#i do not see it i am looking away

[stiltonbasket]

Stilton, for my stats ask I mean AO3 stats like subscriber count, etc.

Oh, got it! I actually prefer not to look at those or share them, since I started TMAAF pretty soon after writing a 300K fic in a different fandom that got something like 90 kudos and 50 comments over the 16 months I spent writing it. Ignoring my AO3 stats helped me to complete the story despite the lack of engagement, and I decided to do the same thing when I joined the CQL fandom. Obviously things are different now, but I feel like this works best for me.

The only statistics I keep track of are the number of comments in my inbox (18132 since March 2020) and my word count, which is currently at 886076.

#asks #stilton squeaks #yeah I...was not really expecting anyone to read tmaaf when I first started out #before mdzs i was that one fandom creator who posts weekly even though no one really likes or reads their work #and has a devoted fandom blog discussing their work but with like #10 followers #this was the case for MANY years and I was writing on FFN for five years before I came to AO3 lol #so i just leave my stats alone #I Do Not See It i am looking away

[lelianaslefthand]

this line up playing while i was driving home gave me 40 psychic damage

#i put on ptolemaea but the rest were on shuffle #driving home in the dark coming back to reality after hanging out with a friend like my mind was about to get scary #thinking about that post saying how people are bad at making character playlists #i do not see it i am looking away #the girls that get it get and the ones that don’t… not my problem #.txt

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

he's in my home he's in my Heart

#translation: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #hello hello hello hellOOOOOOOOO #hes so cute!!!! and the material is So Soft!!! #the urge to fling him as hard as i can at a wall is There! #i wont though. i wouldnt dare #but ohhhh its him <3 the chew toy <3<3 in the. uh. fabric #i didnt expect him to be so firmly stuffed its a Delightful surprise #his little outfit his stupid fuckin cinnamon bun hair AGH i love him #thirty bucks well spent!!! #i cant wait to crochet him a little sweater <3 #and a little Home to keep him company <3 #oh man oh man Where am i gonna put him... #in the basket??? on my bed?? on a shelf - no! i dont have the room! #maybe he'll bounce around from spot to spot! #photos from the bog #welcome home #gotta say i really do love how it kinda looks like his ascot is strangling him #i looked to see if i could loosen it lmao is he breathing alright!!!! #cant wait to have extensive staring contests with him <3 #finally... someone who wont look away or find eye contact Uncomfortable... #i will admit im already obsessed with holding his tiny soft hand #AGH he's so <3<3<3 he's soooooo <3<3<3<3 #thank you makeship for the opportunity to have him physically in my life #thank you clown for creating him & letting makeship turn him into a marketable plushie he's Everything. 100000/10 absolutely phenomenal #MAN i cant believe he's here!!!! #it feels kinda unreal! like! Wally Darling! in my house! My House!! holy shit!!! #hearts on his soles and everything! #oh and as a bonus he arrived in a wonderful little canvas Bag #i do love me a bag... extra thank you to makeship for the bag. new bag <3 i'll put things in it <3

[treasureplcnet]

inverness here they come!!!!

#ignoring canon. does everyone know that esther forces her way back into his life even in a world where they don't have to meet #and then they just ditch london and live an oddly quiet life until the end of the war in scotland. they told me that. #more than anything in the world i am always thinking of the incredible force that these two are and how determined they are to survive #please see: esther genuinely trying to shoot him (makes me laugh everytime i see it) and the way karl blends himself into every scenario #not above lying not above running away just trying to get by. 'i treat others the way they treat me'. distrustful by default #and finally the only reason these two stop kicking and clawing is the budding family they accidentally form #AND THEN THE LAST 20 MINUTES OF EP4 HAPPENS. #ep8 gives me a semblance of peace. theyre in inverness to ME. #i do also rly adore their twin rbf. at any given moment they look as though theyre chatting shit (they are) #AND the gun thing is so funny. the gun fails and instead of giving up esther just tries to shoot him again LLOOOLLLL #no thoughts towards the consequences and with no experience with guns as well. she's literally goated #jacob fortune lloyd's interview on this and his thoughts on their relationship also makes me a tiny bit sick so . #anyways. WATCH BODIES #karl weissman #esther jankovsky #bodies netflix #my art #bodies 2023

[findafight]

Robin chose Steve. Robin made the conscious and deliberate decision that she could and would trust Steve. She already liked him! She had fun working and bantering with him! They were already on their way to being weird little bffs and the torture just expedited the process. Steve chose Robin just the same! He thinks she's fun and cool and likes her so much! He chose to be honest and open with her too, putting himself out there.

Even though their interests on the surface level don't match why wouldn't they share them? Steve clearly caves when Robin wants to watch a movie he doesn't think he'll like, Robin can watch a March madness game or five.

Stop trying to take away their bond oh my god people can be close to more than one person!!! Their best friend doesn't have to be dismissive or mean or whatever in order for a romance to be special to them!

#if i have to see another fic or whatever that makes it seem like robin doesnt give a shit about what steve likes and talkes about im going #to scream and maybe even rampage #its nice to sit down and have someone who knows explain who the players are and what the stakes for this particular game!! #just because yall seem to not think anyone can be nutral towards sports doesnt mean people aren't #literally why is it so hard to believe robin would like to hear steve talk as much as steve likes to hear her talk #i am so close to telling some steddie shippers to not look at steve or robin or their friendship because some of yall do Not get it. #its like you can see them go 'have to make sure eddie is the most perfect specialest boy for steve...well that means robin doesn't Get Him ' #or 'robin ignores him/dismisses his interests/isnt told everything happening in his life' like okay dont ever touch them again thanks #robin is steves specialest sunshine cupcake goober girl. steve is robins bestest happy times sweet funnyman. dont u dare take that away. #omce again tsgs longer than the post but ah well. #stobin #platonic stobin #robin buckley #steve harrington #stranger things #finda's rambles #steve and robin #this is a scheduled post just to jazz things up i guess #but seriously some of yall need to STOP MESSIGN WITH STOBIN

[galaghiel]

what remnant does to a mf

#fnaf #michael afton #me doods #look away people! this one's just for me and myself only #(despite maintagging yes i know but its for organization purposes) anyways #i am a big fan of remnant mutating the shit out of a person #pair that w michael's unique death and continued exposure to the spirits it ends up doing pretty fucked up stuff lol #post scoop michael looks like a purple titan 💀 #i'm literally just making fun of my own design atp lmaooo #whatever's the opposite of same face syndrome i have that w michael #just recently added the bolts to the jaw and i love it sm i'm keeping it #post scoop michael is 6'7 so i just want yall to imagine this absolute unit of a cryptid losing his mind managing the pizzeria #he's out there sobbing shitting rolling on the floor trying to mute the fucking ads absolutely flooding his monitors #i drew what his neck looks like but its usually covered in bandages or a turtleneck #you do not want to see what's under his shirt btw. its a whole circus in there AHAHAHAHAHA

[stellarsightz]

Sorry I uh. Have no explanation for this one

#stellar.artz #my art #artists on tumblr #skyrim #skyrim art #tesblr #hadvar #hadvar of riverwood #ralof #ralof of riverwood #hadvar/ralof #hadvar x ralof #do they have a ship name?? idk man #destiel confession meme #hello lilly if you’re seeing this please look away i am going insane bc of these two

[chickenoptyrx]

....I just wanted to draw gators :T at this point these 2 are more 'a representation of my last 2 brain cells' then they are actual characters 😅

#im living vicariously through the cartoon guys #because i want to A. pick up gator (strong man style) #and B. ..pick up gator (hug) #ok but so i recently found out an area where i take stupid little walks for my stupid little mental health #has! GATORS!! (potentially. theres signs.) #and this is great cause seeing gators would def heal me as a person #but ok so when i look for hiking places i always look north cause the terrains more hilly #but now im lookin south more cause turns out i AM in fact far enough south to see gators!! #and yeah looks like theres a handful of nature reserves w hiking trails the same distance away as the little mountain trails i go to #its flatter and the trails are less extensive so ill hafta see if i think its worth it #but then too theres a really big black water swamp that.. further away then i wanna drive.. #but also i drove 5 hrs once just to go to mammoth cave as a day trip so.. we'll see.. #my friend says he wont go w me tho :T he'll just report me missing #this has been a tag ramble about my sudden outset intrest in seeing a gator #my bullshit #lol barely but still #also- i told myself not to over do it drawin the scales or coloring it #and as you can see i dont listen to myself ever #lol they look outta place but idc i got to draw 2 of my favorite characters and also ALLIGATORS :U #living the dream rn

[im-smart-i-swear]

coming back home.

@barrenclan

#patfw #patfw fanart #patfw spoilers #rainhaze #THE NEW ISSUE. IT SURE WAS AN ISSUE HUH. I AM NORMAL. SO NORMAL IN FACT #THAT I REDREW A PANEL OF THE COMIC IN MS PAINT #i need someone to put this horrid beast down already. he needs to DIE i am not joking. euthanise him. please. #he is soooo fascinating. #i CANT get over his expression in this panel. WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM #hes smiling .is it a genuine smile? is he smiling bc he knows how this is going to go and all he can do is laugh now? #why. why why why the smile. at first he looks shocked or surprised or terrified but THEN it turns into this playful soft grin. as if full o #nostalgia. or maybe grief. or maybe joy. he looks like he knows something we dont. #did he accept that his family is going to get wiped out (HIS FAULT HE KILLED HER HE RIPPED HER THROAT OUT) and is just happy he got to see #them one last time? #this is so weird. before killing asphodel he was so terrified of meeting them. of facing his past and acknowledging what he became. #is him smiling a symbol of him giving up? becoming part of defiance? hes not running away anymore. he doesnt have to. #jesus. #my art #wanted to make him look as fucked up as i could. i hope he looks like a corpse or perhaps a starved dog to you

[harbingersglory]

can i req some arlecchino kink headcanons? no pressure to answer! there's just a lack of new knave content lately ahhh.. (￣ヘ￣)

{☆} characters arlecchino {☆} notes drabble, hc's, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings 18+ content

{☆} dacryphilia

arlecchino is a sucker for crying. doesn't matter if you cry easily or not– either she sees it as a challenge to make you cry in the first place or to see how much you can cry before you have to tap out. her absolute favorite way to make you cry is straight up overstimulating (or understimulating you, depending on her mood) until you're practically sobbing. if you cry prettily enough maybe she'll take pity on you.

{☆} temp play

arlecchino has a pyro vision and she is absolutely going to use it. especially prominent if you're both in snezhnaya– it provides prime opportunities for her to slip her hands under your clothes when you least expect it just to see you squirm beneath her hands. she'd never actually do anything too scandalous in public, but if you're a bit more hidden away she'll have no qualms playing with your chest. if you complain about the cold you're just giving her an excuse to "warm you up" and see you tremble like a lamb.

{☆} face sitting

nothing prettier to her then seeing you above her with her face between your legs. her tongue is just as warm as any other part of her, and she knows how to use it, too. she'll hook her arms around your thighs just to hold you down until you've doubled over from the intensity of it– if you start crying, oh, she just gets worse. absolutely ravenous. she won't stop even if her jaw starts to ache. if you don't want her to stop, she could go for hours without a break.

#genshin impact smut #genshin smut #arlecchino x reader #arlecchino smut #writing tag #genshin impact x reader #genshin x reader #minors dni #asks #anon #i would pref if men didnt interact w this but im not gonna go out of my way 2 do a background check lol #considered for the briefest moment on adding breeding kink to this but i had to physically restrain myself i add it to EVERYTHING #arle breeding kink but w/o the actual breeding she has enough little bastards 2 deal w u get me #its abt the Idea. the Concept. #if u thought id stop adding 300 random tags yapping ahahaha no. #also considered overstim but thats a given. BORING. #also me?? actually using this blog???? yeah lol #if my mutuals see this look away im having a moment #i havent slept at all its like 4 am if theres a typo or smth i forgor look away

[chrisbangs]

231111

#chan #bang chan #stray kids #skz #cb97net #createskz #*gifs #*m #flashing tw #oh this was just a throw away i just wanted to see what generative fill would do on a gif #it didnt do anything <3 #well it did but ofc it was static so zzz #but my psd looked nice here so whateverrrrr #ok gn now ! #its 4 am

[sunnys-aesthetic]

This was 9 hrs ago as of RIGHT NOW on feb 11 2024.

jesus fucking christ.

#gaza #palestine #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #current news #gonna look for my voters registration and see what I can do #please donate to relief funds + spread this shit like crazy and please #PLEASE i am begging everyone to NOT LOOK AWAY #boost

[lesbianredhoodedmercenary]

happy father's day i'm thinking about this outis line again

I always thought it was a bit out of pocket considering this isn't too long after the events of Canto III, even with how Outis was being harsher this Canto.

But I then I remembered that Outis' son is the same age as Sinclair.

Her son, who thinks that she died in the Smoke War (the in universe equivalent to the Trojan War as depicted in the Iliad and the Odyssey) because she hasn't been home in years. Her son who cannot cry out to her. And her son, who is currently in much the same position as Sinclair regarding his self-perception and ability to fight, as Telemachus refers to himself as "a weakling knowing nothing of valor" (Book 2 of the Odyssey, line number and exact wording depend on translation).

I think this line reflects more on Outis and her anxieties about her family thinking that she's dead, as well as a reference to Telemachus experiencing his own journey to manhood, much like Sinclair.

I think there's also things to be said for the parallels between Sinclair and Telemachus, even just the ones imagined by Outis. Hell's Chicken had her showing a very paternal worry over his diet (raise your hand if your dad has ever said you'll be short forever if you don't eat right). Overall, even though Sinclair and Telemachus only share the bones of a coming of age narrative, Outis is seeing connections there because she misses her family.

As with this one. Again, she's showing her hand more than she means to. Though she's talking to Dongrang, I think she's also talking to herself. Trying to reassure herself that home will always be waiting. Dongrang, however, decides not to return, but to pursue glory no matter who he hurts in the process. The Odyssey also contrasts the pursuit of glory with the desire to return home. Odysseus has to choose humility in order to return.

Outis has been keeping up a careful persona around us, but it's slipping. Her desire to return home is seeping through even as she tries to assert herself by clinging to the glory from a war that's long since ended.

#limbus company #outis lcb #outis makes me insane i need to bite something #outis is canto 11 going by release order... that's so far away #penelope and telemachus i need to think about them and see them #rotating them in my mind every day #and. i can't unpack homeric ideals of masculinity with how the odyssey treats telemachus' coming of age and #how that's going to influence outis' writing and how she treats sinclair. because that would take way too long #but y'know #that's another post. and that's also a post about gender. like. i can see the title now #Homeric Masculinity. Butchness. and The Meaning of Manhood: a Closer Look at Outis' Gender in Limbus Company #i title my shit like academic articles do not @ me #like. i know gender isn't really a factor in the city. but from a meta-textual level i think it's interesting and i'm a butch lesbian so #also this is a scheduled post. i am scheduling it for fathers day because i would not remember otherwise. so hi from the past

[candyriku]

It's still scaly since it's only a week old but I couldn't hold off posting it anymore - here's my Riku tattoo!!!!

Reference under the cut - it's that manga panel, of course :-)

I made an edit to remove the text boxes and the rain and sent it to my artist, and she made a few more changes like giving him a fully defined mouth!

#EVERYONE. GET YOUR FAV CHARACTER TATTOOED ON YOUR BODY. ITS GREAT #ALSO BONUS POINTS IF ITS SOMEWHAT SHIP RELATED. YEAH. YEAH. #kingdom hearts #riku kingdom hearts #soriku #I COUNT THIS AS SORIKU GIVEN WHAT RIKU IS DOING IN CONTEXT #kingdom hearts tattoo #kingdom hearts fanart #kingdom hearts manga #kh 358/2 days #kingdom hearts 358/2 days #358/2 days #kh #AAAA. i am. AAAAAAAAAA #the lines are straight my arm just isnt lol #i just thought the rain wouldnt read well without context of the scene ahaha. just felt it looked weird isolated. #i feel like no one will see this BUT I WILL SEE THIS EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE AND THATS WHAT MATTERS #my artist did such a good job im like blown away by how clean the lines are - everywhere that looks like its wobbly or #is going outside the lines is just my skin flaking. like it looks so good. Ill take another picture when its actually healed im sorry #i have never known patience

[stuckinapril]

One day I’ll go through med school and then I’ll go through residency and then I’ll go through a fellowship and then I’ll be the most crybaby neurosurgeon you could think of. Bursting into tears if I so much as graze ur hypothalamus with my forceps

#Yesterday I shadowed a neurologist for the first time and basically we got done seeing a patient who’s also a heart surgeon #And I turned to the doctor and was like Ok what do we do #The thing is this patient has dementia and we don’t really have a cure for that yet so the study he’s enrolling in is largely observational #Still I expected her to follow up on him in much more frequent increments #Instead this woman goes “we’ll see him in 6-9 months but… not even sure if he’ll be here by then sooo” #Basically implying he might be dead in a year #AND I WAS LIKE. Blown away by how blase she was #And ever since then a fiendish sort of melancholy followed me everywhere I went . #Bc I haven’t stopped thinking about the heart surgeon #I don’t get how she can stop thinking about him #I don’t understand people who can stop thinking about something like that #I know neurologists like her have seen patients come and go many a time but I was disturbed #So I made a pact w myself never to lose my humanity. Half of why I’m so into medicine is bc of its humane aspects #And in 10 years I’ll look back at this and hopefully still be just as annoyingly sensitive as I am today #I think I’m just overall disillusioned w how little humanity some people seem to have but that doesn’t mean I have to be that way too #p

[foreverppl]

Moodboard for Jinnah Beatty (they/she), lead singer of ethereal wave band Mayday Malady.

@infamous-if

Playlist

#romancing august I think but we’ll see what oriana is saying when the updated demo comes out hehe #some quick facts: #they usually go by their last name #her goal with her style is to be constantly mistaken for a beautiful ghost #lots of long skirts/dresses + layers. gossamer looking fabric etc. only ever wears black or white #on stage she’s also usually wearing a mourning veil bc of course she is #half of her love of music comes from the spectacle of it. like being able to construct a persona and exist in it for a little while #like playing make believe #they make a lot of their own clothes. if they weren’t doing music they’d definitely be doing something in fashion. #she deeply deeply hates being misunderstood or having her words/actions be twisted so she’s like pulling her hair out rn lmao #the band’s songs are pretty high usually so she always secretly finds it funny when fans try to sing along and are off key or something lol #the only tattoo they have is seven’s initials and she doesn’t really plan on getting any others #they’re hesitant abt being a positioned as the leader bc sometimes she has issues with reeling in her emotions #and responding reasonably in the moment. #anyway she can’t relate to the loser mc allegations she’s the coolest mf on the scene tbh #but I am sorta… scared for them. #on account of the horrors that are yet to come #bc truthfully they don’t know any coping mechanisms that aren’t just ‘ignore it until it goes away’ lmao #one of the things she is currently ignoring to the best of their ability is seven #if: infamous #mb #mc: jinnah beatty (infamous)