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pinkuberii · 2 years

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- Babysitting -

Tw: None I can think of

Wc: ~1.5k

Characters: Diluc, Childe, Kaeya, Zhongli, Itto, Ayato and Thoma

Genre: Fluff

Summary: Some genshin men babysitting their children <3

A/N: Credits to my amazing bestie Anni for helping me out with this one! EVERYONE SAY THANK YOU ANNI- // @x-zho your ask accidentally got deleted whilst I was editing the post but here you go!! <3

(Anni’s ideas are indicated with a | while mine are indicated with a •)

Masterlist -> <3

Diluc:

A bit confused but he got the spirit!!

This man probably never babysitted in his life though

A tour in his winery where he’s the guide??? Definitely

Would allow them to pick and eat a few of his grapes from the vineyard whilst telling him some fun facts about the winery and such

Absolutely melts when they offer him a grape with their small hands

Joyously eats it with a smile on his face

Gladly answers all of his kids questions with a smile too <3

Also the dad who allows his kids to play with his hair

Adelinde will never forget the sight of Diluc with pigtails-

Whatever makes his children happy I guess <3

Would also draw with his kids whilst laying down on the floor with them, legs crossed as they’re up

Also teaches them to make non-alcoholic beverages such as Caramel Pinecone or Apple Cider

LOVES having quality time with his kids

To be honest he was a bit scared at first, not knowing what they’d do once you’d be gone for a while

But all of his worries faded away quite quickly and he’d treasure all of these moments

Upon your return you’d be met with a sight of Diluc sleeping with his kids in his arms

Childe:

Childe would be very skilled

He’s experienced, like very experienced

C’mon he has a shit ton of siblings back in Snezhnaya

The kids hurt themselves while playing??

They only have to let one sob out and he’s already by their side with a first aid kit

He’d make food, tuck them in, even care for their wounds after they once again run into the doorframe or corner of a table ✋😔

Either he makes food, or he takes them to a fast-food restaurant, no in between

Fatui who???? We only know the greatest toy maker from Snezhnaya-

Definitely would keep his affiliation hidden from his kids

Yes, you heard me right: kidS

He’d want a big family

One of the best babysitters right there though-

hAVE U SEEN HIM WITH TEUCER

best big bro, dad, and babysitter <33

He really got disss

Recites some fun trivia about his homeland to keep them entertained

He can narrate well in my opinion, with those funny voices and intonation and such

Just the way children like it <3

Would let them sit on his shoulders for a better view in case they’re traipsing through the city

Buys his kids whatever they want too- Let it be food or toys…

Practically spoils his kids with all the mora he has…

A very chill and funny dad honestly, loves his family more than anything <3

Kaeya:

One of the sweetest and kindest dads out there

His kids LOVE him

He’d take responsibility if the kid is actually from someone he loves

Will protect them with all his might

Might even stop getting extremely hungover at taverns???

Idk he’d definitely still drink, but just less?

He just wants to be there for his children :’)

Has a LOT of things to tell

Mostly tells his kid scary stories I jUST KNOW IT

But if he notices them being scared he’d immediately stop though :(

Definitely narrates them the story of his eyepatch with a proud grin

Okay, okay- he regularly takes care of Klee when Albedo can’t, so he also has quite the experience

He’s actually a pretty chill babysitter and dad????

I can see him being naturally good with kids

Would let them play with his hair, allowing them to braid and brush it and such

All the snacks and sweets he has?? Shares them all <3

Mini trip to the Knights of Favonius HQ’s is a must!!

I was going to say that he’d also ride a horse with them, but Varka stole all the cavalry lmao

Can I get an F in the chat for my man Kaeya???

So he teaches them how to use a sword instead, defense and such

Would lose on purpose just to make his kid happy <3

What an amazing man and dad honestly

Zhongli:

Literally a grandpa

But we love him for it <3

Osmanthus wi——

Brews his kid some sweet tea with a nice aroma-

Guys he’s trying his best right now he never took care of a kid without your aid-

Takes them out on a stroll through Liyue’s streets a little while later after you left

Liyue fieldtrip wOOOOOO

Man what a lucky kid I’d kill to have a fieldtrip with this gentleman

Anyhow-

He’d hold his hand tightly while walking through the busy streets, he’d hate it if they lost each other somehow

I’m so certain that he knows A LOT about crystals and minerals as well

Would bring them to a gem vendor and start explaining and describing important details about each item

I’m 100% sure that young kids love shiny rocks, so they’re definitely entertained by their father’s words

Previously mentioned, he’s doing his best and the more time passes by the better he becomes at it :)

Brings them to Wanmin after the sound of their stomach’s grumbling enter his ears

Surprisingly has his wallet with him?

Amazing honestly-

Knows his kids favorite dishes by heart and seeing their smile makes him so happy and wEAK

Would enjoy taking care of his kids all on his own after this

Don’t get me wrong though, he’d just be less stressed and more experienced <3

Itto:

A child that’ll be taking care of another child

Like he’s literally a kid himself in an adults body

But you know what??? He’d be quite good at it

Does some things that he… well… shouldn’t… Like giving them all the snacks and sweets

“Don’t tell your mom about this—“

*nodding intensifies*

Well my man would definitely have bought instant noodles

Just heat up some water, and BAM there you have your 5-star ramen meal

Also has a special talent where he can make a 5-star meal out of cup noodles

Teaches that to his kids hehe

He’d be very chaotic

Literally take them outside to find beetles or other insects

Would then set up a battling arena for the beetles/ insects and put candy on the line, whoever wins gets a whole packet of Haribo gummy bears

But c’mon let’s be honest, he’d share that with his kid… He loves them too much

Later he’d fall asleep on the couch with the kids on top of him

Perhaps one of his kids laid a foot in Itto’s face

Literally one of the funniest and most chaotic babysitter and dad out there

Ayato:

Boba Tea all day, every day

Okay not every day, and surely not all day, but definitely very often

“Don’t tell your mother that I gave you your 5th boba tea…”

Now they’re sitting on his lap, drinking their delicious tea in unison

He’s pretty rich so his kid might get somewhat spoiled??

Also very protective father

Ayato is a very trustworthy and good babysitter

Surprisingly handles it well..? He’s doing his absolute best-

He’s definitely not the type that babysitted often though

But due to the fact that his parents passed away way too early he had to take care of Ayaka himself

So he has some experience with older kids

But an actual baby or toddler…?

Yeah no, archons send a bit of help-

Probably does his (paper)work whilst watching over them

Sadly can’t go outside upon how busy he has it most of the days

Tries to entertain them with some old stories and tales about Inazuma though <3

And if they’re not entertained then it's time to tell them how you two met, that’ll entertain them for sure

Would also allow them to play with his hair

Poor Thoma would try his best not to laugh upon the sight

Spoiler: he fails

Thoma:

Yes he do the cooking, yes he do the cleaning

Got that reference??

Well he’s like THE housewife, so he’d be able to care for his kid amazingly well

You’ll have to help him though because he might overwork himself sometimes

Thoma very responsible he a real pro at this

He’d play with the dogs and the cats out on the street with them!! <3

Would also pet them and give them treats together with his kid

Definitely would cook a healthy meal for them too in case they’re hungry

Yes, emphasis on healthy.

“It’s for your own good,” he’d say :(

Maybe gives them a little snack after for finishing their plate

Wit maybe I meant definitely

One of the best babysitters and dads out there honestly

Like he’s so sweet??? His kids definitely love him, no doubt

I love him as well :)

Piggyback rides are certainly happening!! :D

Or he just becomes their horse for a day, carrying them on their back whilst walking around the house… on his hands and knees…

Also would bake something with them whilst waiting upon your return

Everything and anything for his kids and you <3

#esu writes—📝#NOT PROOFREAD #genshin impact #zhongli x reader #childe x reader #diluc x reader #kaeya x reader #itto x reader #arataki itto x reader #ayato x reader #kamisato ayato x reader #thoma x reader #genshin #genshin fluff #genshin headcanons #genshin impact headcanons

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miekasa · 3 years

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call me (levi ackerman)

↯ pairing: levi ackerman x (fem) reader

↯ genres and warnings: fluff, humor? you can be the judge of that i suppose, levi is quiet and often practical, but you cannot convince that there’s not a small part of him that doesn’t enjoy having shit to hold over people lol

↯ notes: this is also cross-posted from another blog, but i tweaked it a bit to fit levi and rewrote/edited parts i wish the world had never seen </3 also i’m reposting bc i was an idiot who accidentally deleted it on mobile rip

↯ word count: 1.3k

↯ summary: drunk you is not amused by the man who keeps trying to coerce you into his apartment; even if that man is your boyfriend and that apartment is his apartment.

“Alright mister, I’m trusting you for now because you’re Erwinnie’s friend, and Erwinnie is my best friend,” you hiccup, wagging your pointer finger as threateningly as you can in your current state, “So if he says you’re a good person, you’re probably a good person. Or good enough.”

Levi holds back a knowing smirk, and loops his arm through yours to steady your balance. He doesn’t know how or why Erwin let you get this drunk, but he’s at least glad the blonde was sober enough to call him to pick you up instead of letting you get in a cab; or worse, attempt to take the bus.

“I’m so very glad you trust me,” he says, voice flat as your wrap your other arm around his bicep. You hum back, a little spacey and like you maybe didn’t hear what he said.

You’re honestly pretty cute when you’re drunk. It’s not something he gets to see often, as you don’t allow yourself to let go frequently; nor do you usually have the time to. And it’s not that he particularly wishes for you to be drunk to the point where you can barely stand, or remember his name, but all things considered, Levi is happy that your general drunk disposition is happy, too.

He waves Mike goodbye as he wrangles Erwin into his car, not holding back his smile this time as you wave over-excitedly at the blonde in the passenger seat, calling his name loudly to tell him goodnight and that you’ll miss him, like you hadn’t already told him goodnight three minutes ago, or spent the last three hours with him drinking. Yeah, you’re cute.

Thankfully, Levi doesn’t live too far from the restaurant you and Erwin were at, so the both of you are home after a twenty minute walk—what should have been fifteen minutes, but was prolonged by your drunken fascination with a squirrel on a public bench.

You start to wobble more when Levi unlaces your arms to get his keys out of his pocket, and he moves his right hand to rest against the small of your back so you don’t fall. However, drunk you is not so entertained by the idea of his hands anywhere near your waist as sober you would have been.

“Hey, hey, hey—hold it right there, mister!” you stutter, words a bit too loud for the confined space of Levi’s hallway at three in the morning, “I am not going in—into that suspicious apartment with you.”

You stumble as you try to remove Levi’s hand from your waist, and he tries to steady your balance again, but push him away more forcefully, staggering into the wall behind you.

“Ah, bitch,” you curse, holding your head and groaning. The pain clearly isn’t enough to stop your accusations against Levi, as you’re back to wagging your finger at him, even hunched over from your drunken stupor, “See, this is your fault.”

Levi sighs. He doesn’t know why you’re holding your head, because you hit your back, and from what he can tell, you shouldn’t have hurt yourself that badly. He’ll take a closer look at you once you’re inside. That’s if he could get you inside to begin with.

He can’t wrangle you and open the door at the same time, so he goes for the latter, finally pulling his keys from his pocket to unlock his apartment door, then attempts to move you inside. Keyword: attempts; because anytime he puts his hands remotely near you, you slap them away.

“Come on, we have to go inside,” he grunts, trying again to get a hold of your arm, but you whack him away harshly. For a drunk person, you seem to have the strength and dexterity of a pro-athlete all of a sudden. Where was all this coordination when he was trying to get you up the stairs five minutes ago?

“No!” you growl—once again, too loudly for the time and place. “Haven’t you heard of the saying no means no, mister? I might be drunk, but this is not my apartment, and I am not going in there to have sex with you!”

“I’m trying to help you go to bed. I’m not going to try and have sex with you.” Levi takes a deep breath. This could sound really bad if anyone else woke up and heard the two of you.

But you’re not having it, crossing your arms and turning your body so that you’re now facing the wall, your back towards a less-than-impressed Levi. “Well, I don’t believe you. I’m going to call Erwinnie tell him you’re being a bad friend, and then Erwinnie is going to call my boyfriend and he’s going to come and pick me up.”

“Oh yeah?” Levi drawls, leaning against his door frame, watching your silhouette as you clumsily search for your phone in your pockets, “Why don’t you just call your boyfriend then?”

You turn on your heels as best you can, and muster up your most menacing glare. It’s not menacing in the slightest, and it actually makes Levi crack a smile, which you do not take lightly; but that only makes him smile further, because sober you doesn’t like it when he’s not fazed by your self-proclaimed intimidation tactics, either.

“Fine,” you huff, finally putting your phone to your ear, “But you’re going to be sorry, because Levi is going to come here and kick your ass.”

Levi chuckles, feeling his own phone ring in his back pocket, “I bet he is.”

“He is,” you insist, stomping your foot for dramatic effect, “He might not be that tall, but he’s strong as hell, plus he’s handsome, and he doesn’t let people fuck around with me, so say your prayers, mister.”

The following afternoon is far less than pleasant. You feel groggy, tired, and like everything is moving in slow motion. Piece by piece, your memories of your night out with Erwin start to come back to you, but you can’t seem to recall anything beyond your fifth margarita.

“Good morning, sunshine,” Levi calls, sarcastically, upon entering the bedroom.

His voice and presence surprises you, but then the realization washes over you that you’re in his apartment and not your own. You’re not sure why yet, but you could probably take a guess.

“Did you take me home last night?”

Levi hums in acknowledgement, nodding his head towards the bedside table, where you find a bottle of water. Levi watches you as you move to hang your legs off the side of the bed and reach for the bottle, groaning in the process. He mentally notes that he should make you breakfast—or, well, at this point, brunch—after you go shower, so that you can take an Advil for the pain.

He moves across the room to sit beside you on the bed, careful to not disrupt too much as to make you spill the water on the sheets. “You know, for someone who’s so happy-go-lucky when they’re drunk, you put up quite the fight yesterday.”

“I did?” you turn to him, capping the bottle, eyes wide with surprise, “You were probably sleeping and you had wake up and come deal with me, I’m sorry, Levi.”

“Don’t worry about it,” he assures you, an almost uncharacteristic and sly smile playing on his lips, “You always say something interesting that keeps me entertained. It makes up for it.”

“Dear god, what was it this time?” you groan, throwing your head back, “I didn’t confess my feelings for you again did I? This is, what, like the sixth time since we’ve been dating? I’m such an embarrassing drunk.”

“Not a confession this time,” he chuckles, “The opposite. Maybe worse.”

Levi fishes his phone from his pocket, and pulls up his voicemails before handing it to you. Curious—and a little bit scared—to find out what could possibly be worse than confessing to your boyfriend of almost four years that you’re in love with him and sad that you’re not dating him? You’re not sure that it could get more embarrassing than that until you click on Levi’s most recent voicemail and hear your own voice crackling through the speaker of his phone.

“—What, hey, fuck off, mister! I don’t want to go into your scrubby apartment! I am happily dating Levi Ackerman, and when he gets here he is going to grand slam your sorry ass into the ground!”

#aot x reader #snk x reader #levi x reader #levi ackerman x reader #aot fanfiction #snk fanfiction #aot imagines #snk imagines #levi ackerman fluff #levi ackerman smut #eren x reader

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pebblysand · 3 years

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[writing rant - on filler words]

[yes, i should be writing castles but here i am giving you unwarranted writing advice instead. sue me.]

this morning, you might have seen me reblog this post on filler words. it's a classic, very typical piece of writing advice where the author lists a number of filler words/sentences that you should scrape from your writing to appeal to publishers or make your prose seem more professional or whatever. i reblogged it saying: 'i disagree with most of these, don't listen to people who tell you how to write.' which a couple of you liked (cheers!) but upon reflection, i feel like this needs a bit more of a nuanced response, which is what i'm doing now. i'm not reblogging the post again because it's long and this is going to be long, and tumblr isn't necessarily text-friendly but do go read it first if you fancy.

now, as far as i'm concerned, the truth isn't that i think filler words are amazing and that you should keep them all, love them all equally like your precious children. of course, you should watch out for them. just like we do when we speak, we fill our written sentences with a lot of pointless fluff that brings nothing to our message. when used "wrongly," filler words slow down sentence pacing, hurt the rhythm of your prose, your ability to choose the correct lexicon for certain actions, etc. they're not always good, and you should definitely be aware of them in your prose.

however, what i dislike about these types of posts is the way people dispensing this "writing advice" make whatever they're saying sound like some sort of golden rule. like: if you don't do this, your story will be shit and never get published. i don't know much about the publishing world but i have written 300,000+ words of mildly successful fanfiction over the years, so i do know a thing or two about writing as a craft, if not a business. and, here's the raw, honest truth: believing that anything about this crazy art we're making is set in stone? that is the kind of thing that will make you a shit writer.

now, if you're following this blog, i'm guessing you like my writing, are probably quite familiar with it. then, this will not be a surprise to you: while i don't pretend to hold any sort of truth on the matter, god knows, i use a shit ton of filler words. by which i mean: a SHIT TON. take any paragraph of any fic i've ever written and i'm sure i could point you to some random word "botox" in pretty much every sentence. this post itself, if you're paying close attention, is also filled with them. and, another surprise: i know that. it's by design.

and, that, my friends, is what matters most. you should watch out for filler words, be aware of them, but if they end up in your final draft, it has to be for a reason. in fairness, i think that's where most of those writing advice posts get it "wrong" and why they annoy me so much: they tell part of the story, but not all of it. they talk about words in a vacuum like our words only exist to be pretty on a page, rather than to share something with other human beings.

now, as a disclaimer, i should preface this by saying that: it depends what kind of writing you're into. this is all very related to personal taste. as a reader, i tend to prefer stories that are told from a very distinct pov, where the story is told by a character rather than by the author. this preference also informs my writing. to me, a story can be first person or third person, it doesn't really matter, but i like a good old restrictive, terribly biased and unreliable pov in a story. i'm someone who 100% favours character over plot (although plot is terribly important too, don't get me wrong) and i like a person to tell me a story, not a robot.

in that context, "filler words" aren't just sentence "botox," they tell a story, too. they tell you who your narrator is. in a post like this, they inform you that i probably speak quickly, that i'm somewhat bubbly but assertive, that my sentences are long and rhythmic, and when i write "in fairness" rather than "to be fair," or "to be honest," it even hints to the fact that my main dialect is hiberno-English. in a work of fiction, filler words can tell you mountains about where your character is from, what they think, feel, etc... are their sentences short and devoid of any filler words? perhaps, they are extremely poised and self-confident, or perhaps they are so detached from what is happening that they are actually on the verge of an emotional breakdown. are their sentences filled with "just"s and "you know"s and "slightly"s and "really"s? perhaps they are insecure, unsure of what their next move will be.

filler words are also where style and pet peeves happen. you'll notice that i use "and:" and "like:" as sentence openers relatively often. it depends on the work and how i feel about the character, but it is something i enjoy playing with. i use 'rather' and 'perhaps' frequently, too, frankly for no other reason than the fact that i like the sound of them. not everyone does, obviously, but since i'm the queen of my own fictional kingdom, i get to authoritatively decide to abuse them. that og post said to not use "that" as a conjunction (prefer: "he said he wouldn't," to: "he said that he wouldn't). man, aside from dialogue, i hate "he said he wouldn't" with a passion. i always use "that" as a conjunction and detest the way my sentences sound without it. i find the absence of "that" clunky and unclear. i don't know whether it is right or wrong, but that's how i roll. the people of the internet seem to like it but if they don't, they're more than welcome to read the work of another author who doesn't use "that" as a conjunction. i'm not holding a gun to their head.

however, as you've probably guessed from the above, this doesn't mean that you shouldn't be aware of your filler words. both yours and your characters'. know what you like, what you don't like, how your narrator narrates and how your characters speak. know how you speak and write, what your strengths and weaknesses as a writer are. edit your work critically. this being said, scraping all the words that make the work special is ludicrous. you would be scraping your work of so much personality that could actually be what makes it unique. writing is an art, not a game of exactitude. if the goal was to write everything perfectly, you could ask siri or alexa to write your short story for you. where you need to be careful with filler words is for them to serve your story, rather than hurt it. the filler words? they need to be carefully considered, questioned, and you need to make sure that they are intentional, not accidental.

and, of course, that's the hard part. that's the part of the writing advice these posts never get into because making blanket statements in the world is always easier than saying: it depends. creating a work of art out of thin air isn't as easy as cmd+f-ing all the "just"s and hitting "delete all." it's noticing which of those filler words you overuse, and keeping them in the back of your mind while you edit, taking a lot of them out. it's listening to your beta/editor when they tell you to take more out. it's also sitting for hours in front of your word document, contemplating every sentence and asking: should i use "just" here? does it show anything? does it have a purpose? does it sound right? let me read this out loud. and, what about the "eventually" there? does that sound natural? is that more of dialogue thing?

that's the line of critical thinking that will make you write better. and, don't get me wrong, posts like the above are useful as a guide in the way that they tend to list the most frequently used filler words, which you can then use as an inspiration to spot these idiosyncrasies in your writing, decide whether to scratch them or use them creatively. but: i'm sorry to say, there's no golden rule to it all. just hard work and practice. trust yourself.

i hope this helps.

#writing tips #writing advice #filler words #writing rants

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raku-fansubs · 4 years

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Okay, this is not news I want to promote that badly, but figured I should clarify since I received a number of DMs of people being confused about the translation I put up on my other blog. Not sure why people are arguing otherwise, but this is indeed an official statement of Okamoto owning up to his actions.

First of all, let’s have a look at the apparent “ambiguous” remark:

大亀あすかさんと婚姻していること含め、事実です。

Some people are arguing that he only affirmed his marriage with Ogame Asuka, and nothing else. But please do not turn a blind eye to the word 含め; meaning it is not simply “It is true that I am married to Ogame Asuka” -- but rather, in its most literal form:

“The matters, including me being married to Ogame Asuka, are true.”

The rest is inferred from the statement as a whole text, have a look at the following line:

妻帯者であるにも関わらず、自覚なき行動をしてしまい、大変申し訳ありませんでした。

In its most literal form: “Despite being married with a wife, I made a careless decision, I deeply apologise.”

What do you think this “careless decision (自覚なき行動)” is referring to? Of course, we all know it’s him being caught out by paparazzi. For what though? Caught out to be married? How did they do that?

Well, they caught photos of him walking out of a love hotel with a woman [see 1&2 & others]. So the paparazzi APPARENTLY called the agency to ask who the lady was, only to find out Okamoto was already married to someone else.

To add on, have a look at the next paragraph that was purposefully put together:

妻には、当然ながらとても呆れられました。

これからを許してもらえるのならば、誠実に妻を支えられる人間になりたいと思います。

This was likely meant to be message from him to his wife, instead of him to the fans. He explicitly stated that, his wife was “disappointed (呆れる alt. stunned)”. Then went on to say that if he may be forgiven, he wants to be a person that can support her “in good faith (誠実に)” from here on out -- which is certainly not a word to apologise for being careless in the sense of “accidentally exposing their marriage”, but most probably, in the sense of fidelity.

In all honesty, I did not want to believe this. The moment I heard the news, I told myself it’s definitely not true. So I clicked into the article to find fault in it -- I hoped I found fault in it. But the information only became truer and truer, I died a little on the inside when I saw the video of him being confronted with the photos on the streets. His reaction was not normal. But somewhere in me wanted to believe that he is still who he made himself to be (it’s a self-serving impression). So I told myself there might be a reason why he was caught in such an awkward photo. But his official statement came, and reality daunted on me.

Before you want to refute anything, please read the original sources carefully. According to timeline:

[1] Bunshun #1 [2] Bunshun #2 (w/ video) [3] Ogame Asuka official statement [4] Okamoto Nobuhiko official statement

If you call yourself a fan, I plead that you do not avert your eyes from what is truly being said, and accept his words honestly. Don’t add anything or turn a blind eye to keep yourself in denial. I get that it’s not easy for some people, at least, it wasn’t easy for me. Someone had to remind me to not put celebrities on a pedestal, I thought I understood it in my head long ago but I guess I didn’t. I shouldn’t force upon my own values to these people just because I look up to them, really.

One thing remains the same is -- this one adultery doesn’t negate everything we love about him in the past, but unfortunately, what he does in the future will not negate what he did here either. At the end of the day, I can be disappointed all I want but it’s their life and their privacy -- I have no right to judge or probe further as a stranger.

EDIT: Came back after some sleep... dang that was so out of character (╯ಠ_ಠ）╯︵ ┳━┳

Anyway, I noticed I didn’t use my modal verbs. Got lazy but the worst thing I can do is quote Bunshun in a declarative statement.

It’s been quite dejecting the moment I saw how Okamoto only affirmed that “the matters (こと含め)” were true, without denying that anything was false. It’s probably still safe to say that the gist of the scandal is true.

Regardless though, there’s no reason for me or anyone to trust Bunshun’s claims that they actually called up the agency to confirm when they probably just made something up or stalked Okamoto around, but got lucky in the process with their dubious sources. So I’ll go and add “apparently” to my post now.

Ugh, I just wanna delete this. Why’d I end up linking Bunshun as if to contribute to this unwarranted attention. In the meantime, I’m glad that we have a follow-up from both Ogame and Okamoto today. Hope they’re talking it out properly among themselves :)))

#okamoto nobuhiko #oogame asuka

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sushigal007 · 4 years

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The Sharpe Household

Now I know I still haven’t finished posting all my genderswapped uberhood pictures yet, but now I’ve edited this draft, I absolutely do not trust Tumblr to save the changes, so I’m just gonna go ahead and post it. So! Back to my uberhood, where it’s time to tackle the second University subhood, Academie Le Tour! Our first stop is the Sharpe Household.

Here’s their cute little house.

Unfortunately, because it was made pre-Seasons, I had to spend a whole chunk of money making their attic work.

As in, ripped out all the wallpaper and floors to do it. In the end, I couldn’t even afford the spiral staircase, so they can’t actually get up there yet.

Anyway, the household consists of Jonah Powers, who has a rather unfortunate-looking face, Roxie Sharpe, who we already met, and her dorky baby brother, Edwin. Roxie and Jonah turned out to be triple-bolt Romance Sims, so I don’t even get to finish makeovers before they wind up glued at the lips.

Edwin happens to be a Knowledge Sim and so instantly rolls a want to write his term paper, so I locked that and made him work out. Need that sweet, sweet A+ money to redecorate!

Meanwhile, Roxie and Jonah went out to Skin Graffiti to get some new tatts painted on their skin rather than on their outfits. Roxie: Where’s the stylists though? I was kinda wanting some new lipstick.

Yeeppppp, it was an owned lot and there was supposed to be two stylists and a cashier, but when I sent them , there was just the regular game generated teen cashier. I wasn’t sure if maybe it was something to do with them being YAs and daring to venture beyond the Uni subhood, so I loaded up my townie business owner and checked the business info and got this rather ominous pop-up. Several others were the same, so I sold them all, bulldozed a couple and brought this one back. Hopefully it was just a random glitch and won’t happen again!

I then sent them to the student center to pick up their welcome packs and try out the custom food stands. Unfortunately, the chef kept erroring out. Happily that turned out to be a much easier fix - I’d just accidentally deleted the food during my mass CC purge.

In the meantime though, it’s time to go home and eat dinner in the unpapered kitchen. At least there’s floors now!

Roxie: I wanted soup. Next time, pinky swear.

I moved the bass downstairs so they could use it. Jonah: :D

Edwin: Do you have to? Jonah: YES.

I got tired of making Edwin work out in front of the TV. You need tons of space for it, and it’s ANNOYING. So I sent him to the pool instead.

You can’t afford it. Jonah: Watch me buy it anyway. (He didn’t even get to drink it, some dormie snuck by and yoinked it before he got the chance.)

Roxie: AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Turns out her OTH is Music and Dance, so it’s nice to have a ‘musician’ Sim who’s actually into music.

She is not into games. Roxie: Why are you doing this to me? Because you wanna write your term paper and you need a logic point.

Delilah O'Feefe invited herself in and made a beeline for Edwin.

Specifically, Edwin’s lips.

Edwin: *SPLAT* Perhaps she’s an energy vampire.

Jonah: Oops.

Jonah: I REALLY REGRET DOING THIS IN MY UNDERWEAR! Delilah: NOT AS MUCH AS I DO!!!

First semester grades.

Roxie: Babe, you could just wait until I’m done. Jonah: I could, but I don’t want to.

I guess all that personal hygiene got them in the mood.

Jonah: Goodbye virginity! Roxie: Goodbye your virginity! Jonah: And yours. Roxie: Of course!

Edwin: Excuse me, coming through.

Family dinner in the newly redecorated kitchen.

Coach: GET DOWN AND GIVE ME FIFTY! Jonah: I’m busy. Coach: I DON’T GIVE A RAT’S ASS!

Jonah: Fine, I’ll do the stupid situps.

Jonah: Gonna cry about it though.

Back to the student cener! Everybody rolled wants to write their term papers this time, so I was able to order Roxie and Jonah to play chess.

And the food stand’s all fixed! Jonah: Soup-er!

Roxie: You cheated. Jonah: Only at chess! Roxie: What are you insinuating!? Jonah: Uh, nothing? What? Roxie: What?

Term paper time!

Has Roxie left because Jonah cheated or because of his stanky armpits? You decide!

Actually it’s because she needs another charisma point.

Roxie: I DON’T WANNA DO THIS. Yes you do! It’s literally in your wants panel!

Roxie: NUH-UH AND YOU CAN’T MAKE ME! IT’S LITERALLY AT 99%!

Edwin: Well this is awkward.

Some pool.

While Jonah works on his term paper.

Finally, ten million years later, they go home.

Llama Mascot: Gimme a woo! Gimme a hoo! You’ll be lucky if they don’t give you a punch.

Edwin: Noooo my dinner!

Streaker: Would a little naked hula make you feel better? Edwin: No it would not. Streaker: Killjoy.

I think this is the first time Jonah’s managed to take an actual bath! Jonah: It’s overrated.

Edwin: Just playing a movie in my head before I go to sleep. Any good? Edwin: Yep, except there was a single line of dialogue I didn’t like and now I have to start the entire thing from the beginning.

Oh, Jonah didn’t finish his term paper at the student union, so he’s doing that now. Jonah: Idea!

Roxie: Yay, drums!

Roxie: Wait, I’m hungry. Roxie: Time to play bass guitar!

I decided to try and find out Jonah’s OTH. It’s not science. Jonah: The stars are still pretty though.

Roxie guitar spam.

Edwin: So the thing is, you’ve really gotta- Jonah: LA LA LA DON’T GIVE A SHIT.

I guess Edwin decided his revenge would be cockblocking. Edwin: Good night, sweet sister.

Really creepy cockblocking. Edwin: I shall watch over you all night. Roxie: SNORRRRRE.

It didn’t work.

Edwin: It’s not that I don’t like you, you just set off all my warning sirens. Jonah: Rude.

A+ all round!

A little sibling football.

Cockblocking again? Why don’t you use your own room? Edwin: It’s busy.

Roxie: Is it hot in here or is it just me?

Edwin: Fada soola gor! Jonah: Fada soola SHUT UP.

Edwin: We can play football though? Jonah: Sure!

Jonah: THINK FAST, NERD!

Roxie: I’m so smart, go me.

She’s feeling so smart, she decides to try her hand at making robots.

Roxie: Robots were boring, decided to do something better with my hands.

Roxie: Which is your cue to leave. Cheerleader: But but but... balls.

Cheerleader: You guys are done, right?

Cheerleader: Harder! Better! Faster! Stronger!

Jonah: DO YOU MIND!? Cheerleader: Lol no.

Cheerleader: WOO TERM PAPER!

That’s disgusting. Jonah: Eh, I’ve had worse in my mouth.

I like family dinners.

Robot repairs.

Roxie playing drums in her underoos.

Roxie wanted a music player, so I let her go and buy one.

Roxie: -And it was THIS big!

Edwin: Please can we move the bathroom door some place else? Anywhere else?

A first kiss soon soothes the mental scarring.

Jonah: She’s NAKED!

Roxie: And aiiiiiiieiiiiiiiieiiiiiiiii will always love yooooooooooooooo...

A+ all round again!

I feel like impaling Roxie to kill the roaches is a slightly extreme reaction.

Roxie: Candy counts as groceries, right? YES.

Jonah: And stretch, two three four...

Edwin: Ew, snow.

Edwin: Ew, roaches.

Skillz.

But not the skills she needs, so it’s back out to the student union to play chess against random teenagers.

Jonah: Help, I’m stinky. *gorilla impression*

Oh, I was tired of roaches, so I tried fencing the bin in on three sides to see if that would stop people kicking it over. Marla: It doesn’t. Excuse me, what the fuck did they do to you to deserve bin kicking?

Marla: Me? Kick bins? I would never! I’m the nicest possible person! I literally just watched you do it.

Roxie: You’re damn lucky I don’t have enough influence points to make you clean, but if you do it again, I will break your fingers.

Oh, Jonah wants to fuck more people and befriend his professor, so why not screw two birds with one woohoo? Jonah: Hello professor, you’re looking very sexy today. Now please leave, Roxie’s due home in ten minutes.

Roxie: Hi professor! Do you wanna build a snowman? Professor: NO I DO NOT.

And the semester ends with a few grades slipping. Oh well, at least everybody passed!

UBERHOOD INDEX

#sims 2 #premades #Uberhood #sharpe

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ridiculousn3sswrites · 5 years

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Not Your Sugar

*Hamilton Fic, No Pairing

*Request: @musicgoddessog asked: Can you do a Hamilton fic with a black reader where the reader is Hamilton’s cousin from the Caribbean and she goes with him to a cabinet meeting. Everyone doubt her, but it turns out she’s really smart. I feel like not many people write black x readers for this fandom even though the cast is full of minorities.

*Warnings: Swearing, I think. Let me know if I missed anything.

*A/N: Sorry this request took me so long, for a while it was really hard to come up with anything that would do it justice. I changed the prompt a bit, instead of a cabinet meeting, Reader goes with Hamilton to a meeting with Jefferson and Madison. SO I WENT TO EDIT THE TAGS ON THE APP AND GUESS WHO ACCIDENTALLY DELETED THE ENTIRE POST HAHA THANKS TUMBLR VERY COOL

Outfit

**********

You’d been planning this trip to New York for a while now. It’d been years since you’d been able to see your cousin and his family, and you were excited. Alexander had been constantly talking to you about all the bullshit he’d been going through at work, and you couldn’t wait to give your two-cents to Alexander’s coworkers. Well, as much as you could without getting him fired. You were actually confident that you could get away with a lot considering how much you knew Alexander undoubtedly got away with at work. The second you landed at JFK, you couldn’t help but feel the excitement overtaking you.

Once you dealt with all the nonsense of going through customs, Alex and Eliza got you from the airport. The last time you’d seen them had been at their wedding, and now you were greeted by their little nine-year-old son. You couldn’t believe how much time had passed, but that didn’t matter now. You were here for about a month and you already had so much that you needed to do. Sure you were going to have fun while you were here, but you were also determined to get something done in the meantime.

You were looking forward to hanging out with Alexander and his family, but you were pleasantly surprised by the group waiting for you at their house. Eliza planned a welcome party for you, inviting Alexander’s close friends and her sisters, all people you hadn’t seen since the wedding nine years ago. You got along well enough with everyone, especially Eliza’s older sister. Both of you worked in the public sphere; Angelica lobbying for interest groups, and you working as a representative in the government.

The two of you were in a passionate discussion about representation in your respective governments. You were one of the four women in the National Assembly of St. Kitts and Nevis, and even though there were only fifteen members of the Assembly, representation was still a major issue in your book. As you and Angelica were talking, it seemed like one of Alexander’s friends - John, if you remembered correctly - was drawn to your conversation. It wasn’t all that surprising; Alexander and a lot of his friends were very political beings, so a conversation about politics was bound to grab someone’s attention.

John stood nearby, waiting for the conversation to come to a natural lull before addressing you. “So, how do you know so much about politics? Is it a hobby or something?” John asked, the sincerity in his voice slightly taking you off-guard. Sure, you were used to the casually ignorant comments from people who weren’t really well-versed in politics, but it was new coming from someone who had such a politically active group of friends. Angelica in particular didn’t like John’s comment, already shooting him a fatal glare.

“I’m actually a member of the National Assembly,” you explained. John immediately read the room, feeling the slight tension coming from you and the definite tension coming from Angelica.

“I’m so sorry, I didn’t know. Alexander talks about you a lot but he never told us what you do for a living,” John apologized profusely. His apology seemed genuine enough, so you decided to let it go. It wouldn’t do anyone good for you to tear John a new one for something he seemed to genuinely not be aware of. No, you could save that for people that were ignorant, and then assholes about it.

**********

The first week was spent sight-seeing, primarily with Eliza and little Philip since Alex was so busy with work. You absolutely adored the two, but you were eager to go to work with Alex and see how his government worked on the inside. You had a feeling he was waiting for things to calm down a bit at work, because if there was one thing you shared with Alexander, it was your temper.

You’d just come back to the Hamilton household from another day of sightseeing with Philip and Eliza when you heard Alexander practically yelling on his phone. Eliza immediately sent Philip to his room, so you could tell this wasn’t the first time work had followed Alex home. Then again, if you worked in politics, you never really got to leave work at work. You could only imagine how it was for Alexander.

Once Philip was back in his room, you and Eliza made your way to Alexander’s office. Alex looked like he was two seconds away from murdering whoever was on the other end of the phone call. Eliza gave you a look that let you know this definitely wasn’t the first time this had happened. Alexander shot you both a pained look, as if either of you’d be able to stop whatever the person on the other end was saying. He finally hung up with an exaggerated sigh, spinning in his chair to fully face you and Eliza. Eliza went and sat on the arm of his desk chair, wrapping her arms around him. “What happened this time?”

“Madison and Jefferson are trying to block the bill I’m backing,” Alex whined as he rested his head on Eliza’s chest. “Now Washington wants me to have a meeting with them to try and compromise.”

“Were you yelling at Washington?” Eliza asked. Alex nodded, a glum look on his face. “Alexander, you know there’s only so much he’ll tolerate from you. You’re going to have to go to this meeting.”

“It’s not like going to this meeting will end up any different than the cabinet meetings. They’ll just end up ganging up on me and no progress will be made,” Alex complained.

“I can mediate if you need me to,” you offered. “You won’t be outnumbered that way, and as long as it’s public information, you won’t get in trouble, right?”

“That’s actually not a terrible idea. I’ll probably have to clear it with Washington, but I don’t think he’ll have a problem with it,” Alex said, looking at you. “Promise you’ll behave though?”

“I know for a fact you never do, why should I?” You questioned with a raised brow. “We’re Hamiltons, Alex, it’s not like it’s in our nature to behave.” The thing was, you could tell exactly why Alexander was telling you to behave. It was the exact same reason you’d always been told to behave as you were growing up. While your cousin definitely inherited the light skinned genes in your family (definitely from his father), you got the black genes. People always tended to look down on you with your dark skin and curly hair. Throw that in with the fact that you were a woman, and you always had to ‘behave’ if you wanted to be taken seriously. You could easily challenge Alexander on stuff like this, but with other people it was a bit more difficult. You weren’t stupid, you knew how these things worked.

Alexander let out a resigned sigh, knowing his words of caution wouldn’t be able to stop you like he would have preferred. The thing was, you were willing to hold your tongue to keep your cousin out of trouble, but the second someone disrespected or underestimated you, all hell would break loose. “Just please don’t get me fired,” Alex told you after a few more seconds.

“I’ll try my hardest not to get you fired,” you promised, trying to hold in your excitement at finally being able to go with Alexander to work.

**********

It only took a few days for Washington to clear you for the meeting, and before you knew it, you and Alexander were on your way to the White House. After you got your security pass, Alexander led you through the halls of the building. He was going through the ‘rules’ for you, each of which you took with a grain of salt. If anything, you were way better behaved on your worst days than Alexander would ever be, so it wasn’t like he could give you any advice that was actually worthwhile.

“Okay, and most importantly, don’t let me get into a fight with Jefferson. I’ve already hit him once and I feel like Washington won’t let it slide this time,” Alexander explained as you reached the conference room.

“I don’t think I let it slide the last time, Hamilton,” someone said, walking up behind you. Alex immediately straightened his posture, so you were pretty sure you knew who was behind you. That wasn’t even considering the conversation he intervened in.

“Mr. President,” Alexander greeted. You turned, and sure enough, the President was standing right behind you, a few Secret Service agents standing a few feet back.

“Secretary Hamilton. Representative Hamilton, I presume?” Washington said, holding his hand out to you.

“President Washington, it’s an honor. Thank you for letting me come in to work with Alexander,” you said, shaking his hand.

“Of course. From where this conversation was going, I can see that Hamilton needs supervision for the meeting.” You almost missed Washington’s dry humor, not expecting something like that right from the start. From everything you’d heard about the President, he was a very serious man.

“He’s needed my supervision since we were kids,” you decided to joke back. You heard Alexander’s small noise of protest from beside you, but you were more focused on the slight chuckle Washington gave in response. You felt a small burst of pride, and you could immediately tell why Alexander always wanted to make Washington proud, even if he wouldn’t admit it.

“If you don’t mind, Representative Hamilton, I’d like to have a word with Secretary Hamilton before the meeting.” You nodded, knowing Alex was probably going to get a set of rules similar to the one he was trying to give you.

“Of course. I’ll see you inside, then,” you told Alex, placing a hand on his shoulder. Alex nodded, but you could already feel the tension in him. You took one last look at the two before entering the conference room, shocked to find the other members of the meeting already sitting there. They paused mid-conversation and just stared at you. “Oh, hello.”

“Sorry, sugar, we have this conference room booked for a very important meeting in a few minutes,” one of them addressed you as if he were talking to a child. You recognized him from the news, and the magenta tie he was wearing just gave it away even more. Secretary of State, Thomas Jefferson. You couldn’t help but immediately arch a brow at his use of the pet name.

“I’m not-”

“Unless you’re Hamilton’s secretary, then you're more than welcome to join us until Hamilton arrives. I heard he hired a new one, but I haven’t had the chance to see who it was until now,” the other man - who you could only presume to be James Madison - directed the last part to Jefferson, only momentarily addressing you. Jefferson immediately perked up at the prospect of you being a secretary.

“Oh, are you? I could really use some coffee then, sweetheart.” Again with the pet names. You couldn’t help the slight frown that already threatened your cool façade.

“I’m not Hamilton’s secretary, and the whole coffee thing sounds more like something an assistant would do as opposed to a secretary,” you replied, tone icy. “Though I don’t suppose you’d see the difference, since they’re both traditionally female roles.”

“So, then, who are you?” Madison asked, choosing to ignore your sass. You were glad Madison asked, because if Jefferson threw one more pet name at you, you were sure you’d end up throwing a punch. It wasn’t difficult to see why Alexander didn’t like Jefferson; Jefferson was just so condescending with every word that left his mouth.

“I am Representative Hamilton of the National Assembly of St. Kitts and Nevis.” The formal introduction with your full title was always a power move. You straightened your back, looking both men directly in the face. Madison couldn’t look you in the eyes, eyes darting everywhere to avoid yours, as he took out a handkerchief to cough into. Jefferson, on the other hand, just had an amused little smirk on his face and a glimpse of something you couldn’t quite place in his eyes. It was like he’d roped you into playing his game without even knowing what the game was just yet.

“Okay, sugar-”

“Not your sugar,” you immediately cut Jefferson off. “I’m here to mediate the meeting between the three of you, so it would do you well to behave professionally, Secretary Jefferson.”

“I can definitely see how you’re related to Hamilton,” Madison muttered. You had to stop yourself from rolling your eyes; it probably wouldn’t help Alex if you antagonized the people he was supposed to come to an agreement with. Before anyone could annoy anyone else further, the door to the conference room opened.

“Sorry I’m late, President Washington wanted to talk to me outside,” Alex said, closing the door behind him. He looked at the group in front of him, and immediately sensed that something bad had happened in the whole five minutes he’d been talking to Washington. “(Y/n), what happened?”

“Secretary Jefferson here decided to call me pet names, and then Representative Madison made the assumption that I’m your new secretary,” you explained, going to take a seat across from the two in question. Alexander quickly masked his shock as he took the seat next to you. With the drop of his binder on the table, you knew it was time. “Right then, gentlemen, shall we begin this meeting?”

**********

The meeting was pretty standard as political affairs go, although there were the occasional personal jabs from both sides. There was a lot of back and forth, with no real progress being made either way. Whenever you could tell Alex was getting too heated, you placed a hand on his arm to keep him grounded. During a particularly nasty bout, you couldn’t help but reel in disbelief at Jefferson’s words.

“I don’t understand why you’re pushing so hard for this. You know it’s just going to increase the deficit further. Shouldn’t you actually care about what’s going on in our budget, Secretary of the Treasury?” Jefferson questioned, an obvious jab. Alex was about to say something, but you just held your hand out to stop him.

“No, I’ve got it,” you said. “Secretary Jefferson, I don’t know how to explain to you that you should have compassion for others. This is a bill for healthcare reform, for God’s sake. And I don’t know if you’re aware of this, but both of your state’s constituents would greatly benefit from this bill. To be honest, I’d expect a movie villain of some type to attempt to block a bill that would help those who are the most financially and medically vulnerable, but I’m watching this stereotypical plot unfold right in front of me. It’s sickening.”

The silence that flooded the room was almost suffocating, no one expecting that outburst. You could feel the heat flooding your face as you found yourself the center of attention, but you didn’t regret it one bit. It was a matter of humanity at this point, and you couldn’t even believe that this topic was up for discussion, let alone debate.

After your outburst, the rest of the meeting proceeded without (too many) further arguments. It seemed like Jefferson and Madison needed that scolding to come to their senses. When the meeting finally ended, there hadn’t been much progress, but there was slight progress in Alexander’s favor. You and Alex left the conference room, already talking about plans for lunch since the meeting took so long.

“Representative Hamilton, wait!” Jefferson called out from behind you. You and Alexander paused, turning to see Jefferson quickly approaching the two of you.

“Secretary Jefferson,” you acknowledged, still irritated with his attitude during the meeting.

“I have to admit, the way you held yourself in that meeting was incredible. I’ve met few people that can hold their own like that. Would you like to grab a drink with me later?” You looked over at Alex, who seemed to barely be keeping it together. You, on the other hand, saw your opening to get back at him for all the little condescending comments he made, the pompous way he held himself, everything that made you dislike him within minutes of meeting him.

“I’d rather be in another hurricane,” you replied with the most sincerity you could manage. You heard Alexander choke on air beside you.

“I beg your pardon?” Jefferson asked.

“Then beg. C’mon, sugar, I thought you’d be smarter than to ask out someone you just spent the past few hours patronizing.” That time Alexander couldn’t hold in his laugh. With a tight-lipped smile, you turned on your heel and proceeded to walk down the hall, Alexander following close behind.

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leviathiane · 4 years

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SHOW US YOUR WROR RAW UNPROCESSED WHOLE GRAIN ORGANIC NOTES

this is going to be a long-ass post i am so sorry to Everyone! i take a lot of notes.

So, as You specifically know (as well as all of my lovely Soggers) I take a LOT of notes. Obsessively. I write fucking everything bc i have very little memory and very much paranoia. This results in literal Piles of notes. Raw planning, on paper, on my phone– doodles of scenes im brainstorming, bulletpoints, entire SCRIPTS– it’s all there but scattered (I’ve got scenes planned in the margins of my goddamn anthropology notes and deciphering it was a NIGHTMARE)

I won’t even upload all the photos of my writing notebook, because itd be like 50 pages of illegible nonesense. but heres a couple of planning phase pages. (may be hard to read, I dropped this notebook both into some tidepools, into a creek on campus, and accidentally leaked my waterbottle onto it in my backpack :/)

if you can’t tell already, yes they all look exactly like this. Some are even more illegible, because I wrote them with the notebook half under my actual class notes. Because i wrote most of them in class. During lectures. And pretending very badly that i was not doing exactly that. (pay attention in class please i got away with this bc i was filling up elective units)

I’m also flat out MISSING a large portion of my notes bc some of it? isnt even in the damn notebook. its on a sheet of binder paper, or on the empty back of an assignment. I’ve now lost most of those notes, but the ones i do still have are just as (even more, actually) indecipherable chicken scratch:

Wow, how clean and tidy and easy to follow! i am in hell.

and this doesnt mention the PAGES and PAGES of outlines that are on my laptop, and the pages of outlined scenes that are on the notes app of my phone. if i put them all, you would have entire chapter spoilers up to the very end of the story so i cant post a lot of them– and also theres just a goddamn lot of them. currently i have 16 pages of outlining. There are no spacing breaks. It is a solid 16 page block of text. Looking at it gives me a migraine.

some assorted notes which i have dredged up from the deleted parts of the main draft google doc go all the way back to when i started Wror in June and they are Barely more readable than my handwriting on sheer account of: articulation is not my strength. These include:

“Ch 8 plan: sabo gets trained specially, awakens his armament haki, beats ace in a bunch of spars and proves himself to be anything but vulnerable. The boys are like “we fucking recognize that technique ryu taught you before us!!” and goad ryu into finally starting them both on basic haki training, just to awaken it, since sabo already has. Also this is the chapter that ace finally confronts ryu for his devil fruit after ryu confirms that some devil fruit users can’t be hurt without haki and ace immediately catches onto that and tries to slam his pipe through ryus head. It doesn’t work, ryu catches the weapon with a haki covered hand, to avoid turning to flame with hit and ace just gets frustrated and accuses ryu of hiding his devil fruit, because he remembers what he saw in grey terminal and that now that he has seen haki he can distinguish it from what he saw and he’s sure no one could do what ryu did. He calls ryu a hypocrite for coddling them even after telling them to stop coddling sabo and ryu has to sit them down and explain that yes he does have powers and he has been hdiing it and explains his reasoning. However instead of understanding th eboys just get fired up and say they don’t wnt to be scared of fire, especially not when it means ryu isn’t taking them seriously in a spar. Ryu finally agrees to start them on desensitization training for fire trauma. Fire desensitization training happens on the beach, so that they have water nearby in case things get out of hand. At some point ace gives ryu a considering look and is just like “if you have a devil fruit that means you can’t swim either right?” and ryu is basically just like “lmao yeah” and then ace immediately attempts to drown him. Lots of murder attempts in ace’s department toget his older brother to be less of an idiot with little success lol(extra: ace tried to attack ryu earlier both to confirm that ryu has a devil fruit that would force him to use haki to hide it, and because he now knows that he CAN’T hurt ryu without haki and as thus can’t beat him and make him admit he’s awake without being good at haki.)” [chapter 8]

“Small sabo lost his hat and goggles in the incident and while he doesn’t remember having them future sabo notices he looks uncomfortable and keeps touching his hair and head. Ace yells at him for it thinking he bandaging are bothering him and that he can’t touch them but little sabo just comments that something about it feels wrong. Luffy blurts our that he had a hat, like luffy does, But he doesn’t now ace begrudgingly mentions that they can’t get a new one in town. Future sabo doesn’t even hesitate and just plops his own hat onto his younger selves head. It clearly too big for him, and almost falls over his eyes but he grins up at future sabo and is like “wow!! Thank you! I’ll take care of it till I have one of my own” and creates a paradox like Luffys own hat. The footsteps younger sabo has yet to fill. This HAS to happen AFTER the talk where they explain that future and past sabo are both the same person, to give little sabo that pressure.” [chapter 9]

“(Right after this older sabo takes them down to the ocean so that they can play a little and desensitize themselves and immediately fucks himself over when he goes weak in the water bc he somehow fucking forgot his own devil fruit again and now even younger sabo is on his case about not letting him near the fucking ocean that little goddamn HYPOCRITE—) )” [for chapter 9]

“Ch 9 plan: they finally leave dawn island. Starts with the boys getting a haircut after training and luffy mentions how long it’s been since they’ve last needed a haircut, giving sabo and ace time to point out that it’s been 2 months now since ryu joined them, and that sabo was completely healed by now. The boys are now aware of the basics of haki, and while luffy hasnt awakened either yet ace and sabo both have a little bit of weak armament haki. (sabo won’t awaken observational haki until he gets his memories back) ryu tries to sneak off into the city to steal a boat but his brothers refuse to leave him behind and keep sneaking out after him, not wanting him to go alone and saying that since he’s been training them they’re clearly stronger and he needs to let them do this. Ryu eventually just lets it go because why the fuck not it’s a dream and they make him feel better. They get the boat out on open ocean and finally fucking sail out, cheering loudly, ryu struggling to make them all calm down but also not really trying. He’s happy as shit, and they’re all so excited and happy and sabo dips a hand into the waves and then smiles so fucking wide and tackles ryu so violently they both nearly tip into the water and it’s just very very good. “ [also for ch 9]

** I flat out dont Have any outlining from before chapter 6, because i only started actually outling chapters after that. i tend to just sit down and Write up until i hit a plot point or writers block and then am forced to actually think it through and plan rather than letting it come naturally. thats also why the quality and editing is better in later chapters despite everything being written within the same time frame.

besides entire chapter outlines, there are the scene specific phone notes like:

“(ADDED) Right after they leave dawn, when sabo is sure they’ve gotten enough of a head start, he calls Garp. He doesn’t say who he is, but that all of the boys are safe and happy with him and has them all talk into the phone to assure him that they’re fine. Garp is honestly just pissed off he doesn’t know who’s calling and when he asks sabo just laughs and says a disobedient brat before hanging up. “

“(ADDED) TO EXPAND ON CH 3: sabo gets offered the chance to go with dragon, and he hesitates on the offer to go through with his previous life with the family he’s made in the revolutionary again. He almost agrees, because the bought of losing them in this lifetime is near excruciating but reminds himself swiftly that it’s no place for his brothers and not what they’d really want, and he wants selfishly to be with them as long as he Can until he “inevitably” wakes up. The boys are visibly relieved by this, especially ace. (Sabo gets asked who he is by dragon, who wants to know more about the stranger with his son, but dragon has always been quicker to make connections no one guessed and he just smiled knowingly at sabo and tells him he’s sure the other will have no trouble finding them if he’s in need. Sabo in turn warns him to keep Kuma close, and to look for a slave girl named koala.)”

I have…. many of these. I have Many of Everything.

finally, i have scene doodles. if i hit a bad writers block it usually helps me to sketch scenes or the character designs to regain my grip on what the hell is happening in the plot– Breach of Intention has character design sketches, pakcbond has MANY scene sketches, even some of my nsfw has some sketches. my wror skecthes arent Good of course, I am an art teacher for children and that means i am more often explaining the color wheel and brush techniques over drawing perfect human replicas– and i just dont really make a lot of fanart? ive never drawn sabo before but i sure have a bunch now. i wont include close ups because they genuinely suck but heres an example pic

So… yeah thats about everything. this is a VERY long post and yet i only included like maybe ¼ or 1/5 of all the notes i have dbskhjgfkjadns lmk if anyone wants more (or notes for my Other stories, which contain NO WHERE the same absurd amount of shit that wror does.)

#depths' ask #response #idk what to even tag this honestly?? this post is such a mess abhdsjfgdkjn #thanks mido love u dear 💕🎉 im gonna want some damn notes on second chances heads up #wror #wror stockpile #touchmycoat #i started this response at goddamn 3:52am and its now 4:40am #it took me. almost an HOUR #oh my god

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fcrmula-moved · 4 years

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oh hey there

remember me? probably not but in any case i’m back... kind of. not OFFICIALLY yet, and i’m gonna remake before i’m actually back for real, but thought i should say that hey i’m makin my return and to say what exactly i’m going to be doing, and you can see a big ol ramble under the cut down there if you’re curious!

anyways, having finished writing everything under said cut, i dunno if i covered everything i SHOULD have covered, but i can’t think of anything more to add to it, so eh whatever. if y’all got questions feel free to ask, i’ll be keeping an eye on things over here even while working on the new blog and maybe posting updates and whatnot. you can also hmu if you want to do something together once i’m actually done and ready to go! (please. please do. i’m actually very nervous.)

i’m looking forward to coming back, hope you can all understand why i’m changing things, and desperately praying you’ll like what i do change! see you all soon :-)

so. why i stopped rping in the first place? several reasons.

i was not on prozac and felt very sad very easily.

i got bored with my portrayal of n for... a lot of reasons... stagnancy being one of the more major issues though. i wrote myself into a corner in many many ways and it sucked.

felt like i had to keep the same Basic N Concept that i made when i was... 17... because even though my n was now complex, it was still using the base from then and i wouldn’t be able to deviate from that without basically having to start over again and i felt like i shouldn’t/couldn’t do that and that just felt very awful all the time

why am i coming back now? well i have to be honest here it’s mostly swsh that even put this drive into me in the first place, but the reason i’m actually following the impulse instead of dismissing it is for a few reasons:

i stopped when i was an emotionally unstable teenager and now i am adequately medicated and no longer a teenager

every attempt i have made to rp off of tumblr has fizzled out in one way or another and it’s Absolute Torment. i have been bored for months on end. i’m emotionally stable but still occasionally don’t get out of bed because i just don’t have anything to do so there isn’t any point. it is hell and i want out

raihan is really really really hot

what am i going to do now that i’m back and what’s gonna change?

i’m not gonna rp this edition of n again. we had some good times and all but he’s staying in 2018. i’m not even gonna call it “resetting” him, because that’d imply i’m returning him to the base n i started with back in 2017 and... uh... no, no we are not doing that. new n. brand new. sorry to anyone i had established stuff with, and sorry to anyone who finds that they preferred my old n, but Mr Griffin Just Can’t Do This Shit No More

i’m still kinda workshopping new n, but i also know who he’s gonna be, just not sure like. where in the timeline he’s at. new n is a version of n that i only scarcely got to Try Out For Maybe 4 Posts when i was still active on here. new n is a lot more distant and aloof, depressed as shit all the time, inexpressive and unintentionally intimidating. fresh new boy. traumatised as hell and very lonely. that’s our new n

i will be making a fresh new blog, because although i’m not going back to the portrayal i used on here/enharmonics, i also don’t wanna delete everything, yknow? i am gonna use this url though

there’s a good chance that i’ll be making a raihan as well, though i’m not sure when, nor am i 100% sure that i’ll go through with it but let’s face it i probably will. i’m at the very least barring myself from that until i’ve actually finished swsh, because i haven’t actually done that yet, because despite the fact that i’ve been ready to go fight leon for days now i have not felt Ready, not because my pokemon aren’t strong enough they’re actually severely and accidentally overleveled no it’s because i don’t feel mentally or emotionally prepared i have had the game since the day it came out and i’ve logged 68 hours of gameplay and it was only a few days ago i beat the semifinals and finals and rose and have not advanced the plot at all since then

changes to my rules are imminent, and since i’ve just seen my mun page and realized how outdated it is i feel like i oughta note: if you haven’t already guessed, mr griffin is me. my name is griffin. calling me n is cool too but like my NAME-name is griffin. i sorta figured i was already going by griffin by the time i stopped using this blog but nope and honestly i am not fully sure why i assumed that

things i think i should note:

my family and i are moving sometime this month, it’s roughly an hour and a half drive to the new place and the date we’re planning on officially moving in is only a few days before christmas, so things are probably going to be kinda busy for me

i might look into applying for college once we get there and things have settled down a tad

in other words though i am coming back and do intend to be active i also uh kinda became an adult with ambitions and while i’m more stable i also still haven’t stopped having adhd or autism because that’s just a thing that can’t happen. just fyi

#﹙ooc.﹚#long post under the cut #[profuse sweating as i post this]#pokerp #pkrp

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i just started reading your blumenthal kids reunionfic and i LOVE IT! Its so good and so full of potential and angst and I LOVE IT!!!💞💞💞 The way you write Eodwulf is soooo good hes such a mess and so gay help him. and Astrid Omg... I cant wait for more of her i checked out some of your posts on here and shes just great??? You've clearly put a lot of thought into them with the child designs and stuff, did you have any major inspo for the two of them like songs or other characters and stuff???

hey tumblr dont…delete part of my answer what the heck

anyway!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH,,, ed ( @tactfulgrimalkin ) is the one doing the actual writing but we plan everything together and i edit and do artwork so he deserves lots of love for the great writing…i dont remember what else i had here before tumblr deleted it so i hope thats the gist of it

eodwulf is a gay disaster of a bastard man and astrid is SO fun and im SO GLAD UR EXCITED TOO BECAUSE WE SURE ARE

anyway you just opened pandora’s box and i’m very sorry for the length of the rest of this answer but here we go prepare for some cursed content necessary to answer that question ( | ) w ( | ) it was a Wild Ride getting these two characters to where they are boy howdy

so the thing is in order to explain how we created these characters i actually have to get into the origins of the fic on the whole because the two are inextricably linked, and also, the origins of this fic are incredibly cursed and you can send all ur hatemail right here go on blast us we’re ready

but we were talking about caleb and how we’re both excited for whenever astrid and eodwulf turn up, and the thought came up for basically the rough skeleton of that scene in chapter 2:

“hey how messed up would it be if instead of them both hunting him down like we’re expecting…one of them comes in with a huge savior complex and sincerely thinks he’s delusional and should still be in the asylum, how MESSED UP would that be”

…and then shortly after that, this happened

thats the cursed part dont say i didnt warn u but listen you know we’re right

also that pic of caduceus didnt exist back then i went back and got this screenshot just to share the curse with you all

ANYWAY

in classic us format we got carried away and eodwulf got slotted into the role of that scene in chapter two and his character was largely developed around that scene, like, what kind of person would still be clinging to caleb after all this time to that degree to make that happen? and what was come up with was an extremely avoidant person clinging to a fantasy version of things wherein they don’t have to fight

(eodwulf was developed into a Person before astrid, i should note at this point, and ed did most of that developing; i took point on astrid later on)

but around this time i went “screw it im gonna do some concept art we’re both in too deep now” so here’s some of that for u guys

started with them all as teens and did a couple sketches as well as one of baby (well. teen. so baby) caleb/bren/we were calling him felix at the time as some of u probably already know

first draft had astrid with longer hair than eodwulf lmao check this out

flipped the hair length on those two which was for the best because at the time we were imagining eodwulf as a bit more mischevious which is another thing that got reversed over time now astrids the prankster and eodwulfs the overworked mom friend because bren takes astrid’s ideas and makes them SO MUCH WORSE but he still looks better with longer hair and then i played around w/ colors for a while and wound up w/ this

voila, the initial kid concepts, to which subtle yet vital changes were made after time. if any of you are curious about if im frustrated that that’s still the best i’ve ever drawn eodwulf’s nose the answer is yes. yes i am.

astrid’s hair is not messy enough, theres not enough freckles, and she does not look ready to fight the entire world for a dare. 0/10.

anyway then i did adult versions which look WAY OFF NOW LMAO

eodwulf with way too much beard, looking far too messy when he ought to look very clean so that he can hide how much of a disaster he actually is, and also a glimpse into the very boring Ice Queen/Heartless Bitch we vaguely had astrid as to start with. even more out of character tho is the earring, astrid as she is today would absolutely never tolerate an earring unless she absolutely had to, girl’s got sensory issues but she didn’t back then. ALSO STILL NOT ENOUGH FRECKLE

anyWHO a while after this it was decided that eodwulf has ADHD, something both the authors have a whole lot of lmao, and that was the point where ed REALLY took off and developing eodwulf went out of control and we both went Well I Guess We’re Gonna Have To Write This At Some Point Now

and with that happening is when developing astrid took more priority i think, because man, at that point in the game she came way too close to that really annoying trope that shows up in fanfic a lot wherein The Girl is A Bitch who is Getting In The Way Of ~*The Yaois*~ and thats like, thats bad. we knew from the outset we were absolutely not setting this up as a love triangle because we both hate those but even w/ her having no romantic relationship to either of the two, like…she was kind of just There and the one who was most loyal to trent (the only thing of her original characterization that really stuck, honestly) and sooo boring????

so like, and i say this honestly, i managed to COMPLETELY FORGET that “reverse sasuke” cursed comment from the beginning of all this and STILL go “well what if we made her more like caleb’s rival that’d be fun”

and that’s how astrid sorta wound up accidentally morphing into the Scrappy Underdog of this anime trio and calling her a naruto analogue is extremely cursed but also not inaccurate tbh

started out with the concept of her popping into bren’s window because she heard they were doing magic and wanted to learn it too and evolved from there; we decided that she was gonna be neurodivergent too but, hilariously, initially that she was “the best at pretending to be neurotypical” (WE COMPLETELY REVERSED THAT AND IT IS FOR THE BETTER. SHE’S SO MUCH MORE FUN NOW) and made her also autistic because it one meant she could be like SAME HAT at bren really hard which’d make her feel more like part of the group instead of just the odd one out, and two because it fits with the whole rivals thing

branching off of that we made her just. INCREDIBLY direct. like. astrid’s thought process is “how can i accomplish what i want accomplished with the smallest number of steps? what are the consequences of doing it this way? do i give a shit? no? im gonna do that.”

(which is why she climbed a tree to get into bren’s attic instead of using the door because that way she just completely skipped having to convince his mom to let her in)

i cant get into it much here because so many spoilers and we’re gonna explore it all, but like, astrid’s backstory turned into this exploration of the intersection of sexism and ableism especially as applied to a medieval-esque society in which the word “autism” doesn’t even EXIST and in which a convenient double standard exists Right There in the form of bren and like,, its gonna be good guys im excited for it

as far as characters tho she does also have just a touch of Vimes from discworld to her, albeit like, she’s lawful evil to his lawful good, but she’s got the same tendency to stick REALLY FIERCELY to the rules that she thinks are important, even when they inconvenience her, even if it’d be so much easier to bend them just this once

and for songs i cannot link like any astrid songs because they all might accidentally give away so much BUT I CAN LINK AN EODWULF SONG

youtube

this one was HUGE for him

uhhhh i think that’s everything i can think of that we can say right now unfortunately so i’ll end this with a comparison to the current teen designs we have now that are being used in the actual fic, even tho im not fond of how bren came out in this picture, but like, for the sake of comparison

lets see how far we’ve come

I N C R E A S E F R E C K L E

#longpost #SORRY TO PEOPLE ON MOBILE #zemnianghosts #i also got a lot better at drawing them all over time #just like. so much

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aharris00britney · 6 years

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ASKS 10

‘less weird hairs,’ pics of me, real life questions, seasons thoughts, kpop stuff, ‘are you a boy’ erhdfnv, tutorial questions, edits, ‘safe’ cc, and umm yeah never go camping in the actual woods ok

Anonymous said: Can you do Less weird hair? I Like how good Mesh You make but all styles look Really Weird I never Would use them. I just want Usual hair? Thanks you

Firstly, thank you for the meshing compliment, but tbh I think I make pretty simple hair styles? Like I don’t do many crazy things especially recently? Idk, I hope you like some of my hairs and can find something that fits in your liking :/

Anonymous said: Hi I really love you content and I was wondering if you’d ever do a “goddess locs” hairstyle?

Ok I am gonna be super straight forward about this, making hairstyles like this is really challenging for me. I have tried a ton of times and I just can’t get the meshes to work out the way I like. UV mapping is a pain in the ass, making the hairline match well, and making sure none of the mesh strands are broken is next to impossible for me. Most creators that make hairstyles like this do them from scratch or spend a long time working on them for them to look right. I’m not saying ‘no’ because I am going to try to play around with some seasons meshes (I have hair ideas) but no promises :(

Anonymous said: BLACKPINK COMEBACK

i know omg jennie snapped, I wasn’t planning on buying the physical album but I ended up caving in and getting the pink versions ;-; I hope I get Jennie or Lisa photocards

Anonymous said: i know your theme is by gukthemes, but what is it called?

PAPILLON by GUKTHEMES

Anonymous said: Are you ever gonna do a face reveal?

I have posted a pic of myself before in one of these ask posts, here are three more from the past few months :P

Anonymous said: Fav kpop group(s)???

1). LOONA (bias Kim Lip) 2). BLACKPINK (bias Jennie) 3). RED VELVET (bias Joy) 4). CLC (bias Yeeun) 5). DREAMCATCHER (idk their names but the rapper)

Anonymous said: You play pokemon go still?

Yes! I collected cards/figures growing up and watched the show before school every morning. I’m not a ‘game’ fan but the mobile app is fun. Actually I played the Wii U Pokemon tournament game but it was boring so :/

Anonymous said: are you going to buy seasons? do you think it is worth it?

I got it from CDkeys for $25 lmao, so yes :P I can’t run the live mode so I kind of am just getting it for the new CAS assets :/ but I think the pack looks really good. Everyone always says ‘it looks like the best EP so far’ every time something new comes out so I’m not gonna say that but we will see :D

Anonymous said: whats ur skin blend called?

Fruitpunch! You can get it here

Anonymous said: when are you going to be done camping?

I am back home now lmao I assume you sent this when I posted about not having service there :P but I was camping for 3 days? I know it was 2 nights at least refdbv also omg some camping stories:

► I didn’t have my voice for the entire trip bc I got sick with laryngitis, and now koby (the guy i shared a tent with) has it too erfdbvc

► It was blazing hot like omg I was dying, there werent showers, bathrooms, anything with AC. The tents were boiling hot, the ground fucking hurt, and it was just hell ok this isnt even a story I just need to complain.

► There was a racoon family outside the tents the first night, and we thought it was a bear bc we were literally in the middle of the woods, like it wasn’t a campsite with other people, it was the forest ;-; anyways we were legit so freaked out and up for 2 hours just listening to them walk around the tents and god it was so scary rfbdv

► As I said, I had no service so I missed the larvitar community day in pokemon go -_-

► I suck at cornhole so I was the cheer leader for a team UwU

► A deer jumped out right in front of the fucking car like RIGHT IN FRONT OF IT omg we were so close to hitting it like... it was fucking scary

► We went walking on a trail that was down a mountain and once we got down we discovered that the chairlift up was CLOSED so we had to walk back up and it was a nightmare bc we had all just drove like 30 minutes to shower in crappy no pressure no heat showers and we were all sweaty again by the time we got back to the top ;-;

dont go camping

Anonymous said: Your last edit creeps me out.

LMAO why? It isnt meant to be sexual or scary?

@achinghearts88 said: I really love Sims 4 cc but I constantly struggle with finding safe sites and have accidentally downloaded a virus trying to get cc before so I'm kinda frightened now. What advice do you have for getting safe cc? Thanks!

Hello! I use an adfly skipper + adblock, and if both of those don’t work then I just don’t download the cc. For some creators (nolan-sims, simduction, isjao, ivo-sims, and others) I will turn them off because I know these creators aren’t ones that use the sketchy adfly stuff, but for others that I don’t know well I leave it on. I use: U Block origin and adfly skipper (both on firefox)

Anonymous said: I couldn't find a "contact me" thing but your AHarris00Britney has a broken mesh I think.

??? idk what this means im sorry ;-; what hair are you referring to?

Anonymous said: an amazing creator and a loona fan???? i stan

My mind... your mind... our mind..

@chocooosims said: hey, I love your cc, you are such a good creator! :) I'm not sure if someone already ask you that, but have you ever considered making a tutorial where you show us how you create maxis match hair? I mean, I know that I can already find on Internet tutorials about frankenmeshing hair. But the thing is that you are one of the only creator who do more than simply merge 2 EA's hair together. So, I would really love to see a tutorial of how you are creating your cc! :) Thx for your time!!

I am making a BIG tutorial right now of me making a hair from start-finish and it is around 3 hours not speed up. My guardian angel is going to edit it for me tonight and then I will try to have it posted next week sometime

Anonymous said: what university are you going to?

Radford :D it is in Virginia

Anonymous said: Just wanted to let you know you're a king

thank you lmao I wish it were true, stan loona or be beheaded

Anonymous said: r u a guy or girl or non binary etc. also are you lgbtq+ at all? not to judge, just wondering :)

uuh, I’m a gay guy lmao idk about all the other terms like cis/bianary ;-; i like the anatomy exclusive to the male body

edit: rip so someone messaged me asking what I meant by “anatomy exclusive to the male body” and I was like ?? bc I meant i like d**k, and i explained that i didn't like using cuss words on my blog bc my account got shut down/deleted/reported last year and was completely gone for two days while I emailed my butt off to get it back. Also, I was trying to be funny by sounding proper and using big terms like anatomy/exclusive instead of just saying “i like penis” bc that just isnt as fun to say imo. My anatomy teacher never used words like v*gina/p*nis and would say stuff like that, and I always found it funny and I guess that was another reason I worded it that way. Anyways if you think I was being transphobic, I apologize. I hope you don’t think that I am transphobic bc of that? If you want to message me and talk to me about how I can word stuff better then I am around 24/7 mostly, but I’m not going to fight with anyone who is just looking to argue because that is childish. I am sorry to those that got offended but I got one message about this so if something like this happens, message me like this person and ask what I meant so that it isn’t blown out of proportion. Again, I did not think that it would be taken that way and I am sorry if you felt that I was making fun of a trans person. <3

Anonymous said: What do you see in the corner of your room when you get sleep paralysis (;

James Charles with breasts on the beach and im not sharing this photo anymore it is demonic OK

Anonymous said: hi! i installed your non-default eye recolors but i'm having a glitch with them. my female sims lose their face in cas and it's just like an empty spot where the face should be. i have the default eyes installed too so i know it's not an issue with a missing mesh but i'm not sure how to fix it.

Hello!! I don’t think this is my eyes because I’m not experiencing this glitch? Did you run a S4S batch fix over everything? I think that causes this glitch sometimes but I am unsure. Try repairing your game and if you have the “no EA eyelash” mod then redownload that and replace the old file.

@sephirajo said: I found your sims 4 mods and I love the hairs! They're so amazing and pretty.

thank you so much!

Anonymous said: In your collab with wildpixel, I F**KING love the Ivy hair; do you have any recolours of it or any of the other hairs in the collab?

all the hairs in that pack are recolored in the anathema and sacharinne palette :) and I reblog all recolors of my cc over on @aharris00britneyrecolors

#asks

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paene-umbra · 5 years

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i accidentally deleted the anon for this and i have no idea how to get it back BUT somebody asked me to answer all the questions on the ask meme

END OF THE YEAR ASKS FOR 2018:

(disclaimer: this is going to be so sappy and emotional because I did so many amazing things this past year that I am so incredibly proud of and there will definitely be too much information shared but I don’t care! I can do what I want!)

1. what is one thing you’re very proud of having done this year?

- in 2018 I am proud of cutting my father mostly out of my life. he was the source of so much pain and anxiety and trauma and cutting him out has lifted a huge weight off my shoulders and kickstarted my healing.

2. what is one thing you feel you could have done better?

- I could have done better dealing with friendships. I was so incredibly stressed out for a long time and I let my frustration bleed into my relationship to the point where being around friends and groups was too emotionally draining. I dropped a lot of friends that deserved better and in 2019 I plan on rekindling relationships and giving my friends as much love as they deserve.

3. what do you hope to do better next year?

- since it is already 2019 (whoops) I have a lot of resolutions that I am planning on implementing this year. I am going to put in more effort towards maintaining my mental health while also balancing my classes, work, and friends. I want to get close again to the people I used to be close to.

4. what was something scary you faced and overcame this year?

- in 2018 I started to address a lot of the problems that were contributing to my poor mental health. I began really looking into why I was so afraid of real emotional connection with other people and trying to understand the blockages that were holding me back from being the best version of myself. for the very first time I was able to confront the fact that I have forcing myself to suffer in silence for the sake of my appearance and reputation. for the longest time, I could not stand the possibility of anyone knowing that I was hurting so much because that would have meant admitting that I was being hurt by people who loved me, so I prioritized the way that they felt instead of myself. I tried so hard to pretend that I was stable and well-adjusted because it was easier than confronting the way I let people treat me and all of the hard work that I would have to do to try to heal from my pain. I always thought I had to hide the bad parts of me to be the perfect daughter but hiding something like mental illness doesn’t make the pain magically go away. I’m not a lesser person for being mentally ill. I deserve to be happy and to get the help that I need, and it is not my job anymore to coddle the feelings of the people who hurt me. it was terrifying to admit that I was completely broken for so many years, but I am endlessly proud of finally being able to acknowledge that and start putting myself back together.

5. what did you think would be scary and then was not?

- I thought that speaking in front of crowds was terrifying in theory but after actually having to do it several times for my job, I realized that I have important things to educate people about and that speaking in large groups is the best way to teach them, so being afraid does not help my cause.

6. do you feel like you grew in some way this year? why?

- hell yeah I grew in 2018. I grew enough to be able to put myself before others, to not be afraid of rejection, to push for better treatment, to drop those who hold me back or don’t deserve me, etc…

7. are there people you credit with this growth? who?

- yes, I think that some people helped me to grow. first, I think all the people who hurt me are deserving of the credit towards me developing the strength I needed to drop their negative asses. I also need to give SO MUCH CREDIT to my wonderful boyfriend for showing me what a real man is like and forcing me to deal with everything head-on instead of letting life steamroll me. he is miles ahead of me when it comes to self care but he supports the little steps that I am able to take and he is responsible for so much because of how he lifts me up and encourages me to put in the work. he believes in me and knows that I can and will be better and he has been willing to stay with me as I deal with my issues.

8. what is one piece of advice you’d give other people?

- I think I would tell people that giving up doesn’t fix anything. nothing is solved by letting life overtake you. pushing through when you’re barely keeping your head above water is the hardest thing that you can do. it does not always pay off immediately and sometimes it feels so pointless to keep swimming when it looks like there is water for miles and miles and miles but there is always eventually going to be land. you just have to find it, and I know you can.

9. what was the nicest thing someone did for you?

- his one is hard because my memory is not the best. I can’t think of anything specific but I’m sure that lots of people did lots of nice things for me.

10. who inspires you? why?

- my little inspires me. from the moment she joined my sorority I knew she was special, and as I got to know her and fall in love with her personality, I got so impressed with her and where she is in life in spite of all that has happened to her.

11. what are your main sources of inspiration? why?

- my inspiration mostly comes from people and hearing about the incredible things that some humans have done. hearing about the strength of other people makes me want to be strong.

12. what inspires you more: words, pictures, or music?

- music, for sure. there are so many amazing songs that spark my interest and provoke my thoughts.

13. what scares you, creatively?

- I am not really very creative at all. I think what stopped me from being creative is my fear of rejection. I was so terrified that people would hate me for what I wrote or drew or said that I kept it all to myself and let my creativity die out. maybe someday I will work on rekindling the creative ability, but it is not at the top of my list.

14. what did you enjoy working on most this year?

- my fish! owning bettas gave me something to look forward to doing and gave me an outlet to direct my focus and frustration through. any time I was having a hard day I knew I could look at my lil fishy boys and put my restlessness into caring for them and making sure that they were doing really well.

15. what did you have the most fun doing?

- the most fun I had in 2018 year probably came from being able to live with my roommate/soulmate again this semester. we have had our ups and downs but I love her so much and she is my other half, definitely. she brings out a whole new side of me that lets me be silly and goofy and myself around her.

16. what did you have the least fun doing?

- the least amount of fun in 2018 most likely came from the introspection that I had to do to contribute to my self-care. I did not enjoy the work it took, but I am pleased with the outcome of recognizing what needs to be changed and actually getting to make myself better and happier.

17. what is the best compliment you’ve gotten? why?

- I was recently told “your confidence, happiness, and strength has always inspired me! you’re an incredible human and I’m so thankful to be able to know you” and that was so incredible to hear because I don’t often think about the impact that I have on other people. I never thought I was important enough to influence another person’s life, let alone contribute to making it better in any way. I think it is really nice to know that even when I am struggling, I have the ability to positively impact others.

18. what is the best compliment anyone could ever give you?

- the best compliment would probably be something about how they have seen me grow throughout my years and continuously improve. I am not the best at keeping friends for more than a couple years at a time, so I don’t know if I will ever hear that one.

19. what do you wish people commented on more?

- about me??? I don’t know. I don’t really like other people talking about me lmao but I guess I like hearing people’s first impressions of me and how they differ from how I actually am. those are always fun to learn about.

20. what do you feel is the most underrated thing you have done? why?

- during my high school years, I played therapist A LOT to so many people. I put so much emotional labor into listening to other people and helping them figure out problems or just giving them a shoulder to cry on. rarely was this ever returned by those people, so I felt really used a lot of the time but honestly if I had to do it all over again I wouldn’t change a thing because I want to help people feel better.

21. name (and reblog) at least three things you’ve made this year that you’re proudest of.

- sorry, this one isn’t applicable to me. I don’t really make things or post them to tumblr.

22. what are your goals for next year?

- I plan to stop telling people things that aren’t any of their business. I spent a lot of time keeping everything to myself and when I finally started getting friends I felt like I had to tell them everything about me and my life to keep them interested, but that isn’t true. I need to learn how to keep some things private when they need to be.

I want to rekindle a lot of friendships that I messed up in 2018. I let a lot of people fade out of my life when I should not have.

I want to go to THERAPY!! I want to talk to professionals who can help me structure my path of healing!!!

I want to get more comfortable with the body I’m in. that means wearing less makeup, using fewer snapchat filters and other photo editing techniques, and judging myself less when I wear clothes that maybe aren’t the most flattering. it is okay to be ugly and I am not worth less for not being attractive. I want to stretch more and maybe get into a routine of exercising every now and then to feel better instead of to lose weight. I want to eat healthier and drink more water for my health instead of for the purpose of becoming skinny.

I want to make an effort to be more outgoing and get more involved in my sorority and with my Greek life.

23. name three things you like about yourself – and name one think you like about the person you reblogged this from.

I like my irises! my brown eyes are beautiful and unique no matter what anyone says. My eyes have rings like trees and uneven colors throughout. they are beautiful! I like how soft my hair is and I also like the shape of my lips.

something I like about the person I reblogged this ask from, @makingoutisgreat, is how strong and confident she seems. she is beautiful and she knows it and is not afraid to show it off. it is very inspiring.

#ask meme #long post #personal #laney rants #ask and ye shall recieve

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I always write something here because at this point it would look naked if I didn’t.

Yeah, of course I can tell you why I blocked you, I just thought that it would make sense coming from me because I've a lot of weird behaviors, and then I clearly don't dislike you so I didn't feel like you would even be curious and the story was long.

So I have two accounts and both have the same amount of posts more or less, but one is my personal account, it's one year older than the other, no one cares about it but that's the one that I love the most, I use it daily to post whatever I want but I also talk about my life sometimes, I never like anything with it. Then the other account, no one cares about it either but that's the one I use to like things and to follow a lot of people, sometimes I ignore it for months, as in I don't reblog anything, but I often like things. So I was obviously following you with that one.

I would often check your blog and steal a post or two to reblog with the account that I actually love, (I love the other one too but not as much) so I couldn't just reblog them from you because I don't approve of reblogging and reblogging from someone for months but somehow not following them. I don't actually care and I don’t mind if others do it, but I'm aware it might be odd, so I didn't do that with you because I knew I was checking on you.

With other people it doesn't matter, since I know I'm not checking on them, so who cares if I keep mysteriously reblogging and reblogging from them and never actually following them. So, both you and someone else could think the same thing, it would be the same action, but the difference is I didn't care with other people. I was also well aware that you wouldn't notice a thing even if I randomly made those reblogs, but that's how my brain works and it made me uncomfortable.

Then one day when I remembered it was Revenge of the Sith’s anniversary because I had seen it on your blog earlier, for whatever reason I thought I might as well follow you with that account too. But then I realized it was giving me a lot of anxiety, my follows are public, there are dark people out there, you are an attractive woman, you are interesting, cultured, smart, angry, I didn't want the dark people to get the wrong idea, and you wouldn't even notice if I clicked unfollow, it was as easy as that, so why not do it, so I did it.

Back then I loved to go through the Jaime and Cersei tags, you were often there, I actually found you years ago because of it as I've already told you. And I would use my other account to surf the tags, because I would mostly like posts, I don't use my favorite account to like things so it's pointless to surf tags with that one, I only copy the posts I really like and take them to my other account, well, that's now, when I first started I would reblog things nonstop, I still do now sometimes, but I feel them in my soul or something.

There are a lot of posts in both of my Tumblrs that now make me embarrassed or with thoughts that I don't even have anymore, but I refuse to delete them, so I can see how much I've changed even if I've always been the same person, and how I've changed my mind about some things.

You were not going to notice a thing, but I still knew what I was doing and it gave me anxiety, since I unfollowed you with my other account, I felt odd about liking one of your posts with my other account, you had no way to tell I owned both accounts, but I didn't care, that's not how my anxiety works, so I unfollowed you and blocked you, because I didn't want to accidentally like one of your posts while searching the Jaime and Cersei tags, I didn't have to block you with my favorite account because I never looked through the tags with that one so I obviously couldn't accidentally like any of your posts. And yeah it's just that simple and that stupid.

The whole letter was already written but I’m editing it and deleting things were I repeat myself and such, but I actually accidentally fell asleep for some hours right now after editing this part, so this letter will probably have a lot of dumb things that I won’t notice because I am so tired so I understand what you meant at the end of your letter.

At one point I even followed Victor because even if I didn't care for him I often found posts about trees and dumb stuff on his blog that I would steal and reblog from someone else, I was already checking on him because of you anyway. We were so different and I found him so boring, but I think I always found way more posts from him than from you, since I find you interesting as a person but I rarely personally like a post from you by itself, I do, but not as often as with his blog.

Of course he reblogged a lot of tacky things like Justin Bieber and dumb comedies. In this case, I wasn't reblogging them from someone else because I cared about Victor's opinion, it was precisely because I didn't want him to somehow think that I cared about what he was up to. Sort of, but only when it involved you.

Even if I didn't have anything against him either other than finding him dull as a person. I'm sure that even straight men have approached him because of his looks even if they obviously aren't attracted to him, his looks meant nothing to me, it offended me that he could think I found him interesting, what was there to find interesting other than that.

But once I followed him it didn't matter, I obviously kept reblogging from him because I was following him, and that would make sense to him. Maybe it didn't, because this one time he tagged me in some thing with some questions for people you would like to know better, since I had been reblogging a lot of trees and whatever from him I guess, he didn't say so, but I could imagine that was the reason.

I think one time I even reblogged this picture of a bowl of cereal that he was about to have in the bathtub or something, felt like something I would do, probably most people would eat like that. Perhaps he got the wrong idea because I reblogged a lot from him and he thought I was socializing, whatever it was I answered him because I hate being rude. I never ignore people when they talk to me, even if someone is insulting me I answer their insult, not because I care about being polite once they were rude, but because I’m just not into ignoring people, they are talking to me, why shouldn’t I answer.

I sent it as a personal message instead of as an ask because it was too long, and for some reason I also didn’t want to post the questions on my blog. You know how I love to talk and talk and talk so it was a single message but I hit the limit. He didn't never even bothered to tell me he read it, I was glad, I didn't actually want to talk to him. I probably didn't even want to talk to you back then, I found you interesting, but I'm never lonely and I didn't feel like I had anything to say that could interest you.

Ever since I joined Tumblr I would sometimes spend days reblogging a lot of things from someone, a lot of old posts and stuff, and they never thought anything of it, I was obviously just interested in their random pictures. Not that I know what he actually thought when I did it to him, but he is the only person to ever tag me or send me anything at all after doing something like that, other than a really nice woman from three years ago or so.

She just said hi and such and I talked a lot like I always do and overshared, she seemed to have a lot of anxiety too from stuff I saw on her blog and she told me she had been extremely depressed for years and for no reason I think, a mental illness probably even if she didn’t tell. She actually managed to talk like a normal person and was likely used to talking to everyone, so I think she either found me boring or was uncomfortable too and didn’t know how to handle me because I was uncomfortable myself and I kept justifying the way that I talked and clearly had no social skills.

So we exchanged some words for a day or two but she didn’t keep talking, then she sort of said hi once again months after that because I reblogged Halloween pictures nonstop and it was nowhere near Halloween, not from her but she was following me so she saw, 18 pages of Halloween pictures in a row I think, just like the first time we didn’t keep talking. And then she sent me some ask a year or so after that after being wrong about one of my posts about some stuff happening in real life and she thought it was online and was trying to be helpful and telling me I could report people on Tumblr, so I just told her that it wasn’t like that but thanked her and stuff.

You are the only case where I took the time because of the person and not the random pictures. But I unfollowed him after a month or three (by then I had already unfollowed you or maybe I hadn’t followed you with that account yet, I just remember I wasn’t following you at the same time) because he reblogged a picture of a white shirt that said "Killer", written with a Sharpie, it was from this one idiot that murdered a lot of teenagers and said, at his trial, while wearing it, something like "this hand that killed your children now masturbates at the memory of their deaths" in front of the parents of course.

I obviously hated that murderer, it somehow made me angry that Victor would be stupid enough to just reblog something like that without researching, I don't think he would have had reblogged it if he had known, so whatever, I clicked unfollow.

I kept checking on him sometimes, but because of you. Then you broke up and I kept checking for a while, but by then I actually had something against him, I don't care if he is a good person, I know he is, but I have contempt for all men that wish that stuff to women they claimed to love at some point. So I was so angry whenever I visited him and once I realized it was really over and that you didn't have anything to do with him, or that maybe you did elsewhere even if not romantically but it wouldn't show on his blog, I stopped visiting.

He is nothing to me so I'm obviously not carrying some grudge still, but I dislike him because of the way he spoke of you, as I would dislike any man that does that, as I've said. And I repeat that yes I did insult my ex-girlfriend but that was also the way that we talked to each other when we were together, and not like he did, I never wished her ill, that was the last thing I wanted for her.

This reminds me that another thing I hate is when a man was always respectful of his girlfriend and never used bad words with her but as soon as they break up he starts treating her differently and being extremely disrespectful. I was also disrespectful towards her during our relationship and she was like that towards me too. But I mean when men do that exclusively after the break up, to me it says “I don’t bother to respect you because I can no longer gain anything from you, I don’t make any effort because I won’t get anything out of it.”

So yeah, while he no longer makes me angry, my idea of him has been tarnished forever, but it doesn't matter if I’m being unfair because I never think of him if I'm not writing to you, and he doesn't need me, so it's okay if that's the idea I want to keep. But I truly hope he grows up anyway, I have no reason to wish he keeps behaving like that towards women when he breaks up with them, both for him and for the women. So, may he rest in peace. Also, I saw some anon you received at some point asking if you still thought of your ex, and they probably meant Victor, but I didn't send it.

No, I didn't find the poem because of my ex-girlfriend, I would love to read poetry if I didn't find most of it cheesy, but I always do, so I'm too lazy to look for poetry hoping that I will enjoy a poem or two, just as I’m lazy with movies when it comes to characters not having enough depth because of the duration of the average movie.

I found it because I had seen the quote "I see you in colors that don't exist" plenty of times, so when it started to remind me of you I wanted to see where it came from, if it was just a single quote, and sadly it was from a love poem (I was surprised when I saw that it barely had any comments since the quote was already so famous), so I felt that I couldn't send that line to you, I felt like sending an explanation along with the quote would be dumb, I ended up doing that eventually anyway.

That's probably why I memorized a fictional meaning, so much, that yesterday I thought that was actually what the poem was about even when I didn’t remember a thing about it, now I remember that back then I thought that from a stranger's point of view, if you sent her that quote, the poem was about your imaginary relationship with her and how painful it was even if I already knew that it was probably about a relationship that had actually happened but now the other person had moved on, it likely reminded me of my ex-girlfriend but I was also mostly convinced that she still loved me so I didn't relate to it. I found some parts of the poem cheesy, that's why I didn't care for it and forgot all about it but that one quote. I don't care about most poems. I love the idea of them but there's always something cheesy. I find most things cheesy too.

I was embarrassed, I am embarrassed when it comes to sharing good feelings, I can talk about romantic love forever and my positive feelings when it comes to that, it doesn't make me embarrassed, but most positive feelings that have nothing to do with romance or animals do.

The thing about the wall sound so like me, I didn't remember it but I do now that you have mentioned it. It was good then, there was violence. I don't use violence for that though, it's just a part of who I am and I'm angry most of the time, I was already like that before I met my ex-girlfriend and it never made me unhappy, it felt natural, I was comfortable with my anger, I don't think it will ever go away, it’s probably because of something hormonal and doesn’t have an actual reason.

I don’t have any problem that I am aware of, when I was about 20 my testosterone was extremely high. That was also the time when I kept pressuring my ex-girlfriend for sex after she was the one that finally started all the sexual stuff by herself probably tired that I never tried anything, but I stopped soon when she told me how it made her feel, I felt like I was going crazy and couldn’t think of anything else, only with her though, it never made me find other women attractive, so men that use that as an excuse to cheat are stupid.

And I would have trouble breathing when I was enraged and my chest would feel way too heavy, but the doctor said it happened sometimes and that it would probably fix itself and wasn’t too dangerous since I was young, and it did after a year, so I know for sure there’s nothing wrong anymore because even if I have trouble breathing I’ve never felt like I literally have to keep gasping nonstop, and I also only feel like I’ve trouble breathing when I’ve been pushed way too far, like with my neighbors but that’s because they make me so anxious too and they keep doing it all day long, anger isn’t normally physically painful anymore. I was also often angry since I was about 5, before any of that happened, that’s why I think it’s just there for no reason, like how some people have always been too lazy because it’s just who they are.

As I've told you though, I never use my fists against other men, I always try to solve my problems with words, and I've been lucky enough to never have someone try to punch me, because then I would have had to defend myself, because of my pride, of course. Lucky because that’s not the kind of person I want to be. I also know that if someone that I am sure is so much stronger than me, probably everyone since I’m too skinny, punched me, I would feel the need to keep punching him back while being fully aware that I will likely lose, yeah because of my pride. So I'm not really hurting anyone by being this way.

Oh I also asked you not to publish it because I thought that maybe you would rather not spam your blog, but that you would obviously answer me because you felt that you had to. And when I saw you mention the anon, also, I sent another anon because I felt that if I didn't perhaps it would look like that person wasn't checking on you anymore, not that it was an awful thing, but I was still doing it so I mentioned it.

I don't know if I'll ever be able to leave this city, sadly. But I'm planning on moving out, because I'm really desperate about the noises, as soon as I can, I don't know how soon, though, but if I could I would leave this week, it just doesn't sound that likely since I'm looking for a very specific place, somewhere I can be sure that I won't be annoyed by any noises again.

I just thought that maybe you had heard about Tijuana because of its reputation, but I'm glad that the situation isn't terrible enough to have reached most people, I think that's a good way of measuring, if something is that bad most people in the world have heard about it.

If it's water and it has waves then it's just as a good, I think. I like the night and the stars better, and forests and snow too, but I still love the sea. I used to go to the beach when I was a young boy, now I don't and I haven't been for many years, but I enjoy looking at beaches on the internet. Which is crazy because I have one here. Even if I don't visit it, to me it's always weird when I actually think of how some countries don't have beaches and people have to travel just to go to one.

I like my city enough if I ignore the criminals, but I like the look of U.S.A better, that's the only country I've visited, I don't think I know which place I would rather if both countries were just as safe. It has better buildings and better streets of course since they have way more money. I used to visit California a lot as a teenager and ever since I was a 3 or 4, I feel like Target was a friend of mine, I felt like crying when I wrote that, it's funny, I just really liked it, it's just some supermarket, but I always felt good when I was there. And Disneyland. I also saw snow in that country, the only time I've ever seen snow, I felt like crying once again. We once even visited a police station until 3 AM or so because my mom's car was stolen. They ended up finding it on that night because for some reason they just stole some stuff like my iPod and moved the car to the next parking lot. My passport expired years ago and I was too lazy to get one so I can’t visit anymore. They make such a big deal out of it and often deny you a visa even if you have had already been visiting for years.

I love that country but if I could leave Mexico, since that would require a lot of effort anyway, I wouldn't strive for U.S.A, Americans think everyone would love to live there but I wouldn't because of the random shootings at restaurants and supermarkets by crazy people. I would be leaving because I want a safer city, and of course anywhere else is safer, but I would try to pick something from the top twenty safest countries list, or fifty, any place that would have me but that wasn't as dangerous. I know that you can have something happen to you anywhere, some people have been murdered in Sweden and Germany, I know, and I haven't been murdered yet and I live here. But yeah my odds of being murdered would be lower elsewhere, that's what I want.

I love this place called Sanborns, chain stores from Mexico, it's a dumb place where you can buy books and things like watches, glasses, candy, things for adults mostly, toys, but it also has a restaurant. I always felt good there. And we have Costco and Office Depot like in U.S.A, I love those places too. I also enjoyed being outside of any school building, for some reason.

I don't love places in particular, but I liked looking at the stars and at the moon from different streets and houses, and to be in the car at night and all the things I saw. I also loved certain rooms or parts from different houses that I've been to. Then these huge buildings (huge when compared to a person), two towers with a lot of stores and offices, my mom would take me there and I would walk through one of the buildings by myself while she was exercising, I would also buy magazines because I've always loved them. And then I love life and most of what I have experienced has been here. So in a way I love this place even if I wouldn't care to ever visit again if I manage to leave.

This city is where I realized I want to live forever, it's just that I know I can have the same experiences somewhere else. If I ever leave this country I know that then I could think fondly about most things from it, since I wouldn't feel at risk because of it. The funny think is I can understand what you are saying when you talk about your city, I can't claim that I know what you actually feel, but some places from Europe make me feel like that, not any place in specific, some pictures. And I can imagine what it would be like to grow up surrounded by art and culture, all that sort of stuff. When I look at those kind of pictures I feel like I am living someone else's life even if I’ve never wished for that because I love being who I am, and that I have been there and have many memories of doing things in those places.

I've been answering your letter as I am reading it, sometimes I read the whole letter before I answer and sometimes I do this, it depends on my mood, but not that I do one thing when I am sad and one when I am happy, I just do whatever I feel like doing at the time, for no reason.

So I've just realized that you asked me about traveling and I've already sort of answered. Before talking to you I didn't care about traveling that much, but now I do even if I wouldn't spend my money on it, I would save it to leave this country eventually. I didn't see it as something bad but I also wasn't drawn to it, and for some reason this month or so I've been able to see why most people really enjoy it. If I had all the money in the world and knew the plane couldn't crash, or if I were immortal, I can see myself loving to move from one city to the other every month or so, I don't see why I wouldn't rather do that than staying in the same place, though I would also like to have a home where I would keep all my stuff and favorite furniture. Before, I couldn't understand.

I'm not afraid to die, it just makes me extremely angry, I love myself, why wouldn't I be angry at the thought of disappearing. That's why I'm ridiculously careful, and some would say that's not living, but to me it is, like what I said about traveling, if I could I still wouldn't do it often anyway, because I can't know that the plane won't crash and as far as I know I am not immortal. I hope we are, we have never died. And I can still do everything I truly enjoy doing even if I never travel, that's why I wouldn't risk it, since I don't truly need to see the rest of the world in person to feel that I am living a complete life. But what I said it's also true, I can now see why everyone wants to do it.

If I traveled I would like to see U.K out of all the places that you mentioned, I love Victorian stuff and old books written by English people. I've also always loved knights and things like that. And I didn't care that much for Egypt before but now it makes me think of you and I would like to see the pyramids, but I feel more drawn to a museum full of things from Egypt, I have never been into deserts but I love being inside of buildings, nice buildings make me feel the same way that looking at the stars does.

I'm not rich but I've never been poor or unable to buy the things that I want, but since I'm from a sort of poor country I've always been attracted to cultures that feel like they are from rich people, white people usually. If I had been born in a country that I didn't think of as poor I feel like I would be drawn to exotic places. This doesn’t happen with looks because I only like dark brown eyes and white people from that sort of cultures normally have blue or green eyes.

I've always told you that I like everything you have to say and that includes rambling, it's good when you talk more about yourself. About an hour ago or so, I had to get up, and I thought of how I often feel like crying when I am talking to you which also made me feel like crying, it was already almost 9 PM and looking at the night sky makes me emotional by itself. You are a good writer but it's not because of that, good writers don't automatically make me feel like crying. I just thought that it's nice that you want to be a writer, whether you try to sell books or not, but that you are doing it, even if it were just a private journal, it would be a waste if you didn't write.

I think the reason you aren't drawn to U.S.A is that you already have really nice buildings and that you have been to similar places but with more culture, so to me it makes sense that you wouldn't find anything special about it. I would also like to see Canada. You are lucky in the sense that most people want to visit places from Europe anyway, some spend their whole lives saving for it. You get to live in Europe and also visit it. I feel like I would also rather visit places from Europe better than all the other countries, Oceania too, first I would visit cities from U.S.A, because of what I told you before in my letter, that I also grew up there, spent some nights there, so I care for it even if I wouldn't enjoy living there, but just because of the shootings, otherwise I would love to, since I already feel a connection because of the TV Shows, books, music, brands, internet, language, and the time I spent there, it's so much safer than Mexico too.

I think Mexico City is a nice place, the actual capital of the country, it's also dangerous though, depending on the streets, but nothing like Tijuana. Their accent is terrible and funny, but not that foreigners could tell, and the air is bad for you because there's a lot of contamination, it's a really big place. But they actually live like people there, they have this university called UNAM, many museums, and great things.

I never thought you were into bondage and rape fantasies, though, I only said I wasn't into it, I was specifying because I said I was really into humiliation and that sort of stuff, so I didn't explain what I liked about it, that would have been too graphic and disgusting, but I felt like saying what I wasn't into which was easier to write without it being dirty, it doesn't make me uncomfortable but I feel like it's inappropriate for us to talk about it too graphically, somehow.

I know you are into choking because I have seen you say that on your blog and that thing about the knife from Victor, but I never saw anything about rape or bondage on your blog and didn't know you had any experience when it came to that, even if you didn't enjoy it that much. I would actually love to do sexual stuff often and I think about it daily just not all day long, but I'm not into casual sex so it's really complicated. But it's not something that I need, like when people claim is a basic need, not really, you can take care of your sexual needs by yourself for the rest of your life, you can't do that with food.

Maybe it's just your own version of sexuality too, there are no rules about how you should feel, and it would also be normal if you felt differently about it all the time. Ideally, I think you should only do something sexual if you feel like it, even if it's once a year, but I know you probably feel like that would be unfair to your boyfriend, of course it wouldn't, and I'm not saying it's some sacrifice to sleep with him, just that in an ideal world you would only have sex if you felt the urge to do it.

And you also wouldn't be wondering if there's something wrong with it. I think there's only something wrong with it if you really wish you could want it all the time but can't, and even then maybe it would still be normal. Like someone saying he wishes he could be hungry all the time but couldn't, it doesn't work like that. But you also say that it could be because you were traumatized and if so then you could need some therapy or treatment if you want to fix it, assuming there's anything to fix.

When it comes to asexuality I personally think that if someone is in love he wouldn't care about giving sex up, and that if a man cares enough about it to break up with his partner then he isn't that much in love. But I'm talking about true love since it's the only sort of love I think lasts for long, I can understand someone caring a lot for their partner but still feeling he can't give sex up and deciding it's best to leave even if I couldn't picture myself doing that, but I would call him a liar if he claimed it was true love but he had to walk away, I’d buy that he believed that, but I would think he is an idiot for believing such a thing is possible.

I don't know if I found out a year ago or two, I've known about him since I was 14 or so, and I never suspected he was gay or anything, just never thought of it, but I wasn't shocked when I read that he was, only thought it was a shame that he felt that he had to hide that part about himself for years when I read that he had struggled with that.

I don't think that here in Mexico anyone would be judged for being asexual, some ignorant people would probably say it's weird and that they aren't truly living, maybe most people, say stupid things like that, but some people would probably find it appealing, some sexist men, I think, feel that they would always be virgins and fantasize about sleeping with them. I feel some wouldn't understand and would make dumb jokes about it but that they wouldn't automatically assume it's a bad thing, maybe a lot of people over 40 and young people that think they are smart would say asexuals are just being stupid and that they need to stop using the internet so much, the worst kind of people, I can’t stand them, I would never be around them because they make me feel like I’m having a heart attack. I really love old people though, probably so much better than the young, it’s just ignorant old people that frustrate me.

And when it comes to gay people, they are accepted if they come out, mostly, some minor celebrities have and it didn’t hurt them, but of course that a lot of men still use gay as an insult and think it's the worst thing that a straight man could be called, I don’t know how their brains work in order to think there’s anything offensive about the word other than mistakenly stating someone’s sexuality.

Then some religious people are against it like religious people from most countries. Or some make this stupid protests sometimes about gay people adopting, saying they are okay with them but that they shouldn’t do that to children which makes my brain hurt because it doesn’t make any sense, saying that they do anything to children at all, it doesn’t happen often though.

I was shocked when I read this list two years ago or so about how accepting countries were of gay people and Italy was lower than Mexico (because Italy has better education and Europeans are so much cultured) but then I thought of the church and it immediately made sense. Many people are catholic here but very passive about it, they think god and Jesus are out there but don’t think about them, most people from this continent probably, except U.S.A and Canada, but nothing like in Italy, of course. There are some very catholic people too, and enough catholic private schools (religion is forbidden in public schools because they can’t force it on you) but nothing different actually happens, they just pray once a month or something and have a religion class some days. I know because I went to two religious high schools but only because my mom thought they were nice, she never really cared about it and she is actually agnostic too since I explained it to her and she thought it really made sense.

There were gay students and they never tried to change their minds, they completely ignored the topic, I only heard a teacher or two made some stupid comment about it being wrong, not hatefully, but that because of the Bible, not to them but to the class, and there was only one time when they bought a nun to talk about some stuff, about life in general, but she decided it would be a brilliant idea to spend the whole time whining about Adam and Steve and everyone was so annoyed because yeah most people hate that sort of stuff and couldn’t care less.

It was also while doing my religion homework that I realized that the Bible was full of lies when I was about 15, and that its god was made up, so great job, school.

I also believe that even if most people wouldn't think it's a big deal, a lot of celebrities are still keeping their sexuality to themselves because they want to have as many fans as they can, and you obviously always lose some fans when you say that you are gay or something other than straight. I personally wouldn't lie about being gay to keep my fans, I would want the homophobic people to stay away from me at all costs anyway and wouldn’t want them to be my fans even if they wanted to “see past the fact that I was gay”, but I understand why they feel like they have to.

Since I'm not into socializing I have no idea about this, but I feel like they probably keep annoying asexual people with stupid questions all the time no matter the country.

I had something like what happened to you too, it was when I was 14 maybe, after I took a shower, I got a lot of red patches on my body, and I remember they were so itchy but not painful, a really annoying feeling anyway, but they started disappearing as soon as the towel touched them, it was odd. You will probably be fine when it comes to allergies, my mom has been allergic to dogs forever but she still loves them and she’s around them all the time, she only gets some red hives but never had any trouble breathing or any swelling.

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My Friend has been Falsely Accused of Tracing So I Will Defend Him

Okay I accidentally deleted the blog I posted this one because I’m a dumbass, so I’ll just repost it here even though I don’t use this blog anymore, but apparently I still have followers. Bless caches because I was able to get this back from google caches so I don’t have to retype everything. I added further evidence and refutes to claims that were not in my original post btw.

Anyways, I am making this post to help out my good friend @5ru9 aka Falco who has been recently accused of tracing/copy pasting other people’s / official art!

I’ve known Falco for over 3 years, and we’ve grown as artists together. Once in a while we give each other advice on art (thanks for the mech and armor advice and teaching me how you line and color!), but most of the time we just meme each other.

Anyways, a lot of people have pointed out that they’ve seen him livestream before, and he’s already posted some of his block outs and other wips as proof that he does not trace in his post here:

http://5ru9.tumblr.com/post/168277137427/hello-i-have-been-informed-about-a-callout-post

To further prove his claim with solid evidence, I shall present to you!

Times he’s asked for advice on his art, or I randomly decided to mention things I notice in his WIPs!

Exhibit A-1:

A Tenkai Knight he made up! I pointed out a few things I thought were awkward about the perspective in his WIP.

Exhibit A-2:

He started working on this way back in July and didn’t finish it until much later because he was working on several other pieces at the same time. I suggested lowering the eyebrows and drawing the eyes a bit narrower to get more of the playful expression he was aiming for. In his final piece here, you can see that Falco continued to refine the piece.

By the way! The reason he sometimes posts a lot of detailed artworks one shortly after the other is because he sometimes works on multiple pieces at once! And then finishes coloring them around the same time.

Exhibit A-3

Falco and I spent good time trying to figure out why he felt like something was wrong with his sketch! I thought maybe it was the trapezius and I decided to red line (or blue line i guess) it so it’d be easier for him to see approximately where i thought the line should go to fix it.

Exhibit A-4:

The gif-ing process turned white bg into blue… anyways! Falco showed me an early version of his Tenkai Knights OC that he eventually used in an April Fool’s joke to pass off as a new character in the series. He mastered the tenkai style enough that at first glance, people really did believe it was official! Like you had to get a good look to realize Shiyu was not really a real new character! Btw I had to go into my old twitter acc to find this…. (Edit: the gif wasn’t working bc it was too big so i had to make it smaller… and choppier and stuff to fit the mb max)

Well now that brings us into!!!

Exhibit B

Some of his old art!! (I’m so sorry falco i’ll be exposing your ancient art to ppl now)

Here you can see his progress from 2014 Tenkai fan art to early 2015! It starts looking more and more like the official art, which is what he was going for.

For reference, here’s what the character Ceylan Jones/Washizaki looks like:

I blocked out fan art by everyone except falco (which i marked) that shows up in this google search. Everything else is official art. The two fan arts by falco you see here are more recent, the angel one being from 2016 and the chicken one from 2017 (i think he also made a version with sonic instead of the chicken? lol). They’re both on his dA accounts btw! The 2017 one really looks like official art, doesn’t it? But it’s his artwork! He practiced a LOT to reach that point, and I hope the earlier arts I showed above this one are enough to convince you in his art progression! Side note: i only used images w/ceylan because 1. i’m biased because ceylan is my favorite character and 2. he drew ceylan a lot because ceylan is his favorite character Also you can see his handle change from s3iwashi to burningbraven. 5ru9 is is a pretty recent handle.

ANYONE WHO HAS BEEN IN THE TENKAI FANDOM FOR A WHILE CAN VOUCH FOR HIM!!!!!

And now for the last one,

Exhibit C

WHAT? WHO IS THIS???

This is my favorite character from a Chinese series called AOTU World! His name is Grey, or 格瑞。I commissioned Falco to draw Grey for me, and let me tell you it would be IMPOSSIBLE for him to have copied any of this. Why? Because the donghua is 3D and the manhua’s art is very inconsistent!

Let me show you the reference pictures I gave him to work with!

They’re all in my gdrive folder here: https://drive.google.com/open?id=1CqwH5KS-pHX0ZqLHQpoIZBi6W-gsU_Tz

This is all official art from the manhua, except the 3D model is from the donghua. Look at how inconsistent the references are! There’s no way he could have copy and pasted or traced this! Grey doesn’t even do this particular pose anywhere. lol. I told Falco “give him a cool sword pose”. (I’m sorry for being so vague, Falco! But it turned out great!!) The style he ended up drawing in was a mixture of all of them.

Btw!! here’s the blockout and the sketch he sent me before I sent my payment for the commission!! You can see his construction in the block out!! The arm construction and leg construction is light, but it’s there. You can also see the block out below the sketch. Notice he actually fixed the leg length from block out -> sketch?

ARGUMENTS AGAINST SPECIFIC ACCUSATIONS

LOOK, thte actual drawing doesn’t even match the sprites that closely. Pay attention to the collar especially. The whole frankensteining the image and then painting over it thing is just way more effort than drawing it himself. They don’t even match that well in the overlays. Like wow it’s such a crime to try and stay on model.

WHO WOULD EVEN NEED TO TRACE A MOUTH LIKE THAT? IT’S SO EASY TO DRAW. I CAN DRAW IT PERFECTLY JUST BY LOOKING AT IT. (well i AM an animator so I also do style mimicking)

Doesn’t the fact that you have to edit the sprites to match his artwork prove that you’re just a tryhard in making up fake evidence and not a tryhard enough at art since you think it’s so impossible for people to draw characters on model?

Yes he referenced the broom and possibly the heels from this image, but your overlays for the leg and arms are disingenuous and you know it. The leg positions are different, and the overlay doesn’t even match up. Face tracing also makes no sense. You literally stretched the mouth to try and make it fit but it still doesn’t fit. Do you really think it’s that hard to draw mouths and eyes in the DR style? DR faces are really simple to emulate. Also you fool, if you follow Falco’s artwork enough, you’d realize the way he draws bodies is actually rather consistent even as he does different styles. Especially when it comes to hands. His way of drawing hands is how I recognize his art and know right away it’s his art and not official art or a trace (also his coloring style). The heels he drew are also reminiscient of how he typically draws shoes/feet. he draws them bulkier. The other art has dainty heels. At most he referenced how backside works because he’s used to drawing sneakers.

Also come on, if all you referenced from an image was a broom because you liked the style (his is also clearly drawn by himself since you can’t overlay it on the other one. like i said he mostly used the style as a reference for how-to-broom) and you referenced pieces from many other images, are you going to list every single thing you referenced? While yeah it’d be nice to, it’s a little ridiculous to expect all 5-20 references whenever they post the image. It’s a thing where, if someone asks, you’d tell them, but it’s too much to list all of it. This isn’t a 20 page thesis.

If it’s such a crime, then holy shit sue all those people who parody other people’s comics and sue everyone who dares!!! to ever draw something remotely similar to someone else. Dang.

Art doesn’t live in a vacuum.

Okay, this one is just plain stupid. You distorted the sprite to match it up with his, but what would be the point for him to distort it just to trace? Also if he traced, can you explain the rest of the fingers that are drawn nicely but clearly different from the sprite? Also the thumbs don’t even match up. His faces more downward while the sprite is facing more forward. Also explain the turned body in Falco’s sketch, then!! And the hair! OH WAIT YOU CAN’T EXPLAIN IT BY ANY OTHER WAY THAN HE DREW IT HIMSELF!!! BECAUSE NO SPRITES MATCH IT AND YOU CAN’T FIND ANY SPRITES TO DISTORT ENOUGH TO EVEN GET CLOSE TO MAKING FAKE EVIDENCE FOR IT.

By the way, the style he drew it in is closer to the drv3 than this sprite. while it’s pretty much the same style as the older games, drv3′s art is more refined than the older games. Falco’s art is also more refined as you can see. (wow not only did falco’s art improved from back when we first met; even professional artists improve. shocker. /s)

Dude what the hell? The overlays don’t even match up even ifi you tried to frankenstein them. And these are really common poses at really common angles, and once again, must every single thing we reference from be listed in the description of every place we post an image? Let me just list all 30 videos and 50 images i used as reference for one of my prints. jfc.

As for the saihara animation based on the digimon opening animation? It was pretty clear to everyone that it’s some kind of parody. Many people when making parody animations don’t mention the original video either?? It’s a fun thing for fans of the franchise to recognize the reference themselves. Yes he could have said it was the digimon opening on the description, but at least he didn’t say he thought of the idea himself? And if you talk to him about the animation, he will openly tell you it’s from digimon. And the fact that you think it’s a trace despite how much the overlays do NOT work out is practically proof that you’re just doing this maliciously and hoping that saying he traces enough with shoddy evidence will make people believe you.

ALSO PEOPLE LITERALLY TRACE ANIMATIONS TO MAKE PARODIES OF, DOWN THE STYLE WHERE ALL THEY CHANGE IS THE HAIR AND OUTFIT, AND YET SOMETHING WITH DIFFERENCES EVEN DOWN TO THE STYLE LIKE THIS IS SOMETHING YOU THINK IS A TRACE? Do you need a new pair of glasses?

I was gonna ignore this one because it was the same as a lot of the others, but you literally erased Falco’s face line so it would match the sprite, and you covered the bigger boobs Falco gave her, and totally ignored that the angle doesn’t even match properly. Like you covered parts of his sketch in your overlay just to make it look more like it matches, but if you actually fucking overlayed it correctly, even with squashing it, it won’t fit. (Also sorry to point this out Falco, but the circles on your goggle lenses are too small compared to the sprite; Maybe if you actually traced like this person claims you’re doing, they’d be perfectly like the sprite. OH BUT WAIT YOU DREW IT YOURSELF SO OF COURSE THERE’S SOME DIFFERENCES. JUST LIKE HOW EVEN THOUGH ALL YOUR OTHER WORKS ARE REALLY CLOSE TO THE STYLE AND PRETTY MUCH ON MODEL, THEY’RE NOT EXACTLY THE SAME WITH THE SPRITES! SHOCKER...!)

HOLY FUCK. I already pointed out and gave evidence that Falco started on the Nier Automata drawing waaaaaaay before he posted the actual picture. The 2 sketches are sketches! They don’t take a super long time. I busted out 10 inktobers in 1 day. (thumbnails of my artwork below)

Look I even even lined and colored 5 fairly detailed chibis in 1 day (i did the sketches earlier though. btw i hand drew the plaid on ray. it was annoying)

At the moment I have 5 wips. They’ll likely all be done around the same time. I know Falco often has multiple wips as well, and sometimes he also finishes some of them close to each other. Some artists (like my friend Fish) can pump out extremely detailed paintings in less than a day. WOW some artists can draw at a fairly fast rate. WHO KNEW? (manga artists in weekly magazines pump out 15-20 pages of manga in a week)

He’s still developing a style; he’s mostly doing style mimics of series he likes in the mean time.

At the moment he’s mostly experimenting with the drv3 style, but he was practicing p5 earlier. By the way, he DESIGNED a phantom outfit for mishima. Who the heck would he copy that from? He made it up because he loved mishima and wanted to make him part of the gang in some AU fan art. Mishima doesn’t have artwork like this for him to trace, so it should be obvious it’s his own work.

And the pokemon and crash bandicoot ones are actually not that close. The pokemon one looks like a good attempt at imitating the pokemon style, but since he hasn’t practiced it enough, you can tell it’s a little off model because, well, he drew it himself and doesn’t practice the pokemon style a lot. Same with the crash one. Had it been a trace, with his level of control over his lines (which you can’t refute), it would have been much closer.

And you act like it’s a crime to imitate others’ art style. It’s really not. What is wrong with you? Do you want to slow down animation production by only letting the character designer draw everything? Or do you want animation where the art has 0 semblance of consistency because all the artists draw in vastly different styles? lol. What do you have against artists that try to stay on model?

LOL THIS IS ONE IS SO STUPID WHERE DO I EVEN START?

Oh, I KNOW. Why don’t I do that same pose with my own hands?

IT’S A MIDDLE FINGER, YOU IDIOT.

Just because YOU don’t know basic anatomy and can’t tell a middle finger from a pinky, doesn’t mean everyone else is as incompetent as you. He wasn’t doing the rock-on hand pose (sry idk if that pose actually has a name lol), and he’s drawn the rock-on hand pose properly before.

Closing statement

I believe I covered a lot of things and provided a lot of evidence here that Falco and his other friends did not cover in his defense against the false accusations.

I even added more counter arguments in this repost because apparently my original post wasn’t enough to convince people.

Perhaps the person calling him out meant well (no, I doubt it because they made a new side blog just to diss him because they knew if they did it on their actual blog, they’d be called out for being a jerk), but they did not do enough digging to find out if their claims were true or not (and they probably know well enough that they MADE UP THEIR EVIDENCE).

If you’re going to make a call out post, please make triple sure sure of everything before you accuse people. Talk to them first. Talk to those who know them too.

Many jobs require you to be able to draw characters exactly in the style given. Animators for example! There are multiple animators working on one series, and they all need the skill to draw consistently! Some games also have teams that need to be able to draw in the same style so they don’t have to leave everything up to one person. Comic artists often have assistants that help them draw background characters, but those background characters can’t be too different from the main style either.

As for the people who believed the call out post before, it’s perfectly understandable. I am also guilty of falling for similar posts in the past. Due to that, I decided it was best to double check before retweeting (i say retweet because i use twitter far more than tumblr these days. heck i almost never post anything on this blog) things, and if i wasn’t sure, I would just leave it be.

I hope my post was able to convince you on Falco’s innocence and all his hard work. And if you already believed him but checked out this post anyways… Thanks! ObligatoryPleaseWatchAotuWorld.

And again:

Art does NOT exist in a vacuum. All artists are influenced by each other and MANY artists, especially professionals, use a lot of references, whether it be from photographers, their own pictures, others’ artwork, life, or whatever. We all use many different resources. If you’re going to say that’s wrong, you just dismissed millions of artists in the world.

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nadiawrimos · 3 years

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Post-NaNo Debrief

TGIO though of course I’m a little sad to be done. This was my 11th NaNoWriMo. Before the event, I had outlined up to the midpoint but wasn’t sure where the story was going beyond. So I knew I would have to take some time early on to figure it out (I could have also just written until I ran out of outline and see where I went from there, but ultimately decided that wasn’t what I wanted to do).

November started on Sunday, and I wrote 5K on day one. After finishing Act I on day 3 or 4 I decided to go back to my outline and re-work everything from the midpoint so that when I eventually reached Act III I had an idea of what would happen.

In week one, I was happy with the way things were going. I enjoyed writing about a woman in her mid twenties trying to create healthy boundaries with her parents while also going against their wishes. (DEFINITELY not a self-insert, don’t be silly) Nia is also a lot more confident than I am, though I did give her some of the anxiety symptoms I’ve been feeling for the past 3 months. It’s fineeee.

Around mid-month, things changed. First, my hands and wrists started to hurt. I had, of course, heard about this happening to people (especially overachievers) and even No Plot? No Problem! talks about quitting typing at the first sign of numbness, but I didn’t think much of it. I guess I never assumed that it would happen to me, and when it did it sucked. I was frustrated and uncomfortable. Even though it was close, I never needed to borrow my boyfriend’s wrist braces. I was able to manage wrist pain by easing up on the chaturangas and narrating some words in g docs on my phone instead of typing them.

Then, it was an offer for work from a client who wanted me to ghostwrite a novel in time for Christmas. I accepted a small gig to outline his story and when it became clear that what he wanted was unrealistic given the time frame, I had to turn down the project. Even though I HATE having to disappoint someone (even a stranger online) I’m proud of myself for realizing that I had other priorities.

Lastly, I continue to be Really Going Through It right now (see: my IHMAWTD post) and when shit hit the fan in my personal life, I realized I just… didn’t care about my story anymore. I wrote the third act of my novel on autopilot, writing the plot points but not much else, with vague descriptions and almost no continuity between scenes/chapters. I wasn’t excited so my words weren’t very good.

Overall, when I consider the novel, I’m not really happy with it, and when I accidentally deleted the last 1600 words, I was not nearly as upset as I would have been if I put real effort towards it (I mean I did lose perhaps the most explicit sex scene I’ve ever written, but eh, it wasn’t my best work I just needed some words).

I do enjoy my characters though, and I’m celebrating the end of NaNo the usual way, with a manicure (shitty DIY because covid) and a new sims 4 expansion so I can play with my characters and avoid editing forever. I’m excited to blog about playing the sims while I recover from burnout/general depression.

TL;DR Good things that happened during NaNo 2020 (glass half full, y’know?):

There was a real “aha!” moment where the plot kind of came together

I wrote along with a couple of authortube live streams

I donated and received my thank-you gifts

The lovely people in the ToNaNo group sent me some stickers!

Rocked my Word Slayer sweater all month

Hazel (my cat) supervised my writing (by sleeping curled up beside me)

Clover (my other cat) got in the way of ahem supervised my yoga

Bob Ross word crawl!!!

I wrote dangerously with a friend over zoom

And arguably the most important good thing that happened during NaNoWriMo 2020:

I felt balanced as I worked towards my goal and found a routine where I could incorporate yoga every morning plus a walk/run in the afternoon in addition to writing my words. Previous Nadia would have sat in front of her laptop for hours, writing away at the expense of her social life, health, chores, and other obligations. I think working part time really helped me with this, but it proved that it IS POSSIBLE to take care of myself while working on an ambitious project. And since I haven’t really been writing since NaNo 2019, the chance to write another novel and prove to myself that I AM A WRITER even if I’m currently on hiatus/in hibernation/survival mode/figuring my life out.

#nanowrimo 2020

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princessnowvie14 · 6 years

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My Top Romance Anime

I made a new set of list of my fave romance anime series since I guess i deleted my post accidentally w/c i always update ( i dont wanna talk about it i'm still in shock lol) so here it is i made it as simple as possible, no long description. Just my collection of anime that caught my heart while watching it.

1. InuYasha

InuYasha follows Kagome Higurashi, a fifteen-year-old girl whose normal life ends when a demon drags her into a cursed well on the grounds of her family's Shinto shrine. Instead of hitting the bottom of the well, Kagome ends up 500 years in the past during Japan's violent Sengoku period with the demon's true target, a wish-granting jewel called the Shikon Jewel, reborn inside of her.

Inuyasha has always been my fave since childhood. I love the love and hate relationship they have. Inuyasha being stubborn but ever since he met Kagome he learned a lot of being a good person. I just hate their love triangle with kikyo nevertheless I love how it ends. It's really worth it after so many years of watching and waiting for it.

2. Kamisama Kiss

Nanami immerses herself in her divine duties. But if she must keep things running smoothly, she will need the help of a certain hot-headed fox. In her fumbling attempt to seek out Tomoe, she lands in trouble and ends up sealing a contract with him.

I’ve never been so satisfied in my life until after watching all the episodes of this anime, the twist is amazing . It ends well. My heart was happy.

3. Wolf Girl and Black Prince

Erika Shinohara has taken to lying about her romantic exploits to earn the respect of her new friends. So when they ask for a picture of her "boyfriend," she hastily snaps a photo of a handsome stranger, whom her friends recognize as the popular and kind-hearted Kyouya Sata.

This is the first time i tried to watch anime series continously, i mean i never wanted to stand up while watching it haha it was good . I love how Kyouya manage to be so mean while everybody thinks he's a perfect prince, but i fell in love with this couple, theyre so perfect.

4. Noragami

Just as things seem to be looking grim for the god, his fortune changes when a middle school girl, Hiyori Iki, supposedly saves Yato from a car accident, taking the hit for him. Remarkably, she survives, but the event has caused her soul to become loose and hence able to leave her body. Hiyori demands that Yato return her to normal, but upon learning that he needs a new partner to do so, reluctantly agrees to help him find one.

aahh yatori makes my heart crave for more haha i mean dont expect a lot of romance on this, it highlights friendship . Yato being so childish and Hiyori is such a good girl, i cry whenever she loses her memory. The story is fun and I hope for the next season they will give exposure for my fave couple.

5. Inu X Boku SS

But Ririchiyo's troubles have only just begun. As a requirement of staying in her new home, she must be accompanied by a Secret Service agent. Ririchiyo's new partner, Soushi Miketsukami, is handsome, quiet... but ridiculously clingy and creepily submissive.

I love the twist, i dont mind watching this all over again. Their personalities is quite interesting, the story is cute with mix of mystery.

6. My little Monster

Shizuku Mizutani is apathetic towards her classmates, only caring about her grades. However, her cold view of life begins to change when she meets Haru Yoshida, a violent troublemaker who stopped attending class after getting into a fight early in the school year. He is not much different from her, though—he too understands little about human nature and does not have any friends.

oposite attracts haha Haru is so adorable. And their relationship is quite bumpy and unsure. But i think their feelings for each other are genuine.

7. Hatsukoi Monster

After meeting her rescuer yet again and discovering that his name is Kanade Takahashi, she confesses her love to him. Kanade says he would like for them to be a couple, but that Kaho may not want to date him after she finds out his secret. To her shock, Kaho discovers the startling truth: Kanade is a fifth grader!

Hatsukoi Monster follows Kaho's first steps into love with Kanade, her immature, yet kind, fifth grade boyfriend.

Age doesn't really matter lol. Its kinda weird as it may seems but who cares as long as you love each other then jump and take a risk. You can wait for the right time anyway haha. This anime is funny and i love how their friendship show. Accepting the situation and learn how to deal with differences is the lesson.

8. Guomin Laogong Dai Huijia

Lu Jin Nian and Qiao An Hao were not married by choice. On the first day of their wedding night, Qiao An Hao made three rules regarding their marriage. One, you are not allowed to touch me. Two, you are not allowed to announce publicly that I'm your wife. Three, you are not allowed to say that we are living together.

I've watch only the first two seasons. and i loved it. Its like a prequel to the story but i dont know why im satisfied with it haha, the truth is i dont have the strength to watch the season 3 and i dont even wanna know how it ends. haha while watching i was desperate and frustrated them to be together, i want a happy ending. But all I can see was barriers and situation wont let them be happy together. I hope they will make a movie based on this. All i know is it was too depressing but definitely has a good story line.

9. Red Data Girl

Izumiko begins by cutting her bangs, which shocks both her classmates and protectors. And that's only the start! Her guardian, Yukimasa Sagara, forces his son, Miyuki, to come to the mountain shrine and become Izumiko's lifelong servant and protector. Too bad Izumiko and Miyuki cannot stand each other. They have known each other since they were children, and Miyuki bullied her terribly. Will Izumiko and Miyuki work past their differences? Is she actually a literal goddess? Find out in RDG: Red Data Girl!

This anime left me hanging and didn’t give me the ending i crave for, i hope they gonna make a next season. but i enjoyed it so much, i love the main characters and the vibe it gives me. It's a serious mystery and a little bit of romance but not much. anyway i love this, never regret watching it.

10. Shuumatsu Nani Shitemasu ka? Isogashii desu ka? Sukutte Moratte Ii desu ka?

Willem takes refuge on the floating islands in the sky, living in fear of the Beasts below. One day, he is tasked with being a weapon storehouse caretaker. Thinking nothing of it, Willem accepts, but he soon realizes that these weapons are actually a group of young Leprechauns. Though they bear every resemblance to humans, they have no regard for their own lives, identifying themselves as mere weapons of war. Among them is Chtholly Nota Seniorious, who is more than willing to sacrifice herself if it means defeating the Beasts and ensuring peace.

Not every story has good ending but im glad i watched this. The couple reminds me of kaname and sagara of full metal panic but in different way. Their personalities are so perfect for each other. I wasnt really into anime girls with different hair colors but Ctholly change my point of view, she's exactly one of my fave girls now, her being childish, jealous and innocent around Willem caught me. Funny moments will be present too and their feelings for each other blooms slowly every episodes that you just wanna watch more. I wish the last episode ended the way I wanted, anyway, I still dont get why Willem is involved into two different girls in the past, i guess it wasnt explained that much, i just hate the flashback how he remember the girl while he's with Ctholly,. Well all in all, i enjoy much I just hope they add new season, but i dont know how it will start haha. Im just happy to meet and add this perfect couple in my list.

So that’s it, i’m still in search of finding good anime romance. I hope i wont let my foolish hand delete this post again lol. Im definitely gonna edit this and add more . Hope you enjoy reading. :)

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