#apparently I like pain

[desnoot]

I cannot believe it has taken me this long to draw Scaramouche omg. Also Nahida, cause I really like their dynamic. Anyway, them.

#scaramouche #wanderer #nahida #genshin impact #I had another version of this that I haTeD so I remade the whole thing #apparently I like pain #look at Nahida being a lil cool dendro archon #her face took me so long #like three tries #my art

[iwoll]

not your classic male manipulator!

Most everyone matures, most people being everyone but me, apparently. All i know is that the toxic trait i call my own isn’t one that is seen by others. call my bluff all you’d like but this much is true. Like other weezer fans or smith-heads, i like to gaslight the mind and manipulate all that i know to be true. Except, instead of that being a friend or a romantic interest, it’s me.

Manipulating my brain into thinking things is my favorite pastime! Assuring myself that i was actually in the wrong is all the rage! Not being able to differentiate love from infatuation is what it’s all about! It’s true, i’m toxic, i even embrace it. Peeking at private accounts. Using self-sabotage is usually my coping mechanism! Lately, i’ve been looking less, allowing myself to heal. Actually, that’s a not entirely true. i looked today. To my surprise, the manipulated moved on. Or maybe they’re just better at writing. Regardless, i’m a heartless, horrid, repulsive, teenage dirtbag of a male manipulator. but what would i know?

#this one is actually fucked up #my bad #apparently i like pain #poetry #poetry is subjective #is this even poetry #this is about someone obviously #male manipulator

[newgroundstier]

idiot baby kill credit fight

#drift #rodimus #transformers #maccadam #driftrod #kinda. its driftrod by proxy of me being the guy who drew it #mfw i become a casualty of war* and the dudes that killed me start arguing like its the worlds biggest cod lobby #*technically this wasnt a war related conflict but. the species wide kajillion year war is kinda related to. everything these guys do #EDIT: APPARENTLY THIS GUY LIVES LOL mfw i get stabbed thru the head and the dudes that did it argue like its the worlds biggest cod lobby #while i lie on the ground in unbearable pain. then get thrown in jail

[pommegrantaire]

well, heaven knows

that without you is how i disappear

#and live my life alone forever now #song is This is How I Disappear by MCR #i have a lot of feelings #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens fanart #aziraphale #crowley #anthony j crowley #ineffable husbands #ineffable divorce #ineffable partners #air conditioning #a/c #aziracrow #another traditional drawing with some digital edits... didn't wanna make the background solid black so u can see the individual marks #kinda adds an Effect #yes the marker was too small but listen #i really like how this turned out even though it took me weeks to edit since i'm apparently busy all the time #i love pain #pomegrantArt

[charliexspring]

...tell me who you'd want me to be. do i come off too strong and mess it up? do i laugh too hard or not enough? – katherine li

#heartstopperedit #heartstopper #dailylgbtq #osemanverse #userlix #tuserlucie #usercille #cinematv #tuserrex #userrlaura #usermorgan #*mine #i like pain apparently #i'm sorry #or am i?

[plague-parade]

able bodied people will decide you’re not disabled over *checks notes* the shoes you wear

#apparently because i wear platform docs i ‘dont really need’ my mobility aids #like dipshit the reason i wear them is because theyre the easiest shoes i own to get on #the zipper plus the heel tab makes it so that i can put them on myself???? #i very visibly have an abnormal gait but ig bc i wear big shoes im faking it #actually disabled #chronically ill #fibromyalgia #me/cfs #pots #chronic pain #cripple punk #cripplepunk #cpunk

[carrotkicks]

day 1

#doodle #doodles #comic #bsd #skk #fem soukoku #kunikida #ranpo #yosano #dazai #chuuya #in the comic: #1. dazai arrives. mori wishes her luck #2. she introduces herself to her class with the usual 'i like death and hate pain. please take care of me!' everyone goes ???. #3. so then she gets assigned the seat behind chuu. who's apparently not there #4. scratch that she's here. #sends them to school au

[your-subby-creature]

The funniest thing about being autistic with a high pain tolerance is that the first time I did impact play I got hit for like half an hour without making noise, and then when I did, it was just "OUCH" in the most monotone voice ever. Quite literally, they broke a (thin/cheap) metal cane on me and I was just sitting there like 😐😐 this is fantastic, hit me again.

#Creature rambles #i know ive been absent FOREVER bc im busy as hell but #ive started getting my ass beat irl and its genuinely hilarious #this was me in subspace btw im just Like This apparently #when im not in subspace i go SILLY MODE #literally a menace to society bc pain makes me silly as all getout #anyways lmk if yall want more fun scene stories #ive got a couple of them

[hanafubukki]

Love Changes Lilia’s Voice

I was watching book 7 parts 5 and 6 again and I love the nuances in the game, especially the subtle shift to Lilia’s voice as love changes him.

When we first hear him as General Lilia, his voice is rough and different than what we are used to.

Then we go to the flashback scenes of Lilia trying to hatch Malleus and we can see the shift in his voice.

He goes from the gruff general to a gradual softening, it’s subtle in the beginning, but more pounced as the flashbacks continue.

You can see more of the differences each time he returns to the egg. One point that’s emphasized when he returns to the egg and speaks about how times have changed and then starts singing to egglleus

Another moment that’s notable is when he’s sitting with Malleus talking about fairy tales.

And of course, the scene where he hears Malleus’ cries and he runs to him, he has the tones of the Lilia we know with his laugh and the teasing.

Then we see Lilia at Silver’s cradle and his voice is changed once again. It has a softer tone to it from last we have heard it. Close but not yet quite the Lilia we know.

Then we get flashbacks of Lilia raising Silver and we see more gradual change with the Toto and the acorn scene. The tone and playful voice in these scenes could be heard.

And eventually, we have the Lilia we have today at NRC with his boys gown.

And I adore this gradual change we see in Lilia not only through his personality and actions, but through his voice.

How love truly changed him because of Malleus and Silver.

#Hana why are you watching parts 5 and 6 again you may ask??? because I like pain apparently #lilia vanrouge #malleus draconia #twst silver #general lilia vanrouge #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland silver #silver vanrouge #twst book 7 #diasomnia #twst character analysis #twst analysis #twst lilia #twst malleus

[multi-lefaiye]

something about a gameshow where the goal is "get second place" is just so funny. this season is off to an amazing start

#multi makes text posts #i can't wait to see whatever episode that brennan instagram live is from #the one where he apparently had to go on instagram live and defend elon musk #and people caught the live and he's just shitting on elon musk for like a solid minute #and then at the end he gives some half-assed advice to avoid back pain #'i defended him from back pain :)' king #game changer #also. new brennan lee mulligan monologue let's goooo

[clonegirlie]

Isn’t it great when your comfort show stop comforting

#just rewatching the pabu episode #cause i like pain apparently #the bad batch season 3 #tbb spoilers #star wars #the bad batch

[sergle]

I think my favorite thing about doing ginger red hair instead of cherry red hair is: lying to people about it

#I love the cherry red / wine red and I'll probably go back at some point bc it's my Origin. #but for now. #I don't actively lie to people but bc it's a Natural and Plausible hair color #and I'm already pale and I dye my eyebrows to match my hair. ppl figure it's natural #and it has come up MULTIPLE TIMES. and I've recently been rolling with it instead of correcting ppl. bc who cares? #recent examples that come to mind (but I did correct them in this one) my surgeon assuming it was natural #and using my genetics as a natural redhead as a baseline to tell me about what I can expect from my future scarring #and then again later with the anesthesia. they were going to dose me differently #the anesthesiologist glanced at me when I came into the OR and was getting the stuff ready on his cart #and when he heard me talking to my doc and re-telling him that oh the hair isn't natural #he was behind the curtain like FUCK #taking shit off his cart and quietly redoing his setup #that's how I learned that redheads need higher doses of anesthesia than other ppl. #they also need more of the topical stuff like lidocaine. apparently they metabolize it faster(?) #ANYWAY he was going to up my dose thinking I needed it lol #so i almost got way more sedatives and pain meds than i needed bc of my hair dye LMAOOO #other more Normal Life examples was a country dude in full hunting gear holding a door open for me someplace #and I said thank you and he lifted his hat up to point at his (natural) red hair and said ''twins!'' #this one sticks with me because that was such a cute thing to do. what the hell #and at snakefest I was talking to some people at their food truck. there was an older guy who trapped me into a convo for like 30mins #he was Very Nice. and they were going to some type of irish festival next and said I should go too bc I'll be right at home #flat out just was like. this bitch looks irish #and I don't know why all of this is so funny to me. it has no reason to be.

[f1-stuff]

São Paulo GP '23 // Charles' unfiltered radio + onboard

"No, I lost the hydraulics! I lost the hydraulics! Why the fuck am I so unlucky? Why the fuck am I so unlucky? No hydraulic inside the car. Everything became super... Ugh, can I- I'll try to start again." "The hydraulics came back. What should I do, guys? For fuck's sake, still... Engine switched off. Why am I so unlucky? Oh my god, Oh my fucking god. Oh my fucking god..."

#why would i post this you ask? #bc i like pain apparently #charles leclerc #Brazil GP '23 #2023 #video #formula one #f1 #ferrari #brazilian gp 2023 #team radio #onboard

[sleepytownez]

Save me old instagram canon voxval……save me…..

#yes I know they were never apparently canon I dunno how else to phrase this sue me #yes I got attached to their old dynamic #I like causing myself pain apparently #voxval #valentino #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin vox #vox hazbin hotel #valentino hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel valentino #meow #they could’ve been so much more ok?!?

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

thank you WH update for confirming that Wally breathes. i really thought he didnt <3

#but also fuck it for confirming that bc it sounds like hes in pain and it hurts my shriveled heart #(keep it up the pain is top tier <3 hurt him more. but also dont. but Do. i want the emotional agony attached) #but uhhhhh seriously tho i did Not expect breathing to be in his library of skills #absolutely unprompted #welcome home #'why is that' i hear one person passively wonder #well considering that he doesnt sleep. and he doesnt eat normally - one could argue that he Doesnt eat either. #and how he Knows hes a puppet. #i really thought he wouldnt feel an innate need to keep up a charade of 'breathing' like the others who are Unaware! #BUT IT TURNS OUT ITS NOT A CHARADE AHAHA #THEY KINDA NEED TO APPARENTLY! at least i can assume so #but i was Genuinely surprised to hear wally's labored breathing in his hidden record audios #i almost paused the first one i heard to go 'what??? he can breathe??' #i had convinced myself of it so Thoroughly that i need to edit some stuff in my brain #bc oh boy i had Thoughts completely centered on that #oh well! into the fire they go!! #im happy for him. puppet man gets to enjoy the annoyance that is breathing

[friend-crow]

Saw a post yesterday about how we all like to joke about how tumblr users are getting older and have joint pain, but if you're 30 and have chronic pain it's not normal and you should get it checked out.

Then somebody had reblogged it like "Wait, you guys actually have chronic pain? I thought we were doing a bit."

Guys. Please do not pretend to have chronic pain "for the bit". I can't believe this needs to be said.

#apparently I'm still thinking about this today #I mean it's kind of funny #but also WTF #like this is part of why nobody takes you seriously when you tell them you can't do something because of chronic pain