#but i've been told this is similar with:

[aletterinthenameofsanity]

As someone who is guilty of loving all three of these (and who is currently writing one of them), I'm curious to see what others think.

#divergent #power rangers #harry potter #if we were villains #riverdale #breakfast club #glee #i'm not as familiar with magical girl series #but i've been told this is similar with: #sailor moon #and #the winx club #please tell me if i'm wrong #dark academia #poll #and if you're curious yes i'm doing a color-coded Power-Rangers-esque sci-fi trilogy #what? color-coding is fun! #especially if you get a color-coded dragon to go with it! #we meet at the end #anti jkr

[the-daily-male]

Today's daily male is Crosshair from The Bad Batch!

for anonymous!

#daily male #tbb crosshair #the bad batch crosshair #clone trooper crosshair #tbb #the bad batch #Star wars #clone force 99 #men #masculinity #mod howl #still haven't watched this show which is a shame because the best Star wars media is clone wars and I've been told this is similar

[guardian-angle22]

911 Lone Star -> 2.08 Bad Call | Carlos + his reaction to praise

#911 lone star #carlos reyes #tk strand #gabriel reyes #owen strand #the way he was being told by so many people how * GOOD * he is in this episode #and every time his face has that little mix of surprised. happy. proud. bit of disbelief #tw: flashing gif #my gifs #this has literally nothing to do with what I was going to work on today but I just noticed how similar his reactions were when... #... I was making the tarlos gifset for this episode and I just couldn't help but go back and watch all of these scenes #my brain was buzzing #especially since there's another gifset i've been wanting to do with tk that this kind of relates to in a way #ok stop rambling in the tags #episode: s02e08 bad call

[neon-catarina]

couldn't a reason Mind and Heart hate each other be because of whole's love interest (sung in Haiku and Hidden In The Sand), like how Whole really liked them, but he thought that they would never love him, so basically his Heart wanted to ask them out and pursue a relationship, but his Mind refused thinking they would never love him. And its mostly because of that Whole split into three in the first place, so they both blame each other for it, and that's why they hate each other?

#neon spews actual nonsense #i had to write this down at least because i might forget and it's pretty late #i've been really thinking about the love interest a lot actually #someone told me their name was “Lee” and i think thats a fitting name #like i know some people call them “harmony” or “melody” #but harmony reminds me of gold and pink (like “harmonia”) #though its nice because the names are similar and like they are “Whole” in a sense but idk #and melody gives purple vibes and that is strictly a Heart colour #and lee gives off grey vibes with VERY SLIGHT hints of purple #and i like that because grey is like a bystander colour #Like Lee isn't important enough so they are part of the background #also the original and the cover of hidden in the sand had desaturated imagery so its grey and yeah #sorry for the tag ramble under another ramble lol #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cccc #cccc heart #cccc mind #cj heart #cj mind

[thedreadvampy]

The thing is I am definitely not happy or chill in the Immediate Sense lately but I am, big picture, so fucking happy with the person I am.

It's like. My brain was made by and for consistent trauma and since that trauma stopped about 5-7 years ago, it is incredible what the amount of resilience and cleverness and flexibility and thoughtfulness I developed to survive can do when it's not being all spent on surviving. like I had a hundred ton weight on me so I had to get REALLY STRONG to stay in the same place and not get 100% crushed, and when that weight came off I found I can use the strength it used to take to stand up and I can leap tall buildings in a single bound.

I was talking to my mum the other day and she said, "you've got the 'fuck it' energy at 30 that most women don't find until their fifties at least" and I'm like yeah man. Imagine how unstoppable I'll be in 20 years.

#red said #i don't know that i can express this clearly but it's the most encouraging thing in my life #my mum's always been proud of me but just lately she seems to actually really admire me #like she's genuinely impressed. she thinks I've surpassed her. i don't necessarily agree but it's a really nice quiet joy. #anyway like this sounds super up myself and it kind of is. #but also it's part of realising just how heavy the weight I've been carrying around with me for 25 years was #like not to be ridiculous but i have realised again this week. that it isn't that everyone's been raped that much and doesn't talk about it #i just have been raped an Unusually Consistent Amount. i have spoken to a lot of people who have had much more horrifying things happen. #I'm not sure I've talked to more than a couple of people who've had a similar level of total consistency of abuse from all angles #and the one is not heavier or harder to bear that the other. but. i think i spent most of my life listening to people's awful experiences #and going ok well nothing i went through looked that bad so it's microtrauma #obviously microtraumas build up but still. #then the older i get and the more i have these conversations the more I notice that stuff which to me is a microtrauma #is a lot of people's defining trauma. and they're reacting appropriately which means i am SO SEVERELY UNDERREACTING #told my friend the other day about a time someone who i still like and respect was having sex with me when i paralocated my hip #and then just kept getting really annoyed with me for not being ready to have sex again while i was literally crying with pain #until i caved and just tried to find the last painful position #and my friend was like pal what the fuck that's horrific #and i was like i mean no that's normal I've had sex with like maybe 3 or 4 people in my life who i haven't had similar stuff with #like i am genuinely thrown when i am allowed to say no to sex and have it be the end of the conversation. and not end up having sex #out of guilt or out of physical coercion or through physical rape. and i have had sex with probably like 40 people at this stage? #and I'm not sure it's as many as 4 i haven't had that experience with tbh #so like. I'm slowly coming to terms with the idea #that i may have actually been doing a hell of a lot of heavy lifting. #like i developed a sense of self that can survive being constantly crushed and at this stage is fucking diamond.

[felizusnavidad]

i'm going home tomorrow & i'm so excited to see my family, i really missed them

#also my mom told me some time ago that i'm really brave & i shouldn't give up #but i don't feel brave i feel tired #so basically i had three different jobs this year #first one i quit because i hated it & it was too chaotic #i got fired from the second one after over a month because apparently i was too nice #now the third one i know is just temporary because it's similar to the one i quit last year #and it's only because i need money so i can't stay jobless #my situation is kinda fucked up because i live here alone so i have to pay rent #and i really don't want to go back to my parents #i know i can but i wanna stay here #i've been working so hard to move to my favourite city and i want to start studies here this year i just can't give up #so i just took the job i didn't want #and i keep looking for something i might actually like #but god i'm tired #i feel like the biggest fucking failure #i just need a normal fucking job jesus why is it so hard #i don't want to work with customers anymore i hate people #and i also want to earn a little more money because trust me it's not that easy to live fucking alone #i mostly spend my money on food cause unfortunately i have to eat #but i'm not interested in just surviving i really want to start feeling alive again #ugh #talking shit for the hell of it*

[wild-west-wind]

I'm making a pot of beans for a potluck, and I swear to god if these people don't eat the food I made for any reason I will never cook at another potluck again.

#I've had one where my food was taken off the table by someone who made a similar dish and came later #I've been uninvited last minute #I've had a party get cancelled and then un cancelled but no one told me it was back on #I'm a good cook! #and I'm very broke! #I don't want this big fuckin pot of beans #I'm doing this to be a team player #and I will fucking scream if they go untouched

[fayeandknight]

I'm still having kind of a rough time personally, but I got a compliment at work that was so nice it almost makes everything okay.

It was my off leash agility 1 class. And at the end I was telling them how impressed I was since the dog recently completed the intro class and this was only their second time working off leash. And they told me

"At the previous place we trained we were always wrong and she was always a bad dog. Here, you're always saying we're right and that she's a good dog. We never thought she could be engaged and off leash let alone doing amazing things like flying over jumps. But she loves it and it's like you've given us permission to love her."

Y'all I almost bawled on the spot.

This is what drives me to teach agility. I absolutely love showing people how amazing their dogs are and helping them build a relationship centered on having fun together as a team.

#dogblr #teaching agility class #dog agility #when this dog started she was so nervous #now i realize she was afraid to do the wrong thing #she's really blossomed and loves taking jumps #and her people are constantly taking videos to share with family #who I've been told can hardly believe she's the same dog #and I've noticed a similar change in their behavior #they started the class so stiff and only doing exactly what i said #but now they take my advice as suggestions and modify as needed #they dance around with joy and praise their dog and tell her she's amazing #i don't need a legacy of impressive trial dogs #i just want to give people an avenue through which they fall in love with their dogs and see themselves as teammates rather than adversaries

[sharkface]

Insanely miss playing DND as of late

#talk #The main game I've been playing for many years now is on kind of an indefinite hold #And the campaign I was going to DM once it concluded is on hold for similar reasons because it was the same group #So now I'm like. Well I want to play a new campaign. But I don't want to leave anyone out. #And truth be told my usual group is very small and the reduced party size might lead to some balancing issues that #I am not sure how to reconcile as a very inexperienced DM

[isfjmel-phleg]

😶

#random personal stuff #back on my soapbox feel free to ignore #I'm sorry - I know I harp on this a lot but #where did this 'just ask the Lord to remove that from you' (or something similar) approach to others' problems come from #and why is it so ingrained into multiple generations of women #instead of actually addressing a concern you raise you get told that #the solution to your problem is divinely-granted selective amnesia so it doesn't bother you anymore #or you get reminded that Jesus had it so much worse so any problem that you let yourself get down about is inconsequential by comparison #and I know the advice is well-meant but #...I mean when was the last time God wiped your memory on request? #when did Jesus ever make suffering a competition? #why are we more interested in sweeping others' bad feelings under the rug where we don't have to see them than in actually dealing with them #I open up about something that's troubling me and I get this kind of response and I feel dismissed! #and it's frustrating! especially from people whose struggles I try to be sympathetic toward when they talk about them #there's not a good solution but thank you for listening #I'm sorry I've been ranting but this visit puts me in a position where I can only speak my mind if it agrees with others #and I am an incorrigibly opinionated jerk and it all has to go somewhere #so I appreciate your patience with my lack of it

[uncanny-tranny]

I think part of what helped my dysphoria in the short-term was to remember that human bodies are varied, but wow, they're also so similar, and that my body doesn't really differ from many men.

When I'm dysphoric about my chest? Well, other men are, too, and that means I'm not the only person like me. I've also done some research into human anatomy and biology, and it's taught me so much. The idea that male and female bodies are, like, separate species is patently false. The structure of the "average" male and female are actually more similar than you'd think, and that makes sense. When I'm dysphoric, I remember that little fact. Does it help every time? No, but it reminds me to slow down and remember that I'm not a species separate from everybody else.

This isn't to say this cures dysphoria. I'm still dysphoric, but at least reframing how I view myself and my body allows me to help myself. This is just one of my personal ways I help myself, and I hope it might perhaps give other people ideas or inspiration if they are in a similar place.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #the human reproductive system for (at least perisex) humans is very similar for example #i ought to download the little infographic illustrating that because it really helped my personal dysphoria #i probably made a post like this before but i don't particularly care because it is true #i've been told so often that male and female bodies are like apples and oranges when that isn't really the case. we aren't seperate species #sure there can be differences but that doesn't suddenly mean that we're completely and irrevocably different

[the-one-who-lambs]

Fanfic roadmap for the near future...

So I'm working on a longer oneshot wip and it's about 69% done. (I won't promote it on this blog when I do post it, but there's your hint as to its contents.)

But, after that, inspiration to revisit my series, The Risen Lamb and the Fallen God, has definitely hit. Though I still cherish it dearly, there's a lot I want to expand upon! I wrote it a year ago in a hyperfixated stupor, and looking back at it now, I have so many more ideas I want to delve more into. I'm planning to absolutely keep my first drafts up as a series because I intended for most of them to be able to stand alone. This time around I'll probably write it as a multichapter fic, since I aim to build upon many of the plot elements. With all I'm planning to add, I expect the wordcount to double.

For those of you who are following me from my earlier days, I'd love to hear from you all what you want to see more of in a rewrite of the series. I don't think I'll delete many (if any) scenes from my first draft, but some ideas I plan to detail further in my new-and-improved Narilamb saga include the following so far: the awkward not-quite-enemies but not-quite-friends stage between Narinder and the Lamb, Lamb's raw bitterness towards Narinder soon after the boss fight for betraying them (and vice versa!), lore from the Relics of the Old Faith update including interactions with the Mystic Seller (and thus Lamb needing Narinder's guidance on wielding the crown, which opens them up to the idea of how much they actually need him as an ally), Narinder interacting with the other members of the cult... among other smaller ideas as well.

When I started thinking about this series again, it made me realize how many of my readership have stuck around from my early days in the fandom. Those of you who have stuck around for more than a year and continue to read what I put out, especially, seeing you continuously makes me so, so happy. I appreciate you all so much.

Anyway. Let me know what y'all want to see too.

#hannah's rambles #I once found a couple of people (back when I was in the MM server for a few weeks before it got too overwhelming) #Who met me there and promptly lost their shit because they had literally become friends *because of my writing* and I stg I actually cried #That moment and having a readership I recognize have been the greatest compliments of my 14 months writing for cult of the lamb #I already knew how art could bring people together because I've made many friendships along a similar vein #But it didn't click that I too was capable of doing that for others until they told me about how they met #And y'all are too. Be proud of what you bring to this fandom #Whether you're a fanartist or writer or roleplayer or whatever else or cheer on the creatives from the sidelines #sorry for the tag dump (I know I do it all the time)

[gregoftom]

good fucking food

#tomgreg #OH GOD OH FUCK #greg has agreed to do whatever tom has asked every time and this is the first time he's been like #no actually i'm gonna go to the bros myself despite the fact that tom told him not to #and tom's already taken the hit of nate being invited to the party which is still a sore spot #bc it was supposed to be his and sh*v's party just like it was supposed to be his and sh*vs wedding yet nate is there. again. #so he's like. ok greg let's strategise [i find strategy sexy] make me feel secure with you #and when greg does in fact not do that... oh man. tom's face he's noooot happy about it!!! #his voice goes all high pitched and he does an expression actually similar to sh*v lol #like FINE WHATEVER I DONT CARE DO WHAT YOU WANT [narrator voice: he did in fact care a lot] #but then he touches greg's back!!!!! aaargahrga! tom you are so transparent!!!! he's so very clearly attached to both sh*v and greg #like atp i don't care. he feels similarly to greg as he does to sh*v i've seen enough evidence this season to prove that to me #as in. feelings. romantically. when they hurt him he still loves them and is gentle with them until he can't take it any more. #i don't know when we'll see what happens with greg maybe next episode GOD #if the firing thing does happen which i don't want!!!! god!!!!! maybe THEN we'll see it #maybe an argument somewhat like his and sh*v's tho obviously not to the scale but like. WHO HAS HAD YOUR BACK THIS WHOLE TIME #WHO HAS EVER LOOKED AFTER YOU IN THIS FUCKING FAMILY #god. i need to seeee that. don't just leave it hangin jesse i'm begging you bestie #but like he is soooo bpd it is actually insane. i shake his hand #also ''team kenro'' probably wasn't grea tfor him to hear adksjds #WDYM TEAM KENRO DONT YOU MEAN TEAM NERSPOR >:(((

[hearvex]

your latest reblog about the whole situation is honestly how i’m feeling about it all- but i know voicing that would immediately be shut down by people. I just want more context :/

no yeah literally same (tw // sa in tags)

#i always support victims but i've seen many cases where the accusation is just a lie #Or just exaggerated to fit their narrative of the other person being the Bad Guy #but like as i've mentioned in my priv #i've been in a very similar situation with a guy and our age difference was Way bigger than what it is in this case #both drunk both over 18 yet i felt fucking uncomfortable after what happened so i cut him off #if i told the story the way she did i could also make it look like he assaulted me yet i didn't because i believe that simply didnt happen #sure he was way older than me yes he shouldve known better but i was at fault too #consent was implied and i never said no which is why this case is just ehhhhh #hits home and i don't necessarily see how he's being thrown to the dungeon this fast #but maybe it's just me projecting and it was Worse idk #if it was just tickling vs groping you know whole different story #too many thoughts #if it was worse and consent wasnt implied and groped her or worse then a big fuck you to him #but if that's not the case then ehhhh idk #ask h

[thedreadvampy]

wait no sorry one last quick immature bitch moment

the more I find out about how this person has behaved in both this relationship and a bunch of other relationships, the funnier it is how much they like to set themselves up as a like. authority on ethical nonmonogamy and consent and conflict management.

when like. they constantly sexually assault people to prove a point, pressure their partners into shit, got into enm by cheating on 3 people concurrently, and literally every time a problem in their orbit is brought up it gets explained away without anything actually changing, or they cry about how hard it is until everyone says OH NO IT'S FINE DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT

you know. very "call yourself a Community Organizer even though you're not on speaking terms with your roommates" energies.

#red said #I'm mad tbh i know in being bitchy but this blog is my safe space to be bitch on #and this shit has been building up for years. not even just in my relationship with their partner. since the first time i meet them #in like 2018 #and having this chat with my pal last night now I'm no longer second guessing myself bc of my relationship has uhhh Crystalised Some Things #especially getting some new context on where a lot of the tensions and sensitivities I've been aware of for ages are from #also tbh when we broke up my ex led off with 'i know you think this is about [partner] but it's not' and i was like. it is though. #it's not the only thing but it's been a common thread through every piece of tension in that relationship #not saying if the partner wasn't there we'd have been together forever. i don't think that's true and I'm glad things went the way they did. #cause w were good for each other and breaking up was also good for us #but their partner has really caused me so so so so so much turmoil for years and i haven't felt able to acknowledge that cause it makes me #feel like an asshole. but like. OK SO I'M AN ASSHOLE. I'M FUCKING MAD AT THEM. #they are manipulative and controlling and they treat their partner like shit and they have perpetually made my life worse #i like a lot of things about them and i do feel for them. we share a lot of similar issues and i do understand how they feel a lot. #but fuck me they treat everyone around them so badly and a good chunk of the reason i ended things with their partner #is that i was so fucking sick of being told i was wrong and just didn't understand how hard they had it whenever i brought up #one of the many many many shitty things they did to me or to our partner or to our friends. #multiple times i left a situation in a fully fucked up mess and my partner came to apologise for how their partner has behaved #and within minutes it would turn into them explaining to me how it wasn't really their fault and i shouldn't be so hard on them #and like fuck that. had enough of that in my life with my previous ex. #anyway. yeah. i am probably being more didactic and aggro here than i genuinely feel. but there's some room for that anger i think #and i did get some room for it to breathe last night and that's good and helpful.

[rubberbandballqueen]

hmm i have like, 500-600 taiwan dollars leftover in a tin from the last time i visited relatives... i wonder what would happen if i just handed it to my little cousins like. "yep. here is gift. have fun."

#i heard them trying to sound out 'eidelweiss' on the piano so i've also been thinking of giving them this little music box i bought #a while back that plays eidelweiss. put it in little box with money and letter that is like. 'hello. cousin cares about you.' #'but cousin is awkward and has bad hearing and speaking skills. anyway here's some money and a music box for you.' #i checked n it's like the equivalent of almost 20 usd so like. that's an appropriate gift for nine-year-olds i think #today at work i was cutting glow sticks in half for our craft and i was not wearing any gloves so i got minor chemical burns <3 #like part of the skin on my thumb n pointer finger got bleached so i went around n showed alllll the kids #like. 'hey. check out my chemical burn. this is why we wouldn't let you guys cut open the glow sticks yourselves.' #'because it will do This to you if you touch them too long. this is why we had you wash your hands when you finished.' #n some of them were like 'just wash it off' n i was like. 'it is a chemical burn. it is on my skin.' #at least i Think it was a chemical burn but i mean it was very minor (makes sense bc it's just glow sticks) so the skin's flaked off by now #similar happens when i touch my hair bleach w/o gloves so i'm Pretty Sure it was chemical burns #we had a table of kids who were speaking cn to each other so at some point i pieced together they didn't seem to pay attn. bc low en skills #anyway i broke my own rule abt no phones at work to look up 'chemical burns' in cn for them bc although they know i speak Some cn #(by giving them minor instructions for the glow stick craft) i was like. 'chemical burns... how to say....' #apparently they are mostly from taiwan which is fun i love it when i Don't receive microaggressions for writing in traditional c': #today's my only camp shift for the week tho... one of my coworkers died last week so i told my boss i could pick up his camp shifts #if no one else had but apparently i'd go over hours this week... feelsbad man. it's summer + we're always understaffed #so there's gonna be a point when the front desk worker is gonna be covering the camps for a little bit which is. i feel bad ahaha #the worm speaks