#i did love making it tho

[salmonight]

A mostly unrecognizable but nonetheless gorgeous Perona~

I am absolutely obsessed with Circus themes so i got most of her pieces from those kinda settings mixing them a bit up into this gothic beauty.

I swear finding the right skirt was a right nightmare so not to waste the fabulous outfits i managed to create...

I will include them beside the lineart!

(And yes I ended up changing the expression cuz it looked off after coloring not to mention i just couldn't figure the damn lipstick for that damn mouthpiece!!)

In the end I just mixed two of the skirts together cuz I was just so done hahha

So this happened on totally accident but it looked so fricking awesome I just had to show it off-

#perona #one piece perona #one piece #perona fanart #one piece perona fanart #one piece fanart #thriller bark #goth #outfit design #somehow she ended up with vampire-y fangs #and pretty much unrecognizable ugh #i even included her damn 2 row eyeline but nooo still unregonizble #changed up the og expression for nothing #the shffering this one was #i did love making it tho #so worth it #perona 4ever luv #beast girl in OP #cant change my mind

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[kosalus]

did the bicep meme with shadowlach

#i am once again making everything about them #did this in between commissions #the speed that i did this at is concerning #it was a nice excuse to try out some new brushes tho and i love them #shadowheart #karlach #shadowlach #karheart #shadowheart x karlach #baldur's gate 3 fanart #bg3 #bg3 fanart #baldurs gate 3 #my art #commissions open #dungeons and dragons art #dnd #dnd art #larian studios

[daeyumi]

Braving the Storm 🌌⛈️⚡️

[Linktober 2022 Day 20: Storm]

#zelda #links awakening #zelda links awakening #legend of zelda #linktober #linktober 2022 #daeyumi art #zelda fanart #link #oh gosh idk how to tag for links awakening lol #anyways i actually did a screenshot redraw for once instead of making everything more complicated for myself lol #srsly tho links awakening is one of my fave zelda games i just love the quirkiness & the feeling of deep regret that kind of permeates it

[aerequets]

#its like the art constipation is now art diarrhea #to make things unnecessarily gross #anyways #im happy with these because i did all the poses w/out ref #tho im sure they'll look extremely wonky as a result in a day or two #it is what it is #love using refs im just too lazy to find the right one #my art #spy x family #loid forger #yor forger #sxf #twiyor #sxf loid #sxf yor #loidyor #loiyor

[jjadmanii]

i know homoerotic energy when i see it

#do revenge #maya hawke #camila mendes #i did actually love their friendship AND both their relationship tho #i just think they were too psycho not to at least make out once #you def should watch this

[scribbling-dragon]

missing ranchers forever and ever and ever (a redraw of THIS from a year ago)

[click for better quality! + closeups under the cut]

#i haaaate drawing shirts. i hate them i hate their stupid sleeves #and their stupid collars. it doesnt make sense and its stupid and difficult #its why i never give tango any. i cant do it more than once #anyway. RANCHERS! in honour of the wip currently sat at 10k that made me sad abt double life again (it's fluff. why am i sad) #juno.art #double life smp #dlsmp #jimmy solidarity #tango tek #tango tek fanart #jimmy solidarity fanart #double life fanart #life series #trafficblr #traffic series #solidaritygaming #solidarity gaming #tangotek #life series fanart #also yeah i kept tango's colours the same as his secret life ones. he just looks really nice with the pinks etc #(dedicating this to my mother too. who looked and went “aw what a lovely bf and gf” #and then stared at me awkwardly when i said neither of them were the gf. she did like the drawing tho

[wasyago]

quick "chip" sketch from ep 109

#wanted to draw him with gray skin hehe #this ep is a real throwback to the desire isle arc.... holes in hearts. chip is stone gray/dead. big fight with a boss and ghouls. mmmm #his neck is a little busy so ill definitely change it if i draw him like this again. but itll do for now its a sketch anyway #love the color pallett otherwise tho... very tasty looking #i think this is the fifth art with a black background i did in the last couple days but pffff who cares i love black backgrounds #OH also yes. no hole in his chest. pretty sure the heart was pulled from his throat anyway #doesn't make it better but haha yeah #jrwi riptide #jrwi chip #jrwi riptide spoilers #jrwi spoilers #riptide spoilers #my art #sketch

[domijeannes]

i redrew it

#deltarune #noelle deltarune #susie deltarune #suselle #noelle x susie #dawg i have a crazy story tho #i have some irls who are into deltarune right #and i showed them that this one suselle art i did got insane kinds of notes #and they said they recognized it from a gd edit #which is insane to me #but also if yall make edits with my art PLEASE show me i love watching that shit!!

[dadailybocch]

Can a 'Venus by Shocking Blue' Girl & a 'Venus by Bananarama' Girl really fall in love?? (I dunno, I didn't watch the show .-.)

#hitori gotoh #ikuyo kita #bokita #bocchi the rock #bocchi the rock! #drawin' da bocch #i did watch the the show tho. just a lil comedy for ya #anyways these two make me Feel Things. love em

[nocreativityfornames]

I can't believe there is yet another one

#look they had the gall to fight god and that makes them pretty neat in my book. like I gotta respect it #but yeah I finally watched hazbin hotel #loved lucifer in there he's such a silly little guy #-> om lucifer is still my fave tho cause he did it to protect his family and that's just pretty damn awesome #obey me lucifer #hazbin hotel lucifer #supernatural lucifer #lucifer netflix #lucifer #hazbin hotel #supernatural #obey me #hazbin lucifer

[ashiyn]

this is the 3rd life desertduo song to me

#grian #goodtimeswithscar #desert duo #3rd life smp #traffic smp #trafficblr #curse tiktok for having way better video quality than tumblr 😔😔 so go over there for 1080p 60fps if this bothers you too LMAO #anyways im SO JEALOUS of everyone who's good at making dramatic text posts or art cause i eat that shit up SO MUCH #so behold: the only way i can create dramatic things. video editing. i love it tho #did i resize and fix the clips to fit a square for tumblr? yes. yes i did. #.post #.vid

[lexosaurus]

now that i've spilled the beans to you all on what my irl day job is i should totally make a "REAL day in the life of Mr Lancer feat. Danny's inevitable IEP accommodations" fic

#danny phantom #i think tho if i did this #half of u would believe im making shit up #i've only been a high school teacher for one (1) school year and already the things i've witnessed... #i love my job and my students tho real tea #even when they try to punch each other and i have to explain for the 100th time that violence is wrong 🙏

[sysig]

Those wacky skeletons ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Sans #Papyrus #Handplates #You can tell because of Sans' gloves lol #Getting-used-to-them-again doodles as well as just expressing Feeling <3 Happy towards them! Want them to be happy too! #It might seem silly for these - how many sets in now? - to still be getting used to drawing them again lol but it's because they're adults! #Their clothes and the way they hold themselves - but also especially Sans lol I dunno why I have such difficulty with him at times #He's got a cute face and I still find myself like ????how your face #Other than that tho it's just silliness hehe ♪ My favourite lads :D #I feel the need to make the distinction: I do actually have different favourites based on the AU lol #Like for example in classic I still love Flowey just a tiiiiiny bit more than Papyrus but it really is constantly neck and neck #Whereas in Handplates it's no competition even a little bit lol - Papyrus is just my Very Favourite #But Gaster is my favourite Handplates-specific character since he's unique to the AU! It gets a bit in the weeds lol #Sans isn't far behind at all of course the trio are very important! The duo even moreso imo #Going back to gloves tho I did carry over one of my quirks from my original UT doodles about Papyrus' gloves lol #I initially envisioned them as combination mitten-gloves with a free index finger and all the rest together #I still rather like the design! But it is admittedly not Handplates accurate lol #The occasional dip into self-indulgence who me? Lol #Sleeping on each other is important to me as well!! It is such a favourite hehe #Honestly I just imagined Papyrus getting so exhausted that he fell asleep in the snow lol poor lad #Sans teleported in but it's also funny to imagine him just walking up like ''you good? yeah he's fine'' *flop* haha #Silly lads <3 Do love 'em ♪

[barb-being-mentally-ill]

Day 2: Private/Respect

Day two is here, I got inspired by one of the fics I’ve read where Megatron looks on in disdain at the mockery that new council is making of the last of Primes

Using Optimus’s name and image as a tool for their propaganda, for things he would have never stood for.

I’ve found that making a small comic was the easiest way to illustrate my idea, did I forget that Megatron appearance changed after the movie? Yes I did and we’re gonna ignore it

Here’s a version w/out text and the lineart

Below there’s a small snippet that I wrote, it came to mind while I was drawing this

[Megatron always held respect for his greatest enemy, for his dearest love, he never could have fathomed a life without Optimus…and yet here he stood looking at a statue built in his memory, memory of a great leader who sacrificed himself to save his planet.

Megatron nearly scoffed, Optimus always had a hero complex jumping at any chance to sacrifice himself for the sake of others. His naïveté was frustratingly endearing and stupid to no end. In the end the Prime managed to achieve his life long dream of giving his life for his cause, Megatron thought spitefully but he knew it wasn’t the truth, he knew he was just trying to deflect the blame, to sooth his grieving spark with anger.

He knew Optimus, knew what he stood for, inadvertently he was the one to know his enemy best. After millennia of battle and constant back and forth of their struggle they came to be quite familiar with each other. And now Megatron knew that Optimus would be looking on with those sad optics of his at the current state of their world.

Hot anger bristled in him at the thought.

“They desecrated your name, dear”, talking to a statue must be a new low for the ex-warlord but he couldn’t stay silent anymore, not when looking at a poorly made replica of his Prime, “You would have never stood for this ridiculousness”

Optimus wouldn’t allow founds that were desperately needed for reconstruction efforts, to be wasted on another meaningless statue. He wouldn’t allow for his name to be smeared on everywhere to justify different agendas. They disrespect every single thing he stood for..

“They hold no respect for you”]

#megop week 2023 #transformers #transformers prime #optimus prime #maccadam #tfp #megatron #megaop #optimus x megatron #megatron tfp #optimus prime tfp #megop #I love this one #the rendering was a pain in the ass tho #megs is angry on his husbands behalf #honestly what they did in rid 2015 was plainly disrespectful and I won’t stand for that blasphemy #one day I wanna make a fix it of sorts for that mess #barbs tf art

[luck-of-the-drawings]

THIS THING IS SCUUUFFED AS HELL & ITS ALSO THE BEST THING I HAVE ANIMATED THUS FAR. IM SO IN LOVE WITH EMIZEL. JUST WISH I GAVE HIM MORE STUPID TATTOOS. NEXT TIME THO. NEXT TIME. I ALSO LOVE VEX&VIV SOOOO MUCH. charlies flavor of Deranged is my FAVORITE!!

#cw gore #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #ACTULY FINISHED THIS A WHILE AGO. kept going back n forth between trying to work on it more or call it done #in the end i chose DONE!! i worked on this for a full day n a half. NO idea what possesed me but it is NOT happenin again anytime soon #i shall do better NEXT TIME!! in the meantime tho OH MY GOOOOOD WHO WANTS TO SCREAM ABT THE SUCKENING WITH ME #THE FUCKINNN THE FUCKIN THING WITH VEX N VIV BEING THE SHADOW LEADERS OF THE FANGS/DEMONS #OH MMYY GOOOODDD THATS THEIR LIL MEAT GENERATOR... THTS SO FUCKED UP AND COOL UUUGHHH I LOVE THEM... #THEIR FLAVORE IS SO WONDERFUL. I LOOOVE HOW SILLY THEY ARE. MAKING PUNS WHILE PULLIN A SCREAMING VICTIM APART #vex n his lil fashiony art workshop and viv n her sterile n clean doctors office #i bet she doesnt even HAVE a medical liscense. it would be funny if vex did tho. could u imagine #they main MEDIC in tf2 together. viv is the battlemedic while vex only pocket medics for her. COULD U IMAGINE #guh i could go on abt these two forever n ever n ever i LOVE THEMM i gotta draw em more.... #OH ALSO before i run outa room. i should say. i took inspiration from a tf2 animation called POOTIS ENGAGED #the animator. Ceno0. uses black bars in the action sequences in SUCH A COOL WAYYY everytime i watch that video i feel inspired #oneday ill make more complex fight scenes... one day.... #in the meantime UGHHH I LOVE THE SUCKENING SO MUUUCH CAN I JUST FUCKIN SAAAYY THAT I THINK EMIZEL IS A SMART COOKIE!! #THESE PPL FUCKING FEAR HIM NOW!!! 'SHAMIA SHAMI' IS NOW THEIR MORTAL ENEMY!! POWERFUL ILLUSIONIST. CANT DIE. #THAT PART AT THE END THERE WHERE HE FUCKIN. KILLS HIMSELF INFRONTA THEM. THATS SO AWESOME. THATS SO METAL. AND THEN HE COMES BACK!! #I WATCHED EP 7 ASWELL BUT I WONT SPOIL IT HERE. BUT OMYGOD. EMIZEL IS SO COOL AND CAPABLE N SMART N FUNNY N UGHHHHHH I LOVE HIMMMMM #OKAY THATS MY RAMBLE FOR THE DAY THANKYOU FOR READING. I READ ALL TAGS SO YOU SHOULD RAMBLE TOO. IF YOU WANT. IF YOU CAN.