#i seriously want to cry

[hyunnieshannie]

Have you ever read a fic that captures you in every way?

Warning: this is a rant // Review about a fic I just finished. I DONT usually post this kind of thing on the writing blog and would usually post this on my secondary ( @hyunsungbased ) but I felt like I needed to rant properly so here you go.

I just finished the most gruesome. Heart wrenching. Psychiatric facility needing fic I have EVER read and enjoyed all 35 chapters of the gut twisting, anxiety inducing story line.

The tags? Usually ones I don’t go out of my way looking for (Dead Dove: Do Not Eat and others) but when I saw THE TRAILER. YES. A WHOLE. MOVIE. TRAILER. for it. I had to do it.

Like this fic genuinely surpassed being just a fic. I 100% believe that if the author changed the names around from SKZ / ATEEZ names it could be a published book. That would more than definitely capture the attention of horror // psychological thriller fans.

As someone who wants to be in film as a director I’d JUMP at a chance to make this a tv show or movie. It was fucking PHENOMENAL.

The plot. Attention to detail. Continuity. The side plots. The foreshadowing. The hints dropped throughout the story, Everything about this fic was so incredibly well done. The author must have been as meticulous as Chan was throughout the story to genuinely have me this floored.

There are very little authors who’ve had me this intrigued. A few being some mutuals I’ve made here. (@milkandhyunnie & @straywrds I’m looking at you) and some who I continuously read their works. (You can find the works I genuinely love SO MUCH in my Fic Suggestions list HERE

Back to my rant/Review:

I Don’t cry at fics. I barely cry reading but some of the deaths gutted me. I have an entire video of myself SOBBING over two deaths. Ranting to a friend of how cruel it was even tho I was EXPECTING it. And every-time it was brought back up I could feel myself choking. It was unfair and cruel. And one of the characters last words being “Do you think he’s waiting for me?” Destroyed me in my entirety.

This fic became an obsession. Almost as unhealthy and the relationship between the main characters. It ate me alive. My brain couldn’t function properly. It became an obsession. I stayed up countless nights reading because i couldn’t put it down.

I fell in love with the characters, their development, and genuinely felt so strongly. And DEFENDED THEIR ACTIONS.

There were times I found myself thinking ‘wow yeah I’m in love with Hyunjin’s character in this fic..’ when I know I should have been wincing at the thought of who his character was.

It. Fucked. With. Me. So. Bad. (In a good way)

I talked about it to all my friends —> told them what was going on as a play by play as I read.

They aren’t really down for the kind of fic it was (Murder// Gruesome killings// and other things that is best described in ‘Have you ever seen the show Hannibal?’ {no. No one in SKZ does those things to each other // Eats. Weird things}) they opted to me giving a synopsis.

They laughed with me and when it came to. Cried as hard as I did and they weren’t even reading it. (Ty to my friends for putting up with me because dear god. When I say it became an obsession I genuinely mean it. A lot of it inspired how Kierra acts within our fic super board. So if our last chapter of Kierra’s past shocked you that fic may have definitely had a part to play. Kierra was ALWAYS going down that road. The author inspired the gruesomeness of the act itself)

As someone who’s been writing another fic on the sidelines to test the waters of the dark and twisted this fic has truly inspired me. (I may perhaps leave it on AO3 instead as I’m not sure how our readers here - who are used to our casual fluffier happy ending writing style may react.).

I have never been more inspired to write angst with either a hopeful ending or no happy ending at all.

I could go on about this all day. I have done it too. I have went on a whole TWO HOUR explanation on how I felt about this I could probably write an essay about why it was so good.

If you made it this far thank you.

Here’s a gift for your troubles.

*cries seeing them because this fic altered my brain chemistry*

>> Mini’s Note: If somehow any of this interested you after reading this (i tried to leave it as vague as possible while my brain still tries to process the last 3 chapters) pls feel free to dm me for info on it but I cannot stress this enough. This fic is so heavy in terms of topics and the details put into it. SO. HEAVY. I’ll gladly pass it along but it really is not for the weak of stomachs. If you still want it, I advise you HEAVILY READ THE TAGS MORE THAN ONCE.

Ps: i have started their next series which is on going and supposedly DARKER than the one I just finished. Please pray for not only may sanity, but for the sanity of the friends who will have to deal with me for the next [insert time period] that I spend reading it.

#hyunnieshannie #stray kids #stray kids fic #fic recommendation #fic review #ao3 works #i seriously have a problem #i seriously want to cry #this fic is so good #this fic will be the death of me #this fic altered my brain chemistry. #dm me if you want the link. #READ. THE. WARNINGS.

[gargelyfloof118]

We built that.....

#im tearing up #theres a usable building there that wasnt there before #it has actual use and function #and is being used for that function #theres birds! #i have birds!!!! #i go down and they make noise and everything #theres life in our homestead #places we are building are being used the way we had hoped #i seriously want to cry #we have birds! and horses!

[relaxxattack]

i cant even express how hurt upset and angry i am right now. anyway nobody watch vol 2

#this literally feels DISRESPECTFUL to every single person who ever cared about the story #ESPECIALLY abuse victims #i seriously want to cry

[basillolo]

LIFE CHANGING, BITCH. LIFE CHANGING.

#cavetown #bittersweet daze #i literally sobbed #i seriously want to cry #best day of my fucking life

[im-a-demon-i-lied]

just a couple more hours!!!

i seriously can’t believe that i’ve been in love with this show for 3 years now…

this fandom is the sweetest, most talented, kindhearted group of people i’ve ever been around. Good Omens and the connections ive made through it has changed my life for the better… i honestly have no clue where i would be without it.

GO fandom, it’s finally here.. the day we’ve been waiting literal years for! thank you @neil-gaiman for creating this world. even though it’s fictional, the effect it has is very real.

i can’t wait to see what s2 has in store!!!! i’m sure it will be

Tickety boo

#good omens series #good omens season two #ineffable husbands #i seriously want to cry #i love this fandom so much

[justaweirdo06]

#shitpost #birthday #why am i even posting this #Yall I'm not ready #mha #bnha #bakugou katsuki #izuku midoriya #i seriously want to cry #why does this need to happen #i don't want to be fourteen #i just got used to being thirteen #if you know where this is from no you don't #non gacha

[lazyheartcomputer]

Me when yuhi lost: ARE YOU SERIOUS?!

#yugioh go rush #yuhi ohdo #i seriously want to cry

[nessarolla-in-constant-flux]

I accidently deleted my Animal Crossing Island...

I want to despawn...

#animal crossing #im a fucking idiot #my poor island #all my villagers #i seriously want to cry

[globodamorte]

I don't even have the words FUUUUUUUCK i just gonna say it's funny to see everyone jump ship onto juntaek being so so sweet. like I love a sweet boy with a grandma ok I do but not at the cost of my other sweet boy being abused by the police and being used as an ableist trope FUUUUUUUCK

#chasing tails #and tbh now that taeyeon has become some fucking background character #in my head its seongbin vs juntaek #im about to cry #i seriously want to cry

[ravens-rambling]

You know... It feels great being left behind cause of something I can't control.

I guess my parents decided to order pizza while I was asleep. And...they didn't order me any. I can't have normal pizza, I have to have gluten free pizza. They didn't even fucking bother to get me any gluten free pizza.

So I'm meant to either starve tonight while everyone stuffs their faces around me. Or find something in the freezer and HOPE that it's gluten free so I can have it.

I love being excluded...cause of a disease...that I obviously can't control. Just... It feels fucking fantastic let me tell you.

#i know im on my period and everything but im so upset #i seriously want to cry #i fucking hate this disease i hate it i hate it so fucking much #tw vent #vent

[freitag1607]

1.05 / Battle of the Labyrinth

#I FEEL SO NORMAL ABOUT THIS #percy jackson #pjo tv show #percy jackson and the olympians #pjotv #percabeth #pjo #screaming crying #mine #100 #500 #1k #5k #im in the middle of packing and this sent me frantically looking for my copies of pjo #anyway #i feel so insane i feel like im gonna die can anyone hear me. CAN ANYONE HEAR ME #annabeth has been so disconnected from the mortal world and just so fundamentally unable to enjoy her childhood #it makes me want to sob like seriously #i hope her and percy go on so many movie dates. like #not even just her and percy i hope percy tells grover and word spreads around camp and movie nights just become a thing at camp #because all these babies deserve it #god im gonna die. im seriously gonna die #WE KNOW THERE'S AN ORIENTATION VIDEO #SO THEY HAVE A PROJECTOR AND A SCREEN #MOVIE NIGHTS COULD HAPPEN!!! #okay bye. i'm going to go scream about percabeth some more

[chloesimaginationthings]

The actual lore in FNAF ultimate custom night

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #evan afton #fnaf cassidy #fnaf crying child #fredbear #fnaf andrew #toysok #fnaf #fnaf 4 #ultimate custom night #fnaf ucn #fazbear frights #fnaf fanart #five nights at freddy's #this comic is unserious btw #sorry if this is your first introduction to Andrew #BUT HEY ANDREW MENTIONED 🔥🔥 #I wanted to make a little joke comic around the lil guy #cause seriously anytime someone learns of Andrew they go ‘who?’ #Cassidy getting all this bad rep for no reason #she’s (maybe) not even the one who made Williams super hell #Andrew gets to scoot by smh

[spreadyourwings-my-smiling-angel]

I have one week left of uni and 5 assignments due - 1 being overdue. Plus two more quizzes (one being tomorrow that I haven’t looked at any content for), and heaps of workshop activities to catch up on. Plus I have my job that’s getting in the way of my free time, as well as needing to pack cause I move out next weekend. Gotta also find a replacement for my room and so far I only have two options who both might decide to say no. Oh, and I’m still trying to book everything and plan my trip that I leave for in just under 3 weeks time, which I also don’t even have enough money for so I don’t think I can even afford to go. But I also have no idea how to calculate the costs of what I need and what I’ll have by the time I’m over there. I have to try and list things to sell to make some more money, but I have no time to do all this. No time to pick up extra shifts. Oh, and I gotta sort out my bedroom at my parent’s house so I can actually sleep here when I move back next week.

I want to die.

#i’m so overwhelmed #and I’m shutting down as per usual #I do not have the ability to get even half of this sorted #and the icing on the cake was I got covid for the first time last week #and lowkey I still don’t feel 100% #but I still have to continue on as normal #despite also fucking up my sleep schedule #it’s also f1 this weekend and I really wanted to watch everything #and I have no more sick days at work so I can’t call in like I so desperately want to #and I fucking made plans on Sunday which I really regret now #but I can’t even cancel cause I’ve cancelled on this girl too many times #i seriously want to cry #and I lowkey was

[smol-sirens-garden]

Thanks Genshin. Mental state is shit but let’s make it worse with a character that I know I am not going to touch and don’t particularly like. At least now I can save the Guarantee for Nelly but fuck dude.

#OOC #I seriously want to cry

[kittyprincessofcats]

My boss also can’t make sure I won’t have to do Russian projects, as we apparently don’t have enough clients who actually stopped selling in Russia post-war.

(And the reason translators were allowed to refuse projects for moral reasons is because they’d have to write the texts themselves, but since I’m a project manager and wouldn’t have to write the Russian translations - just make sure they get written - that’s apparently “not the same thing” for some reason.)

I just want a new job at this point.

There’s literally nothing left about this one that’s still fun. Ever since that shitty merger, we’ve had to work with outdated systems that don’t function, then our new corporate overlords fired our old boss who we all liked, then one of my closest colleagues turned out to be a homophobic pro-Putin war-supporter who’s apparently talking shit about me behind my back now because I called her out on her bullshit... and now I “can’t” refuse Russian projects and the works’ council - who was supposed to be in my corner - doesn’t give a fuck.

And now I don’t know what to do. Do I fuck around and find out (a.k.a. just refuse to do it, come what may)? I don’t like this job anymore anyways, do I just risk losing it? (But there is that part of my brain that’s scared of having to look for a new job. What if I don’t find one? What if it takes two years again like last time? What if I run out of money? What if I’ll have to move back in with my toxic, homophobic parents?) And the sensible part of my brain is telling me that my friend is right - that I can help Ukraine better with an income than without one. That me losing my job isn’t going to help any Ukrainian. 

I just don’t know what to do. I think I’ll definitely at least look around for new jobs, maybe write an application here and there... who knows, something might pop up.

#personal #I seriously want to cry #There's also a whole other thing about how I'm lonely and unhappy with my life in general #And how I wish I'd studied creative writing instead of languages #Whenever I see writers and artists (like ND Stevenson right now) be successful I'm like... gosh you're living my dream

[lover-boy-liam]

Here’s my ‘if I could kin songs this is my kin list’ playlist

#Shitpost #okay ngl #i seriously need help #like like like #/srs #:’( #i seriously want to cry #Spotify