Hey loves, my name is Ms. Kay, this is a playlist of the soliloquies of my thoughts that I mashed together, to create this little piece. While I was emotionally, mentally, and spiritually, processing my life, I’d guess. There is a list of stages of my personal re-establishment of myself, after my breakup with my 1st love. Which I’ve come to the conclusion was an unrequited love. So yeah, I hope you enjoy my goofy, awkward black girl, “Isolation letter”
In return for sharing this experience comment, clap share, tell me what you think. I simply want to hear your thoughts.
For the full experience, Play — “TO ME” by “Alina Baraz”, as you read.
Stage 1. Denial
Stage 2. Bargaining
Stage 3. Bargaining
Stage 4. Anger
Stage 5. Depression
Stage 6. Acceptance
POV: Late one night. A girl was asked a question as she sat on her balcony
God? Or Mystical therapy being?, Or The Universe?)I think you get the picture.
The question appeared in my head: Who are you? What are your aspirations towards your life?
Now from mind, body, and soul answer the question! I would say I’m a patient person. I always try to ”understand”.
I’m not the type of woman to be walked all over. Some people in my life have tried to use my kindness for their benefit. It’s too bad for those people, they thought I gave second chances, they are no longer in my life.
A Lesson Learned!
I will not be taken advantage of, in any way again.I’ve realized that in order to get answers from some of the men in my life, I sometimes have play the vilian, putting myself in uncomfortable positions, you know I don’t want any confrontation. Talk to me, let me understand.
I’m a person of knowledge, emotion, faith, and kindness. I AM A LIBRA, A WOMAN OF BALANCE! I had to learn how to speak my truth, my speech filled with confidence, dignity, and grace. I nurture others, I’m a caretaker, that’s just who I Am.
For example, My best friend. She desires a stable cheerleader in her life. The type of supporter, one who doesn’t pass obscure judgment, shame her fellings or dismiss her. As the goofy, sweet person she is, she deserves to be accepted just like anyone else. She has a true pure colorful soul. In return I needed her to tell me, ”it’s okay to believe and love myself purely for me”. Be selfish, sometimes she tells me.
I just want my person, the person who is tasked to aid my soul in this life’s journey, so therefore I can do the same. “Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same”-an understanding.
I’m an educated brown young woman who has a promising future and an abundance of faith, in spite of what life has thrown at her. I appreciate everything in my life, good and bad. I’m also that cool girl who likes anime, music, sex, dance, and the occasional puff puff pass vibe, LOVE, lust, adventure, a fun girl.
So of course, do I dare even eat a peach? Do I dare ask you the question? The mundane, typical girl question? Why? do you not want me? Why did you want me ?
I ask in my dream I can get everything I wish and work for, along with his (God) blessing. I’m not asking or saying these things to hurt you or even pressure. I know the feeling of anxiety and discomfort.
I only ask because I understand that you want freedom, along with your family’s blessing but I’m here to be on your side, not to hurt or betray you.
I often have conversations with God.
Sitting on my balcony, all in my feelings. Somehow I am healed of my guilt, regarding whatever God and I conversations are about or whatever sinful act I was in the midst of at the time. Every time I’ve had a euphoric experience full of enlightenment after every conversation.
A Lesson Learned!
Thinking. Repeatedly asking myself the question, Who are you? What are your aspirations towards your life? From mind, body, and soul answer the question!
”I am me, SO? Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same? Right?
As I sit here with nothing but time on my hands, I realized that I’ve survived. Isolation with other people. Granted these people are my family, so therefore I never had the option of choosing them anyway.
I wouldn’t change any of them. Anyway.
I’ve had time to reflect on myself, I know that I am a young woman who has audacious aspirations.
’m a woman who is accomplishing her goals one step at a time. Along with that, she, I have grown as a person. I’ve realized that Time is relative.
And I know that time is one of the strongest force in our Galaxy. Time is the lesson that’s always a force to be reckoned with.
So now, I believe that time is the thing that helps us realize who we truly are. What we really want out of life as an individual. I want an ora around me with a river of love and honey brown sugar, a tornado with the spirit of warmth, faith, and passion every day and in everything. Thanks to that dream. This Ora consists of love for myself, for my family, my personality, my Future lover, my children, my friendships, my career.
I have to spend my time developing my life with the people who see a place for themselves in the wind of my life because, this wind will go where it needs to carry current of destiny.
I believe that as an individual you have abundant destinies in your life.
One can control this, Life by going down the right pathway in this maze of life, which lead torwards your paved road by the decision. Made for your destiny journey.
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