#i am genuinely excited to see him and do stuff so im hoping i can use that to push past my fear and let myself be a lil vulnerable ykno??

[the-s1lly-corner]

I’m hoping this is the inbox- pls help I’m used to just reading what’s in the tags on tumblr and never requesting anything 🥹

I hope you’re having an amazing day/night/whatever time of day it is for you-!!! I just found your blog and I am so happy I did!! I’ve been binge reading it but the fact that I found someone who writes for Creepypasta???? I’m??? In luv??? (platonically ofc) may I request some LJ with a fem!reader who has bpd and he’s their fp, carries his little music box everywhere she goes and always “talks” to him in public, not caring about any crazy looks she gets from people?

Also politely asking to be 🩶 anon (if you’re taking any ofc-)

Laughing Jack x fem!reader w/ BPD who has him as her FP!

UEUEUEUE im so happy to hear you love my writing sm ehehehe! always thrilled to hear people enjoying my stuff/that it makes them happy! i hope you enjoy this, i havent written a reader with BPD before so i hope this is decent! also also youre doing wonderful; requesting i mean! i dont think theres many rules against how youre meant to request (every blog is different though!!)

honestly i think hes genuinely thrilled to be taken around and about with you in his little box! usually hes sitting in his box waiting for an unfortunate soul to take it home; its been like this for... a while now... so actually being able to go around and see things is a nice change of pace! plus it makes him feel more included in your life rather than just being an "at home friend"

i think in the beginning youre going to have to ask him to pipe down a little since he might talk a little too loud... like near yelling because hes just so excited

loves helping you shop :)! quick heads up though he might beg you to buy stuff you guys dont need

general silly ideas aside, i think hed be chattering the entire time so you two probably always have a conversation going on whenever you guys are out

probably sneers at people who give you looks tbh, will probably trip them if they decide to be a little ruder and mutter something under their breath while theyre passing by you... i mean they cant prove anything! they just tripped on air! jack totally didnt swipe one of his long arms out and tug their ankle back!

the only downside is that jack cant do much outside of talking and sneaking stuff around since him just fully popping out his box might blow his cover, you know? doesnt mean he doesnt have the urge to jump out when he sees you getting a little stressed out or overwhelmed about your surroundings or when someone is being particularly cruel

though i dont doubt hes remembering faces; i mean at the end of the day hes still a clown that specializes in torment, do i really need to say what hes cooking up in his brain?

no in cases where you're beginning to struggle hes probably going to try to quietly urge you to disconnect and take a breather

keeps your favorite candies on him at all times and slips them into your hand, probably does the same to any stress/fidget toys you may or may not have.. though i do hc he can just materialize certain things and i can easily see that sort of thing falling into something he can just yoink into existence

very good at reassuring you of your worth and how much you mean to him; this is a general thing but i think he makes it more of a point if self image is something you particularly struggle with

who would have thunk it, the clown with abandonment issues is good at reassuring others that hes not going to go anywhere

#creepypasta headcanon #creepypasta imagine #creepypasta x reader #creepypasta x you #laughing jack x you #laughing jack x reader #laughing jack imagine

[violetwitch12087]

Could you do the evans reacting to finding out that your pregnant with their child 🤭🤭

UH OF COURSE I CAN THIS IS ACTUALLY A REALLY GOOD IDEA I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS I DID MY BEST

The evans reaction to finding out you're pregnant and its theres

Evan Peters

*you tell him*

IMMEDIATE happiness

Hes shocked and then when you tell him fr a big smile comes across his face and he engulfs you into a hug

Would prob shed some tears or a lot

Kisses you so passionately

Holds you in his arms for HOURS

Tells his parents how happy he is

"evan uhm im pregnant" "wait youre serious?" *Nod* "OMG baby im so happy"

Tate Langdon

Straight panic

Scared he made the anti christ again

Sad because it killed you

You have to comfort him but he just cries and tells you how sorry he is

Honestly maybe would avoid you for a bit bc he hates himself and when he sees you he remembers what he did

After a while when you die and stuff he'll be there for you while you die holding your hand crying and kissing your knuckles

Yall would be fine after but until the apocalypse happens👍

"tate im- im pregnant" "w-what? I- im so sorry its all my fault"

Kit Walka (ik its walker i jst love the way he says it)

Would look down at the test and smile and hug you

"we're gonna have a third little baby here?"

Honestly really, really happy

Kisses you and hugs you swaying side to side

Later on would listen to his favorite music and dance with you before kissing you and putting his hands on your belly

"kit im pregnant" "what?" *Sees test* *big ole smile* "we're gonna have a third little one running around here?" *Nod*

Kyle Spencer (pre death)

Honestly a little concerned/considering it because hes in college and still lives with his mom

Would make it your choice if you want to keep it but if you do we would be there every single step and moment of the way

Honestly after a while of thinking would be so happy to have a little you guys running around

After thinking and accepting it and loving it he would apologize for even considering it and would kiss you and hold you

"kyle i know we're young but i- im pregnant" "wait really?" *Sees test* "i- i dont know what to say i mean i love you i really do and you know that but we're young but if you want to keep it ill be here no matter what baby"

*later on after thinking* "baby im so sorry for everything i said i wanna have a baby with you ive never been happier please forgive me, im so excited to have this journey with you"

How could you say no

Jimmy Darlin (yes ik its darling)

Very very happy

Then his smile starts to fade

Sad because he doesnt want your guy's kid to have his condition

Also sad because his kid is gonna grow up the way he did

You comfort him and tell him its all okay and that you guys wont let anything happen to the kid

Apologies for how he couldnt take you guys out of the freak show and all that jazz

You comfort him and lets jst say like at the end of freak show you and Jimmy live a normal life with your big ole belly and jimmy by your side all the steps of the way

"jimmy omg im pregnant" "really?" *His beautiful smile*

After a bit "im so sorry i couldnt give you and our only kid a normal life i really am" "jimmy i love you we will figure it out and you know we will"

James Patrick March

Genuinely shocked

Didnt even know you and him could have kids since well hes a ghost

But 'miracles' happen

Honestly surprisingly happy to have a little you guy's running around the hotel

"if you need anything i will have someone get it for you my love" he says that and also means that he will have someone that can go outside get you stuff as well

"james im pregnant" "i can procreate?" *Nods* "well, i could never be happier dear"

Kai Anderson

Honestly would probably be nice to you for once like with ally

Happy because there is now a 'messiah'

Wants the kid to lead the cult when he dies

Would be so happy i mean did you see him with ally and their damn kid?

He would start being more gently like he would look at your belly and smile putting his big hand on top of it

I mean he would probably even kiss your head and give you cuddles here and there

I mean how could he not? You're holding the next most precious and important thing in his life or probably the kid is his most precious and important thing

"kai dont get mad but im pregnant, and its yours" *a small smile would come across his face* "really? I honor you as the most loyal in this cult you're holding the next messiah"

Peter Maximoff (wanda vision age)

Honestly shocked

Would be so happy tbh

Would be happy because he would have another probably immature kid that was fast like him

Would probably pull you into a hug and kiss you and would hold you like forever while you guys slept every night

Would go into a frenzy about you needing rest and him stealing your favorite snacks a stuff just to make you happy i mean hes a kleptomaniac

"peter im pregnant" "YES omg were gonna have another speedster here"

#evan peters #tate langdon #kit walker #kyle spencer #jimmy darling #jimmy darlin #kit walka #james march #James Patrick March #kai anderson #quicksilver #peter maximoff #ahs #headcanon #ahs headcanons #the evans #the evans reaction

[antirepurp]

time for me to be obnoxious about an april fool's game at almost may wahoo ft. an unexpected moment of character analysis because i have no chill

TRAIN.

i hope this game is canon because rouge doing petty pickpocketing is my favorite thing actually

he has a wallet? and a home?

i could go on about how much i love these kids being unhinged and chaotic but unless i want to reblog this post a million times i have to cut it down. let it be known that i adore the kids and their antics tho

you know what i also adore? blaze committing crimes in the chaos dimension because she can get away with it. i think i need more of that in my life actually

although right after he says he doesn't wanna do more crimes i'd like to think he grows out of that opinion eventually. let the little guy steal stuff i want him to hang with rouge and have her make him worse actually

look here shadow's had it rough in the writing department for a while but i very much appreciated this plot point of him going out of his way to get concert tickets for amy and even (reluctantly) agreeing to go with her to said concert even if it isn't his cup of tea. i know it's more presented as him trying to y'know be polite and considerate and he's going about it in an edgy way but i'd like to think it's just his way of presenting things if you will? like he know what amy's favorite band is and sees how hard the tickets are to get so he goes out of his way to get them because he cares about his friend and knows how much attending a concert like that would mean to amy. and in terms of this screenshot in particular i also appreciate amy appreciating her friends' presence at her party even if they hadn't gotten her anything! sure it does kinda come across as her being bummed about not getting gifts from them and maybe she is but i think that's okay? like she's 12 (or 13 now i guess?) getting excited about presents is pretty normal, and it's not like she's super upset about it anyway. i think she genuinely appreciates her friends attending her party more than anything

i also found this a lovely little detail lol and it does kinda make sense! the bitch has been in stasis for 50 years and computer technology has taken leaps in that time, of course he'd be a lil rustier with them compared to his peers

more on shadow, this guy's brain goes overdrive the second he realizes he fucked up and needs to get something nice for his friend now. like i don't have the brain power to form it into words atm but i just love what this all says about him as a character!!

i could flail about the art in this game the whole evening honestly it's so lovely and colorful and pretty and i love how this scene is composed and shadow being seated on the windowsill idk this just put a big smile on my face when i saw it :)

frankly obsessed with amy's unhinged energy can we please get more of this bc i live for it

the fucking blowdart. i cannot tell you how fucking off the walls these teens are like espio's instructed to use a blowdart on sonic with non-lethal poison and he's like yeah that checks out and sonic's just like wow cool guess i'll snooze for a bit then like this shit is exactly why teenagers should be given superpowers and be put into Situations(TM) i love it

not an april fools game making me emotional over trains

and why yes i am obsessed obviously

it was a fun game! like tbh with a bit more content i would've been happy to pay a bit for this honestly (like. when im not broke lmao) like it's so charming and there were a lot of fun details and the jokes were enjoyable too. i just think it's neat :)

but yea that is all im glad sonic the hedgehog got murdered it was a great time

#soda offers you a can #the murder of sonic the hedgehog #also the minigames were banges actually i loved the vibes in them they were rad

[yanderemommabean]

Hey just wanted to let you know that your smut is really good. No writing is perfect and there are always people who can find things to point out but you are a genuinely good writer who brings joy (and horniness) to a lot of people and you seem like you could use a reminder that you are doing really great.

I am honestly really critical of others work for the most part, and I would not send this message if I did not truly believe what I am saying to be true. Your writing always feels so genuine and has the unique vibe of being written by someone who is also really excited/passionate about the piece and ideas being shared, and also has many really neat characters I haven’t seen elsewhere (Alduin for one I think you are the only person doing decent writing for him so thank you so much) lots of original ideas, not to mention your OCs which I’ll be honest I’m not usually super into OCs but your are genuinely really fricking cool and interesting.

There are always ways to improve but that doesn’t mean you need to quit if it’s something you enjoy. Everyone has different things they are into and it is impossible to be everyone’s cup of tea, but I can promise you that your stuff makes a lot of people very happy.

I always look forward to seeing you update and sometimes even end up happy stimming when I read your writing (not always when reading your smut because my hands usually end up busy with *ahem* other things lol but you get the point)

Though of course if you want to quit/feel more comfortable that way it’s also obviously okay and you won’t be letting us down. We love your smut but you and your comfort and peace of mind are more important. I hope this message reaches you well and doesn’t overstep or anything lol, I am not amazing with words.

I appreciate you saying this bean. I wasn't going to stop writing entirely, I just felt my smut wasn't worth reading if people had so many issues with it and would nitpick it to hell and back, or if they genuinely felt left out and disturbed. The messages really got to me and I felt maybe I should get some advice to better myself for you beans and more!

I can't please everyone, and from the anons and other beans in my inbox, they seem to like my works, so maybe I was just getting some hate instead of actual criticism? IDK but I'm still here! I just wanted to see what else I could do to make my works better for everyone! IM NOT LEAVING, Im still here, I just needed to see what I could do to make my writing more inclusive and a lot of beans have sent helpful messages!

It means a lot to me, thank you so much <3

-Mommabean

#it means a lot to hear this #thank you bean #mommabean #bean asks #bean confessions

[rainbowsky]

Ok I am the turtle who asked about the breakup cpn, with the kadien and things. I have been told that is rude and hurtful and im sorry Mr Rbs, I do not want to cause you stress. I follow cuz I am autistic and I like that you are too but autistics still rub each others fur the wrong way sometimes just like anybody so im sorry if I did that. Have a great day and stay healthy and may YiZhan stay happily married and one day get to safely come out if they want!

...

I don't even know what to say to this.

Who told you that it was 'rude' and 'hurtful'? It certainly wasn't me. I don't have a problem with people asking me honest questions that are in good faith. I answer all kinds of asks, regardless of my reaction to them.

I'm sure whoever said that to you meant well, but I don't want anyone putting words in my mouth. Whatever they said to you, that was their own perspective.

As for your ask, it actually did annoy me a bit, but not because there was anything rude or hurtful about it. I was annoyed because it contained things that are long-standing sources of annoyance for me (which isn't your fault).

First of all, you said "I know you don't believe kadian" which - honestly I've heard people say this before and I find it frustrating. I literally have a whole post that is prominently placed on my masterlist post, where I state pretty clearly that kadian is real. So when people say things like this it feels like they aren't paying any attention and are just making assumptions about me, or else they have poor reading comprehension.

I'm going to be really clear about this:

Being skeptical is not the same thing as being dismissive.

I am skeptical about a lot of candy and CPN, but that doesn't mean I don't buy candy and CPN. It just means that the candy and CPN I do buy is stuff I genuinely believe in - not because it's cute or makes me feel good (nothing wrong with that, but it's not what gets me excited), but rather because I've evaluated it and I feel (based on my own criteria) that it's well substantiated and real.

Contrary to another popular myth about me that also frustrates me (the ridiculous idea that I don't buy CPN and candy) - a huge percentage of my blog is devoted to CPN and candy, and in fact I think CPN and candy are pretty critical to turtledom.

I say this all the time and I hope it will sink in: it's never wise to paint with too broad a brush. Nuance, people. Not everything is black and white. Most things are grey. Just because I seem like a doubter on a lot of things, doesn't mean I don't have my own CPN, and doesn't mean I don't hold a lot of candy close to my heart, much of which I think is important and unwashable.

It seems like some people see a personality trait in someone and then try to extrapolate it across everything about them. Not only is it inaccurate, frankly it betrays a certain level of intellectual laziness. "Oh, here's the funny guy, everything's a joke to him." "Oh, here's the serious guy, he has no sense of humor." "Oh, here's the cutesy girl, she won't like this scary movie."

People are complex and often contradictory creatures. We shouldn't assume we have a read on someone just because we've picked up on a few of their character traits.

As for kadian - in my post about kadian I went to some pains to show that kadian is real, so I don't get why there's anyone out there who would think I don't 'believe' in it. In reality I think people who don't 'believe' in kadian as a concept are uninformed and out of touch. 'Not believing' in kadian would be like 'not believing' in slang acronyms like LOL and OMG.

Back to that 'broad brush' thing I just said - just because kadian is real, that doesn't mean a particular perceived kadian is real and intentionally placed. These things have to be examined in context in order to be properly evaluated.

You can refer back to my kadian post for all that.

On to the other, bigger reason your ask frustrated me.

Just Say No To The Turtle Binary

Your ask was about a 'kadian' you thought you saw in DD's post about being sick, and you felt it was evidence of a breakup.

Without realizing it, you stepped into something that bugs me about the fandom.

If you've been following me for any amount of time at all, you will know that one of my absolute pet peeves in this fandom is when turtles take everything GG and DD say or do as being deeply significant to their relationship. As I've said before -

👉🏻 almost nothing from or about GG or DD will actually be a candy. 👈🏻

I think the key to respecting and honoring their humanity is to love them as individuals first and foremost, and as a couple second. When we fixate entirely on their relationship we end up accidentally dehumanizing them and failing to recognize, respect and celebrate their individual achievements.

There are a lot of turtles in this fandom who take every single thing GG and DD do as either proof they are together, or else proof they are not together. And frankly, that doesn't make any rational sense.

If you've ever been in a long term relationship - or a relationship of any kind, whether family or friends - you should already know that almost nothing in our daily lives is about that relationship. Our day-to-day lives tend to revolve around work, school, hobbies and interests, other social interests and obligations. Almost nothing we do in our day to day lives is about any one particular relationship.

Just look at my own blog here. How often do I mention my partner? Almost never. But we've been married for years, and he's the most important person in my life. Why don't I mention him more? Because my life doesn't revolve around him.

GG and DD are no different. They are real, non-fictional human beings with busy lives and successful careers, and they have a ton of obligations and focuses and pursuits in their daily lives. Almost none of it is about each other. Why, then, would people be so ready to think that every post, every gesture, every clothing option, every decision, every goal is about each other?

Not only is that absurd just on the face of it, it's also absurd when you consider that the vast majority of things that ARE related to their relationship will never be made public for you and I to see.

Their lives are almost entirely focused on their careers. They work hard, they have packed schedules. They no doubt spend a lot of time connected to each other behind the scenes, via texts, video chat, etc. but most of their time will be taken up with their work, and with meetings and discussions with various handlers and brands and management and other career-related contacts.

It's going to be rare for us to catch a glimpse of something related to each other, because such things are going to be rare in their daily lives and in most cases shared privately.

So I am deeply dismayed when DD can't even call in sick without people assuming a break-up. It's not right. My god, let the man be sick for a day.

When it comes to kadian we need to remember that the context is actually more important than the numbers. What is the likelihood that any particular message is about something to do with their relationship? What is the likelihood that something important is going to be discussed or disclosed in that particular venue or format? What is the likelihood that GG and DD are going to send out key messages about their personal and private relationship in the timing of a Head and Shoulders ad?

DD is in the middle of promoting his new film, which - at the time - was just days away from being released. Can you honestly believe for one hot second that he's going to pick that time - of all the times in the world - to dicker around with cryptic, deeply consequential messages about his relationship? Consider his priorities, here. Consider the context and venue.

And have some empathy for the sick guy who was just trying to quell rumors that were flying about him.

When we evaluate anything they are saying or doing, we should be kind and empathetic about it, and on their side.

There were a lot of anti messages going around when he called in sick that day. People had all sorts of nasty theories about why he called in sick, including a theory that he was trying to generate sympathy to boost ticket sales.

Imagine that. Imagine if calling in sick to work made that big of an impact on your life and reputation? NO PRESSURE.

Like, woah. No wonder the guy never takes any time off anymore. No wonder he pushes through when he's got a sprained ankle or is practically falling over from exhaustion. The man can't take a day off without all hell breaking loose.

I expect that kind of thing from antis, but not from turtles. It's very disappointing.

A final note:

Another important thing I want people to fully understand and accept:

My failure to answer an ask is no commentary whatsoever on what I thought about that ask or about that person.

Anyone who has been following me for any amount of time at all should know that. I answer as many asks that annoy me as I do ones that make me laugh, smile or reflect.

In reality, if I don't answer your ask it's 99.9% of the time for one of these reasons:

I don't have time - I've been incredibly busy lately and have had very little time on Tumblr. Most of that time is spent scrambling to keep up with the content GG and DD and turtles have been releasing/discussing. In fact, I'd go so far as to say that this is pretty much always the reason I haven't answered an ask.

It's something I have already thoroughly covered, which can be found easily by doing even the barest search of my blog or browsing through my masterlist post. Given how little time I have for Tumblr, I'm not likely to spend much of it repeating myself.

It's a complicated question that will take a lot of time to answer, so the question ended up in my drafts folder as I pick away at it over weeks and months. My drafts folder is almost as backlogged as my inbox.

IT WAS NOT A QUESTION. I get quite a few of these. I've said this many times - my inbox is for questions.

Of course, anti BS, hate asks, etc. don't see the light of day, either, but that goes without saying.

If you've asked a question in good faith and it's not been answered, it's for one of the top 3 reasons on the list.

So, Anon, I found your ask frustrating, but I didn't find it 'rude' or 'hurtful'. And even though I found it frustrating, I didn't hold it against you because I know that approach is common among turtles. It's just a fairly standard part of the fandom that - while frustrating - I've more or less accepted as 'the way things are'.

So, no hard feelings. You didn't do anything wrong AFAIAC. I think you might want to do a bit more critical thinking than seems evident based on what you sent me, but you weren't rude or hurtful.

And to be clear, Anon: most of what I'm saying in this post isn't aimed at you. Like I said, I have a bit of a chip on my shoulder about a couple of things, and you were unfortunate enough to accidentally stumble across it. I definitely don't hold anything against you.

#fandom reflections #bxg perspectives #kadian #ask

[arttrampbelle]

I feel nrs shits on raiden because ed has a problem with the character personally.

Why? I honestly have no fucking clue.

Raiden isn't that hard to understand so im not understanding the big deal.

We can have him go dark but not liu? Oh yes because he's the special one. I forgot. 🙄😒😑

Everyone else can get at least something that makes them feel believable,even likable and flawed.

Oh but heaven forbid liu kang fucks up.

See this is why hc liu is better. Non god liu kang is better.

But back to raiden.

Why is it. Why is it. Whenever raiden makes a reasonable mistake,that anyone can make.You guys take it so hard?

And villainize him.

But if liu makes a mistake its the end of the world but never do the same. Like all is forgiven and forgotten. Emphasis on the forgotten part. 🙄

If any other characters do reasonably fucked up shit. And have decent character flaws. You guys dont bat an eye.

But raidne does it. Suddenly you shit on him.

He cant win no matter what he does,how you write him. Im starting to think you guys hate raiden because you have unresolved daddy issues,authority issues,or you hate to admit that a godly powerful being cant wipe you ass all the time and you *sarcastic shock!* might actually have to solve the problems yourselves?! Wow what a concept.

Like srsly tho. Raiden isn't infallible. But he isn't a fucking chump loser can't get shit done.

He could get shit done but he has a code of honor,rules he has to follow by(that he hates),he has so much on his plate. And honestly you guys never appreciated his character.

Like out of pure spite. Im gonna do raiden self indulgent stuff today. Just to spite people.

Legit half the crap we got in 12. We could have gotten with raiden if you guys at nrs bothered to fucking write him properly. Instead of being lazy selfish pricks with a bias and favoritism towards other characters. *couch liu kang cough* (like i love liu but not written like that,never like that. God liu? Gross. Humble monk warrior liu? Yes)

Because liu kang playing "savior and creator of everything" is disturbing,disgusting,and disrespectful.

Like srsly they are legit telling THE SAME FUCKING STORY AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN. SAME AS 11. SAME SHIT. oh but because its uwu brand liu kang. And not the real liu kang. Suddenly its ok?! No!

Legit mk12....os the same fucking thing. Just liu kang brand.

It's no exciting. Its not new. You guys are lying to yourselves.

We could have had any fucking god charactera in mk do the same shit. And get the same result.

You guys could have had this with raiden. But noooooooo. You wanna shit on a character for shock value and no reason. Gtfoh.

You could have actually done something worth a damn but nope. You only care about gimmicks and whatever carries your attention spans for five secs for a quick fix of serotonin because you can't fucking get thru your heads you are being manipulated by a fucking company that lost passion years ago.

But that's besides the point.

So yeah. Raiden.

I'm so sorry they never gave you the love they should have.

Tobias should sue for your trauma. (Half joking here people. Tobias was the one who created and came up with the idea for raiden in the first place. And layed many foundations for this game but is half heartedly given credit while boon steals (no pun intended) his thunder)

Raiden i am so sorry for your mistreatment.

*hugs him*

Srsly if you call yourself a mortal kombat fan. And you genuinely hate raiden Do us all a favor and throw yourself in the dumpster fire. Plz. Also block tf outta me.

Look as a shang tsung tsimp. I love many many other characters too. But raiden is a comfort character,tho i self ship with him too he is comfort character. So i won't tolerate slander and disrespect.

Anyways. Raiden....my thunderdilf.....you deserve sm better.

I hope real raiden fans understand this. And make more PROPER kontent for you. Unlike nrs. We will treat you right.

#mortal kombat #raiden #raiden mortal kombat #lord raiden #💙⚡thunder's devotion⚡💙 #vent #vent post #tw vent

[italeean]

HELLO THIS IS RANDO TO ELLE I REPEAT RANDO TO ELLE, OVER!! I HOPE YOU ARENT BEING DROWNED OUT WITH REQUESTS FOR THE MILESTONE EVENT (IF SO PLEASE DONT FEEL PRESSURED TO DO MINE, AND MAKE SURE TO TAKE LOADS OF BREAKS WHEN NEEDED!!) ALSO I APOLOGISE FOR THE ALL CAPS I DO THIS WHEN I’M EXCITED OR JUST ENTHUSIASTIC IN GENERAL!

SO FOR THE EVENT:

THE NAME’S RANDO, BUT YA KNOW THAT ALREADY,

I’M SUPER LOUD AND LOVE FUN EXCITING STUFF, THOUGH I CAN ALSO GET SCARED EASY- AND I LIKE PERFORMING ARTS (ESPECIALLY SINGING, HIPHOP DANCE, AND MUSICAL THEATRE) OR ARTS IN GENERAL AND PRANKS AND PARTIES AND IM BASICALLY A GREMLIN HDJDHSKS-

I AM ALSO A LEE BUT SHHH YOU DIDNT HEAR THAT FROM ME-

FOR THE FANDOM, EITHER GENSHIN OR BUNGO STRAY DOGS- I DON’T MIND WHICH!

AND ALSO I’D PREFER PLATONIC AND A DUDE CAUSE THE B IN BRO GOTTA STAND FOR BESTIES >:D

ANYWAYS THAT WAS PROBABLY A LOT BUT I HOPE YOU’RE DOING WELL AND HAVE HAD A GOOD WEEK SO FAR!!

ANYWAYS THIS WAS RANDO, OVER AND OUT-

RANDOOOO MY DEAR!!! IT'S BEEN SO NICE TO SEE YOUR REQUEST POPPING UP IN MY ASK BOX 🥹 About how many requests I have, I can officially say that I passed the 20 requests!! 😸 Anyway, I hope you'll enjoy the match I gave you... I chose BSD as a fandom hehe ❤️🍡 *some dango for my #1 Itto stan* P.S. You better have slept properly, or else.

🔮 For the match-up, your pair is... RANPO

🔮 Why did I choose him for you?

• SAME GREMLIN ENERGY, THAT'S THE FIRST REASON • I can see you getting the zoomies together after having an overdose of sugar... poor Kunikida would take a sick leave probably hehe~ • You two would probably fall together into Yosano or Dazai's tickly clutches... or maybe both of them at the same time • I can imagine you two (lovingly) bullying the life out of poor Poe... he'd get wrecked at least twice a week • Ranpo is always honest (even blunt and cheeky at times) so he would always give you a honest feedback about your singing, dancing or theatrical performances... you can always trust his judgment • I'm imagining you creating a song with a couple of lines about every member of the Agency hahahaha • Maybe someone would even get revenge on you two if you made his lines comical enough (ahem Kunikida *cough cough*) • The detective would probably have fun with giving you jumpscares... maybe even tickly jumpscares~ • PLAYFIGHTS WITH KENJI AND ATSUSHI. PERIOD. • You could have a "bro/bestie night" with a nice movie, maybe a comedic murder mystery, and a huge pile of sweets!!! • You could give yourself a silly bros nickname, like THE RANS, since your names both start with RAN • Ranpo probably wins both tickle fights against you, thanks to his observation skills and his great memory. He'd remember each and every one of your weaknesses...

🔮 Tickle scenario

The Agency was completely quiet for once. Dazai and Kunikida were on a mission together, just like Kenji and Tanizaki, Naomi was out shopping with Kyouka, Yosano was buying more bandages and a new chainsaw, the President was having a negotiation with Mori, Atsushi was out "fighting" Akutagawa and Ranpo was on a crime scene.

Which means that when you arrived at this building, you found no one to welcome you. You sighed, although you didn't get mad, you knew that your friends were out doing their job... so you decided to use that time to explore around the building.

You went around and checked everyone's desks, making your heart skip a beat when you almost knocked over a pen holder on Kunikida's perfectly tidy and organized desk, and in the end you found it. The treasure. Your eyes literally lighted up at the sight: you had found Ranpo's stack of sweets.

You genuinely wondered how Ranpo was able to eat all that sugar without getting sick, but a rumble in your stomach made you snap back to reality. You were hungry, but you couldn't eat those sweets... you knew how jealous the detective was of his food, so you decided not to touch anything.

...

After an hour, the pile of candy was complete gone, and you gulped when you heard the door open and the sound of approaching steps. It wasn't your lucky day. Before you could even think about hiding the evidence of your hideous crimes, Ranpo appeared before you.

"AAAAAHH I'm so disappointed! The case was so easy that I spotted the culprit from afar! I didn't even get to use my ability! Seriously, isn't there an intelligence test to become a policeman?" The detective was clearly grumpy, so he did the thing that usually cheered him up, which was eating sweets to his heart's content.

However, his frown deepened when he found his stack completely gone and the wraps all scattered around the floor. "Rando..." The detective looked at you with a piercing gaze, even putting on his glasses, "do you know where my candy went? "I... you... no... I mean... I didn't... well... I WAS HUNGRY!!!" You couldn't lie at all, especially to the greatest detective of all times.

"Now I'm hungry! What am I supposed to eat, huh?" If you hadn't been so nervous, you would've probably noticed the playfully ominous glint in your best friend's eyes. "Erm... I... I think Kunikida left s-some raw veggies in the fridge..?"

"EEEEEEEHHH VEGGIES??? BLEH! HOW DARE YOU?! YOU'RE GONNA GET IT!!" The green-eyed guy jumped on you, but you managed to put your hands on his shoulders and push him off... Or so you thought.

When you raised your arms, two fingers immediately wormed under your arms, thoroughly digging in the very center of your underarms. "KYAAAHAHEHEHEHE RAHAHAHANPO WAIHIHIHIT NOOOO!!!" You were immediately reduced to a laughing mess, but Ranpo showed no mercy.

On the contrary, he moved his hands and made you think he had decided to spare you and let it slide for once, but right after you breathed a sigh of relief, twenty wiggling fingers descended on your poor tummy.

"WAAAAHHAHAHAHAHA NOHOHOHO RAHAHANPOHOHO NAHAHAT THIHIHIS!!!" You begged, wishing your thin cotton shirt could protect you better from the pokes, pinches, scribbles and spiders that were targeting your midriff.

"Yes, this! You deserve it for eating my secret stack of sweets! Hmph!!" He huffed while he started circling your belly button. "NONONOHOHOHOHO BROHOHO PLEAHAHASE LEHEHET'S TAHAHALK ABOHOHOUT THIHIHIS..!" As soon as you understood where his finger was going, you started pleading and squirming, making the tickly feeling even worse (or better).

"You should've thought about it before eating my snacks... now I'm gonna dig and get them back!" The brunette exclamation as his finger found your bellybutton and started wiggling extra quickly, as if it was digging in your poor belly.

"AAAAAAAAAHAHHAHAEHEHHEHE NAH- NAHAHAHAHAHAHA NOHOHOT THIHIHIS PLEHEHEAHASEEE" It surprised you how mean a cute guy like Ranpo could be, but there you were, squirming like a little worm, trying in vain to escape your tickly fate.

But alas, your yelling, squirming, pleading and begging fell on deaf ears. Only when your laughter went silent and you asked him to stop, Ranpo actually ceased his assault. "Are you okay?" The detective asked while handing you a glass of water "Sorry if I overdid it..."

"Don't worry, I'm fine, and well... it was deserved hehe" You gave him an embarrassed smile and scratched the back of your head, "Now... shall we go buy more candy and annoy Poe?"

"YAY! LET'S GOOO!!!"

#350/400 followers event #milestone event #tickle matchup event #rando epogawa 🍿 #lee!rando #ticklish!rando #ler!ranpo #lee!reader #ticklish!reader

[kingprinceleo]

Okay so, warning, this is gonna be super long cus I love your AUs and wanna understand them. They seem *very* complicated and I am *very* confused.

Okay first off, I saw that in 1000 Years Bound Sonic is dead young around like 40, but I see that he’s hundreds of years old all the time in posts tagged with the same AU? And Shadow was a king and Sonic was one too in both AUs? And for Tails, in both 1000 Years Bound and Happy Auau he seems to be a kitsune because he lives long and has four tails, but how old is he and at what year did he grow the two extra tails? Oh and, for the post where Sonic was like “yo ur like 500 years old why u still scared of thunder” how come Sonic is alive?? Did he only die in 1000 Years Bound (also does that mean he is also immortal?? If so, how?) or is Tails older than him? Where are the other characters? I see Silver in 1000 Years Bound, but where is he in Happy Auau and where is everyone else (i.e. Knuckles and Amy)? For the Happy Auau existence itself,, I notice it’s called “happy auau” and not just “happy au”. Is this because it in itself it is an AU of your AU, 1000 Years Bound? Is Shadow immortal in both AUs? Are both AUs the same universe but just take place at different timelines?? If so, I have SO many more questions that I don’t even know how to ask cus I’m so confused and things seem to contradict each other if they’re the same universe. What is the third eye on Shadow’s head? Was he born on the Ark and sent to Mobius with no memories and then gets them about him and Maria and stuff, or is he born into royalty? If he wasn’t born into it, I think it would be pretty funny that Shadow was like “uhhh I have a third eye and can kill you all and I’m your king now lol” but ik it’s most likely not that simple. I also saw a post where Sonic had a bond thingie or something (in idk what AU) with Shadow and had powers he used sometimes too, what’s up with that? For both AUs, are Sonic and Shadow’s history just like the games and is just set in the future, or different?

Honestly, I prolly have more questions that I just can’t think of rn, this is just a big braindump. I hope I’m not bothering you or seem like I’m hastily interrogating you or something, I’m just genuinely very confused. Please let me know if it’s okay to ask more questions in the future, haha. By the way, I think you are incredibly creative—you are one of my biggest art and story-making inspirations. You manage to invoke so much emotion in your work it’s,, wow. The 1000 Years Bound AU actually makes me really sad sometimes and affects my mood snsjsjdbs, BUT IN A GOOD WAY;; the fact that you can do that in the first place just shows how good u are at… story-ing. Anyway as u can probably tell I ramble a lot so uh, love ya keep on doing what ur doing :D 👍

oh god oh fuck /lh and tysm for the questions!!!! i love answering questions n rambling so im always open to them!!!! i would love more, it doesnt bother me in the slightest, also WAHHHHHH TYYYYYYYYY, sobbing and crying and rolling on the floor like a rotisserie chicken /pos i tried to break it down as coherently as i could!! v

if you have more questions im always excited to respond to them! ty for the ask!

#sonic the hedgehog #sth #long post #sonic au #1000 years bound #happy auau #miles tails prower #shadow the hedgehog #silver the hedgehog

[restforthe-burdenedsoul]

You know what? I think for the first time…honestly maybe in my entire life…I am happy. Like, genuinely happy, content, satisfied.

I am not where I want to be, but I know I am making tangible progress towards it. Mentally, physically, financially.

My therapy sessions lately have gone from this jumbled mess of chaos and anxiety and tears to validating my own choices and feelings. I noticed it three sessions ago and she said she noticed it as well. She said I started the session out kind of asking for permission/validation for recent choices and that I just kept backing my own self up. I have not had this kind of confidence in myself since 2012.

I see several career/financial paths I could do. I am really enjoying doing Rover and still am hoping I gain repeat clientele. In the future, I can get my own pet sitting insurance and cut out the middle man of Rover. It’s exciting to think of this possibility because it’s joining my passion of dogs (that I forgot I had?!) with my independent work style. I make my own schedule, no one’s telling me what to do (other than owner instructions of course) and I’m getting to work with the best pups! I’d really like to market a little more towards basic training as well and include it as an add on.

I have an upcoming husky client who is a jumper. He gets really excited, jumps and jumps, and open mouth “bites.” The owner said he’s trained him from a puppy, but jumping is a pretty frustrating habit for visitors. I let him know I could work on the jumping while I’m there and I’m excited about that. I know a handful of ways to decrease it and just saw another method that I think I’m going to try on this husky since he’s super treat motivated.

Rover is also getting me moving around a lot more. Social work tends to be a pretty sedentary job, but I’m constantly moving when I have high energy dogs. So, I’ve also been losing weight and I feel good. Im outside a lot more and I have the benefit of walking with a dog. How fun!

Im not quite at the point where this could be a long term thing, I need to get more clients and especially dog walking clients. Im mainly doing overnight sits.

Another path I see is joining my masters degree and love of dogs together. This would be a super far out goal, but I could specialize in pet therapy. This was one of my initial goals in college. My academic advisor even suggested that I do some type of therapy work around animals. There was a vet hospital that took on interns in their pet bereavement department, but it was masters level only. So, it was literally grief therapy for pet owners that combined pet therapy (which by the way is human therapy using pets. Not therapy for the pets haha. I get weird looks when I say this sometimes).

There’s still the career paths I’ve been pursuing, but I’d only Been pursuing them because I just don’t know what else I’d do. I do like social work case management, but it’s an even lousier path in Florida than it was up north. I do like the idea of therapy, but it seems so boring to sit in an office all day talking to people.

There have been many times in my life where I was focused on animals, but it seemed too silly of a career thought to ever pursue. I didn’t want to be a vet and I didn’t want to put more money into school to be a vet tech when I was so close to my BSW (but I really did almost leave social work to pursue being a vet tech! But then my school said I could graduate in two more semesters so I let the idea go)

I was a dog walker short term between graduation and my first social work job. I didn’t promote myself anywhere tho or put any stock in it. I was training the family dog at home and helping my friend with training her dog. I began thinking about becoming a trainer. I’ve applied so many times to petsmart/petco for the dog trainer position but ultimately never pursued it and would lean harder into the social work jobs.

I do still feel a little silly being so optimistic about the pet sitting stuff because it’s not a typical route, but im seeing so many people thrive with it now. So many small businesses for pet care. I think I could do that. I think I’d love doing it.

I think i burned out from social work years ago. Maybe from the whole field. I think that part of me is tired. Which is hard to admit. Despite my best self care efforts, I’ve carried the burdens of my clients for the last 10 years. I still think about my first clients from 2014, wonder how they are, if they’re okay, if they’re still alive. Ive spent too many nights crying about my clients because I didn’t have a magic wand to make life easier for them. I’ve given my entire heart to the social work jobs I’ve had and the clients I’ve worked with. I’m tired. Empathy is such a gift And I know it’s my biggest strength, but maybe, at least for now until my heart heals, I can Channel my empathy towards animals again.

We’re finally putting money into savings despite Rover being a huge pay cut. It won’t be sustainable job once we move out, so I have from now until then to make something of it. M is so supportive of this and its helped me to believe in myself again 💚

Some of my recent furry friends. Also M and I celebrated one year of marriage with a training walk with Mel and a night out on the town 🥰

[any-apples]

my thoughts on the flyers’ season this year:

(this is kinda a long one 😬)

it’s been a fucking ride and i am so glad to have been on it for the entire season

i was absolutely high on them through january and parts of february and i said from the new year to mid march that i was expecting them to clinch in the WC2 spot

which obviously didn’t happen but i’m really glad i got to have that high because it was amazing after so long to even have that hope

i wasn’t a fan back when they were good (i started getting into hockey during the bad years) and i saw my first flyers home win this season!

i’ve been going to games for a couple years now (i went to way more that usual this year though) and the first win i have ever seen was the OT win against the Golden Knights!! it was a super cool environment and getting to be in the farg for a win was electric

i did end up seeing a couple of other wins later on in the season but that was the most memorable

i also got to go to 9 or 10 games! and the fans are like so back! the wfc has been kinda quiet in recent years but the hype is back and i am so excited for next season with these fans!

the flyers resilience has been incredibly impressive. i know everyone talks about adversity but like the shit these guys went through to get here is insane. like all of that different stuff that happened and they still managed to make game 82 matter

also they bounced back from an 8 game losing streak and gave me hope again! during the losing streak i was convinced that we were out of it and that was the end for us (and it did ultimately end up being the end) but somehow they lost 9-3 to one of the worst teams in the league and then turned around and beat the rangers 4-1? idc who you are that’s impressive

im a little concerned about torts’ long term relationship with coots in coming years but torts did manage to repair the sanheim issue last year, so until proven otherwise, i’m going to assume that’s going to be hashed out in the offseason

there have been several parts of this season where i have been concerned about that lengths that torts is willing to go to motivate the guys (coots scratching, sitting frost against his hometown team, etc) but so far it doesn’t seem like he’s done anything irreparable

that is a long term concern of mine that torts might cross the line later on and lose respect from certain guys or the room but it hasn’t happened yet so i still trust in torts and his ability to manage that type of issue

danny briere and jonesy! i am so excited that fletcher is gone and we have new brass! so far i have loved both of them!

i appreciate jonesy’s (well really both of them but jonesy has been more vocal) commitment to the rebuild. as much as i would’ve loved to keep sean walker and just keep the team as it was and see success on the season, the moves danny made matched the message he and jonesy were putting out and i appreciate that a lot

also all hail the flyers brass for getting ivan fedotov and alexei kolosov out of russia to play!

i also have a lot of respect for dan hilferty and the way the whole leadership group has shown that they are on the same page and there’s no sort of internal conflict, as well as everyone’s vocal support of torts and danny to do their jobs the way they see fit

the culture! so overused but it’s actually so much better! and i’m just excited about that

sam ersson! i was genuinely concerned about him and his future in the nhl during that losing streak, but he’s proved his mental toughness time and time again and i’m excited to see him back next year rested and with a full season under his belt! i’m hoping he can be a long term starter or tandem goalie and the end of this season has really given me high hopes for that

all of the progress we saw guys make this year! frosty took a HUGE step forward and so did tippett! also yorks defensive game was massive this year! i’m so excited to see more of tk (im assuming he’ll be re signed) (upon further consideration i watched the exit interviews and it sounds like he wants to come back if the flyers pay him right so im hopeful) and how he grows into this leadership role

im very excited to see how this offseason goes! even though i know we’ll be losing some guys who i’ll really miss, i have high hopes!

i’m obviously really sad that we couldn’t hold it together long enough to keep our playoff spot, but i still can’t call this season a failure in any sense of the word. i think a lot of good things happened this season and i’m happy to call it a success and im so excited to be back in the wfc next fall! im very grateful for the chance to see good flyers hockey through most of the year and to experience all these highs and lows with the team in a way i feel like i haven’t really gotten the chance to in the last few years, just because it was so hard to get so emotionally invested in a team that you knew was going to fall short. so i’m so grateful that i was able to really take the ride this year!

thank you flyers and we’ll see you next year!

#philadelphia flyers #flyers #this post was not meant to be this long #i had more thoughts than i expected to have #there’s more up here but i don’t think i can articulate it just yet #lots of thoughts on potential trades and acquisitions and signings for the summer but i’m just not there yet

[whogavemoththerighttohyperfix]

Since these are out you know what that means? THEORY TIMEEEE

IM SO HYPED FOR THIS SCENE BECAUSE WE KNOW FOR A FACT ITS PROBABLY A SPARROW VS LUTHER WHICH MEANS THE SPARROWS ARE PROBABLY GONNA APPEAR ONCE PER EPISODE WHICHE SOME PEOPLE WERE CONFUSED ABOUT SINCE THEIR ONLY CREDITED FOR 2 EPISODES

ALSO IM GONNA GUESS THAT CHRISTOPHER BEING RED MEANS HES MAKINH SOMETHING HOT LIKE HOW HES GREEN IN THE END OF S2, MAYEB GREEN IS HIS NATURAL, RED IS WHEN HE MAKES STUFF HOT AND SOMETHING LIKE BLUE FOR COLD ALSO FEI DEF USES HER POWERS IN THIS SCENE SINCE THE SPARROWS IN THE BACKGROUND WHICH SHE CAN TURN INTK SO IM HOPING WE GET ALOT OF SCENES WHERE SHE APPEARS LIKE DIMERESETSU(?how tf you spell it?) DAUGHTERS FROM RESEDENT EVIL VILLAGE CAUSE THATS HOW IVE ALWAYS IMAGINED HER PIWERS

THIS IS THE PHOTO IM TALKING ABOUT

NOW ONTO THE NEXT PHOTO

IM PRETTY SURE THIS IS FROM THE WORLD GREATEST BALL OF TWINE, IM PRETTY SURE THIS EPISODE WILL BE ABOUT THE SIBLINGS TRACKING DOWN WHAT HAPPENED TO THEM IN THIS TIMELINE AND WHERE THEY ENDED UP. ALSO WHAT THE SPARROW ACADEMY HAS BEEN UP TO BECAUSE THEYRE THE SAME AGE AS THE UMBRELLAS AND STILL FIGHTING CRIME TOGETHER WHICH MEANS THEY WERE PROBABLY SOMEWHAT SUCCESSFUL AND ENJOYED DOING CRIMEFIGHTING

ALSO SINCE FIVE HAS PLACES ON THE MAP CIRCLED AND ALSO NEW CLOTHES WHICH MEANS HES LOOKING FOR SOMETHING AND HOPEFULLY NOW ALONE THIS TIME SINCE HES TALKING TO SOMEONE IN THE PHOTO

Not much to say about this one sadly BUT ITS DEF GONNA BE INE OF THE FIRST SHOTS IN THE NEE SEASON, ALSO LOOK AT KLAUS FACE HES SO EXCITED TO SEE BEN WHICH IS GOING TO BE DEVASTATING, ALSO THIS IS PROBABLY WHERE HES GONNA SAY THE QUOTE THEY GAVE HIM ‘why is everyone looking at me like that’ ALSO THIS IS DIEGO, FIVE, LUTHER AND ALISONS FIRST TIME SEEING BEN GROWN UP WHICH IS JUST <\\3

ALSO IMAGINE VIKTOR THE LAST TIME HE SAW BEN HE WAS HUGGING HIM AS HE DIED WHILE TRYING TO HELP HIM, TEHER HAS TO BE GUILT FROM THAT RIGHT? I MEAN ITS VIKTOR WE’RE TALKING ABOUT

HONESTLY NOT MUCH TO SAY ABOUT THIS ONE AS WELL BUT AM I THE ONLY ONE KINDA HYPED THAT REGINALD IS IN THIS SEASKN CAUSE IMAGINE ALL THE ANGST AND DADDY ISSUES THE SIBLUNGS WILL BE GOUNG THROUGH SEEING THEIR VERY MUCH DESD DAD ALIVE AND PROBABLY TRUING TO KILL THEM.

ALSO I HAVE 0 CLUE WHY HES HOLDING THE COOKIE SEWING BOX BUT I DONT THINK ITS EITHER LIKE IT WOULD JUST SEEM WEIRD TO ME MY FIRST THOUGHT IS THAT THE KEY TO HITEL OBLIVUAN IS IN THERE OR SOMETHING AND THE TIN IS JUST SO NO ONE LOOKS IN IT

LILA IS HONESTLY SO PRETTY AAA ANYWAY I DONT RLY KNOW WHY SHES THETE BUT MY FIRST THOUGHT WAS HER GOING TO THE ACADEMY TO FIND THE SIBLINHS AND FINDING THE SPARROWS WHICH HONESTLU WOUDL BE A COOL FIGHT SCENE WITH HER WHOLE POWER AND ALL . ALSO THE ADDED FACT THAT THE SPARROWS DONT KNOW ABOUT HER POWERS AND WOULD DEFINITELY HATE AND TRY TO KILL HER FOR THEM BECAUSE THEY SEEM TO HAVE A HUGE EGO

SLONE AND JAYME ARE SO PRETTY LIKE HOLY SHIT ALSO THEY SEEM TO GET ALONG IDK I JUST GET THAT FEELINY BY THE PHOTO BUT LIKE NOT MUCH TO SAY ITS PROBABLY A SCENE IF THEM TRYING TO FIND THE UMBRELLAS AND MAUBE WE GET A CHANCE SCENE SIMILAR TO THE ONES IN THE BOWLING ALLEY AND FIVE IN THE MANNEQUIN SHOP

ANYWAY IM SO HYPED FOR THIS SEASON LIKE GENUINELY I CAN WAIT IT WILL BE AMAZING

#the umbrella academy #umbrella academy theory #the umbrella academy theory #viktor hargreeves #five hargreeves #klaus hargreeves #alison hargreeves #diego hargreaves #luther hargreeves #christopher hargreeves #christopher the cube #jayme hargreeves #sloane hargreeves #alphonso hargreeves #fei hargreeves #ben hargreeves #marcus hargreeves #lila pitts #reginald hargreeves

[pathologising]

out of curiosity, and you dont need to answer if you dont want to. for you, what does it mean to recover from bdsm? what aspects did you have to step away from, and what does the recovery look like? im asking because ive got a friend whos concerningly into cnc seemingly out of nowhere with a history of abuse, and while i understand the self-destructive need to it I am also worried about lasting repercussions in the long run

anyway, the mean anons can get bent. It's stupid to argue to INTENTIONALLY do the retraumatizing thing, with intention, as in, knowingly, as in, on perpose, as in, that is self harm you don't advocate cutters continue cutting because logically you know thats damaging but when its sex related suddenly its dont kink shame me

I was thinking abt how to answer this bc it is a ewally good question. For context I was in an extreme bdsm relationship prior to my current bf and also after that relationship I was in this kinda downward spiral of hooking up with people and participating in extreme bdsm with them as either sex work or casual sex. I was also dealing with my drug addiction at the time and to me sex was always violent or was always transactional due to my history of abuse.

For a good while I was in denial that anything was wrong and that what I was doing was fine and not retraumatising. When in reality the things I put myself through to feel some sort of affection was really only further warping my views on sex and relationships. Like I genuinely believed that sex was supposed to be violent because if I consented then it was fine and not detrimental to myself.

I think what really helped me realise that participating in extreme bdsm stuff was really unhealthy for me was a) my therapist and b) my current partner. I'm very lucky to have met my current partner because he refuses to do anything that might hurt me or warp how I view myself. Being with him has shown me how sex doesn't need to be violent or degrading and my therapist has helped me work through why I felt the need for sex to be destructive and violent.

Through them, I had to have moments where I was very introspective: "Why do I want this to happen to me? Why do I feel the need to be degraded and hurt during sex?" These are a few questions I had to ask myself among many others that helped me step away from the extreme bdsm lifestyle.

Also realizing that sex can be fun and exciting without being violent or retraumatising. Learning to find satisfaction in "mundane" sex with my partner has been a process but i honestly feel that it has helped how I see myself and changed my self worth.

It's a really hard thing to step away from especially if you are so used to sex being violent or whatnot. It really does take a lot of self introspection to see how re traumatizing that shit can be and how easy it is to live in self denial doesn't help.

I hope this makes sense to u lol I feel like im rambling but basically my therapist and my partner have helped me in stopping self destructive sex stuff. Also learning and remembering sex doesn't have to be violent to be fun. Also treating sex as a completely natural and neutral act of bonding has really helped. It's just a long process but it's definitely one that has helped me feel a lot better about myself and my body and sex in general.

#i hopeeee this makes sense #like it was a very long process to realising #2hat i was puttibg nyaelf through was really unhealthy #but i think im at a pretty good place (still unlearning a lot of harmful kinks but again its a process) #so abyway yeah the sex i have now is very swag and not retraumatising

[cmyknoise]

tubbo said it himself. “it’s dreams server” they did it because dream wanted to. or at least tubbo did it because of that.

he also said there was other stuff at play and i don’t want to claim any direct person or cause of that ending and what we got

it’s probably complicated and a mix of stuff and unless he deadass says “dream made me and tommy end our lore with the amnesia arc” i am not going to repeat that statement

would i doubt it? no. the ending motif is really convenient for the hot water he’s in and it welcomes in the start of the sever which also would act as a distraction.

that writing didn’t sound like tommy’s normal writing, and tubbo outright said he didn’t like amnesia esk endings, and on multiple previous occasions they both said they wanted us to have good endings, for us and the characters

and we didn’t get that, no sugar coating it

so i don’t doubt it.

i also think there’s other things at play though. like their genuine growing disinterest in the server. roleplay is so hard and it’s hard to keep going and consistent for two straight years the same enthusiasm and passion, especially when your roleplay partners don’t respond for a few months.

and you can tell. whenever they did a different minecraft thing they would get so invested and excited so quick and be so visibly joyful and happy playing it. i’m not saying they weren’t happy playing the dsmp, but i can only imagine it gets tired after awhile. it’s the same setting same characters same thing for the last two years.

tommy and tubbo in particular quite literally grew up on the server. tommy’s exile arc was written after he’d taken mental health classes in highschool/college. he’s no longer in school now.

there’s a reason most minecraft rp based servers have seasons that last only a handful of months, maybe a year. it’s burnout.

i imagine it was that, the communication, the people, and other things that lead to the endings we got. i mean it’s the whole reason ranboo wasn’t revived… two weeks after he died, like he was supposed to. stuff like that ruins stories.

im glad it’s over and i hope they can have fun playing minecraft again. to me it felt like the dream smp became an obligation. and tbh fans didn’t help with that point either. i mean over the past two years every time these guys don’t play minecraft, people bark in chat for them to play minecraft. if they’re not playing the dsmp and say played osmp or big dig or hardcore or whatever else, more people would complain about them not doing lore in chats or would ask them when it was coming back.

like i get streaming is a job, but it’s video games. you should be having fun, you shouldn’t feel like you have to play a certain game as an obligation or certain server as an obligation or job, they should have fun.

and i don’t want to talk about dream for long but even he, the whole time he was in that prison for nearly a year real life time, he didn’t walk around his own server. he did an out of character stream literally just to see the builds on it because he didn’t know what people had done.

and imo that’s like, kinda shitty, owning a game and sever and not being able to play on it for lore.

and again i don’t doubt the answer of the person they’re implying made them or swayed them to get lore done a certain way was dream. it is his server, it always has been.

i wish tommy and tubbo and whoever else end move on and get to have fun with what they do next, even if it is dsmp 2.

because video games with friends should be fun. and i hope their experience with the fans and fandom and people they work with is better too.

i hope they have fun. i won’t be watching the dsmp 2 because i think dream needs to seriously own up to what he did and something needs to be done about it, and it doesn’t sit right to me to consume content backed by him, even if he’s not in in directly. those finales were it for me.

even so i hope they do have fun on it, but i hope more that they bring back series they said they had fun on.

like i personally would adore the return of osmp. wilbur said they stopped because the lack of fan interaction but frankly if it wasn’t overshadowed by dsmp and the fans of it i think it would’ve gone places, plus all the members still make references to it and voice how much fun they had.

i hope they bring back other games too. rust, raft, the horror games, and whatever else they want to play. to me it’s not fun watching people play video games if they themselves aren’t having as much fun as they could.

but… i digress. i don’t want to outright say the cause like i stated previously because it seems like it’s a really complicated cause, i don’t doubt you anon and i don’t doubt he had part in it.

anyway. yeah.

don’t watch dream smp 2, don’t let that man continue with a platform

#fandom crit #just in case #anonymous #lemon answers

[flyingspicerack]

NO UR OKAY IM THE SAME WAY uhhh gimme like. What mao does in downtime? how she gets along w/ the other matsus?

UAH OK OK OK this is going under cut cause i wrote LOTS

(also just letting u know they use they/them pronouns)

Mao is kind of a closeted otaku, or former? They were a hikikomori/shut-in for almost a decade and while they were in solitude, they were very much into anime and manga, idols, video games and MMOs. So, nowadays, they'll still watch anime and play video games but not to that same extreme. They have one craft hobby that they're not very good at and its needle felting, they love doing it despite nothing ever turning out good and constantly stabbing their fingers.

SO THE MATSUS WOAH MOMMA (Ill be 100% honest, I haven't gotten far enough into development/writing my fic to that Mao has fleshed out relationships with the other boys (its a slow/mid-burn and they hardly know the boys outside of Ichi at the point I'm at rn) so im gonna write how their relationships are now and how i hope i might be able to mold them in the future)

Osomatsu They atm don't have much of a dynamic, he's one of the brothers they know the least, but they've picked up that he's a bit cheeky and... not abrasive, maybe a little pushy? But not in a bad way, a neutral way. In the future, I do really want them to be closer, specifically I want to explore how the two would be drunk together. Mao doesn't drink often because, like Ichi, they're a lightweight but they'll get carried away and also tend to black out, so they don't. BUT they also get a lot more loosey goosey and are a bit more silly and confident, and deep down they're kinda vulgar so I think they'd be able to drunkenly joke together? NOT SURE YET.

Karamatsu OK So this is the dynamic I haven't touched on AT ALL, so I am really at a loss... I think they would find him funny in an ironic kind of way. I think they would want to genuinely be nice to him and encourage him, but would see how Ichi seems to think he's 'cringe' and would probably be like "aw, c'mon Ichimatsu, let him cook' or something to that effect. They're also jealous of the fact he can like, sparkle and shit.

Choromatsu OKAY OKAY AS MUCH as I dislike Choromatsu, I'm kind of excited to talk abt this. So currently they have not a CLUE abt Choro, no dynamic at all, HOWEVER!! These two have the most overlap in terms of interests (see above) so I'm genuinely excited to write how these two will interact abt otaku stuff BECAUSE they are going to rip him a fucking new one, say his fictional waifu is trash (yes i know he's mainly an idol otaku but you cant deny the fucker has some anime/light novel waifu he likes or something), and say his taste in content is sub par, but there is going to be one thing, ONE SINGLE THING that they agree on and its something they both hate and hate watch for the same reasons....

Jyushimatsu EEEEEEE SUNSHINE BOY!!!!! He's one of the ones they're had more contact with atm and they think he's absolutely delightful. They truly don't comprehend how the two are identical but are such polar opposites. Well they do, but they also kinda don't (they're an only child) and they think that their friendship/brother ship is so cute. Jyushi is also the only one Ichimatsu brings up in conversation /pos, any of the others he'll complain about. Mao thinks he is so silly goofy and admires his baseball autism passion. I want them to be closer and sillier friends, like one of Mao's favorite things to do is laugh, and yes Ichi makes them laugh in his own way, but Jyushi's way of doing it is different, not better, different.

Todomatsu He's a bitch. A total... little .... bitch. So, atm, Mao thinks he's a little knife cat bitch who uses his cuteness to manipulate, but ultimately these two are gonna get along great... eventually.... I just don't know how.... Something something fashion, something something hair (I kinda wanna steal/incorporate @ oh-gh0st's headcanon that Totty is into doing hair stuff) so I think he would help them bleach and dye their roots when they come in? Maybe?? I dunno I also just see them gossiping together... about something... i dunno

BUT THATS IT!! THANK YOU

#uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeah thank you sm for asking #i love answering this shit so if you ever have the dseire to send motre im always open #i also know reading fic isnt for everyone so i am always down to just answer shit and talk abt whatever... #THANK YOU THANK YOU #spice.ask #spice.ososan #mao

[demadogs]

hi! just wondering how (or if) your opinion on volume 2 and s4 on the whole has shifted since you first watched it, since I know I've reconsidered and realised certain things since it dropped. (this is in regards to the season in general, not just byler btw). also hope you're doing well <3

i think character wise there are some flaws, but if we’re just talking about the supernatural plot in hawkins alone i think its by far their best season, the cgi for people getting vecna’d, the set design of the mind lair and the upside down, the bats, the makeup for vecna, it in my opinion skyrockets anything theyve done before.

this was my favorite villain. i liked that it had a backstory and could talk and get in peoples heads. previously its mostly just been faceless monsters, which i always loved, but this one just adds such a cool element to it. i also absolutely LOVED that they brought back the og monsters in russia!! the demogorgan the demodogs the mindflayer i loved seeing them again. i like how everything connects and its not like “now this guys coming after you!!!” i like how they kept the hive mind thing a huge part of the story.

going off of that, another one of my favorite parts is how many callbacks there were to season one. i fucking love how running up that hill played a similar role that should i stay or should i go did. and there was so much else. the lights!!! i LOVED that we learned how will communicated with the lights and the lite brite was a genius way to show them talking. the compasses messing up the electromagnetic field, el having another isolation tank bath, even just the energy level of excitement for dnd again. i loved it. it felt like stanger things.

and there were a lot more subtle things like that too. they reused so much of their old score tracks and they did it at really cool parts. like they played the track for for the lights that played when joyce first put all the christmas lights up. that one im sure a lot of people noticed but i watched s1 after volume 1 came out and i noticed that after el lifts mike up from the cliff at the quarry and they play that epic song, she falls and then tells mike that she opened the gate and that shes the monster. and they played the same track in episode 7 when we see her opening the gate!!!!!!!! thats so fuckin cool!!!

i am the most impressed by this season by far but yeah there are some criticism i agree with. the kids shouldve had a funeral for eddie, i wish will had more of a supernatural plot (i was really hoping when vecna had el choked in the mind lair and he was explaining his backstory he would start talking about how will was his first victim and why :/), i didnt love argyle, and obviously im extremely disappointed in what theyve done to mike. if they didnt wanna go with byler then ok i can live with that but then he should have hugged him for real at the airport and not exclude him for el again. i also dont at all understand the purpose of their “you dont love me anymore” fight if he genuinely does love her. it seems like bylers still happening based on some stuff but if it is, he shouldnt have said he loved her. i say that mostly for els sake than for byler.

its like when a new album by your favorite band is coming out and all the singles that came out before the album are AMAZING and youre so excited to hear the rest and then the album comes out and the rest of the songs arent as good as those singles and youre kinda sad but you still call it your favorite album because those singles are some of the best songs theyve ever made and they takeover the rest of the album. in this case the singles are all the amazing scenes, cgi, cinematography, set designs, acting (sadie!!), etc. and the less great songs are some of the character development (not all. lumax was amazing).

despite everything its still my favorite season. i fell in love with this show originally for the scifi story and this seasons scifi/horror plot is the best theyve ever done by far.

#stranger things #byler #spoilers #eden answers

[colgatebluemintygel]

hi hi soooo i’ve been meaning to send an ask about the most recent chapter of on another ocean because i went insane!!!! like all your characterisations are so so good and i think we glossed over the whole peter in love with sirius thing?? i would like to go back to that and actually maybe read something from peter’s pov i am like. so obsessed with this idea your MIND!! and this icon berlin peter it’s just!!! i need 2 read him and fabian getting together too im sooo here for peter to have his moment being pined over actually. and literally i KNOW r/s finally fuck in this chapter but i am so captivated by all the other moving parts and relationship dynamics!! but rest assured i was yelling when sirius made remus jealous on purpose i love that trope so much!!!! all that tension finally resolved only for it to come crashing down with the friends who fuck speech <3 can’t wait for that to backfire so bad <3 anyway just love your fic so much can’t wait for the next update :-))

omg hiiii!! welcome!!! would you like a seat? here have some tea!! <333

peter oh peterrrrrrr i am so fascinated by this guy! and by his dynamic with the rest of the guys! i really empathise with him, i think. high school friendship groups can be amazing, but they can still be soo incredibly stifling. even if they’re great and even if you all still get along, it can be hard to move on and to not get stuck in your ways. and that’s just something i especially see in peter, particularly as he’s kind of always defined as the “extra” or like the fourth guy always trailing around after the others. like he's always defined in relation to other people, rather than who he is as his own person. and like. i just think that would be so incredibly hard on him identity-wise. like how do you form your own identity that isn’t dependent on other people? especially when you know that's how everyone sees you. i imagine that's how you'd also start to see yourself. and like even if the other guys aren’t actively mean to him (in the way that it's implied they were in canon), i still think that would be really difficult to navigate. so i said!! what about an edgy icon peter! in berlin!!! buzzcut and an eyebrow piercing!

i find peter/sirius such an intriguing dynamic because there's this feeling that sirius just isn't ever even an option for peter. like it's totally off the cards for him (which honestly makes me really want to write a peter/sirius fic. i've genuinely been thinking about it!!!) like we kind of also get that with r/s in the sense that remus is this chewed up pencil of a man who somehow bags this guy who is.... basically a prince (although OFC they have a whole lot of other stuff going on too!). but with peter it's kinda taken to the next level. and i think nobody thinks that more than peter yknow? like i think he knows it's absolutely hopeless, but even so in oao i think a teeny tiny part of him still hoped. especially since he's moved to berlin and has found his own identity. i think he would have been soooooo excited to see sirius, and, most importantly, for sirius to see him! and for sirius to see that he's maybe worth knowing. maybe even romantically! but unfortunately ...... 99% of sirius's brain capacity has been taken up by a certain knobbly kneed chewed up pencil man! bad timing :-\\

also YES peter deserves to be pined after !!!!! fabian was always kind of meant to be a double of sirius (tho he is 100% still his own person too) and then the further i got into it the more i was like… what if the situation between peter and fabian was also kind of a double of r/s!! what if!!! but with differences!!! and then peter’s unrequited love for sirius entered the chat and it became this bonkers love square situation! but yes i have soooo many thoughts and feelings about fabian/peter and am definitely planning on doing a lil extra peter pov oneshot of them after r/s leave!!! i just keep imagining the fallout now that it's just the two of them again in their little flat together (well. ft mary! but she basically lives at her gf's). so much has happened! and now there's all this sudden space again that's not taken up by those other silly boys and their drama!

anywho i am very sad to be leaving them behind in the next chap :-( although they will return :-) BUT !! i am also excited because DORLENE!!!! who will also have their own plot line n everything !! woohoo!

also..... ahhhhh! thank you again!!!! i am just so/ happy and flattered to have you here!! have said it before but... i love your work! both yours and wolfpants' fics were largely responsible in inspiring me to start writing again! hehe <3

#oops! sorry this got so long! #the fabian/peter brainrot is extremely real tho #i've been planning a university au with all 4 m*rauder povs! and enter fabian/peter! my legacy #peter's a highly strung music student stuck in a rut. and fabian's a reckless party boy failing out of his fine arts degree #they'll have flavours of jal/chris's dynamic from skins i think! #oao