#healing the family tree

[slfcare]

When you find something you want (even if it’s just a result of casual thinking or boredom or a harmless ‘what if’), hold onto it. When you’re doing bad it’s easy to think it’s never going to happen and let others discourage you, but in those bleak moments it’s even more important to know that feeling of wanting and looking forward to something. It doesn’t matter if it’s merely a meal or a trip, seeing the sunrise tomorrow, attending a concert or hugging a friend, let yourself want things. They’ll pull you through when you least expect it.

#things that pulled me through because i wanted them: #posters on my bedroom wall #seeing the trees on my street grow flowers in spring #drinking iced water from a new water bottle #lighting a scented candle and reading a fantasy book #riding a bike #eating fruit with my dad #going on a walk with my dads dog #having my mom braid my hair while i sit on the floor and she sits on the sofa watching tv #finding a good kdrama to binge watch #making my 100th spotify playlist #having pancakes with ice cream on them #comfort kindness family #the healing (starts here)

[sesamenom]

alright you’ve been extremely extremely kind and indulgent to me about my oc and i cannot possibly thank you enough <333333 so MY turn now to ask YOU about YOURS. please tell me about maglor’s distant granddaughter who is also your bbeg?? .w. or about the chatty hobbits i would very VERY much love to hear about both!!!

~ @nelyoslegalteam, reporting from main <3

(long post, sorry for the random people stumbling upon this lol)

so I'm the dm for the chatty hobbits campaign and essentially it's set in a beleriand-adjacent continent, but with a few extra races and stuff. of the founders of the original settlements, the king of elende (the elf kingdom) is Gil-galad's (invented for the campaign) twin brother Finellach/Finwain. originally he was inspired by the fact that gil galad has a ton of names but only uses ereinion/gil, so I just invented a new character and gave him half the names. I headcanon gil galad as maglor's son, so finwain is in universe maglor's son (left at the havens with gil bc his wife divorced him for kinslaying and his kingdom, being next door neighbors with morgoth, is far too dangerous for small children).

Anyways, his descendant Elinyel (also known as aramire or elinnor) is the current queen of Elende! she's an evil fire-themed bard who is extremely feanorian in all the worst ways - her actual kingdom prospered under her reign, but she just does not care about everyone else as long as she's protecting her people. There were some tensions with one of the major kingdoms to the north (conflict over unclaimed territory between the kingdoms and some tariff stuff), so instead of risking the other kingdom starting a war and hurting her people, she just preemptively invaded it and started burned all the border territories to the ground.

her actual coronation was pretty weird- so she's the second child, but her older sister was born in wartime and there's a general belief in elende that children of peacetime make better rulers, so Elinyel was chosen as her family's heir. her grandfather (the crown prince of his generation) died defending Elende in one of the major wars, but his younger brother and two young kids survived. there's a whole feud between their houses because the brother chose to retain the kingship even after the kids were old enough to take the throne. anyways, two generations later Elinyel killed her cousin Arendil (the previous king of Elende) over a dispute about the legitimacy of his house (and what she believed to be a dishonoring of her grandparents' sacrifice) and took the throne.

obviously she has many Issues. arendil also has two surviving kids who are now essentially trying to stop her from murdering all their neighbors in proactive defense of her people.

however, when she first ascended she recruited her friend group as her elite guard/vassals of the kingdom. (aka the other bosses in the storyline). so it escalated to a war between her forces and the children of arendil, which ultimately culminated in her beloved sister being killed by one of arendil's children. this in turn led to her having basically a massive mental breakdown and feeling like she failed to protect her loved ones (exacerbated by some of her other friends being killed in battles she led). a normal person might decide this is was kind of her fault for starting a war and putting her friends in charge of the army. instead she decided she needed to destroy everyone who could ever potentially pose a threat. which is, in her eyes, literally everyone on the continent (except for her kingdom, of course).

so now she is at war with absolutely everyone of all factions! She is also somehow winning by virtue of Song almost on the level of maglor himself, and ten (now six) also incredibly powerful friends. Anyways, she has decided that the best way to wipe out the continent (except her kingdom) and start fresh is to literally find an ancient lost stone that can break the Doors of Night, summon Morgoth himself, and start the Dagorath. obviously this will Not go well for anyone at all if she succeeds, but she is on a full-on rampage and genuinely believes she (plus friends) can protect her kingdom from Morgoth's army while he wipes out everyone else.

Here's some old art of her btw!

And some slightly more recent unfinished art of her and the Evil Friend Group from when they were younger:

and here's (L-R) her cousin who is the 3rd boss, Elinyel, and her sister from before the war!

#asks #THANK YOU FOR THIS BTW #i only have 1 friend irl who plays dnd and is also not affiliated with the campaign #and they aren't a silm person #so i cannot talk w anyone irl about the Lore #one of the few kingdoms who could really oppose her is the magic one #bc max level wizards might as well be ainur and the monarch of the magic kingdom is Very Powerful #however. said monarch is also the twin sibling of one of elinyel's friends #(who is also an evil lich now and also maybe dating a diff friend who is an evil sorceror? not sure of details yet) #so the super powerful battlemage monarch is remaining Politically Neutral so they don't have to fight their literal evil twin #currently the party is level 6 and just defeated the very-weakened wraith of one of the friends #she was a druid but sort of decayed when she was corrupted and was kidnapping untrained/low level sorcs as servants to siphon power from #and also living in the Grove of Resurrection in order to stay intact #i forgot her dialogue while running the battle so while i looked through my docs i just had her say 'loading please wait' lol #also more chatty hobbit stuff #the grove is a huge grassy area with a walking tree in the middle #so the whole thing is constantly roaming aroudn #the wraith-druid had her castle built on it so she could have a moving castle that also heals her #the grassy part will resurrect any dead thing put on it #for the battle they had to drag her off the grass in order to kill her #technically shes been dead for some years but is surviving via constant contact w the grove #the hobbit (Shade) is from the Alder family who has historically been the guardians of the grove #he discovered he could talk to the tree in the middle and immediately started trying to figure out a way he could use the grove to #clone one of the party members #the tree does not approve of intentionally cutting off people's arms to see if it regenerates into a clone lol #oh! and they found anglachel in the grove. the dragonborn monk wants to keep it

[knighterofjulianthatonetime]

imagine you're malenia ferin for a second and like. your daughter (your ONLY remaining child) has been undercover as a navy officer on a pirate ship but also not really it's like switcheroo she's double double undercover and she communicates occasionally with you through letters and you get like the general vibe that everything is okay or at the very least kind of chill and then one day she just. shows up back at your restraunt with a dying seriously ill triton and the stink smelly depressed pirate man who you last saw her with and shes just like. hi mum. just completely unannounced

#and then you also have to tell her about like your magic tree magic stuff dying #and that her father never visits #and then you pass out after healing dying fish man #i really need to rewatch that arc cause like. damn man wtf #anyways may ferin i love you #way more stuff happened but its like late and all i can think about is. the ferin family #constantly rotating them #jrwi spoilers #jrwi riptide spoilers #jrwi #jrwi riptide #my post #original post

[crescentmel]

the pain and suffering i felt during the loki finale vs the laughs and smiles from watching the marvels right after

#i’m crying and laughing through the pain #kamala is literally so precious i will protect you with my entire life #i am with loki in his little yggdrasil tree i live there with him #THE CAROL AND MONICA BONDING AND HEALING I WAS THERE FOR IT #their little family !!! :’) #CAROL AND VALKYRIE IM YELLINGGGG #loki #loki s2 spoilers #loki spoilers #loki season 2 #loki s2 #the marvels #the marvels spoilers

[autistichanseo]

This is a long one !! sorry!! here's some true brothers angst thinking (with comfort at the end) for you guys though <33 (also read the tags after reading this if you do read this maybe cos I go on another mini ramble lmao)

Thinking about maybe when Hanseo and Vincenzo live together in Malta, since all Hanseo’s ever known is getting abused (both physically and verbally) and hurt over any mistake he made no matter how small, he automatically assumes Vincenzo will do the same to him (of course he would, that's what he “deserves”, right?).

So he tests the water with Vincenzo a bit.

To see what Vincenzo’s limits were, what to avoid doing to not get hurt, what the unspoken rules were (after all Hanseok had plenty).

It starts with small things, not tidying up after himself, breaking a plate “accidentally”, leaving milk out to spoil (also “accidentally”).

But Vincenzo doesn’t hurt him.

He helps Hanseo clean up the plate he dropped, checking to see for any possible injuries. He casually tells him to remember to put his things away when they’re all over one of the rooms. He only ever lightly scolds him (it was more a reminder than anything) in a light tone to make sure to not leave out the milk out next time for too long because it’ll spoil, but it was fine, that they could just ask a maid to add milk onto the grocery list.

It both confuses and scares Hanseo.

It meant he didn’t know what would set off Vincenzo, and he couldn’t handle the anxiousness that clawed at him whenever he was around him because of it.

Plus he was apart of the literal mafia, who knew what he and his mafia family (that also lived on the island) would do to Hanseo when angered?? He had seen first hand all of the various ways he toyed with Hanseok, and couldn't forget what Vincenzo had done to him before he joined his side, so who knew what methods he'd use when angered?? He needed to find out what to avoid, and fast.

Vincenzo starts noticing and asks if somethings wrong and why he's been avoiding him, to which Hanseo was terrified (and slightly relieved) that this was when the other shoe would drop and Vincenzo would shout at him or hit him.

But that never happened.

When Hanseo told him nothing was up, that he was struggling to sleep a bit lately so because of that he's just been a quite tired recently and out of it, Vincenzo seems to buy it and offered to get him a therapist, as after all it makes sense he’d be restless after everything that happened not too long ago in Korea. He ruffles his hair and leaves and Hanseo is just left shocked.

Why was he being so patient with him?? Hanseok would’ve hurt him at so many points in this test, why didn’t Vincenzo? (“Any other person would’ve by now right?”)

Was he toying with him? Making Hanseo more and more relaxed around him so that a real punishment would sting more and Hanseo would blame himself for it?

No, he shakes off that thought immediately. His hyung wouldn’t do something like that. It had to be something else.

He needs to know when the other shoe will drop. So he escalates things. Better to know now than fuck up later and have his hopes ruined.

So he keeps “forgetting” to go to his therapy appointments. He “tripped” and broke one of Vincenzo’s prized art pieces, he refuses to move his things or clean up after himself. He goes out to drink almost every day and comes home at like 3am, sometimes blasting loud music when Vincenzo's sleeping.

Anything. Anything for the second shoe to drop.

And eventually, Vincenzo can’t take it anymore, but it didn’t go as Hanseo expected it.

Vincenzo and him get in a huge argument, Hanseo’s refusing to listen (the shoe has to drop now right?) and Vin just exasperatedly like “why are you doing this?” but he isn't shouting at him or upset, just… concerned?

What??

Why wasn’t he mad??

As Vincenzo is asking him to explain why he was being like this Hanseo can’t bottle it up anymore and just bursts out with “because you won’t hurt me!!! why wont you hurt me??? just get it over with and scream at me for screwing up or slap me or anything! just do something so I'm not always anxious around you and... scared everything’s going to- I don’t know, straight up collapse at any moment or something!! just tell me what your rules are!!”

And that's when Vincenzo realises.

Oh.

His heart sinks. Because he now knows exactly why Hanseo’s doing this.

He’s trying to figure out what Vincenzo would hurt him for.

He thinks Vincenzo is going to hurt him eventually like Hanseok did.

Oh.

It takes Vincenzo a moment to process this and it's suddenly silent and Hanseo thinks this is when the other shoe has dropped.

He’s filled with fear once again, but this time it spills over any sort of relief he could’ve gotten at finally “finding out what Vincenzo’s limits were” because Hanseo can’t read Vincenzo’s face right now. He associates that unreadability with the unreadable expression Hanseok would have on his face before hurting Hanseo.

He's bracing himself to get shouted at or hurt so he goes back into Hanseok-mode and takes a step back, starting to cave in on himself as he's about to try to apologise and take back what he just said.

Thankfully, Vincenzo realises this and immediately snaps out of his head to reassure Hanseo. "Hanseo... I'm not going to hurt you... I was never planning on ever laying a hand on you. Ever. Nor was I planning to ever shout at you."

And Hanseo is just.

Stunned.

He doesn't know what to say so he's only responds with a meek "Why?"

For Vincenzo to be like "what Hanseok did to you wasn't normal or even okay in the first place, and you'll never get any of that horrible treatment from anyone again." (Vincenzo will make sure of that).

And Hanseo's just. speechless.

He can't figure out what to say or do so he's just there, starting to tear up like "hyung..."

Because this is when Hanseo realises that for the first time in his life, he's truly, truly safe now.

Because now he has a home, and he didn't just mean the island they lived on, but Vincenzo himself. Vincenzo was home to him, and he was more of a home to him than any fancy villa Hanseo had had before could've ever been.

Yeah, he'll be okay now.

After all, no matter what happens, he has his home to go back to.

#I think a lot of people forget #hanseo and vincenzo are Very Traumatised individuals #and Will have trauma responses #a.) they're not as healthy of a brother dynamic as everyone thinks they are (they both need time to heal for that to happen) #and b.) it wont just be happy ever after now that they're living together even tho I wish it was that easy #abuse isn't easy to get over #there will be a Lot of hardships to overcome because of the things ingrained in your brain from it #but they'll be able to overcome their hardships now that they have each other #and the ones they can't overcome they'll face and deal with Together #because Thats what makes people brothers. not a family tree branch or by blood #but by love and appreciation and being there for each other when things get tough #no matter what obstacles arise #thats why the full saying isn't “blood is thicker than water” #but “The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb.” #it's why their dynamic is called true brothers I rest my case #speaking of: #true brothers #jang hanseo #jang han seo #jang hanseok #vincenzo #tvn vincenzo #빈센조 #myposts

[honeycombhank]

Autumn is for..

Climbing trees, making hot tea, raking leaves and making piles, playing In those piles, cooking dinner together, roasting nuts and carving pumpkins, painting and humming and learning something new, finding out what comforts you, bone fires and worm socks, snuggling and giggling, telling stories and jokes and slowing down for each other, watching the weather, feeling the rain and playing family games, it’s for movie nights and big sweaters, it’s for crisp runs and apple pies, it’s for petting cats and lighting candles, pressing flowers and running in fields, it’s for sleeping in and reading late, it’s for goodnight kisses and speaking kindly to yourself and others, it’s for second and third tries and for noticing the small things, it’s for muddy puddles and finding slugs and spiders, it’s for music and mazes and cider and holding hands, it’s for watching the trees change colors..

What is your Autumn for?

#honeycombhank #healing #activity #things to do #autumn #fall #seasonal changes #leaves #autumn trees #cider #hot drinks #apple pie #baking #family #games #to do list #slow down

[ladyimaginarium]

when ethel cain said "i always knew that in the end, no one was coming to save me, so i just prayed and i keep praying and praying" & "god loves you but not enough to save you" & "so, baby girl, good luck taking care of yourself" & "god doesn't love you, not like i do" & "you and me against the world [...] we had nothing but each other, you were my whole world" & "your mama calls me sometimes to see if i'm doing well and i'd lie to her and say that i'm doing fine when, really, i'd kill myself to hold you one more time, and it hurts to miss you but it's worse to know that i'm the reason you won't come home" & "you know, i still wait at the edge of town, praying straight to god that maybe you'll come back around, i cry everyday and the bottles make it worse 'cause you were the only one i was never scared to tell i hurt [...] and you might never come back home, and i may never sleep at night, but god, i hope you're doing fine out there, i just pray that you're alright, and i feel so alone, and i feel so alone out here [...] and i feel so alone without you, i'm so alone" & "i'd hold the gun if you asked me to, but if you love me like you say you do, would you ask me to?" & "i tried to be good, am i no good, am i no good, am i no good?" & "i just wanted to be yours, can i be yours, can i be yours, can i be yours?" & "but in these motel rooms, i started to see you differently, 'cause for the first time since i was a child, i could see a man who wasn't angry" & "i thought good guys get to be happy, i'm not happy, i am poison in the water and unhappy" & then "preacher's saying god will save me, if god is real, he's a fucking bitch" & "i didn't ask to be this crazy but since we're here, i'll give them a show" & "if you try to hurt me, i won't stop you, but there's something you should know, it's that my daddy's fucking crazy and always ready to blow" & "the first boy i ever loved was a brother i never had, i thought, with him, maybe i'd make it, maybe it'd be half as bad, spent my night under the covers just wishing he was there, draw his portrait in my diary just to hold when i got scared, now i'm fucked up and i'm nasty, but they say i make it look good" & "what's gonna scare me when i've seen it all? [...] if i can't live, can i just fucking die?" & "am i not good enough for you? is there something wrong with me? baby, don't you lie to me, am i just not what you want? am i just not what you need? is there someone in your heart that keeps you gone away from me? is she prettier than me? is her skin softer than mine? can she give you what i can't? the thing i cry for every night?" & "i think about you everyday, 'cause i love you more than i thought i could [...] 'cause i don't hate you like i know i should, was i not good enough for you? was there something wrong with me? i just cry by myself at night but you'll never know and you'll never see" & "sometimes you make me wanna put my fucking head through the wall, sometimes i wonder if i ever even knew you at all" & "and we've been cursed since the start, jesus didn't want us [...] and fuck the cops and fuck god and fuck this town for ruining us" & "in the corner, on my birthday, you watched me dancing right there in the grass, i was too young to know that some types of love could be bad" & "you poor thing, sweet mourning lamb, there's nothing you can do, it's already been done" & "bless the children, each and every one come to know their god through some senseless act of violence" & "stop, stop, stop, make it stop, stop, make it stop, make it stop, i've had enough" & "i am the face of love's rage" & "and i spend my life watching it go by from the sidelines, and, god, i've tried, but i think it's about time i put up a fight" & "i forgive it all as it comes back to me" & "dancing with the windows open, i can't let go when something's broken, it's all i know, and it's all i want now" i& just. okayokayokayokay okay yeah alright hahahaha lmaoooo im& totally fine i& just

#arcana.txt #tw; long post #& 'THE FATES ALREADY FUCKED ME SIDEWAYS SWINGING FROM MY NECK FROM THE FAMILY TREE [...] THEN LEAVE ME HANGING SO THEY ALL CAN LAUGH AT ME' #''YOU NEED TIME I KNOW BUT JESUS IS THIS ALL YOU THINK OF ME? A PORTRAIT OF MY L.OVE IN ALL W.HITE AND ON HER KNEES?'' #''STRANGERS TOUCH ME IN MY D.REAMS IF I GO TO BED SOBER WHEN THE CURTAINS TURN W.HITE I'LL KNOW THAT ITS OVER'' #''YOU DONT KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TRYING TO LOVE WHILE YOU HEAL & YOU DONT GET TO PREACH IF YOU DONT KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO HAVE EVERY LAST INCH+ #OF YOUR BODY INVADED LIKE I DO'' & ''WOKE UP A SAINT & FELL ASLEEP A MARTYR WOULD YOU DO THE SAME THINGS TO YOUR OWN DAUGHTER?'' #& ''DOES GOD MAKE DELICATE THINGS JUST TO WATCH THEM GET HURT?'' #LIKE ... MAN MAMA CAIN DIDNT HAVE TO EXPOSE ME& LIKE THAT😭

[mindholes]

in other news, my father's alleged nephew emailed me this week letting me know he took a DNA test and can confirm that my father is his uncle. this is monumental and i only wish my father was still alive to finally get the validation he had been seeking his entire life. he never knew if his alleged father was his real father, since his father wanted nothing to do with him. i am so happy for him and i hope that he would have been happy too

#we wrote letters back and forth ever since i found the photo of my dad's father and thought the resemblance was uncanny #g. was very guarded and wasn't sure if he believed my story #he emailed me saying 'the entire story is true. i don't know what to say.' #this morning he added my family to his public family tree #i wish i could talk to my dad and see what he thinks about all of this #his dream was to be surrounded by family. to connect with the family that he never had as an orphan #he had so many people who loved him and cared for hi #but the pain of being rejected by his father's side of the family haunted him his entire life #this entire thing has healed something in me #knowing i did right by him. and fought for the story he always knew was true and his father's family tried to bury #i miss him so much and hope he is happy.

[flamboyant-king]

We saw the beginning, now I be thinking about all the possible...uhh the word is like aftermath...epilogues? Seeing as the narrative will be left open ended, we can hypothesize and fantasize just about anything!

This one is Harvey carrying on with what he idealized as a normal life, getting married, having kids, going out with the boys, stuff you see on TV. But Cammy is still there, still a part of his life. And that's pretty neat. And also I cry.

#i went on a spree yesterday with a bunch of aftermathematics that made me cry myself to sleep #because no matter what. every single end. cammy will outlive harvey. every thing in between can be different #cammy leaving. cammy staying. reluctance. romance. etc etc. cammy will live on without harvey. and it will hurt them. a lot. #it hurts me a lot. im still crying over 'thank you for keeping me in your life' #cammy could be living in the garden until the very end. either of harveys life. or the tree they took care ofs life. #maybe cammy leaves but visits from time to time. or maybe they visit right before harvey kicks the bucket #who knows! thinking about anything past the narrative makes me cry #because we dont see that in media. we always get the good ending but that is never the end. what happens afterwards? #cause grow as we go's narrative ends after harvey finally reunites with his family in the philippines and decides #i want to stay at my house and take care of my garden. ill be sure to visit every year from now on. #and the credits would roll as him and cammy travel back. on the plane. the taxi ride. harvey getting the key in the door. #harvey putting cammy in the little makeshift bed he made. and him looking out the window of his room down at the garden. him smiling #and then it says end. thank you for watching. this took fourty two years to make oopsie whoops #god i go on long rants when its late. anywho compare to last time i made a possible ending #cammy reluctantly leaving as they both start to fall in love with each other #cammy willingly running away knowing harvey will heal from this and move on and be normal #this one here theres no leaving. there is no normal. its just living dude #grow as we go #sketches #harvey #camellia

[despite-everything]

okay i gotta be careful in the show and character tags for a bit until people cool off i think...

#you can be upset by how things went down! but i dont just want to see an entire tag flooded with negativity #especially in relation to izzy #you can disagree with his death! but i do think it made narrative sense #even though it was heartbreaking #like of fucking course i wanted him to get to be happy and continue to heal now that he's accepted the crew as his family #but his death made sense. sadly it did #and while i wish we couldve seen more mourning i actually think the crew is honoring him ina. way. #tree talks #not tagging this i think oh wait ig for spoilers because of my tags #ofmd spoilers

[annpositivitylife]

Kilka świątecznych zdjęć. Mam dosłownie chwilę, by tu wpaść 😅 wiecie jak to jest z przygotowywaniami.

Ostatnie dni były chaotyczne, aż bolała mnie głowa od overthinkingu, ilości prac domowych itp. Potem się poprawilo. Nie myślę już o szkole, obowiązkach, poświęcam ten czas w zupełności sobie i mojej rodzinie.

Wigilia w szkole była taka cudowna. Wzruszyłam się na koncercie chóru, życzenia, wypad z dziewczynami.. Jestem za to wszystko ogromnie wdzięczna. Już bierze mnie na przemyślenia odnośnie końca roku- ze względu na to, że zaczęłam prowadzić taki dziennik i obserwować swoje życie. No i tumblera, który pomaga mi z emocjami, inspiruję się tu itp.

Ile może się zmienić w rok. Wow. To był szok, jak ja zmądrzalam, mam totalnie inną głowę niż na początku 2022. Jestem naprawdę pod wrażeniem.

Ten rok był dla mnie szalony. Zaczęłam imprezować, pogłębiła się moja relacja z paczką, zerwałam z chłopakiem, zacieśniliśmy rodzinne więzy. Duzo przemyśleń na temat wiary, duchowości. W szkole góra pracy, rok maturalny. Dużo wyzwań. W tym roku wzięłam się za siebie- dietę, pielęgnację. Cieszę się, że wprowadziłam duże zmiany w swoje życie, przede wszystkim w podejściu i myśleniu 🥺

To na zakończenie, najlepsze życzenia dla Was. Miłości do siebie i do świata, przekonania, że życie jest cudem ♥️. Ciepła rodzinnego, żeby w Waszym życiu zawsze wygrywała Światłość. Spełnienia, małych przyjemności w natłoku codziennych zadań. Czasu dla siebie i dla bliskich, umiejętności zatrzymania się w ciągu dnia i posiedzenia w ciszy. Zdrowia, psychicznego i fizycznego, bo to jest podstawa wszystkiego. Nadziei, że rok 2023 będzie lepszy niż poprzedni 🫶💜

#aesthetic #życie #diet #school #nauka #holiday #christmas #christianity #christmas time #heart #christmas tree #decors #home sweet home #cozy time #family time #family #self care #self love #self worth #self healing

[sunlitmcgee]

if hwhbh!XDNF married, that would make him healBeeduo's father-in-law and also like a grandpa to mikey and shroud.

#the more i think of this #the sillier the family tree becomes #someone should make a family tree graph for heal like we've done for canon #it'd be so stupid and messy

[jjadmanii]

Am I dumb but…earlier on the two families were like,

“Cal doesn’t know her bsf parents are dead” and

“Jules doesn’t know her father is dying”

And they never mention it again? And they also never brought up that Jules did not kill Ashley…

Also I don’t think Jules knows about her grandma😭

😭😭they spent the whole season making out while everyone around them was going through it😭

#and i hope they deal with that in s2🥹🥹 #jules dad healing because the family’s snake penetrated(?) his body 😔 #jules and cal having ✨ a moment✨ against a tree 😮‍💨🤪🤪🫡 #first kill #ask

[impossible-rat-babies]

realistically eyrie would only be a leatherworker and an alchemist, but the sirensong of having all the crafters is Very Tempting

#i say that as I have almost all of them save for armorer #and I’m a crafting mentor Sndjdjdjd #eyrie is an alchemist in the more medicinal sense—same with them being a botanist #it’s all basic medical knowledge #as much as there is a strong tradition of something akin to white magic on their mother’s side of the family #they were given a full education on practical ways of caring for injuries of the flesh #it was practical! one cannot rely only on healing spells to save oneself #I’ve been thinking a lot about eyrie’s home lately #living life skirting the tree lines of the skatay range. the winters and the summers there #the vicious winter windstorms up on the mountains where the tents would howl for hours #or the one time in their youth they were awoken by a terrible rumbling sound and watched in horror as an avalanche rushed down #the distant hill—crushing everything in its path by moonlight #even in their adulthood their patrols through the edges of the trees and further up #across glaciers and standing at mountain peaks with the clouds like an ocean all around #I think eyrie’s tribe kept sheep—Hardy mountain ones #oc: eyrie kisne #hot springs! eyrie on the edge of a hot spring in the middle of winter tending to their wounds from a recent fight #messy long hair and permenant sour face #it says something about them that they spent the better part of their life #in some of the quietest places on the star #wide scrub tundra with naught but the sound of one’s own breath and the wind #the stillness at sunrise and sunset #with the snow bright orange in the light #Minfilia talked about the dawn’s light and eyrie always pictured those mornings #and they thought about all these different places and the metaphor of it #and it didn’t stick until they thought about those #brilliant orange mornings at the top of the world #that made it make sense

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#after almost 3yrs of not being able to write anything substantial fic wise. ive managed to write 6.5k in like 2 days? #i think the hope was for about 10k but i think im gonna overshoot that a bit. hopefully not by much #i need this to let me go pls. i have things to do #i cant help it tho. im a sucker for hurt and comfort thru ghost stories #terror to generate affection and just so much. basically im just using my beloved 1ruka to heal ppl bc i lov him #i dont write him well bc he is a loud mouth extrovert and i cannot fathom how such a person would behave #but im doing my best. ya kno #ugh ive not dont anything productive in like 2 days tho. which is prob a good thing but i am miserable when i work too hard and miserable #when i dont work enough. there is no winning #i did start the phd search. but quickly got overwhelmed. sigh. its so hard to search for v specific topics #and ive gotta decide where i wanna live next. bc i really dont wanna live in the desert anymore. i mean its not terrible here but #imagine if i lived in a place with mountains and trees! magic. and closer to home too. ive not seen my family in 3 months and not been home #since January. and my parents were up on the lake today for my dads birthday so :-/ sad vibes #ugh. im so tired. i need to sleep. maybe ill b productive tomorrow. maybe not #unrelated

[honeycombhank]

3/10/24

3.10 miles in the the cold wind and rain out in the country today.

I thought I was going to have a siezure while playing games with my family and had to sneak away, a walk was actually just what I needed, it doesn’t always keep my episodes from coming on but today it did.

#honeycombhank #self care #healing #trees #outdoors #walking #jogging #emotional control #walk to clear the mind #mental health #life with non epileptic siezures #life with seizures #family time #fitness #workout #fresh air #birds #clouds #skyline #skyscape