illness isnt real you just need to go to church"

#eurovision #in corpore sano #when i told one of my closest friends about my autism diagnosis her response was #'autism doesnt exist in serbia because we tell ppl to go to church and god helps fix their psyche' #and that 'in the west its different because they dont trust god' #if you have a problem that isnt physical it just means u arent believing in god hard enough #and with how few mental health resources are even available faith kinda does become the only solution #like i shit on england a lot but as an autistic person with adhd and anxiety im SO GLAD i only lived in belgrade for a few years #quasigh

[mel-loly]

-I'm back, my dear people! Did you miss me? :]

(I hope so, because it took a while for me to find time to come back- also.. sorry for the bad art😃👍)

#hey everyone!! I'm alive :DD #are you all okay? I hope so! and if not. I hope you be better soon❤️ #(I basically took this time off because because I wasn't well.. I was really and really bad... #with several anxiety attacks and depression problems again.. thank god it got better and now I feel okay ^^ #also- a lot of things changed in my life and I still haven't managed to organize everything.. as well as the drawings... #I have just a “few” drawings to post.. but I hope you still like it and bear with me :'] #I promise to do more and answer you guys when I have time! <33) #a little spoiler: there will be some new things coming to this blog- hope you guys like it :D <33 #i'm back! #i'm mel and this is my blog✌️ #my art blog #art #my art #my art <3 #art mel #my art style #mel designer #mel loly #my oc character #tw vent #? #random vent

[strawglicks]

i dont know or care if this is fully accurate idc tbh i just had to make this real fast to spite this one post i saw that was basically this meme except it infantalized misty and flint by putting them in the bottom row so i had to fix it <3

#toontown #ttcc #toontown corporate clash #ok uh. #i am not going to tag everty single cog tbh. its too much. #instead i will use these tags to complain #abt the infantalization of adult characters #the cogs are adults . theyre not tiny infant children #and i hate. seeing misty and flint treated as little uwu cinnamon roll babies #the worst part is that they get infantalized bc of #misty being lonely and sad and wanting to make friends #and flint having. crippling anxiety and being shy #why are you. babying those traits?? thats kinda weird!! #this isnt even just about one post either. this happens to them a lot. #just in general #being lonely and anxious are real adult problems . why are we. ok. #flint infantalization is especially dumb because #he literally dislikes belittling? #his whole character is wanting to be more confident and struggling with it #why would you?????? infantalize him #if u infantalize flint he literally doesnt like you #...bc ur belittling him #imagine missing the point that bad #sorry i have been silently brewing abt this . i need this all out there. #sometimes u just gotta be a hater.

[tortellinigirl]

I feel like recently, ADHD has kind of become shorthand for “a person who is annoying online and has no real problems,” and I don’t really think that’s awesome news, given the context that ADHD has a long history of being disregarded as a made up disorder that’s just an excuse for poor/obnoxious behavior, no matter how much scientific research proves otherwise. ADHD is not by any means the only disorder that has people making a thousand misleading tiktoks about it, so perhaps do some critical thinking about why specifically ADHD has become the poster child for that behavior. There are certainly valid criticisms to be made of the way we discuss mental health online, but maybe use your brain and determine why this disorder in particular is the one that’s easiest to point at for being “annoying” and “not that big of a deal.”

#idk maybe if u actually watched a couple of the tiktoks u might learn that the lack of focus thing is reall not the main issue #its just what the people around us are most likely to notice and be bothered by #not saying it doesnt get obnoxious seeing people say the same thing over and over #and yes some people are like purposely vague and disingenuous about the symptoms to get views from people thinking they have it now #but i see that with everything. like autism PTSD depression OCD anxiety #im always getting tiktoks saying that im a lesbian or i have repressed memories or “x normal thing is a symptom of y disorder!!” #and yes its annoying but its probably somewhat helpful to people who actually are dealing w those things #and also like. if u simply stop treating ur for you page like a crystal ball that sees into your soul and reflects it back #and realize its just an algorithm designed to make u interact whether thats bc u like what u saw or fucking hated it #then u will not be as bothered ! #but yes our generation seems to have a habit of constantly trying to find the right box to out ourselves in so we can be like. “marketable” #like people seem to want to design their personality like an movie character or something #but its so shitty that we’re dog piling all that on ADHD as if our specific disorder has anything to do with it #also personally i think its kind of normal to be really focused on a particular aspect of your identity when u just discovered it #and it usually evens out and just becomes part of the background of your identity #but yes there’s often a problem with pathologizing normal things #but i think its important to recognize that lots of things that are normal occasionally are pathological in excess. like thats how it works #like we’ve all been through how being sad sometimes is not the same as depression #why cant we grasp that occasionally going into a room and forgetting why you’re there isnt the same as ADHD #my posts

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

#N posts stuff #one could argue ‘we see tula worry a lot tho’ but that’s bc Worry is an Action that can occur Separately from Recognizing Anxiety #now that I know tumblr will put a hard cap on your tags w/o telling you i'm resigning myself to posting rambling meta in post body #but i'm not happy about it; anyway i love how often life is full of Coincidences bc this is something I've Finally identified in myself #like. This Month. like this is brand new articulation for some of the problems i have in life; again knowing this doesn't help lmao #bc even when you know to look Around the shape of the emotion - like 'oh my face is Snarling rn. i'm probably experiencing Something' #like i said bc you don't know What that something is OR What might have caused it then the only solution you Ever get to come up with #is just 'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else' which INVARIABLY means that you will wind up in that same situation again #and Still have no idea how to handle it bc you never could figure out what caused it so you don't know how to handle it any better than #'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else'; so 'be somewhere else' is the ONLY way you can ever think to Help it #which usually invariably turns into 'Just Avoid Fucking Everything just in case'; which doesn't work! bc life doesn't let you do that #so then it's just a cycle of falling into the same pitfalls and feeling miserable all the time; gotta love it :) #if you're like me this also gives you Bad Bad Bad Memory bc your brain will Promptly hide evidence of Scary Situation instinctively #like 3 weeks ago this dude ran a red light and almost t-boned me Full Speed & managed to stop like. maybe 3 feet away. #and i like. Startled Laughed and said 'that was scary' and then within 30 seconds i had Fully Forgotten it happened & only remembered #like 2 days ago. Ha! believe it or not this Does Not Help with 'How can I Address the Problem instead of Avoiding It Entirely?' #dimension 20 #d20: stupendous stoats #tula #d20lb

[pinkhairandpokemon]

I think everyone with social anxiety should be financially compensated when given shit about it

"you're gonna come off as rude" give me 1,000 dollars "you're just overreacting" give me 1,000 dollars "stop being so quiet all the time" give me 1,000 dollars "*ridicules for stumbling or missing some vague social cue*" give me 1,000 dollars "you just need to get over it" give me 1,000 dollars "how are you gonna do anything in life if you can't talk to people" give me 1,000 dolla

-Blake

#all of these have been said to me at least three times each. a lot by my mother #pokeblogging #pokemon irl #pokeblog rp #pokemon #pokemon oc #pokemon rp #(( ooc: me ranting abt social anxiety problems through my oc? it's more likely than you think )) #social anxiety

[docresa]

Today was my last official day in my department before I start my ICU rotation next week, and it was kind of sucky, and I’m having lots of feelings.

#I just came home and cried for 20 mins #for no particular reason #(​other than being hormonal and overwhelmed) #sigh #why am I like this #and what even is my problem? #resa rambles #residency #I do have some surgical on-calls until the end of may #but then I’ll be off surgery until December #which sucks #and also I have a lot of anxiety about at least 5 different aspects of all of this #which atm kinda overshadow my excitement to go to the ICU (which I used to love as a student) as an actual doctor #sigh again

[da-proti-toku-grem]

why can't anyone understand that everyone is different and not everyone likes the same things and that it's completely okay AND normal for someone not to like going out and preferring to stay at home :/

#honestly i understand that my parents care about me and they don't want me to be feeling bad #and that they ask me bc they just want to make sure i'm okay #but i've explained to them what i feel like and they just don't get and i get mad but i akso know it's not their fault and just... oughhhhh #like yeah i have a weird kind of social anxiety according to my therapist and even she doesn't know exactly how to help me yet #but there are just so many reasons behind why i don't like going out and it's not just bc it gives me anxiety #or why those situations give me anxiety in the forst place #1. i'm just a very introverted person that doesn't like going out #2. crowded places/closed spaces/places where there's not enough ventilation/loud places (be it people talking or just music) overwhelme me #3. all said in 2 + flashing lights give me huge migraines that can linger for over 3 days #4. i am very much a night owl and i'm forced to live in a society where that isn't fucking acceptable apparently and i'm called lazy for - #- not being productive in the morning when the only reason behind it is that i am a lot more productive at night #but no one ket's me do that bc 'why are you doing stuff when you're supposed to be asleep?' #i have been the same since i was little. literally nothing has changed #and people where always like 'oh she's just shy' #but idk wtf changed #maybe it was that i became and 'adult' or maybe the fact that i started therapy and they told my parents that i have social anxiety. idk #but suddenly every single person in my family is worried about it and they're genuinely making me feel like there's smth wrong about me #i mean. i have my problems i'm not gonna go telling you that i'm perfect bc i'm pretty much not #but is there really smth that wrong with me that i need to fix #or is society just a bitch that doesn't understand that there's different kinds of people and everyone is different & IT'S COMPLETELY OKAY #have they ever thought about the fact that maybe these situations cause me anxiety bc i've been forced all my life to do them #even if i don't like them #instead of thinking that i don't like them BC they cause me anxiety?? #i mean. i know i have to go out more and that there's tons of things i can do ofc #but you can't just force me to do things i don't want to and put on a good face while doing it *every.fucking.day* #aaaaand i could add a lot more things but i'm once again reaching the tag limit so i shoukd just shut up #it's just driving me crazy bc i know they're trying to help but it really is not helping at all............. #ranting

[vivitalks]

Six ways Nico says "I love you" to Jason.

this is me cheating legally on @jasico-challenges bingo by using up seven bingo prompts for this six-chapter 5+1 fic: one for each chapter and one for the work as a whole. however i am posting the whole fic together because i think it makes the most sense, and also, i want to.

#jasicobingochallenge2024 #fanfiction #tw anxiety attacks and unhealthy coping mechanisms and lots of trauma and guilt complexes and brain problems abound! #jason grace #nico di angelo #jasico #jasico fic #pjo #pjo fic #fic #my fic #if you want more trigger warnings they're in the specific chapter notes #or you can ask lol #stuff #ill probably make a moodboard for this fic at some point and make a new fic post with a moodboard and make it pretty #but icba rn #it's 5pm i have done literally nothing of value today #also oh shit i think i was supposed to do something for work that i didnt do #seriously what is this 'wfh' nonsense. it's a snow dayyyyy #anyway i should get dressed bc im going to a thing in an hour #and i should eat something lest i fuckin starve lol #i have turkey bacon but i dont think i can be bothered to make it #so i will probably have for dinner what i had for lunch: leftover box mac and cheese babey

[wildwood-faun]

been sooo stimmy lately unfortunately not in the happy fun way more like gotta shake bad things out of my body

#got anxiety spikes i want to say out of NOWHERE but #i've been doing things that push me out of my comfort zone lately #but if i don't i get anxious about not DOING stuff #my impulse is to just white knuckle it through until som of the uncomfortable things become familiar but ugh #also i think my anxiety/stress has been on the rise for more than a year because i've been having a lot more Stuck Thoughts #so that's longer than this recent Do New Things drive #but like. i don't live a stressful life i just get incredibly stressed out by things like: couldn't find the detergent i wanted at the store #or: have a problem with my clothes hanger #please brain please #anyway i'm feeling pretty solid abt the autism probability at least #life of kit

[ofcowardiceandkings]

the heirarchy of good habits for feeding yourself when you have brainfuck doesnt need to be all at once at all and in fact is probably best not to do it that way

start by making sure youre getting enough calories at regular intervals to fuel your body

then move forward to making sure youre getting enough fruit n vegetables in whatever form you can

then you can start to worry about nitty gritty things like salt intake or cutting out some sugars or saturated fats or more protein or whatever you need to do for your health

its WAY more important to be getting all the right stuff first than be cutting things out with nowhere to go

#like personally i avoid palm oil as best as possible for health and environmental reasons (its awful for both) #but if im having a shitty day and need food quick ill eat something with palm in it yknow #carbs and sugars might not be amazing in huge amounts for the long run unless youre using lots of energy but theyre something yknow #food politics are such a mess in general so im not out here to be holier than thou #far from it in fact ... i 100% get it as someone who still has a stress eating problem at times and has been VERY POOR and still isnt secur #and then theres the anxiety depression and whatever else like i get it ... and my sibling has crohn's we work around too when they stay her #its a whole minefield that changes on your specific circumstances but be good to yourself first and then worry about the rest #rory's ramblings

[gertritude-art]

it probably helps that i am only 23 and look back upon my teen years with agony!

#to write a cringe teenager you must first be a cringe teenager... #notart #admittedly i dont think my discussion of stuff is that realistic bc i am a sucker for some high school media tropes #but some stuff is fun to be accurate about! #anyway #'how cringe are we talking' the embarrassment is too much. like genuinely embarrassing stuff i cant relive this... #when i was 14 in chemistry class we had to solve a problem together as a class #and i got so annoyed at everyone i literally stood up from my seat and wrote the equation we should use on the board and went 'JUST DO THIS' #and then afterwards the teacher was like 'uh. that is NOT how you do teamwork' and i felt like killing myself instantly #one of many awful memories... 100% arrogant 100% no social skills 100% latent anxiety issues #anyway this is why i'm usually sympathetic to a lot of teenagers. cannot imagine being like that and having social media too

[haresvoid]

I do think Ome.luum, being a Mind Flayer, can sometimes have difficulty with expressing and even understanding emotions. It has a range of emotions, even those often unseen from their kind as noted in game, but that doesn't mean there isn't issues. They are very direct with thoughts and words as to not be misconstrued or taken as manipulation, but due to this can sometimes appear cold or distant or making conversations feel 'too professional'.

From others, sarcasm can be occasionally lost on them as well as sincere displays from those it has not been around for long. They do not wish to pry through minds unrequested to determine the legitimacy or origins of words, but also coming from a species whose manipulation is basically written in DNA, it's a caution that's innate and hard to shake. Of course such paranoia it will not speak and will display what is believed to be proper in the moment- either a light comment if it's a joke or sarcasm, or a simple thank you or display of appreciate in one way or another if a sincere display of positivity

#OMELUUM. files #( they still a mind flayer and have their problems but they trying #thinking about how illithid lore says most of the emotions mind flayers feel constantly are negative ones and #ome isnt exactly free of that. but it comes as paranoia and anxiety for lots of reasons #but much like other illithids they still conduct and seem level headed besides this #the only difference is ome is trying to make things better for others and often times garners joy #from things learned or crafted or the new interactions occasionally given #i have a lot of thoughts on them )