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nowandforalways · 7 months

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Is it possible to have the post-show sads for a show you weren't in?

#yes this is about the lotr musical #like gang i cant even begin to explain how much this specific production meant to me #to be have an actor who i couldn't listen to for so long because of associations with an abusive friendship #play the character that got me through a time in my life that i almost didn't make it out of #when i say it started to heal hurts that i didn't know could be healed (or even existed!)#i'm not exaggerating #i knew that it was out there happening #even if i couldn't see it myself #and now it's ended #and i know that maybe if i get more sleep i'll be less sad about it #but right now i am #and that's okay #also i was talking about Louis Maskell playing Frodo up there because of course i was #dunno why I continue to be so vague about it :P #yeah #oh and i suppose this doesn't need to be said but please don't reblog this #i realize the post itself is rather generic but the tags are not

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lazylittledragon · 3 months

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isn't it weird how if you get up at 7 or 8, do your work all day, then have free time and go to bed at 11 that's absolutely fine

but if i said i get up at 10, do fun stuff in the morning then work in the evening and go to bed late, i could be called lazy, nevermind that i'm getting just as much or MORE work done as i would in a traditional work day

#ramble #idk if this is a me problem or not #i've tried to do the early rise early bed thing again and again and it just does not work for me doing freelance right now #maybe it's bc i used to work at a bar so i'm more comfortable being active in the evening #i love working at night because there's less going on to distract me #what used to happen is i would get up early then fight executive dysfunction all day saying i couldn't do fun stuff until i did my work #then my will to work would hit at 10pm and i'd be up till 2am anyway #right now my routine is waking up later and playing a game or knitting for an hour or so and then working in the afternoon and evening #something something capitalism and 9-5 and adhd don't go together #this sounds like i'm just making excuses but it works and i'm actually getting shit done and sleeping enough so i don't see the problem #i just figured i'm probably going to sit and do nothing for a few hours in the morning anyway so i might as well give myself permission to

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airanke · 17 days

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One of the dumbest things I've ever drawn 🤣🤣🤣

Please appreciate these two idiots if their story was a Rom-Com! It's a scene from a manga called "Do-Chokkyuu Kareshi x Do-Chokkyuu Kanojo (Super Straightforward Boyfriend x Super Straightforward Girlfriend)"!!! The panel is under the cut (also that's why you read it <<<<<<<<< that way)

Props to @celest-star-collection for sending me the panel!

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gatoplaga · 1 day

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"But beyond all my pain, there was you"

Narilamb designs: @runningwithscizzorz

here's an alt version of Narinder without the veil!! :D

#I added that detail last minute and my poor government laptop was about to explode from the amount of layers that I was using–#it wasn't even that much! just uhh 95 I think?? I normally use like. 150+. But this poor laptop is not built for that #The tools were starting to lag and the program froze for a couple of seconds before starting to work again and it was a whole mess so #I couldn't put a lot of detail into it #but I'm still pretty happy with the result!!#I love Lisey's design so much specially Narinder's #I really wanted to make fanart for them and I finally got to finish it!! there was a lot of trusting the process in this fjhsd but it was #definitely worth it. I think I exceeded myself. Very proud of this one.#even though I couldn't put the amount of detail I would have wanted to because of the laptop's limitations.. I did the best I could with #what I had and I think it looks good! so. yeah. hehe.#I hope Likey likes it if they see it heh (⁠*⁠´⁠ω⁠｀⁠*⁠)#cotl #cult of the lamb #cotl Narinder #cotl Lamb #cotl the one who waits #cotl narilamb #cotl fanart #narinder x lamb #gpart

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eissaphir · 1 month

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So that "Which of these makes me look sexier?" scene, right?

It's my headcanon that this isn't even Val asking for Vox's input but for a final decision. Vox has slept with him many times so he has to have good taste, right? Might as well let him decide which gun looks better bc Val himself sure as hell can't see shit

#I'm sorry for even more Hazbin Hotel posts mutuals I'm still setting up that blog I mentioned!#But yeah anyway. Yet another one of those haha Valentino can't see anything jokes I couldn't help myself #Valentino #Hazbin Hotel #Staticmoth #Mentioned at least #My posts #Swearing

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crescentfool · 1 month

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having the hc that minato is ace is incredibly funny sometimes when you think about how ryoji is oh so very bi because it's like. "ah. death stole my ability to be attracted to people," in the same way that ryoji stole minato's eye color and energy level. like wow, thanks ryoji, you just keep finding things to steal from minato!

#persona 3 spoilers #minato arisato #hc and au nonsense #lizzy speaks #happy international asexuality day to my fellow aces out there i hope you know that you are loved!!! 🎊🎉🥳#i like viewing minato with the lens of him being gay / ace. esp bc it stems from my own experiences so it's fun to look at-#him from that perspective even if that's not what was intended by atlus y'know?#and im sure others have other hcs from me that are informed by their own life experiences and i think that's great ^_^#something that i found interesting while playing FES was how. stilted? minato's animations felt when hugging the girls #you could definitely go with the perspective that it's a graphical limitation or they didn't have time to polish the animations #and that's def true!! but sometimes i see the hug @ yakushima beach + the other hugs and then i compare it to the sou/yo hug in p4 #and there's like... a noticeable difference to me with how intimate and close together the hugs are...#that said i do know that the animations for reload are updated and the hugs are much more natural (good on them tbh!)#the other thing is (pensive sigh). the way you couldn't reject any of the girls when doing their social links in FES #objectively speaking i'm glad that they did away with that and i like how the rejections were handled in reload. it feels naturally written #but also a part of me enjoyed looking at the “hey atlus what the FUCK” moment and thought of how to interpret it differently #specifically with the idea of minato having like.. little to no autonomy and kind of going along with the relationship #it kind of reminded me of myself tbh with like going along with the rship without considering what you want bc #it's what others want or expect out of you... LOL. i dont think atlus intended for someone to interpret it this way but #eh i think that's the fun part of hcs and looking at characters with certain lenses!#regardless of how you perceive minato i do think there's something to be said about him being the kind of guy who molds himself-#into someone that is needed. not wanted. but needed. important distinction here.#the one caveat my brain runs into when im like “minato is ace!” is when i remember thanatos exists and i go #“you know what these ideas can exist simultaneously” GKLHFHDFHD when in doubt schrodinger's headcanons #anyway that's all i've had this thought in my brain in awhile and haven't sat down to share it properly until now 👍#have an excellent weekend everyone !!! lizzy loves you all lets all nurture our inner yippee!!! 🥺💙

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dukeofqueers · 4 months

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Ser Fel, the Chimera Knight or Unmoored Knight

i love my arisen who was so cringe and fail that he got removed from his own world. get ratio’d by the Endless Cycle idiot

Thora, the other Arisen in the nihilism meme belongs to @missszena <3

in game featuring his pawn Leoris

#dragon's dogma #dragon's dogma dark arisen #ddda #fanart #sketch #art #artists on tumblr #ddda arisen #dragon's dogma oc #my art #screenshots are a bit outdated he has the diabolic shield now. i grinded for this bitch #fel isn't from gransys but don't ask me for names i'm entrusting the sequel to give us more world lore #he defeated his dragon but didn't kill it and got fucked over when he was lured to bitterblack. got lost there and was displaced entirely #thora is the one who stumbled on him and he's wound up in her world but hasn't managed to get back to his #he goes back to bitterblack after witnessing this cycle gets lost and turns into a living armor #note to the cycle maybe next time don't pick the depressed jaded knight as ur arisen. bro couldn't even be arsed to finish his quest #i think often about the lack of mystic knights and most of them appearing as undead. inherently doomed vocation or whatever #anyway i'm terrible at finishing any art for fel sry #i'm gonna go make myself emo over fel's relationship with leoris now. see you whenever

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robotsandramblings · 1 month

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honestly thank god they didn't show us Crosshair's actual face when he's looking up at Omega being flown away,, i think seeing his expression i would have absolutely lost it. i can only imagine what he's feeling right now 😭😭😭

#something something ''i only see myself as valuable for my sniper skills and i couldn't even do THAT to save the ONE person that saved me''#he 100% be lookin like those sad wet eyed cat memes #kinda DO wanna see crosshair crying onscreen tho ngl #crosshair #the bad batch #bad batch spoilers #star wars

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elv-arts · 11 months

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Redraw time! Nearly a decade between these.

The first one is the first art I posted on the internet, as soon as my parents let me make a deviantart account. I was thirteen and used to draw this kind of thing a lot.

The second I drew last night at 2am because I wanted to make 13yr old me happy and also i got possessed by the sleepy art demon.

[ID: Image 1 - a coloured pencil drawing of an "anime style" girl taking a selfie with takanuva from bionicle. The girl has pale freckled skin, long brown hair in a low ponytail, and a slim green vest top. One arm holds up the camera, and the girl and takanuva each have one arm around the other's back. They're smiling with their eyes closed and the background is a sunny view of the sea and a beach with a sand castle. There's some sun glare in the corner of the picture, wispy clouds, and the sea has sparkles on it.

Image 2 - a digital drawing of a person taking a selfie with takanuva. The person has pale freckled skin, an underbite, long brown hair with growing out buzzed sides tied in a ponytail, and a black tshirt with the sleeves cut off. They have chipped black nails, an ear cuff and a couple bracelets including a rainbow one. They are grinning and are making a peace sign. Takanuva's eyes are making a happy expression and he is also making a peace sign (or perhaps failed bunny ears) behind the person. The background is a blue sky with wispy clouds and a beach. End ID]

My art has changed a lot, and I've grown so much, but some things have certainly stayed the same lol

#bionicle #redraw #takanuva #kid me put so much effort into figuring out drawing bionicle #I think they'd be so happy to see how I draw them now #not to get too deep on silly bonkle selfie drawing #but kid me couldn't picture how i could ever be me and an adult #I didn't know i was allowed to be like any of the things i am now #i couldn't imagine being a woman and i'm not #i couldn't imagine growing out of the things i adored and i haven't #i couldn't imagine myself being happy as an adult and even though a lot of things do suck I am #idk man looking at them side by side experiencing feelings i wanna give that kid a hug #life is fleeting and ever changing but bonkles are forever lol #anyway yeah this isn't a masterpiece or anything i just figured it'd be nice to put it here #please excuse text mistakes i am very tired as usual

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andy-clutterbuck · 1 year

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SDCC 2017

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spotsupstuff · 1 year

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yanno i think a lot of people don't appreciate how truly horrifying Pebbles' fate is when it comes to the rot. which is absolutely fair, i didn't quite Get It either until i had a nightmare that felt too real in which i was standing next to a dog that was infected with the rot. everything was fine, it was a golden retriever so it had its breed signature smile on its face as it panted

but then it started spasming. its breath became rasping and gurgling. it fell on its side, at least Trying to whine but it couldn't even communicate its pain to the world. then the rot started forcing itself out. it forced an eyeball out of its socket from the inside, all so a sticky tentacle could start feeling around itself. it started coming out of the mouth. the dog couldn't breathe. the stench of death was oppressive even though it was still alive

all i could do was look at it while trying not to throw up. my throat burned just from seeing it

the fact that Pebbles has gone through that- all Alone, for who knows how fucking long... good gods above

pieces of his body are chipping away, falling to the ground- those which don't rebel against the rest, eating away at it. it's hard to breathe, his heart is beating faster, he's gasping after it, desperately trying to clean his lungs. it's burning, it's freezing, it's a doom he knows he cannot stop now even if some kind of help arrived. he will fall apart, cog after cog. he will slowly rot away, neuron after neuron. all that suffering prolonged by his sheer size. damned by his past grace

how does one cope with such suffering, how can one stand against it without their spirit breaking? i'd say- only when they don't have the option to just die. the rot makes a sickly jungle of his guts, where only the end of fate is certain. he is but just a paralyzed, Painfully Aware prey as his predator tears his flesh apart

the track Not Your Rain captures all of these feelings so damningly well. we can literally hear the sheer agony Pebbles is going through

#Spot says stuff #rw #// animal death //#the rot is basically a zombie virus except it. really doesn't have the mercy in it to Kill the host until both it and the host can't-#-go on anymore. at least with the iterators. -looks at HLL and the blessedly dead Hunter in the middle of it-#the fact that Pebbles *survived* this whole thing- that we see him still weakly kickin in saint- is probably the most terrifying thing-#-out of all of this. he went through so fucking much and hes *still here*#he still has to fucking live even when he doesn't have the energy or really even the Means to do so #'do you forgive Pebbles for killing Moon?' yes. yes i do. i couldn't live with myself if i didn't

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disdaidal · 3 months

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I wanna thank my irl friends who follow me here and also my beloved mutuals as well as followers who still send me kind messages and try to interact with me and my stuff even if I'm bad at doing it myself.

Honestly, things haven't been that great with me lately, so... it means a lot to me. Honestly. <3

#personal #i had to make the tough decision to drop out of school last week #i didn't exactly want it if i'm being completely honest here #but certain stuff was preventing me from getting further so i knew the teachers are gonna ask me to quit over at our teams meeting #i instantly contacted my nurse about my situation. and she got me a doctor's appointment which was yesterday #where i kind of broke down a little. not because she didn't grant me the sick leave i thought i was going to get #after feeling down and sleeping terribly for weeks #but because she actually *got me*. like. she actually listened to me and figured out some stuff and told me that #what i'm going through and what i've been going through for years would make anyone depressed #so i couldn't help but cry a little because yeah. i'm so tired of never being enough no matter how hard i try #because my brain's wired a certain way and it makes me slow and kinda clumsy and inattentive at times #which. you might guess is not ideal at today's work environment. or studying-wise even #so instead of granting me sick leave (she did say we can change that at anytime though) she told me to wait for that phone call #from the unemployment office. which i should be getting tomorrow. or well. later today #and talk to them about this. to see if they can offer some solutions. or if we can figure something out #'cause i'm getting closer to my 40s and not getting anywhere and it's wearing me out and tiring me out #because i clearly can't help myself or change my ways on my own #i managed to get some work last week though. at the local youth house. one shift though but money still #but i haven't been getting those offers a lot during the past few months so it's not enough to support me obviously #so i definitely need something else. and i hope i can get help. that someone could help me #i should finally get tested for adhd next month too. i don't know if i even have it or if it's gonna change anything but #at least i'd know #anyway i needed to get this off my chest. cause i'm kinda crying a little bit even now just thinking about this whole thing #sorry

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pathetic-gamer · 6 months

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iiiiiiit's...

Felix! :D

(ignore the little cyril in the corner.) pencil and pigma micron, shaded with india ink. the color difference shows up more clearly irl than in the pic

#fe3h #felix hugo fraldarius #fe3h fanart #my art #fun fact i get severe hand tremors sometimes (especially when doing things that require precision such as holding a pen/pencil) and #by the end of doing the lineart here it was so bad i couldn't do the straight lines - you can see in the hair where it gets super squiggly #and then when i was try to get a good picture of it i had trouble even holding my phone steady enough to get a clear image 🙃#(It gets bad enough sometimes that my partner insists on chopping things for me when i cook bc theyre worried I'll hurt myself :\ )#so anyway that was upsetting but it's okay bc it still turned out well!

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radmista · 16 days

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Sowing seeds of discontent and disharmony by hanging up on my parents birthday phone call the second my mom asked if I gained weight. Hope that sits badly on their minds while they think about how that's the first call I've engaged with them in 2 months and it was for the dogs birthday. Dad scrambling to text me for my mom that she didn't mean it. Like fuck I told her I've been having a rough month and day. She couldn't keep it to herself that badly. Fucks sake

#was already not in a great place mentally but i entertained the call and was actually feeling okay talking to them giving them an update #she just hits me with that. and I'm not normally sensitive about my weight even when my mom harped on me for gaining some a few years back #i genuinely normally don't care bc I'm happy with myself. but i know ive lost weight because I've been on icu and we don't have time to eat #im so fucking mad and im even more mad I'm crying about it #bc what the fuck #i was actually feeling like momentarily safe talking to them and being vulnerable about working on my next life stages #and she just ruined the call. i wanted to talk to my mom and dad more. i do miss talking to them about some things.#i was happy to get to see my family all together even if it was for the dogs birthday. and people were smiling and shit #and ik theyre gonna say i ruined it by being sensitive but jfc #it was literally the 2nd thing my mom said to me on the call after we sang happy birthday #why couldn't she just shut up. why couldn't she have said anything else. why did i let it bother me so much i hung up #I'm just fucking tired and sad and now feeling even lonlier than ever #i just wanted a nice moment with my family god fucking damn is that too hard to ask for #and im even more angry and sad now that i cant call them back bc my mom will get on me about smth else we were previously talking about #that phone call was supposed to be a neutral zone just for the birthday song. and i was going to ride it out but fucking hell #why didnt i just put up with it so i could have talked to my family #and no calling them back isnt an option. they haven't apologized and it would be an un neutral call #which gives them space to harass me about work and shit

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the-eclectic-wonderer · 2 months

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I mean, who hasn't lovingly grabbed their best friend's hips while reassuring them of their innocence

#extremely heterosexual behaviour i tell you. completely and utterly straight #this is one of my absolute favourite episodes!! i couldn't make a watch thread because i'd stop every two seconds to comment something lmao #but i just had to point this out #like she goes for the elbows but then she full on hugs blanche's waist. and i don't blame her but also #wife behaviour #blanche & dorothy especially are very romantic in this episode i think. they spend entire scenes touching / in close contact #i also saved another screenshot where they are in such a married pose lmao #this is just a Really Gay Episode in general. murder mysteries are already gay culture in my book #at the beginning Dorothy quotes a passage from a book and she chooses the one that describes a beautiful woman. girl idk how to tell you...#and it's gay for me because i literally ascend every time i see blanche's shoulders. who allowed her to wear that frilly dress #because she makes me 500% gayer every time i see her in it #i have even more gay comments on this but. i'll keep them to myself.#anyway yeah enjoy the blanche/dorothy of it all #this is S7E2: the case of the libertine belle #the golden girls #golden wives

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jennyandvastraflint · 1 year

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Oh wow. Disney cancelled Willow. Y'know. The. Butch4butch lesbians. Knight and Princess. Fucking amazing rep, brilliant fantasy setting. Fabulous storytelling.

Yeah. I'm not surprised..... I remember seeing a clip weeks before I started it and immediately wondering how long it'd take zo have the confirmation it's cancelled. I'm just so tired. Every. Time. And I mean EVERY time we have sapphic representation on a show, it gets cancelled, censored, or receives massive backlash. I can't name a SINGLE wlw rep (centric!!!) show that wasn't cancelled. Doctor Who, maybe. Wow. One.

I can name at least ten shows that were cancelled off the top of my head. In the last year. I'm tired.

Fuck Disney. Fuck Netflix. Fuck every single person who cancels wlw rep. We constantly hear that our stories don't want to be heard. Thanks. Apparently queer women only matter as a fetishised form of entertainment for men or as a background and side character. Thanks. Definitely does GREAT things for people's self-worth.

Representation matters!

#i'm fucking fuming #i just want to cry #this is making me so mad #but i knew and expected it #Which is the worst of it. I'm so used to this constant bullshit #i couldn't even let myself enjoy the show at first because I just KNEW they'd cancel it #oh as a side note. That's the site where fucking RTD wants to broadcast Doctor Who.#definitely does NOT make me want to watch his stuff any more....#esp when i look at who's writing for it #old white men great diversity rtd #but i digress #fuck disney #fuck netflix #just because. And I'm still bitter about DeadEnd and everything else #again. Thanks for telling us no one wants to see our stories. That they're not PROFITABLE enough.#willow 2022 #willow disney+#willow (2022)

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