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Prince Rhaegar as a character often gets some deserved criticism - and a lot of underserved hate. And one of the things that I think he unfairly gets blamed for is Elia Martell's tragedy. Elia's death is one of the primary objections people have towards Rhaegar and Lyanna being depicted as a romance, with readers believing that if they were just tragic lovers, then that diminishes Elia's own tragedy.

I...disagree. It is understandable (and honestly right) that readers would rally behind Elia. Not only was she horribly brutalized and murdered, but her children suffered absolutely terrible fates as well.

However, in trying to center Rhaegar and Lyanna's doomed dalliance in this, a lot of readers are missing the answer that has been already provided to us within the narrative. Not only that, but this line of thinking also ignores the key context in which Elia's senseless murder is portrayed.

As far as the text goes, Elia’s death is laid squarely at the feet of Tywin Lannister and his men, Ser Gregor Clegane and Ser Amory Lorch. It's House Lannister's burden to bear.

Doran for one, Elia's brother, directly blames Tywin Lannister:

“You mistake patience for forbearance. I have worked at the downfall of Tywin Lannister since the day they told me of Elia and her children.”

The Princess in the Tower, AFFC

Even Oberyn agrees:

“Dwarf,” said the Red Viper, in a tone grown markedly less cordial, “spare me your Lannister lies. Is it sheep you take us for, or fools? My brother is not a bloodthirsty man, but neither has he been asleep for sixteen years. Jon Arryn came to Sunspear the year after Robert took the throne, and you can be sure that he was questioned closely. Him, and a hundred more. I did not come for some mummer’s show of an inquiry. I came for justice for Elia and her children, and I will have it. Starting with this lummox Gregor Clegane … but not, I think, ending there. Before he dies, the Enormity That Rides will tell me whence came his orders, please assure your lord father of that.” He smiled. “An old septon once claimed I was living proof of the goodness of the gods. Do you know why that is, Imp?”

Tyrion IV, ASOS

“Is that the game we are playing?” Tyrion rubbed at his scarred nose. He had nothing to lose by telling Oberyn the truth. “There was a bear at Harrenhal, and it did kill Ser Amory Lorch.” “How sad for him,” said the Red Viper. “And for you. Do all noseless men lie so badly, I wonder?” “I am not lying. Ser Amory dragged Princess Rhaenys out from under her father’s bed and stabbed her to death. He had some men-at-arms with him, but I do not know their names.” He leaned forward. “It was Ser Gregor Clegane who smashed Prince Aegon’s head against a wall and raped your sister Elia with his blood and brains still on his hands.” “What is this, now? Truth, from a Lannister?” Oberyn smiled coldly. “Your father gave the commands, yes?” “No.” He spoke the lie without hesitation, and never stopped to ask himself why he should. The Dornishman raised one thin black eyebrow. “Such a dutiful son. And such a very feeble lie. It was Lord Tywin who presented my sister’s children to King Robert all wrapped up in crimson Lannister cloaks.”

Tyrion IX, ASOS

“Elia Martell, Princess of Dorne,” the Red Viper hissed. “You raped her. You murdered her. You killed her children…“I came to hear you confess.”

Tyrion X, ASOS

Varys and Tyrion both understand that House Martell (but more specifically Doran) hates the Lannisters.

“The Dornishmen thus far have held aloof from these wars. Doran Martell has called his banners, but no more. His hatred for House Lannister is well known, and it is commonly thought he will join Lord Renly. You wish to dissuade him.” “All this is obvious,” said Tyrion. “The only puzzle is what you might have offered for his allegiance. The prince is a sentimental man, and he still mourns his sister Elia and her sweet babe.” “My father once told me that a lord never lets sentiment get in the way of ambition … and it happens we have an empty seat on the small council, now that Lord Janos has taken the black.” “A council seat is not to be despised,” Varys admitted, “yet will it be enough to make a proud man forget his sister’s murder?” “Why forget?” Tyrion smiled. “I’ve promised to deliver his sister’s killers, alive or dead, as he prefers. After the war is done, to be sure.” Varys gave him a shrewd look. “My little birds tell me that Princess Elia cried a … certain name … when they came for her.” “Is a secret still a secret if everyone knows it?” In Casterly Rock, it was common knowledge that Gregor Clegane had killed Elia and her babe. They said he had raped the princess with her son’s blood and brains still on his hands. “This secret is your lord father’s sworn man.” “My father would be the first to tell you that fifty thousand Dornishmen are worth one rabid dog.” Varys stroked a powdered cheek. “And if Prince Doran demands the blood of the lord who gave the command as well as the knight who did the deed …” “Robert Baratheon led the rebellion. All commands came from him, in the end.” “Robert was not at King’s Landing.” “Neither was Doran Martell.”

Tyrion IV, ACOK

Really, all the nobles know where to look at when assigning blame for Elia's murder. Tywin.

“Prince Doran comes at my son’s invitation,” Lord Tywin said calmly, “not only to join in our celebration, but to claim his seat on this council, and the justice Robert denied him for the murder of his sister Elia and her children.” Tyrion watched the faces of the Lords Tyrell, Redwyne, and Rowan, wondering if any of the three would be bold enough to say, “But Lord Tywin, wasn’t it you who presented the bodies to Robert, all wrapped up in Lannister cloaks?” None of them did, but it was there on their faces all the same. Redwyne does not give a fig, he thought, but Rowan looks fit to gag.

Tywin, for the most part, quite shamelessly tries to disassociate himself from his own moral failings; this is nothing new, because he follows this same MO with squarely blaming the Freys for the Red Wedding even though he played an integral part in planning for it.

“Then why did the Mountain kill her?” “Because I did not tell him to spare her. I doubt I mentioned her at all. I had more pressing concerns. Ned Stark’s van was rushing south from the Trident, and I feared it might come to swords between us. And it was in Aerys to murder Jaime, with no more cause than spite. That was the thing I feared most. That, and what Jaime himself might do.” He closed a fist. “Nor did I yet grasp what I had in Gregor Clegane, only that he was huge and terrible in battle. The rape … even you will not accuse me of giving that command, I would hope. Ser Amory was almost as bestial with Rhaenys. I asked him afterward why it had required half a hundred thrusts to kill a girl of … two? Three? He said she’d kicked him and would not stop screaming. If Lorch had half the wits the gods gave a turnip, he would have calmed her with a few sweet words and used a soft silk pillow.” His mouth twisted in distaste. “The blood was in him.”

Tyrion VI, ASOS

“And when Oberyn demands the justice he’s come for?” “I will tell him that Ser Amory Lorch killed Elia and her children,” Lord Tywin said calmly. “So will you, if he asks.” “Ser Amory Lorch is dead,” Tyrion said flatly. “Precisely. Vargo Hoat had Ser Amory torn apart by a bear after the fall of Harrenhal. That ought to be sufficiently grisly to appease even Oberyn Martell.” “You may call that justice …” “It is justice. It was Ser Amory who brought me the girl’s body, if you must know. He found her hiding under her father’s bed, as if she believed Rhaegar could still protect her. Princess Elia and the babe were in the nursery a floor below.”

Tyrion VI, ASOS

Tywin tries to alleviate himself of any responsibility by blaming his men, but the narrative actively calls bullshit on this (through Tywin's own son no less).

So the narrative shows through multiple POVs that Elia's murder is contextualized exclusively as a failing on Tywin Lannister and his men; not only was it a moral failing, but Tyrion also questions if it was politically necessary in the first place. It's also important to note that ASOS is when we really dive into the matter of Elia and her children (mostly through Oberyn), but we also have to remember that this is the same book as the Red Wedding. The Red Wedding, another one of Tywin's senseless massacres that he tries to postulate as politically necessary.

So, we have agreed that the blame and context for Elia's (and her children's) murder is presented through the lens of Tywin as an immoral politician who often makes politically unnecessary moves. But then we ask ourselves, can the responsibility of this tragedy be extended? Well, yes it can. And it has been in the text.

Ser Barristan extends this tragedy beyond Tywin and his men

...to King Robert.

“Prince Rhaegar had two children,” Ser Barristan told him. “Rhaenys was a little girl, Aegon a babe in arms. When Tywin Lannister took King’s Landing, his men killed both of them. He served the bloody bodies up in crimson cloaks, a gift for the new king.” And what did Robert say when he saw them? Did he smile? Barristan Selmy had been badly wounded on the Trident, so he had been spared the sight of Lord Tywin’s gift, but oft he wondered. If I had seen him smile over the red ruins of Rhaegar’s children, no army on this earth could have stopped me from killing him. “I will not suffer the murder of children. Accept that, or I’ll have no part of this.”

The Kingbreaker, ADWD

Ned Stark does as well.

Ned did not feign surprise; Robert’s hatred of the Targaryens was a madness in him. He remembered the angry words they had exchanged when Tywin Lannister had presented Robert with the corpses of Rhaegar’s wife and children as a token of fealty. Ned had named that murder; Robert called it war. When he had protested that the young prince and princess were no more than babes, his new-made king had replied, “I see no babes. Only dragonspawn.” Not even Jon Arryn had been able to calm that storm. Eddard Stark had ridden out that very day in a cold rage, to fight the last battles of the war alone in the south. It had taken another death to reconcile them; Lyanna’s death, and the grief they had shared over her passing.

Eddard II, AGOT

And so does Tywin, who uses Robert's tacit approval as justification for this senseless act.

Lord Tywin stared at him as if he had lost his wits. “You deserve that motley, then. We had come late to Robert’s cause. It was necessary to demonstrate our loyalty. When I laid those bodies before the throne, no man could doubt that we had forsaken House Targaryen forever. And Robert’s relief was palpable. As stupid as he was, even he knew that Rhaegar’s children had to die if his throne was ever to be secure. Yet he saw himself as a hero, and heroes do not kill children.” His father shrugged. “I grant you, it was done too brutally. Elia need not have been harmed at all, that was sheer folly. By herself she was nothing.”

Tyrion VI, ASOS

So if we can't extend the blame to Rhaegar, because the narrative doesn't do so either, what can we hold him responsible for? Let's take a step back and look at Rhaegar's culpability in this whole thing.

Was Rhaegar (and Lyanna) responsible for starting the war that would eventually lead to Elia's murder?

No. GRRM doesn't think so. The war actually started when King Aerys murdered the Lord of Winterfell and his heir, a bunch of other northern nobles, and then called for the heads of Robert Baratheon (Lord of Storm's End) and Ned Stark (the new Lord of Winterfell). Aerys broke the feudal contract, and so Jon Arryn declared war.

I don't think I would have stayed loyal to the Mad King. Do I think they were justified? Yes, and no. [...] There was no doubt that the Mad King was mad. He was paranoid and he was abusing his power. And Westeros has no Magna Carta or anything like that. There was no way to handle this within the rule of law. But was what they do justified? Especially when you consider that it was triggered by a personal grievance. The execution of Ned's father and brother was really a thing that radicalized Ned and put him in opposition to it. Robert was just rolling for a fight and didn't like the fact that he'd lost his girlfriend. So you know, the personal informs the political.

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Rhaegar and Lyanna's disappearance was merely the spark - it led to a misunderstanding that caused Brandon Stark to ride to Kingslanding. What really caused the war was Aerys' Targaryens subsequent actions as the king. So if we want to blame someone for causing the chain of events that led to Elia's death as well as her children's, the author himself says to blame Aerys; even though I don't think this is right either because we once again stray from the necessary (and sole) context of Elia's murder - Tywin's bloody hands.

Fine. Rhaegar was not responsible for the war. But surely he is responsible for leaving Elia in King's Landing, right in the clutches of Mad King Aerys. Well, this again, is not true. As far as Rhaegar knew, Elia was in Dragonstone with Aegon and Rhaenys where he left them.

As cold winds hammered the city, King Aerys II turned to his pyromancers, charging them to drive the winter off with their magics. Huge green fires burned along the walls of the Red Keep for a moon’s turn. Prince Rhaegar was not in the city to observe them, however. Nor could he be found in Dragonstone with Princess Elia and their young son, Aegon.

“The Year of the False Spring”, The World of Ice and Fire

At some point, Elia was called to King's Landing. And it was Aerys who kept her hostage there as insurance against possible Dornish betrayal (remember, he was paranoid).

Side Note: Aerys kept another important political hostage in King's Landing along with Elia - Jaime Lannister; this is to deter anyone from trying to blame Jaime for doing nothing. He was a teenager and a hostage himself!

“My Sworn Brothers were all away, you see, but Aerys liked to keep me close. I was my father’s son, so he did not trust me. He wanted me where Varys could watch me, day and night. So I heard it all.” He remembered how Rossart’s eyes would shine when he unrolled his maps to show where the substance must be placed. Garigus and Belis were the same. “Rhaegar met Robert on the Trident, and you know what happened there. When the word reached court, Aerys packed the queen off to Dragonstone with Prince Viserys. Princess Elia would have gone as well, but he forbade it. Somehow he had gotten it in his head that Prince Lewyn must have betrayed Rhaegar on the Trident, but he thought he could keep Dorne loyal so long as he kept Elia and Aegon by his side. The traitors want my city, I heard him tell Rossart, but I’ll give them naught but ashes. Let Robert be king over charred bones and cooked meat. The Targaryens never bury their dead, they burn them. Aerys meant to have the greatest funeral pyre of them all. Though if truth be told, I do not believe he truly expected to die. Like Aerion Brightfire before him, Aerys thought the fire would transform him … that he would rise again, reborn as a dragon, and turn all his enemies to ash.

Jaime V, ASOS

Ok, fine. So Rhaegar did not abandon her with Aerys then run off to Lyanna. But he should have done something when he came back, right? Why didn't he leave more Kings Guard with Elia and the children?

Well....this is a war. The knights of the KG are important assets on the battle field. Kings Landing, at the time, was not the most dangerous location. The KG were better off at the Trident, as a victory there would protect those who were left behind in KL.

And it's not that Rhaegar didn't do anything. Beyond going off to lead the battle himself, he tried to make moves that would help those who were back in KL (Elia and the children included).

He floated in heat, in memory. “After dancing griffins lost the Battle of the Bells, Aerys exiled him.” Why am I telling this absurd ugly child? “He had finally realized that Robert was no mere outlaw lord to be crushed at whim, but the greatest threat House Targaryen had faced since Daemon Blackfyre. The king reminded Lewyn Martell gracelessly that he held Elia and sent him to take command of the ten thousand Dornishmen coming up the kingsroad. Jon Darry and Barristan Selmy rode to Stoney Sept to rally what they could of griffins’ men, and Prince Rhaegar returned from the south and persuaded his father to swallow his pride and summon my father. But no raven returned from Casterly Rock, and that made the king even more afraid. He saw traitors everywhere, and Varys was always there to point out any he might have missed. So His Grace commanded his alchemists to place caches of wildfire all over King’s Landing. Beneath Baelor’s Sept and the hovels of Flea Bottom, under stables and storehouses, at all seven gates, even in the cellars of the Red Keep itself.

Jaime V ASOS

And Jaime's POV once again shows us that Rhaegar banked on victory at the Trident, and was fully expecting to come back to KL and amend the fraught political situation.

The day had been windy when he said farewell to Rhaegar, in the yard of the Red Keep. The prince had donned his night-black armor, with the three-headed dragon picked out in rubies on his breastplate. “Your Grace,” Jaime had pleaded, “let Darry stay to guard the king this once, or Ser Barristan. Their cloaks are as white as mine.” Prince Rhaegar shook his head. “My royal sire fears your father more than he does our cousin Robert. He wants you close, so Lord Tywin cannot harm him. I dare not take that crutch away from him at such an hour.” Jaime’s anger had risen up in his throat. “I am not a crutch. I am a knight of the Kingsguard.” “Then guard the king,” Ser Jon Darry snapped at him. “When you donned that cloak, you promised to obey.” Rhaegar had put his hand on Jaime’s shoulder. “When this battle’s done I mean to call a council. Changes will be made. I meant to do it long ago, but … well, it does no good to speak of roads not taken. We shall talk when I return.”

Jaime I, AFFC

So Rhaegar wasn't leaving with no care about what happened back in King's Landing. We don't know what he wanted to do with Aerys, Elia, Lyanna, and the aftermath of the war because he died at the Trident. But we do know that he, at the very least, was planning to do something.

So we can't blame Rhaegar (and Lyanna) for starting the war and we can't blame him either for abandoning Elia in King's Landing with no care about what happens next. So, again, what can we blame him for?

“It's not entirely correct that the Martells stayed out of the war. Rhaegar had Dornish troops with him on the Trident, under the command of Prince Lewyn of the Kingsguard. However, the Dornishmen did not support him as strongly as they might have, in part because of anger at his treatment of Elia, in part because of Prince Doran's innate caution.”

SSM, 09/11/1999

GRRM states that Dorne was angry about Rhaegar's treatment of Elia. What is this treatment, though?

Ned remembered the moment when all the smiles died, when Prince Rhaegar Targaryen urged his horse past his own wife, the Dornish princess Elia Martell, to lay the queen of beauty’s laurel in Lyanna’s lap.

Eddard XV, AGOT

Specifically, Rhaegar riding past Elia to crown Lyanna the Queen of Love and Beauty. Yes, that is a humiliation. And it's undeniable that no one was happy.

The crowning of the Stark girl, who was by all reports a wild and boyish young thing with none of the Princess Elia’s delicate beauty, could only have been meant to win the allegiance of Winterfell to Prince Rhaegar’s cause…Yet if this were true, why did Lady Lyanna’s brothers seem so distraught at the honor the prince had bestowed upon her? Brandon Stark, the heir to Winterfell, had to be restrained from confronting Rhaegar at what he took as a slight upon his sister’s honor…Eddard Stark, Brandon’s younger brother and a close friend to Lord Robert, was calmer but no more pleased.

“The Year of the False Spring”, The World of Ice and Fire

But, humiliating Elia is not the same thing as being responsible for her death. The narrative never equates these two things in any way. Elia's death is about Tywin's immoral and blood thirsty political actions. It's about Dorne's desire for justice (or is it vengeance?) which they know they will not get from the Lannister regime. House Lannister's downfall in King's Landing will be brought about by Prince Aegon's rise - Aegon who is proclaiming to be the long lost son of Prince Rhaegar, and who is being supported by House Martell as of now.

We can criticize Rhaegar for some things, but Elia's death is surely not one of them.

#I generally don't like talking about the whole rhaegar-lyanna-elia stuff partly because I don't really care for either of them #but mostly because these topics often devolve into extremes that help absolutely no one #but I just wanted to hop on here and say that blaming rhaegar for elia's death is imo not cannon compliant #the narrative already give us an answer to this - THE LANNISTERS but more specifically TYWIN and GREGOR and AMORY #it's not rhaegar or lyanna or their child Jon to bear any of the blame in this #dorne's decision to join the war against the crown is entirely because it's in opposition to the lannister regime #that's not to say that rhaegar cannot have responsibility for the humiliation of elia - because even grrm says he does #but saying he bears the blame for her murder is just a bit.....😕#also rhaegar is one thing but blaming LYANNA of all people is ummm well #rhaegar targaryen #robert's rebellion #tywin lannister #ser gregor clegane #ser amory lorch #house martell #elia martell #asoiaf #valyrianscrolls #pls forgive any spelling and grammatical mistakes its midnights and I'm tired af thanks #my stuff

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stareyedmoonchildworks · 2 months

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Late Night Ideas: Daminette Soulmate AU II

Disclaimer: this is in no way related to my other soulmate au.

Basically, everyone is given the first initial of their soulmates' name on their wrist at the age of 12, but only upon touching your soulmate do you get to see their full name.

Think about it.

The boys are doing some recon in Paris, especially after seeing a video sent to the JL, which wasn't taken very seriously. (Side eyeing you Booster Gold.)

Anyways, they explore the city during the day, acting like tourist asking locals for their stories, and even getting some background on LB and CN. All the while, they are unknowingly passing Marinette in each place they go to.

It's pure coincidence, really. Like first time was when they pretended to be interested in getting Damian enrolled in Collège Françoise Dupont. Dick got hungry, and Tim wanted coffee, so naturally, they stopped by Marinette's family's bakery. Dick orders as Marinette's leaving, never really making contact with any of them.

Then, as they are taking a tour of the school and asking questions. Marinette is there hanging out with Adrien, who she's cool with by now. They have more of a best friend/sibling dynamic now.

Then tye next is out an about like them questioning the pigeon guy and Marinette had been their for a while now sketching away. The next a the Louvre and she's hanging out with Alix or something. So on and so forth.

You know the always within proximity but never getting the chance to meet kind thing. That is until Marinette trips or something, and her art supplies falls and it's the Wayne boys help her pick them.

Damian is holding out a few pencils for her. She's not really paying attention and embarrassed over the ordeal. She's just graving and going. Just when you think their hands are going to meet and lock eyes; feeling that click sand seeing each other's name slowly reveal itself, it doesn't happen.

She grabs the ends of the pencils and hurriedly shouts a thanks to the boys as she was in a hurry to get somewhere. Nobody thinks much of it.

Then, later that evening, there's an akuma attack. The boys were out prior to doing some discrete patrol hoping to catch a glimpse of the heros and maybe do get their statements only to be caught in the middle of it.

There is some tension between Ladybuy and Rodin, especially when they had to make a strategic retreat together with the rest. Dick was able to have them set it aside for after they defeated the akuma.

Fun times people. Fun times.

The akuma is defeated. Lucky chatm is cast, things are talked over, negotiations are made, and hand shakes are shared.

Now, because of miraculous magic, it kinda buffs the whole dramatic soylmate meeting scene, but it doesn't stop the name from forming.

When they return to their place of living and get out of costume; both Damian and Marinette are very surprised to see each other's name delicately scribed onto their wrist.

That's all I got, but if anyone wants to run with the idea, then be more than welcome to. Just be sure to give credit.

#maribat #dc x miraculous #mlb x batman xover #mlb x dc #maridami #daminette #maribat soulmate au #batboys go to paris #please forgive any spelling or grammar mistakes #it's late and i need to go to bed #that ir i need some caffeine...#i can try both maybe?#late night #late night ideas #late night thoughts

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zaphiyy207 · 7 months

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Race Over The Ocean

Let's settle our score. You and I !

Another hc of mine, though in this it's more like brotherly relationship.

Explanation and rambling below!

Meta Knight knew and acknowledged that Kirby is strong, (stronger than himself which took years and more difficulties to accept that fact) and so he treated him as an equal despite their age difference and personalities. And so, their brotherly bond is formed and it's perfect.

Meta Knight who has a streak of mischevous hidden underneath his serious exterior and Kirby being all sunshine and rainbows but in actuality he's a menace; made the duo quite deadly.

Bandana and Dedede were the ones who had to keep the two in check. God forbids if two of them decided to create chaos which could potentially destroy their home. They've dealt with invaders, they don't need two accidental ones.

Despite their brotherly relationship, it doesn't mean Kirby did not see him as a father figure and vice versa. In fact, Meta Knight is the closest one that he could consider a father in terms of their species. So in some nights where Kirby was haunted by mistakes and faults, he would silently made his way to Meta Knight's quarters for company. Said knight didn't mind it at all (their species are quite social) so he let him be comfortable.

Meta Knight never desired to have children of his own despite being so good in handling them, but seeing Kirby as his son figure (?) made him almost changed his mind. He's still dead set on not having children.. but there's some hesitation.

Bonus:

Dedede: I get how Kirby got injured since he's a bad driver...but why are you soaking wet?

(Kirby smacked a nearby cliff while going hyperspeed to beat Meta Knight. Said knight was hit by very fast Kirby and landed head first into the ocean below)

Kirby: I'm not a bad driver!!

MK: ...

BWD: Kirby... we've been through together a lot by now... You are a bad driver.. (just like Meta Knight)

Kirby: Hey!!

MK: How much do I need to pay you to not tell everyone that?

BWD: Your stash of chocolate!

MK: ....

MK: I hate you

I'm looking at the time and now I have less than 5 hours to get ready for tomorrow's licence test. Insomnia, fail me now.

This is drawn on Little Prince themed paper notes. I don't have much use of it just yet except scrapbooking and this, so-

#meta knight #kirby #bandana waddle dee #king dedede #bandee #metadad #dededad #metabro #metabrother #menace kirby #menace meta knight #they're the dumbasses and they'll do it again for fun #they're actually the ok ok ok ok and la la la la trend #Please forgive me for the camera quality #im running on low sleep and i need to test drive tomorrow ???#kirby right back at ya #hoshi no kirby #kirby headcanons #any spelling mistakes is to be blamed on my sleepiness at 12:22am

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hanatatami · 1 year

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I still can’t get over it... That sprite update is something else.

#forgive the spelling mistakes if any it's 3am #i did two pieces and this comic today my eyes are fried #ozyarash #fate ozymandias #fate arash #fgo #fate grand order #THEY ARE IN LOVE OK #rkgk #comic #fanart #my ships #IF NO ONE IS GOING TO DRAW THEM TOGETHER THEN I WILL

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noodleblade · 5 months

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-inhale- imagine if after the kiss BD actually grew a pair and went to see one of KO’s races but like a self fulfilling prophecy KO has an accident and loses

UMMMMM OUCH?????? :C I uno reverse your sad ask and uhhhh wrote something...nice? Maybe?? The speed in which I wrote this is a bit unbelieable but uhhhh I love them ;--;

It was a bad crash.

Breakdown raced through the stands, going as fast as his treads would take him as he pushed through the other spectators around him. By the time he weaved through the crowds and cleared security (he's not sure how they knew him, but he didn't question it, just happy they let him through even if they did give him distrusting sneers) Knock Out was already being seen by medics. He was conscious but very injured. He won't be racing for a while.

Cloudy optics looked past the medics as they spot that matte blue finish. His servo, shattered and plating ripped off, raised in a weak attempt to beckon Breakdown close. It's not even a question for Breakdown to cross the distance to get as close as possible. He tried not to be in the medics' way, but Knock Out was insistent that Breakdown hold his hand so much. It was more annoying for the medics to deal with Knock Out than having to work around Breakdown, so they let him in with barely a glance.

"Are you okay?" Breakdown asked. He could see the damage and it was not pretty. Ripped and torn plating, crushed legs and punctured tires. His chest was a mess with gaping holes and dents, energon leaking out of his seams.

"I'll live," Knock Out whispered back weakly. His fingers twitched but that was the most his servo could move. "You came."

"I did," Breakdown said, though it was pained. It was his fault. Surely. Knock Out's perfect record ruined. His finish and frame nearly destroyed. Breakdown nearly lost Knock Out because of his selfishness. He shouldn't have tested fate, shouldn't have come, should have stayed in his lane and where he belonged. "I'm so sorry."

Knock Out frowned, though it didn't seem to be from pain. Then again, the medics seemed to have turned off all sensors from below his intake.

"Why are you sorry?" Knock Out asked, his words slow and confused. "You...I wanted to here. I've always wanted you here." A brightness sparked in his optics, breaking through the foggy gaze. "I was surprised you were here. I did a second take and then I..." Knock Out quieted as he looked down as his body. His optic ridges pinched together and all Breakdown wanted to do was smooth them down. "I got distracted. You distracted me." A flush rose up Knock Out's faceplates, embarrassment curling around his field. "I wanted to impress you and wasn't paying attention. Primus, I was trying to show off and- and I crashed." Knock Out winced as he looked away from the medics to peer back up at Breakdown. "Rookie mistake."

Breakdown was...speechless. He couldn't comprehend Knock Out's nonchalance tone at his own grave injuries, let alone process the words that...that...

"Impress me?" Breakdown withered.

Small, cute pout found its way to Knock Out's lips. "Failed that one, didn't I." The words were bitter, self-loathing. "Not only did I lose from a rookie mistake. I humiliated myself in front of my adoring fans and a trashed my finish and now you'll never come to another of my races-"

"Is that what you are thinking?" Breakdown choked out a laugh. He felt out of body, his processor muddled in absolute disbelief and complete and utter adoration at this beautiful, stupid, idiot speedster that he loved. Primus he loves this dumbass. "I love you. Win or lose."

Knock Out blinked at him owlishly, optics wide and clear. "Oh. You do?" A smile wormed its way to his face. "That's good. You shouldn't settle for losers, though, Breakdown. You only deserve the best."

Breakdown struggled to figure out if he should laugh or cry. "You are the best, you-"

"Not to ruin this really cute moment," one of the medics cut in sharply, utterly unamused. "But he needs to be taken to the ER now. You can finish this conversation when he isn't bleeding out and his systems aren't processing three different pain inhibitors and sensor reducers."

"I'm fine," Knock Out whined. His shattered hand could barely hold onto Breakdown so he simply followed along as the medics began to roll the speedster away.

"Can I come with?" Breakdown asked. The medics gave an uncaring shrug which was about as close to a yes as he thinks his luck will allow. He looks down at Knock Out who looks like he's on the verge of sleep. "Do you want me to come with?"

Knock Out snorted, the sounds unattractive in every way possible. "Always."

#uhhhh forgive any mistakes and spelling errors #i wrote this as soon as i came home from work omgggg #i really just wanted to write a summary but by the end it almost feels like its becoming a fic dfkjvndklsfnknfv #kobd #knock out #breakdown #tfp #transformers #anonymous #asks

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spikes-got-anger-issues · 6 months

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Here are more of my notes and personal thoughts on the Commando App because I find it very intriguing and I am insane

(Note: In 2x09 and 3x18 there's a slight font error and the period between "2.1" in the "APP v2.1 BETA" in the corner missing. It doesn't appear until 4x10 when the numbers are spaced out and slightly resized)

So, we see throughout the show in the bottom right corner on the Commando App's engagement screen that Chase's Commando App is the 2.1 Beta version. Kate on the other hand has the 3.1 Beta version of it

Something worth noting is that Chase is the original owner of the Commando App, and up until Kate was introduced, he was the only one to have it and after 4x10 he is back to being the only one to have it

So, why does Chase have the 2.1 Beta version and not the 2.0 Beta version? Even more so, why isn't he even the Beta 0.1-1.9 version of the Commando App if he's the first person to have it installed on his chip?

And on top of that, if what we see of the Commando App in the show is the Beta version, then what was the Alpha version and when did it exist?

The Alpha version had to have come before the Beta version, that's the whole point of the Beta version existing since it's the second phase of an app after Alpha

Hypothetically, the Alpha version was what was originally on Chase's chip before it was implanted into him, or right after it was implanted into him

What I mean by that is when Douglas made their chips he obviously had the Commando App in mind to give to Chase because of his main bionic ability not being an offensive or defensive power and with Chase being physically smaller, but since this was new and experimental technology he had to make the Alpha version first to put onto the chip

I could imagine four potential (and completely hypothetical) things out of this idea:

The Alpha version only existed before the chip was inserted into Chase. Douglas created the app and programmed it into the chip and then did some tests and fixed some bugs on the app before turning it over into the Beta phase and then inserting the chip into Chase

The Alpha version existed on the chip as it was inserted into Chase, and then since the chip was essentially "live" and activated inside of Chase Douglas then observed possible faults and glitches in the program where he fixed it and then progressed it into the Beta phase, left at the 2.1 version, where he probably would have continued to update it further before Chase was taken by Donald

Once Donald took the bionic sibs, he had been updating the Commando App as he was still navigating their bionics and their apps. I don't see this as very likely though considering if he says the Commando App is glitchy then he would have done something to the app to try to get rid of the bugs in the programming

The Alpha version was supposed to go on Adam or Bree's chip, or even all three siblings, but Douglas ultimately decided to give it to Chase considering his size and main bionic ability. This is where the Alpha version turned into the Beta version as it was given to Chase

Circling back to Chase's Commando App being the 2.1 Beta version, the number could also simply mean that Douglas just started off numbering the Beta version at 2.1 since Chase is the original. Why not at least 2.0? Who knows! He also could have just skipped over the Alpha version and started off naming it right at the Beta 2.1 version

We see that Kate's Commando App is 3.1, not 2.2 or even 3.0. Considering the Beta numbering of Kate's Commando App compared to Chase's leads me to believe that there was a 1.1 Beta version at some point or even that the 1.1 could have been the Alpha version

Whether or not the Beta version 1.1 existed is just something to think about, and if it did then I think it's safe to assume that is was on Chase's chip at some point before potentially being upgraded to the 2.1 version

I think if we got to see Bree's Commando App activation screen in 4x10 then it could have potentially given us more information on the numbering system for the app. Bree's Commando App was temporary though, so I wonder if her Beta version would have been 3.2 or if it would have been 4.1 or even just 3.1 like Kate's

Ultimately just comparing the numbering of Chase's and Kate's apps means that the Commando App doesn't seemingly take "baby steps" in being upgraded, like having a Beta 2.1.1 version and whatnot. Maybe even the numbering is based off of the activation trigger for each Commando App. Spike activates when Chase is nervous, scared, or angry (a reminder that he's a form of Chase's fight-or-flight instinct but without the flight) and Spikette activates when Kate sees someone (or even just Chase for some reason?) getting hurt and becomes a rampaging momma bear

We could also throw away most of these ideas for Kate's Commando App and the relation to Chase's considering Krane gave her the app so he could have numbered it 3.1 instead of 2.2 but this is getting ridiculously hypothetical so I'm going to just dive away from this thought

Basically what I'm trying to get at is that Kate's 3.1 version most likely isn't an upgraded version of the Commando App, it's just numbered 3.1 because it's just another version of the app installed into a different person

Lastly, it's a great detail that the Commando App is programmed as a Beta app considering the nature of the app itself. Not only that, but it is quite literally new and experimental technology as it's an app on a chip inserted into bionic human beings!

It's referred to as a glitchy app and it even appears glitchy, which is what a Beta version is of an app/program. The Beta version is meant as like a semi-testing version of the app, a step up from the Alpha version, and has more work to be done before the app/program gets more finalized. It's going to have bugs, it's going to be glitchy, it's going to have plenty of issues but it's also operational and better than the Alpha version. So having the Commando App listed as "Beta" is a perfect and neat detail!

I actually don't think that there's anything wrong with the Commando App at all, or at least not Spike. I think contrary to what the characters say about it, it's not glitchy, at least not Spike. Sure there's maybe just one or two parts I could see as a "glitch" but I also could see it as normal operation. The bionic disruptor enhancing his bionic aggression instead of deactivating the Commando App is super interesting

It certainly doesn't help that Spike's behavior and personality is inconsistent so it's hard to judge this, or the fact that he only appears four times in the entirety of the show. On the other hand I think Spikette is different though and that she might have a few glitches, especially if we consider Krane gave it to her so it might be unstable but honestly who knows. This "glitch" talk is something for me to discuss at another time though.....

This is what we see out of the Commando App. The owner of the program cannot control the engagement or disengagement of the app, nor can they control themselves when the app is engaged. It's also described as a dangerous app due to this, especially since the owner loses control and their rampaging alter ego takes over.

And maybe this was how the Commando App was always meant to be, a defense mechanism that shuts out its owner in order to protect them, or at least that's Spike's purpose and not Spikette's. This would make sense since it's essentially their fight-or-flight system and meant to protect the owner of the app, they're not meant to be the ones in control of their own fight-or-flight system. They're supposed to take their enemy off guard by seemingly fighting a weaker appearing opponent that suddenly turns into a highly aggressive brute that will tear them apart

Or like Chase was wanting to find out in 4x10, maybe the Commando App could become controllable. Could this have been a potential future software update further into the Beta version or even into a more finalized version of the app? Was it obtainable at the versions Chase and Kate had? Was the Commando App meant to be controllable in the first place? Who knows!

So really all of this is just hypothetical. Was there an Alpha version of the Commando App? I think we can assume so, and further more it either existed before it was inserted into Chase or right when it was inserted into Chase before being upgraded. Maybe there wasn't an Alpha version and it started off as the 2.1 Beta version in Chase, but I still believe there was a 1.1 version somewhere, whether it was an Alpha or Beta. Maybe the Commando App was never meant to be finalized and was always meant to stay as a Beta version

Maybe the Alpha version of the Commando App were the friends we made along the way

No matter what, it's a great concept that I wish was utilized more in the show. I also wish we were given more general information about it. It had more potential, especially Spike (*cough cough* S4 Spike was disappointing though *cough cough*) to be developed further. I wish we heard more about Chase's thoughts on having the Commando App and practically being deemed weak at birth to have this monstrous alter ego inserted into him that he didn't ask for

Ultimately, I just think it's neat!

#I could probably add more but I'm really tired and my brain is fried trying to think about this because of the seemingly endless-#hypotheticals and potential loops surrounding the Commando App. It's still really fun to think about though #anyone is welcome to share their thoughts! Also forgive me for any spelling or grammar mistakes I finished this at 5:40 am #and this folks is also why 80% of my current fanfic writing has to do with Spike #disney lab rats #lab rats #lab rats bionic island #chase davenport #spike davenport #lab rats spike

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Hello, fellow dreamers! Let me introduce you to SandmanVerse’s first event: The Sandman Appreciation Week!

WHAT IS IT?

This is a weeklong event dedicated to showing our love & appreciation of all things The Sandman related.

WHAT ARE THE RULES?

As mentioned when originally presenting the idea for this event, this Appreciation Week will have only one major rule: due to their sheer popularity, Morpheus & Hob Gadling, as well as the dreamling dynamic, are not allowed to be part of it, with the exception of the character dynamics prompts, in which both characters are allowed, but not with each other.

The purpose of this is not to exclude these characters, at least not out of malice, but to instead take the opportunity to shine a light on other, often underappreciated, characters & character dynamics.

WHAT CAN I POST?

You are welcome to post any gif sets, graphic edits, picspams, video edits, fan art & other things of your own creation, related to the comics, Netflix series or audiobooks.

WHEN WILL THE APPRECIATION WEEK BE HELD?

This event will span the week of November 21 - 27.

ARE THERE ANY DAILY PROMPTS & AM I OBLIGATED TO FOLLOW THEM?

These are the suggested prompts for each day of the event:

- The Endless: dedicated to one or more of the Endless, except Morpheus (Daniel Hall is allowed); - The Dreaming: dedicated to the one or more of the inhabitants of the Dreaming; - The Waking World: dedicated to the one or more of the inhabitants of the Waking World; - Other Realms: dedicated to other realms & their inhabitants; - Character Dynamics: Romance; - Character Dynamics: Platonic or Familial; - Character Dynamics: Antagonistic or Other.

You are free to replace any of these prompts with ideas of your own, they are merely meant to act as a guideline.

TAGS TO USE:

For this event we will be tracking the tag #thesandmanaw22. We also always track #sandmanverse for any other content you may wish us to see & reblog.

OTHER QUESTIONS?

If there is anything else you’d like to clarify or have a question about, you are welcome to send us a message!

I’d like to ask you to please consider reblogging this post to help it reach a larger audience!

Thank you for your time & I’m looking forward to seeing all your amazing creations soon!

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exosongtournament · 2 months

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And that was the end of round 2!

Our WINNERS are:

Tender Love Oasis The First Snow Tempo Artificial Love Love Me Right Let Me In Gravity Lotto Lucky One Growl Universe What is Love Obsession What If.. Heart Attack Mama Overdose El Dorado Monster Baby, Don’t Cry Electric Kiss Been Through Call me Baby Trouble Sweet Lies Black Pearl The Eve Wolf Going Crazy Playboy

The LOSERS are:

Twenty Four Sign She’s Dreaming Transformer History Coming Over Fall Hear Me Out Ko Ko Bop Miracles in December My Turn to Cry XOXO Regret It Ya Ya Ya Sing For You Jekyll Ooh La La La Bad Dream Forever Boomerang Don’t fight the feeling TACTIX Lovin’ You Mo’ Damage Dancing King Thunder For Life Private Party Paradise Cloud 9 Lightsaber

Some stats:

Our eliminated albums are:

For Life

Albums still in the running:

Exist, Countdown, Miracles in December and Overdose are barely scraping by with 1 entry each!

Mama, Obsession and the Universe with 2 entries!

The War and Don't Mess Up My Tempo with 3 entries!

Ex'act with 4 entries!

XOXO with 5 entries!

And in the lead is Exodus with an impressive 6 entries!

The top three biggest winners:

3rd place goes to Electric Kiss against Tactix with 83.1 % of the votes!

2nd place goes to Been Through against Lovin' You Mo' with 85.7% of the votes!

And our number 1 iiiis *drumroll*

Love Me Right against Coming Over with an impressing 88.2% of the votes!!

Our closest races were:

In 3rd place we have Oasis just barely winning over Sign with 53.1% of the votes!

In 2nd place we have Sweet Lies crawling over the finish line against Thunder with a measly 52.6% of the votes!

and our SMALLEST winner iiiis *drumroll*

The one and only, memeable, ever-loathed and loved WOLF with ONLY 51.5% of the votes against Paradise!

Im setting up the next queue now!

#forgive any spelling mistaks im tipsy as hell #had a limoncello spritz or two #exo song tournament

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sunshine-in-a-bottle · 10 months

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I think a lot of what people miss about Rhea's character when trying to talk about how she handled 'literally everything' is what exactly Sothis' war with the Angarthans and later The Red Canyon meant, on a cultural scale.

Because the loss of the Nabateans is a genocide. She has not just lost siblings, nieces, nephews, teachers and family. She has lost her entire culture.

How many recipes have been lost, plant knowledge, rituals and oral stories. They must have had holidays, did they have another language? Dialects? Ways of life. She is one of the last remaining people who had any knowledge or understanding of their culture. Out of the other four, two have given up, the third, Seteth, wasn't there and might not have even been living there, and the fourth is Seteth's daughter who was with him.

Everything about Seiros from the moment her vengeance is over is now about the preservation of her culture and her family's memory. And every time Rhea expresses fear or rage, it is not solely for herself, but at things that get in the way of these two things.

Because the church is not entirely a church. It is a memorial to what happened.

When people revere things like crests and the goddess, they are honoring her people. The sacred weapons are the bones of her family, used to enforce the church, and therefore enforce the safety of their memory.

It's why a lot of Rhea's kindness VS her upholding a shitty system might not make a lot of sense at first. Why is someone who is actively sheltering the poor, personally picking out herbs that will ease her students suffering, and expresses such genuine desire to help, also allowing such systemic disparity?

Because she doesn't see the crest nobility system in terms of human politics. She sees it as the blood of her family and the magic of her people being upheld as something important; no individual has to die and be forgotten if their blood is treated as sacred.

Rhea genuinely loves the people around her and wants what's best for them.

Rhea will always put the preservation of her culture and her family above all else.

These two things can coexist.

(Admittedly, while I think her choosing to burn down the city in CF is in character with this context, I also fully believe they did that just to make killing her seem Totally Okay and that you were Absolutely Right to be a complete american and take over other people's countries because You Definitely Know Better Than Them.)

But yeah, if Rhea's ultimate goal is to preserve her family's memory at any cost, then her extreme reaction in CF becomes clear: you have stolen the bodies of her family, destroyed the church and all the memorials used to honor them. You have personally taken the bones of her mother and are siding with the people responsible for her death.

You are also the child of Sitri, another person who she considered so deeply to be part of her family that she's preserved her body, just as she has with the rest of them. You have what is both Sothis' heart and Sitri's heart.

Siding with Edelgard isn't a slap in the face, it's an extreme and very personal gutting. You are betraying everything she has dedicated her whole life for. By the time she has made the decision to burn down the city, every other ideal or personal preference is no longer allowed to matter. She is no longer Rhea, allowed to be her own person in small ways, she is Seiros, an avatar of her people seeking Vengeance.

I also brought up Sothis' war with the Angarthans because while we don't know if Rhea existed during this time period, we do know that she aware of what happened: the Angarthans had very advanced technology, and they used this technology to try to murder the shit out of Sothis.

Notably, Rhea has also disallowed a number of technology advancements to happen.

It isn't a hard leap to guess that she's terrified of this happening again. If humanity creates technology that can cause damage beyond what she's capable of dealing with, there's no Sothis who can stop them. There's no second chances this time.

(While I would definitely only call this a theory, you could make the argument that Rhea's plan was to only prevent advancement until she was able to revive Sothis. Sothis would be able to fix things if humanity went to nuclear war, and it's very likely that Rhea is in expectation that her mother would have always taken back control. Rhea must continue to perservere, telling herself she will finally rest when it's all over.)

It's important to say that this doesn't excuse the crest system or the many problems within the church system. While this was ultimately Rhea's way of honoring her family, it's obviously a very flawed approach that harms more than it helps, and is filled with so many lies that it obscures the reality of the tragedy, allowing the chance for it to be repeated out of ignorance.

(The Tragedy of Duscur could also be considered a genocide. While it's not possible to say for sure, if the people of Fargeus had grown up learning the true story of the Red Canyon and had been fully educated on what the destruction of an entire culture means, would they have committed such atrocious actions? This is definitely just spit balling. But growing up I had been told again and again that it was important to know your history to prevent repeating it, and I can't help but think of this as an example.)

When I talk about her possible reasoning for choosing to go about it this way, it is never to say it's an excuse, but to make it understandable for her character and what she was experiencing at that time.

Very notably, when Seiros had survived the massacre, we don't have an exact timeline of what happened from there. We know of things that happened, we know Wilhelm "saved her" and kept her from hating humanity for what some of its people did to hers. We know that she raised an army, but we don't know how much of that army was raised before the idea was spread that Seiros had a vision of the goddess and such. We don't even know if Seiros herself had meant it to become so religiously oriented and more fantastical in nature in the beginning. Saying she was "sent by the goddess" could be a personal metaphor for her responsibility to enact vengeance on behalf of her people and mother. We don't know how much she told Wilhelm, or how much the soldiers around her inferred from her words.

What we do know is that she just had her home invaded and the bones of her people made into weapons, and that her own life and the life of the four remaining Nabetaens are at risk of this happening to them if the people around her find out that's something that's possible. We know that she didn't trust people for a long time. It makes sense to lie about what the crest weapons are at the time to protect her life. It makes sense that, in a world where she believes she can bring her mother back, that she let people worship Sothis as the goddess she is after the horrible disrespect that was enacted upon desecrating her corpse. It makes sense that she would allow the lie to continue and let the truth be concealed after finally getting the bones of her people back, because the fight may be over, but the risk isn't, and it's still so soon after it happened. Flayn is in a coma and therefore also extremely vulnerable to being killed for her crest and bones. We don't know when the two other remaining Nabetaens left, but Seteth had to care for his daughter. Seiros was very likely alone, a traumatized woman who has just finished her one and only goal and has no one to confide in, except maybe Wilhelm.

So what do you tell the thousands of people who have sworn to follow you? What do you do with the remains of your people now that you have saved them?

She could have told them everything. She could have. She didn't. We don't know why she didn't, but after what happened, she had plenty of reason to be afraid to.

At the end of the day, FE3H is about how people react to tragedy, how people grieve, and the decisions that come from that grief. The three lords of the game are each reacting to their own personal tragedies, of murder and torture and of isolation from the people around them. They are grieving themselves, and who they could have been, and Rhea isn't any different.

(Admittedly this makes me love the parallels between Rhea and Edelgard all the more. They lost their families and proceed to make their entire life about their families.

Because remember: Edelgard did not survive out of merit. She didn't survive because she was stronger or smarter or better than her siblings. She survived because of her crest; a luck of the draw.

She is preserving their memory the only way she knows how: by creating a world where they could have survived. These policies are in their honor.)

#fire emblem three houses #fire emblem #Rhea #meta #seiros #church of seiros #at the end of the day i think Rhea went 'these things are the most important things'#and since the people didnt have any context as to why #how was this supposed to end in any way but tragedy #also please forgive spelling mistakes I wrote this in a rush of thought

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sickiebabytae · 1 year

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If your requests are still open and if you have time, can I request a scenerio where a member eats something way too late at night (like ramen or something) and wakes up in the morning really nauseous? My brain is screaming either Jungkook or Namjoon but I’ll leave the sickie up to you! ❤️ thanks in advance!! I love your writing

thank you so much for the request, anon!! I'm so so sorry it's taken me literally forever to get to this, and that I kind of derailed a bit when it came to the original plot 😭😭 I hope this is still to your liking!

sickie: jungkook

caretaker: namjoon

word count: 2125

jungkook knows this will be a bad idea the moment he sets out the (six) ramen cups neatly on the table, but rational thinking isn't really in his ballpark right now. he's been feeling stressed out from their tour lately, and feels as if he hasn't been performing as well as he should be, so he thinks he needs a good stress-eating session to get his mind off of things.

but as jungkook takes a step back and looks at the ramen cups laid out, he can't help but laugh to himself. "this is so stupid." he murmurs, pulling out his phone. this is something he thinks army might enjoy. plus, he's been trying to be more active on Twitter recently. he captions the photo with something funny and his hashtag before setting his phone down and beginning.

just as he finishes getting through the first cup and a half, lips already zinging with spice, he feels his phone vibrate against the table. he picks it up and sees it's a message from namjoon.

rapmon hyung: jungkook what the hell are you doing

rapmon hyung: I saw your post -_-

jungkook feels a sheepish smile spread across his face.

jungkook: … I'm eating my emotions

jungkook: :D

rapmon hyung: good god jungkook

rapmon hyung: this screams bad idea, you know

rapmon hyung: your stomach is going to hate you tomorrow :/

jungkook: ill be fine hyung dw

jungkook: we've got a off day tomorrow anyways, it'll be fine

rapmon hyung: you know jimin wants to go sightseeing tomorrow

jungkook: yeah, I know, I'll be okay for it :)

jungkook: please don't worry hyung, it cant turn out THAT bad

jungkook can practically hear namjoon sighing from his hotel room a few doors down

rapmon hyung: okay fine

rapmon hyung: I trust you

rapmon hyung: but don't say i didn't warn you

jungkook: ay ay captain

with that, jungkook returns to his food.

this was definitely a bad idea, jungkook thinks to himself when he's all done. well, mostly done. by the last two he couldn't bring himself to finish off the soup at the bottom. his stomach is already bloated and full beyond belief.

he decides to make light of the situation and posts an update to twitter with one photo of the (nearly) empty ramen cups and one selfie of him looking, very rightly, in pain. his lips feel swollen and his nose won't stop running and itching from the spice, eyes watery too. he throws all the cups away and shuffles into the bathroom, washing his face down and stifling a burp into his hand. he shudders and sighs. "you idiot, jungkook," the singer whispers to himself, voice thick. he pushes himself back out to his room and gets into bed. maybe lying down will help him digest, he thinks, all lessons he's ever learned in his entire life failing to come to him as his eyes start drooping closed. he feels like he's going to be sick already and he doesn't like it. maybe he'll just… rest his eyes for a moment. let the world fall silent around him. yeah, yeah that's what he'll do.

against his will, jungkook begins to fall asleep, and he drifts off before he's even able to stop himself.

jungkook wakes up in the middle of the night, sweaty and stomach cramping. he winces and sits up instantly. "oh god- fuck-" he swings his legs over the side of the bed, but that alone forces stomach acid up that burns his throat as he burps. he places a hand over his mouth and cringes, swallowing. "shit-" he freezes in place with no idea what to do. how did this happen? he feels so much worse than when he did when he-

he fell asleep. a groan leaves his lips. he just had to have fallen asleep. his stomach is killing him, bubbling and churning. he thinks he's going to throw up.

moving slowly, he shuffles to the table and grabs his phone. more stomach acid burns up his throat, swallowing again. he goes to text namjoon since he seemed to be the only one who was caught up with his shenanigans the night before and sees that he missed a message right before he fell asleep.

rapmon hyung: jungkook you look terrible-

rapmon hyung: did you really eat all of that??

jungkook sighs before reluctantly sending a text of his own, deciding to ignore namjoon's. he only hopes that namjoon is either still awake or won't wake up from the message notification. he just wants someone to know what's happening

jungkook: I feel sick

jungkook: really sick

jungkook: I'm really sorry :(

jungkook shuffles back to bed and sits down, not wanting to lay back in case it makes whatever acid reflux is going on worse. he jolts with a hiccup and grimaces, untucking his shirt from the jeans he'd forgotten to change out of that keep digging into his stomach. he slips his hand in between the hemline and his abdomen to give it some leeway, sighing when it provides the slightest bit of relief. he knows he should get up and change, but he doesn't want to risk it. he feels like the tiniest movement will set his stomach off.

his phone vibrates in his other hand to jungkook's surprise and he lifts it to look at the screen to see namjoon having responded to his message.

rapmon hyung: god kid I told u

rapmon hyung: hold on

rapmon hyung: I'm coming over

jungkook's eyes widen, mortified already. namjoon cant come, he knows he looks a mess.

jungkook: no no no-

jungkook: hyung it's fine really

jungkook: I just felt like someone should know

jungkook: hyung-

as jungkook types out his next text, he hears knocking at the door followed by a hushed, "jungkook? are you in there?"

jungkook suppresses a groan and slowly pushes himself to stand, stifling a low whimper when his stomach churns in protest. he makes his way to the door, unable to straighten properly from just how full and in pain he is, and opens it with cheeks flushed with both shame and the beginnings of what might be a fever. jungkook doesn't know at this point. "hey, hyung." he murmurs. he can't bring himself to meet namjoon's eyes.

he hears the leader sigh and make his way in, warm hands coming to rest by jungkook's sides. "you idiot, come on. let's go back to bed. I'll grab you some clothes."

jungkook manages a few short nods, trudging his way back to bed and laying down in a curled up position, fighting back a grimace and laying his hand back over his stomach. he can vaguely make out namjoon shuffling around the room, grumbling under his breath. probably something to do with jungkook's clothing organization. or lack thereof; jungkook has always had a bit of an unorthodox way of storing his clothes while on tour. it's just how his brain works, okay?

still keeping his gaze averted, jungkook feels the bed dip next to him. he allows himself the smallest of glances and notices the clothes on namjoon's lap. jungkook can't help but smile; those are some of his favorite pyjamas to wear on hard days. he didn't know that namjoon had picked up on it.

"arms up." namjoon orders gently. jungkook reluctantly complies. he can't help but blush when namjoon pulls his soiled, sweaty shirt off, feeling embarrassed that namjoon has to deal with this. to top it off, jungkook shivers when the air conditioning hitting him, realizing belatedly that his bloated stomach is now on display and painfully obvious. jungkook finds himself wrapping his arms around it as quickly as possible and curling in on himself.

namjoon sighs. "jungkook-ah, look at me please."

jungkook shakes his head stubbornly. but before he knows it, namjoon's hand comes up to his cheek and tilts his head up, their eyes meeting. jungkook finally clocks just how welled up with tears his are, and he can see it when namjoon clocks it, too. "jungkook, are you crying??"

at that, jungkook feels his bottom lip quiver. a sob bubbles up out of him, unexpectedly. "fuck, I'm sorry-" he tries to look away again, but namjoon doesn't let up.

"hey hey, no, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make it sound like such a big deal I just-" namjoon sighs again. "you're feeling really sick, huh?"

jungkook manages a pathetic nod. another sob.

namjoon gives a nod back. "okay, that's okay." he says; it sounds like he's talking more to himself than jungkook, but the maknae is too caught up in his self pity to notice it all that much. "we can get through this, not the first time one of us has gotten knocked down."

"but… the sightseeing… the others-"

"will understand if you can't make it tomorrow." namjoon promises with a gentle smile. "now let's finish getting you changed so you don't get more sick from the cold hitting you."

it's been an hour and jungkook has yet to fall asleep. namjoon lays next to him, having already drifted off a while ago, snoring away without a care in the world. jungkook is extremely jealous. his stomach is still gurgling and churning and it doesn't seem to want to provide him with any relief any time soon.

slowly, carefully, jungkook pushes himself up into a sitting position, afraid that he might choke on the productive burps that keep crawling up his throat. he worries at his fingers. his breathing feels short and heavy and jungkook swears under his breath. he hates this. he hates being sick. arguably more than anything in the world. he hates feeling so gross and out of control and-

great, he's crying again. jungkook shoves his head into his hands and tries not to make too much sound. this is all his fault, and he knows it, and that makes the whole situation so much worse somehow; this disaster is a product of his own making.

jungkook's head continues to swim and swirl with thoughts, and before he knows it, something heavy rushes up his throat. his mouth waters dangerously, a sour feeling coating the back of his tongue and weighing it down. he's definitely going to throw up. he feels it coming on, and fast.

throwing the sheets off himself as quickly as he can, jungkook hurries to the bathroom and shuts the door behind him, hand clamped over his mouth. he crouches in front of the toilet with a few heavy pants, white-knuckling the sides of the bowl. the first wave of vomit comes out of him with a guttural gag before jungkook can even fully process that it's happened. and then another wave comes out. and then another. and then he's rolling; more specifically, his stomach is rolling. agonizingly so.

jungkook tries his hardest to be quiet. he really, really does. but it's difficult to do so when each round of puke rips his breath from his chest and burns the way up his throat, eliciting involuntarily whimpers and groans and pants.

he feels a warm hand on his back before he registers the fact that someone has joined him in the bathroom; namjoon. jungkook can't help but give a choked sob. "i-i'm sorry, I didn't mean to wake you, I-"

"shh," namjoon hushes. "it's okay. just get everything up, it'll help you feel better."

namjoon's calm, deep voice helps some of the tension leave jungkook's muscles, but they quickly seize up again when he has to throw up once more.

after another five minutes or so go by, the last few filled with nothing but weak, unproductive gags and pants as jungkook tries to regain his breath, namjoon decides to make the executive decision that jungkook is done. the leader reaches over to flush the toilet and helps jungkook to his feet. "come on, let's wash out your mouth and go to bed."

jungkook gives a weak moan but lets himself be dragged to the sink, pliable. now that his stomach is left with nothing more than a dull ache, and waves of relief continually washing over him from the nausea finally being gone, jungkook is tired. so, so tired. he barely feels it as namjoon guides him through washing out his mouth and leading him back to bed, helping jungkook sit on the edge as namjoon shuffles off to grab a new shirt, jungkook having soiled the one he'd changed into from sweat.

the boy is practically already out cold by the time he's been changed and tucked in. the last thing he registers is a gentle touch brushing back his hair and the familiar voice of his leader whispering for him to "sleep well, jungkookie."

#hello..?#😀😀😀#im here!#its been so long im SO sorry #please forgive me 😞😞#but im back!! (hopefully)#i really want to try to get more fics out after this because i really do miss writing #until then tho #emeto tw #emeto #sick!jungkook #caretaker!namjoon #(ive also never really written joon before so this was fun for me)#okay bye! 💗#i also havent completely proof read this so please excuse any grammar or spelling mistakes 🙏

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