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antisociallilbrat · 1 year

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Okay so let's say for argument's sake Byler happens, or some variation of it does. We have yet to see Mike really 'question' his sexuality and I've seen theories on why this is but to put it plain in *my* opinion, he's very far in the closet and is doing what is 'expected' of him by dating girls. First thing out of the way: I am a Bi Mike truther, I will not argue about this- everyone is entitled to their own hcs.

So I've seen people say they want a scene with Will coming out to Joyce and yes I want that too but if they make Byler happen I want- no I need a scene with Mike and Karen.

Mike coming home- maybe after El has broken up with him for good- and having all these swirling feelings over the whole thing. Then when you throw Will into the mix Mike's kind of unsure of everything and he's frustrated and! He's mad about it but he doesn't have anyone to direct his anger at because it's not really anyone's fault but dammit! He's mad because he doesn't know how he's supposed to feel right now! Or what he does next!

Karen sees him stalking up to his room and can immediately sense something is wrong and when Mike yells at her that 'he's fine' and trying to lock her out I want her to get mad too. Mad that her kids can't see that she loves them. Mad at herself for never showing it right. Mad that she's got herself stuck in a shitty marriage. So she doesn't let Mike lock her out this time, she throws his door open and demands he talks to her because she loves him and nothing is ever going to change that. She will be here for him if he lets her.

And then Mike breaks. He tries to explain his feelings but he's not good at that but Karen knows, she understands her son is hurting. Look she may not say the right things and she may not completely understand what she knows Mike is trying to say, but she doesn't want to see him in pain anymore. She loves him too much.

This scene would be so beneficial in helping mend the Wheeler family, especially the disconnect between Mike and Karen. She was the one Mike ran to to hug when he thought Will was dead and I would think the whole Will thing wouldn't take her off guard, even if she doesn't get what 'gay' entials.

I think this conversation would absolutely wreck me as viewer and put me on the floor sobbing, thank you.

#i need to stop rambling in the morning #i stand by my stance of being objectively observant with what happens with the ship wars in season 5 #but to me character development is more interesting than the actual ships themselves #and i want this scene so bad you have no idea #even if Mi/leven stays canon than give me a different variation of this scene #i love the wheeler dynamics so much #okay anyways #mike wheeler #karen wheeler #byler #stranger things

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backjustforberena · 3 months

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Do you think had Laena married Viserys there still would have been a Dance of the Dragons? Or would they have settled it in the way Rhaenyra wanted to with betrothals and alliances?

I think it's impossible to say. My personal view, and I'm very aware that others do not share it, and, for ease, I shall just go with the show's version of things... my personal view is that it would a lot harder to get to that point. Whilst not impossible (it was never going to be impossible), it's highly unlikely.

That's because the Hightowers and the Velaryons are very different. The events themselves would be very different as well. And specifically, Corlys and Otto are very different. It's not a case of switching around two ambitious men and it all follows the same path. It's far more complicated than that. They're very different men in very different social, familial, and political positions. There are far too many variables.

If you remove the neon sign of "ambition" when it comes to Otto's motives and look at some of his other reasoning, those reasons do not hold with Corlys. He would not fear for his grandchildren's lives or livelihoods (for his power does not come from the King, he's the wealthiest guy on the planet, he has his own House, his own Fleet, his own castle, all of which could be a deterrent or a defence). And he would not believe a woman cannot rule and that a woman's rule would fundamentally destabilise the realm (as he's shown to be happy enough bending the knee to Rhaenyra and he believes his wife should have been Queen). This would also not be his only chance and only access to the higher stratosphere of politics and to the Iron Throne, which, for Otto, it sort of is (Corlys's family is his House and all that entials, whereas Otto's family is not, being only a second son - he's not a politically advantageous bloodline).

Would it have been settled via betrothals and alliances? Possibly. Corlys is not a warmonger and I don't think we can underestimate the possible influence Rhaenys would have as Mother of the Queen. But the betrothals would not be a solution in the way we see in the show. The events we have in the show - certainly the children we have in the show are going to be different. I, personally, for example, don't see a scenario where Laenor easily marries Rhaenyra - Viserys's motivation for the match is gone as is Rhaenyra's motivation to accept it. So it becomes a question of what problem it is that they are trying to solve with any betrothal. What do both parties want? What do both parties not want? And what are they willing to accept? And what are relations like when those proposals are made?

Although, for what it's worth, I think it would be very, very hard for Viserys not to name Corlys and Rhaenys's grandchild. But, if he doesn't, I do not believe Corlys and Rhaenys would concoct a coup, in the way that Otto does. They have neither the access nor the motivation, nor the (lack of) morals - and yes, I do say this with full awareness of Corlys's actions later in the war.

#house of the dragon #also in this AU wtf do you do with Otto???#which camp would he fall into? if there were camps?

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uhohitsmespaghettios · 4 months

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ok so the knife. that he is holding. especially with the bit about cecil asking if he was threateninf anyone with it. im thinking the knife represents his choice. from this point mini kevin has two options really. he can

option a:become the kevin we know. become defined by this person. the knife here represents the violence that he is capable of. this would ential the smile thing, with the knife

option b: sever ties with the person who it seems he should be. acknowledge him and decide to be something different. past performance is not a predictor of future results, and the boy gets to decide who he is.

and he cuts the cord with the knife. he doesnt let cecil define him as the person who he resembles, even says it outright that he wants to describe himself

#wtnv spoilers #ep 240

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sevenyx77 · 8 months

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Art for Ential!

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nikethestatue · 1 year

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I know Feyre's pregnancy has been discussed like 1000x, but I was re-reading KOA and it made me think of something. How is Yrene able to defeat Erawan using healing magic while pregnant, but Feyre's healers can't do a c-section?

Right?

And Yrene was no High Lady with all of Prythian's powers!

I think SJM really dropped the ball with Feyre, with ACOSF. I don't know what she was thinking--if anything--but none of it makes sense. Also, Feyre never bothered to pick up a copy of "What to Expect When You are Expecting (A Winged Illyrian Baby) and How to Survive Getting Your Vagina Ripped Out By Wings"--like she let Rhys put her in that ridiculous shield, had him keep secrets from her, and it never occurred to her that maybe she needs to look a little deeper into the whole pregnancy thing. I don't know, seek a couple of opinions? Talk to a couple of healers. Maybe FaceTime with Thesan the Head Doctor of Prythian and ask him a few questions about what exactly 'complications' ential. Maybe not listen to Madja who hasn't seen a vagina in 550 years.

Yrene is going on long ship journeys, getting into a battle, dealing with a nasty father-in-law, killing Head Valgs...

Feyre was done dirty by her author. THat's all.

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unskilledpoint · 8 months

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Hey! Ooc question again, how did Unskilled figure out how to die?

I don't have the willpower to scroll through the archive until I find it tbh

tgats a secret! rn ive jssut been hyping it uo. dw all the facts were sprinkled in various asks i dint bpame you. btut yea herae js evrything thats baen stated

its gonna be "meeeeeeeeta. kinda sorta."

ooc john heloed me (thabsnk you sm fkr that btw) and ic john is a key part to the plan

and thats it! abt like character analysis and stuff tho theres these bullet poe8nts

unskilled considers this a one last shot at dying

its directly caused by prev!unskilleds presence

its heavily implied they know it will inevitably fail

once it fails they have stated that theyll "give up" whagevrr tht entials (hehehehehe)

and yeah!!! thats everythign :3

#summary #unskilled answers #unskilled speaks

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strangeaeonbooks · 6 months

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~On the second day of horror my bookstore brings to thee~

~Two eldritch novels and a bit of exist-ential dread~

#books #halloween countdown #independant bookstores #booklr #bookworm #book tumblr #lovecraft #cthulhu

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away-ward · 9 months

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Alright I have this little theory about Reverie Cross. We know that she was tangled up in a love triangle between two best friends A.P. (Will's grandfather) and Edward McClanahan and that she apparently either was pushed to her to death by Edward or jumped because she was pregnant. According to the story they found her body at the bottom of the Cliffs still wearing her pink bloody dress and Edward McClanahan jumped week later leaving confessions on the kitchen table.

I call BS on that. Like in every good mystery there is some sprinkle of truth mixed into the story, but you need to put the pieces together in order to get full picture.

Let's start with the dress:

The pink dress Reverie allegedly was found dead in was the dress Emory found in the Carfax room and wore to Homecoming. So the part of her being found at the bottom of Cliffs wearing her pink bloody gown is false.

Now let's focus on where she was burried at:

No one knows. As Will said in Fire Night it's a mystery no one knows where Reverie Cross graveside is, which is rather strange given how famous this murder-suicide story is around town and everyone knew were Edward was burried at.

And now let's look at the names:

As we found in NF A.P. who was Reverie's boyfriend was Will's grandfather, A.P. was not his true name they are his entials which he went by at the time.

Reverie meanwhile is a French name it means Daydream or Beautiful Dream. Now guess who is of French origin was a teen in 50s like A.P. and Edward and whose name we only know as Grandmère? 😉

My point is Reverie never jumped nor was she pushed. That's why Emory found her pink the dress she allegedly died in or why no one knows where she was burried at. She never died.

Reverie Cross was Emory Scott's grandmother and the pink dress Emmy wore to Homecoming to meet A.P. grandson was her Grandmère's.

The candle Grandmère made Emory light on Evernight wasn't for Reverie it was for Edward.

Now onto Edward McClanahan:

We know Edward is dead and this part of the story is were the truth gets sprinkled into the mystery. A.P and Edward had fight at Cold Point which was reminiscence to the fight between Martin and Will Will went after Martin over Emory, Will than got pushed by Martin and they both fell off the Cliff in a struggle of survival.

Something similar probably happened between A.P. and Edward who had a fight at Cold Point over Reverie who was pregnant with Edwards child they had afire. Things escalated between A.P. and Edward as they both fell off the Cliff and in a struggle of survival as it was case between Will and Martin, A.P. killed Edward his best friend.

Edward/Martin A.P./Will Reverie/Emory: history in sense repeats itself through eyes of the Grandchildren.

Conclusion:

Emory Scott is the grandaughter of Reverie Cross and Edward McClanahan while Will Grayson is the grandson of A.P.

The story of Edward, Reverie and A.P. is a tragedy. Edward lost his life over someone who wasn't his. Reverie Cross lost the father of her child and her boyfriend over a studied mistake by having affire with A.P.s best friend . And A.P was forced to kill his best friend and lost girl in the process.

But there is a happier ending in another lifetime were A.P. never lost the girl and where two best friends are finally united again over a quarrel that ended in tragedy for all of them through tale of their grandchildren.

We want what we want.

I've thought about Emory's grandmother being Reverie too!

There's a lot of evidence for it, including some that you mentioned. But...there's also some issues.

The Dress

It's possible that the one she found was the same dress. However, the town treated Evernight like a holiday, and even the basketball team had a pink strapless 50s style dress meant to represent Reverie. It could be that those dresses are popular, especially that time of year, and have been duplicated for costumes and whatnot since the 50s. It would explain why her dress, left unattended and uncared for in an dusty attic for so long, would still be in really good condition.

Grandmere/Reverie

You mentioned she was a teenager in the 50s, but I don't know.

What we do know is her parents fled from France in the 30s,

Emory says she's 82 in the past scenes.

If NF takes place in 2012 (which it might not; again PD left dates vague for this reason), that puts her being born in the 30s, which puts her in her 20s in 1954.

Beyond that, Will said that Reverie was a girl from Falcon Wells and Em's grandmother was raised in Thunder Bay.

Those are just two small points of conflict. But stories change, rumors grow, and people lie. So, it's not conclusive.

Edward

I have two ideas.

One: Emory is Edward's granddaughter.

Emory seems to have very clear memories of her grandfather, but it's possible he wasn't really her grandfather. He could have been her mother's stepfather, and it was just never openly discussed. This would make sense for the era. He would have quietly adopted Paige and raised her as his own. None would be the wiser.

However this would mean that Em's mom was born in the 50s. That's a struggle for me, based on Em and Will's ages. Remember, Emory's grandmother was 82 when Emory was 17. And she lived another nine years after that. By the end of NF, Em and Will are in their mid-20s. If A.P and Em's grandmother are the same age, this man is in his 90s. And he's still alive 10 years later in Fire Night. Again....not impossible. Just unlikely.

And I feel that Emory would have been able to piece the clues together using her mother's birthday and the dates Will provided if it this were even likely.

Two: The Mystery Child

It seems more likely that, if Em's grandmother was Reverie and she was pregnant, she would be sent away to have the baby. This could explain why people were so ready to believe that Reverie was dead. The baby could have then been given up for adoption, and Reverie quietly returns to town, and things go back to normal.

This is a fun idea because it means Emory has family out there.

A.P

If he had, at any point, seen Emory's grandmother around town between then and when Em was taking her out for ice cream, and had recognized her as Reverie and then did nothing?

That's pretty huge.

Not even to help support the child of his deceased best friend who he murdered? Was he that angry? I mean, I don't expect that he'd declare his love for her in the middle of the street Emory-style, but to completely ignore that she's alive? To not be watching the family and making sure they're cared for? If he had been watching the family that closely, he would have seen Martin's behavior, right?

Gosh, the implications.

Listen,

I absolutely love this idea. And I personally think it should be canon. As soon as Em's grandmother wanted to light that candle, it was so important to her, I had the same idea: she's Reverie. She has to be! Besides how well it fit into this weird little town's mysteries, Emory deserved it. She deserved to be apart of the mystery, the scandals, the history of it all. She loved Thunder Bay so much and gave so much to it, she deserved to be tied to it like the others.

But I just don't know if all the evidence supports it or if PD left it vague for us to wonder about.

Any one have any other thoughts?

#asked and answered #willemmy #nightfall #devil's night series stuff #reverie cross theory #We've mostly figured it out #i still have questions #might come back to this some day #asked and answered 37

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grimeclown · 2 years

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i wish i could make ethics silly but idthink i can with this won cheif... it's not a subject you talk about with strangers but it kinda has to do with aporpreation and what all that entials ... idk i did a bad thing a while ago and now i'm trying to be better about it because if i dont i'm just gonna suck for the rest of my life.... shiesh i could just be watching breaking bad... love walter and his son jessie...darn

Okay well good luck with that!

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tpmslotmotherboard · 19 days

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การอัปเดตสกอร์เกมเยลีกเป็นเรื่องที่สำคัญในวงการเกมออนไลน์ เนื่องจากสกอร์เป็นตัวบ่งบอกถึงความสามารถและผลงานของผู้เล่นในเกมนั้น การอัปเดตสกอร์เกมทำให้ผู้เล่นสามารถติดตามและวัดความสำเร็จของตัวเองได้อย่างถูกต้อง ไม่ว่าจะเป็นการปรับปรุงระบบการคำนวณสกอร์ การเพิ่มความท้าทายหรือการปรับแต่งตัวละครในเกม

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สุดท้าย การอัปเดตสกอร์เกมเยลีกเป็นการดูแลและพัฒนาเกมให้ดียิ่งขึ้น โดยไม่ว่าจะเป็นการแก้ไขข้อบกพร่องหรือการเพิ่มเติมความบันเทิง เกมเมอร์จะได้รับประสบการณ์การเล่นที่ดีและน่าจดจำมากขึ้นด้วยอัปเดตเหล่านี้

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การเชื่อมต่อกับเว็บพนันกีฬาที่น่าเชื่อถือและเชื่อมั่นเป็นสิ่งสำคัญ เพราะการคาดเดาในการแข่งขันกีฬาไม่มีความแน่นอน ผู้เล่นควรเรียนรู้และทำความเข้าใจก่อนการเดิมพันเพื่อลดความเสี่ยงและเพิ่มโอกาสในการชนะ นอกจากนี้ ความรับผิดชอบของผู้เล่นในการพนันกีฬาก็มีความสำคัญอย่างยิ่ง

ในสมัยปัจจุบัน เว็บพนันกีฬาได้รับความนิยมและเติบโตขึ้นอย่างรวดเร็ว เป็นทางเลือกที่ดีสำหรับผู้ที่รักกีฬาและต้องการทดลองโชคทดลองโชคในการเดิมพันในกีฬาที่ตนชื่นชอบ อย่างไรก็ตาม ผู้เล่นควรระมัดระวังและเลือกเว็บไซต์พนันที่มีความเป็นธรรมและปลอดภัยเพื่อประสบการณ์การพนันที่เป็นที่พอใจและปลอดภัย

การวิเคราะห์สถิติการแข่งขันเป็นเรื่องสำคัญที่ช่วยให้เรารู้จักผลกระทบของการแข่งขันในด้านต่างๆ สถิติดังกล่าวสามารถช่วยให้เราเข้าใจถึงค่าที่ได้มาจากการแข่งขัน ทำให้เราสามารถวิเคราะห์และปรับปรุงผลการแข่งขันให้ดียิ่งขึ้นต่อไป

ในการวิเคราะห์สถิติการแข่งขัน มีหลายองค์ประกอบที่สำคัญ เช่น การวิเคราะห์คะแนน เปอร์เซ็นต์การครองบัลลังก์ สถิติการยิง และอื่นๆ การศึกษาข้อมูลเหล่านี้จะช่วยให้เรารู้จักความสามารถของทีมที่จะเข้าแข่งขัน และมีโอกาสชนะมากที่สุดในการแข่งขัน

สถิติการแข่งขันยังช่วยให้เราทราบถึงแนวโน้มของการแข่งขันในอนาคต มันช่วยให้เราวางแผนและปรับปรุงกลยุทธ์การแข่งขันให้เหมาะสม ทำให้เรามีโอกาสชนะมากขึ้นในการแข่งขันภายในอนาคต

สถิติการแข่งขันเป็นเครื่องมือที่สำคัญในการพัฒนาทักษะและกลยุทธ์ในการแข่งขัน เราควรให้ความสำคัญกับการวิเคราะห์สถิติเหล่านี้เพื่อเพิ่มโอกาสในการทำให้ผลการแข่งขันดีขึ้นอย่างต่อเนื่อง

ในโลกของเกมพนันออนไลน์และการเดิมพันกีฬา การเสี่ยงโชคเป็นส่วนสำคัญของประสบการณ์การเล่น เมื่อคุณเข้าร่วมเกม การรายงานการชนะและแพ้มีความสำคัญอย่างมากเพื่อทราบผลลัพธ์ของการเล่นของคุณ

การรายงานการชนะเป็นการแสดงผลลัพธ์ของคุณในการเดิมพันที่ประสบความสำเร็จ มันช่วยให้คุณเข้าใจว่าวิธีการเล่นหรือกลยุทธ์ใดที่ทำงานอย่างดี ทำให้คุณสามารถปรับปรุงและพัฒนาด้านหนึ่งในการเดิมพันของคุณได้

ทว่าอย่างไรก็ตาม การรายงานการแพ้ก็มีความสำคัญเช่นกัน มันช่วยให้คุณเรียนรู้จากความผิดพลาดของคุณ วิเคราะห์สาเหตุว่าทำไมคุณแพ้ และปรับปรุงกลยุทธ์หรือสไตล์การเล่นของคุณให้ดียิ่งขึ้นในอนาคต

ด้วยการรายงานการชนะและแพ้ที่มีคุณค่า คุณสามารถพัฒนาทักษะและปรับปรุงประสิทธิภาพในการเล่นของคุณได้ จึงสำคัญที่จะใส่ใจและใ��้ข้อมูลดังกล่าวให้เกิดประโยชน์ต่อตัวคุณในการเดิมพันในอนาคต

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On the Concept of Byzantium with Continual Reference to Alcibiades (v3) - Excerpt, Part 2-Section 1

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01— 523:741 .706

A]s

m] a]tter

f] a] c]t,

was

just

te l]ling

De m]o

w]e

w]al k]ed

your

f] l] a]t,

I’ve

b]een

j]u s]t

t]ad

p] r]eo cc]u p]ied

l]ate

with

night

a c]tua l]ly

j]u s]t

r]e m]em b]ered

t]o d]ay,

f] r]om

years

ago

a c]tuall y],

c]omp l] e]te l] y]

n]on-de s] c]ript,

entire l] y]

in c]on s]e q]uential

f]a c]e

va l]ue,

yet

was

n]ight

th]at

n]one th]e l]e ss],

n]ow

th]in k]ing

th] r]ough,

e ss]entially

i]nd i] c]at i]ve

t r]ue

c]ha r]a c]ter.

was

n i]ght,

v i] a]

pure

instin c]t,

a] l]lowed

true

c]o l]ors

sh]ow,

and

c]ourse

was

a sh]amed

f]ir s]t,

who

isn’t

di s]gu s] t]ed

f]ir s]t

s]ight

their

t]rue

c]olors,

but

the

years

h a]ve

p] a]ssed

I’ve

c]ome

the

c]o n] c]lusion

th]at

th]ere’s

a c]tually

no th]ing

p] r]io r]i

w r]ong

with

t r]ue

c]o l]ors—a c]tua l]l y],

anything,

it’s

q]uite

the

c]o n]t r]a r] y].

t r]ue

c]o l]ors,

c]ourse

c]an’t

change

them,

but

e]ven

i]f

c] ou]ld

w ou]ldn’t.

Be c]ause

e]ven

though

t r]ue

c]olors

r]e q]uire

p] r] e] r]e q]u i]s i]te,

p]erh a] p]s

un a] pp]etizing

p] r] e] r]e q]u i]s i]te,

p] r] e] r]e q]uisite

that,

ye s],

that

l oa]the

c]ertain

p] e]o p]le

for

n o]

r ea]so n].

B]ut

e]ve n]

th]ough

th]at

may

f a] c]t

b]e

the

c]a s]e,

b]e l]ieve

it’ s]

a] c]tually

p]ro p]er

l] oa]the

c]ertai n]

p] eo] p]le

for

a b]so l]ute l] y]

n] o]

r ea]so n],

w]ith

n] o]

ju s]tification

w]hat s] o]ever,

that

h a]ting

p] eo] p]le

s]ans

p]r e]text

i]s

i]n

f]act

entire l] y]

ne c]e ss]ar y],

and

may

e]ven

l] ea] p]

f]urther

and

s]t a]te

outright

th]at

th] e]se

c]ertain

p] e]o p]le,

whom

w e]

l] oa]the

s a]ns

p]retext,

may

a] c]tua l]ly

deserve

th i] s]

i]nten s]e

l] oa]thing

and

un p]rov o] k]ed

hatred,

b]ut

let

b]egin,

p]lease.

B] e]cause

b] e]g i]n

w i]th,

i]t

was

era

where

f]ound

my s]el f]

s] p]en d]ing

a n]

i n]or d]inate

amount

t]ime

s] o]cial

events

that

l] oa]thed—I

l] oa]thed

b o]th

c]on t]emplating

future

a t]tendan c]e

these

e]ve n]t s]

a n]d

the n]

a c]tual

a t]t e]nda n] c]e

these

e]ve n]t s].

P] eo] p]le,

ul t]imatel y],

have

c]outh—to

this

day,

f]or

exam p]le,

o f]ten

f] i]nd

m y] s]el f]

p] r]esent

s]ocial

gathe r]ings

where

q]u o]te-un q]u o]te

v]egeta b]le

p] l]ate,

a l]ong

with

v]egeta b]le

d] i] p],

i]s

p]resen t]ed

hors

d]’oeuvre,

and

I’m

a] l]most

a] l]ways

l]ittle

l]et

d]own

the

qua l]it y]

the

ce l]er y].

A]t

th a]t

p]arti c]u l]ar

s]tage

m y]

l] i] f]e,

f]a c]t,

the

e r]a

I’m

s] p]ea k]ing

of,

I]’d

r]e c]on c] i]led

m y] s]el f]

the

f]a c]t

that

h]ad

i]nt r] i]ns i] c]ally

h] i]gher

s]tandards

than

mo s]t

w]hen

c]ame

c]e l]ery,

c]u c]umbers

w]ell— I]

a n]a l] y]zed

p] r]odu c]e

with

a n]

a] c]uit y],

f r]an k] l] y],

m]o s]t

m]y

p]eers

would

never

a]chieve.

Having

s]aid

th]at,

th]i s]

day

the

majo r]it y]

ho s]ts

our

c]ount r] y]

have

n]ext

n]o

c]outh

when

c]omes

s]erving

c]ele r] y]

c]u c]umbers.

F]or c]ed

a]ttend

s] o]- c]alled

p] o] s]t

wedding

b]runch

ju s]t

f]ew

months

p]r i]or

the

events

I]’m

a] b]out

re l]ay,

was

a] pp]alled

the

q]u a] l]ity

c]u c]um b]e r]s

s]e r]ved— a]

c]u c]um b]er,

a] b]ove

a]ll

else,

sh]ould

refre sh]ing.

p]ie c]e

c]e l]er y],

i d]ea ll] y],

i]s

s] i]m i] l]ar

s] i] pp] i]ng

fresh

g l]a ss]

i c]e

water

ze s]ty

s]ummer

d]ay.

The

s]our c]e

thi s]

r]e g] r]ettable

d]e g] r]a d]ation

the

q]ua l]it y]

our

c]e l]er y]

and

c]u c]umbers

un d]oubted l] y]

s]tems

f r]om

Ame r]i c]a’s

ove r]re l]ian c]e

d]ip.

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