#gay love does exist

[hayweerc]

"Bound by Chaos" AU. Chapter 9 Spoilers ⚠️📖

Espio reveals himself to the main three.

This is his first official full appearance in the fanfic for Bound by Chaos. Silver and Espio are in a relationship- they parted ways in the past and are finally reunited.

In my universe, a harpy song can only affect those who are pure Mobian. Any other race or half race won't be affected by their spells.

I turned Wave into the main harpy that was in this chapter.

#sonic au #sonic the hedgehog #bound by chaos au #fantasy #silver the hedgehog #espio the chameleon #espilver #espio #ranger #arrows #shadow the hedgehog #sonic #sonic fandom #sonic comic #wave the swallow #harpy #tiefling #gay love does exist #im obsessed with my sonic au #reunited and it feels so good

[mediumguyenergy]

thinking about Bunny with all of his faults, and terrible jokes and humour in general, just absolutely loving Henry the most out of everyone in the entire world and him being the one that Henry killed with his bare hands

#the secret history #the secret history donna tartt #tsh #bunny corcoran #henry winter #hunny #Henry x Bunny #Bunny x Henry #Henry really saw the words Kill Your Darlings and was like: I have an idea #These elitist gays are on my mind 24/7 #Donna Tartt what a mind to be honest #Also off topic sidenote: I just love the idea of Rome being the honeymoon for those two #dark academia #the secret history theory #The Secret History is the only book to ever exist me thinks #Does anyone ever read these? #shitpost #shitposting #smythe is sillyposting instead of sleeping #smythe thoughts

[thepoisonroom]

'I flirted with the idea that instead of being trans that I was just a cross-dresser (a quirk, I thought, that could be quietly folded into an otherwise average life) and that my dysphoria was sexual in nature, and sexual only. And if my feelings were only sexual, then, I wondered, perhaps I wasn’t actually trans.

I had read about a book called The Man Who Would Be Queen, by a Northwestern University professor who believed that transwomen who were attracted to women were really confused fetishists, they wanted to be women to satisfy an autogynephilia. And though I first read about this book in the context of its debunkment and disparagement, I thought about the electricity of slipping on those tights, zipping up those boots, and a stream of guilt followed. Maybe this professor was right, and maybe I was only a fetishist. Not trans, just a misguided boy.

About a year later, on the Internet, I come across a transwoman who added a unique message to the crowd refuting this professor. Oh, I wish I remember who this woman was, and I wish even more that I could do better than paraphrase her, but I remember her saying something like this: “Well, of course I feel sexy putting on women’s clothing and having a woman’s body. If you feel comfortable in your body for the first time, won’t that probably mean it’ll be the first time you feel comfortable, too, with delighting in your body as a sexual thing?”'

-Casey Plett, Consciousness

#this quote always moves me almost to tears when i remember it #i'm not a trans woman and i don't share the author's specific experiences with transition #but it really moves me that she frame transition as joyfully giving yourself permission to approach your body #not as something that has to be disciplined and deprived and made small in all these various ways #but as a means for experiencing pleasure and joy and delight and for insisting that our feelings and desires are worth #valuing and exploring and treasuring #i always used to think of prioritizing those things for myself as selfish and irresponsible #but who does it harm to want to experience pleasure in your own body? #it's such a beautifully simple and powerful switch to have flip in your head #and equally why are we forced to deny our own pleasure in transition and anything else related to our bodies in the name of moral rectitude #this is why i get so confused and pissed off when other trans people are fatphobic for example #like why are you so invested in politics of shame and disgust that never had any purpose other than #violently disciplining people as if they've violated moral codes by existing in a body #to say nothing of white people being racist in gay and trans communities #like again this system of violence is foundational to homophobia and transphobia #so why are you acting like it has nothing to do with you #even if you are unmoved by the urgency of other people's suffering which btw you should be moved by #what do you hope to gain by acting a collaborator and handmaiden to those systems #Casey Plett #she really is one of my favorite authors i wish more non-canadians read her #this quote is from a series of columns she did ont transition and every single one is a banger #i love when she talks about the people-pleasing elements of dysphoria and transition denial #she's so sharp about noting how many of us deny our own dysphoria on the grounds that others like and validate our bodies #that's how i always felt during my cis conventionally feminine era #it pleased other people so much and also that reception felt so hollow and joyless to me because i hated it #i get less of that positive feedback but that feels so unimportant next to the joy and pleasure i get to experience #said with the understanding that i'm very privileged in being able to prioritize those things without fear. but it was a switch flip #personal nonsense

[maskyartist]

i KNOW i said i'd draw putt putt branch but i cant control the vibe and the vibe rn is feral clay

he vaguely remembers floyd. vaguely. he knows floyd was...there. at some point when his mind was whole. but he cant see where he'd be. a lot of his past memories were pushed away to make room for survival instinct, so his memories mostly consist of good ones with (Sp)Bruce and the night he left, the argument with JD mostly

floyd's kinda be pushed to the back of his mind, so its like meeting someone new. Clay smells death on him. Decay. But he stands and talks like a living creature.

Floyd confuses Clay. He calls him Pink. He'll remember his name eventually.

#masky says #trolls dreamworks #feral putt putts au #putt putt trolls #trolls clay #trolls floyd #finally doodled floyd! :D idk i like his gay lil vibe #hes so twinkish its ridiculous #i wanna put him under a microscope #clay's very curious about floyd he lingers around him a lot #his reactions and existence confuses him...he smells like death but hes living. baffles his mind #meanwhile floyd's trying to handle this being his big brother now. the same big brother who read to him every night #who taught him math and basic science. the things he needed to know. who taught him fun facts. #is now an animal and knows less then he does. its like a nightmare. its terrifying to see someone you love reduced to nothing #hes pushy on clay's recovery i think. he wants him to get better. makes him push himself too far #but he just wants normalcy again. he wants clay back to himself so he can feel normal #he wants to meet his REAL big brother not this monster who has his face #meanwhile clay's just watching. learning. trying to figure him out. put faces to memories #its hard when his instinct for when things get too hard is to retreat into viva #bury his face in her shoulder hide in her pelt he just shields himself from the world with viva #and she lets him she protects him always and forever they're each others half to a whole #did yall know im obsessed with my own au? :D

[fire-eyed-raven]

Usually I'm all for not treating two characters as a one inseparable unit. I'm all for exploring them separately from each other or considering some interesting rare pair options for them.

But not with Madara. I love Madara very much but I'm sorry his canon obsession with Hashirama can't be ignored by me. I can't separate it from him. Their bond with Hashirama is completely something else. It's a very integral part of who Madara is.

He wants his attention even if it will be in a fight he wants everything Hashirama can give him. He'll recognize him in any situation. He'll be happy to see him even if the last time they have seen each other Hashirama killed him. He talked about uniting Ying and Yang and clearly meant Hashirama as Yang to his Ying. He ended up merging a part of Hashirama into himself in a most literal sense. He can't shut up about Hashirama when we see him as himself and not an impersonator (obito) or through other's memories.

#For me Madara and Hashirama is a package deal most of the time. #when I see that bond ignored it feels wrong and like it's not Madara at all #they are canonically soulmates #and Hashirama is beyond special no one else would get that level of attraction and fixation from madara #Hashirama is a very rare combination of a person who shared his ideas and vision ( even if they went different ways about it in the end) #and was equal to Madara or stronger than him #and that man does love to get his ass kicked #and doesn't like when it's him beating someone else's ass easily on the other hand as we can see from the manga #tbh only other ( very crack) pairing that I can somewhat consider for Madara is with Gai for that exact reason - he loved to fight him #madagai / gaimada ( ? does this dynamic exist?) is not my cup of tea but I definitely see where ot could come from and it looks fun #Madara liked to fight him #was real excited #and that's very important with him #idk where I'm even going with all of this #trying to write down my thoughts is like herding cats #maybe I'll write about it more later #hashimada #hsmd #hashimada thoughts #madara headcanons

[cosmic-d1ce]

HC that q!Phil would be a lot more into the whole love triangle thing but he's already in love with someone

He doesn't know who it is he just knows he is in love, utterly devoted, he could not imagine loving anyone else

But Kristin literally doesn't exist here, she will never be on the island, they will never love each other in this life. Phil doesn't know this. He has no idea that he's looking for someone he will never meet

#little does he know kristin did this on purpose #he died and she reincarnated him in a world she will never be able to exist in #qsmp #qsmp philza #philza #ph1lza #philza minecraft #q!philza #imagining kristin somehow getting on the island to push Phil into gay rp but they cant help but fall in love #even if phil doesnt remember her #its love at first sight phil adores this woman and has no idea why #this is why we cant have mumza on qsmp phil is too much of a simp #how could he even pretend to be gay when his wonderful wife is right there

[scribefindegil]

saw a deeply rancid take this morning about how amatonormativity isn’t real (especially in slash fandom contexts, lol) because all mainstream media focuses on platonic relationships so what do we even want. and was tempted to write a big thing breaking down the various prejudices at play in the way society (and thus the media reflecting it) refuses to treat women and queer people and other minorities as Real People deserving of stories, and how this leads to all this media focused on men whose only meaningful relationships are with other men in a way that does nothing but support amatonormativity along with every other status-quo bigotry. but actually i think this sums it up:

Mainstream Media to Aros (& those who believe in their beliefs): You’re platonic because you value friendship. I’m platonic because I hate everyone who isn’t a cishet white man. We are not the same.

#i get that if you are using zero critical thinking skills #it can look like mainstream media loves platonic relationships #(between men) #but it does not #it's just forced itself into that corner because it thinks that men are the only people who can be protagonists #and of course gay people can't be protagonists either #so the people who are allowed to have Rich Inner Lives and Emotions do that with each other #but if you look at any relationship outside of that framework #women who are friends #men and women who are friends #queer people who are friends #family members who are friends #you will immediately see the way that these are de-prioritized in favor of sex & romance #sometimes one bigotry will mask another under certain circumstances #that doesn't mean that the one being masked has ceased to exist

[hanakihan]

listen listen listen

secret boss thing (aka true final boss of story being among main good cast whole time) and its AB!jinchul

jinwoo literally going his canon path but then supposedly something goes extremely wrong and with resurfacing of so many monarchs and rulers AB in jinchul straight up revolts and goes out of control because apparently strong enough hate and anger can awaken even a godly being after his death circumstances

and then suddenly everyone has much bigger problem to worry about - a really angry and full of hate and anger god who can’t be controlled or negotiated with

one snap of fingers and those he doesn’t like straight up cease to exist, and he absolutely has no remorse over destroying something he once created

jinwoo is spared because he’s ashborn’s vessel and AB has enough warm feelings and respect for his creation to respect his choices and everything would’ve been nice enough if AB wasn’t so angry and determined to straight up erase current timeline and start everything anew

so here we have jinwoo fighting a literal god outside while jinchul has inner fight with AB while what remains of his consciousness and will gets slowly eaten away by AB’s overpowering presence

#solo leveling #woo jin chul #sung jin woo #jinwoo actually not being a winner here because one thing is a monarchs and other is a literal angry god #AB not disintegrating jinwoo on spot just out of respect and love for Ashborn #ashborn being reluctantly helpful in fight #jinchul’s dying consciousness decides if he’s going to die at least he’ll punch and lecture a god #which is exactly what he does and this creates an opening for jinwoo #who stabs a god right through heart #or at least where it supposed to be #AB and Ashborn uniting in semi afterlife just simply existing in jinchul snd jinwoo #ab kinda but not really accepting jinchul as his successor but only after ashborn suggested so #am I seeing will of herrscher vibes here? yes I do #can we call it double gays happy ending

[rockcat2112]

FUCK YOU

MAKES YOUR KETCHUP SEE-THROUGH Trans Ketchup! Trans Ketchup! It's gender fluid and it's beautifully homoerotic <3

#tomatussy sludge #why does this exist #feast your eyes #the curse #this is perfect #this is horrendous #but i love it #holy shit #they untomatoed the ketchup #tags #more tags #tumblr gods grant me passage to fame #for posting this curse upon this wretched land #for all to feast their eyes upon it #so they can see #through the ketchup #that is clear #Adding gay tags so weirdos fuck off #hopefully... #gay #trans #nonbinary #genderqueer #genderfluid #It's 3 AM and I'm not thinking straight #as i should #cause I'm trans HAHAHAHA #And lesbian for anyone cute

[last-flight-of-fancy]

“Kingdom Hearts being an epic slow burn gay romance would be incredibly impactful to people both personally and as a landmark in queer representation by extremely popular and established characters. It has decades of legitimate buildup and has the potential to be both incredibly validating to queer fans everywhere and even possibly sway the minds of those who love the characters but may not have much contact or knowledge of queerness.”

and

“The Kingdom Hearts series is honestly kind of unique in its unabashed emotional sincerity. How it treats friendships and non-romantic bonds as being both extremely important and powerful, never giving the impression that friendship is lesser to romance, is depressingly still somewhat of a rarity in media. This is very important and validating to many, particularly aromantics but also most everyone who is just Tired of how friendships and romance are often presented in tiers of importance.”

are concepts that can and should co-exist.

#like i get it. there really is nothing quite like kh when it comes to how it treats the bonds between characters #and the latter is just as legitimate! #but i do think that the people who argue (in good faith) that kh shouldnt make anyone canon- #-are kind of missing the forest for the trees #(i specify in good faith bc we all know the bad faith ones are just co-opting the argument to hide their homophobia) #(and oh boy are *most* of them in bad faith. but i wanna take a sec to talk about this bc there are good faith ones out there) #and what i mean by that is that... well first of all making one ship canon doesn't invalidate all the other examples of stunning displays of #-the power of friendship #second of all i would like you to consider the framing of this #if no ship becomes canon and it's purely platonic for all the OC's... how is it different from any other kids show with no couples? #in terms of representing friendship as not being less than romance? #it's still not bad don't get me wrong. what i'm saying is that media DOES exist #there are shows and books and games out there where there are no couples to speak of #maybe not terribly common but they're out there #but a slow burn epic gay romance where platonic connections are legitimately just as important and powerful? i sure af havent seen it #sora being in love with riku and still willing to sacrifice himself (TWICE) to save kairi... is that not exactly what you want? #to show that the platonic connection is not lesser? that its just as important? #i dunno i've been turning this over in my brain all afternoon thinking about it #stop talking to yourself flight

[anotherpapercut]

I know several people who like LOVE seasons 5-7 (11th doctors run) and think the storylines and moffats writing are brilliant and I don't get it!!! what am I missing??? why does literally every single episode have the exact same stakes: Rory/Amy/the doctor is dead. forever. so dead. but wait!!! what if they aren't!!! why do so many of the explanations for why they're not actually dead feel so rushed like they were added at the last minute!! why does every single queer character act kind of weird and awkward about being queer!! why does the doctor casually say that women are inferior when no one's around!!! what the fuck!! hello!!!

#why is rory continuously proving himself as the Only Man To Ever Exist only for the characters/narrative to continuously imply hes lesser #amy tries to kiss the doctor?? at her wedding?????? #when amy is stuck for 36 years why is she like i forgot how much rory loved me?? GIRL HE WAITED 1000 YEARS FOR YOU???? WHAT???? #he is CONSTANTLY the butt of the joke despite being unequivocally without a doubt the best character from this era #what the fuck was up with river being their kid #THE 50TH ANNIVERSARY???? WHAT?? THAT SHIT WAS WEIRD RIGHT??? #does anyone else find it annoying that moffat changed the opening theme and the tardis and the sonic and the doctor ALLLL at once #and then retconned the entire storyline the early seasons are based off of?? #WHY IS THE DOCTOR SO GODDAMN ANNOYING?? LIKE SO MUCH MORE ANNOYING THAN THE OTHERS #and fucking sexist!!! so sexist!!! #anyone remember the characters who were like 'were the short fat and tall skinny gay men why do we need names' LIKE HUH??????? #gay people still have names steven 😭 #i feel like im going insane bc i have no one else to talk to abt it until my partner catches up #but you guys still think these seasons kinda suck right? like coming off of martha and DONNA and her AMAZING storyline #these just kinda pale in comparison right?????? #the last centurion is probably the last really good plot of that era imo. none of the other plots come close to having an ending that cool #like rivers story couldve been amazing and then it was just uh. kinda weird. a bit confusing IDK #i dont want to be a dick when talking to people and like shit on smth they love but i genuinely have a hard time #finding kind things to say abt a lot of this era #also and this might just be me but i do not like amy and clara v much 😭 theyre so fuckin mean and not even funny #why were martha donna and rose sooooo well written and they all have rich backstories. we know their fuckin families!! #literally its never even fully explained what the fuck happened to amys parents 😩😩 they just move on. the only friend of theirs #ever shown is fucking river??? as a kid?? #am i the only one who found all thay confusing

[leonardalphachurch]

listen none of you understand okay. the idea of dεlta being like. i am a being of pure logic i am an ai created for one purpose and nothing else i am not a person i am not even sentient just a piece of code given a voice for someone else’s mind. and then being like. *is in love with his host* like. it’s so good. it’s SO good.

#delsilon #YOU DONT UNDERSTAND HES A FRAGMENT OF A FRAGMENT HE DOESNT EVEN CONSIDER HIMSELF AS ACTUALLY EXISTING #BUT HES IN LOVE. HOW DO YOU RECONCILE THAT. #how do you justify that to yourself. you aren’t an individual but you’re having this experience that is so uniquely yours. #but you don’t even see yourself as a person. you aren’t even alive so how does he make you feel like you want to be. #i just. cbxnbxxnbxnxzb. the exploration of what it means to be a person through the lens of both an ai and an alter. and through being gay. #you don’t understand okay. okay. okay

[lancrewizzard]

Consider this: rincey is gay but likes women cos he’s a he/him lesbian

Spicy, innovative, exciting. I like it.

#i love how the one unifying way to read Rincewind is queer. the flavour of queer may change but its existence does not. #he's gay. he's bi. he's ace. he's trans (both directions). he's lesbian. his gender is wiz(z)ard. his sexuality is potatoes. #he's everything to me

[lllsaslll]

The Thunderbird Cape

June 30th, 1973 at Atlanta's Omni Coliseum: Just before the first show of the day, someone told Elvis that a five year old Robbie Barnes was attending the show and that he would be dressed up like him in his own lil' jumpsuit. During the show Elvis asked to turn the spotlight on the boy and at the end of the concert he gave Robbie the cape off the Thunderbird suit he was wearing that night. The Thunderbird's cape is regarded as one of the heaviest and most expensive of all of Elvis' jumpsuits. And in addition, J.D. Sumner mumbled to Elvis, "Elvis, give the boy your belt too!" and naturally Elvis did.

#thunderbird jumpsuit #elvis #elvis presley #elvis aaron presley #70s elvis #jumpsuit elvis #elvis jumpsuits #1973 #elvis meetings #my edits #first photo is taken at a different date as the suit is worn with the Jack Lord Belt as it was a gift from the hawaiian actor #while this was not at display at graceland when i went its said the displayed suit is different from in photos so there were either #multiple suits made and the displayed one wasnt worn?? or it was altered after he wore it last in 73 #but the cape and belt are still owned privately...at least i hope so! #he has so many suits with birds tbh i just look at any of them and im like yep same suit but theyre very much not lol #ugh...this man i just love him so much no one does shit like this these days much less the biggest more well known artist on the #planet on the time...and i honestly dont understand why this kind of generosity isnt more common #research deep dives are so enjoyable...lol i just find it funny i found this trying to see when and where he preformed closest to my home #spoiler alert the place still exists about 30 min away and its now a Gay Country Western Club amen i cant wait to go!!!

[iristhepng]

he pose !!!!

#he knows he’s the prettiest man to ever exist!! #love this pose he does the lil hand on the hip #jessegtaposting #tony prince #gta tbogt #the ballad of gay tony #gta iv #gta 4 #grand theft auto

[transboykirito]

some short rambling kirisuna with trans girl kirito my beloved

Asuna tossed and turned, unable to fall asleep. They’d been laying in bed for hours now, and she was pretty sure that neither she nor Kazuto had slept for so much as five minutes. She couldn’t be sure what was keeping him up, but she knew what was keeping her awake, and it made her want to cry conflicted tears.

She was a lesbian.

It was a recent realisation, but it was one that hit her like a bolt of lightning. 

She’d considered it for months now, going back and forth with her friends and with her own reflection in the mirror. She’d done her research, she’d read every article she could find. Everything brought her to the same conclusion.

She loved Kazuto, she really did. If there was such a thing as soulmates, he was hers. It was like their minds and bodies were designed just to fit together, to be each other’s perfect matching halves.

But she couldn’t deny that the idea of calling somebody her husband felt… wrong. It felt like something she was supposed to do, something that was the simple, natural progression of things. She’d married a nice man, settled down and now she was his wife. That was what was expected of her.

They’d been married for six months now, and she’d be lying if she didn’t say that, on one or two occasions, she’d re-imagined their wedding day, where she might find a bride waiting for her at the alter instead of a groom.

The guilt ate her alive. She loved her husband, her soul loved his soul, but she knew deep down there would always be something deeply unsatisfactory about her life unless she was honest with him, like there was a piece of herself that she'd never have a chance to truly discover or grow. She would spend years wondering what could have been, who she could have been if she'd given herself the chance.

Kazuto had been open about his own feelings towards Eugeo and a handful of boys and men he’d known throughout his life. Hell, it was one of those conversations that had prompted Asuna to follow up on the silent, conflicting feelings she’d felt for years. She knew he would forgive her if she asked to break things off. He would understand.

…Right?

She’d been trying to have the conversation for days now. She’d found her conclusion within herself, all she had to do was voice it. She knew she couldn’t keep trying to hide this away.

She’d reached her breaking point the night before, when she’d fallen asleep to a blissful dream of their wedding day. Except… the one dancing with her wasn’t Kazuto, but a strangely familiar, faceless woman. She’d held Asuna so securely as they danced that Asuna felt like she’d known her for her entire life, and she’d woken up in tears.

She wanted to find that woman, find that moment.

Kazuto deserved that moment of his own, too.

“Asuna…” Kazuto’s voice whispered in the dark, “Are you still awake?”

“Yes,” she rolled over to look at him, her eyes widening when she saw his face. Was he… crying?

“I’m fine,” he said quickly, already sensing her concerns growing, “I… I need to talk to you about something. I think you might already know.”

She panicked. She had noticed something was off about him for a few weeks, but she’d been so preoccupied with her own thoughts that she told herself she was imagining things. God, how much had she missed? 

“Are you okay? What’s wrong?” Asuna reached out her hand to hold his own under the blanket, tracing her thumb in circles over the back of his hand. She wasn’t sure if she was trying to soothe him or herself.

Kazuto took a deep breath, “Listen. I’ve been thinking about a lot.”

So have I, Asuna thought to herself, a little sarcastically.

“I didn’t realise how hard this would be to say,” Kazuto said, a laugh almost dancing on the edge of his voice, “You… you know how I’ve been playing GGO a lot more, lately?”

Asuna could recall the hours he’d lost to that game in just the past month - really, it had to be unhealthy. But Kazuto had seemed happy each time he woke from his dive, and Asuna couldn’t complain about that. If anything, she was just happy he was finally enjoying games other than ALO.

“Of course I noticed, did something happen in the game? Is Shino-non okay?”

Then Asuna’s thoughts turned sour. She didn’t play GGO nearly as often as Kazuto or Shino did, guns just weren’t really her style, so she didn’t truthfully pay much attention to what happened in the game. Kazuto knew that, Shino knew that. Had they been using GGO as a place to secretly meet up and…

She must have been easy to read - honestly, between herself and Kazuto, they could read each other as easily as a book, it came with the territory of being so familiar to one another - because Kazuto immediately screwed his face up.

“It’s not what you’re thinking, I promise, it has nothing to do with Shino,” he assured her, noticeably avoiding looking her in the eye.

Whatever it was, it was serious. She’d never seen him this frustrated just trying to talk to her. Yes, there were moments when they’d had petty arguments or been frustrated with one another, but he looked completely angry with himself as he seemingly battled with his tongue to form the words.

“There’s something I need to say, too…” Asuna’s voice was small, nervous. If Kazuto had something serious to say, they might as well both get things off their chests at once.

Kazuto gave her a look, somewhere between terrified and sympathetic, and smiled a forced smile.

“We’ll say it on three, okay?”

Asuna swallowed. Kazuto took a shaking breath.

“One…”

“Two…”

“Three…”

“I’m a lesbian.”

“I think I’m a woman.”

Then there was silence. 

They both tried to process what they’d just heard, and for a moment Asuna wondered if she’d simply made up what Kazuto had just said. This had to be a dream, right?

Then there was laughter.

“Really?” Kazuto asked, because Kazuto was truly the one person in the world who would be able to make Asuna laugh when she felt like sobbing.

She nodded a little, “I’ve been trying to tell you for a few weeks, I just didn’t want to lose you.”

“Oh, same here,” Kazuto breathed a sigh of relief, “Do you still want to be together? I mean, I know this probably takes some time to get used to, and I don’t really know where I want to go from here or what I want to do now, and I haven’t picked out a new name really, but-”

“I want to be with you forever.” Asuna interrupted, “That’s why I was so afraid to tell you. I knew I had to tell you eventually, but I couldn’t bare the thought of having to lose the person I love so much. I guess I should have known that wouldn’t happen.”

“Guess you’re still stuck with me after all,” Kazuto joked, then she smiled and pulled Asuna into a tight hug, kissing the top of her head. Asuna gently kissed her shoulder over the fabric of the t-shirt she’d worn to bed, humming to herself contentedly.

So, Kazuto really was her soulmate after all. They’d be each other’s happily ever after, their dream for the rest of their lives, it would just take a little work to get there - and how exciting it was that she got to be by her side for all of it, right from the very beginning.

“What should I call you now?” Asuna asked.

Kazuto rolled over to lay on her back, and Asuna rolled on top of her. They’d slept like this so many times, it really was a wonder they still insisted on having a king-sized bed. Asuna’s half was usually wasted space.

“Kazuto, I think. For now, anyway. I wanted to find something else, but…”

“But?”

“I’m so used to the way you say my name, it feels weird when I try to find anything else. I liked Kazuko, or maybe Kazuha, but I think I’m overthinking it.”

“Kazuko,” Asuna repeated the name a few times, smiling, “I like it, it’s pretty! I think you should be allowed to overthink this, it’s a big decision.”

She blushed, “It sounds pretty when you say it.” 

“Kazuko?” Asuna looked up at her, blushing just as much as she was, “I like saying it too, Kazuko. I’ll keep saying it while you get used to it, if you want me to?”

“Of course,” Kazuko grinned, “Just… not in front of the others just yet. I haven’t had the guts to tell anybody else yet.”

“Of course, I won’t say anything until you want me to, Kazuko,” Asuna felt a pair of arms wrapped securely around her middle and she relaxed, breathing in deeply. She felt so, so safe with her.

“Can I ask… when did you realise? That you were a lesbian, I mean,” Kazuko asked, deftly tracing patterns on Asuna’s side with her fingertip.

“I’ve been thinking about it for a while,” Asuna admitted shyly, “I think I finally made my mind up about it around three weeks ago now. How about you, if you don’t mind my asking?”

Kazuko laughed again, “Around three weeks ago, when I had this dream about us getting married, but… we were both brides. I can’t believe I was so stupid, I should have just told you right away, we could have both avoided feeling so crappy the last few weeks.”

“I’ve been dreaming about the same thing,” Asuna said, then she yawned, “I love you, Kazuko. I’m glad we can tell each other anything.”

She swore she actually felt her heart skip a beat, and she giggled to herself. She had the cutest wife in the world.

A wife.

She had a wife.

Sure, things were going to take time to get used to, but she had the most incredible woman in the world by her side. They’d make it through anything together.

“We can talk about this more in the morning,” Kazuko mumbled, kissing Asuna again as she started to fall asleep, “Thank you for trusting me to tell me anything.”

So, just like they had so many nights before, and just like they were going to continue to do for the rest of their lives, Asuna and Kazuko fell asleep in each other’s arms, and Asuna remembered for the millionth time that the woman she was lying with truly was her soulmate, in every sense of the word.

And when she finally fell asleep that night, she found herself reliving the same dream she’d had a precious few times now - a dream she was certain would one day come true. An eternally familiar woman, her beloved Kazuko, holding her so securely as they danced, like she’d known her their entire lives.

Someday, she knew they would.

#mine* #kirisuna #trans!kirito #i've been thinking a lot about those stories where couples get straight married then one comes out as trans and the other comes out as gay #like... if that isn't proof soulmates exist idk what else could convince me you know? #its 1am and i just kinda rambled into a google doc for *checks document hisrory* 31 minutes #because i just have this need to write things idk #queer kirisuna really does have my heart i love them #queer kirisuna #< giving them a tag i post about it a lot #mine*fics #mine*tumblroneshots