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HIS MEMORIES - HS

A/n : Oh my god! This is the first time I'm ever writhing. I always enjoyed writhing. I used write journals and small stuff but never posted because of my insecurities. But today I wanted to throw all of them aside and do it.

Please forgive me if there are any mistakes, this is my first time. Please feel free to send your feed back and It would be sooo great of you reblog.

Warnings : lil swearing, angst , mention of sexual intimacy.

Pairing: Actress!Y/n and Harry

Summary: you and Harry broke up few months back but still love each other . And after all these months you see him again in a party. All memories you tried to push back in your head came back with a powerful speed.

(*The paragraphs in between in italics are flashbacks *)

part 2. part 3

HOPE YOU ENJOY . <3

You released a sigh and took another sip from your drink.

Industry parties can be fun, at the same time they can be a exhausting and overwhelming, especially for a introvert person like you. You came to the party like an hour ago. First fourty minutes you tried to socialize and stuff. But that's your limit. Your social battery drained and you have no more energy to socialize, but still you have to. Till date you wonder how the hell did you ended up here with your introvert personality. But that's what fate is.

You have been in the industry for a good three years and you did amazing job to prove your self. You got few awards and got nominated to few prestigious awards , amazing following on social media and a good reputation in industry. But still you feel like a new comer when it came to these kinds of situations. You feel so intimidated by all the famous actors, singers and other industry members. You feel so little while comparing to everyone. That's one of the thing that your manager Taylor don't like. She always tells you be confident and believe that you deserve everything you have now and don't belittle yourself.

That's one of things you like in Taylor. She is really confident, and you want atleast ten percent of that.

" Y/N !" your thoughts are immediately got cut by hearing your name from a familiar voice.

You turn and see the person who called you. And you spot none other than of one of your close friends in the industry, Gemma Chan. You smile at her and she gave you big grin back and gave you a big bear hug.

Gemma is one of your first friends in the industry, you did a film with her 2 years back when your new and from then she is your friend and a big sister.

"Look at you girl, you look amazing " she said by giving a once over and looking at your black sheer drees your wearing which have a slit on left which is showing your entire leg perfectly .

You giggled " Thank you, but look at you Babe. You look stunning" She is really stunning, she is wearing a beatifull tight pink bodycon dress.

"So Y/n , how are you? "

"I'm good, I'm amazing actually. "

"I hope I can believe you." She said In a sad tone.

You released a sigh "Gemma , I'm really good. Look at me I'm fine , totally. "

She looks at you in disbelieve but didn't prolong it." If you say so."

"Soo, you ready? I thought you wouldn't be comfortable for this yet . But here you are ."

You had no clue what she is talking about. You chuckled. "Gemma , what are you talking about,? Am I ready for what? "

Her eyes went wide . She opened her mouth to say something but closed again. After few seconds she asked " You didn't know? Shit ! " It was more like she is saying to her self.

" Didn't know what? " you asked in confusion.

"He is going to be his tonight. He will be here by any minute from now."

And with that everything around you came to a halt. All the memories you kept buried in the back of my mind for 6 months hit you back like a flood.

He is going to be here? Of course he will be here . After all he is HARRY FREAKING STYLES. It's your dumbness for thinking that he won't be here. He is one of the biggest and famous singers in the world, obviously HE WILL be in a big party like this.

You look back at Gemma " um... I- I didn't know that"

"Obviously you don't know, or why you'll be here? So now what are you gonna do ?"

"What will I do ? I'm not gonna run from the party because of him ."

" No , not like that . Are you gonna talk to him?"

" I don't know Gem , I genuinely don't know. This is so... fucked up."

She kept her hand on your shoulder "I know Babe. It'll be fine . Don't do anything that you'll regret later . Just do what your heart says"

You looked down at your feet "yeah" you said in a defeated tone.

Then you heard a loud voice calling Gemma . You both turned your head and looked at a guy who is one of Gemma's friends.

She looked back at you and said " Look, I'll be back . Or you can come with me near my friends .I don't want to leave you alone in the corner. "

You shook your head "No ,no it's fine . You go, I'll be fine. I'll come after a bit."

"You sure?" she asked in disbelief.

You just nod.

She just nod back. Give you a small peck on your cheek and left.

With that your alone again with your own thoughts. But this time your more dreadful.

You are going to see the person whom you loved with your entire soul. Your boyfriend for 1year 3 months. A person whom you thought you will spend your entire life with. A person who you still love , and maybe you will love forever.

You are going to see your ex boyfriend whom you still love , after 6 months for the first time after you broke up.

You and Harry met each other for the first time in a premier party of one of your very first films. He was the guest. That's where you met him. You had an undeniable crush on that man for so long. You are a big fan of him . That's one of the reasons why he was there at party that night. Your director know that you love him , so he thought it would be nice gift for you if Harry came.

And it was amazing . Harry is an amazing person not only on stage and infront of camera but also in real life. That night you saw him entering into the party , while giving everyone his signature dimple smile. And it was hard for you to not to fall on your knees at the sight.

You were looking at Harry who is walking into the party. There are many other celebrities around but still he stood out. He is just spreading his charm around. And you feel all the eyes around are on him . I mean can you blame them ?And just like that he was in front of you .

Your director Christopher Nolan. Introduced you to him . Harry worked with him too in past. They were so close and that the reason why Harry came to the party without a second thought.

Once you were introduced to Harry your eyes immediately met with his beautiful jade green eyes . People were right, he has some kind of magnetic attraction in his eyes. He extended his hand towards yours , you hesitantly gave yours. You both shake your hands and instead of leaving your hand he bought your hand to his lips and kissed the back. And all this happened while he is intensely burning his graze on you.

" Nice to meet you Y/n , I saw the trailer and it's fantastic " he said with a smile.

You blushed like an idiot and you mumbled a thank you.

And you both are having a small talk and people around you are also joining in between .

At one point in between the conversation he leaned in near your ear and his soft, delicate, pink lips are almost touching your ear and he said " you look so beautiful, you really are so pretty and I love your drees. " and he leaned back with a smirk plasterd on his lips.

You stood there all stunned trying to hide your blush and shock.

And after your first meeting you both kept in touch and both liked each other. And after a month you both went on your first Date. He came to your place and you both cooked dinner together, danced in the kitchen, and watched a film. In simple words you had a best date ever.

After 2 more dates you were both a couple . He asked you to be his girlfriend and you said yes in a heartbeat. And from then everything is a fairytale until it's not. You both kept your relationship in private, and it's a mutual decision. You were new to the industry and you are doing soo good with everything and breaking this news will give a big unnecessary attention. You both didn't want it . You wanted to be known for your work , not for being someone's girlfriend. So you both thought it would be good to keep it private for now and later after few days you can make it public. And only yours and his family members along with some of the close friends know about you both.

You both were madly in love. He said 'l love you ' into the 5th month of your relation. And you said it back immediately because you wanted to say those words for a long time but you thought you will freak him out. So you kept to yourself.

And suddenly you came out of your thoughts . And you realised that your drink is empty. And you want to refill it.

You just started to look around seeing everyone socializing and having fun . And you smile to yourself while looking around.

And then your entire world stopped. You met with those pair of beautiful green orbes that you were love in with once . You still are in love with.

He was looking at you. He is not just looking at you, he is looking into you. Like he is looking into your soul. His expression is unreadable. You can't figure out what he was thinking.

How long has he been here ? Is he looking at you for so long? Are you that lost in your thoughts that you didn't even see him.?

Whatever it is, now he is here. Standing a few feet distance from you looking at you while having a conversation with someone.

You can't take this any more. You just can't.

While looking at him all the memories came back. All His memories came back.

You remember the days when you both made love . When he was deep inside you , his lips to your ear breathing heavily and wishpering sweet nothings into your ear.

You remember the days when you both used to cook together and dance in the kitchen.

You remember the lazy Sunday mornings when you both were lazy to get up early. He used to refuse to get up and you both ended being in bed till noon.

You remember taking showers together, and baths. You remember him massaging your scalp with your favorite shampoo.

You remember when he said 'I love you' for the first time.

You remember the times when he used to sleep on you chest and your hand tangled in his curls gently massaging it. And the way he used to whine and complain when you stopped.

You remember the the way he used to sleep on your chest and suck at your nipples even when your not having sex. It helped him to sleep better.

You remember the way you both used miss each other because you were far from each other at the other end of the world for work.

You remember your late night talking in the balcony, because he knew exactly how much you love it.

You remember breaking up with him , both of you crying and bawling. You asking him to not to leave you. Begging him to be with you.

You remember you first kiss and your last one. And all the once in between. You remember each and everything you did together.

You remember everything, because you didn't forget anything.

Fuck . Seeing him now you can't take it anymore. All those memories are coming back.

You waited for him. You know why he broke up with you . He thought he did what's best for you, but that's not his decision to make. You waited for him all these months , you thought he will come back and take you back to him . But that never happened.

Actually you still are waiting.

You tried to move on but couldn't. How are you supposed to move on when a piece of your heart will always beat for him , no matter what ?

All the pain and sadness turned into anger. You can't take it anymore. But there is one question in your mind .

'If he come and apologise now and asked you to come back , will you? '

And you can't be here, you made your way to the balcony, which is your spot at any party. If anyone wants to find you they should first come to the balcony.

Once you entered into the balcony cold winter air hit your face. And you stand there admiring the nature. While you stand there you can't help but think about him.

You and Harry are sleeping on his bed. You are sleeping on your back and his head on your chest just the way you both like. His hands are wrapped around your waist and your hands are in his beautiful chocolate brown curls , massaging .

You both are in comfortable silence, you can hear nothing other than your soft breathings. The room is dimly lit , but you can still see his features very well.

"Baby? " He was the first one to break the silence.

You hummed back in answer.

He lifted his head so that your eyes are meeting , you give him a small smile.

"I want to tell you something, but you can't freak out" He looked nervous.

And you were nervous too , you don't know what he was about to tell you.

"What is it baby? You can tell me what's wrong "

He looks soo nervous, like he is about to break down. But he took a long breath and said those three words which you are dreading to say for soo long and wanted to hear for so long.

"I love you , Y/n"

You were so shocked to hear him say that. Tears are already building in your eyes. He got more nervous by the lack of your reply . He quickly got up and tried to loosen the situation.

"You don't have to say it back , I just wanted to say you because I mean it .I wanted to say this for so long but didn't have enough courage. But you don't have say it back. Take your time. I'll wait, I'm right here. I-"

You cut his rambling by slaming your lips to his , your action caught him off guard but quickly he reciprocated with same amount of passion. You both kissed for so long and you both were out of breath. You rested your forehead against his . You both are looking into each other's eyes and breathing heavily.

"I love you too , Harry . I love soo much. " You confesed out of breath.

"You do ?" He asked you in disbelief.

You just nod and pecked his lips.

He grins ear to ear " say it again, please baby I want to hear it again "

You smile so wide "I love you Harry , I love you soo fucking much"

He closed his eyes let a deep sigh in content. "I can't get enough of you , I love you, baby"

Your thoughts are abundantly stopped by the sound of a pair of foot steps. You don't even have to look back to see it's him. You know it's him. And by every step he takes his familiar perfume is hitting your nose. And you swallow the lump in your throat.

You are going to do this . You are not weak. You can face him and talk.

And when the foot steps came to a halt. You can feel a presence behind you . You took a long breath and turned around to see your Harry. Maybe not yours.

You met with his beautiful face and magnetic green eyes. Again you can't read his expression. It's not cold , but its not warm too.

He opened his mouth and it felt like heaven to hear his voice for the first time in 6 months .

" Hey Y/n".

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A/n : I felt it here as an open ending, you can imagine what ever you want or if you want a part 2 please let me know . I have idea but don't know if you guys want to read or not.

Thank you for reading this. It meant a lot for taking your time and reading it. Please don't mind my mistakes. This is my first time writing. Feel free to send feed back. It means a lot for me if you hit reblog.

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