#fucking banana fish

[skrunksthatwunk]

thinking about how eiji's a pole vaulter and how ash talks about eiji "flying" and how eiji's associated with bird imagery and how eiji's free (unlike ash) and how eiji comes in on a plane and leaves on a plane and how ash cannot fly, ash cannot be free, how nyc is ash's prison, and how ash is the leopard who dies climbing the mountain, unable to live at such elevation, how he was trying to reach the sky and be free but was always stuck to the earth, how he chose to die instead of climbing back down, how he chose to die where he could see the sky and hope and freedom almost like a bird with eiji's letter right in front of him rather than letting everything go wrong and ruin it once again, how eiji's a failed pole vaulter anyway, how a bad fall ruined his career and grounded him (physically and emotionally), how it took flying to america and meeting ash and needing to save him and skip for him to try flying again, how he landed hard and harsh and still the thought of that escape compelled ash to protect eiji at all costs because if he could fly that means something to him, even if he doesn't think he can fly, how eiji is the manifestation of his hope and how when he breaks and asks eiji to stay with him a while he folds himself over his legs and weighs him down and traps him and grounds him, how ash fights like hell to keep eiji alive not because he thinks he can be like him (hopeful, flying, innocent), but because he makes him forget the gravity of his situation, and so he can see eiji fly again. how he wants to see him escape. how eiji is a bird and ash is a wildcat and how ash never once saw eiji as prey. how eiji never saw ash as a predator. how it is eiji's naivete that first endears ash to him, how it is his freedom and flight and removal from darkness and his ability to leave that darkness that really roots eiji in ash's blood as something essential to him keeping on living in this hell of nyc. how it is that distance from the violence and that hope for the future that ash chooses to surround himself in as he dies. how ash dies in a dream because he feels more than anything that he can't fly like eiji, that he can never leave. how his violence is a part of him and will be forever, how it weighs him down. how he wants to enjoy the view from the mountainside rather than looking up from the ground below. as if they can both fly. as if he is with him up there and not grounded. eye-to-eye with what he can't have, seeing eiji's homeland: the sky. how he dies trying to reach the top because he couldn't take retreating and trying again. how ash, tired and tired and tired and convinced it will go on forever if he crawls back down the mountain, chooses to close his life deluged in eiji, in eiji's insistence that they can fly together, in eiji's hope for him and for them, in eiji's beautiful dream. how ash dies without trying to realize that dream. how ash, in dying, destroys it.

#banana fish spoilers #I'M HAVING A FUCKING MOMENT #mutual reblogged exactly one (1) piece of ash fanart and sent me on A Multiple Hour Long Thing and now im rewatching it lol #yes i am only on episode 2 yes i am still going to write big long analysis posts ANYWAY #whatever hope this makes sense. anyway #banana fish #okumura eiji #ash lynx #asheiji #hhhhh i can't believe i've only watched this twice in like what 5.5 years?? sheesh #anywayyyyyyy i care about them a lot ok. god #and yes i DO kinda have beef with the decision to kill ash off at the end but it really does say so much About his character #that he chose to die in the way that he did even though he's been throwing his life away since episode 1 #dying in peace in comfort in solitude rather than in some chaotic battlefield.... ough...... in the peace eiji alone could give him..... #anywayss i relate to ash a little more than i should so. this one's for us cool guy bottoms up #edit i uh.... i forgot it was a leopard.... in the story..... but whatever it doesn't really affect the symbolic meaning it's just embarras #ing that i forgot >;/

[ultimate-fucked-up-ship-tourney]

Vegas Theerapanyakul:

Ash Lynx:

#polls #most attractive fucked up character #most attractive fucked up character tournament #vegas theerapanyakul #kinnporsche #ash lynx #banana fish

[bananafishdepression]

Sometimes I see people complaining about Ash and Eiji, saying how they are the definition of queerbait just because they don't do what you would normally expect a mlm couple to do

The thing about mlm ships is that they're too sexualised

You usually know the endgame when you see two boys having unexplainable sexual tension and it doesn't even take long to get them there, usualy by third chapter

Now, there are some good anime that potray healthy and normal mlm relationships, but people now mostly just read BL manhwa where relationships are mostly toxic or done for fanservice

And then fans like that decide to watch Banana Fish because someone told them they have a cute relationship (they usually ignore TWs but whatever) and decide to shit over them because they didn't even have a proper kiss like???

Do they need to fuck on screen to prove their love

Sometimes we forget that most of BL boys are young and sure, boys IRL do think about sex a lot but they also have feelings and want to love which most media doesn't show

Ash had trauma that could have been healed (maybe not comepletely, but enough to at least try and live a normal life) if he decided to live, but he didn't, and we can't just know what he would've done with Eiji if he went to Japan

Eiji is sweet and shy, we don't see much from his perspective, and we also don't really know much about him and why he was interested in Ash from the very beginning, you could describe it him being mysterious or it's just author's laziness lol (motives might be better explained in the manga where Eiji is a little more realistic to real boys)

And then you see those two just enjoying each other's presence and say YEAH THATS QUEERBAIT

???

When did it become unusual for two people to just enjoy having each other, it's not like you and your partner have this akward sexual tension moment every single second of your time lmao.

#idk what this is #or how to explain it #i just had to let it out #the point is #you dont have to fuck your bf to date him #or kiss him #you can date and thats just literally it #ash and eiji never dated because ash didnt live enough for that to happen #but you know they wouldve #and their relationship wouldve been so beautiful and they would care for each other sm #but ash is dead so none of that :( #banana fish #asheiji #ash lynx #eiji okumura #ash x eiji #gay #lgbt #banana fish the stage #bananafish #anime #manga #bfish #eislan

[hysokaz]

illumi is a cis man out of convenience. he does not care enough to think about it. gittarackur is the most genderfuck thing ever tho yas pinhead slay

#illumi zoldyck #illumi is transmasc but amab hes just like. transneutral transmasc . agender masc spectrum #(i know him personally) #hey...GITTARACKUR IS FUCKING DRAG!!!!! DRAG THING!!!!!! YASSSS SLAY #hxh #OSSRY #i miss hxh sometimes #maybe i shall rewatch it #sometime.. #im watching banana fish rn with my bf . we're fishing. and i want to finish one anime for once in my life #does anybody know if the pain ever ends in banana fish. probably not right. Shorter save me

[qiuweyballs]

banana fish hurts me and i love it so so so much ESPECIALLY THE TRACKS because theyre composed in ash's perspective??? you can see how happy and upbeat he is with eiji like its literally them whistling down a street holding hands

and then theres dino's. i feel genuine dread disgust and hatred whenever that comes on in my shuffled spotify (fuck that btw can i just listen to my shit normally????)

in my mind they are together alive happy they own a cute lil cafe in japan and i am not delusional at all

#banana fish #ash lynx #eiji okumura #asheiji #im insane #im not fucking okay #im out of my mind #I CANT #I CANFBREATHE #chewy thinks ♪

[iocity]

Romeo and Juliet this Romeo and Juliet that WHAT ABOUT ASH AND EIJI???

#every four months i remember i watched banana fish and have a mental fucking breakdown #this show #broke me #like shattered me #and left me lying there in pieces #absolutely blown away #i cannot #ever #lay eyes on that fucking show #again #i will tho LMAOOO #banana fish #ash lynx #eiji okumura

[twinksintrees]

he’s so fucking little

#i feel sick thinking about him #god he’s so fucking small #ash lynx #banana fish

[motorcycleboy9]

I hope that in the other universe we're not a blond&black hair duo in the US during 80's in which one desperately wants to protect the other hates the social distributions and wishes to escape the world of cruelty and live as plain normal people

#sorry for the weird wording idrk #i have so many jally/asheiji parallels in my head that's lowkey crazy #THEY HAVE SOO MANY SIMILARITIES LIKE??? #just fucking think of this for a sec. #none of them never finding their piece being together #akimi yoshida and se hinton would easily get along except yoshida isn't actually homophobic and racist and i love her for that #did they inspire each other's work or something #BY THE WAY I DO KNOW THE OUTSIDERS DID NOT TAKE PLACE IN THE 80'S BUT BANANA FISH DID..AND THE OUTSIDERS MOVIE CAME OUT IN 83 JUST IGNORE I #wild and blond new yorkers #ash lynx if he ran off to tulsa oklahoma #the outsiders #dallas winston #johnny cade #jally #ash lynx #eiji okumura #asheiji #banana fish #nickyapping

[pinktoonie]

Of course his eyes are on Kazuki, watching his reaction to Miri with her mom, reading him like an open book as usual. He hates seeing Kazuki distraught and he knows it's killing him. But Rei stays quiet.

However, this seems like a moment where Kazuki is saying something on top of the ferris wheel, that gets quite a reaction from Rei. He's probably resigning to the idea that they need to let Miri go (which btw fuuuuck that and the mom) despite how much it'll hurt. I'd think it was some sort of admission (cuz ferris wheel heh romantic), but Kazuki is glum af and Rei reacts kind of angrily (determined?) in addition to shock to whatever he says. Idk, but

Rei isn't going to let this family go without a fight. He has something worth protecting.

#buddy daddies #Suwa rei #kurusu kazuki #unasaka miri #Don't you dare pull a banana fish on me #Pull a yuri on ice instead #This show is about change and moving forward so why the fuck would it end with all of them in the same place they were at the beginning #And don't give me shit about oh well even if they lose Miri they have changed for the better as people #You're going to tell me kazuki wouldn't totally self destruct because the fact that he thinks he doesn't deserve to be happy is reaffirmed? #You're going to tell me Rei wouldn't regress mid change after losing his reason for doing so? #Like rei wouldn't crawl back into the life he knows and go back to not thinking #Like kazuki wouldn't get into a street fight he just couldn't handle

[ghost-proof]

(reference)

#banana fish #eiji okumura #my art #yet another outfit ash technically didn't see #he is the best boi #fuck em up eiji

[m-kyunie]

the "First Womb" of the Thirds

#dgm #d.gray-man #alma karma #i like that the seals prevent them from healing so there's scars #gonna be so honst i was PMSing so bad the rage within me was smtg Great & Wretched. who better funnel that wrath into than Alma #GOD PLS DO ME A FAVOUR///listen to Sins Fate - Banana Fish soundtrack n think of them #kept the hair blk bc I wasnt fucking w the white #panel insp when isnt it

[the-last-hipopotamovolador]

Of course that the queer community needs more healthy and happy rep, its awful that the only rep we get in most media are characters that have 0 depth whose only purpose is to show the struggle of being queer in the society or the struggle of "coming out" or when we get actual good characters who just want to be free and happy but are always treated like shit by other characters and/or end up getting killed. We NEED to se ourselves (and not just the cis mlm) represented in a way that shows that not everything in our lives is suffering and death and that you can live a healthy and happy live being a queer person, and that not everything in our lives is centered around the fact that we are queer.

ALL THAT BEING SAID

ajdjwjwkwkekksk tragic apocaliptic queer couple who can never get to be happy together!!!! sad queer characters who feel totally alone in this shitty world !!!, queer characters that have very unhealty habits and are morally questionable!!!!, messy queer characters who have troubled lives and dont see (or doesnt want) a way out!!!, queer characters that embrase being "not normal" and are purposely chaotic, doing ilegal or "disgusting" stuff!! queer characters who are furious, crazy, queer characters that belive in strange theories or fuck monsters whatever.

Thats the queer tropes that i feel the most, the stories that stick to me for the rest of my life. Even if i have never done anything ilegal in my life, and cant relate to lots of the scenarios they show in these types of tropes, is when i feel the most understood in media, you feel me?

#mio #wwdits #what we do in the shadows #devilman crybaby #madoka magica #puella magi madoka magica #nowhere #gregg araki #totally fucked up #paradise kiss #heavenly creatures #dark habits #pedro almodóvar #my own private idaho #banana fish #the dreamers 2003 #the rocky horror picture show #no.6 anime #queer rep #queer representation #lgbtq+ #lgbtq representation #queer movies #queer shows #lgbtq+ movies #queer rage #trans #gay #lesbian #nonbinary

[avgeriss]

BANANA FISH ENDING VILE

#VILE VILE VILE LITERALLY WDYM ash was just about to finslly be free bro he was gonna be happy WITH EIJI #who are the writers bc i am about to throw handdddddds dude im going buck wilde im RAHHHH RAHRAA eating concrete rn #banana fish #me talkin' #there was like 3 minutes left and i foolishly thought it would all be well #JOKES ON ME APPARENTLY FUCK OFFFFFFF

[catboylister]

@ osemanverse artists can one of you PLEASE draw lister bird in one of shorter wongs silly shirts. i propose these two since their my favourites i cant pick between hes so fucking silly like omg.

#lister would fucking love banana fish guys #rowan and jimmy are wondering why he looks so distraught #and turns out he watched the whole anime in one day and hes adamant recovering from ash's death is impossible #ash and lister both got stabbed in the same place btw !! twins !! #lister bird #iwbft #i was born for this #osemanverse #alice oseman #banana fish

[bananafishdepression]

Every morning I wake up & think about Eiji"s life before the event of Banana Fish

#i wish we got more #all we know is that his dad is in the hospital #and probably has mommy issues #and theres his sister #NOTHING FUCKING ELSE #banana fish #asheiji #ash lynx #eiji okumura #ash x eiji #gay #lgbt #banana fish the stage #bananafish #anime #bfish #eislan

[bean-writes]

Me *writing the next chapter of my fanfic, thinking of the trauma I am about to put my readers through*

#fanfic #fan fiction #ao3 #archive of our own #banana fish #Hurt/Comfort (hold the Comfort) #angst #gay as fuck #yaoi bl #writers on tumblr #writer things #writblr #readers #readers of tumblr #fanfic readers