#college just really sucks

[trulytiredhermit]

Y’all I…

Tell me why my brain decided a good dream for me to have would be waking up and seeing Tumblr was deleted?

….deadass thought I was gonna start sobbing or at least screaming cause all my work was lost…

(Man I don’t usually remember my dreams… I wish I didn’t remember this one 😂)

#trulytiredhermit #hey not dead #college just really sucks #dreams are weird and mine are weirder

[dayurno]

honestly you can say anything about the ravens (and you'd be right to) but you can't say the concept of them isn't delicious. a group of collegiate athletes in their intimidating raven motifs and their black uniforms who are basically bred to become the best of the best in a bloodsport. the adrenaline rush of every game being a competition between yourself and your teammates. knowing you're not just gearing up towards court but following in the footsteps of the alumni before you. the parties and the victories and the mindless sex and the way everyone around you somehow seems to always be thinking the same thing as you are. you are never alone and you will never be again if you just do as we say. who knows the kind of relationships that can happen in a place like that?

#<- her ass would be easily sucked into a cult #BUT SERIOUSLY THEY FASCINATE ME. delicious as a concept #i think we as a fandom have a tendency to take the piss on them because theyre theatrical enough to be noticeable #and because neil himself does not respect them nor riko #but it is easy. i think. to lose sight of their humanity #of their morning classes and their college parties and their personhood beyond what the cult stripped from them #yes its fun sometimes to oversimplify the ravens #and they were terrible whenever they could #but i dont know. i dont know really where i was going with this. just musing i guess #its interesting to me #all for the game #aftg #kevin day #jean moreau #riko moriyama #the foxhole court

[emberglowfox]

closing time

#you know situation's dire when sparks breaks out the color block sona vent art LOOOOOOOL #sparks speaks #vent #again to all my new-ish followers i do post stuff like this from time 2 time PLEASE block one of those tags if you don't want to see it #long post #edit: fine to rb idgas #ummm NEway. i go back to college in like a month and the thought of it makes me want to curl up and die. idk if i can do it again tbh lol #i dont know how i survived the first time #<- LYING he does. and it was by letting the dissociation he is currently bitching about swallow him completely #if i really committed and tried i could probably claw my way out of this. but there's really no point when i'll just fall back into it soon #the forgetting my entire life does suck though. it does suck. #its really cool learning you've lost the only thing you thought you couldn't lose. #anyways. i'm fine im chillin i just. needed to get this out #if youre reading this preciate you. drink water

[coern-art-very-cool-and-nice]

sekai au 👊😔

#my post #hatsune loopku..... #isat #in stars and time #isat siffrin #isat loop #I was SUPPOSED to make a modern au but look. where that got me #prpject sekai..... #hsatsune miku...... #woaw......... #I haven't planned this yet. I just wanted to draw loop with Miku's pigtails really badly because I came up with the shape idea and went lik #ogguuguuuuGUG #oh bell yeas #actually well I have a little #small group of college students who met via tutor group (by odile) that turned into a book club and maybe band? #they would all suck playing instruments honestly #I made it a sekai au because I needed loop to go SOMEWHERE and went insane trying to figure something out till I finally went fuck whatever #fine #siffrin made a sekai and loop is there. fine. whatever. fine. yeah. fine #I don't know how the timeloop will come in. #I cant have both a timeloop and a sekai at once. #I would forget the other exists #and focus all on one #or it would be too much at once #also its kind of hard to do a timeloop like the one in-game in a modern way? #there's no good rocks to be crushed by that aren't like a collapsing building anyway #OH OH also this might be the last project sekai related art you see for a WHILE #this game hit my brain worse than project sekai I'm so serious #I've burned through almost all of my sketchbook and there are three(3) drawings that aren't siffrin #THREE.

[rrat-king]

honestly thank god it’s looking like kristen and fig dont want to/couldn’t get into college cuz. there is no way in hell that jawbone and sandra lynn would have been able to put three kids through college at once

#i say this as someone who was only able to go to college cuz my sibling didn’t it’s like. a relief. it sucks but it’s true #i watch this show for escapism when really it’s just fucking hs flashbacks #d20 #fhjy #fantasy high #dimension 20 #kristen applebees #fig faeth #adaine abernant

[craycraybluejay]

yes i am an adult male who loves high school dramas this is because i literally never experienced normal coming of age drama like ever and am disconnected from the collective experience of having a relatable peer group forever hope that helps

#i JUST want to experience high school #without like. my whole shitty life thing having gone on #i want to go to high school and have stupid drama and sexuality crises and worries about grades #not... That #i never had that im never going to have that #can i get (one) permission to go a little crazy if i survive into a university #fuck everyone befriend and be-enemy everyone get all up in peoples stupid mind numbingly low stakes drama #i want that sweet golden experience where the worst thing ill ever fear is annoying my classmates #or accidentally spilling something on someone at a dance #i deserve it i deserve to have had a childhood and a young adulthood and a life #i deserve to have dealt with unserious issues to prepare me for bigger ones #rather than serious danger that leaves me permanently severed from normal people and life #and makes me incapable of reacting proportionally or finding it in me to care about less serious problems #like yes it sucks your mom is going to miss college graduation #but i thank my lucky stars that you are not dying or being abused or starved or beaten or exploited #i literally dont know how to take things seriously a lot of the time like im not able to even if i try #because to me the mildest real problem is someone purposefully isolating you and ruining your health #the MILDEST #i try to care ab simple stuff i really do i just CANT #and it sucks so much trying to be a good friend and kind feeling like i cant do enough #the loud thought 'i wish that hapoened to me/i wish i worried about that/i wish the people i love only had that as a problem' #i get so envious. like thank fucking god your parents divorced like normal adults when it should be over #thank fucking god that 'friend' cut you off when they were actively insulting you and betraying your trust #thank the fucking universe that shitty partner dumped you before you fkn hurt yourself over them #yk? #and its a 'mean/cold' way to think about it but i just dont have the capacity to think or feel the little picture #i can imagine my friends subjected to such horror even tho i dont want to

[utahimeow]

i rly think writing is what i’m meant to do

#i know im not incredible or anything but i am pretty good #i think the only reason i get good grades in my college essays is bc my writing sounds smart bc i suck at actually making a point lol #i just get such a rush from writing a really good paragraph or description or whatever #and i dont really get that anywhere else #i wasnt a sporty or musical child or anything but ive been writing since i was 12 #just wish i wasn’t such a perfectionist so i could do it more often #ok anyways i doubt anyone will even read thisndknddnd #꒰ char chats. ꒱

[spielzeugkaiser]

kaiser, I've been low-key worried about you as you crawl your way out of the Covid Hole. How are you doing? Hopefully recovering some energy? Sending you good healing vibes from afar!

Ahh, I hope you don't mind that I answer this one publicly. First of all, aww, that is very sweet, thank you 🥺💖 I'm not gonna lie, I still struggle quite a bit with breathing and concentration, but I'm getting there! (That I'm exhausted all the time is a given, but it's always been like thay.) I'm currently working out to get my lungs back to where they should be, but I'm also currently teaching and studying and working and moving and traveling for work and- *deflates*

I miss drawing a lot and I feel really restless since I stopped. Hopefully I'll come back to it by next month - once S3 is here I'm definitely back in my clown makeup 🙈🤡

#covid really got to me #but moving is also really exhausting #and I'm teaching some uh.. I guess college classes (?) soon that I have yet to prepare for #and a paper to write #I should also hop over to the netherlands by the start of next month for a congress - I did send an abstract in for that one #and another one in six weeks #have I mentioned aaaaaa yet #also moving really sucks the life out of me #very exhausting and much to carry and build and so many ikea trips #but I still have a head like a sieve sadly so it's all a bit unorganized - which is normally not how I handle things #and I'm really :( about not drawing - it always makes me antsy because I feel the longer I stop the harder it is to start again #and I don't want to loose all my drive and just. stop one day #that has happened before and lasted for years ._______.

[susiephone]

childhood was just a long series of adults being like "don't judge a book by its cover!" and "treat others the way you want to be treated!" and then turning around and making the wildest snap judgments about people based on TINY amounts of information and expecting you to agree

#just remembered when i was like 12 and i was with a friend and her grandma #and i mentioned another friend and how she was already counting the days until she could go to college #and my friend's grandma was like 'well she sounds like a spoiled brat' and i was like UM?? HELLO?? #like slow your roll granny you have not even MET this girl #you know a grand total of one thing about her #and like?? for all she knew my friend's parents could've been abusive or something?? #they weren't to be clear. my friend just really wanted to skip to adulthood. #which is like. a normal ass thing for a 12 year old to want?? to be independent and grown up?? #also being 12 - 17 sucks of course everyone looks forward to what comes after #this was nearly 15 years ago and i am still lowkey mad about how quickly my friend's grandma (who was otherwise a nice woman) #just immediately decided my friend was ungrateful and spoiled #AGAIN. HAD NOT EVEN MET HER.

[the-broken-pen]

Would you be willing to do some sapphic dialogue between hero and Villain? ❤️

“I understand now,” the villain murmured, chin resting in her hand. The hero turned, swiping a bit of blood out of her eyes.

“Understand what?”

She was golden, her villain, standing there like that. Amongst rubble and ash as it drifted from the sky, light illuminating her like a halo. Like she was some sort of god.

“Why they all went mad. Why they started wars and spilt blood.”

The hero’s brow wrinkled as the villain stepped closer, but she held still as the villain tucked a bloodied piece of hair behind her ear. 

“Have you gone mad, then?” It was half teasing.

The villain laughed, smoothing the hero’s brow with her thumb. “I think loving you has always been a sort of madness.”

The hero shoved at the villain’s shoulder playfully, ducking her head to hide her blush. “Are you calling me an illness, then?”

“One I never hope to cure.”

“That seems a little self sabotaging if you ask me,” the hero remarked. She shifted a piece of rubble with her foot, dust pluming out around it. “But, if we’re in the vein of self sabotage, maybe no more mass apocalypse attempts?”

“I’ll consider it.”

“No, you won’t.”

The villain tipped her head. “Would you truly want me to?”

“No,” the hero said after a moment, voice hesitant. “I cannot imagine you any other way.”

The hero froze, blushing, ducking her head to hide the red on her cheeks. The villain took it as an opportunity to grab her chin, guiding the hero’s eyes to meet hers. Her fingers were the kind of soft that made violence seem a myth.

The villain hummed. “I’d burn the world for you, if you asked.” She raised a playful eyebrow at the hero. “Is that how you imagine me?”

Being this close to the villain was doing something funny to the hero’s heart. She felt like she needed to sit down. Or possibly find out what the villain’s lips felt like on hers–

“Yes,” she whispered. Something flickered in the villain’s eyes.

“What a hero,” the villain’s mouth twitched in amusement, that damn mouth.

“You’re pronouncing ‘hopeless romantic’ wrong.”

A slow grin crept across the villain’s face.

“Oh, am I now?”

There were words to respond to that, but the hero had forgotten them. This close, the villain smelled like blood and dust and something uniquely her, something the hero had been missing all of her life and couldn’t get enough of now.

“Mmmmhm.”

The villain’s grin widened.

“Have I driven you to madness?”

The hero couldn’t look away from her eyes. “The kind that makes people start wars.”

The villain pulled her close, tucking the hero into her neck.

“That’s called love.”

The hero sucked in a breath, heart pounding in her ribs, but didn’t pull away.

“I know,” she breathed in the scent of the villain, “I was destined for failure.”

The villain rested her head against the hero’s. Her arms slid neatly around her waist.

“I don’t think you could fail at anything.”

“I failed at not loving you,” the hero pulled back. “Though really, how could they put heaven in front of me and expect me not to love her–”

The villain was kissing her.

The villain, her villain, was kissing her.

The hero melted.

The villain smiled against her mouth.

“They’ll tell stories about us, you know.”

“They always do, when people go mad with love.”

“The Story of When Heaven and Hell Fell In Love,” the villain murmured fondly.

“Mmm. Which one are you?”

“Hell.”

“That’s the most untrue thing you’ve ever said.”

The villain laughed. 

“Only you would think so.”

“Well,” the hero tipped her head. “I am in love.” She wrapped her arms around the back of the villain's neck. “Now, if we’re going to tell a story,” she leaned in to whisper against the villain’s lips. “Let’s make it a good one.”

The villain smiled.

And kissed her again.

#they're in love <3 #this is cute your honor #writing #I discovered hozier #my sister is so mad bc she's been trying to get me to listen to hozier for years #and is like really #NOW??? #and I'm like yes #this is perfect writing music #I'm going to devastate people #and I finished all of my college applications #writing community #and the motherfucking fafsa that bastard #soft launch my ass just say your website sucks #creative writing #snippet #angst #heroes and villains #fic writing #writblr #gay love #sapphic #wlw love #happy 2024 #hero x villain #hero/villain #ficlet #a #also I got a laptop that wasn't issued by my school and holy crap this is so nice #I can type so well and it does so many things

[side-b-bumblebi]

Men who view women as their intellectual equals 😍

#pro tip for the boys: a lot of girls will respond a lot better to a stimulating conversation than to a guy trying to show off #ignore the movies they're lying to you when they tell you you need to be a show off #and if a girl wants that it's maybe not the best sign y'know? #but most girls just want to be treated like we're capable intelligent humans #that's all!! the movies and shit make it way more complicated than it has to be #and yes some girls do make things awkward and complicate everything #but maybe you wanna be careful about that because those girls generally have a lot to unpack #being friends with those girls is fine!! just make sure you have strong boundaries in place #and make sure she's doing some work on herself before considering a romantic relationship #but anyway i've had a lot of men in my life that i feel like wanted to be so much smarter than me #and not to be rude but they weren't?? i was just as smart and sometimes smarter #i didn't care that they were confident in their intelligence but i felt like i needed to dumb myself down #and it. freaking. sucked. i have no idea how i did it for so long #and i would even make jokes about like the guys i dated being smarter than me and nobody ever said anything?? #and again these guys weren't smarter than me. that's not an insult to them just acknowledging i'm smarter than i was gave myself credit for #i'm outgrowing the notion that i have to dumb myself down for men and it's so freeing #and you know what really helps me actually? being in college #and especially being in college with so many intelligent men who know they're smart #these guys KNOW they're smart. and not in an arrogant way in a secure and confident way #them knowing they're smart makes them the OPPOSITE of arrogant actually #it's weird but i stand by my observation and it makes sense when you think about it #if you're secure in yourself and your intelligence you don't need to proce yourself by making other people look dumb #these guys are secure in their self-image and masculinity. they don't need women to be dumb and weak to feel strong and intelligent. #and it's so freaking endearing. i love that for these guys so much. #i am just so thankful for people in my life who are taking me seriously and who are helping me to understand i'm worth taking seriously. #wow these tags are long but anyway #guys you don't have to prove anything girls you should never have to dumb yourselves down live long and prosper

[hopepetal]

#im actually so overwhelmed rn #i have two huge finals tomorrow #i have been trying to study but i have not stopped crying once #im exhausted and i feel sick #this is the first time ive ever had college finals im so nervous #i just cant stop crying and it really sucks #its really hard to be the happy silly guy rn #i just wanna be done with this all #delete later

[moregraceful]

accidentally invented a new form of no bedtime called 11pm glass of emergency-c + 4pm latte + 8pm cup of black tea + 9pm cup of black tea

#the real question is can i go to church on less than 5 hours of sleep and still function lol #i unlocked my instagram bc church wouldn't stop tagging me to direct people to me for stuff but that meant i had to delete a bunch of pho #tos AND rewrite a bunch of captions for photos i didn't WANT to delete bc i was too mean to random sharks prospects #which is fine if it is u know the anonymity of tumblr but not public instagram where my church won't stop FULL NAMING AND TAGGING ME #''anonymity of tumblr'' i doxx myself on here like 80 times a day in front of more people than i went to college with #anyway my point is i was going through deleting all evidence of politics pens fandom and legal documents and i was like damn #my attitude towards my team SUCKS. i gotta be way less of a hater!!! #what did my prospects ever do wrong besides everything NOTHING. the system is BROKEN. i am sorry i will be so much nicer guys :( #also if u really want to be humbled. scrolling back to 2012 on your instagram and re-experiencing senior year of college. BAD #i've deleted i think everything that would reasonably get our nonprofit status pulled but what a horrific journey it was #two full hockey intermission periods of deleting shit plus another hour at home doing several more passes and then rewriting captions #so that some poor 21 year old prospect randomly searching their name doesn't see me full ass call their teammate cringe #their teammate IS cringe. but i love him. but the nuances are lost on instagram people don't understand these things they take everything #at face value #don't know why i just assigned shakir mukhamadullin they/them pronouns #i think i need to go lie in bed with a blanket over my head until i suffocate #this ALWAYS happens i get too hype about mackenzie blackwood and start listening to selena gomez and then it's like almost 3am and i'm just #fresno oilers.txt #oh and. a friend sent me screenshots of the girl she's been flirting with on a dating app and they are SOOOOO cute #i hope they make a good run of it i really do bc it was SO cute. living vicariously through episcopalian lesbians as one does #but then i was trying to figure out how to edit my dating app profile to dissuade chasers but still honeytrap guys who are tall enough #or athletic enough to pick the tangerines at the top of the tangerine tree. bc i couldn't reach this week #but there were still like god maybe 150 tangerines on the tree. i was like this could be feeding people but i'm TOO SHORT #and my life will be like this. FOREVER #icb the future of this garden is so psychologically burdensome that i'm having to build it into a dating app profile lol #well now that i'd treated this entire tag set as twitter for and hour and a half #time to go try to lie in bed and stare at the ceiling and then wake up in [checks notes] four hours

[transboysokka]

here’s another one I might write eventually

it’s called jetko is cute but would actually fucking suck actually

Yeah they meet on the ferry, they DONT hook up right away bc Zuko is so fucking awkward are you kidding me

Okay jet doesn’t suspect that they are firebenders yet in this one

They keep hanging out, both clearly having the intention to date

It’s actually super fucking cute at first and everyone who sees them says so, how they’re so perfect for each other

Zuko loves doing things for the people he loves so he keeps buying/stealing shit for jet bc he maybe happened to have mentioned he needs something

They both fall in love super hard super fast, but it’s Zuko’s first time

Zuko REALLY loves kissing jet and they spend a LOT of time doing it, it’s great

Anyway jet has a job (he’s a street sweeper) and he keeps casually asking Zuko to swing by and help him work and of course dumb Zuko does bc he’s in love

Jet never helps Zuko at the tea shop? Or even offers?? Zuko doesn’t ask bc what kind of boyfriend would that make him?

They see each other sporadically but it’s good

Every now and then jet does stuff that makes Zuko uncomfortable but makes excuses for it and Zuko’s a good boyfriend so It’s Fine

One time jet was uhhhh pretty transphobic to Zuko about his body but Zuko doesn’t want to think about it or say anything about it bc he’s so in love and he can’t lose jet at this point

Jet shows up to Zuko’s apartment randomly one day like “yo I GOTTA lay low here a bit” and Zuko’s like “aight cool but I’m not out to my uncle so play it cool”

Jet just doesn’t give a fuck and keeps being all possessive around Zuko in front of Iroh?? He climbs into Zuko’s bed at night and gives him a massive and easily visible hickey for gods sake

Anyway iroh ends up confronting Zuko (nicely) like “so are you guys dating” and Zuko did NOT want to come out to his uncle this way…

Iroh works late that night so Jet and Zuko start kissing and one thing leads to another and Zuko doesn’t even know what’s happening and they’ve been dating for two months, shouldn’t he want this? but something feels off but he just pretends everything’s fine but it’s not fine actually but he just lays there like a corpse while jet sucks him off

They stop after that bc jet is like wtf

They don’t talk about it, jet just leaves the next morning and they never see each other again

Zuko is Not Okay about it

#I am NOT projecting #this is not IN ANY WAY based off a relationship I had in college lol #it just really fits the dynamic okay #trans zuko #jetko #but like it’s purposely shitty #(purposely by me) #also maybe this Zuko is on the ace spectrum but also maybe jet just sucks #but maybe jet doesn’t know he sucks #atla #headcanon #text

[m-an-u]

Man holi wasn't even fun🧍

#it's fineeeee next time I'm doing at college my sister at school #it was all aunties and uncles and felt so. traditional? like none of the women were wearing shorts but me automatically felt like like. oka #I miss being a kid used to look forward to this sooooo much haven't had one good holi since 2018 really 19 was at a classmate's house #and sucked 23 was last one at society it was more fun but only three-four of us #better than this year still #me.txt #next year 😔 #like it's not smth you can do just with your sister i love her but two of us can't do much

[snixx]

Do you have someone you talk to everyday? Except family

anon why are you trying to give me an existential crisis in the middle of the day:') also. bold of you to assume i talk to my family every day jsfhdkjghjk

#EVERY day every day? idts. i do not talk to my college friends at ALL when im home over the weekends #except rarely when they text me about assignments #but i guess i talk to them every day during the working week cause i meet them every day #i guess i talk to certain mutuals pretty much every day. i think ive talked to phobicule almost every day this week #shoutout to hana and rafaela i think the past couple months ive been talking to them pretty much every day #i USED to have someone id talk to every single day even when we hadnt lived in the same city since elementary school but #that's a different story. she sucks #and i dont think we've been friends let alone best friends in like eight months now #and there were a couple of other people id talk to every day and we still do talk and i still love them as much obviously #but im just constantly drained and overworked so not EVERY day #and there are some people i wish i could talk to more but somehow have even less time and energy than i do #but i dont think we're any less close than we used to be because of that. life's just hectic we're still a call away #anon (derogatory) #<- sorry:') #im assuming you saw my college post and i dont really get why youd send this lol