#even tho its not romo much

[herbalteals]

do u ever think abt yoo joonghyuk and his fortitude throughout all his regressions. call it stupid, call it insane. but you can't help but admire it. what kind of person is capable of failing for more than a thousand times in life only to keep trying again? how the hell did he do it? failing an exam only to be tackled by a second incoming exam is exhausting as it is. imagine that except it's your whole life. sure, he's had regressions where he'd given up, where he'd decided that this life wasn't worth the fight. but epilogue had shown that there's a part of him that will always try again to do better and to be better, if given the chance. he's so terribly admirable and there's something so inspirational about knowing how capable a person is to keep going that makes it no wonder why kim dokja was able to live through his actions.

#teatalks #orv #yjh #yoo joonghyuk #kim dokja #kdj #tagging as #joongdok #even tho its not romo much #idk guys im crying over yjh bc god i Wish i had half his strength #im so tired rn

[thomasmxller]

did u curse aaron rodgers just askin

it is a definite... probability 

#okay but i dont even hate green bay that much its just that yall Beat Us all the time even when we r good and u suck #also fun fact tony romo was raised in WI so he was probably a packers fan lmao #if he went to the packers ... i would be a packers fan no lie #i really hope rodgers gets well soon tho injuries suck like i definitely did not wish injury upon him #answered #thomasmuellers

[dear-systems]

TW/ CSA, COCSA, SA, abuse, possible internalized Something Bad But I Dont Know What, general panic, idiocy, and self doubt akdj

Hiiiii,,, can I ask some for advice/opinions/guidance for me possibly being a system? It’s a very scary thought, I don’t think I wanna be a system, not really. It’s all confusing, it’s all a lot, and idk what to do. I don’t remember a lot of my childhood, sure, but like, I remember some things! I remember enough! What could’ve happened to me? I lived close to a predator that’s true, but I never slept over more than a couple nights, and I can’t remember anything they could’ve done to me, they never showed any signs. I grew up in a home, though, with a sibling of mine, and theyre… a complicated at best story. They were def preyed upon, and they also sexually assaulted me. I have blurry memories from when I was little of them playing “”games”” with me that make me wanna throw up, but they never really crossed the line into the assault like that one time. I repressed that one time soo much anyway, because I was so ashamed and horrified. It happened when I was 11. Could you even develop a dissociative disorder at age 11? And how would I remember ish and acknowledge that trauma without even KNOWING about others??? And that’s not considering the idea that I might not be traumagenic, which somehow is scarier?? It makes me mad at the world, cause I feel like I’d be even MORE hated and called fake and believe it myself. And also, that there wasn’t a reason. That I’d be going through this pain for no reason other than brain go brr, not brain go cope. Am I making sense?? I’m sorry if not, and I’m sorry if I have said/will say something offensive. I don’t wanna downplay their experiences, but also I don’t know a lot and I just. Aghh, yknow? I haven’t done too much research, cause I’m lazy and I’m scared akdhsjhfj, and most of the time I just ignore this. Until it just hits me for a couple weeks or days that this isnt normal, is it? I don’t think I really hear voices, my body is never out of my control. I always want whatever it’s doing. If I hear anything, its just in my head, and in MY voice, and it could be just like,,,, not alters yknow? Just me thoughts. I’m genderfluid, of that I am certain, I was only ever a solid gender when I didn’t feel like me. Even if there’s other people in here with me, I’m genderfluid, and none of them have ever shown interest in anyone in a romo/smexy way, just as I have. So idk what’s that about??? Different genders but same orientation? Idk. Phibi isn’t a human, and it doesn’t like calling itself by human terms, so though it too doesn’t feel attraction, technically it isn’t aroace like the rest of us. Or me. Idk man I’m confused. I have such terrible memory. That’s the worst part. One time I forgot how old I was lmao. Everything is a blur, but none of it is completely a blackout. If it ever feels empty, all I have to do is try real hard to get SOMETHING, and eventually I will, so. Eh. But it’s all so, so blurry. I can recall things I did, but it isn’t like… attached? It’s strange. It takes me a moment, like getting a file in a computer and it lagging, and it just seems so distant. Sometimes tho, it isn’t, and sometimes it is. It’s all inconsistent. That’s what really gets to me, I think. It’s hard to make out, and I suck at handling things that are hard to make out. Usually I thought I either repressed things or got over them quickly or something when I get triggered (I have PTSD oof) but today with the whole who-are-i thing when I got triggered, I was very panicky at first as usual. I was not having a good time akdjdjj, as per usual. Then I kinda became numb, dissociated, and then came to… feeling surprisingly ok? I didn’t feel like Me, of course. This is confusing. I felt like someone else. I STILL do! I feel like that person! I feel like the one that panicked is another, it’s weird to refer to us like this, I’m sorry. It’s so confusing. So that doesn’t bode well for my “oh I’m perfectly fine and a singlet” case. I still feel the closest to them, though. Everyone else is more separate. This doesn’t make sense ahdhskfj. I feel like I’m faking it. I feel like I can’t possibly be plural. (1/2)

I remember as a child feeling so sad and helpless, that I would relish in my own mind, if that makes sense. I liked the fact it was Mine, and no one could take that from me. No one could know what was inside it, not really, not unless they were a mind reader, which I chose to believe for my sanity didn’t exist akdjsj. I had full control over it. If I wanted there to be a palace with me as the sole ruling prince with a pink gown and infinite cake and toys in there, I could. If I wanted to go “home”, even when physically and logically I was there, I could. Im scared that being plural will take that from me. On one hand, it’s kinda nice. I remember Phibi once took themselves to school for me, planned to go through the whole day if a switch hadn’t happened, if I’m allowed to even use those words akfjakd. I was relieved at not having to go to school. But also. This is scary, this is strange, this is invasive, and it’s giving me far too much of an identity crisis. I just. Uh help?? Somehow?? In any way?? That would be nice tho obvs you don’t haVe to akdjskjd (2/2)

You're definitely not alone, anon, and it certainly sounds like you're a system. It is hard, to adjust, but you'll get there in time.

May I recommend having things that are exclusively yours? A blog, a spot in your innerworld if you have one, a playlist, etc. Something that is just yours.

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[smol-grey-tea]

I was gonna write the romo attraction thing today but honestly i dont feel like doing it bc im just rlly upset about smth that im sure a lot of ppl can relate to

So my irl friend groups are very... well they dont know much about these kinds of things, i had to be a walking encyclopaedia for them about my identities like nb stuff bc they didn't bother to just... look it up.

When i told them i was trans they would say "omg are you actually trans?? I have a trans best friend!!" Yikes

Instead they would ask me to explain it. Which is fine, i kinda hate having to explain for the 5th time that no, using the correct terms and pronouns is not a fucking burden, and that yes, dysphoria is awful and wont just magically go away.

and when i tell them to yk, not use pronouns for me and just use my name instead, not 1 person did that. They just... misgendered me and used she/her when i explicitly told them that it makes me dysphoric. I then told them to use coo/coos/cooself instead bc i quite like it, but they still didnt use it.

Then i gave up and told them to use they/them since it doesnt make me dysphoric even tho i lowkey hate it. They still misgender me but said "they'll try to get used to it". Its not that hard guys what the actual fuck???

Anyway, i was actually going to talk about aspec stuff. So i only told one of them that i was demiromantic demisexual, and they said "wtf is that" which yk is not a nice way to react to someone coming out, but i have thick skin so i just explained it bc again they couldnt bother to search it, and they said "ok ig" and changed the subject when i wanted to explain my attraction???? I've never had anyone that i could talk to about my complicated feelings with being aspec and just when i thought i could i was shut down.

I thought it was over and done with, until they started to... ignore my fucking identity??? Which i would say is way more important and personal to me than my bisexuality??? They never did any of that bs with my bisexuality probably bc they were pansexual themself, but jfc is it that hard to not make jokes about me being horny or having a crush or joking about setting me up on blind dates??? It legit made me so uncomfortable and i have no idea what to say.

Bc remember, they didnt exactly respect my pronouns and kept using gendered terms to refer to me even more after i came out??? I swear it feels like its on purpose every time they called me a girl but whatever

Istg they forgot that im demi bc they keep making these jokes and ignoring that i dont feel sexual or romantic attraction like that and keep acting as if i want to date ppl or fuck them when i say they look pretty??? I spent way too fucking long mistaking my aesthetic attraction for sexual for ppl to once again reinforce this idea and im done with it. Please for the love of god stop it.

I said i liked wilbur and thought he was rlly cute and they then proceeded to, you guessed it, act like im in love with him or that i want to fuck him. First of all, hes a real person on the internet that i do not know, 2nd of all, fucking eww, and 3rd of all, hes a whole ass adult and we r both in high school. Yikes again.

Ofc i didnt tell them these things and just said that i dont like him that way and just thought he was pretty and nothing else. They completely ignored this and thought i was just embarrassed or smth or that i was in denial. Yikes again again.

So yeah. The only lesson i learned is to never come out as aspec to anyone irl ever again. Tbh i kinda want to tell them that im not bi and that i dont feel any kind of attraction. It would be a lie but christ i wish they would stop. They can validate my bisexuality but not my nb or aspec identities? I knew that queer sexualities were more normalized now which is awesome but why cant they do that for trans ppl or aspecs? Why does it have to stop there?

Sorry for venting like this but i thought this might be relatable for yall. Ive never had the experience of feeling "broken" bc of any of my identities, im very confident in them. I just wish other ppl other than my online friends would feel the same.

Also sorry for delaying the romo attraction thingy i just rlly dont feel like it rn. Idk when i will write it but hopefully if i feel better i will finish it today

There's no pressure to write it up dude it's cool :) whenever you're ready ❤

And those ppl do not sound like good friends- idk exactly how old you are but ik I'm older, and I can tell you for certain that you will find better friends one day. It's guaranteed :) they don't deserve your friendship and I am glad to validate and help you in any way you need ❤❤

Yee I've never felt broken either! I think an element of that is that I thought I was allo for a very long time? But on the other hand I was bullied in my childhood for not having attraction so idk why that hasn't manifested into a phobia of romance but eh I'm better off this way whether it makes sense or not.

It makes me happy as well cuz a lot of ppl in the community seem very pessimistic abt how we're treated but it's nice to know that not all of us feel broken cuz the 2 of us are living examples of that :)

But unfortunately yeah, your experiences above are things many ppl can relate to. I'm sure almost everyone can remember a time where they came out to someone and weren't met with good responses,,

Let this be a reminder that this is not right and we deserve more support for something so personal. Even if you don't understand someone's identity that doesn't give you the right to dismiss or ignore them. Our identities are very important and personal to us and supporting them is basic respect.

#my post #ask #long post #lgbtq #aspec #aroace #aroacespec #non binary #transgender #neutralitea #transphobia tw #aphobia tw #acephobia tw #arophobia tw #swearing cw

[skullvins]

I am coming for your QueerPlatonic crown, your majesty. -An AceAro who is SICK AND TIRED of the only two known QPR HCs being from (beta)Team Purple

ITS TRAGIC I KNOW BUT!!!! a couple of points for u anon!

I largely don't shut up about qp skullvin and qp aviskull for kinnie reasons, but I DO have other aro hcs/qpr ish/alt relationship hcs

for example! I hc gloves and half rim to be in a sort of qpr? idk if this is a Thing people talk about as much these days, but there used to be a sort of concept where two people date, one aro and one allorom, and the relationship is romantic but the aro obviously Doesn't feel that. they do at least some romantic stuff, and the allorom has romantic feelings, but is fine with platonic feelings from their partner, and their partner is fine with romantic feelings from them whilst having platonic feelings in return. a case of who cares, we both care about each other, don't we? aro gloves and gay half rim babey!

I DO like gorai, but their relationship is 100% soft romo and can border on more qp stuff because rider is aroflux. a big point tho is rider's ok with most forms of affection but cannot handle mouth kisses At All

qp skullvin and to some extent qp aviskull I would argue have only really been popularised by, uh, me. from what I've seen, most people who ship it got it from me. people have defo shipped them romo before, but I decided to rub my aro hands all over it because me me kinnie

qp hcs in a fandom are. So fucking rare as is that I'm amazed people tollerate my bullshit at all. Like, some of my upcoming skullvin fics are VERY explicitly aro (one even has a whole section where a lot of terminology is casually discussed between skull and aloha, both because it makes sense in character and because I want to explain my hc for qp aviskullvin as well as explain elements of aro terminology to any readers who may be unfamiliar with more detailed terms). I'm actually very nervous to talk about this hc in more detail outside of my blog because I'm used to qp shipping being hated on or misinterpreted. I'd love to bring it up on the wiki but I am So Scared

I have seen other qp coroika content! only bits in passing, but I've defo seen qp poly S4 and that's such a good concept tbh

I do ship other qprs too for the games! I much prefer pearlina as a qpr (hot take: pearl's love of cake and marina's green: they're ace and aro lads) and qp agent 32 is always a must for my kinnie ass

I'm ACTUALLY starting to think about the possibility of qp diver/aloha. I think a lot of captain/co captain ships can end up with a qp vibe but I see mask and full moon and army and forge as more like siblings to each other, where as aloha and diver are emotional support dudes. also aro diver and super supportive allorom aloha kinda slaps

anyway, I would LOVE to see your qp coroika content anon!!! qp shipping offers a unique dynamic imo, but I think it can be hard to write if you're unfamiliar with qprs, which is the case for most allorom fans. then again, I've written kiss scenes, so who knows

#tbis is so rambly oh my god #asks #anon #coroika #aro tag

[kinkymagnus]

I love you (no Romo though) also do you have omega Magnus ideas

flkgjdgkdjfg mood anon

hm... ok this will probably be messy but let’s get on some highlights

OK THIS GOT SUPER LONG HAHAHA

set up and worldbuilding my guys

ok so first of all i feel like i gotta talk about how this interacts with trans magnus. i promise i’ll get to the fun stuff afterwards!!

i know some people like to go more into like, the realistic dynamics of a/b/o (trans a/b/o people, as in, a trans alpha who was born an omega, or like, sexism that has to do with a/b/o and those different new stereotypes, as well as like “non traditional a/b/o dynamics” like alpha/alpha or omega/omega relationships, how this interacts with new different sexualities (being attracted to only alpha females? alphas and betas and all primary genders? etc.) and how it intersects with REAL transphobia and sexism and sexuality) and like.... i have two takes on this i guess:

one: while this is not inherently wrong i guess, it’s just. not what i get from a/b/o. for me a/b/o isn’t a complex worldbuilding set to play with necessarily, although i def am one to ask questions and overthink worldbuilding even in the stupidest of shit. but like, i come to a/b/o for fluff (nesting, fluffy heat sex, maybe scenting and/or “mates” if i’m feeling it), smut (knotting, heats/ruts, etc.), and MAYBE angst but that gets into dodgy territory sometimes. (i’m a slut for arranged marriage aus tho ngl dfgkldjfdg.) like. that specific set of tropes is combined perfectly in a/b/o, and it’d be hard to do that in a coherent au as this is already established and saying “au where alec has knots and magnus has heats” is weird. the only other au that gets close is very specifically like a werewolf au which has its own trappings, you know? it’s a specific coherent and established au and it’s hard to separate the tropes i like from the other stuff.

two: again, i don’t think it’s inherently bad. but i do think that a lot of people who do this are basically just reinventing real issues like transphobia, homophobia/queerphobia, and sexism... without actually dealing with those things or the characters they would involve. and i think that it often strays into yikes territory. so like. i don’t love it. (also it does have some yikes stuff people do like going really, really hard on the oppressed omega angle, or worse, reinforcing the gender roles of omega = submissive soft weak baby, alpha = strong dominant and scary man. or sometimes they establish other roles but either way like, all their characters fall into that. and i think sometimes it kind of works for this feeling like a guilty pleasure trash romance novel where it’s just uncomplicated fantasy of being taken care of, but like.... even then it just gets dodgy, you know? also it does tend to get INCREDIBLY rapey.)

i often used a/b/o for the things i mentioned, and before i started writing trans magnus smut, also ironically as a way to sort of write trans magnus in smut without actually doing it out of fear of backlash/lack of popularity. and while backlash hasn’t been much of a problem, my popularity has definitely gone down fics-wise. (i get much less in the stats area on ao3 now)

and cis omega magnus is in a way basically trans magnus but he has a penis and there’s knotting. like i said, in many ways, a/b/o is sort of a way to write porn with trans characters while keeping to cisnormativity. i, as a trans person, took advantage of that to get more comfortable with writing it, but a lot of cis people use it basically to just. do that. you know.

so how do i reconcile this with trans magnus?

basically i say “fuck you, he’s trans AND an omega, i want heats/ruts and knotting and nesting and shit” and then ignore it lmao

like ok he isn’t cis. he’s afab and gnc and all the shit i normally write, it’s just like. he also gets heats and his ass doesn’t get wet dlfkjgdfg (god it sounds So Unappealing when you say it like that. now that i allow myself to write smut with real trans characters i could never go back to a/b/o--although, like. some a/b/o aus actually do have male omegas have a pussy but that feels even more slimy in the sense of just. make them trans.) and like alec’s an alpha and so on you know.

i basically just ignore all the complex worldbuilding shit and trying to figure out how sexuality and gender and the various -phobias and -isms would be effected by the addition of secondary genders and their trappings, and just go “fuck you” under the guise of an a/b/o au

tl;dr, so i have a lot of complicated feelings on a/b/o and how it generally is something i do not trust people to write properly. but i also am a total slut of a lot of tropes that are sort of entrenched in a/b/o specifically. namely, heats/ruts, knotting, nesting/scenting, etc.

let’s get into the fun stuff.

magnus and heats :)

ok so heats are super like. vulnerable, you know? i’d think magnus would take heat suppressants (ah another plot convenience in this au) because he doesn’t want to spend his heat with someone he doesn’t trust. that’s not to say he’s never had a heat with someone, or even that it’s been all bad experiences, but it never clicked super well i think and like, it’s something that’s very hard for him. because there’s a lot of vulnerability and trust involved, and he loses control and could so easily get hurt

also possibility: while he can take suppressants to lessen how many times he gets a heat, taking them consistently for literally centuries sounds like it could fuck someone up. so. perhaps. magnus occasionally spends his heat with a trusted friend like meliorn (not someone who feels like Family and therefore would it feel incesty, but def someone who is a close friend) and while he still doesn’t love the feeling of being that vulnerable, and it can be uncomfortable--it’s not like he’s looking forward to it--but like... he definitely does trust meliorn (and possibly other non canon characters?) and it’s not like it’s disgusting and miserable. it’s not like, The Same, but it satisfies the biological side of it and sometimes it’s even like. fun, you know? it’s nice.

ngl i actually kind of like the idea of meliorn helping him with these heats and being like a trusted alpha he knows would never hurt him like that. that does mess with any angst you want to go with him not trusting alphas or not like, having good experiences with heats/ruts (like in “stuck in a rut”), but like, different aus different stories, and anyway you could probably work something in there about meliorn specifically being different and someone he trusts

this is on and off, he sometimes does have heats with whatever romantic partner he’s with, although it... doesn’t always end well. so he has a lot of bad experiences, but at least with meliorn he has a good experience to look to, as well.

also camille was a TERRIBLE alpha. i can 100 percent see her using his heat against him to hurt him (and being like oh baby dont you trust me? you cant go to this seelie for your heats, you cant cheat on me, and why are you taking suppressants, dont you trust me--?) as well as potentially her ruts (actually a) im not sure i want to go into the logistics of a female alpha--would she... have a penis? because i’m not making camille a trans woman nor am i touching those transmisgyonistic vibes with a ten foot pole. b) actually, maybe she’s a beta. she could use that against him, as well--being like she doesn’t understand why it’s such a big deal, you know? also i refuse to believe only an alpha can satiate a heat even tho it would work the best because like--fuck i’m overthinking the worldbuilding again this is EXACTLY what i wanted to avoid. fuck, never mind.)

but like...........when he gets it (namely with alec, because yes, i am a slut) with like someone he honestly is a viable “mate” or someone he trusts and like, has actual romantic feelings for, too...............it’s literally mindblowing. magnus had no fucking idea heats could feel this good. obviously he had fun with meliorn and felt safe even if he felt kind of awkward/uncomfortable (not bc of anything meliorn did but his own issues with being vulnerable) but like............... alec just fucking makes him melt???

like he felt safe before, he did know meliorn would never ever hurt him or take advantage of his heat, but now he feels so like... free and safe and open? it’s not just the normal vulnerability that comes with but the complete lack of discomfort, just feeling absolutely safe and like. not worried at all? again i want to emphasize it’s not that he felt unsafe before or that meliorn necessarily did something wrong, but bc of his own like. readiness to be vulnerable + while he does trust meliorn, it’s like. it hits different with a romantic partner (in this specific context!! this is not a romantic > platonic thing), if that makes sense.

an y wa  y THE POINT IS. magnus is like. Mind Blown. having sex with alec during his heat is like. amazing. alec is so intent on taking care of him and just worshiping his body (alec!! ravishing him!! pressing warm kisses all over his tits!!! big hands all over his body!! caressing him everywhere and giving him physical affection all over and just making him squirm and moan!!!!!!) and like. not only is he absolutely intent on taking care of magnus and making him feel good and making sure he’s comfortable, but like also it’s just??? really fun?? and alec gives him so much affection and so many kisses???

magnus is not the best conversation partner during heat because he is a little. busy. but it doesn’t stop alec from talking to him and helping him stay grounded and just like... treating him like a person? he hadn’t realized one of the reasons he was so comfortable with meliorn and now alec wasn’t just bc he knew them well and trusted them with this kind of thing, but because like. they treated him like he was present despite him being mostly non-verbal and incoherent beyond vague pleading. like, they always made sure he was comfortable and talked to him and didn’t just do what they wanted with him. it didn’t feel like he was a doll--getting satisfied and fucked hard, yes, but like. also sort of just being used. and not in the fun sexy pre-planned way, but like, in a way that just made him feel more distant and disconnected.

but alec very much doesn’t do that. he keeps talking (and there is a lot of praise! so much praise and gentle affection and teliing him how beautiful he is and how good he’s doing--and of course dirty talk wink wink) and even narrating what he’s doing/his intentions, you know, and not only his voice generally soothing but it’s just nice you know

and like again i would just like to go back to alec ravishing magnus’s tiddies with kisses and holding them in his Big Hands and massaging them and like kissing his nipples and just making him feel so good??? iconic. we stan.

and alec like. is the perfect mix of gentle and rough, you know? he knows when to pin magnus down and fuck him nice and hard and rough and get him squealing and begging, but he also knows when to be gentle--particularly at the beginning and when he’s coming down. not to mention even when he is fucking magnus hard there’s a lot of gentle touch accompanying it

also not to just be a slut but

Also It Feels Good Because Alec Has a Huge Cock

that’s not to say meliorn doesn’t or even that you need a big dick to pleasure someone well but like.

alec has a big cock.

and it feels. hhhhh. good

magnus when alec first slides into him in heat: [straight up just immediately goes incoherent and whining with pleasure and kinda just mewling and clawing weakly at his back or the sheets on either side of him]

and alec fucks him so well :) like they’re honestly both feeling so fucking good like just AAAAAAAAA im such a slut for alec taking care of magnus in heat

also. uhh. K N O T T I N G

alec sliding into him nice and slow to make sure hes ok and like hes loving it, alec fucks him, and when he’s about to knot him magnus is somewhere in the back of his mind expecting that usual queasy sort of anticipation like he does Want It but usually he does kind of feel a little discomfort and again just... apprehension. this is The Moment, and he’s really giving up control you know

but it. doesnt come (but magnus is about to AHAHA)

and he just wants.

like he honestly just really really wants this and it’s kind of a revelation how much he genuinely wants this

alec knots him and magnus is Losing His Mind it feels so fucking good he comes almost right away and he’s just right there again

hes so Full and everything about it feels amazing

and like after alec has like. made him come a dozen times squirting and came inside magnus’s cunt and kept him knotted full there’s just this moment where magnus is exhausted in the best way, lying on his back, legs spread, alec still knotted inside him, his cunt is full of cum and he’s panting and moaning a little and alec is just on top of him and it’s warm and amazing and he’s coming down from the high and he just feels.... incredibly relaxed actually

like he’s like wow have i ever been this melty and relaxed and floaty, like, ever?

the answer is no, not really.

alec is just gently stroking his hair, pressing soft close-mouthed kisses to his skin, and they just sort of cuddle for a bit while waiting for magnus to come down completely from his heat and for alec’s knot to go down and honestly just lying there entwined is really, really nice.

magnus is full and relaxed and he genuinely loves this feeling in a way he’s never experienced before

even when alec pulls out and magnus is pretty much back to himself completely again magnus is so exhausted he just sort of lies back and lets himself breathe and alec is like Pamper Mode Activate(TM) and magnus tries to be like its ok to relax i do like cuddling with you and i can clean up myself its ok and alecs like But I Want To Take Care Of You and like helps clean him up (just... magnus lets himself relax as alec gently uses a damp cloth to wipe away cum and slick you know? idk there’s just something intimate and sweet about the dom helping clean their sub up in the aftercare) and gets him water and a snack and then once they’re both tidied up pulls him into his arms and he strokes his hair and they just cuddle and it’s great :)

i wonder if magnus talks to meliorn about this either. hm

and from then on, alec is the one he goes to for heats. and alec, of course, becomes immortal, which means he can take care of magnus for the rest of their lives :’))

whether magnus would stay on suppressants is another matter because on one hand heats can be inconvenient and like he might still want to minimize them, but on the other hand Hnnnnnnggg Alec Feel Good. so i could see them going either way here.

also i mean................that’s not to say that meliorn would Never help magnus either..... two possibilities here: 1. for whatever reason magnus’s heat is coming and alec can’t be there. meliorn is happy to help. it’s good to have back up i guess lkjfgh fuck idk. but the real fun one....

2. as magnus has more heats, they may or may not have a little Fun with it. perhaps roleplay (whether this be like “oh..... oh no..... im a poor little maid and i’ve gone into heat.....Looks Like My Boss Will Have To Fuck Me” or like even pretending the heat isn’t part of it and he’s Just That Slutty and we love to see it, etc. obviously they alec is sure not to push it too far, he teases magnus but probably a lot less than he normally would bc he’s so sensitive and needy and eager-to-please, but like.... they sure do have some fucking fun with this.

and also. i mean.

threesomes. y’all knew i was going here.

look idk how i got so far on the magnus/meliorn (as close friends and fuckbuddies not romantically) train but HERE WE ARE.

magnus getting absolutely wrecked by two alphas and LOVING it is not something he ever thought would happen, particularly while he was in heat, but it’s happening and he absolutely loves it.

also there are other fun possible scenarios like in “goldenrod” where alec doesn’t know that magnus is an omega and Shenanigans Ensue or whatever like just....both fluffy and angsty possibilities.

i’m a total slut for friends to lovers “oh no magnus is in heat :( but alec can help him through it, gently and lovingly, just completely as a friend :)” which can get into dubcon territory but if you fuck with it it’s doable. and i’m just a slut for pining pre-relationship heat sex.

even like in an au, alec playing the role meliorn did in the previous bullet points but blended with how i discussed their first heat together so like... helping his best friend through his heats, showing him a really good time, making sure he’s comfortable and magnus is just like wow i’ve never felt this good and safe during a heat before :) guess it’s because we’re friends and definitely no other reasons :)

i’m not sure how to word this right but i feel like there’s a potential angst here of like a mundane au of some sort wherein magnus has only had a few relationships with alphas and none of them great so when alec is helping him through his heat he assumes it’s different (as in, alec is so gentle and caring and treating him like this, and he feels safe) because they’re friends and it’s a different dynamic, and that being treated Badly is just like, the normal way alphas treat their mates. or something. look. let me have my whump ok

but the point is alec sets him straight obviously

but like anyway i just like.........i adore friends to lovers malec and heat sex it’s got so much fluffy potential with magnus just feeling Utterly Safe (and pining angst) and alec is both a) incredibly turned on/helplessly in love with him so he’s loving every second (even tho Pining Angst) and b) just in awe that magnus trusts him that much??? (also sad he’s SURPRISED at being treated gently flgkhfjghgh)

malec and ruts

ok as i explored in “stuck in a rut” i think it makes sense that magnus would not feel incredibly secure during ruts. it’s not something he would have sought out with say, meliorn, although he would have been willing to do that meliorn has other partners more than willing to help him with that and actually love it while magnus is. very wary of it.

like a heat, it leaves him feeling very out of control and it seems kind of scary--but it’s almost worst, because rather than feeling needy and helpless (which is a good thing when with a trusted partner but not so much when he’s less sure, or when they take advantage of that) it’s like. he’s cornered totally sober with a similarly out of control alpha, except with more Dominance(TM) and potential aggression you know?

so maybe he’s had some very bad experiences before. and i doubt it’s been literally all terrible, but i think he would likely avoid relationships with alphas, so he wouldn’t have a lot of experiences to draw from overall anyway

but like okay let’s get to the fun stuff

i’ve been over the angst of magnus not being sure how this is gonna go but wanting to Tough It Out with “stuck in a rut” although it’s probably a bit exaggerated for fun angst purposes but idk aaaaa

but anyway the point is here. alec gets his first rut with magnus and like, he probably hasn’t been with anyone during a rut (suppressants?) so this is wild for both of them

but even Feral(TM) alec’s entire goal is just taking care of magnus

i mean obviously there’s an element of like wanting to get his own satisfaction and all but it’s just like..... mutual pleasure you know??? like he wants to fuck magnus nice and hard and make him feel good and magnus is just a mewling mess in his arms letting alec take control and ravish him and they are both having a great time actually

but like ok let’s just. move away for a moment from angst

just................... alec fucking magnus nice and hard and rough, pinning him down and “”making“” him take it, and there isn’t really much teasing because he’s too busy wanting to fuck magnus and fill him up :) 

but like it’s also fluffy bc even all needy and desperate alec still takes the time to make sure he’s ready and prepared and wet and into this before fucking him, makes sure he’s comfortable and checks in on him and if magnus safeworded or told him to stop you know he absolutely would, without hesitation, even if it literally hurt to do. which is basic decency obviously but the like.... the just trust and care there? the fact that even in a literal fucking rut when he’s supposed to be out of control he’d force himself to stop if magnus needed or wanted him to is just.... comforting and good and i love it 

and magnus is like hm i have never felt this safe when with an alpha in rut before! time to examine this trauma later.

nesting (ft. scenting)

AAAAAAAAAAAA

i love the concept of nesting so much it’s so fluffy and sweet and dkgjfklgjg 

you build a pillow/blanket/clothing nest that smells like the people u love and u feel safe in 

and then you get ravished in it sometimes

iconic.

like magnus just piling a fuck ton of soft things (ranging from blankets/pillows to just like spare sheets and shit like that) and stealing alec’s clothes to put in there and curling up in the middle of it feeling safe and in heaven tbh 

especially once they key component of the nest arrives: alec

*magnus yoinking alec into the nest and immediately curling up against him like a particularly insistent cat* 

alec is just like This Is Precious and wraps his arms around him and strokes his hair and magnus is purring (purring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we Will discuss this later) 

and it’s just nice and somft??

fluffy cuddles?

i feel like nesting would be a particular urge either during or near heats so im just imagining pre heat magnus being like *suddenly stands up* I Must Gather Soft Things (Meaning Pillows, Blankets, And Alec) 

and he just makes a nest, all aesthetically pleasing and arranged nicely, maybe a candle nearby with a nice scent that kind of helps, and just..... curling up in alecs arms all content

and alec ADORES this like the first several times magnus was scared of coming off as clingy so he suppressed nesting instincts let alone cuddly needy clingy instincts but alec was sort of like hey baby it’s ok if you just don’t want to but do u need to nest? 

and also he just made a point of being more touchy/affectionate when his heat was coming up/dying down and he watched carefully to make sure it didn’t magnus uncomfortable but he melted into it even more than usual

so like just....alec cuddling the fuck out of magnus in his nest and it’s warm and safe and smells like home????

scenting i feel is kind of weird and i feel weird being like “mm he smells good” or whatever but like also it can be so cute when done right you know lkgjdgfg like omg just...... Alec Smells Like Home

their scents kinda mix and both of them have the others’ lingering on them and people can tell they’re super close 

and just.....................again..........alec like scenting him, marking him as his in a sort of gentle soft way? and like, burying his nose in his neck and nuzzling him and he smells so nice and good??? 

especially if you’re going with true mates think their mates’ scent is just the best thing ever flgjlkjlfkgjfgh

but anyway ok

back to nesting

and specifically, because i am a whore, to S E X

magnus feeling absolutely safe there and it smells like home and alec’s holding him and it’s so--

hey so i know i said i was going to do sex,

but hold on a sec

ANGST

magnus has nested before. but generally not with romantic partners. 

not sure if familal nesting is a thing--i feel like it’s possible, but given a general association with heat (i mean one could either feel the urge to or simply enjoy nesting outside of Heat Time(TM) but like) it feels a little weird

so let’s go with it’s more romantic except for maybe like really young kids or something idk 

but anyway moving on from that

magnus has nested before

but almost always alone

and an empty nest is just not the same?? it’s still warm/safe but like... it feels empty and sad too. especially if he DOES have a romantic partner they just don’t want to nest with him--saying he’s clingy, or it’s time consuming/boring to just sit there, or whatever else. 

camille was particularly guilty of this, he had to basically hide his nest and cram it in a closet or something (the enclosed space was actually kind of nice but it was too cramped for his liking and it felt even more empty and sad than usual)

and then he would just be there alone in his small empty nest and it was still reassuring but it was just......not the same 

also he didn’t have anything to ground him so he got all fidgety (adhd magnus? adhd magnus.) and like it was a lot less comforting than normal you know 

but with alec OH BOY

not only does he feel all warm and grounded in alec’s arms like he can relax and doze off and feel good and alec is stroking his hair and it’s just. nice

but like also 

BACK TO SEX

alec making sweet love to magnus in their nest and it’s just like wow this is the most safe place possible

it’s not even heat sex they’re just having fun and magnus is like this is my dream come true

and then obviously there is also heat sex

it is the most mindblowing thing either of them have ever experienced

also i feel like while it’s not an instinct thing to build nests for ruts, they still do it because they’re soft and it helps them relax anyway

PURRING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PURRING

ok i absolutely love the a/b/o headcanon i’ve seen before where like, omegas purr only when feeling completely safe? particularly around alphas?

so like. 

magnus doesn’t purr that often.

or he didn’t but then he fell in love with alec “his arms feel like home and safety and love” lightwood

it is not uncommon to see him cuddled in alec’s arms purring contently

or like in his nest leaning into alec’s side or head resting on his chest, PURRING

also i have this fic somewhere but au wherein alec doesn’t know magnus is an omega yet and then finds out because magnus dozed off on his chest and BEGAN. PURRING. BECAUSE HE FEELS SO FUCKING SAFE AND TRUSTS ALEC SO MUCH. 

even if he hadn’t told alec about being an omega yet for whatever reason

anyway just alec stroking magnus’s hair while he purrs away and its adorable and also soothing for both of them so they fall asleep like that 

magnus’s purring is like a soothing thing for alec big time its good sensory time and also just generally nice so its easy for him to conk out with magnus warm in his arms and purring loudly 

it’s very nice 

and also he loves that magnus feels that safe with him

MATES

this one will be short but like 

basically the whole mates for life thing is cute

and it can just kinda be like soulmate aus

which are all vaguely problematic but just really cute/fun to have and not think about too hard 

so them being mates is just cute idk man i like it 

ok that’s it for now (i’m gonna add more in a separate reblog for reasons but that’s only on one topic, you’ll see--i think i’ll do that tomorrow bc im very tired rn) that’s the omega magnus manifesto (some parts not included) 

#trans magnus smut #omega magnus #long post #malec #alec lightwood #magnus bane #shadowhunters

[bi-lesbian]

Hi! Um, mind me asking this, are you like able to call a bisexual couple lesbians or would that be considered erasing/biphobic? (To be more specific, the couple is my friend's OCs and they called them lesbians themself, and are bisexual as well, but another bisexual took offense to it) I also wanted to say, Love ya, Bi Lesbians! No Romo tho. Sorry if i was bothering you, and this is a very nice blog! and i have weird phrasing ;v;

this one is a case of: if people in real life do not want to be referred to as lesbians/in a lesbian relationship, then they shouldnt be called it- but also if people are okay with it or actively like it/use it for themselves, that should be respected as well. if someone calls someone a lesbian and they dont like it, that doesnt mean they were being really bad n shitty or something- they should just keep it in mind for the future to respect how the person wants to identify.

i think a lot of people who are against using lesbian for two or more bi women in a relationship and consider it "erasing" or "biphobic," dont know about the history of lesbian having included bi women for hundreds of years, and is still very commonly used as the general umbrella term for wlw despite a lot of people not actually "defining" it as such. and that so many bi women like using lesbian bc it is their history and their term they always belonged in that they were wrongfully forced out of by political lesbians/radfems.

yes, it is also important to be ackowledging their sexuality as bi, but refering to them as lesbians Sometimes does not automatically mean that theyre not bi too or thats their bi identity is being ignored- tho some people do do it biphobically and do ignore their bi identity completely, and when that happens it should be pointed out. but: unlike how a lot of people think, things are not black and white; some situations of a thing being bad does not mean every single situation involving that is bad. there can be multiple reasons for doing a certain thing, not just the bad ones. its not fair to be saying every person who is doing this is a biphobe, because of the history of lesbian.

when it comes to characters, its kind of an "all bets are off" situation. a characters feelings on defining their sexuality cant really be known, unless directly stated in official canon- and even then people dont really need to follow canon, bc people constantly change any details about canon for a ton of reasons anyways. when it comes to something smaller tho, like someones personal ocs and not in some big official thing, its easier to state all the specifications of their identity and how they like being referred as. if someone has an oc that they like to call both bi and a lesbian, then that should be respected, just like if someone has an oc they call bi and dont want to be called a lesbian.

essentially, people just need to see why individuals may be calling a bi person a lesbian, and not just assuming that theyre doing it to ignore/erase their bi identity. things are much more complex than being one-reason-fits-all.

n love u too!! its all good, ur not bothering me at all >wo! i havent touched on this a whole ton before, so this gave me a good chance to! also thank u :'33!!

#bi lesbiask #bi lesbian #explanation

[kaibacorpbros]

☒ Is there any sort of behavior towards your muse (ic or ooc) that you simply cannot stand? ❉ What is a dream AU for you? If you haven’t done it yet, why not? ◑ What is a side to your muse you want to show off, but haven’t had the chance to yet?

| It’s Munday! | @kaibacxrps

☒ Is there any sort of behavior towards your muse (ic or ooc) that you simply cannot stand?

IC wise:  anything that basically... forces my muses hand into caring deeply for yours whether it be platonic or romantic when really they barely know each other? And by “force” I don’t even mean an explicit “If you don’t X you don’t care about me” I mean stuff like... throwing my muses into a “my muse is dyiNG/injured/etc help them oH NO ITS SO SAD THE ANGSTTTT” when they’ve had like... 3 interactions? Because stuff like this twists my arm because if my muse just goes “rip that’s rough buddy” they look like a giant immoral asshole but the reality is they just aren’t that invested?

OOC: Expecting a ship (mostly romo) out of Seto I have SO MANY things in my rules saying why this just doesn’t really work with my Seto and I really dislike that lowkey expectation underlying all their interactions. Seriously I’m begging people--I get being shy, I am too, but if our muses have had a few interactions that have had some solid chemistry and bounce off each other well PLEASE just shoot me a IM saying like “Hey, I’ve noticed they interact real well and I kinda ship it (also please specify romo or not) so would you be up for that?” *that clears the air SO MUCH and makes it so we can work toward better interactions and plot to get there or plot out their timeline so we aren’t chronologically locked. 

I honestly do love plotting out timelines/relationships/etc, again so long as the characters bounce off each other well. I’d rather communicate and be clear about things with another than be doing an odd dance of unknown. 

*I will say however, I am less likely to do this myself because my brain often goes into an Ace Space (tm) so unless the conversation goes into a non-platonic field I’m really just not thinking of it as a possibility, sorry about that! It’s literally just not how my brain functions lol.

❉ What is a dream AU for you? If you haven’t done it yet, why not?

Other than what’s stated here a while back I did get on the thought train of a like, a Timelord (doc.tor who) or immortal time traveler AU for Diva? Idk I feel it would suit his character and could be interesting but I also have 0 interest in going near that rpc fandom so uhhh. Maybe just generic immortal time traveler inspired by a lot of DW elements XD. I dunno, it’d be intresting for some interactions but as for bigger plot I don’t have many thoughts which is probably the main reason why I haven’t done anything with it.

Bros wise though? Idk, I think something where Mokuba takes the spotlight more would be nice. I know people have done roleswaps or ageswaps for the bros and those are neat but I wouldn’t want to retread old ground. (Though that reminds me, I have that ficlet idea still in my drafts of a dimension where Seto’s KC takeover plan failed and he was met with an “accident” by Gozaburo but Seto’s contingency plan worked and Mokuba was able to remain a Kaiba). He’s definitely the more interesting out of the Poke AU I feel, Trainer Seto just kinda vibes lol. So idk.

◑ What is a side to your muse you want to show off, but haven’t had the chance to yet?

Another one for Moki: While like the one mentioned here it would be tricky and hard, I would like to touch upon and him being a Loveless Aro tho like, as one conversation/part of a bigger thread when the characters are doing something else after (I’m really not a fan of ‘the coming out’(tm) plots where that’s the only thing happening and treats the character as solely defined by their orientation/identity  because ew). But it is a big part about him and how he sees the world and interacts with others.

It’d just... also kinda be hard because I imagine for most muses that Mokuba would be close enough to in order to bring up the subject, Mokuba saying something along the lines of “I like you of course, but I don’t love you” would sound kinda bad to their ears.

#kaibacxrps #(asks) #ooc: Mew mews

[sleepymouses]

tagged by @littlepetbee, thank uuuu <3 i spent way too long thinking about htis lol,

Rules: pick 5 shows, then answer the following questions, tag a bunch o ppls to do it too (if y’all want to, supes no pressure or anything!)

Natsume yuujinchou  (a teenage orphan who sees spirits/monsters sets out to free the spirits who were bound in magical contract by his grandmother after he inherits a powerful book, aided primarily by a spirit who appears as an exasperated fat cat (who is just as fun as he sounds). Titular character is like my Fave boy in the whole world, he’s so kind and soft despite all the hardships he’s faced, the series has very gentle pacing/character development, and each episode is a carefully crafted lil story that have often moved me to tears, chuckles, or outright chinhands of fondness as u watch natsume slowly find a home in the world and amongst the humans &spirits around him. big focus on friendships, there’s like no romance with any of the main characters, lots of cool different creatures (most of whom arent all that scary once u get to know them), its just literally everything i could ever dream for in a show and it exists! <3)

Leverage (team of modern day robin hoods ruin rich peoples’ lives via  delightfully crafted spy cons to give back to the regular folks the rich people hurt. Extremely good, strong found family vibes, and v cathartic)

Brooklyn 99 (follows diverse cast of character who make up a NY precinct. Hilarious, immensely wholesome & groundbreaking, & probs the most lighthearted crime show besides like psych tbh)

Blackspot/Zone Blanche (spoopy french/belgium crime series set in a small village way out in the mountains surrounded by misty, mysterious and murdery woods. eerie and atmospheric, but also like one of my fave characters (everyone calls him teddy bear) keeps a pet guinea pig at work, so it’s not entirely grim and bleak)

Longmire (a modern western crime drama centering around the titular sheriff and others in their small town wyoming county, well written and lot of chracter development revealed alongside some really good case mysteries bc i love trying to figure out whodunits apparently based on a book series well adored by dads btw)

who is your favorite character in 2? (leverage) ahhh,,, this is hard... Eliot maybe? like Hardison is baby ofc, but i relate to elliot a ton (i think if i was on a team i would want to be the hitter tbh?) and love the subversion of so many action hero tropes that he is, also endlessly amused by how very put upon he is despite all his rad/random skills

who is your least favorite character in 1? (natsume yuujinchou) oh seiji matoba for sure, he can go eat a mouldy tree stump. absolutely evil nasty dude

what is your favorite episode of 4? (blackspot) the end of the road. great opening, didnt end up too devastating unlike a lot of the cases, Hermann was gr8, cool twist i hadnt super expected in the plot which was neat.

what is your favorite season of 5? (longmire) probs 1, walter reeally started to piss me off being Such A Man in later seasons, also me being extremely anxious about Henry and his life choices later, that creepy stalker storyline starting up with Someone and when Someone else in the main cast got died really suddenly and upsettingly later on as well, also when a weird relationship started between some of the characters that i really aint feeling so. before all that happened was nice (also sorry if this is super vague, im trying to avoid spoilers)

who is your favorite couple in 3? (B99) Besides Jake/Amy and Holt/Kevin (bc oviously theyre gr8) uh.. i know it was a long time ago and didnt last very long, but i thought rosa and marcus were really sweet? it brought another layer out to her character, even when they broke up that helped rosa starting to show emotional vulnerability and all, even tho it ended it was still just, idk, i liked them.

who is your favorite couple in 2? (leverage) Does trio count, cos Parker/Eliot/Harding 4 life yo

what is your favorite episode of 1? (natsume yujinchou) i have sooo many faves ahhh!!! i dont think i could pick just one on pain of death, every episode is acrefully cosntructed gem all on its own and i have too many that i love and adore to pick jsut one :((

what is your favorite episode of 5? (longmire) Dog soldier!! ive rewatched that one a ton, so so many good bits, really satisfying resolution of the case despite the shitty system that was revealed, and i rmr getting chills by the end the first time i saw it.

what is your favorite season of 2? (leverage) i guess season 1? just, idk, everything being set up and watching all these grumpies/less grumpies who have no plans to stay together start working together as a baby team, and just the joy of seeing their first heist together with the first plot twist, just.. such a delight, but all seasons that ive seen so far were all excellent, it’s a stellar show

how long have you watched 1? (natsume yujinchou) oh idk exactly, like years and years man... defs the longest out of all on this list

how did you become interested in 3? (b99) i think it was just on netflix way back in season 1 and i started watching it, loved it and never stopped? i think that might have even been before it got rlly popular lol

who is your favorite actor in 4? (blackspot) i dont rlly know any of these french peeps? but teddybear’s one of my fave characters, so hopefully the person who plays him is also cool, in which case hubert delattre (if not, Suliane Brahim does a v good job as the lead)

which do you prefer, 1, 2, or 5? (natsume yujinchou, leverage or longmire) um... real torn between natsume and leverage here, they’re both such lovely gems that do found family so, so well.. leverage is a team of modern robin hood-esque spies with brilliant writing and exciting heists and multiple delightful plot twists every episode and great character building and so much catharticism in ruining evil rich peoples lives.

but natsume’s title character is one of my very favorite characters ever, hes been through so much but he becomes the most kindest and thoughtful boy ever, and its so, so soft and gentle in its development of characters and their slow build of getting to know each other and becoming friends, and the interactions with the paranormal world are very rarely entirely malicious/scary, and there’s pretty well no romance, at least like no romance for plot/with the main characters anyways, and there’s lots of female characters who have important roles but arent sexualized/killed off for man feels/exist for romo (which sadly cannot be said about a lot of media, especially manga/anime tbh, even leverage does not win entirely on that front).. its defintiely my favorite anime ever (i dont watch loads, but literally no other one can ever come close to topping its perfection),

i guess tho, leverage is over, and natsume is still technically ongoing, so i guess for that then i have to go with natsume?

which show have you seen more episodes of, 1 or 3? (natsume yuujinchou or b99) Natsume for sure, they’re so short its easy to power thru like half a season in an afternoon

if you could be anyone from 4, who would you be? (blackspot) i would probably want to be someone who didnt live in villefranche actually haha uh, it’s a pretty spoopity place.. even some of the characters i do like make some Bad decisions that are v bothersome. Dr. Leila barami seems to have a good head on her shoulders tho, so if i Must be a character here then let’s go with her

would a crossover between 3 and 4 work? (b99 or blackspot) oh god... the cheery upbeat department at the 99 meet up with a grim, misty tiny mountain forest village with bleak day to day life, solving crimes amidst small town paranoia and weird maybe cult-related conspiracies and honestbhly something/s paranormal and menacing going on in the woods?? i just... cant see any of the characters even interacting lol, im just picturing jake’s confused befuddled face when he hears something weird but like x 10000

pair two characters in 1 who would make an unlikely but strangely okay couple? (natsume yujinchou) hm... i mean, one of the things i love about Natsume is that there arent really any romo relationships tbh? at least not with any of the main characters in the main storyline (so far), just like the odd one-off of minor characters (and takashi’s adopted parents ofc, but that’s different). so, yeah, i cant really think of one (although i think the big fandom fave ship of takashi and his worst enemy is rlly.. nope, and i dont know what’s going on there? takashi and tanama however, that would make sense, tho it is not unlikely so i cant answer this question with them)

overall, which show has the better storyline, 3 or 5? (b99 or longmire) b99! cos ya know my annoyances with some of the stuff happening later on in longmire lol, b99 just got better n better as it went along, and it’s still going :’)

which has the better theme music, 2 or 4? (leverage or blackspot) blackspot has a real good eerie atmospheric theme which is gr8 and i love it <3 (leverage’s tune is like, elevator music/cheesy jazzy spy tune, which does suit it tho lol)

and idk, anyone bored and stuck at home who wants to do this? no pressure if ur like nah but if u wanna go ahead.... @creepy-friend-of-darkness @anna-wa @rhinky-thingz @rexbasileus @aeolian-harp @warrenkoles @softbrobarnes @damnitttana @cluelesswolf @moondoggiestyle @blloodorangeisthenewblack @my-nail-beds-suck @frankiecolours @savvylikeyeahhh @lake-effectkidx @justhugharry @casualmisandry @j4ya @galaxygalpals @thesecondwarm @dealwright @knipperdollin @curlycombover @kaspbrakeddie (and if i didnt tag u and u still wanna do this, consider yeself tagged)

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[toytulini]

OC playlists. For These OCs

All playlists prolly at least somewhat nsfw in terms of language/swearing

Headloose warnings for: nsfw, sex mention, kink memtion? drugs/alcohol/addiction

Bytte warnings for: nsfw, some songs about violence

Bytte and Headloose relationship playlist, warnings for: nsfw, sex mention, kink mention? violence, drugs/alcohol/addiction implied, not necessarily a Healthy rship?

Roslyn warnings: pretty tame? I dont even think its that nsfw. Maybe a bit angsty?

Roslyn and Bytte relationship dynamic: again, pretty tame? Maybe a bit angsty?

Sterling warnings: nsfw, sex mention? Pretty romo

Now, Suki has like. 5 different playlists.

Suki, before is before she got turned, while she was still human and a nun and struggling w stuff and her feelings about Sterling. Nsfw, sex mention, religion/christianityish:

Suki and Sterling relationship dynamic playlist. Similar to Suki, Before but featuring Sterling since they cover about the same time period? Nsfw, sex mention, Yearning, christianityish? Pretty romo.

Suki. this playlist is kinda, after/now/current Suki, after she's had time to grow into herself. Its short and i have a much longer dump playlist i need to sort through and add to it but this is basically like. She's Feelin Herself(tm) ig. Nsfw, sex mention, like its pretty heavy on that, thats most of it. Fun time tho.

To Suki, from~ this one is basically @ suki and its supposed to kinda be from her convent/church institution/God ig which is a bit melodramatic but. Anyway. Breakup playlist for god. Nsfw, a little angsty.

Are you there God? It's me, Suki is apparently only gonna be a link, this is basically the counterpart to "To Suki, from~". Its back from her perspective this time again. Suki's breakup playlist with god/her convent/the church. Mostly just angsty?.

#toy txt post #audio post #playlists #ocs #oc #spotify #oc playlist #character playlist #witchverse #suki #sterling #bytte #roslyn #headloose

[ofieugogyshz]

Baked apple and honey for lance?

baked apple: how have your feelings for your f/o changed over time?

They've!!!! Well not "calmed down", as there's still a lot of excitement towards him. But, like, you know the difference between a storm on the sea and the calm? One's way more tumultuous and full of this energy and charge, and the other seems calm, but there's still this sense that it could swallow you up if it pleased? ....that sounds like a horrific and not very romantic parallel and like it"s not working the way i'm intending, so um! It's matured into something more tameable? It's like, a puppy vs a grown dog! It's not that it isn't any less excited to see you!! It's just learned to control itself better!! Mostly. I still love him a lot and would irl marry him if i got the chance, which is saying a lot to anyone who's talked with me about my actual romo [or not so romo, in my case] feelings on things like partnership and domesticity and marriage et al. And what was once superficial feelings, feelings that grew from something I felt ashamed of, there now exists this depth, this huge pool of very real and true love, for someone who's done so much for me with so little to base it off of. Even if I'm still doing this ten, twenty, thirty years into the future, spouseless irl, i still can't wait to see how it grows based off what it's grown from. It just... I just wanna keep coming back to a sea parallel. It started from a few drops of water on a flat surface. Very shallow, just, nothing intending to stick, not even really there. And now... Now it's as fathomless and as deep as the sea. I will love him for all eternity, at this point. And I'm okay with that.

I"m trying to think of any other changes that aren't about to be answerwd in the next q, but i guess i'll come back if i do.

honey: why did you fall for your f/o?

HONESTLY..... IT WAS ACCIDENT. I FELT SO BAD FOR HOW THIS HAPPENED FOR SO MANY YEARS, THAT IT LITERALLY TOOK SEEING MULTIPLE TIMES THE ONE POST THAT IS SOME PSYCH KID TALKING ABOUT HOW LOVE'S AVERAGE "INFATUATION" STAGE IS LKKE, 2 YEARS, AND HOW REAL LOVE IS A CHOICE THAT COMES AFTER, FOR ME TO REALIZE..... THERE IS NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED OF!!!! also it just sounds like an inversion or subversion or something of the "fake lovers" trope fnfmfhd

BUT OKAY SO LIKE, you know hkw when you were young, and if you're here you probably did this anyways, you would like, rewrite episodes of stuff or whatever have you so that it'd be like, thw episode but with you in it? Just. Self insert yourself into the story, the plot, what have you. Didn't matter how, what the story was, you just wanted to be in there. I just wanted to be cool and one-up ash okay. So like, i had had this on-going story for like, awhile now. Months? Who knows, doesn't matter. And then Lance's first half his episodes came out, and it was either that one or next week's, that i was just like, "mmmm.... Of the many ways I shall rewrite and explore this, what if... I was his girlfriend? Ah yes, makes perfect sense. Love those moments of WHAAAAAAT only for us to go right back to business and have it never brought up again because i"m all about the adventure and too young to even have an inkling of aromanticism, let alone know it or understand it. Yes. Let's do that. We shall be the girlfriend of the one guy that actually *does* save the day and it's because *I* helped! Ha! Praise me now, fans! Now people will HAVE to accept me as good/cool!"

I had a lot of self-esteem issues back then, for unfortunate reasons.

Anyways, the point was that me "dating" Lance was such a small footnote, a one-off joke/line, that it honestly didn"t even figure into my plans for a typical rewrite of many . it was just a line and move on, that's it, let's go back to the important stuff, ie plot.. Actually I think I also was just bored and so many other girls in the hall/classes would be doing the whole OMG!!!! N*SYNC OR BACKSTREET BOYS OR WHATEVER IS SO HOT!!!! I don't remember if they were still populsr at this time, but you get the point. And I, completely uninterested in celebrities and only with cartoons and books as my primary source of *anything* exemplary of a presumably male s/o, had been looking out anyhow for something to be attracted to. I honestlt didnt think he even looked good for a few years t b h. So shallow. Looking back, i know it was just one of the ways I hyper performed amatonormality (and boy, did i ever do that on the daily to the point of it literally causing me daily distress that I lacked, of all things, a boyfriend), but...

Somehow, RATHER QUICKLY ACTUALLY, i just... Clicked into liking him naturally??? Like, it was still somewhat shallow for a few years but where the surface was flat on the first episode, it slowly became a small dent, growing and growing on its own, and somewhere in high school it went from being superficial to like, i kind of wish he was real even tho odds are we wouldn't date to just. Sealing the deal somewhere by college!

TL;DR - i accidentally tricked myself into liking a character because i was bored and painfully aro and didn't know it. Now we're married.

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Cc @dekiaibadchoices because i KNOW you're gonna love these answers

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[humandisastersquad]

man i wish bill and twelve had been able to say how much they meant to each other without bill having to reaffirm that she’s Not Attracted to the doctor (even tho, yknow, it’s been established many times over that’s she’s a lesbian). it pisses me off that nuwho with its overwhelming amount of heteronormativity has normalised doctor/companion romance so much so that they cant say how important their friendship is without having to go ‘no romo’ and ruin a very poignant scene

#dw spoilers #:\ #bill potts

[obstinaterixatrix]

actually there was something I typed on the fight over here I never posted it’s about a garbage romcom that I ended up loving jfc chinese dramas are so extra

Ok yall I talk a lot about garbage romcoms but the fact of the matter is I actually love garbage and I’m watching Book of Love right now and several things:

1)      I’m a little in love with the lead lady because she’s kind of a disaster of a human being when it comes to raking in the gambling debts to pay off the gambling debts she got from gambling BUT her nickname is ‘Killer Jiao’ because when she was 15 she rescued her dad from a den of loan sharks by waving around a cleaver. A loan guy sent his kids to harass her house and she yelled at them until they stopped making a mess then made them recite poetry for hours before calling their dad and threatening to kill him if he ever went after her dad’s ex girlfriend (who’s taking care of her).

2)      The way the couple ends up meeting is that Jiao throws a book away because it’s bad luck (for gambling) and it ends up with a real estate agent and gives him bad luck (for picking up a girl and wow was that an Extra scene. honestly there are so many Extra scenes that are like, wow, this can only happen in an overwrought drama. at one point a chinese grandpa gets into a shouting match with a driving instructor with a heavy indian accent and lead dude has to mediate and while gramps is throwing all sorts of insults main dude is like ‘he says you have a handsome face’. at one point main dude’s coworker gets all up in gramps face like WOW you’re SO OLD that’s AMAZING, TIME IS TICKING. this aside got away from me) but like the first ten letters are both of them relentlessly mocking and insulting each other

3)      Dude has like, prickly cactus motif in that he doesn’t let people get close and was willing to hurt others for his gain, but what makes him realize that he can’t go on like that is when he basically adopts himself to an elderly couple for real estate strategy whatever and he realizes that he actually likes adopting himself to them (of course there are like fifty billion ‘things blow up and are bad’ developments)

4)      Also there was like an entire half hour where they both were in the same city and kept missing each other. an update from the future: at the end it’s just terrible. Fucking TURN AROUND

5)      Anyway the reason I started writing was after realator dude is like, hey, hurting people is bad and I’m going to stop that, he’s talking with a kid who moved from china because the kid’s not doing so well in school and his single mom called her real estate agent to take the kid to some father-son retreat and EVEN THOUGH that’s pretty ridiculous it’s honestly a development I can absolutely buy because I swear to god sometimes Chinese people just adopt each other. The mailman? You see him once a week. He’s practically family. ANYWAY what I was getting at is kid is unhappy in America and dude’s like “hey maybe talk to your mom” and kid’s like “you really think adults are gonna listen to children?” and he says “it’s the adult’s job to listen, and it’s the child’s job to speak up” and he talks to the mom on the kid’s behalf even though it isn’t in his favor and its really nice that most of his emotional development was just like, adopting himself to various families

6)      They don’t know each other’s name but Jiao tells the dude to call her little shrimp and he solemly says that he’ll never eat shrimp again

7)      Actually let’s go back to this I can’t get over Jiao, owing 1 million dollars to a loan shark, calling him up and yelling “FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING FUCK I’LL GET YOUR FUCKING MONEY BUT IF YOU EVER COME AFTER MY NOT-MOM EVER AGAIN I’LL FUCKING CUT YOU FUCKER”. She owed so much money. She didn’t give a fuck.

8)        Most of Jiao’s drama was like, failed romos (tho there is one where she just puts her eggs in the wrong gamblin basket) because she’s like. the opposite of cactus guy in that she’s the one that keeps letting people get close and getting stabbed for her troubles. god guys this movie was like, three hours long, so much happens.

9)      All of the drama is like, exclusively outside the actual main romance oh fuck someone died

#long post #travel tag

[authenticaussie]

T!

T: Any fandom tropes you can’t stand?

mmrm rgh,,,,,,,,,,,,,okay so like I don’t??? know if they count as tropes??? but like im s o,,,,picky,,,,,,immmm putting thsi under a readmore bc it got Long and. I dont want to upset anyone haha.

that one trope where theyre like “I LOVE YOU WITH THE INTENSITY OF A THOUSAND SUNS” and im sittin’ in the corner like are u even fucking friends tho

when charas who hate each otehr,,,, in show,,,,,,are Super Mushy ???? like,,,,i love fluff and i love show casing different relationships but wh a t,,,,,they just wouldn’t,,,,act ??? like this ?????????????

wo obifying oh god w H Y my guys, villains are!!! so cool!!!!! and theyre cool bc!!! theyre villains!! COOL MOTIVE, STILL MURDER. like…..I Love reading fics that explore villain motivations and reasons and make u kind of feel sympathy for them…but u still have to paint them as the villain. like…theyre still the villain. they do really bad shit that hurts a lot of people. 

MPREG MAKES ME WANT TO CURL UP INTO A BALL AND NEVER READ AGAIN I CAN N OT BELIEVE,,,,,I JUST HOLY FUCK GUYS. I DIDNT KNOW WHAT IT MEANT AND OKAY IT WASN’T EVEN THAT GOOD A FIC BUT I WNATED MORE SHIP CONTENT AND IT WAS DECENT MY GUYS IT WAS DCEENT ENOUGH TO READ EVEN THO THE BEGINNING WAS WEIRD AND IMPLIED THINGS THAT NEVER GOT RESOLVED AND BUILT THINGS THAT THEY RETCONNED W/O EXPLANATION AND THEY DID DUMB THINGS THAT WERE BUILT BUT THEN NEVER DID ANYTHING WITH THE TENSION AND THEN SUDDEN THINGS HAPPENED THAT SHOULD HAVE HAD TENSION BUT THE WORST FUCKING THING WAS JUST. GOD. LORDS ABOVE, WHY. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY CIS MEN DO NOT GET PREGNANT 

ahem. Kind Of Related to the last one,,,,,,,,,but possessiveness and jealou sy ,,, ,?? like,,,,, please no ;n; I understand some people do feel possessive of their partners and can get jealous but,,,taking it to degrees that the other character i S THEN SHOWN??? TO BE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH??? Like. I dont get,,,possessive/jealous very frequently (and its Basically Never abt my datemates) so I just,,,,I dont understand it….especially when it’s written as ””””hot”””” but the other character is obviously afraid of whoever their possessive date is. like hooooollllly fuck no. You can write possessive charas if you want and u can write jealous characters (jealousy is interesting to explore!! and ive been trying to use parts of it myself in other things to understand it better!!) But…….if you’re writing a character as afraid of their date??? Easiest way to drive me the Fuck away

ALSO ON THIS ONE, LIKE . MAKING CHARACTERS ABUSIVE/WEIRDLY OUT OF CHARACTER/FLIRTATIOUS JUST TO GET YOUR SHIP TOGETHER??? FUCK THE HELL OFF. JUST BECAUSE YOU DON’T LIKE ONE SHIP IS NO REASON TO BASH THE RELATIONSHIPS THE CHARACTERS HAVE. YOU ASSHOLE.

when characters who get divorced end up back together?????????? n o ????????????? THE Y GOT DIVORCED??? FOR A REASON??? Like, break ups are,,,a bit different, and if you want to go back to that same partner even knowing your previous problems that’s Fine,,,,but marriage is something else entirely. And ALSO as the kid of divorced parents like !!!!! holy shit!!! I can think of nothing worse than my mom remarrying my dad!!! She’d constantly be upset!!!! my brothers and I would be super upset!!! I would rather drop a piano on a priest than let them my divorced parents get remarried!!! and then kids in movies are trying to set their parents up???????????? No Thank You.

when fem charas are,,,,,,,,,,,like…..sexualising their friends/friends’ relationships & crushes. Holy Fuck No that’s,,,,so creepy holy Shit. And like,,,,,it’s especially prominent when fem charas are trying to set up the main ship….like i Like friends supporting the main protag/friends etc. in their crush/wooing of another person…but when they do it w/ o ,,,the other person’s permission,,,,and especially when it;s like “we have to get them together theyre so hot!!” (gags) please why. Honestly i m Guilty of this one myself but… Im Trying

Also on friends and Things like o VERPROTECTIVE SIBLING/FATHER PARENTAL FIGURE :T I Like overprotective sibs that Talk to their siblings’ crush and is like Hey dont be a Piece of Shit but. there’s so many where it’s so over the top and really we i r d. and a bit creepy. like. I dont want to think abt what my brothers do w/ their dates, i sure as fuck aren’t going to forbid them from doing what they please. The most i do is vet them and give my brothers my opinions on their choice of date and they do the same.   

TEACHER/STUDENT PLEASE GOOD LORD ABOVE I HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG IN MY LIFE WHY WHY DO I GET TEACHER/STUDENT FIC RECOMMENDATIONS. The only thing i accept. in this. is like. uni student/tutor or student/fellow student tutor. and MAYBE student with a crush on a teacher IF THIS IS NEVER FOLLOWED THROUGH WITH / THE TEACHER IS LIKE HEY, NO, NOT GOOD ‘KAY M’DUDE / THE STUDENT GETS A DIFFERENT ROMO PARTNER WHO’S THEIR AGE and theyre like wow this is. Much Better than dating the teacher. (g A G S) 

I also really dislike large age gaps and it’s one of the reasons it took me so long to really like marco/ace. bc. it was. always written kind of Creepy. Also my whole family is made of teachers. I do not want to have this shit in my head e v e r. shudders.

uh,,,idk if I can think of any more, like im sure there are some,,,,but idk if they count as Tropes. And I dont properly know how to Describe them??? w/o giving examples from works?? and im not Doing that to anyone it’s Mean.

#negativity // #honestly tho like ple ase dont take this as me....bashing on whatever like to read/write #bc !! you do you !!! if it makes you happy and isnt hurting anyone you should free to enjoy it!!! #this is just....utterly personal taste #aussie's anons #ask aussie #bip bop nari drops #long post

[lavellanfriendliness]

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#guess who the tags are about #them #again #idk man theyre gonna be long out of the honeymoon phase by the time i finally meet them #but im gonna be hype about it til the fuckin day i die #me: do y'all know youre together and its literally the best thing ever?? #them: yes nyx we know we're 37 #cant wait to shower them in the full dose of 'nyx loves her friends'™ tho #theyre honestly the best thing this website has brought me #i love lucien and britt??? so much??? #no romo guys #theyre such good people #she knows she is but probably wishes she was even nicer and even more pleasant to know-- dont know how she can outdo her current self #and ohh boy im not even going to get into the 'how nice a person lucien is' stuff on this post bc ive got a lot to say #but he just doesnt give himself enough credit for the wonderful things hes done #he always has to pull out reciepts on himself #like??no??youre literally worth all the stars in the sky?? #both of you?? #i love you guys so much #like i cant find any words #theyre just so amazing??? and i will officiate their dog adopting ceremonies #ill even get the collars and tags #i just want them to be happy #my angel friends deserve nothing less than the world #for the seraphim #nyx speaks