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hopepetal · 6 months

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#im actually so overwhelmed rn #i have two huge finals tomorrow #i have been trying to study but i have not stopped crying once #im exhausted and i feel sick #this is the first time ive ever had college finals im so nervous #i just cant stop crying and it really sucks #its really hard to be the happy silly guy rn #i just wanna be done with this all #delete later

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rrr333sstuff · 21 days

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sinneroutsidethegrave · 2 years

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#confession #quotes #book quotes #f scott fitzgerald #sad aesthetic #sad thoughts #sick and tired #sickness #sinful #i am sick #i am bored #im so tired #exhausted #anxious #overwhelmed #i feel so drained

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wikiangela · 7 months

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wip wednesday

tagged by @jesuisici33 @callaplums @daffi-990 @loserdiaz @thewolvesof1998 @disasterbuckdiaz @fortheloveofbuddie 💖💖

made a bit of progress on the sick fic so here it is🤷

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“Maybe we should get you to a doctor.” Buck muses, wrapping the blanket over Eddie’s shoulders.

“I don’t need- I just closed my eyes for a second. I’m fine.” he grumbles, fumbling with the blanket too long to want to actually throw it off, but he does in the end – he’s cold and refuses to admit it, and he’d rather sit here and pretend he’s fine. He’s impossible.

“Eddie, that cough did not sound fine.” he points out.

“Buck-” he sneezes, and then wraps the sleeves of his hoodie over his palms. Buck raises his eyebrow, and Eddie pointedly avoids his eyes, as he not-so-discreetly wipes his nose with a sleeve.

“I bought tissues.” Buck reaches for the bag and digs out a box, then tries to give it to Eddie, who, instead of taking it, just levels him with a stare, as he sniffles loudly, and swipes a sleeve under his nose again. “Seriously? You’re gonna be gross and disgusting just to prove you’re not sick?” That’s a new level of stubborn Buck hasn’t seen from Eddie yet. He can’t believe this is the man his heart decided it wants. And that even while sick and gross and stubborn and ridiculous, a part of Buck is still endeared by him.

“I’m not.” Eddie insists, sounding so congested Buck swears he can feel it in his own sinuses. “Let me just finish my coffee, and then I-” another sneeze. “Have so much to do today.” he finishes, but at least this time he reaches for the tissues, looking anywhere but at Buck, cheeks red.

“Yeah, no, all you’re gonna do today is rest and take some medicine.” Buck says decisively, then takes the bag in his hand, and slowly starts walking to the kitchen. “Get comfortable, and I’ll just put this all away and be right back. I bought meds, tissues, and something to cook you some soup-” he starts listing off, getting louder the further he gets. “Oh, and stopped by the farmer’s market to get honey. Did you know that honey has antioxidant and antibacterial properties?” he asks excitedly, ready to tell Eddie every single thing he found in his quick research. Buck learned a long time ago that with Eddie he doesn’t need to hold back and can rant and ramble all he wants, and Eddie is happy to listen to him.

“Yeah?” Eddie yells back, voice hoarse and strained. Buck can hear the couch shift as Eddie gets comfortable, maybe even finally lays down. He knows Eddie won’t just give in and admit he’s sick, but this is a start. “Why don’t you tell me all about it?” he sounds genuinely interested, though also really tired.

“I will, just a sec! I’ll make you some tea with lemon and honey, how’s that sound?” he asks, and gets a grunt in response, though he’s not sure if that’s an answer, or if Eddie’s just trying to suppress a cough in an attempt to hide that he’s sick, as if Buck didn’t already know. He chuckles to himself. He really has his work cut out for him today.

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#wip wednesday #sick eddie fic #eddie is so ridiculous in this lmao #this is really gonna be so silly and fluffy i can't wait haha #buddie fic #buddie wip #buddie #wikiangela writes #my writing #fic snippet #my wips #still lowkey stuck on alive shannon and coffee shop #and this one isnt going so smoothly either #but im here and trying to work on it all!#ngl i still feel so fucking bad and exhausted and awful and sad i cant even explain it #i thought itd be better and id be back to myself after my cold and my period were over but nope #thought about taking a lil break from writing but tbh idk how id cope without it so pushing myself through it lol #this got venty lmao ignore me #i think this silliness is exactly what i need rn hahaha

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thedrotter · 2 months

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cw eye strain , blood

it doesnt hurt to dream for world in which you can be a princess even if it isn't possible

#re:kinder #fanart #my art #yuuichi mizuoka #shunsuke re:kinder #THIS CAME TO ME WHILE I WAS SICK...#originally it was only going to be the happy princessdrawing becayse i wanted to draw em being truly happy for once #but in the middle of drawing i felt silly and was posessed to make a counterpart to it😊#IM REALLY HAPPY WITH HOW IT TURNED OUT... for having speedran it #this was very spontaneous tbh but it was an idea i had in the back of my head for a while i just didnt kno how to ezecute it #until the power of being sick and exhausted awoke within me the answer 😊😊...#is it embarassing if i say i bawled my eyes out while making this multiplr times #on one moment i was feeling veey cool for finally getting this out proprrly on rhe other momrnt THIS GAME MAKES ME CRY LIKE A BABY

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bunnihearted · 2 months

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#it's so mentally draining nd taxing for me to live w my family...#they are never considerate towards me and always treat me like a bother #even after my surgery my sisters kept making sure i knew i was a burden and took up too much space #i could tell how sick my mom is of me too #it's just so exhausting #bc like now when i only slept 3hrs bc of tooth pain nd then couldnt sleep more #nd now still have tooth pain nd im rlly tired nd need to wake up early tmrw to call the dentist #my mom nd sister r in the living room watching tv #so i asked if they could plz be mindful of the volume #nd they sighed nd rolled their eyes nd said yeah yeah whatever #like im an awful demanding person for even daring to ask them this #it's just not fun to have to deal w constantly #sorry im in pain nd i wanna try to sleep as much as i can but i cant even try when i can hear u laugh nd talk etc etc #just rathet be alone :((#but yeah idek if i'll be able to sleep bc the pain isnt fun #im trying to just breathe nd accept that it is there nd that hopefully the dentist can help T-T #am i bad for wishing to be shown consideration nd sympathy? sometimes i even wanf them to feel sorry for me

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a1m05t-en0ugh · 11 months

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I hate what I see in the mirror everyday

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honeyloopsenthusiast · 16 days

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thinking abt how not a lot of ppl talk abt (or maybe they do and it’s me!! im the issue here i haven’t met them so if ur seeing this hmu!!) how tiring and downright cruel being in love can be for a person. maybe cruel is a strong word but it can be so very disturbing having to think abt a person all the time and I am by no means trying to say that being in love with someone is a- full time commitment and a job and it requires you to put in the hours and shi- but js the feeling part of it.

I canNOT be the only one thinking it’s not all that perfect and that when we go high we go high but when we go low we go so fucking low that im abt two millimetres from touching the ground after falling from a 80feet roller coaster drop.

And by lows i don’t mean the ups and downs however subjective this may be from person to person- i mean LOW like there’s nothing the other persons doing to make you feel this way but it’s js the act of being left in ur own company and being so sickeningly preoccupied w thoughts of them that it’s physically making you sick.

Not disgustingly sick just- sick. Like this is affecting me both mentally and physically. I’m not irked out by them im not disgusted but im just on edge??

I feel nauseous and distracted and disturbed bcs I cant stop thinking abt them and it’s leaving me restless and incapacitated to carry on w my day?? and suddenly I don’t feel like eating anymore im subconsciously skipping meals and consistently depending on what they have to say which is robbing me off my will to js be by myself??

Again they’ve done NOTHING wrong to cause this. I have never not felt deeply abt a situation. love doesn’t sound overwhelming to me love sounds dangerous. it’s taking “butterflies in my stomach” to another level and idk how I feel abt that

Being sexually fluid and shifting from being cupioromantic to being in a relationship with someone can be so frightening bcs now im supposed to do everything I’ve never done before

I have genuinely (in the least self pity way possible) been so devoid of romantic intimacy that I’ve never found myself in the position to experience it. And it’s not the inexperience that’s driving me mad it’s the fact that I’ve subconsciously rejected affection and the idea of being the object of attraction so much that it’s physically uncomfortable to be unknowingly doing things that I’d never do before.

I love them and I still want to be with them. They’re not the problem here but the aftermath of being in love is just not spoken about enough and MAYBE IM GOJNG NOWHERE W THIS

#lovecore #writing #heartcore #romantic academia #love #lgbtqia #asexual #cupioromantic #cupiosexual #love is so scary how does one do this #I quite literally feel sick to my stomach because im in love #no I do not mean this in a romantic way I am mentally exhausted and physically disturbed NOT because im disgusted #being devoid of affection or having subconsciously avoided it does not pay you well for when ur suddenly in a relationship #rant #vent #I love you but it’s so scary how you’ve consumed me or how I’ve consumed you #this is love and I know it im just scared even though they’ve done nothing wrong

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aturnoftheearth · 1 day

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who wants to go here with me

#thank god we’re taking another night before camping again i’m so exhausted #i don’t think i was sick sick but definitely sinus sick :( but im feeling mostly better!#jay’s silly little trip

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aqqleshiqqing-archive · 8 months

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i hopped on call with my friends today and had a lot of fun hanging out with them 🥺 bee drew a fuckton of shit i have to share them....

kevin's here because milo and i expressed our hype in watching the next spooky month annual episode and ofc kevin my beloved was worth mentioning SHHDDGSHEJEZ i miss him so much I wanna go back to him <3

maroon belongs to bee and clear belongs to nero! they have such wonderful goofies <3

#while i was on call i realized i had a growing fever developing but being with you guys made me feel less dizzy 😭#idk why im getting sick a lot lately kinda worried #but aside from that!!#guys look at bees drawings pls hes so talented i love it!!!!#im actuslly so happy man #yesterday was so exhausting but i got this all for free and im just akskdjjdjddjjss thank you!!!!!!#and you guys ofc are all so goofy ily #fucking explosing at the painted steven drawing RAAAGGGH HES SO HANDSOME #i caj finally see chonky red HSHSHAHDHAHS HES SO HANDSOME WIWIWIWIWIWIW #it was also really fun watching bee draw irl because i really adore her style #YEAH ANYWAYS!!! YOU GUYS MADE ME FEEL BETTER TODAY LOVE U #pokespe parents #~ lovely gifts #bee tag #nero tag #milo tag #<- still mentioning u just cuz <3 #♥️ memoryshipping #♥️ appleshipping #jaide (mangaverse).insert #jaide (gameverse).insert #ill go mention kevin too why not hehe #kevin.crsh

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rrr333sstuff · 2 months

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“Wanting to feel wanted is the loneliest feeling ever.”

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softshuji · 5 months

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eldest daughter syndrome really do be kicking my ass tbh

#i just find it like so unfair yknow #im the only one who works in myhouse and full time #but i come home and the house isnt clean and i tidy up and sort everything out and tidy the kitchen anf living room after dinner and put #my sister to bed and yk if there was no one else to do these things id understand but #i have 5 brothers all of whom are adults and they dont lift a finger #its not as if any of them work bec they dont and neither does my dad #and im so so so exhausted yk? bec not everything is my job or responsibility #and i keep blaming other things for me getting sick but yknow what maybe i just dont rest enough #and the other day i was upset bec i'd had a tough day at work and i felt unwell and i cleaned up everything after dinner and my brother #said i didnt have a right to be upset bec i “chose” this. like as if i chose to work full time nd do all the chores for a family of 9 #and it just really upsets me bec no one sees an issue with it and im so mad at my mom at rhe same time #constant therapy sessions w her bec shes mad at my dad and wants someone to vent at and then he does the same abt her and my brothers #and im so tired yknow just sososos tired bec she'll complain abt how they dont do anything but then she wont ensure they do either #its just empty complaints whereas she thrust responsibility on me when i was 9 and yet my brothers are 18+ - all but one that is and they #cant even do their own laundry bec she just..... did everything for them all the time but now is mad that they cant do anything.#like yes i know my dad is a failure of a husband and a father i expected that i'll never be a good enough daughter for him and that the onl #thing he has to say about me is that im bringing shame on our family despite everything ive done but come on #im just tired and upset #its hard not to see yourself as a robot or machine when theres little room to be anything else.#and even on a day like today when i dont feel well it never stops and i just keep doing #im sad i want a hug from my gangster bf #oh god i am sorry pls do not perceive me for this #and yk what #thats why i cant stand when people are nice to me bec all i can think of is #i havent done anything to deserve this? i should have to give something in return #or if not #theres something this person must want because why else would they be nice to me when i havent done anything for them #i cannot fathom the concept that someone just wants me because its me #its literally just not possible why would anyone fo that for me

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h0rr0r5h0w-c1ty · 13 days

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i just felt like posting this.. WHEN U HAVE ONE OF THE BIGGEST TESTS IN UR LIFE COMING UP BUT U HAVE THERAPY NEXT WEEK AND HEALTH CLINIC SO UR LITERALLY FAILING

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goldkirk · 2 months

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CONTENT WARNING for weight loss (a percentage number) and mentions of throwing up

In other news I'm waiting impatiently for a GI appointment to tell them "hi I lost 15% of my body weight in six months and I throw up more often than once or twice a year now so can you please fucking listen and do something this time"

#brought to you by my fatigue and current nausea again #I am. so bad mood last night and so exhausted sad mood today #I’m TIRED #I FEEL BAD #I HATE BEING SICK BUT I HATE NOT BEING TREATED FOR BEING SICK EVEN MORE #NO ONE HAS LISTENED AND TRIED TO HELP SINCE 2017 WITH THIS #I am BEGGING #hello. I’m back.#have I lost enough weight this time?#does throwing up now give me bonus points?#am I sick enough for you to help now???#or do i still look too healthy??#I. AM. TIRED.#I considered stopping trying even for a couple week to let them see #how bad it would get if not for my constant efforts with movement and timers for snacks and planning out salt amounts etc #but that would wreck me so bad I don’t feel like digging out of that hole while work is busy coming up #UGH IGNORE ME IM DONE #shh katie #health

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moonlit-orchid · 1 month

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When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out

#vent #its not like they didnt offer to hear my problems. but i just dont want to talk about. or anything #i dont want serious conversations. i dont want to have to worry about other people. i just cant.#im just so fucking exhausted and i dont know if its talking to them and feeling drained by the fact that theyre going through something-#-and that i need to be the therapist or if im just sick. again.#plus yesterday i slept late. my mum made me cry (i think she was just tired out by that point in the day so i doubt it was personal)#and just #im fucking tired ok #and I'm sorry im a bad friend #i just dont have energy. i want to have good energy around me to try give me some.#but when theyre upset it gets into me and drains me and I've been there as much as i can but i just cant right now. im too tired #i know im a shitty person but literally everyone got to be a shitty person at my expense so isnt it my fucking turn?#and then assuming i was acting like that to hurt them. I DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYONE. IF WE HAVE A FIGHT I WANT TO MOVE ON.#I'm not gonna be caught up in it if we resolved it #but yeah. long story short they're going through shit and i feel like shit #and i think them going through shit is what makes me feel like shit. because i worry about them #and they can lash out on me #i just dont know anymore. i dont know if im an awful person or not #last year i broke up with a friend and my mum said I'll do the same with the next friend #it wasnt my fault #that friend ghosted me #im trying not to be her rn too and im scared that ive been in the wrong im scared im a shitty person too #but at the same time im too done to even really care #i just wanna stop fucking feeling all this and just get on with my day

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a1m05t-en0ugh · 1 year

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The things I see on social media…

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