#but at the end of it i am done and i have me degrees and i still have one more semester hopefully this one is kinder to me than the last few

[cotls]

Any love interests or are you all not interested

I am SO glad you asked

Lambe does not have any interest in romance, he’s very close friends with Sozo but that’s as close as he gets. we ship em a little haha !! never actually gonna happen though,,

Rem doesn't really care for romance either, but there are certain,, emotional investments with a few followers wink wonk (qpr !!)

as for me ? [this entire au started because I made a self-insert bc I fell head over heels for Heket the first interaction I had with her because she told me to kneel and I said yes ma’am]

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to be truthful, it’s a bit,, complex. romance with a former dictator/bishop/god who was directly responsible for the almost-annihilation of your entire species isn’t easy. Lambe and Rem were NOT impressed when I confessed to them hahaha !!! but we’ve figured it out after almost 50 years of marriage, (which I might add was a terribly embarrassing event on my end).

I use my fancy-shmancy mind-reading powers to allow her to communicate with me easier ! after she trusted me enough to consent, of course. and she doesn’t mind my blabbering hehe.

talking with her helped me find myself again - in a sense - after the Dark Times. I would tell her facts about all the crops and flowers, and describe all my followers’ personalities and drama. it was oddly comforting,, I was too scared to talk to her at first, but then it started and it felt so natural. I think that’s what scared me the second time. how easy it was to just, let go of everything her and her siblings had done to us.

but I think I was just tired of feeling hurt.

and she made me smile, and I made her laugh !! tried not to until her throat healed properly tho whoops.

gosh haha look at me, I could ramble about my wife all day. hope that explains enough hehe !!

- ☀️

[and starshroom art dump that has varying degrees of canon to the actual characterizations and interactions LOL]

#answered asks #cotls lore #kinda ? #☀️ art #🪶 art #cotls art #cotls #cult of the lambs #starshroom #(mine and Heket’s ship name LOL) #shroomwool #shroomwool fanart #lambket #lambket fanart #cult of the lamb #cotl fanart #cult of the lamb fanart #cult of the lamb heket #cotl heket #heket fanart #cotl heket fanart #cotl #lambsona #cult of the lamb lambsona #cotl lambsona #cotl oc #cotl lamb #cotl au #the lamb #self ship

[b4kuch1n]

sunstroll

#pokemon #swsh #rival hop #professpr hop #communication coming thru from the 32 degree C midday land #it is. kind of summer. not really but its at the door #gods. disgostang. time to draw in orange #Ive been chippin away at this one while drawing the comic so I dont like. lose my mind #and now this is done! and the comic has three pages left!! #I am Going to Do It tonite. I am Going to Get That Shit Done #tomorrow there will be sad monster for ya #but for now. theres hop in more clothes. bc I really do not give him enough #coloring this one was a Challenge lol... I got too used to the kind of color aggression goin on with leon #hop has more harmony goin on in his vibes so I had to pull some weird plays for this lmao #and then everything still ends up hypersaturated bc. well its me. this is just how I am #but I'll take it!! it was pretty fun once I sussed out a way forward. coloring is always a Time #have a good day! wish me luck! boy oh boy we sure have an evening in front of us

[00fairylights00]

Hypersomnolence

Haha funny story, I was diagnosed with a sleep disorder in November after struggling with it unknowingly for give or take 18 months. Turns out I’m not crazy and falling asleep against your will multiple times a day is actually not a good or normal thing.

So permit me to write the puppet like a sap as I need this right now lol. Yes these are in fact all things I experienced but I am medicated for them now hooray!

One task, that was all you’d managed to get through today. You felt sick and heavy, opting to sit on the cold ground before your body made you, it was a battle to stay awake as sleep attacked you again.

It was only early afternoon and you’d struggled through your one task of sweeping, you were certain everyone at the hotel thought you to be lazy, even if they’d all told you otherwise.

You’d been sick like this for a long time, long before the petrification disease or the puppet frenzy, both events having a negative effect on the way you’d usually manage your symptoms. 

And while you appreciated the sanctity you’d been spared at Hotel Krat, the nagging feeling of needing to repay Lady Antonia for her kindness was not helping your case.

You sat with your head in your hands, slipping in and out of consciousness, losing the battle again. Usually, Polendina would find you, send you to your room to rest and that would be it for the day, once you were in bed you found it hard to do much of anything else. Which you supposed was good for your body but it made your emotional well-being an absolute wreck.

Lady Antonia had asked you time and time again to be kinder to yourself, to feel accomplished of the things you could do and that you were welcome here no matter how sick you were, and she would know a thing or two about being sick.

But, you had a bad habit of being nasty to yourself, and with your sleep-related illness only seeming to get worse you couldn’t remember the last time you’d spoken kindly to yourself.

You felt like shit.

A hand at your shoulder, delicate and tender shook you but it didn’t do much to rouse you. Your vision swam uncomfortably through the gaps in your fingers, your head being too heavy to lift up. Hands grasped your wrists, pulling gently to reveal your face that was then taken into those same hands, one soft and warm, the other firm and cold.

With the weight of your head now being supported by P’s hands you could somewhat force yourself to look at him. His expression was unreadable, as always, but his presence was a balm to your spiralling thoughts.

The friendship of Geppetto’s Puppet had been good for you, P didn’t care how tired you were he was just happy to see you, he didn’t expect anything but your presence and that was something you could give freely, tired or not.

He tilted his head in question to what you assumed to be your position on the floor, slumped over rather uncomfortably.

“It just came on, I had to sit down,” you mumbled, he seemed to frown, getting down on one knee and shifting you against him to pick you up.

With you cradled to his chest, he ascended the stairs. You burrowed down against his chest, relishing in how nice it was to be looked after. 

It was almost like the trip up to your room didn’t happen, one moment you were snug to P’s chest, the next you were under your sheets and propped up against the headboard. P took it upon himself to remove his shoes and coat and sit on the opposite side of the bed to keep you company.

“Sleepy?” P asked innocently, you nodded trying desperately to suppress another yawn. 

“I-“ he started, a thoughtful look crossing his face, “-want to help. How do I help?”

He gently took your hand in his own, his thumb rubbing over your knuckles. The astounding amount of care he treated you with was sure to tear you apart in the best ways, making your exhausted mind spin.

“Just stay here with me for a bit,” You laid your head on his shoulder, “I think that’ll help.”

“Okay.”

He mimicked you, resting his head on top of yours, pulling the sheets further up your lap. Doing what he could to keep you comfortable, a concept he was still trying to grasp.

“Thank you P,” you mumbled, snuggling closer, “love you.”

He pressed a gentle kiss to your head, nose buried in your hair, “I love you too.”

#I wrote this for me and it was going to stay in my drafts but the other shots I've been working on aren't done yet and I am itching to post #yes this is how most of my days went unmedicated it was hell on earth #started playing lies of p just before I got the diagnosis and started on treatment actually #the boy makes me very very happy #this could probably be read platonically but I did not write it with that intention #hence the lil kiss at the end #but close friends kiss each other on the forehead sometimes #will be crossposted elsewhere later #cause i need to go to bed right this second #lies of p x reader #p x reader #pinocchio x reader #lies of p #god i have missed writing my silly little fanfics #self indulgent to the nth degree #dec 2023 #🦋 let your conscience be your guide

[mad-hunts]

hey, y'all — i just wanted to let everyone know that if you're waiting on a reply that you sent to my inbox or one that i sent to you... that i promise i'm not ignoring you guys and that i'm going to respond to all of them! it's just exam season right now in uni for me, so i have to focus on studying first, BUT i'm going to get to everything as soon as i can. but yeah,, i hope y'all are having a great day and that you've been eating / drinking enough water!! i'll see you guys laterrr ❤️

#ooc post. #so... i don't mean to be dramatic but i'm basically the living embodiment of that one meme: RELEASE ME!!! / j #NAH 💀 but seriously i am so sick of taking test after test already y'all. i cannot wait until the end of next week- #whenever the semester will FINALLY be over. i have barely survived if i'm being honest #BUT YAYYY I'M ALMOST DONE IN OTHER NEWS #not done with my degree unfortunately but done with the semester lolll

[pepprs]

ok. giving myself 4 minutes to make this post and then i finish my homework. i just am so deeply miserable. i really think i made a mistake. i should not be in grad school. i only took a year between this and undergrad and i am still so burned out and mentally ill. im working full time. im only taking one class and this program is supposed to be so good and aligned with what i want and all of that. but i just cant stand having homework. i just cant stand it. i think i am not cut out for academia even though i work in academia. i think i will never get better as long as im still living at home but i have to get better before i can no longer be living at home but i cant get better until im not living at home and every day i still live at home saps away at my will to live quite literally. i should not have started doing grad school without regaining my will to live. without restoring my love for reading and writing that i used to have voraciously when i was younger and less deeply miserable. without recovering from the burnout. i think i made a mistake. i need a masters degree so bad so that i can be safe but i need to not have fucking homework when i already struggle to get through my days without school. i feel so stuck in my life and hopeless and helpless. i dont know what to do

#purrs #i cant drop out or anything because. lol and this class isnt even that big of a deal like i TRULY am freaking out over nothing. but my life #situation is so bad rn bro like i cant get my parents to take me out to drive and i cant get myself to get my parents to take me out to #drive and every day i am guilt tripped berated etc etc and i feel like i am never ever ever going to be able to have my own life where i a #stable and safe and happy. it can happen for other people except for me and my siblings. i dont know. im not explaining anything well. #i just cant do this. i need to not have this one more thing on my plate but i have to because if i dont have a masters degree in my field i #am nothing even though everyone is telling me that isnt true and all of them are credible but im just so mentally ill i cant believe anyone #and icant accept any advice or hope or whatever good about me i just. am stuck. this is as good as it gets and its not even good. #delete later #that was 7 minutes not 4 and i didnt even write anything substantial. nutshell. i just have been so fucking depressed lately oh my goddddd #this is maybe too strong of a thing to say but like. i know it isnt technically neglect if i am an adult but... i think i may kind of be #neglected by my family in some ways a little bit and always have been but like. emotionally. like in the ways in which im never a priority #and the things i need are seen as burdens etc etc. and theres nothing anyone can do about it even myself because im an adult but like lol. #24 year old dependent moment <3 #well there is one thing i can do about it as an adult actually. its called move out. but that requires strength i will #never possess unfortunately due to the inherent flaws in my character and constitution so. guess this is it lawl 🥰 #side note (and i swear im done after this lol): i think i was doing a lot better mentally over the summer. funny how when the semester #starts i get depressed and the depression just gets worse and worse until the end of the semester 😻 funny how this is my seventh year like #this. willingly subjecting myself to this. that should be a clue no? but i love my job and if i could just have my job and be stable in it #would be happier but also im lying to mysaelf and i will always be unhappy but its because of my mental illness not my job being bad or #anything its like. i am just sick in the head with impostor syndrome and thats how i got myself into this whole mess. lol #well that and the not moving out thing which is partially my fault but also because i live in hell as described earlier! <3

[idk-my-aesthetic]

Respectfully if you are on a train and take up a table seat and don’t even use it I am eating your phone

#there’s only so many table seats on the commuter railAUGH #4-6 per car it’s a shared table #I get it if the train is full or if it’s super empty and you want a place for your elbows #but if I’m going 45 minutes all the way to the end of the line and you’re only 15 minutes from your stop #and you deprive me of my ability to use my laptop to get some work done before my aderall gives out and I pass the fuxk out #i am eating your phone #biteing it straight from your hand #I will grind the glass into dust with the strength of my jaw #also fuck you to whoever lied on the schedule claiming that it’s very empty #this is not very empty it’s one degree below max capacity #and who the hell keeps deciding to close off whole ass cars #is there something wrong with the car?? do you not have someone to monitor it??? #I can see the damn thing is empty let me IN!!!!!! #what’s the point of taxes when the trains still suck #we pay police so damn much why don’t they run the fucking trains #yada yada defund the police acab and all that #I’m so tired ur honor

[hella1975]

im being so serious besties i am not cut out for academia

#like yes i know ive had a very uniquely shit experience in doing a degree i actively not only hate but also am BAD AT #but also i just. cannot hack it #'but hella you go mental and pessimistic every single exam period' i know that but. im right also #like the other day i said to my mum how much ive just been enjoying my job recently #and how huge a deal that is bc i HATE my hometown and ive never ever considered my time here as possibly being good #and my 20s will hopefully be a lot of travelling but in between that to save easier im gonna live at home #so i dont have to worry about rent so alas that means when im saving up for my next trip I WILL BE IN MY HOMETOWN #and as excited as i am for my twenties that is one huge downside to me but i was really cheerfully saying to my mum #that literally for the first time ever ive considered it might not be too bad bc lately i have just enjoyed my job #like i enjoy the people and the work and the lifestyle of it and while it's never gonna be ideal as a means to an end it's actually good #and instead of focussing on that she went OFF on one about how she wants me to stay in education and keep getting qualifications #and she was like 'you could do an english degree you've always wanted to do english or how about open university-' #and i was just sat there blinking at her like girl.... no #like i could FEEL myself shutting down like the terror of having to return to this environment when ive got my sight so set #on that 'one more year and im done one more year and im done' mindset like that has been the only thing getting my through #is that im halfway through the course now so im closer to the other end than i am the beginning and if i can just push through #ill be free from it for the rest of my life. so the thought of immediately returning to academia even for a subject i adore? i felt ILL #and my mum apologised the next day without me even having to say anything bc she realised she kinda bulldozed me there #but i just know whether it's the adhd or ive actually been traumatised by this econ degree #(<- and im being serious there like ik 'traumatised' is a big loaded word but idk what else to use #and this degree has done so so much damage to me like it has convinced me that i am fundamentally a stupid person #to the point i refuse to add up bills when with friends or do answer any sort of intellectual question even if i KNOW i know the answer #bc ive just gone so so long of being bad at the only subject im studying like just SURROUNDED by it and being bad at it relentlessly #and i dont think people realise how damaging it is to very simply just... feel stupid all the time. but oh my god i used to be so confident #and bright and now i wont even do basic addition in front of people) #i really truly dont think i can do this again in any capacity. like the constant exams and studying and assignments #i just cant do it. maybe i just need a year or two away from it after this degree but my goddddd rn i cant see it #yes it's exam time for me can u tell. it always makes me existential and on the verge of vomiting at any given moment #i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i dont care about iterated deletion of strictly dominated strategies shut the fuck up #hella goes to uni

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

sometimes I think about The Last and want to scream

#I hate that I love it I hate that it's so out of pocket and uncalled for and downright out of line but SO COMPELLING AND FASCINATING #LIKE THE CHARACTER WORK THAT ONE AUDIO DOES IS INSANE??????? #Everyone In This TARDIS (which is missing) Is Suicidal #and I am not even kidding they ARE #C'rizz seeing ghosts. he always sees dead people but this isn't that it's just that he's almost like them but not quite yet #he's always been haunted it just happens more now. #eight's failure and perception thereof he hates himself but still thinks he's the only one who can handle it but he can't handle it #charley who's been on the other end of it who knows what c'rizz has been through and done and who knows what it's like to be asked #STILL asking him to kill her if it comes to it even though she KNOWS it would shatter him bc it already HAS and it already shattered HER #and eight oh eight oh doctor at the end of his rope I am in fact always thinking about the way he says oh what the hell at the end of it #he doesn't care if he lives or dies he's at the end of his rope and has lost all hope he's failed everyone who loves him not only charley #who miraculously still trusts him to some degree even after he broke her into pieces not only charley who he loves #but also c'rizz who did still have that open honest trust in him c'rizz his hesitant beginning to be friend #c'rizz who he understands and who understands him bc the kinship and silent bond between them existed even then #someone remind me to go get my rant on scaredy cat's importance and spruce it up I need to talk about it #because the doctor did love c'rizz too he DID charley was wrong!!! the writers were wrong!!! everyone was wrong about them!!! #he LOVED him but it was so different as to be almost unrecognizable I'm going to CRY #THEY MEANT SO MUCH TO EACH OTHER ALL THREE OF THEM THEY COULDN'T EXIST WITHOUT EACH OTHER ANYMORE #THEY LOST ONE THEN THE OTHER AND NONE OF THEM WAS THE SAME ANYMORE #only in the Last it happened in the wrong order. not the way it was supposed to be. #Lu rambles #dweu #meta finding tag #eighth doctor #charley pollard #c'rizz

[pentanguine]

The next time I’m tempted to have a robust social life, someone remind me: DON’T

#i have done quite simply way too much over the past week #and am going to do even more this coming week yay?? #today i hosted an entire fucking picnic which was just an ordeal from start to finish #(and it shouldn't have been! i got to see my friends and the weather was lovely and my friends were lovely and it went objectively well) #but i was so worn out from pride yesterday that i had to spend most of the day in bed #and i was fretting to an unreasonable degree about whether i had enough food and the right kind of food and whether i was Normal #(spoiler: python you are never Normal and that's fine) #and then the picnic itself was. fine. objectively. good! objectively. #but i invited two different groups of friends and each group mainly talked to each other and i felt split between them #and i got so overwhelmed trying to keep track of two conversations at once #and i said dumb stuff and didn't say stuff i'd meant to say and ended up having an abrupt on-stage reality check that my brain is a bastard #who bullies me by telling me shit that isn't true #and now i'm like...so overwhelmed i feel like i'm gonna cry #too much thinking about my brain being a dick on multiple levels and feeling spread thin among my friends and worn out socially and also now #thinking about personal things i wasn't particularly planning to think about at 10pm tonight and just. #oh my god. #the next time i try to have an active social life someone lock me in a cupboard for a week #personal

[salsa-di-pomodoro]

GOD DAMN IT i know i must sound like a broken record by now but. I was feeling GOOD today. I felt happy and confident enough to check the submas tags for once. And all was good until i saw ONE SINGULAR ANGST POST, and now I'M DEPRESSED AGAIN. I HATE THIS SO MUCH

[btw none of u are obligated to cheer me up lol i just want to complain into the void. I'll remove the submas tag in like an hour i just want to feel seen (even though i know i already am) for a moment]

#if i were to let myself cry rn i would i am actively holding back tears AGAIN #im so pissed rn #NOT angry at angst creators and if i was it would be an irrational anger and i understand that. #i love angst. but its like im getting poisoned from having too much of it #me approaching my time of the month probably doesnt help with thay but. i was doing well #im so pissed #personal #nowdays anykindof ending tht isnt a perfect ending where ingo goes home and is fine and gets to move on with emmet upsets me to some degree #angst posts send me into a spiral. i should fix that before anything but i'm already going to therapy what else should i do. #no really if anyone has any advice i would love it. #i wish i was stable enough to handle this but i havent been since covid started. #then again back then i didn't interact too much with fandoms #sigh. im gonna play some sonic mania when im done with homework to get that good nostalgia dopamine #cringeposting also helps lol it makes me want to equal parts laugh and disappear into the ground #submas tag removed

[welcometogrouchland]

Pacing around my room (metaphorically, I'm very much in bed) trying to sort out all my thanks to them thoughts. What is going ON in here (my brain)?????

#ramblings of a lunatic #toh #I'VE MADE SO MANY POSTS AND I STILL HAVE SOME IN DRAFTS #WHAT IS THERE LEFT TO DO???? #god. i think the whole act 1 of a movie angle is just REALLY throwing me off big time #because literally every stumbling block i found in the episode has to do with the ending #belos and his presence/motivs the hunter possession and subsequent rebirth flapjack portal lore etc #all of it is clearly meant to flow into the next episodes but in the meantime I'm BITTER! I'm a bitter betty abt it!!! #it's honestly got me really nervous for the next specials yknow?? which is weird! #i started off really excited and still am I'm just pessimistic to a disruptive degree #I'm sure I'll have more fun talking with my friends abt it irl tomorrow (since we r all very autistic abt this show) #and I'll be back in the swing of things #but for real now I'm just sitting here stopping myself from speculating on things #bc I'm worried I'll get too attached to my own expectations #and I don't wanna put all my eggs in one basket #EVEN THOUGH SPECULATING IS ONE OF THE MOST FUN PARTS OF THIS SHOW FOR ME. GOD! PAIN AND MURDER #again it's weird i have critiques of the endings execution but then i see certain critiques thrown around and I'm like >:(( #bc i do think it's 90% a really good episode #okay okay I'm done talking abt this for now. I'm gonna work on being normal again

[riverofrainbows]

I want to look like a boy so bad its lowkey ruining my life

#tw i am venting in the tags so read with warning if you're not in the headspace for that #own post #trans #dysphoria #i want t so bad but i cant until I'm done with uni to not ruin my state exam with transphobia and i kind of have to get top surgery first #because i cant wear a binder (because of the same disability that causes me to need an extra semester longer for uni i am so close to the #end of my degree) #and top surgery might also take time #and then t comes with a ton of requirements in my stupid transphobic country so it might take even longer #and there is a law in the making to make informed consent possible (and changing your name and gender marker without two evaluations and a #court case) but it'll probably take two more years and there is always the risk of them taking it to the next election period and fucking #everything up because we all know politicians never hold their promises #and i am so burnt out all i want is to sleep #i have been alone at home for a week and i realised i need so much more alone time than i thought as soon as i got used to it I started #having meltdowns going to the grocery store this is so stupid #and i could talk to my parents about it but what could they do? help me process my emotions? dont be ridiculous #they love me so much and support me in everything but they know jack shit about helping me with my emotions #so now i am emotionally neglected while having loving parents bc they were emotionally neglected and never fucking figured it out #which they should have #before popping out a kid #and i should go to bed because this is very much a 'dont trust your emotions after midnight' moment #but i am currently sobbing uncontrollably so that is not very practical

[magnoliamyrrh]

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#i cant help but think that were making a mistake in planning to do social/ppl work. in doing anthropology in the first place #ive never been good with people #i dont know if i ever will be #nor am i particularly fond of being surrounded by people constantly and infact i quite value my silence #... i can never seem to quite get the hang of interactions. of how to talk of how to move of how to speak #and while i have spend years pretend i do. it has only left me tired #... what am i to do exactly if this is what we go into? what happens if almost inevitabley it is me and not somebody else on a day when we #must deal with people - be it attempting to help or large groups of them or whatever it may be #.... i feel like im being signed up for a life of exhaustion if we do this. i am too quiet. i am too much of a solitary creature #.. what we should have done is gone to veternay school instead. which is what we wanted to do for some years anyway. still helping. less #people work though ... #. i could have done that so much more easily #...... it has taken me too many years of this life to stop hating humans all together. i can understand them. for survivals sake. but this #is all. i have yet to learn to trust them much nor have they given me much reason to nor do i see much benefit to doing so #i am tired. of the nonsencial cruelty. of all of it. #perhaps i do not wish to spend years trying to help beings which i barely trust #what happens if. as it happens at times. i end up being the one to front for days or weeks or months? it seems like a recipe for disaster #we truly should have just worked with animals instead that is something we can all easily do #. its too late now anyway #last year of college. there is no time or money or energy for another degree #my fate seems to be sealed and for months or perhaps years now ive been - i would say turning in my grave but i suppose im not yet dead - #over this.. and now it truly is past time #..... it was a mistake as well that we did not stick to horseback riding in highschool. no. instead we listened to people and parents and #family. do this do that you can do so much better et fucking cetera. those highschool years of academic insanity wrecked this body. wrecked #it. college was too much when we were so mentally and physically ill #.... life could have been different now #if we had stuck to it

[lavender-femme]

One thing about me I’m going to complain about not wanting to go to work the night before an opening shift but I’m gonna complain more when I get scheduled for mids

#people who have work before 5am rise up #work in 4 hours and I simply do not want to go #couldn’t possibly have anything to do with the fact that I’ve got immense stress in my life coupled with immense sadness #and it’s causing a chronic pain AND migraine flare up #I was supposed to get all my tasks done today but instead I just ended up getting 2 things done and then feeling extremely sick #the 100+ degree heat is not helping anything #my car’s ac doesn’t work #my car is repeatedly overheating #i miss [redacted] so goddamn much I can’t even explain or fully comprehend it #my mom won’t tell me how she actually feels because she doesn’t comprehend the gravity of the situation (live laugh love dimentia + MS) #I’m down hours this week because I’ve sorta called out plus I was only at 25 originally because the store near us is closed for remodel and #we have some of their people taking up labor hours at our store #managed to get back up to 36 hours but then I left early monday #and got 2.5 of my 5 hours covered Tuesday #so now here I am and I’m stressed and it just fucking sucks #i miss having her as a constant #as an anchor #even with chaos happening in my life I could always count on her #and did my best at the time to make sure she knew she could count on me #i tried so hard #i miss her #i miss my lovebug keeping me grounded when my brain felt like it would just float away #guys I’m so tired I need to try and go back to sleep #send good vibes please #especially if you made it this far #I’m talking #broken petals

[latinokaeya-moving]

the way i know i’m writing for the grand audience of just me is that i am so determined to one day write the genshin ib au ive come up w in my mind despite knowing that the concept appeals to exactly no one apart from me and the venn diagram center of ppl who r both into genshin n actively even looking for ib aus in the first place

#x #i have thought abt this more than i care to admit but i am simply kind of obsessed w it #it’s kaeya as garry klee as ib and albedo as mary btw. lol #i’ve already thought it through n i’ll probs write it w a memory crannies/promise of reunion ending first n then have an extra of a second #‘ideal’ ending where all three manage to escape somehow. the details r still being ironed out but something something alchemical #flowers and grafting and giving up a part of ur soul for another #i agonised over not wanting to just do a cutesy fix it ending bc i Like ibs actual endings a lot even if they’re all bittersweet to some d #degree* if ur sympathetic to the three mains. but like at the end of this day it’s an indulgent fic au so i’m fine w it lol #deffo gonna be 💔 to kill albedo for the first ending though. rip but its gotta be done #anyways genshin ib au So Real To Me #gi posting

[soy-sauce-and-mothra]

Hey! Are there blacksmiths in your story? I'm a hobbyist blacksmith and I'm here to help!

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Not all blacksmiths are gigantic terrifying muscly guys with beards and deep voices. I am 5'8, skinny as a twig, have the muscle mass of wet bread, and exist on Tumblr. Anybody who is strong enough to pick up a hammer and understands fire safety can be a blacksmith.

You can make more than just swords with blacksmithing. Though swords are undeniably practical, they're not the only things that can be made. I've made candle holders, wall hooks, kebab skewers, fire pokers, and more. Look up things other people have made, it's really amazing what can be done.

"Red-hot" is actually not that hot by blacksmith terms. when heated up, the metal goes from black, to red, to orange, to yellow, to white. (for temperature reference, I got a second degree burn from picking up a piece of metal on black heat) The ideal color to work with the metal is yellow. White is not ideal at all, because the metal starts sparking and gets all weird and lumpy when it cools. (At no point in this process does the metal get even close to melting. It gets soft enough to work with, but I have never once seen metal become a liquid.)

Blacksmithing takes fucking forever. Not even taking into account starting the forge, selecting and preparing metal, etc. etc. it takes me around an hour to make one (1) fancy skewer. The metals blacksmiths work with heat up and cool down incredibly fast. When the forge is going good, it only takes like 20 seconds to get your metal hot enough to work with, but it takes about the same time for it to cool down, sometimes even less.

As long as you are careful, it is actually stupidly easy to not get hurt while blacksmithing. When I picked up this hobby I was like "okay, cool! I'm gonna make stuff, and I'm gonna end up in the hospital at some point!" Thus far, the latter has yet to occur. I've been doing this for nearly a year. I have earned myself a new scar from the aforementioned second degree burn, and one singe mark on my jeans. I don't even wear gloves half the time. Literally just eye protection, common sense, and fast reflexes and you'll probably be fine. (Accidents still happen of course, but I have found adequate safety weirdly easy to achieve with this hobby)

A forge is not a fire. The forge is the thing blacksmiths put their metal in to heat it up. It starts as a small fire, usually with newspaper or something else that's relatively small and burns easily, which we then put in the forge itself, which is sort of a fireplace-esque thing (there's a lot of different types of forge, look into it and try to figure out what sort of forge would make the most sense for the context you're writing about) and we cover it with coal, which then catches fire and heats up. The forge gets really hot, and sometimes really bright. Sometimes when I stare at the forge for too long it's like staring into the sun. The forge is also not a waterfall of lava, Steven Universe. It doesn't work like that, Steven Universe.

Welding and blacksmithing are not the same thing. They often go hand-in-hand, but you cannot connected two pieces of metal with traditional blacksmithing alone. There is something called forge welding, where you heat your metal, sprinkle borax (or the in-universe equivalent) on it to prevent the metal from oxidizing/being non-weldable, and hammer the pieces together very quickly. Forge welding also sends sparks flying everywhere, and if you're working in a small space with other blacksmiths, you usually want to announce that you're welding before you do, so that everyone in a five-foot radius can get out of that five-foot radius. You also cannot just stuck some random pebbles into the forge and get a decent piece of metal that you can actually make something with, Steven Universe. It doesn't work like that, Steven Universe.

Anvils are really fucking heavy. Nothing else to add here.

Making jewelry is not a blacksmithing thing unless you want jewelry made of steel. And it will be very ugly if you try. Blacksmithing wasn't invented to make small things.

If there's anything here I didn't mention, just ask and I'll do my best to answer.

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