#even better than the first!! <3

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy Valentine's Day! (and this blog's first post anniversary!)

#poorly drawn mdzs #better drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Woah...it's been a whole *year* since I took the leap and uploaded my 'first attempt' art. #It's outdated now but it holds a special place in my heart for the fact it started all of this off. #Calling this 'poorly-drawn' was always about accepting that my art was going to be imperfect and messy - and doing it anyways! #There has been a staggering number of times I have drawn something I almost didn't upload because I didn't think it was 'good enough' #only for someone to say they liked it - or that it made them laugh. And it has helped me realize - #-The worst critic for my work has always been myself. If I listened to it all the time...well we would not be here now B'*) #And now that I have dabbled in other fandoms I can truly see how lucky was to start out with the MXTX fans. #The supportive messages and tags have truly been a guiding force toward my artistic and self improvement. #I really can't describe how grateful I am. #Thank you for seeing something worth rooting for when I was just figuring things out. #Thank you for being sweeter than the candy I have strategically hidden in the nooks and crannies of this house. #But watch out! If you forget to find them we will get ants. #I remembered to not hide chocolate in the bed this year. Yes I know it melted last time. Yes it did stain. I'm still sorry. #Thank you for loving me regardless <3 Even if it looked like I shit the bed real bad.

[thronealigned]

no it's fine this mind flayer is totally my friend and 100% honest with me all the time it's ok it likes me everything's so normal

#bg3 spoilers #baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 #i love how raphael directly calls you out on this. 'if id have known you were so gullible i wouldve tricked you into selling your soul for #a bowl of beans when we first met' #and then just keeps insulting you more if you keep insisting emp's really your ally #oc: impulse #sure this'll go in their tag #everything about impulse's Thing with the emperor is so funny to me. and then deeply fucked up if you think about it long enough. and then #really funny again if you think about it even longer #one day i'll do their 2.0 playthrough so i can fully form all my thoughts. and get better screenshots and the ceremorphosis ending #i mean there's nothing stopping me from loading an impulse 1.0 save and going ceremorphosis from there but idk it'd feel wrong #impulse has more tadpoles in their brain than synapses by act 3 and it does really fundamentally change them as a person #tfw your chaotic neutral act-first-ask-questions-never no-impulse-control 17 CHA bestie becomes one of the most detached calculating people #you've ever met. all their old casual wit and humor is still there but they think before they speak now and that really shouldnt feel as #sinister as it does. they have this look in their eye and it feels like they view everyone around them as lesser beings #not because they view other people as subhuman or worse than they are but because they view themself as something *more* #if they have any raw unfiltered emotion left you haven't seen it in weeks. there's one person(?) who gets Unrestrained Feelings privileges #and it's the fucking illithid that lives in their mind and not any of their actual non-monster normal-ish-person friends. that human #connection is fading so fast now. when did they change so much? it happened so slowly in the moment but suddenly now they seem like they #were never the person you became friends with at all #and like impulse is a pretty selfish person from the start but they *did* genuinely like and care about the rest of the party. they were #friends. and by the end of act 3 that friendship should be the deepest and most meaningful it's ever been. but. it just isn't. #so on and so forth etc etc like that. All That Bullshit makes their relationship with lae'zel so interesting (and upsetting) too #they encourage her to side against vlaakith and then they never even try to free orpheus for her and her people's sake. they never even #think about it. they never consider it as an option. they just don't care. and then they EAT HIS BRAIN. #very possibly RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER. #and she's just left adrift. a rebel with no rebellion to lead and very little hope #i'm unwell. #ok i'm done this is a silly meme post. but god i have so many thoughts i have barely been keeping contained

[bloodydeanwinchester]

stanford era dean series ↳ dark angel: 1x18 pollo loco

#okay bear with me here i couldnt get the first 5 eps he was in in good quality but the rest after those should look better than this #idk if i should tag my taglist on this one since it's technically not spn??? #anyway dark angel is just stanford era dean to me<3 #i love how even when jensen was pretty young he still had that super noticeable eyebag under his right eye #stanford era dean #dark angel #darkangeledit #jensen ackles #cowboycoven2 #stanforderadeanseries

[brzaski]

on March 14th 2023, a Polish abortion activist Justyna Wydrzyńska was sentenced to eight months of community service for helping a woman in an abusive relationship access abortion pills

Poland has one of the strictest abortion laws in Europe.

if you can, please consider donating to ADT, the organisation that helps people in Poland access abortion!

edit: i see this post got reblogged into the terf teritory. ADT is trans friendly. please just donate and be quiet <3

#luckily they still can appeal and it's better than jail still but like. #it's so stupid that so much time is wasted on those absurd trials #i know that community service doesn't sound that bad comparing to some other things happening around the world #but still at first she was told she could face up to 3 years in jail #idk those women are heros and make me feel much more safer and less stressed living in Poland #because I know if I ever needed an abortion they would be there to help me #and also 5 dollars is almost an equivalent of a minimum hourly wage in Poland #polish currency is weaker so even 2 dollars count a lot! #and the judge was a woman! same as the leader of the constitutional tribunal that made abortion more illegal #feminism #abortion #poland #human rights #reproductive rights

[haeroniel-doliet]

It's done! The final piece of my Dinluke big bang collab with the most inspiring @coriesocks! The whole wonderful and heart warming fic is up already so go go read I know places (where we can hide)! (This piece is for chapter 7!)

Great big shoutout to my author for being so kind, patient and supportive throughout this whole journey. I could not have hoped for a better partner!

Thank you all for your support and I hope you've all enjoyed all the fantastic work (compiled here!) that's come from artists and writers alike in this event, as much as I have <3

#Dinluke big bang 2023 #Dinluke big bang #Dinluke #Skydalorian #Star wars #The Mandalorian #Luke Skywalker #Din Djarin #Grogu #Haeroniel draws #I'm so happy with this piece and so glad to finally be done! Better a little late than never right? #Actually so impressed I managed to finish all 3 pieces with as much detail as I pictured honestly this is a first for me! #The mood for this was already set before of course but having spent the last two weekends camping #specifically in a hammock under a tarp in the rain just like this makes this so lovely and personal too #Genuinely reflecting on starting all these in like June and finally being done and happy with them is wild I'm not sure I even believed it

[dxrkl1ght]

Guess who just leveled up

Decided to rebuilt Sun

Moon was the only survivor

#dca #daycare attendant #birthday #birthday cake #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #dxrk draws #the cake tasted better than I thought #yippee #fnaf dca #fnaf daycare attendant #I even went to Chucky E. Cheese #for the first time lol #anyway #byeee <3

[the-judicial-assistants-notebook]

sits up in bed. so lana and ema definitely thought they were responsible for edgeworth "choosing death", right?

(the rest of this post was supposed to go in the tags, because it's not very well organised or written, but it got too long so. here are the slightly edited tags for your reading pleasure (or otherwise)):

i was going to make this solely about ema because she's the obvious one with her open adoration of edgeworth, but the thing about rfta is that it goes to great lengths to emphasise the connection between lana and edgeworth as well.

the sl-9 incident showed that lana grows attached to people deeply, hence angel starr's comment on how, when neil marshall died, 'she (lana) felt like her own brother had died.' with edgeworth, i think it was similar but worse. because he's not just a coworker or subordinate who's dear to her. he saved her life. and it cost him his own.

at the beginning of the case, edgeworth says he was mistaken for thinking that lana was always looking out for him post sl-9 (a statement interesting on its own because that's when everyone else says she grew distant), and, later on, he brings ema fingerprinting powder because lana asked him to. then, of course, there's the 'lady luck' comment he makes.

similarly, on lana's side, you obviously have the end of the trial when she says he did well, but there's also that additional moment post-trial where she's the only one to notice — in a group comprising her, ema, phoenix and gumshoe — that he's 'hiding', listening to their conversation. point is, there's enough to suggest that she might have been the nearest thing edgeworth had to a mia; his 'chief prosecutor' to phoenix's plain 'chief'. they're as close as two people can be in a relationship where one of them is constantly lying and the other is von karma's star pupil.

rfta is pretty straightforwardly depicted as the case which solidified edgeworth's resolve to do what he did; i don't think i have to prove that. rumours about him have reached new heights, his car and knife were involved in goodman's murder, he makes an unprecedented mistake in court by failing to connect the evidence room and carpark incidents, thus forcing the chief of police to enter the trial to do so himself, and he's publicly revealed to have relied on falsified evidence to secure a conviction in the sl-9 case, all of which only happened because of lana. jake marshall even claims that from the beginning — that if you trace edgeworth's rumours back to their source, you end up meeting one person: lana skye.

and it gets worse because at the end of rfta, she thinks he's fine!! she literally says, 'i was afraid the pressure would break you, but you rose above it,' and reminds him he's nothing like gant because he's not alone. she leaves the case thinking he will be okay. and then, what, like a week passes, and she finds out that he wasn't, and that he's gone, and it's her fault. even after she was freed from gant's control, even after she had finally stopped lying, she couldn't prevent herself from claiming another life. so much for 'lady luck', i suppose.

and the game reiterates this multiple times. gumshoe states at the start that edgeworth's ties to those higher up in the department have made him the subject of constant rumours, and phoenix says (in front of ema) that he shouldn't be held responsible for the forged evidence because that was all lana's doing, which then leads to edgeworth commenting (again in front of ema) that he feels as though 'something inside him has died.' it all goes back to lana. we can argue and say that it was technically gant's doing that caused all of this, but lana still took actions that led to it. even her complicated friendship with edgeworth isn't spared; it's that closeness between them that exacerbated those rumours. how could she not feel responsible in some way?

and with ema, it's rather obvious, isn't it? if she hadn't gone poking her nose into things, none of this would have happened or come to light. and, of course, she'd never choose anyone over her sister, not for anything in the world — it's simply not a question, but that's the problem, isn't it? it's not a question. it's not some hypothetical moral dilemma. it just is. she may not have killed neil marshall, but she still has one king of prosecutor's blood on her hands. and now she has to live with that. she just. has. to live with it. no matter if he chose otherwise.

moving on from that a little, i think it's actually wild how much of ema's journey to becoming a forensics investigator is paved with bad memories. neil marshall's death and her subsequent inability to testify are what drives her to begin pursuing it, her first proper investigation results in her idol's "death" and when she finally graduates, the person who saved her sister has been disbarred, and she can't even help because she isn't allowed to. all that pain and constant pursuit of her goals, and she's still the same ema skye, still that girl shrouded in darkness, always one step behind the truth, one step a little too late. no wonder she was angry in aa:aj. i would be furious.

#and then like a year later they find out edgeworth's fine and if that happened to me i think i would kill him fr #WKSHDKAHDKS #lana skye #ema skye #miles edgeworth #the skye sisters' relationship with one dramatic depressed prosecutor is something that can be so personal... #ive literally never thought this much about lana or ema ever. they never occupy my thoughts but somehow. #everyone else: man edgeworth's vanishing must have had a real impact on franziska and phoenix. me: what about these 2 side characters who #technically only appeared once in the whole trilogy. in a dlc. what about them. #it's actually so interesting how much lana is set up to be important to edgeworth. phoenix even says she reminds him of mia and when i #first read that i was like ??? bc of the scarf? there's more to mia than a scard phoenix. but then you pay attention to how she interacts #with edgeworth and it's like oh. i see it now. and then she disappears forever. #mind you i dont think she or ema were like. destroyed by the news of edgeworth's supposed passing. not in the way phoenix was anyway. #for better or worse both lana and ema are shown to have a tight hold over themselves emotionally speaking. lana keeps a lid on them for #years and ema is told she might have killed neil by accident and is functional after a brief faint and recess. like those women are strong. #but i do think it would have had a deep impact regardless of how well they were able to cope. like i've said i dont see how it wouldnt. #anyway this concludes my rfta moment. time to go back to being unable to say a thing about susato-san even though she occupies my every #waking moment. if you read all this ily <3 #it's also past midnight so if this is all a bit everywhere im sorry

[wall-maria-around-ba-sing-se]

In Xenoblade 2, I believe there was a monster called “The Infernal Guldo.” As the worlds approach each other, a Guldo that is in the Land of Morytha from ‘2’ is being projected to the opposite world; that’s the kind of phenomenon [occurring]. The Fog King, the black fog monsters, that’s what that’s all about. To put it simply, the two world have attached together partially, and the effect of that is a phenomenon in which you see the materialization of particles as a black fog. And when that is heightened, annihilation occurs. Quite a few of my staff might not know about this, either (laughs). And by the way, the woman on the ID card that the Guldo drops is from an ordinary woman. It’s not Galea

-Takahashi in the developer interview in the new Aionios Moments Xenoblade 3 Art Book

#xenoblade #xenoblade chronicles #xenoblade chronicles 2 #xenoblade 3 #xenoblade 2 #finally I’m free #did not enjoy that theory personally and moreso that it got taken as fact by many #like first of all‚ Meyneth deserves better than that #second‚ ​Zanza and Rex would’ve had to kill her at the exact same time in both universes for that to even remotely work

[storytellering]

still on that redrawing binge, this time I redid my first Dante art - this time with a lot more Gremlin Hell Twink flavour

#dmc #devil may cry #dante #dmc3 #devil may cry 3 #my art #ooops forgot to post my art to tungle for a hot min sorry #have a few of backlog hope you don't mind #anyway i like this one better even though i feel like it looks... lazier? #like the shading feels less detailed than in the original one #BUT i didn't have a good grasp on dante at all back in the day #not his character nor his appearance #made him look far too big and beefy for 3D #and i didnt really have a story for it just (ok but what if dante) #this one feels more like specifically V's idea of the dante he remembers #overlarge grin with too many teeth balls to the wall fuck attitude and all #a terrifying creature basically #also i wrote art works instead of art warks on the guns in the first one. that bothered me for ages beacause its incorrect in 3 kdfjhdkh

[skunkes]

ok posting it here bc im not sure if its going to stay in the doodle page

#delete later #deleting soon bc eyes on me #for those of you who kept asking about Something last year LOLLL #sorry this is too entry level vent comic ykwim i jst needed to get it out #im over it in the sense that like ok yeah whatever #but not in the sense that i came out worse than before. i was already Small. ive been further Smallened #i was a rebound and lied to and discarded...which thank god i was Set Free but wow! #all my personal fears reinforced. it is embarrassing for me to want and need...i get it neow. i was a stepping stone i am an npc #idk that i could do it again! im not sure its worth trying i am too much of a...project. #as i was told from day 1 but still ran directly into it #and i was too much of a coward to leave myself. if it happened again i wouldnt be able to leave then either. #im happy that i dont think it could get much worse than all that for my first experience but it was also exhausting #and weirdly at the same time i dont think i cld ever expect better #its almost been a year since its been Done and the words and treatment linger <3 #this is also why i had to enlist talon as imaginary bf number 2 LOL need extra reinforcement and love #cringe as fuck but it rly will never be as good as whats in my brain...i know that neow. i will spare everyone the trouble #and remove myself from the dating pool (<- implying he was ever even in it) #i dont even hold any ill will toward em bc they were right...its just hurts ykwim

[finncakes]

really hope they come back.

(emotional ramblings and the original drawing i did of them under the cut)

for the life of me i couldn't figure out why hearing orym and fearne died was affecting me so badly (i'm still on ep 32 lol). i didn't sleep, i was crying almost every few hours, no appetite and i was so confused as to why. i didn't react like this with molly! then i realized it's cause fearne and orym are part of exu and exu pulled me out of a bad place.

i remember when i decided to listen to exu. i was in one of the worst places mentally i have been in years and choosing to listen to it was dicey for many personal reasons. but i took the risk and i listened to exu and fell in love with the crown keepers (fearne, orym and opal in particular). and after that i slowly but surely pulled myself out of that hole. hearing two of my favorite members of the crown keepers were in campaign 3 was the greatest news ever for me. i know they'll never see this but just in case they do: thanks liam and ashley (and all the crown keepers as well as aabria) for making the characters and fun story that saved me. i hope they come back, but if not i'm glad they came into my life and they will always hold a special spot in my heart.

#critical role #critical role campaign 3 #cr #cr3 #cr spoilers #critical role spoilers #fearne calloway #orym of the air ashari #critical role orym #too much depressing art of them (understandably) #that pic under the cut is the first fearne i ever drew #third orym i ever drew #anyways i hope they come back...i know everyone says deaths are narratively interesting but.. #i think it's okay if they come back and i don't think it'll ruin the story of dampen the gravity of that moment #maybe that's just me though XD #either way i am trying to remember that molly's death gave way for one of my fave critrole characters ever #so #maybe there'll be characters even better than fearne and orym #who knows #fey blossoms

[freaky-flawless]

My feelings on the Vampire Heart doll are all over the place.

But I think they mostly boil down to: I would be more inclined to buy her if it was Elissabat instead just because another collector Draculaura doll feels so unnecessary.

#monster high #monster high dolls #elissabat #draculaura #we never even got a doll of the actual vampire queen all dressed up why'd we get one for this imaginary one #i do like her a lot #but i just wish another character could receive this amount of attention from mattel #like i get it...draculaura is easy #there is no universe where a new drac doll doesn't sell super well #but mixed with all the gen 3 drac releases...im so sick of her 😭 #the price is steep but she's really the first doll they've made worth a higher price tag #and its not like ive never dropped a $100 on a doll #its crazy how much better her doll looks than the fang vote rochelle #text post #she also came out of NO WHERE

[funishment-time]

on one hand i think SPIKE CHUNSOFT CO LTD is a big Weenie Hut Jr Full Of Cowards for not giving the v3 crew time to create the Kaede dating sim mode. on the other i don't even want to know how they would have handled Kaede and Kork

#danganronpa #kaede akamatsu #korekiyo shinguji #this actually isn't anything against Korekiyo #because he's an Interesting Character even if i'm not sure how i Feel about him #but there'd be no winning with his stuff #i bet either it's suggested he's going to murder Kaede asap as in the FTs #or she Magically Cures him of sister-itis #which would be lame for both of them #danganronpa is dark and i can handle a lot of that #more so than many i think #but i don't know how i'd feel if one of the Nice AU Routes is “Kaede gets murdered by a serial killer eventually” #or “Kaede makes a damaged man all better” #this is not even considering the Love Hotel #yeesh #(thinking lots of Kork Thoughts since finishing ch 3 for the first time...strange strange character)

[sysig]

Old habits die hard all the way around (Patreon)

#Doodles #Wander Over Yonder #Commander Peepers #Sylvia #Wander #More of the Peepers is left in the care of the main duo idea lol #He managed to get to sleep! Everyone did in fact! Obviously Wander's gotta be the first one up tho #Peepers would probably be up first normally what with his average of like five hours of sleep lol but he was up late digging #Was he also protecting Sylvia and Wander by choosing to sleep near them rather than just digging a trap around himself? :3c #There are better odds in numbers but even still hehe ♪ #He's also quite unused to body heat while he sleeps - all the Watchdogs sleep in their own cubbies but he has his own separate room! #Would it actually be comforting or would it make him restless haha #I like to think that it'd be harder to get to sleep but he'd sleep much deeper once he gets there :) #They really are adorable just defenselessly sleeping together ah <3 So little in that wide shot! #Wander was fun to draw for that one too haha I love his big silhouette expressions #Starting starting to fall into a rhythm with him! It's fun! :D #Big eyes and long silly limbs haha #Of course he's able to use his chaotic nature to completely undo all of Peepers' hard work haha #What probably took him at least an hour or so probably took Wander all of like five minutes to rectify - it's a skill lol #Nullifying his trap is just going to make him try to go even more all out next time! Escalating into ridiculousness haha #Until he eventually manages to back them into a corner only for Hater to take the pratfall lol #Silliness

[figofswords]

anybody remember the stephanie brown essay I was working on under a research grant fully last summer? yeah it’s not done yet it super needs to be done and I’ve been avoiding working on it for weeks. someone tell me to just do it already

#the problem is. actually there are several problems #1) I’ve been out of the Batman/dc comics phase for almost a year so I don’t care that much about the topic #2) I am fifteen pages in and have not touched it in months so I’ve completely lost my train of thought #3) I can’t just reread it because I hate first five pages or so and I know I need to change it but I was trying to finish before editing #so now my only solution is I need to open up a new doc and completely restructure the whole thing by splicing together the existing writing #so that I can figure out where the hell im going with this and make sure things fit together better #unfortunately that sounds fucking exhausting #but I told my mentor I would have an update for him by the end of the week and. well. it’s the end of the week #I have to present it in April. I have to write and submit an abstract in March #the school gave me $1500 for this stupid essay and if I don’t have anything to show for myself. #well. I don’t know they can’t take the money BACK but it’s not a good look #and also I would feel bad #I did the research!!! i interviewed comic writers even!!! I just haven’t finished WRITING IT DOWN #and I KNOOOOWW once I get started it’ll be fine once I’m going I’m going #but STARTING is hard because I feel like I have to finish it in one go which makes it so huge and daunting #I’m like. slamming my head into a wall. just write a couple sentences Jess something is better than nothing #just start it you don’t have to finish just START just MAKE the new DOC #I know!!!!! that is what my therapist would say!!!! Jess you’re trying to oneshot it bc of your dumb adhd brain!!!! #stop looking at it like that and making it scarier!!! #but even tho I know that logically I’m still like oh I should put away the dishes o should make bread #I should work on my six different art pieces I should do laundry i should play with the puppy I should go for a walk I sh