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dear-buttercup · 5 months

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Okay, okay, hear me out:

Spy x Family AU, except Marinette is Loid & Adrien is Yor.

Marinette & Loid both have this alternate self that is very calculative & has the urge to plan out every possible outcome of a situation so they're not caught off guard. Not to mention that both of them have this very strong sense of justice and, each in their own way, are trying to make the world around them a better & safer place. However, both of them also have this other side that is gentle and kind and, essentially, a softy (though this shows more in Marinette bc, well, she hasn't been through the things Loid has been).

Then we have Adrien, who, like Yor, is outwardly sweet & cheerful and doesn't have a clue what to do with Life (TM). But he also has a dark & deadly side, which makes him absolutely consider dirtying his hands if he thought he was protecting the ppl he loves (*cough* derrision *cough*). I can totally see him become an assassin if it was the only thing he could do to protect his loved ones & bring food to the table, esp if he was taught to do that from a young age.

Also, some of my other headcanons for this AU (and pls beware of possible spoilers for sxf if u aren't caught up or want to watch):

- Emma would be Anya, obv, and like Anya, she has telepathic powers and can read her parents' minds. (Side note: I was considering making Emma a creation of the peacock miraculous & for that to be the reason she has her telepathy powers, but then I realized the miraculous existing in this AU might not make much sense, so I'm putting it on the backburner. If anybody wants to explore that, though, be my guest!)

- The plushy u see in Emma's hands in my drawing is Tikki, which is the equivalent of Mr. Chimera in the anime (however, alternatively, The Handler could be Tikki & in turn, The Shopkeeper could be Plagg. But going with my initial idea...)

- The cat in the picture, then, would be Plagg, who is the equivalent of Bond. However, unlike Bond, Plagg is a little shit & he knows it & therefore gives Marinette a lot of grief. But he's very cute when he wants to be, and Emma is very set on keeping him, so Marinette resorts to silent psychological warfare with him. Surprisingly, Plagg is pretty chill when it comes to Adrien to everyone's surprise.

- Just like Bond, Plagg also has psychic powers. However, I can just see him hissing in annoyance everytime a vision pops up. :D

- Adrien is secretly an assassin who exterminates traitors with his special dagger(s) that he calls 'Cataclysm'.

- Marinette is a spy who is tasked with getting close to her target, Chloe Bourgeois. She has a customized gun that she prefers to use that she calls her 'lucky charm'.

- Also, the same as the anime, Marinette's agent name is 'Ladybug' & Adrien's is 'Chat Noir'.

- Chloe is Marinette's target (I know Desmond & Gabriel are crazy similar, but I think it'd be pretty weird to have Gabe & Adrien in the same universe & for them to not be related).

- Chloe has 2 children: a twin son & daughter who r attending the same prestigious school. The daughter (which I haven't chosen a name for) is the equivalent of Becky & the son (which I also don't know the name of) is the equivalent of Damian.

- Chloe's daughter lives with her father (who I imagine is Luka bc it's a guilty ship of mine, but eh), but she also pays for her child support and education, so her daughter was raised like a princess and therefore has the same princess tendencies as Becky.

- Chloe's son is still pretty much the same as Damian, so not much to add there. (Yes, exactly like Damian. If you know, you know :) )

- Lastly, I will leave you with this out of pocket notion: Felix as Yuri and Kagami as Fiona (and yes, I very much ship them, even in this AU :) )

Here are the individual characters separately as a treat for making it till here!

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gelarshiesprofruitboarder · 2 months

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haedcanoms ..... fro anyome yuo can thimkdj of 🙏🙏🙏🙏💥💯💯

this is gonna be. a big block of text. uve enabled me and now im gonna talk for forever. uh. :3333 (also a shit ton of my hcs are just me projecring shjt so.)

okayyyy uh. dave went to private school for like. 4 years. he didnt follow any rules and wouldve definitly gotten expelled ljke 2 weeks in but bro strider is. so fucking rich so he just payed to keep him kn. he still had to wear those stupid ass uniforms tho and now he absolutely hates wearing polo shirts. fuckinf despises them.

sollux??? massive h*r fan he makes a shit ton of uber obscure references that like no one gets but him and he makes liek anyone hes ever had a positive interaction with watch it. aradia also likes it bc he made it like impossible not to if youre close enough to him. he kinda got terezi in2 it and she really likes trogdor.ike REALLY likes trogdor.

speaking of aradia and sollux aradias like a massive goth music fan and they listen to that stuff together like all the time. he listens to more,,, mainstream ig stuff regularly but then aradia makes him listen to her entire collection whenever theyre together

Jane can speak french,,, shes not french or anything in thr SLIGHTEST but she learned it bc like. idk desserts are french sometimes. and she just randomly starts speaking french to be annoying n fuck with ppl. roxys learned a little bit from her so sometimes she does too but. rarely.

terezi sollux and feferi friendship 🙏🙏 thsyre so. important to me. i dont remember how much they imteract all together in canom ik jts at least once but... theyre literally a version of the primary colors please thsyrs so friedn group that youd think would hate eachother but they surprisingly dont

jane crochets also alongside baking. she makes people shit like. all the time and probably spends way too much on yarn. she does it while watching all those dumb sitcoms??? whatever theyte called (like parks and rec and arrwsted development and the good place. that stuff). she also sometimes hamgs out with rose and they crochet/knit together

dirk and roxy make like the most shitpost stupid meme references (more often roxy) and like no one else gets them or rreally finds them funny bc theyre all from like. 2009. or ehatever while roxy n dirk are from. the future (i forgot when and no im not lokking jt up) roxy especially has like. dumb tumblr humor and will say the weirdest shit and no one will get it except dirk

feferi sends sollux videos like "t)(is reely reminds me of you ♥️" and then its a 5 minute jerma laighing at car crashes compilation or some shit.

dave makes that type of music that either sounds like actual shit or really good depending on the person. like uber expirimental fucked up random sfx dumbest lyrics ever etc etc (idk how to describe it but like. if uve listened to like.... queef jerkey thats what im imagining)

if were imagining that quest for the missing spoon exists in homestuck (since the comics do, plus theres other stuff like movies and plushes) dirk definityly had the pepsi blue chilis centerfold cutout on his wall. i also think him and maybe roxy??? quote that shit like not even on purpose CONSTANTLY since it was such a big franchise. also i think itd be funny if people talked ab it like how they talk ab harry potter and shit like "oh my god im SUCH a geromy."

aradia plays cello. like this absolutely fucking massive one too thats like deep reddish wood and its heavy as hell and it shouldnt be feesibly possible for her to carry it around but she can skmehos??? and shes really fucking good too. she likes 2 play for fer friends n partners

feferi adores tmbg esp their earlier stuff but she likes it all. shes got a playlist of every single one of their songs she could get ahold of and badically only listesns to that one playlist. she also knows a shit ton about the band itself and knows fun facts about like every song and will NOT hesitate to infodump whenever something slightly related comes up in conversation.

sollux LOVES classic tetris hes extremely fucking good at it and knows how to do all the weird shit w/ the controller like hypertapping and rolling and honestly probably made up something new. he basically only plays past killscreen (he found an nes somehow and hacked jt to let him start anywhere) and is the type of guy to be like "Oh yeah thii2 2hiit2 ea2y here II'll giive you a begiinner level two." and then. start you at level 29.

i have more i think but i cant remember any besides like "__ is a fan of "__ !!!!!" bc i just live projecting my interests onto characters. again sorry for so many words um. 💔

#you can tell who i spend thd most time thinking about bc i actually have headcanons for them. oops #sorry if theres like an incomprehensible amount of typos i dropped my phone on the curb and half my screen is cracked so i physically cant #tell if like. a quarter of my screen has any typos. um #i say as if i care much ab typos. anyways #homestuck #headcanons #dave strider #sollux captor #aradia megido #terezi pyrope #jane crocker #roxy lalonde #feferi peixes #rose lalonde #dirk strider

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doodlboy · 8 months

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ANYWAY

*grabs the handful of ppl who liked my hypmic oc post*

It is time.

Under the readmore bc this is probably gonna be an essay

Ok, so note, I literally started making this guy bc I was going to draw him 4 a meme that he's the "excuse me, they asked 4 no pickles" kinda guy and specifically he'd b that guy 4 jyushi who at the time of me making, was older than my oc which is funny 2 me

Anyway ×2

I made moodboards bc im too tired 2 draw detailed stuff rn, his current filler name is Pink, bc of his hair

1 4 his hair ⤵️ & 1 4 his outfit ⤵️

Also, this doodle of me attempting 2 convey the hair I'm thinking of, dunno why he's so desaturated but whatever

His hair is white-blond in the front and a reddish pink in the back, I haven't decided if that's bc of dye or if it's like doppo and hifumi w their two-toned hair.

- street kid who got abandoned by his parents "going traveling" 2 Japan and basically leaving him there 2 fend for himself

- I still need 2 do more research but I'm thinking as far as a division goes, he'd be from Seto Japan bc⤵️

- he almost gets arrested 4 graffiti[ing??] murals & an elderly classical artist [pottery artist maybe since that's a thing in seto] more or less bails him out & takes him in

- the old fella essentially becoming a mentor 2 Pink, teaching him how to express himself of canvas since he had a knack 4 it. Pink doesn't learn all that much in the way of typical schooling tho, so he speaks with a kinda rough accent

- typical mentor story tho, the old fella didn't have any other family and took Pink in like a son so when he eventually passed he left everything 2 him including a little studio where Pink lives

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Anyway×3 idk where go from 2 get 2 these parts of the story

- winds up in Yokohama & makes fast "friends*" w the local yakuza

[*they insult each other a lot of the time, like samatoki calling pink two-toned brat & pink calling samatoki mr.rabbit bc of him being so insistent on ppl calling him honorifics, his stage name Mr. HardCore, & the fact pink thinks he looks like a white rabbit. Despite insults, they actually agree on a lot of things.]

- Pink's rap style is- really erratic tbh, he's good but if u aren't paying attention you will get lost

- Additionally, his rap ability is called "Framed," similar to Jyuto's Prison ability, Pink freezes opponents in paintings of themselves [but the twist is that the paintings r how he sees them so he hardly uses it bc ⤵️]

- He's a bit of tsundere dumbass. Any affection shown is off-handed. "Yeah, whatever, I got your favorite, ya mention it so much it's hard to forget" kind of off-handed. And he has massive respect 4 the other divisions [& since the music from the game exists in canon, he also knows every song very well].

- Which is why he uses his framed ability sparingly, bc it reveals his true emotions, not just 2 the opponent he used it on, but everyone else, too. [Specific ex is samatokis painting being a like- a fuckin fancam type deal, or Rei's painting being actual shit bc he hates deadbeat dads.]

- Anywayx4, he's abt 22/23 & takes the younger members of divisions under his wing since his indifferent 2 all the beef going on between them.

- Esp jyushi bc isth that kid would just not eat if a fast food restaurant fucked up his food, so pink and kuko r the "he asked for no pickles" duo, 1 is quiet & kinda bitchy lookin and the other 1 is loud as hell, but after they fix the food pink still tips em & apologizes 4 kuko yelling sm unintentionally

Anyway ×5 that's all I got rn ty 4 coming 2 my oc tedtalk

#elliot rambles #oc #oc rambling #hypmic oc #pink oc

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girlwithfish · 4 months

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if this is too explicit, u dont have to post it but fjdjsksks ive always felt like im bad at giving h**d do u have any tips ???

HAHA okay ill try to give tips NSFW and also this is abt sucking dick disclaimer 🫡🫡 gonna put it under a read more omg this is gonna b so crass. sorry

like honestly it reallyy really depends on the person ur giving head to bc everyone likes different things and some ppl ive given head to werent that into it or i wasnt that into it. like for me i have to b rly into them cuz idk past hookups i havent been too into and my mouth would feel all dry or like they like it different than how im used to doing. So tip #1 u have to be willing to adapt and be receptive to what the other person likes. i think thats the most important thing when it comes to sex in general. always listen to ur partner and be willing to communicate, ask them beforehand or during if they want it different. do they like softer or harder do they like rough stuff do they like more slow sensual fast do they like when u go deep or no .

Also only ever do what U want to do yk!!! do not let anyone force u or like just grab ur head unless if u want that but if they do that shit w out talking to u first or u guys agreeing ur into that they r scummy

I think a big thing is making sure its wet enough bc suckign dick when ur mouth is dry is just unpleasant for both people. make sure u produce enough saliva and get that dick WET lol. its abt getting into a rhythm and also like make sure u cover ur teeth with ur lips or else that will hurt them. if ur confused how to do that bc i def was at first literally just pull ur lips in over ur teeth like ur gonna look stupid and if u put like ur fingers in ur mouth they shouldnt hit ur teeth at all and ull only feel ur lips. Lol and u need to hold ur lips like that it might take some time getting used to. Jaw wise i dont hav much advice like my jaw used to lock a lot in tje beginning when i first started giving head and id get tired fast esp if the dick is Big or girthy lmfao but u kinda just habe to push thru it and ull get more used to doing it and have more stamina my jaw doesnt get tired much anymore unless if im going a longggg time

If its a girthy or big dick and u cant take it all in ur mouth and its tiring use ur hands at the base !!! some guys like it some dont so just ask em but if theyre into using hands u can just suck the tip or only a few inches nd be using ur hand on the rest or two hands if ur into that idk. ask them what rhythm and pace they want for like using ur hands too cuz everyone's different some might liek a firmer grip or fast or slow idk. but ur gonna want to get into a rhythm using hand and ur mouth itll like work in sync together yk

some ppl r into more attention to the tip but for some that can b rly sensitive so either ask them or pay attention to body cues cuz u dont want to hurt them !! but have fun w it lmfaooo u can lick it or lick like the underside(frenulum? i think lolol) idk use ur tongue a lot too and then u can go deeper again or get back into the rhythm u were in and occasionally give more attn to the tip

im kinda used to giving more passionate or intense head and guys who r into that im more sexually compatabile with so idk! when or if the dick falls out cuz it happens u can kiss it too They will luv that shit lmfaooo i think its really abt passion and willingness and stuff cuz receiving sucks if the giver doesnt seem like theyre into it or care abt ur pleasure and sucking dick def isnt for everyone or some ppl just dont like it as much which is totally fine never do anything u dont want to!!! but its really all abt wanting to make ur partner feel good and if u have that genuine desire theyre gonna love it. usually ppl r into sloppy head just cuz its hot seeing someone going Off for u so dont be shy to make noise and all the sloppy dick sucking noises r usually a turn on for ppl lmaooo and u can moan too to show ur into it im sooo into doing that 👍

and u can experiment w positions too like being on ur knees while theyresitting or kneeling next to them kinda while theyre sitting on the bed and Def likeee if ur into it giving head can be a veru mutual thing too like u can also get pleasure too just gotta talk abt it w ur partner like if u like being grabbed or touched somewhere idk i think giving head is really awesome and slay and i get a lot of pleasure from giving i love too hard 😈🫶🫶🫶🫶Lol but u can do a lot of fun stuff and variety w head when it comes to positions. do it in front of a mirror or something etc. but idk it rly just takes practice and getting ur form down and rhythm and learning what ur partner likes and what u like! u do not have to be crazy or into intense head or deep throating shit or anything u see in porn its a mutual experience and abt making ur partner feel good and use ur hands if u dont like going deep etccc and u can go soft too it rly depends what the person is into! Also its all abt touching too like grab ur partners thighs touch them u can kiss their stomach before u go down hold their hand touch their butt if theyre into that LOL idk its like a very dynamic thing lots to do 🫡🫡🫡i also like laying my head on their high and s*cking that way its very sensual . Okay just gave way too much info abt my sex life slayy hope this helped tho babe !

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rachelsennott · 2 years

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not to be one of those radical anti medicine/“modern medicine is an agent of social control, pathologizing/medicalizing behaviors society considers imoral, ugly, wrong, that deviate from our normal/acceptable bc if it’s a disease, it it’s an illness, if it isn’t how ppl are supposed to be or behave, then we don’t have to accept these ppl and their behaviors, we can instead focus on curing them so they can become healthy and normal and moral again” activists (esp bc im a doctor LMFAOO imagine the fucking irony) but we gotta STOOOOOP pretending we (ie our society) really actually truly honestly gives a fuck about eating disorders.

society only gives a fuck about bodies they label as repulsive and unattractive. especially female bodies!!! it’s only when they are “forced” to see ppl existing in bodies (too thin or too fat) labeled as unnatural, as ugly that eating habits become an issue.

we fucking THRIVE on disordered eating!!! what girl doesn’t have at least one memory of being body shamed by their mother? who hasn’t at least seen one “omg i also live in a ‘mom only eats a handful of nuts’ household!!”? influencers and celebrities make fucking bank advertising weight loss shakes and teas on social media. not to mention the billion dollar industry of diet and weight loss books.

it’s when bodies become bothersome, when they become unattractive (“men don’t like fat girls”/“men like girls with big butts and boobs and small bellies”/“men like a little bit of meat to hold on, who wants to hold a skeleton??”. always men always women alwaysalwaysalways men dictating what women need to look like alwaysalwaysalways a normal body is a body men want to fuck and show off and lust after) that they become sick bodies.

on the dsm criteria for anorexia? must have low bmi. oh, u have every single behavior of anorexia but u have a high bmi? nah, sorry, that’s not anorexia! oh, u have every single anorexia behavior but a high bmi? then congratulations on starting ur weight loss journey, we’re so proud of u!!

oh, so u used a diuretic/laxative or u fasted before a big event bc u want to look good/fit in ur outfit? omg we’re just like kim k on the met gala!!! omg noooo, it’s not an issue, it’s only like once in a while, relax!

eating the entire mcdonalds menu on a tiktok video? it’s a mukang when they r thin and a “today i had a binge episode” video when they r fat.

the sickness of eating disorders isn’t, ironically, in the eating behavior, it’s in the body that bears the behaviors.

(if u try arguing w/ me on this post i want u to know ill fucking doxx u u ugly rat, i have enough money to pay a good lawyer i won’t even hesitate!!!!)

#tw ed #tw eating disorder #diet culture #medicalization #medical industrial complex #patriarchy #misogyny #eating disorder #mental illness #fatphobes and proana/thinspo dont fucking touch this post #dont even breath near this post ill fucking kill every single on of yall #also no republicans #yall could never understand this level of reflexion and critical dee thinking #so dont even try arguing

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duncebento · 10 months

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you study abroad right? how has that been? i want to but im worried its going to be too hard to adjust to plus school

i do!! i’ll give pros n cons though they might be specific

pros:

- i’m confident that i’m getting some of the best education i could be, which even though i’m from new york where there r many college options i still feel that it would’ve been settling to stay at home. to me it’s worth being there for the school

- i do like having the opportunity to immerse myself in another language as someone interested in linguistics!

- for italy specifically, food, art, architecture, pre-capitalist city planning which i feel is more….human-centric?

- since my school is in english, i have meet ppl from allll around the world. my class was originally 16 ppl and we were from 10 different countries across 5 continents. of the friends i’ve made there, one is chinese from hungary, one is from portugal, one is from india, one is from zimbabwe, and two are other usamericans.

- the cost isn’t great since it’s a private school, but i’m still paying less than i could have been in the US, n godwilling i will not graduate w student debt

- europe has trains so i can go places so easily

- night-out bar and club culture that i wouldn’t have access to yet in the US w/out a fake, but which i feel is crucial to the college experience lol. will treasure memories dancing to live music at the cuban bar, drinking spritzes on the river, bringing bottles of prosecco to house parties

cons:

- paperwork is so annoying ESPECIALLY because italian bureaucracy is ill-managed. BUT americans have such a passport privelege, my old roommate from iran couldnt come to school for months bc of her visa

- apts are still expensive i general, especially in places like florence w a high tourist appeal bc they are also airbnb infected, which has totally jacked up rent rates. right now i’m blessedly paying what i would definitely call reduced rent because a rich friend of a friend of a friend had an old apartment that she’s renting to me for far less than market price. but without knowing people from the area already apt hunting is hell.

- it’s not entirely a con, but def a learning curve around communication, because european profs are often excitable or brusque or sometimes even cruel in my experience in a way that wouldn’t fly so much in american colleges (though part of that is the fashion element imo.) it was hard for many americans to adapt to this sort of criticism

- i am definitely more conscious of my blackness in italy, ppl are more ignorant about black people (though imo not actually more hateful.) but ppl are also so amazed by my hair which is nice sometimes lol…..american whites will like never compliment black hair cos theyre scared. but yeah white ppl in europe dont have much of a faux pas developed against certain racism yet

- i do miss my family when i’m there— though now i miss my friends when i’m not there! and the time zone diff >_<

- it is very easy to be lonely, esp. at first. at fashion school i’m not really around “my type” of people, which means i feel really isolated even around the other americans. they just don’t know how to make heads or tails of me i suppose. but then, if i really think of it, that might just be a con of being weird in general. my usual odds of finding someone i really gel with are about 1/500, so that puny statistic decreases even further when most ppl around me don’t speak english as a first language.

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77ngiez · 1 year

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chihiros izurus and yukis

chihios

favorite thing about them: her influence!!!!! ough the way she still impacts the story beyond death!!!! least favorite thing about them: her canon writing favorite line: i dont pay much attention to lines but that one where she says she wants to destroy the past version of herslef.. NO! GIRL! GIRL! brOTP: i think her & kiibo r the bestest.. siblings <3 OTP: i lovelovelove her with. makis and sakuras and sayakas and mukuros and kaedes and mikakos and- *goes on for five hours* nOTP: i do not like her w kiibo bcs . like i said . siblings . also chimondo or chishimaru or chishimondo is Icky! or her with byakuya.. DIE! random headcanon: strawberry hairclips . also i think sjhe like steals items of clothing from ppl she likes unpopular opinion: TRANSGENDER song i associate with them: villain by teniwoha or digital/physical heart by vane lily favorite picture of them: babygirl pose

izurus

favorite thing about them: everything <3 esp her interactions w junko in dr3 lmao least favorite thing about them: her canon writing. not bcs its bad bcs it doesnt align w the version of her that exist in my brain favorite line: i think all her reactions to junko in dr3 r funny . or when she showed up at the end of ultra despair girls brOTP: her and hajime r fun.. he likes steals her deadname so she cant hold a grudge against him lol . HER AND IBUKI!!!!!!!!!!! also her and chihiro r good OTP: kamunagas <3 also a soft spot for kamushima nOTP: hm i guess her and either of the naegis? i see them as cousins (who stick to each other at family gatherings cuz the rest of their extended family is homo/transphobic more or less) random headcanon: when she gets older she goes into computer science <3 unpopular opinion: that she is her Own Fucking Person ffs song i associate with them: hahaha i have a whole playlist but uhh. fruiting bodies by rip or cutlery by yoh kamiyama r good ones. favorite picture of them: anything i draw of her <3

yukisss

favorite thing about them: ok i love how he seems like a Real Actual Person . does that make sense? like hes dumb sometimes and hes silly and gay . i love makoto but yuki is much more of a Real Actual Person then her least favorite thing about them: what the fuck was his chapter 3 motive . wtf favorite line: iii like some of the stuff he says in the bad end lol brOTP: him & akane !!!! also him & kizuna r good in their ftes, and the weed fic is making me appreciate him & kanatas dynamic also . also him & haru r funny OTP: KINJOMAEKINJOMAEKINJOMAE!!!!!!!!!! theyre soocanon so perfect for each other love love. also hes cute w yamato nOTP: i dont like him with akane or kizuna romantically. or any of the girls in general lol random headcanon: inferiority complex unpopular opinion: he is Literally a system . *gestures at chapter 6* song i associate with them: the monochrome mentality by rip <3 favorite picture of him: THAT ONE CG WHERE HE SLAPS TSURUGI HAHAHAHAH

#nana.txt #sorren stargloom #ask #character ask game #chihiro fujisaki #izutu kamukura #yuki maeda #dr1 #dr2 #dra

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astral--horrorshow · 2 years

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hi!! can i get a romantic studio ghibli matchup (like, out of all the movies u write for !!) anyway, i’m a 5’0 trans gay enby who uses they/he pronouns. i have long-ish black/red split dye hair, i’m very pale, and i have blue eyes. i’m also kinda chubby and i look very very tired almost always. i mostly dress causal & in pajamas, but when i feel like it, i just dress in an all black emo sorta outift? idk LOL

if this helps i’m an ISFP 4w5, gemini/cancer cusp. i’m a very very quiet and reserved person in public, especially around those my own age. i choose to not talk and i often just nod my head or shrug. i really only respond when need be! however, when you get to know me, i am absolutely chaotic. i love to make people laugh and will do anything to achieve that! i’m very physical and i love picking people up and play fighting with them (i love arm wrestling and thumb war LOL). i have a temper that’s hard to control in private, and i do get a little physical- but i don’t hurt anyone. i just throw around stuffed animals or pillows. in public i am more self-aware and it’s only visible through my movements, tone, and expressions that i’m angry. but i also feel guilty and very sad and i cannot be angry at someone for too long and i end up coming back to apologize (but sometimes i’m petty so if its their fault and what they did really hurt i won’t). enough about that though, abt my friends. i always try to fix their problems and give them advice and i sort out their issues and whatnot for them. im always there to listen and id consider myself a good listener, even tho sometimes i can lose hope and give up. i am mostly pessimistic and think things will go wrong abt get really nervous, but sometimes im very optimistic and cheer people on, esp my friends. i overthink a lot, bad or good things, which usually ends up in me spaced out, and i have a hard time pulling myself back into reality. i get embarrassed very easily. i stand up for what i believe in no matter what and i speak my mind for the most part. i have strong beliefs and opinions, im very skeptical of others at first, and i take a while to warm up to new people. but sometimes my anxiety overwhelms me too much. i also get scared very very easily. i also have BPD if that matters

i love love LOVE bugs, cats, knives, plushies, and rubber ducks. I collect the last three things !! they are my favorites in the world and i love going outside and collecting little bugs and ive always wanted a pet spider. i also adore dark/horror media things, and i love halloween. i love being scared and going into horror rides & ghost tours, theyre my fav ! cats r my fav animal and i want 50 of them when i get older. plushies comfort me a lot so do rubber ducks, so ig thats a bit childish, but thats okay :). i collect knives bc i think theyre cool and i like to show them off like theyre my babies (they are). i also love rollercoasters and theme parks, i luv adrenaline. i constantly have to tell ppl they wont die, even tho sometimes im scared myself. i love weezer, foo fighters, childish gambino, korn, and ghost. music is a very very big part of my personality LOL.

im not a big fan of pda but in private i LOVE PHYSICAL AFFECTION AND WORDS OF AFFIRMATION !! i love kisses and hugs and i will die without them. gift giving is my least fav method of affection, i feel too bad lol. i dont like being ignored and i get a lil jealous sometimes, so i need reassurance a lot. i prefer masculine people and someone who'd be patient w/ me.

thanks!!

Okokok-

Before i finished i know who it was-

Howl from Howls Moving Castle!

I just think you two would get along great! Also, ty so much for paying attention to my less popular fandoms! Its a very nice change of pace. Howl is one of my favorite movies and the book is one of my faves too, so im glad i got to think ab studio ghibli today!

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roobylavender · 4 months

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https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8QPgHuh/ ok so i don’t disagree w op like she’s not wrong ppl r weird abt black women, particularly dark-skinned black women when it comes to romance and white men, but the comments abt carmy and syd r killing me bcs ,as a black women myself, i js dont see them as platonic bcs the shows themes and storylines have never leaned toward that in my opinion ! like it’s always been a platonic air, esp w the boss-junior start ! it’s not like there wasn’t any yk potential but i feel like nothing ever blossomed that’s js all i had to say haha !

i think you meant you don’t see them as romantic right 😂 but yeah like what the op is talking about is definitely very real but frankly i think a lot of the people who fixate on sc in particular really.. do not pay attention to anything else going on in the show. like the way people’s entire understanding of season two was framed through a ship lens instead of just taking the characters as they are on their face was kind of alarming and i think claire being there made it worse bc people perceived her as a threat even though she was never meant to be. like i seriously doubt she will be coming back and the point of her character was to demonstrate that carmy treated her like a fantasy escape from his hellhole of a life that he could rely on like a crutch. which no one deserves in a relationship lol. it’s not to say that carmy isn’t a victim of childhood abuse bc he very obv is and needs help but i think most people would agree being a victim doesn’t rob you of the ability to treat other people poorly, which he does regularly. richie is a part of that. sydney is a part of that. claire is a part of that. marcus is a part of that. and so on and so forth. it’s sort of carmy’s central dilemma: he needs to learn how to process and heal from his abuse so he can treat the people in his life better than he is treating them now. and along that line i could maybe see a future for sc, if the show happened to run long enough that carmy got better and became capable of dating someone while respecting their full personhood. but that would also require sydney to reciprocate any romantic feelings he allegedly has for her. which i don’t think she does at all 😶

#like it was very interesting to see everyone say sydney was jealous this season bc i don’t think she was at all #in fact i think calling her jealous is insulting if anything #the restaurant was a project she immensely cared about and put so much work into #so ofc she was going to be annoyed when carmy’s inability to manage his life properly got in the way of that #and also resulted in him lashing out at her where she wasn’t at fault #it had nothing to do with claire as a person and everything to do with carmy’s behavior as a professional #outbox

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5tar9litter · 9 months

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Things my mom said multiple times:

Partying:

“I don’t know why I don’t like it. I should like drinking and gambling. I should like talking to those thai girls even if they are hella rude. I should leave all of my kids alone at home while I go party past 12 at midnight. I guess I’m just weird like what they said. I don’t like talking to those people. They are so annoying, always boasting about how much money they make and then wasting it all away in the casino! Why don’t I like them? Why do I hate it so much??”

She’s said this exact topic at least 60 times this year of 2023. And I’d explain it’s because they are horrible ppl and it’s okay to have different hobbies from others. At least you are saving money, avoiding health risks, and just go find better ppl to be with. Plus I am the same way. I hate those ppl with the same passion but I just found better people who doesn't do those type of things.

Then she’d forget what I just said and start the same exact paragraph by next week or month.

And I start to interrupt when she is talking now because it’s annoying having them ask dumb ass questions esp if you just consulted them like 45x’s now. It’s just a waste of time and I noticed I’ve been either telling her she and I already talked about this or changing the subject completely.

Food:

“I wish we ate more sweets. As a family, nobody in this family likes it. I buy so much cookies, sodas, pizzas, apple pies, cakes, and candy but nobody eats all of it?”

I’d explain, “it’s too sweet. And there’s so much too. You buy like 26 apple pies and expect 4 of your kids to eat all of it in a week?? No thanks.”

“But why can’t we be like an american family? Why can’t we just eat all of the sweets like that?”

“But that’s why all of Americans are dying from cardiovascular diseases, Mom. Sweets kill u if you eat a lot, duh. What r u trying to do, kill us?”

“Haha, you are right but look at how good it looks.”

“Gross. It’s too sweet. Why did you buy so much sweets from the store again? You know 19 years of my life, none of us like cakes and stuff like that.”

“*attempts to eat all 26 apple pies by herself and stops eating by the 3rd apple pies* yuck! it’s so sweet! Why can’t I finish all of it?”

“Facepalms**”

SHE DOES THIS ALL THE TIME AHHH. She knows we don't like sweets. Period. Yet she buys it all the time and always complains that we never eat it even though none of us wanted it. If we were like, "Mom can we buy these cupcakes?" then we don't eat all of it. Then that makes sense that she'd be mad. But she's actually encouraging us to eat unhealthy on a daily basis. Like do you know how much pizzas we've had delivered to house on the daily basis? 6 BOXES for 4 KIDS AHHHH

This behavior did start my brother's food addictions though. Because she would encourage us to eat all of this and they would finish all 5 or 6 boxes by themselves. Now my brothers are having heart problems and stomach issues. Bruh.

Family in laws:

"When you date or get married, you are gonna have to sacrifice your whole life to your man's parents. You have to clean and cook for them 24/7. You will become a slave to them. Dating is never fun. It's only miserable"

I just nod my head and act like I'm listening every time she says this.

My job

"You shouldn't go to college and get a job. Just open a business. I'll support you."

She doesn't even have enough money to buy me food. I have to work to pay for it. It's so annoying because my dad told me the same thing but he can't even pay the bills so he's always stressing out.

"You should start a Youtube channel."

I respond with, "No thank you. I hate filming stuff. I don't even post 1 picture on my other social media so what makes you think I wanna?"

"Just saying. It'd be a good start."

"Yeah yeah."

She brings up this same topic of me starting a Youtube channel another 30x.

"Why do you keep telling me this, Mom!?"

Usually, I end up getting really pissed off. I hate when I get mad at anybody including my mom but she has a weird habit of repeating herself.

She really wants me to fucking start a youtube channel. I did start one at some point but then I got busy with school or other things and it was really boring for me so I just stopped. But it annoys me that she doesn't understand that I don't like making youtube videos especially at the moment. In the future, I can see it happening but not now. She still keeps suggesting it.

Another thing that annoys me is that she always tell me that my job sucks.

It took me 6 months to get my job and I love it to death. Even if it's minimal pay: Around 16$/hr where I live.

My coworkers are so nice. My managers are so kind and patient with me. The customers are so good to me and they treat me like family. The job is easy and fun. Sometimes I get yelled at by customers because I work at retail and I need an ID from them in order for them to purchase the cigarettes. 97% of them are pretty compliant. So it's fast and easy and if they argue, my coworkers always back me up. They are so kind compared to my old job where I had no support. So, I am always happy to come to work because for someone in my position and history, especially with a tight schedule, this job is like paradise for me. So every time I have a small issue like customers being an idiot or me being hit on at work which is all the time, my mom would say my job sucks.

I call her out on it because at least I am working and you know, compared to my old job at Petco, it's actually really good for a college student. It's close by and easy and relaxes me even if there's small mishaps.

She says she just meant all of that work for 17/hr. I tell her, "For now, this is what I just gotta work with it. But it doesn't suck. I'm just really grateful I have a job.

Babies:

"Do not have babies when you are young." Valid.

Boyfriends

"No dating until you finish school and get a career."

Valid.

"You can only dress like that around your boyfriend when you get one."

"You can only go watch movies or go out with your boyfriend when you get one."

"You can only get a house when you get a boyfriend."

"When you get a boyfriend, you'll have someone to hang out with all the time."

"WHY DO YOU WANT A BOYFRIEND SO MUCH I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT'S SO GOOD ABOUT HAVING ONE?!!?"

Mom, ever since I was young. You instilled this mindset that I need a boyfriend to have freedom in life. You won't even let me go out without a guy accompanying me and every guy I am just friends with you think I am dating him. AHH WHY IS SHE LIKE THIS?

"OOoh, looks like you are ready for a boyfriend~" My mom would tease me all the time and at the same time she'd tell me, "No boyfriend! You are too young. Not until you are a doctor!"

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Casinos:

For 5 years, this is all she talks about. She hates it there with so much hatred that it's incomprehensible but she keeps coming back to work there. Her coworkers also got annoyed with how repetitive she can be and she's told me about this. They told her there's so much careers out there. Why does she keep coming back to the casino if she hates it so much then quits within 5 months??

This year in 2023. she just quit one casino and now she secretly applied to ANOTHER ONE this month in August and my dad found out and yelled at her. I remembered their argument. "YOU LIED TO ME! YOU TOLD ME YOU'LL NEVER GO BACK AND YOU WENT AND APPLIED WITHOUT TELLING ME? YOU KNOW YOU ARE GONNA QUIT AGAIN. YOU DID THIS 5 TIMES ALREADY. WHY DON'T YOU LEARN? YOU CAN'T DO GRAVEYARD SHIFTS. YOU KNOW HOW SICK YOU GET WHEN DEALING PAST 3AM. WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF?!" I understand my mom wants to work again but doesn't know any other way to make lots of money with just a high school degree. But I agree this can't be healthy. When the other casino she applied see that she just quit 5 other major(popular) casinos within 3 years. They are gonna reject her applications because they know she likes to apply then quit after 5 months.

New business plans:

"I should buy those asian plants and sell it on facebook!"

I encourage her. She's been talking about this for a year now.

"I should cook food and sell it on facebook marketplace like those thai girls!"

I encourage her alot for this because I think she'd do well. She's been talking about this for 2 years now.

"I should work in another job that isn't the casino." *never does so*

"I wanna open an asian fast food shop with a drive through. I never seen one here in America."

I encourage her.

"I want to be a real estate agent. *Continues to explain how much money she'd make and swears she'll finish the classes to get the certificate.*"

This convinced me and my dad that she would actually do it. My dad is really hard to convince so I was surprised he let her. My dad said he'd support her until she gets a degree which is supposed to take 6 months only. She paid $1000, took the class for 5 months, then quit with no refunds.

She told me it's because the professor said she won't be able to become a millionaire until a year later because the economy is rocky right now so nobody's buying houses right now especially with the interest rates being so high for them.

I understood it but I told her like at least finish the last month and just take the exam. You get to cheat too like they do not care at all. Like just get the certificate and get it over with.

She explains she don't have the confidence to finish it. So she never finish the class or the exam. She ended up wasting $1000 even though I offered to cheat for her. ITS LITERALLY AN OPENED BOOK TEST. THE PROFESSOR LITERALLY TOLD HER THE ANSWERS FOR THE EXAM SO IT LITERALLY IS JUST FILLING IN THE BLANK.

After she did that, I've lost all hopes for her bro.

I don't encourage her to start a business because she's always quit or never make action. But you know what did she do? She bought this asian plant and gave it to some random mien woman to profit off of her for free :D R u fucking kidding me? Mom, why. That was your money right there. U bought that plant to make money on facebook but instead you gave it to some random asian lady. She was pretty disappointed in herself as well.

She always talk about: her Nightmares, hair loss, unhealthy eating, nutritional deficiencies, walking at the park, how much she hates my dad and how dirty the house is.

I don't really care and actually respond to her about it.

Things my dad always say:

"Always invest your money!"

"Just take easier classes."

Yeah sure let me just not graduate college by not taking my required Biology: Anatomy and physiology and statistics classes.

"You have to graduate with a bachelor!!"

Also refuses to support my education**

"You are gonna be a millionaire!"

"Why am I such a loser?" My dad always says that to himself.

He brags about me alot especially about how I won 2cd place on a contest and ended up being interviewed on tv.

I luv my parents but omg they are so dumb.

#family #parents #mother #rant post #personal rant #america #dessert #sweets #repetition #why #why are they like this #what the fuck

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sungbeam · 11 months

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I’M BACKKKK only to see Changmin??? Smth fishy is going awn 🤨🤨/j

No but omg you took the words out of my mouth THE OBJECTIFICATION OF MYSELF AND MY OWN INSECURITIES HAS ME LOOKING AT MYSELF WITH A PROVERBIAL CAMERA AT NEAR ALL TIMES WITH DIFFERENT CAMERA ANGLES TOO AS IF I WAS PLAYING FIVE NIGHTS AT FREDDY’S WITH MYSELF MOVING FROM ANGLE TO ANGLE EINFITNUND

Also omg what do you feel abt the new album?? I love Delicious with my whole being 😭 BUT LIP SYNC AND DOOR HAVE A HOLD ON MY SANITY LIKE PHEW I HAVE LISTENED TO THEM AN UNHEALTHY AMOUNT OF TIMES ESP CAUSE THE VOCALS IN DOOR GO CRAZYYYYYYYY Sunwoo esp omg lord have mercy on my soul-

AND JACOB’S COVER OF CEILINGS- REAHHHHHHHHH 👹👹👹👹 I actually astral projected (esp since I was thinking of basing my first fic off of it for a bit now 😳)

Btw this might be random but for love in unity, do any of them have jobs? 😭 I KNOW THATS A WEIRD THING TO ASK BUT I ALWAYS WONDER HOW PPL MAKE MONEY TO PAY FOR GROCERIES AND STUFF WHEN I’M WATCHING TV SHOWS CAUSE IT’S LIKE, MAN, I NEVER SEE YOU LEAVE CAMPUS, OR YOUR HOUSE SO HOW CAN YOU PAY FOR GROCERIES OR RENT IN THIS ECONOMY 😭

Just a silly question lol and if they don’t have jobs, what job do you think they’d have? 🧐 Personally, I feel like Changmin would work at a Target KEHKFHKE he’s just giving those vibes yk? Chanhee gives off retail vibes fs while Sangyeon is giving home depot OH AND ERIC WOULD BE WORKING AT ONE OF THE HOTDOG STANDS THATS ALWAYS OUTSIDE THEM 💀😭 Canada bros would suit the library methinks, they would def be the type to work with kids in the summer programs or would help tutor 😌 I could also see Kevin working at a pet shop or a barista? 🧐 Haknyeon also gives off barista vibes though especially with his fluffy hair these days 😭🫶

Ok that’s enough for my little ramble this week LOLOL happy to see that you finally embraced your Changmin love 🤭 hope you have an amazing rest of your week! :D

(Also if you have any poetry recs then lmk hehe)

- Always and forever, love, 🌷 anon

he won 😔 i wanted out of the basement 😔 and this was the only compromise 😔 im sorry jacob i repent 😔 for my sins 😔

PLS NOT THE FNAF AHAHAHHAHAH BC SAME 🤡🤡🤡 ME FROM MY PROVERBIAL SECURITY ROOM QATCHING MYSELF AND YELLING DONT GO IN THERE U DUMB BITXH

omg honestly i absolutely love love love lip sync, eyes on me, and door like KWNFKSJDK R U SKIFIEBF KIDDING ME??!))<_] HEY . WHAT ABTNE MEU SANITY. HUH???? MY MIND IS NOT ANTIFRAGILE . it's doing things to me omg like i thought the simpery was bad before, but now 🤡🤣 oh boy 🤣🤡 also LOVE THAT FOR JACOB KING SHIT I LOVE ALL THE COVERS HE GETS TO POST CUZ YESSIR THATS MY HUSBAND 😭😭😭😭😭 (chxngmxn pay attention, u ARE THE SIDE HOE don't hurt me) OMG???? UR FIRST FIC???? HELLO HMU ONCE/IF U DO I'D LOVE TO SUPPORT U SKFJEOFJK unless ur uncomfy or shy tho i totally get it 🤧🤧 !!!

HELP ME 💀💀💀 I FORGOT THAT THEY'RE SUPPOSED TO HAVE JOBS LMFAOOOO the only one who has a canonical job rn out of the boyz is jacob BAHAHAHHAH STOP. CHANGMIN AT TARGET AJZBDIDJFODJF THATS SO FKN FUNNY HELPMEBDKSNFKJD I AM NEVER LETTING THAT GO AND HELLO???? UR RELEGATING SANGYEON TO HOME DEPOT AHAHHAHAHAHAYYA KDNFKSJFJ IM SCREECHING WHE EZING YELLIGN ERIC AT THE HOT DOG STAND I— 💀😭 pls there r tears falling down my cheeks rn this is hilarious. low-key i think kev could make money via freelance photography and being an ✨influencer✨, and maybe get eric to coach little league baseball LMAO sangyeons prob making big boy money, and haknyeon will prob find SOME restaurant to work at tbh (i can't believe i forgot to give them canonical jobs 💀 i m never letting go of target worker changmin pls that is so funny) omg WAIT haknyeon working at the target starbucks in the same target as changmin 💀💀💀 IMAGINE TBZ!TARGET WORKERS ALCMLSMFKDJF IM CRYING

i did not embrace my love for him 😔😭🤧 I AM BEING HELD HOSTAGE, GASLIT GATEKEPT AND GIRLBOSSED BY A SQUIRRWL A TREE RAT A PLANT RODENT—

ANYWAYS HOPE UR WELL 🌷!! 💖 loved seeing u in my inbox as always :') mWAH

#sungbeam strikes again #🌷 anon #tbz </3 #need a tag for this chonky series lol

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baekhvuns · 1 year

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I'm literally somehow surviving on 5 hours of sleep.

The exams ARE RUINING ME. Nah bcz i used to think why do PPL make exams such a big deal now ik 🥲 BCZ THEY FREAKIN GIVE ONE DAY TO PREPARE FOR THE MOST CRUCIAL, HARD, AND MIND DRAINING SUBJECT!

Anyways, no one can disturb me now bcz I've given 10 hrs of my life everyday to studying i mean ,think! I could've listened to Ateez, read so many fics and finsihed so many animes.... I'm furious.

Oh, do i hear an editor anon.. please I'd want some seonghwa edits and esp. ur ff edits bcz we're the mcs in it 😌✨💅

But...how do u watch the edits tho...isn't tiktok banned here- TELL ME UR SECRETS!

Ohmygosh i totally forgot the other day i had a dream AND ATEEZ WERE FINALLY A PART OF IT. So it starts with me suddenly arriving in my school (don't ask why all my dreams are at school) and then I'm walking down the stairs and out of nowhere Mr CHOI JONGHO STARTS SINGING WHICH SCARES ME AND I LOOK AROUND TO SEE WHO THE HECK IS HAVING A MUSICAL IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY OF MY SCHOOL. but then he appears in front of me, and then I'm like wut r u doing here? He says we're all here.

😐

AND I FANGIRL EVEN IN MY DREAM so he takes me to meet the rest of the members. I'm around my school's canteen and i see Yunho and Hongjoong and i shyly wave and let me tell u...HONGJOONG IS TALL OK? we've been underestimating him. Or atleast taller thn me 🥲 and yunho....he's the colossal titan.

But they didn't say anything which confused me nd then a skip happens in my dream...and they're suddenly performing? And my eyes were blessed. When u can't see things irl, dreams help. And then ....my alarm went off.

So yea pretty long but hey. Imma go sleep-

EVERYTIME UR ASKS THEY ARE SO CHAOTIC I LOVE ITBWHFJWJKD hope u do well on ur exams !!!!! 😭😭😭 ur so right but online exams are >>>>

waiting for editor anon to send some links bc i am hungry, pls send some yunho ones also so that my brain juices can work 🧍🏻‍♀️ you can download a vpn but u have to pay for it or change like the location of ur phone?? idk how that’ll work fbebfbdn maybe if the anon as them on ig then u can 😭😭

LMFAOOO HEY HE IS TALL !!!! taller than most atinys who still think he’s short 🔫🔫 colossal titan 😭😭

#✉️ : ask #[ rosesapphiremysticalrose ]

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florencicle · 1 year

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on a side note before i go back to sleep i am actually a lot a bit upset. rly stupid rant below ab fucking minecraft

a friend of mine and i have been playing minecraft together all year. we keep taking turns paying for a server bcuz we play modded and it's really not a big issue for either of us. my other friend we'll call him erm uh p. we've been begging p to play mc with us at no cost to him at all and he's refused everytime saying he's just "not in a minecraft mood" or "it's boring"

p found someone he likes romantically that plays mc. now don't get me wrong i've done some crazy fucking shit when i've liked ppl, but not once have i ever ditched friends. this month was my other friends turn to pay for the mc server and she paid for it just yesterday, and he was very aware she paid for it!!! i let him know like i always do that we were renewing the server and we'd like if he'd play w us. he said no.

fast forward to last night when my friend calls me and is like "p just bought a fucking mc server." and m like ..what? bcuz we have one why in the world would we do that? n then it hits me

he bought the mc server just for his crush. KNOWING we already had one and we've been paying for it since january... i know it's for his crush bcuz it came out of absolutely nowhere like he hasn't played mc in such a long time and mc is the only game this girl plays.

it makes it even worse bcuz he continuously denies he likes her but it's sooo very obvious that p has a crush on this new girl and is slowly replacing us with her and her friends. our discord, that used to be mainly just b our val five stack, is now suddenly filled with ppl i don't fucking know and r playing minecraft with p and his "not" crush.

on top of that, he managed to convince my friend that i've been splitting the payments with to come play with them, (a group of like 6 ppl) knowing my friend gets anxiety in big groups. and then p abandoned them and left them alone in a call with 5 people they didn't fucking know. that's what pissed me off.

i dunno. it's stupid. i'm just mad esp bcuz the friend i've been switching payments with is also upset about it and she's like my little sister so i hate to see her upset. i'm upset bcuz it's just crazy how he never ever put this effort into playing mc or literslly any other game with us and now he's on discord or overwatch 24/7 when he used to complain about how busy he was for some girl he met a week ago.

idk it's stupid bsck to sleep i go

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