How do I get others to understand I'm not trans because I enjoy extensive femininity. I'm not trans because I absolutely abhor masculinity (I mean, don't get me wrong, not a fan of it, but its just a part of life, know what I mean?). I'm not trans because I need to feel special or have special treatment. I'm not trans because I think I'll look better as a girl. I'm not trans because I'm bi.
I'm trans... because when I look deep inside and I think of myself as a man I feel like dying, and when I think of myself as a woman I feel like life is worth living. I'm trans because I'm more comfortable thinking of myself and being seen as a girl. I'm trans because I feel more at home in the "roles" women exist in on this world. I'm trans because I do prefer femininity to masculinity, even if I'm not extreme in that preference. I'm trans because I feel at home when I can be a woman. I'm trans because I want to live a life worth living, and for me, that means being who I want to be; and who I want to be is Madison.
Bro I hate fundamentalists and culturally-fundie parents they'll say shit like "spare the rod spoil the child am I right haha yea my parents used to have to beat my ass with a switch almost everyday but I sure did learn my lesson" but like??? no you didn't??? you were hit multiple times for something you very obviously did not, in fact, learn
Like studies about how harmful even lightly spanking children is aside, you're literally contradicting yourself?? Some even admitted they got worse as they got older cause they wanted to see how far they could push their parents before they got punished
And studies not aside, you're gonna get child raising advice from the same book that tells you to stone your wife if her hymen doesn't break on your wedding night instead of the decades of research we have now?? Just say you're a bad parent and move on my guy. Skill issue
i adore your durge so much please share facts about him if you are so inclined
omg thank you for taking interest in him... 🥺
He's a really quiet guy who takes the cult business seriously. He's got insane father issues with Bhaal and does everything he can to be his perfect son. Hence the extreme religious crisis when he met and got obsessed with Gortash to the point where he would punish himself through self-flagellation and offering more bodies to him. Self punishment has always been something he did when he thinks he disobeyed Bhaal, but it was never that bad until Gortash... hjkgfkdfg anyway..
He enjoys the killing and whatnot.. typical durge stuff. Huge ego, pretty pompous. but there were times when he'd wish more in life and question his purpose especially during the start of his fall from grace. questioning what he wants aside from killing. be with who he wants. I cant ever talk about him without bringing up Gortash hjfkff but Gortash really did ruin him because for the first time, he wants something more than the purpose his murderous father has given him. His one true equal in this world. The only person whom he has told his real name that was given to him by his adoptive family before the urges came. Yet the only way he knew how to express his love is to tell him "i will kill you on my father's altar and then myself" lmao.. just two very emotionally constipated evil people honestly.
Post-tadpole, he tries redeeming himself and ultimately fails because I think it's such good tragedy. He develops a thing with Gale but can never really commit to anything because the moment he woke up on that pod, there is a hole in his heart in the shape of a tyrant he can barely remember. So it's more of a complicated interest in gale. I am torn between: Gale makes him sane and he's truly the only person that he never wants to hurt. or someone he wants to corrupt. mostly leaning on the latter. but less corruption and more of trying to maximize his potential, is what Vanh believes he's doing anyway. he's still very much a silly fucked up evil guy with or without bhaal...
I could go on and on... he's so special to me jgdfkgkkg...
when he's not being an undiagnosed edgelord (lol) he likes the sky, he likes the ocean. he likes watching the tyrant tinker with his metals and inventions. He likes watching the wizard cook. he's very observant in an almost creepy way. He likes being alone too where nothing can disturb him.
as a cult leader, hes just a very annoying guy when he talks, honestly. he could go and on and on about his father and his unholy mission and i like to think he would be banned from fortnite lobbies 💀💀
Bought and sold and traded so many fantastic zines this weekend and honestly my favourite interaction I had was with a very shy but very very determined kid who asked politely if I'd like to trade them one of my angry political transgender poems for some drawings they did in class. I will treasure it forever it was so cute this kid has such a fun scrappy art style and I look forward to seeing them at future zine fairs with more little drawings. Weird queer accessible inclusive art fairs you have my heart always and forever 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖
i love how cortex's whole backstory deal is like. he was abused by his family, physically and emotionally, pretty much from birth. when he was a small kid family friends got drunk and forcibly tattoo'd the "n" on his head for "nerd", and noone from his family stopped them. he escaped the abuse by running away from home before age 10, shortly after which a "freak explosion" wiped out his whole family. he was homeless and completely on his own for a while until he got accepted into school. he was then severely bullied and often "brutally beaten" after school. he met his first friend ever, n. brio, in highschool. they caused chernobyl at some point. he's emotionally unstable. his family were circus performers so he now has a phobia of clowns because they remind him of his abusers. he's hinted to have bipolar disorder. he has never had a healthy relationship or experienced affection in his life. all of what i wrote is taken from official sources.
I wanted to come on here and say, thank you to those who are protesting. You are speaking for a bigger collective that do not wish to be harmed in any way and/or simply cannot. The compassion is felt through more people than you realize, it means more than words can describe and you are all honored. Thank you. We are all doing our best and what we can to the best of our ability, even those who are forced silent by threat. They cannot silence us all.
Humanity NEEDS to operate on a humanitarian level, how dare the government put monetary value on life; it is CRUEL and IMHUMANE. It should not be like this. It won't be like this for any longer. I promise.
There is something underlying, and there always has, you are not crazy. It is all enforced. It is on purpose.