#for survival purposes

[corpsentry]

at the asian american studies sponsored movie screening i run out of my seat to press a button for the presenter and you look away, not in shame, but in anger

go make your own movie.

One where you’re the star

and everything’s my fault

the way you want it to be. I know, it’s easy

to let someone else hold this grief

and sit in the bathtub,

all dressed up to go to the party.

Maybe in this movie it’s your party

and I the party crasher,

holding cymbals and a baseball bat, et cetera.

But we don’t stop getting older when we’re angry

and you’re only twenty,

can’t listen to lullabies at night,

can’t sleep without a blanket

over your head like you’re scared

of your own shadow. God, go

write your own movie.

You could do it,

you’re still

pretty. Angry? Me too.

The bathtub’s overflowing,

the bathroom’s flooding

with whatever you couldn’t say

to the poet with their palms glued shut

in a cheap simulacrum of prayer.

Didn’t you say you were tired? Angry? Me too.

Upset? Unhappy? Me too. Hungry? Lonely? Me too. Me too.

Standing barefoot in the grass

I remembered the month of bad weather.

How I parted the fog with broken hands each night,

looking for your voice.

Oh, I will not forgive you.

Not like this.

With your fingers splayed

against the brute February sky,

lips cracked open like windows,

waiting, like you always are, for me to say the first word.

#my writing #my words #there are many reasons i like tumblr. for example the number of people who keep getting older is very impressive #but also it is nice because unlike my goddamn poetry account (self inflicted damage) half my friends irl do not follow me here #so i can put this poem down. it’s not public grief here it’s anonymous grief! woo #anyway i have just survived possibly the most brutal four weeks of my life and this is including getting dumped a week #before the dance concert in which my ex and i were in more than half the items together. this is including that #but i am OUT #and this poem was written while i was still in but i am O U T #lord being hurt and hurt and being mature and brave and smart makes your HR voice get really good #not by choice #for survival purposes #i am wondering if i should get this laptop. as my water bottle exploded and destroyed my old laptop #i think i will do it #yes. i think so #it is time to start taking care of myself. and so on #so here’s this poem. i wanted to share it because it’s raw and unedited and it has some lines that i think are neat #if it makes you feel some stuff that would make me very happy

[gu1lty-as-sin]

AND YOU KISS ME IN A WAY THATS GONNA SCREW ME UP FOREVER

#I NEED TO BE KISSED LIKE THAT #for survival purposes #juno.txt

[girlsjustwant2havefun]

at least being self-absorbed is the absolute best undesirable trait i could have as a woman

#; #For survival purposes

[inkjette]

So at my workplace, we fund a Food Is Free shelf. It's the basics: take what you need, give what you can - our town has a high level of poverty, there's a cost of living crisis, be the good you want to see in the world etc etc.

Today we had a guy knock on the door and ask if we had a plastic bag he could use to carry a few things - I said sure, got him a plastic bag, and he started packing up his 2 rolls of toilet paper, his 3 or 4 foodstuff items. He said he'd been to a funeral out of town (1500 kms away) and spent his paycheck on fuel - he was only broke till Friday, he said.

And I said, well I'm glad we could help, it's why we have the shelf. We want the community to use it.

And he said:

But people ABUSE it! I've seen people take heaps of stuff from it - and they don't even have kids or anything. And it's fair enough, some people are struggling until the next paycheck, but other people just ABUSE it. You need a sign that says TAKE ONE ITEM ONLY or something. I've taken something from here maybe twice, but I've seen people coming round every week! I've even put stuff on the shelf! Yeah, you need CAMERAS or something. People abuse it.

So here is a man who is actively utilising a public resource that we created to support our local community...And yet he is so brainwashed by capitalism into thinking that people don't deserve basic needs - if they're not working hard, or maybe they're struggling but they don't have it As Bad as others, or they're using a FREE RESOURCE more often than HE thinks is acceptable. He thinks that we should use security cameras to crack down on people "STEALING" from the Food is FREE shelf. Like he's more worthy, like he's a better person, because he doesn't need as much help as others might.

Sometimes, when something is free, people might abuse it. But isn't it better to offer the support to people who need it? To offer an opportunity for people to get back on their feet (even if they're only broke till Friday)? To provide help, no questions asked and no conditions needed?

So what if people abuse it - isn't it worth it if helps someone?

#capitalism can die in a hole #people are fundamentally good and all they need to do is the basic resources they need to survive #still cannot get over the fact that we need CAMERAS to stop people from *checks notes* using a food pantry for its intended purpose? #anticapitalism #solarpunk #mutual aid #community aid #community networks #food is free #food pantries

[cracklewink]

Harmony Syndrome Part 5/5

The last chapter of my mlp infection AU! Thank you to everyone who followed along. Some final thoughts on my twitter @cracklewink if anyone's interested : )

#mlp #my little pony #mlp infection au #mlp infection #twilight sparkle #Sorry for leaving the ending open ended but I genuinely couldnt decide on just one way for things to turn out and I liked the idea of #leaving it open the most #in my mind sunset's final message is like we found a recording from the later days of the infection and we dont know what happened in the #end because the recordings stopped/ended #In any case I think they were able to put twilight and the others to rest #but who knows who survived the “final battle” and who didnt #also yes Twilight created harmony syndrome but not on purpose lol #it was the result of her botched attempt to create a spell that makes ponies immortal #obviously it backfired lol #and the irony is that twilight ends up dying before any of her friends #if they didnt want me writing my little pony horse tragedy they shouldnt have left mlpfim off on the note that all of twilight's friends #were growing old without her #ending thats been haunting me for five years #if anyones seeing this this is an open au btw so feel free to adopt any of the ideas if you like! : ) #tw thanatophobia #thanatophobia

[reasonsforhope]

You don't need to believe that people as a whole are good or well-intentioned to be an optimist about fixing climate change.

A lot of the time, it's enough to trust in this: people hate being screwed over. And even more than that, they hate feeling screwed over.

Climate change is actively screwing over almost every single person on this planet, whether they know it or not. We just need to keep making sure that people do know that they're getting screwed over, along with all their loved ones, and who's doing it.

Spite and righteous anger will honestly do a lot of the rest.

#hope #good news #hope posting #climate change #climate optimism #life #not news #advice #me #human nature #like. obviously this is imho. but also I'm genuinely convinced that I'm right #spite and anger are powerful motivators #there are scientists who argue that anger's whole evolutionary purpose #is to keep us from being screwed over #because that's so vital to our survival #and what's more vital to our survival than a liveable planet??? #channel your anger into action #do not let anyone tell you that optimism or being an activist or being part of a healthy community means never being angry #that is so so untrue #and if you find a way to channel your anger and pain and grief to do GOOD in the world #to help people #then that will also do a lot to stop your emotions from eating you up inside #hopepunk #anger #spite #optimism #hopeposting #humanity

[stainedglass-sketchbook]

CHILDREN OF BHAAL

I adore the vibe of redeemed durge your sister killed your mind and took your place - it was the greatest gift she ever gave you

#orin the red #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 orin #the dark urge #cant stop thinking about orin #myart #durge vaye #still deciding what kind of c section scar to give vaye #went with a vertical scar for this one #the lore for vaye is that he got pretty far into his life as baahls chosen as far as milestones are concerned #became unholy assassin almost finished those plans to take over the world had a kid for sacrifice/back up bhaalspawn purposes ect #& was daddy's perfect little murder baby <3 until the lobotomy ofc #then only with memory loss was there was enough distance for him to actually face how fucked the whole situation #btw Orin did Vaye's top surgery c-section and lobotomy <3 #thats his whole medical team right there #when you wake up with no memory all you have is your body for evidence so i really leaned into that for vaye's scars #I gave him vash the stampede level scars lol #he wakes up knows 4 things: that hes been through metaphorical hell and survived that someone did a choppy job on his top surgery #that at one point he decided face + eye tattoos would be his thing and that hes had a child #Im debating whether or not Orin would outright kill the kid or if shed keep the kid around until theyre old enough to face her in a duel #Leaning towards the second #that means while vaye is wondering around faerun that kid is having arts and crafts time with auntie orin! (oh no oh no oh no)

[catwouthats]

Yes, you may be able to admit that Bart Allen’s origin story is that of a psychological horror since he didn’t/doesn’t understand reality vs fantasy,

But are you ready to face the fact that he grew up SPECIFICALLY in VR where beating up the bad guys more gets him points?? The fact that he spent the regular human equivalent of 19 years hooked to this VR that rewarded violent behavior?? The fact that the first thing he tried to do when he came back to reality in the 20th century was kill The Flash??

I love him so much, but he lowkey was trained to kill as much as he was pushed to die in the 30th century.

He’s still just a little guy tho :3

#even though he’s mentally 14 it says his Vr age is 19 in the 1st issue of Impulse 1995 #he’s so silly #he’s just a little guy #my little blorbo committing war crimes <3 #I think it was on purpose to show how dangerous the Allen’s are in case he did survive #anyways #dc impulse #dc comics #impulse 1995 #bart allen

[tangledinink]

So. Leo and Donnie grew up under Big Mama's care to eventually become the infamous Gemini in the Battle Nexus... And Mikey has been raised by Baron Draxum to fulfill the prophecy... Well, where's Raph?

(treasure of the shrine) (tireless devotee) (pledged martyr)

enter -> raphael, child of the foot clan

raph grew up under the protective eye of the foot, raised on endless tales of the clan's grand mission and the essential role he would play in it. his value was very clear from the moment he came into the clan's possession as an infant, given the inherent, powerful mystical energy already laying dormant inside him. though he cannot wield any magick himself, he often spends long hours meditating in the clan's shrine, bathing in mystic energy, awaiting the day he can don the dark armor and awaken their master shredder with his life force. as per clan tradition, he was never given a name and is instead officially referred to by his title-- oblation.

though he is just as devoted to his ninja training as any other clan recruit, his future role makes him far too valuable to be sent on missions or risk combat. in fact, he very rarely leaves the safety of shredder's shrine. this doesn't bother oblation, however. he is perfectly content in his role, and proud of what his anticipated sacrifice will achieve. his faith and trust in the clan are absolute and unwavering. however...

though small children are rarely recruited by the clan, there was one other. recruit calls oblation "obby." and obby calls her "cru." they met when obby was nine and cru was ten and have been inseparable ever since, training side by side. though obby is technically considered a higher rank than her, neither of them have achieved full clan membership yet. obby will not earn his place until he completes his one and only mission, and one that he will do entirely on his own-- bring forth the shredder.

(and recruit is loyal. recruit believes fully in the clan's divine mission. recruit will give whatever the foot asks of her. but as obby's promised sacrifice looms ever closer, she finds herself harboring more and more doubt.)

#the promised prize for moving gemini onward #hehehe #gemini au #tw suicide #suicide implication #thats not? really what it is exactly but tw anyway just in casesies #the expectation isnt that raph straight up does a kys #the expectation is that the shredder is gonna suck all his lifeforce out like hes a fckin juicebox and itll definitely suck at a minimum #will there be long term consequences? will he die? who knows #theyre getting him mad beefy and putting so much mystic mojo in him on purpose though #1. better snack for shreddy #2. better survival odds #friendly reminder draxum survived so #but you know anyway #self sacrifice #cults #rottmnt #rottmnt sep au #rottmnt raph #rise raph #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #hamato raphael #foot clan #rise cassandra #rise casey #rottmnt cassandra jones #rottmnt casey jones #rottmnt separated au #rottmnt au

[thesherrinfordfacility]

haven't seen anyone talk about this but. after the lightning strike, where did crowley go? because we see him walking away from the bentley after he got Lightly Singed:

and he doesn't walk around the back of it, and get into the driver seat whilst maggie and nina are trapped (second image is the last shot before it cuts to heaven):

and then we next see him in his hidey spot (that btw im fairly convinced is meant to be in shadwell, london (no, really)), but he's strolling sadly up to the bentley:

could be that there's a really simple explanation for it, like he just needed a walk or something to shake off the residue tantrum, and then parked up and went out for another stroll... or if he walked back to the hidey spot and the bentley just miraculously took itself there/crowley miracled it to meet him there...

...but idk seems strange that he wouldn't just. get straight into the bentley and screech off, pull up in the cobbled street, park, switch off engine, and then the scene launches into beelzebub's fly-arrival...?

#i literally do not care if this doesnt have any ulterior purpose. i do not #i need to survive the s2-s3 and the way im choosing to do it is through conspiracy #its my therapy mind ur business #good omens #not really meta but im gonna tag it so i can come back to it #sanctuary/bentley theory

[baylee-doodle]

She's more embarrassed about the 'I love' part than the 'weird ass' part

#Digimon Survive #Kaito Shinonome #Miu Shinonome #Minoru Hinata #Digimon #Dracmon #Syakomon #Falcomon #Fan Art #I was debating with myself if Kaito would react negatively to someone else saying that Miu was weird #but then I thought #after some development where he chills out a bit more #I think that he could lean more comfortably into the role of ‘big brother who teases his sister sometimes’ #rather than being too overprotective #I really think this would be the case because of Dracmon specifically being his partner #and their little ‘I like a good prank here and there’ interaction I recall them having #Now Miu has the trade off from an overly protective brother who embarrasses her #to an older brother who just likes to embarrass her on PURPOSE this time

[finalgirlsamwinchester]

incredibly important to me. actually.

#lb #between mary getting to be her own character #and everything they're doing w sam making peace with his own trauma/self-loathing/self-destructiveness #through finding a purpose in being a reassuring voice to young ppl suffering as he did #s12 rights!! #being the voice that tells them. #you're not fundamentally evil. you're good. you'll be alright. #you'll survive this and you'll be okay. i believe in you #sam winchester the character that you are!

[feyd-meowtha]

Why does every character in Dune feel so profoundly lonely? it makes me insane .

#its the weight of fate the prescience the mentat computation the plans within plans the prana bindu training the gilded cages the things we #have to do to survive #i hold every healthy emotional relationship in that series in my palms like pearls #its wild #these guys need to go get a couple drinks do a pub quiz or something #babes ur terrible purpose can wait #dune #dune part 2 #feyd rautha #paul atreides #dune part two #austin butler #timothée chalamet #mine #alia atreides #lady jessica

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

*deeper sigh* *head in hands* What's sugondese?

Sorry anon, but you know too much now

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wanji #gun #for those filtering TWs #I hope you are the same anon from before #for the continuity and humour #despite your reluctance you stilled showed up to contribute and that's so sweet of you #sorry for suplexing you into the mat with not one but *two* deez nuts jokes #Thank you immensely for your participation; I'm giving you butterfly kisses on your cheeks with my whiskers #that aside; I think teenji would *never* stoop so low as to make a sugon/dese joke #but HGJ? Oh that guy has had enough playing nice. He has sharped his wordplay to devastating levels #he picks all his words carefully. you will not survive the encounter #I hope this pleases yall; I do think the way the thread ended was absolutely peak humour and i wouldn't change a thing #have this lwj for whatever purposes you desire

[moipale]

on first read harrow the ninth is an intricate puzzle that you devour and piece together. on second read harrow the ninth is a psychological horror. on third read harrow the ninth is a comedy

#tlt #harrow the ninth #thinking #that book had it all. #voluntary lobotomy. a terrible kiss for sewn tongue purposes. survival horror for harrow only. gideon's narration. #'ortus'. the corpse possession. a terrible threesome. a terrible funeral. mercymorn. the soup. god was there #i need to reread tlt stat

[loving-jack-kelly]

i think spot secretly being a sweet sensitive soul and race (not so) secretly being a huge asshole is both a) funny and b) one of the reasons they work as a couple

#race in the bitchiest voice youve ever heard: if I have to talk to her again I'll kill myself #spot very quietly almost under his breath: it's not worth it sweetheart lets go home and watch the bachelor #anyway as always. spot's toughness is not fake but it is on purpose #he decided to be tough and strong and hard to read because it was how to survive #and race learned to cover up his mean streak with a sweet silly little guy exterior #(youngest sibling of a big family race truther here) #sprace #spot conlon #racetrack higgins #newsies