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lynnthefrenchtoast · 2 years

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🌱reading fanfic reccs

so. i made a post abt my favourite fanfics and asked for reccomendations. and i can say with 100% certainty these reccs DID. NOT. DISSAPOINT.

so ill be posting my thoughts after i finish every fic and hopefully we can brainrot tgt

⚠️: i dont believe in unsolicited criticism so this isnt a 'judging fics' thing. its more like 'omg this is so cool let me scream abt it'

in pitch dark i go walking in your landscape by snowbrigade

• i love the headcanon that the pearl galley is an..., aha,, bc one of my fav fics also includes it (unsure what fic it was but its probably Set in Stone by seredemia)

• HUTAO CONTENT WOOHOO

• e-escort childe??? im listening.

• "He wasn’t a good person, not in the slightest, but it was sickening to prey on the vulnerable." SEE WE STAN MORALLY GOOD MASS GENOCIDERS

• th-the way they describe zhongli god i mean we all know hes pretty but gOSH- IN A WHITE DRESS SHIRT?? WITH COR LAPIS JEWELRY?? MANZ I DONT EVEN DESCRIBE THE OUTFITS IN MY WRITING BC IM UNCREATIVE

• "exposing the salacious curvature of his legs." the writing feels erotic even though its not a dirty scene smhdirnr i aspire to be able to write like this////

• THE TENSION. thetensionthetensionthetension- also: gambling? not good. childe and zhongli gambling tgt in fiction? yesyesyesyesyes

• "Zhongli wondered what his eyes betrayed about himself." god. what an incredible line.

• "but a human-sized lucky charm isn’t convenient. The purpose of a charm is to carry it around, correct? One couldn’t reasonably carry another person around all the time."

"You could with dedication,"

• *lynn is filled with dedication*

• (thats an undertale reference)

•“Maybe I do, but ask me if I mean it with everyone.”

“Do you mean it with everyone?”

“No, but I mean it with you,”

....SORRY ID SIMPLY PASS AWAY

• “I’m a detective, with the Wangsheng Detective Agency.” AND EVERYONE CLAPPED!!!

• slightly embarrassed for childe telling a lie to the man himself but the TENSION. TENSIONTENSIONTENSION- makes up for it.

• "was sort of cute, honestly, in part because of how impartial he’d appeared most of the time." ZHONGLI POUTING. CUTE.

• “I do not believe I am that mysterious or handsome, so you can just call me Zhongli.”

“Humble mysterious handsome detective then,”

yall think youd do so good in a mafia au but the moment he says smn like this to me its game over hes won im giving him my info

• the deadness of childe behind his playful facade is something i need more emphasis on in zhongchi fics.

• “You say I’m bad, but who keeps paying for me?”

“Arrogance isn’t a pretty look.”

“You’re one to talk.”

hes going to be important. hes going to be unlikeable, i know.

• ...BUT HE HAS BLUE EYES HOW AM I NOT SUPPOSED TO LIKE HIM

• blue is my favourite color black is my favourite hair color HE HAS BOTH.

• "my camellia." bye. yea. vortex, his name was?? yea hes mine now.

• side note; i has to go back and check the fic for vortex's pronouns bc i didnt wanna assume then i realized.... hes literally a book character how would i be assuming hE HAS NO FACE LYNN

• “C’mon, you stared at me enough the other night to know my body’s in great shape.”

Zhongli curled the hand he was resting against into a fist, pressing his cheek to his knuckles. “I was not staring at you.”

• sure xiansheng, sure.

• "He wondered, was it an innate inclination to distrust? Or life experience? His myriad of scars, mysterious lines tugging at Zhongli’s curiosity, made him inclined to believe it was the latter."

the innate curiosity to want to see someone as who they really are. MMM.

• "“Did you rest well last night?” Zhongli asked, an innocent question which made Childe pause, calculating some hidden meaning."

genuine consideration for my wellbeing? oh no. *pulls out wedding ring*💍🧎

• “Believe it or not, this is me being gentle,” *COUGH* *COUGH* HEAR THAT?? ITS LYNNS SELF RESPECT- FLYING OUT THE WINDOW

• "-Zhongli imploringly to call off his attack dog"

CHILDE AS ZHONGLIS ATTACK DOG MAKES SO MUCH SENSE AGAGGAHSDH

• “Let’s get some food, shall we? I know a good place.” EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT TIME.

• "And you cannot hold a pair of chopsticks."

"I can hold them."

"Not properly."

mood.

• im chinese and i also cant hold chopsticks

• “So with chopsticks, how am I supposed to eat rice?” He looked between the utensils and his bowl of rice as if he were figuring out a math equation. “Do I just… pick it up one piece at a time?”

Zhongli bit the inside of his cheek, and nodded stiffly. “Yes. Try it out.”

• zhongli, you true menace.

• theory right now: vortex is gonna be a part of the san flore gang.

• “if I recall correctly, you said you enjoyed those.” THEYRE SO CUTE

• "Am I not the epitome of caution?"

"No," Zhongli answered immediately, blunt as a hammer. "It’s selfish, perhaps even egocentric, but I feel responsible for your well-being since I allowed you into the investigation."

genuine consideration for my wellbeing? oh no *pulls out a second, more expensive wedding ring* 💍💍🧎

• THEORY AGAIN: VORTEX IS GONNA BE THE LEADER OF THE SAN FLORE GANG AND THE ONE WHO KILLED HAVRIA

• update: i was wrong abt the leader thing. THE HAVRIA THING MAYBE?? LIYUE QIXING??

• "Zhongli continued, far, far gentler than Childe would have been with himself." a detail. a tiny detail but wow.

• "He almost wished Zhongli would take his forearm in his hands and snap it in half, just to feel something familiar."

..you ok bestie-

• "he looked away politely as Childe changed into it, as if he didn’t work in a brothel where it was his job to be ogled. " TREATING PPL WITH BASIC RESPECT IS THE FIRST STEP TO GET THEM TO FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU GOOD JOB ZHONGLI

• "Cute, said a part of his brain, which he promptly dismissed, while another voice wanted to chide him into wearing clothes properly." ZHONGLIIIIIII

• the hotpot scene. ITS SO GOOD THE DIALOGUE THE WRITING THE CHOPSTICKS THE REX LAPIS THE FINALLY ADDRESSING CHILDES MYSTERIOUSNESS

• "This was nice. It made Zhongli's stomach twist."

• and

• "Havria was a vegetarian."

• amazing sentences.

• THAT GOODBYE SCENE WAS BRILLIANT. WITH CHILDE FLIRTING JUST BEFORE SAYING GOODBYE. AND WITH ZHONGLI WATCHING HIS FIGURE ALL THE WAY UNTIL HE DISSAPEARS. AND AND AND.

• i could literally feel what it felt like as you left your friend's house and soaked in the silence

• like that mix of 'woo im tired' and 'oh. its quiet.' TRANSLATED PERFECTLY

• "until he stood undeniably alone." see this line is perfect because 'alone' is obvious. 'alone' doesnt say much. when you say 'undeniably alone' it tells a little bit of a story: that zhongli is in denial of his loneliness.

• and that, i think, is the kind of writer i wish i could be

• "The hands in the mirror were covered in blood, sticky and red, heavy rivulets dripping down his wrists. The thick blood seeped into every crevice of his hands, stained beneath his fingernails. It kept dripping. He would drown in it. Even if he washed his hands again, he would not be clean."

• ...that imagery OW.

• "I mean, it's what a person is. Alive. Or dead. Or they’re you and get to be both alive and dead, but you’re a unique case.” THATS SO HUTAO TO SAY I LOVE HER

• ...ITS NOT FINISHED????

• BRO ITS SO GOOD BUT IT HASNT BEEN UPDATED IN SO LONG CRAP

..and thats where the notes end. PFFT

all in all, very much enjoyed it. thank you for the recc, SEND ME MORE THATS A DEMAND

#zhongchi #chili #genshin impact #ao3fic #archive of our own #mafia au #zhongli #rex lapis #morax #tartagalia genshin impact #genshin ajax #childe #fanfic reccomendation #fanfic #fanfiction

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pastramimommy · 3 years

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10/29/20

I just got off a zoom conversation with faculty and other students about race and i just feel very heated and frustrated, perhaps even more heated and frustrated than i did before the meeting lol i was so delusional to think that people who got into this program wouldnt be ignorant but based on what I’ve heard my classmates say and post, i was quickly proven wrong. we talk about race in all of our classes and about examining our biases, and theres so many zoom conversations and workshops on race, but the people that need it most are certainly not taking advantage of these things. Bc they are BLINDDDD to these issues and don’t see that they are part of the problem. we got people who are about to enter the motherfucking healthcare profession NOT BELIEVING THAT GAY PEOPLE DESERVE RIGHTS. WHAT THE FUCKKKK. we got some girl posting on her story about how we cant be so negative bc “theres only one race, the human race” I CANNOT EVEN FATHOM. i spoke up and responded to her (which is a big deal for me because im a pussy ass bitch) and i was tried to curate my response PERFECTLY so it didnt seem like i was tryna school her or anything and left it open as a conversation but she left me on read after one back and forth. THEN i say hi to her at lab and she fucking ignores me. I want to scream but i even if i GENTLY SAY IT, that is too much because these people are just not ready for a goddamn conversation. idk what we can do BUT WE ARE NOT DOING ENOUGH. im tired of all this performative shit, including on my part. but i’m getting better. at clinical last week i started talking to woman of color who worked on the floor and my ass assumed she was a CNA. SHE WAS WORKING ON GETTING HER FUCKING DNP. then i ran into a white man wearing a white coat in the hallway and i asked him how long he had been a doctor at the hospital. he told me he was the social worker. and my brain was like hayley we gotta unpack this BLATANT mf bias we have going on here. and it was heavy but i did and im proud of myself for catching it. WE. NEED. TO TALK. ABOUT THIS. and people need to take a hard fucking look at themselves in the mirror and be a little bit more critical. i mean i get that we both think we are doing the lord’s work out here lmao but FOR GODSAKE PEOPLE I CANNOT COMPREHEND WHY WE LET PEOPLE WHO DO NOT BELIEVE THAT WE ALL HAVE THE SAME MOTHAFUCKIN VALUE BE IN CHARGE OF HUMAN FUCKING LIVES. ok thats all the rage i have today. i always whine about the fact that my friends here are eh but i really need to take a step back and realized how lucky i am that i found people who are on the same page as me and who challenge me. it could be a lot worse

#thoughts #personal

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opalgelance · 4 years

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thoughts on steven universe future

td;lr overall opinion: steven universe future is better than most of the original steven universe, especially seasons 3-5, but there are still some real iffy plotlines in future

i hate that the diamonds were redeemed but at the same time, the happy clouds blue and yellow putting gems back together scenes were so pure

it simultaneously warms my heart and infuriates me

but we finally got a blue diamond song, god i love her voice

EDIT: also steven basically tortured white diamond and nearly killed her and it was pretty disturbing bc steven is 1. in a really bad mental state, like way darker than i thought they’d show him go, since this is technically a kids show and 2. was also kind of trying to hurt himself, which both hit me really hard bc i had similar periods of blazing anger, wanting to self harm and harm others that i felt had wronged me when i was a teenager, but its also what white deserves

ncsndlljklkcndkls i want to enjoy this show so bad but,,, steven having ptsd makes him a violent douche??? diamonds killed who knows how many gems in their reign and never really felt bad about it in original su but now they’re supportive life coaches??? no thank you

on more positive notes, i loved how priyanka described mental health and how she treated steven throughout the entire check up, she was so nonconfrontational and whenever he felt stressed she deescalated the situation,,, it was so good

the animation is the best its been since season 2. the poses are clean, very well drawn, and on model. there are more action scenes than like 90% of steven universe and they’re animated way better, like theres actual fighting and motion asjksacbcbj no one is stiffly posed, no one has strange proportions, no one is drastically changing sizes in between shots (well besides steven in growing pains onward but when he does change size its supposed to be like that lol)

i liked seeing the real roses but didnt love it? i wish we saw more of the roses designs up close, and i wish they fit a little more with the other quartzes? it might be just because its era 3, but the roses were all way more unique than jaspers and amethysts generally seem to be. i like that they were more unique designs and had different personalities, but surely the diamonds wouldnt have tolerated that back in era 1 or even era 2, had the rose quartzes not been bubbled? also i get that they’re reminiscent of pink bc she created them, but hippie and superfan were so naive, more so than other quartzes. if each quartz group was slightly different, it would make a little more sense tbh like if quartzes were the entire gem army, but each group was slightly different. i always liked the idea that rose quartzes were either the defense or the healers of the gem army.

little homeschool and guidance were fun and genuinely enjoyable, considering not a whole ton happens in them. i wish townie episodes had been more like them. like you could replace the gems with random humans, but it would still be a fun episode? idk, maybe involving the humans in gem stuff wouldve made better townie episodes, like lars and the cool kids. it wouldve probably helped steven feel more “human” too, if the human and gem worlds collided a bit more in the series.

bluebird was... an ok episode, but im not sure how well it will fit into what i feel like the end will be, where every episode of future featured someone steven helped or affected in some way, and they all come together to help steven when he corrupts. or rather, i guess if bluebird did say something, it would feel more hollow bc steven didnt help them lol the gems and universes were just friendly to them, and thats it. it wasnt as bad as a very special episode (my least favorite episode of future), but it felt like a townie episode with no townies LOL at least we got a new fusion i guess

a very special episode was just,,, infuriating. there was that weird football scene where they just like,,, talk about screen resolution for a minute then play the full commercial for little homeworld we just saw last episode???? i did genuinely enjoy the rainbow scenes, but it just built up to not nothing. oh no, it was something alright. the whole episode was just future vision and then theres like a minute long psa??? it felt like that wacky randomness that would have happened in like, ok ko, teen titans go, or clarence jaskjcbkcjbskb

mr universe is tied with dear old dad episode as my least favorite greg episode. i get how both of them feel. greg wanted to tell steven about how he escaped from his miserable childhood and remade who he was, no longer a demayo but a universe. the problem imo was that greg became way too absorbed in the past. it reminds me a bit of s1 pearl, how she’d proudly recount gem battles and basked in the glory of fighting for their freedom, but she struggled when she had to recount the more unsavory parts of war. and that really affected amethyst, since she didnt fight in the glorified war pearl told her and steven about. amethyst was the byproduct of one of the bad parts of the war, and that became part of her identity, until on the run, where pearl finally realized that she needed to tell amethyst that she wasnt bad. amethyst’s creation may have fractionally hurt the earth, but that wasnt her fault. it wasnt her fault that she emerged too late to fight either. and it wasnt her fault that she existed. sounds familiar to to stevens rant in the van.

steven didnt ask to be made. he didnt ask to be the half gem half human son of a diamond. but he grew up being told about how great his mom was, and that while no one would ever say it, she was gone because of him. to create steven, rose had to die. it was roses decision, but as the product of that decision, steven feels responsible. not only that, but being told constantly about his amazing mother, steven felt like he had to live up to her, had to be like her, had to replace her in the gems and greg’s lives. throughout the series, steven is constantly either trying to be like his mother, until he realizes its ok to be himself. but then the question is posed; is steven even himself? or is he still part of rose? and once he finds out that he’s steven, and has always been steven, he’s still reeling from the realization that his mother was pink diamond. and that really shows in future, where steven is becoming like pink. at first he doesnt even know, because besides the jungle moon dream, him and the audience never knew about this side of pink. this angry, short tempered, diamond who lashes out mostly physically. and unlike before, no one’s telling steven about pink (besides pink pearl) hes finding out firsthand, and this pink mode is basically being forced on him by his gem. steven has little to no control over this form. hes not trying to live up to his mother, or wondering if he is her, like before. now, he’s losing control to whatever programming is in his gem.

but back to mr universe. in the van, greg is going on and on about how lucky steven is, and how free steven is, but how can either of them compare their lives to each other? the similarities just arent there. steven is right, greg and pink were “raised” in very similar “households”. both had their wishes and desires suppressed by controlling, abusive parents. we know pink was abused mentally, verbally and physically (being physically dragged away from the screen by yellow in jungle moon, stevonnie being grabbed and thrown into the time out cell by yellow, when she still thought steven was pink), but greg at the very least was mentally assaulted. but they diverge from here. as greg said, he thought disco was back. rose started a war. you cant compare them any further.

but at the same time, steven was raised completely differently. he was raised in a home with love and freedom, but he was also not given the opportunity to be a normal kid. theres a difference being forcing your kid to do something and not giving them the chance to try something. steven was never given the option to go to school (well in the comics he was but i guess thats not canon now since it seems like steven wishes he went to school?) he was never given the option to live in a house, or go to the mall with friends. the only other kids he knew were the boardwalk kids, but even then, he doesnt seem very close with them. for such an outgoing, friendly kid, steven wasnt given many opportunities to make friends. steven’s upbringing was very relaxed, yes, but it was too relaxed. he needed more structure, and more importantly, more humanity. i always thought it was weird, how little steven seems to have interacted with humans before connie, considering that his mother so desperately wanted steven to experience being human. yes the show is about gems, (and yes, i dont like most townie episodes), but steven was never shown doing a lot of “human” kid things inbetween episodes. the episode never started with him coming home from a friends house, he hardly ever spent time with friends other than connie in little scenes. like he was never called for a mission while playing cards with peedee, or coming home after an after school activity. any scenes like that were either just steven by himself, or with greg, and occasionally connie. but connie is a new addition to his life. how many years has he been doing fun stuff with only his dad for company, or by himself? yknow, “non traditional” childhoods and living situations are becoming more and more common in media, rather than the “two parents in a suburb house” thing, but steven’s life is beyond any unusual childhood any other kid would have. i mean he’s never even been to the doctor! which is probably for several reasons, like the fact that he apparently doesnt have a ssn, he can heal himself, has a damn gemstone in his stomach, and is half alien. but still, thats not something he has in common with other kids. no matter how much love and freedom he was given, steven was raised as an outcast.

i agree with the notion that both greg and steven were both right and wrong in mr universe. i guess they both have that in common with rose lol

greg should have read the room better, realized that his pep talk wasnt the support and apology steven needed to hear. but steven shouldnt have acted out in the way he did. i get that’s the “theme” of steven’s spiral, maybe for the younger audience to better understand how steven is acting? but crashing his dad’s van that gregs been living in for like 20 years? fucking SHATTERING jasper? that’s going way too far to prove a point. it would have been better to maybe mirror story for steven, where marty and greg are arguing, marty is watching the road and they narrowly avoid hitting a car. but crashing the car could have been pretty serious, especially for greg. now jasper, that episode shouldnt have been approved. steven should not have shattered jasper. he fucking killed her. rose/pink didnt even shatter anyone. and if it wasnt for steven getting another superpower out of nowhere, jasper would have stayed that way. he should have just cracked her gem, poofing her in the process. the rest of the episode wouldve played out exactly the same.

anyways ive been writing this for like 2 hours but i feel better letting it all out. if you enjoy future keep enjoying it! it’s definitely more like a B+ compared to season 3-5′s general C-/D+. but please take into consideration future has some themes that people personally relate to, like mental health, and that you shouldnt shit on someone elses opinions that are based on their own personal experiences. especially if you dont have mental health issues, dont keep pushing your opinion and telling people that personally relate to future’s themes that they’re wrong? thats fucked up man

#suf #steven universe future #suf spoilers

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hob1tual-remade · 5 years

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alphabet tag

tysm for tagging me @hwagaemkt + @monjoonie 🥰

a // age: 16

b // birthplace: new york

c // current time: 3:32 pm

d // drink you had last: water

e // easiest person to talk to: my best friend

f // favourite songs: the songs on my favorites playlist rn are 나,나-the stray , wake up in the sky-gucci mane , lucky strike-troye sivan , u + i-JAIE , No Role Modelz-J. Cole , Gotta Go-CHUNG HA , and One of Those Nights-KEY but i listen to different songs every day lol

g // grossest memory: idk the grossest but one time i full on just stepped on a slug without realizing it and ewewew it was like between my toes ewewewewew im sorry ew

h // horror yes or horror no: horror movies are my favorite !!! i usually can’t pay attention long enough to other movies so i like the supsense n all that :)

i // in love: lol no idek what love is

j // jealous of people: i try not to be if i can help it? if that makes sense? but even when i do i would never ever in a million years show it

k // kids of your own someday: hopefully!! but not for a while lol

l // love at first sight or should i walk by again: i think you can be attracted to someone at first sight but not in lovelove

m // middle name: its grace and it is sooo ironic :)

n // number of siblings: none :(

o // one wish: literally to just be happy again, in whatever way that happiness wants to manifest itself, i’ll take it

p // person you last called: my dad

q // question you’re always asked: ‘are you okay’ cuz apparently instead of a resting bitch face i have a resting sad face but i swear im not actually sad im just thinking really hard about what im gonna eat when i get home

r // random fact about you: i know the entire ddu du ddu du choreo lol

s // song you last sang: shallow by lady gaga, it’s sooooo good

t // time you woke up: 7 bc my alarm didnt go off >:(

u // underwear colour: i wish i could say black but theyre just gray with white polka dots :\

v // vacation destination: spain!! or any spanish speaking country i guess! ive been learning spanish since i was 4 and ive had opportunities to go to places like puerto rico and colombia but i never actually did it and i really wanna know how well i can get by with the spanish i know

w // worst habit: cracking my neck bc sometimes it wont go and then i just look weird rolling my head around lol

x // x-rays: yeah i broke my thumb once

y // your favourite food: bananas, chocolate, and peanut butter yuuum! oh and oatmeal !

z // zodiac sign: saggitarius. also scorpio moon and cancer rising :))

i’ll just tag some of my mutuals💕: @joons-uwu @euphoriacancer @jhoppalover @bearjoonie @dontwonwoocry

#hobihoneey #tag game #☁️

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asexualzoro · 6 years

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list of reasons I find zoro ridiculous

after my similarly titled mihawk post took off I decided to make a zoro post, since he’s my second favorite character and also arguably the most ridiculous character in all of One Piece. here we go

- I know what you’re all thinking. i’m gonna open this list with how he wields three swords, right? no. no, Zoro has done so much ridiculous bullshit, this doesn’t even seem weird anymore. i don’t even bat my eye at this. this is nothing. now that i’ve got that out of the way, let’s begin

- this dude has like, an obsession with cutting off his own limbs? and MAYBE i can understand trying to cut his feet off when they were stuck in wax—you’re trying to save your friends, i get it—but what about when he was sword shopping in loguetown? who’s first response when buying a cursed sword and testing if it’s really cursed is “i’ll toss it in the air n see if I get amputated lol.” plus there’s that old filler where luffy gets his finger stuck in a bottle and, when he asks zoro for help getting it out, zoro tries to CUT IT OFF. im convinced he lost that left eye of his bc he got dust or something in it and then tried to stab it out

- there’s like, several occasions where Zoro has been directed to head up a staircase and gone some other direction. it happened in enies lobby and in dressrosa? like, what’s the dude got against stai—... oh, wait

- his reintroduction post timeskip. get on the wrong boat? just cut it in half! who even cares! how’d you even end up on the wrong boat? you had to walk towards that boat, which means looking at the boat. that boat looked nothing like the sunny, wouldn’t zoro have noticed that? he also has to make an effort to climb on, which means, you guessed it, looking at the boat! he probably sees the crew members, maybe even gets helped up by one or a few. how did he not at any point in time notice that wasn’t his boat?

- also when they landed on sabaody the first time and zoro was like “i’m gonna go take a walk!” and both Sanji and Usopp tried to stop him, talking to him like concerned parents of a troublemaking toddler, like “Zoro you can’t go out there you’ll get lost!” to which Zoro replies “yeah but the grottos are numbered, I can find my way back if I just remember the number!” and Sanji and Usopp are like “okay, solid logic, even YOURE not dumb enough to mess that up” and what does Zoro do? what does he fucking do?

- I want to emphasize he messes it up because a bubble covers the 4 in “Grotto 41” so he thinks it’s grotto 1. BUBBLES. ARE. TRANSPARENT

- “sorry, I don’t pray to god” fuckin edgelord

- Zoro’s epithet is “Pirate Hunter” and it’s super lame. he could’ve been “Demon of the East Blue” but they went with pirate hunter, even though he became a pirate. even Chopper’s is better than his lbr

- THERES A SCENE WHERE SANJI THREATENS TO PUT RAZOR BLADES IN ZOROS FOOD N ZOROS LIKE “do it u won’t” SO SANJI DOES AND ZORO JUST EATS THEM? ODA EVEN GOT ASKED ABOUT IT IN AN SBS AND CONFIRMED YES, ZORO DID IN FACT EAT RAZOR BLADES. THIS 2EDGY4U BITCH JUST. STRAIGHT UP. ATE RAZOR BLADES

- in film gold he wears that black jacket under the white one. mind you he had no way of knowing he would be trapped in gold by tesoro or that they’d all have a dramatic coordinated outfit change once he was free so what the fuck was he doing? why did he wear that? who wears two jackets for no reason?

- “if i’m gonna be a statue I want it to be in this pose” “i’m glad I struck a pose”

- remember when zoro fought mr. 1 in alabasta and mr. 1 dropped a stone building on him and he was just like “this is a rocky day” or smth equally awful? i hate him

- the tarzan yell in skypiea

- actually, the goggles too.

- didn’t he try to convince someone he was fighting they were sunglasses bc they had some blinding light-based attack? I feel like he did but I don’t remember skypiea well enough to be sure

- Zoro vs the bird in skypiea. spent a fair amount of the damn arc running around skypiea getting messed w by a bird (which, according to Luffy, was more evolved than Zoro bc it had developed a sense of direction. burned by ur own captain)

- when asked why Zoro was able to speak with a sword in his mouth, oda said “IT’S HIS HEART SPEAKING”

- that colorspread Zoro where he reads a book about weightlifting while balancing a weight on top

- when Zoro fights that masochist guy in film gold (I think his name was dice?) and said some cocky ass one liner after the guy fell unconscious that went something like “What's wrong? Didn't it feel good? Aren't you gonna scream in pleasure?" awful

- Zoro almost gets murdered by Mihawk and then, later that day, tries to take on fishmen underwater. others r like “you cannot handle this, you will literally die” and Zoro doesn’t even care bc Luffy is in trouble

- he was sailing bc he left home to find mihawk and then couldn’t figure out how to get back

- remember that filler where Zoro taught Luffy how to skate but then forgot to teach him how to turn. I love both that this happened and the implication that Zoro is a person who knows how to roller skate and therefore has spent time roller skating. Zoro roller skating backstory when?

- when Zoro was fighting oz, a 500 year old corpse, he licked his sword. now, on top of licking his sword being ridiculous as hell because, listen, there’s NOTHING cool about licking your sword. you just look like a loser. but a sword that just came out of a 500 year old corpse? really? i know it was preserved by the cold and all but there’s no way it didn’t rot at all. that’s a rotted, frozen corpse. Zoro what in the HELL were you thinking. I hope you get sick

- i’m sure it probably wasn’t even the first time he licked his sword in a fight but I will say with absolute confidence he looked like a loser every single time

- I feel like he licked his sword while facing mr 1 but I can’t remember. if he did, that’s honestly iconic. stare down a dude that’s made of swords while licking yours? power move. only decent time to kick your sword

- Zoro, joining Luffy: “if you stand in the way of my dream i’ll kill you!” Zoro, a day later: “of course i’ll carry my captain in this heavy cage on my back to safety. oh this gaping wound in my side? nothing. who cares about bleeding to death, my captain needs me!”

- all those big weights he’s got. all of them.

- especially that time he was lifting weights post thriller bark after barely surviving kuma, still heavily injuries, complaining about how weak he is. buddy...

- that time in drum island where he decided to train by going swimming in the freezing ice-country water, then when he got out he got lost in the snowy mountains until he wandered into a random battle and took out some guy just to steal his coat

- this isn’t the only time he steals some random dude’s coat

- the chimney.

- that filler in smiles lobby where he gets, like, abducted by a bunch of children for a day and integrated into their family?

- Roronoa Zoro went fursuiting in dressrosa and that’s a canon fact you all must acknowledge

- speaking of being a furry anyone remember mugiwara theater?

- THE FUCKING MUGIWARA THEATER NAMES. mugiwara theater is a gift, alright? here’s some: nakamura hanzorou. zobear. ZOROMILK

- I FORGOT TO MENTION. THAT TIME ZORO N USOPP WERE HANDCUFFED TOGETHER AND ZORO TRIED TO CONVINCE USOPP TO PLAY ROCK PAPER SCISSORS WITH HIM TO SEE WHICH ONE OF THEM WOULD HAVE TO CUT THEIR HAND OFF

- also the fact that his logic was “it’ll be fine cuz chopper can just sew it back on”

- can we also talk abt how later that fight he uses Usopp as a sword because holy shit Zoro

- this isn’t technically zoro’s fault but the guy who sold him his sword to him in loguetown has a giant version of bounty image up above his bath, which........

- barto asked for zoro’s autograph and Zoro just wrote “sword”

- the grave of the rumbar pirates was finished right around when Zoro woke up from his coma post thriller bark and Zoro decided to walk over while Brook is sitting there mourning almost everyone he ever loved and just. plops his sword—an inanimate object—in the dirt by the grave of BROOKS ENTIRE CREW like “hey i’m gonna bury this here u don’t mind tho right? cool”

- he’s lucky Brook is such a cool dude cuz if I was mourning the death of MY crew and some fuck decided to plant a rusty sword there i’d just fuckin kill em

- in Zou they were talking abt whatever and Luffy mentioned how Sanji was as strong as one thousand men and Zoro, clearly jealous that Sanji got praised by Luffy, butt in with a stuttery objection on how HE was stronger than Sanji and worth TWO THOUSAND men, which luffy ignored, and Nami had to reassure him that yes, Zoro, we know you’re strong. toddler

- this is also not technically zoro’s fault but one time someone asked oda in an sbs which strawhats would eat ice in their drink and oda answered who would n wouldn’t (Luffy, Chopper, Brook, Usopp, and Robin would, if ur wondering). Zoro was on the wouldn’t list, and some fan sent oda a letter informing him of a panel where Zoro was shown eating ice to disprove this. someone pulled zoro ice eating receipts on oda and that’s a fact we all have to live with

- the first time Zoro meets mihawk—the strongest man in the world, the man he wants to defeat someday, and incredibly powerful and impressive dude—he cries like a baby

- zoro’s been crucified like 4 times now. once in his introduction than in three movies (6, gold, nebulandia). idk why this keeps happening but honestly? keep it up

- when Brook joined the crew, Zoro said he was sorry for Brooks bad luck as if one of the first things Brook ever saw Zoro do wasn’t to try and die for the crew via Giant Paw Ball of Pain

- speaking of, i’m pretty sure half the reason zoro DIDNT die in thriller bark is because if he died via smth as silly as a giant paw ball his injured pride would kill him again

- I was going to make fun of Zoro for wearing only a suit and a fake mustache in dressrosa as a disguise but then I realized, like, given how absolutely shredded Zoro was in Punk Hazard and how that suit somehow managed to squish it all down without zoro ripping the sleeves off? solid disguise

- when merry was burning and everyone’s bawling and remembering great memories on the ship and Zoro was standing there, 100% stoic, remembering a nap

- Zoro saw marines (Garp) coming to Water 7 while Luffy was still unconscious and ran off to warn the others but couldn’t find his way back to the hotel

- that G8 filler where he falls off a cliff in pursuit of his swords

- speaking of fillers, remember that amnesia one? (ha). highlights include Zoro trying to physically fight a small sea horse (plus Usopp doing a bad lip-syncing) and Zoro swimming through the Grand Line with his swords tied to his head by his bandana

- meets a dragon, eats the dragon

- it got mentioned once that Sanji and Nami canonly help Zoro and the other guys get dressed. so every time Zoro wears something absolutely ridiculous (which is often), it’s probably Sanjis doing

- “I can’t believe I cut a freaking booger!!”

- speaking of, remember that time Luffy flicked a booger into Zoro’s drink at the Baratie and Zoro tried to force him to drink it?? remember that?? I hate them both

- that time Zoro was trying to find the Right Eye in Skypiea, said that (though the path to get there was STRAIGHT AHEAD) all he had to do to find the right eye was just keep going right (even though that would just lead him in circles!). and then after that do you know what direction he went?? do you know?? he fucking went left

- the time Zoro got lost walking on a straight path in a filler.

- Zoro lost to a guy in a fight and just fucking let the dude cut him in half. like, yes, the baratie scene was all cool as all hell and I love it but Zoro did in fact basically invite a dude to cut him in half

- when they were hit by negative hollows and everyone else said stuff that was kinda funny but Zoro went straight up “I don’t deserve to exist” please honey talk to someone

- he was fighting Kaku and kept engaging in Kaku’s devil fruit bs and then berating himself for being uncool as if he wasn’t already fighting a giant giraffe

- to end this list, I want to get to Zoro’s absolute worst offense. remember when Zoro fought Kaku and he did that asura form thing? where he straight up grew four extra arms and two extra heads, all wielding swords? what the FUCK was that? and don’t tell me “fighting spirit” alright. that’s bull. people don’t just GROW EXTRA SWORD-WIELDING BODY PARTS because they’re just REALLY INTO a FIGHT. like I know this is One Piece and shit’s ridiculous all this time but this? this is too much. even for One Piece this is too much. this is so ridiculous. there has to be a line, even in One Piece, with what these guys are allowed to get away with. I can accept haki so good you can see the future. I can accept spinning so fast you set your leg on fire. I can accept being made of springs. I can accept booger bombs. I can accept all that and more, but this? this is where i take my stand. Roronoa Zoro cannot keep getting away with this! fighting spirit is just not an explanation. and the worst part? the absolute worst part?

- Zoro makes four extra limbs and two extra heads, all armed with swords, MATERIALIZE out of THIN AIR with absolutely NO REAL EXPLANATION and then pretty much NEVER DOES IT AGAIN! he did it once in sabaody (and once in strong world) and then hasn’t done it since! everyone else uses the power ups they got in enies lobby all the time but Zoro, somewhere out there, knows how fuckin sick this attack is (bc yeah it’s ridiculous as hell but like I still enjoy it) and he just won’t do it again. not once post timeskip has he used it at all. Roronoa Zoro knows what he’s doing and he is out there, right now, laughing

- roronoa zoro is one of my top three favorite one piece characters and I make this list entirely out of love. (feel free to add on more moments I may have missed and i’ll add them)

#One Piece #roronoa zoro #Zoro #im making a tag for these lists and it is:#ridiculous lists #I love this man. hes awful and I love him #I also want you all to know ive had this list in my notes for like a month and ive been adding to it this whole time #roronoa Zoro is a piece of work #my posts

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bluinary · 6 years

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Tag game - Get to Know me!

I was tagged by @sonderous-opia . (check out her blog, her tags are a treat)

Name: Juli

Gender: Female

Star sign:Virgo

Height: 5′5

Sexuality: bi, maybe pan, who knows

What image do you have as wallpaper: my best friends on my phone, aesthetic filthy frank on my laptop

Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?: yah, and a professor

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?: probably dead

If you could be anywhere else right now, where?: school

What was your coolest Halloween costume?: I’ve had limited Halloweens (like 3 I think), so there’s not much to draw from, BUT I’m a theatre kid, and I made my own transforming dress when I played R&H’s Cinderella. I think it turned out very well.

What’s your favorite 90s show?: O O F. Probably Freaks & Geeks, or NGE.

Who was your last kiss?: Some guy named Brandon

Have you ever been stood up?: No

Have you ever been to Las Vegas?: only in passing.

Favorite pair of shoes: me ol’ boots

Favorite fruit: apples

Favorite book: East of Eden, John Steinbeck

Stupidest thing you’ve ever done: T H E R E A R E TOO M A N Y, but top five are:

Walking down a busy road, not realizing my dress was caught under my backpack and my granny panty-clad ass was in full view of every stranger for a solid fifteen minutes

Full-out wrestling/fighting (bc I threw punches) a friend 2x my weight in public (my tits fell out, so he won)

Walking up to a man in Hagrid cosplay and loudly shouting, “IS THAT MY NIGGA DUMBLEDORE”

Threatening to break my glasses if my class didnt stop laughing @me (they didnt, i broke em, I was 6)

screaming upon realizing a disabled man at a McDonald’s was not, in fact, a statue (and saying “yah” when he said he was ugly BECAUSE I DIDNT KNOW WHAT HE’D SAID)

Hogwarts House: Gryffindor, if u couldn’t tell.

Average hours of sleep : probs like,,,, 6 hours maybe less idk

Blankets you sleep with: two comforters, two light blankets, I cocoon

Favorite Bands: Gorillaz, Young The Giant, Coldplay, Fall Out Boy, fun.

Favorite solo artists: Shiloh Dynasty, Joji, Sarah Jeffe, Hannah Georgas, Daughter

Song Stuck in My Head: AAAAKUMA NO CHIKARAAAAA

Last movie I watched: The FMA live action (it was great!)

Last TV show I watched: I was showing my mom the live action version of Erased (which is also good! She loves it btw)

Why did I create my blog: there was Izaya/Namie fanart lo and once ago that looked nice, but when I clicked it, I was redirected to make an account. And it began.

What do I post: My blog’s a weird amalgamation of fandom metas/memes, normal memes, surreal text posts, my own sadboi posts, and my actual content that I create sometimes.

When did I create my blog: a little before my 13th birthday, so late-ish 2012.

Do I have other blogs?: I have my writing sideblog, as well as a few forgotten sideblog projects (like an anime mbti analysis blog that still gets asks, even though I haven’t posted in literally years).

Do you get asks?: Not really, except the obscure ones I just mentioned. Occasionally, though, I’ll get a prompt, some well wishes, or a v sweet message.

Following blogs: 1,504 blogs. I have attachment issues, you see,

Favorite colors: navy, maroon, and general muted autumn hues

Lucky numbers: I’d like to think 4 and 7.

Instruments: very little piano, even less guitar, and does the throat count

What am I wearing?: pale pink tee and a long, flowy white skirt (I always got compliments on this outfit at university, but it rly just means i havent done my laundry)

Dream Job: stage actress.

Dream trip: [chanting] Japan, Italy, Iceland-

Favorite Food: coffee. Unproblematic and comforting.

Nationality: American

Followers: 515 (and I still can only ever get, like, 6 notes on my art……..sigh……)

Reasons for your url: well, u see, i lik blue

I tag: @pickalilywrites @swinsword @jungianca6 @wonderinghopingdreaming @laura-arro-babbles @all-time-rper @sweetreikuri @someboredloser @annieleonhardt @askladarmin @runnin-out-oftime @spoilerarlert and anyone who wants to do this!

#about me #thank u for the tag!!#oh shit i havent taken my birth control for two whole days #sup im juli and im rly tryna pretend i dont have to go to work tomorrow morning lololololol

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littlebabycrybtch · 3 years

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ok ik bitches are still going to complain but i gotta rant to keep my shit together;;; ngl after being stuck co-raising two babies now i really feel genuinely Disgusted by unnecessary parent critique. like it actually makes me feel so viscerally upset and depressed when i remember nobody gets this or cares to and probably just wants to call out what im doing wrong, instead of lend me a hand to do it better. man im not treading lightly here the ‘no excuses’ mentality is literally Inhumane to parents and dehumanizes them as these superhumans, they arent, they are people trying to take care of themselves Plus One. there Are ‘excuses’ for not being perfect. just bc every child deserves perfect doesnt mean it can be given and that fucking SUCKS but that is one of the only times im comfortable saying; ‘thats just life’. you cant magically make life better for kids the way you think, you’re not a protector, you’re their Rock to teach them How to DEAL with what life brings, that means you’re allowed to struggle with it too. childcare is like this cosmic design to work you physically and mentally to the brink, fucking forget the normalization of how many people you think you’ve seen raise kids and done fine, it is harder than you can even fathom. they probably did not do fine behind closed doors. the parents with the best behaved and most obedient kids probably did harmful things to make them that way that will eventually come back to them, the parents with the happiest most well adjusted kids probably had the money to provide the extra care for that. there are ‘excuses’. idc if it fucking annoys you or w/e, i dont like being the bitch that says stuff nobody wants to hear, but you truly deeply cannot 100% understand unless you are raising kids, i dont say that to hurt your feewings or exclude you, i used to think that way, i say it bc when you see me passed out on the couch while my nephew gets into something dangerous, its because i got one hour of sleep that night while he kicked me in our bed for 4 hours. he cant help not knowing how that affects both of us, but i cant help being affected by it just cuz im supposed to be ~the big strong adult~, bc i am not a fucking xman. i CANT pretend it all away. while im sitting there napping im also waiting for my mental health meds to start working. im also dizzy from not eating. it sucks that he gets into shit sometimes. hes still gonna get into shit sometimes, and i can do my best, but if i sit here worrying that karens are gonna get pissed abt that and work myself even harder im gonna straight up explode. who does that help. who does me falling apart help. come babysit my kid for free if you wanna help me bitch!

parents are doing twice the work of a normal person while also teaching one of these people theyre caring for, how to BE a person. i used to be SO pro judging parents and im literally nauseated by the judgments now. “i cant believe this parent looked away and their kid got hurt, i cant beleive they just leave them there with a tablet or a snack or a toy while they nap, i cant believe they let them do that, i cant believe--” btich you literally have no idea how lucky you are that they are not both already dead. you are so lucky tehy are both alive and the parent isnt hospitalized for mental health or even physical exhaustion, or addicted to a stimulant (which includes caffeine), or using smth to relax like weed or alcohol (hello wine mom culture), or the kid isnt traumatized from watching their parent have repeatd breakdowns. that is literally better than most situations already. no matter how impossibly perfect the family could be in your mind, kids fuckin get hurt and they make mistakes and the PARENTS make mistakes bc theyre PEOPLE and yall this blows my mind that ppl dont realize this but,,,,, Little kids??? THEY DO NOT LISTEN TO THEIR PARENTS bc they essentially CANT..... for like YEARS there is a period they WILL NOT LISTEN TO YOU at ALL while they have the full autonomy and smarts and strength to cause horrible consequential problems, they are capable of learning how to circumnavigate your ‘babyproofing’ in new ways every single day, but they have ZEROOOOO MORALS OR CAUSE AND EFFECT SKILLS to understand RIGHT FROM WRONG, NO MATTER HOW OFTEN YOU TELL THEM!!!!! IT WONT CHANGE, ITS LITERALLY A PHYSICAL BRAIN THING THAT THEY CANT LEARN WHAT ‘NO’ MEANS FOR A WHILE YET!!! THIS CAN LAST FROM AGE 1 TO 4, SOMETIMES LONGER! THATS GENUINELY INSANITY INDUCING FOR THE ADULT WHOS KEEPING THEM IN LINE HUNDREDS OF TIMES A DAY, KNOWING ITS AMOUNTING TO ALMOST NOTHING UNTIL YEARS LATER!!!! IT DOESNT HELP WHEN PPL JUDGE YOU AND DONT BELEIVE YOU AND THINK YOU JUST ARENT ~TRYING HARD ENOUGH~! holy FUCK dude, idc if you wanna judge, im losing it bc i am being forced to keep my cool while a child whos pinching me and genuinely HURTING and BRUISING me laughs in my face bc he truly DOES NOT KNOW this, and there is NO WAY for me to convey it to make him stop at the moment!!!! thats maddening!!!

listen to me, neither of you dying or experiencing lasting damage is literally the goal every day, not just ‘raising them’, but that you both survive to the end of it. im appalled by how different the lifestyle is and the way ppl just... dont know that/REJECT that information so they get to judge. ofc tiny vulnerable innocent kids deserve the best, parents cannot always provide that if they want to Survive, bc they also deserve , basic understanding and humanity. you call out abuse all you want, theres a difference between the 'lesser of two evils’ choices, or even the genuinely Bad choices you can Accidentally make when at your wits end (which you should immediately correct anyways), and ever causing intentional physical or mental harm to the child, but the secodn yall start nitpicking or blatantly being ignorant to a struggle just so you get your blame validation in i literally cannot AFFORD to give you the time of day, im busy running on minutes of sleep, so if you think i have enough free time to entertain ur whining that my kids got a messy face and has been on his tablet in a highchair for an hour or w/e, idc, im using that time to shower for the first time in 2 weeks bc nobody else is gonna be there for me to let me do that shit :) so frankly put your money where your mouth is and help struggling parents whenever you can. i cant make shit better out of thin air.

“oh, but i dont have the money to help you.” YOU THINK IM AFFORDING CHILDCARE?? YOU CAN COME OVER AND HELP DIRECTLY WHILE I DO CHORES. “oh, but i dont wanna babysit for my friends, i dont like kids.” OH REALLY?????? OH YOU DONT LIKE KIDS??? BC THEYRE DIFFICULT MAYBE ??? SO MAYBE YOU SHOULDNT JUDGE WHEN ITS HARD THEN????? LIKE YOU RLY THINK JUST ‘LIKING THEM’ SUDDENLY MAKES IT EASY FOR ME?? YOU THINK ME FINDING MY NEPHEW CUTE AND LOVING HIM AND HIS LAUGHTER GIVES ME FUCKING SUPERMAN POWERS TO DEAL WITH THIS???????? “but You chose to have kids” rt in my case i literally didnt and would be homeless if not offering to help care for them but HEY COOL CONCEPT PRO CHOICE KINDA FUCKIN INCLUDES WHEN PEOPLE ‘CHOOSE’ TO HAVE KIDS EVEN WHEN THEY STRUGGLE AFTER, TOO LATE TO FUCKIN COMPLAIN NOW, JUST HELP A BITCH OUT. LIke... bro BRO b R O im losing it stop giving parents the inspiration porn treatment while disrespecting the actual struggles they go thru any time the child actually suffers bc they are unable to shield them from their struggle. can i be real, life literally will not go without struggle. you cannot raise them to have a life better than what the world is, you can do your best but you really cant MAKE it fair. once again this is not a ‘raise the perfect child’ contest you are just . trying to raise them at all. its messy. every single day you will have successes and failures, and you’ll be running on empty, and you’ll be doing that just to make it through to do it again tomorrow, while it slowly (AGONIZINGLY SLOWLY) gets easier each day. im tired of pretending lmao i dont wanna hear you bitches judge parents anymore, i dont wanna hear the stupid ass ‘im allowed to’ shit anymore dude!!!!! for gods sake i can agree with you when some shits just plain wrong but ill never apologize for standing up for myself or other struggling parents even if it makes you uncomfy, i can care about Both the child and the parent at the same time, ig i wont ask you why you seemingly cant. 😶 ESPECIALLY when things like classism and ableism tie in so often with these situations. not to mention racism like im white but hoooo if i hear one more story about a black parents ‘negligence’ in efforts of just trying to help their family, like leaving their kids somewhere during a job interview or w/e, vs the white parents that LET THEIR 10 YR OLDS WANDER AROUND MALLS BY THEMSELVES... im gonna scream. im gonna fuckin scream. its so unfair. fuck off, stop the spiteful ignorance, change this shitty hateful culture.

tldr; you Can care about kids while respecting parents, even when they arent perfect. you can advocate for children while also advocating for parents, and in fact, you should fucking try.

#vent/ //#might delete later ///#ok to rb but. i swear to god if this pops off and ppl whine...... literally L I T ER A LL Y come take care of my kids #NO BETTER YET BC ITS ACTUALLY FEASIBLE!! FOR EVERY COMPLAINT. 5 DOLLARS IN MY PAYPAL #SO I CAN AFFORD DAYCARE. LITERALLY IF OYU CLAIM ANY STUPID SHIT BC I ADMIT ITS HARD TO CARE FOR SMALL KIDS #U HAVE NO EXCUSE TO NOT PUT THAT FAKE BITCHY JUDGY CONCERN INTO ACTUAL RESULTS. THANKX #anyways on a real note again this is a vent moreso than a disc horse post thats meant to be shared around so #its not perfect its just. my feelings over the past couple years dealing w this man #really fuckin tired of it i really spent so many years 100% on the side of 'i have critical understanding i get to judge'#no i didnt. no you dont. its not comprehensible till you're pushed to your own limit with childcare. i hate being that btich #cuz nobody wants to hear it. but its the truth swallow it #long post //

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thattaekwondoblog · 4 years

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My Martial Arts Story (TKD)

2020.04.26

today i miss my dojang extra... i woke up from a dream where i was supposed to spar but didnt have my dobok?? and one of my instructors handed me a.. dobok skirt?? and i was like? and he was like yeah u right this isnt gonna work sdbsmdfjsdd i dont really ever have tkd dreams (i think bc i usually am always doing tkd) but since i stopped for a bit the dreams are coming out. it made me miss sparring so much :( so below i wanted to talk about my tkd story in more detail. Enjoy!

i've actually always been a martial arts nerd, but moved around/focused on studying too much to commit to one until recently. I was talking to my mom the other day and neither of us can really remember what got me into it. I just remember wanting to be able to defend myself and be/feel strong from a very young age, and i knew martial arts was a way to do that. As a girl I also received a lot of messages that my gender was ‘weak’ and needed ‘protection’, which i really didnt like (it made me hate being a girl for some time). This is why i wanted to try martial arts. I discovered taekwondo when I was around 10 years old at a small dojang in my hometown. I loved the school & the master, who I remember always had a bamboo stick he would play around with when the kids started being rowdy (he never hit anyone, it was just his way to say ‘dont fck with me’ haha). but had to stop going after yellow belt because i was the oldest out of all the kids and i tried to go to adult classes for a while but i remember not liking it because it was ‘too slow’ for me and my mom couldnt drive me to late night classes. I was swimming a lot at the time too (fun fact i almost competed in synchronized swimming as a kid but had to stop due to illness (am totally fine now and it wasnt bad dont worry)).

I didn’t do any martial arts in middle school, and only had brief encounters when i started high school. I dabbled in kick boxing (which i still love) through an intense week long training while i was on holiday with family, and then did a bit of karate, for which sadly i had not such a great experience with the instructor which made me distance myself from the sport. The instructor brought up a heavy personal life event during class and i broke down (what did she expect i was like 15 and that event was really hard). When my mom picked me up, she shook her head to her and said ‘girls...’ in a very demeaning way, as if me crying because she re-awoke trauma was a result of ‘feminine weakness.’ i have not forgiven that person for that comment yet. she shouldn’t be a teacher if she treats students like that in my opinion. High school was very competitive and intense so i focused on studying and didnt really do sports then.

In college I really want to do more martial arts, but the lack of proper clubs or instructors made it difficult. I then went to study abroad in seoul and thought to myself if i dont try tkd again in the literal birthplace of the sport what am i doing with my life. i had good experiences with classes at uni; the two masters i had had very different personalities (one was very outspoken and funny while the other.. you could FEEL the power of tkd when he touched your arm slightly to place it correctly sdhfskdj he was very nice though). I had to stop because i was focusing on my academic projects though.

i then graduated and moved to the city, where finally there were plenty of martial arts opportunities! the first thing i did after moving to the city, even before moving into my apartment, was to visit my current dojang. i audited a class and in my head was like ’oh my god i MUST join them right now give me a dobok let’s GO’. I signed up for classes that day. The dojang master (my dad. my father, the love of my life (in the most platonic way)) was a seoulite (we bonded over that) and realized I hadn’t started my job yet so he gave me a discount, which i felt incredibly surprised by and grateful for. I started lessons the next day. at my dojang beginners usually get 3 private classes at the beginning to get the basics down before joining the group. after my first, the instructor said that i was probably ready to go with the group if i felt comfortable doing so bc i already had basics. i went every day until i moved into my apartment, when i had a mental and physical breakdown and got really sick for a week (like.. i dont remember feeling this weak and sick my entire life).

But thankfully i got better and pushed myself to go to dojang again. and it was hard. it was the summer and i hadnt used my body really in years, if ever at that level of practice. three times a week as Difficult for me, physically. i remember being frustrated that my ego wasnt satisfied haha (i thought i remembered a lot more than i did). but i loved the instructors a ton and practice was a great safe space/stress relief for the other sht that was going on my my life. I do remember that i was ready to graduate from white belt and start feeling better about my moves by the end of that summer (i was pretty frustrated that i couldnt do higher level moves, though mostly at myself).

i finally got yellow stripe and tkd things went uphill from then. i got to know ppl at my dojang better, started to go to practice more progressively. I got my yellow belt and decided then that i wanted tkd to always be in my life as much as possible. I started going to practice every day or almost every day. my tkd friendships were developing, there were small disagreements too but overall i fell more and more in love with my instructors, the dojang master (again, my dad) and the sport. we laughed so much, sweat so much, lived well.

after green stripe, my self consciousness during practice spiked a bit more than usual. this is probs bc my life outside of tkd was stressful and i was looking at my friend fellow tkd members who were higher level more. i wasnt jealous of them, far from it, i just felt small compared to what they were able to achieve and felt bad that the instructor had to stop to explain the technique to me Again. in case it wasn’t clear, i am no prodigy; i learn slowly and with long consistent practice. the two disagreements i had with my closest member friends (two separate very different reasons; we kept things civil on both sides but having to deal with that was a new experience for me so i wasnt great at it haha) didnt help my anxiety shut up during practice. i still kept at it. in january my school has an attendance challenge where you win prizes if you go every day or more than 20 days out of the month. I almost made it, but got really physically tired & kinda sick 3 days before then end of jan and had to miss one session. i was also mentally drained by life stuff so i decided to prioritize grad school applications and did less tkd in february. but that experience of going every damn day was so fun; i realized I needed to do this so much more. if there was a tkd seminar where they send you off somewhere to to tkd for like 3 months i would be down. that is when i realized my love for the sport, and the significant changes in my body that had been occurring over the past months really revealed themselves. i hear you thinking there’s no way i could fall more in love with my instructors but guess what... spending every day with them really made the love Explode dudes. In jan and fed i also really started loving sparring, even though im not great at it.

and then... march came. i got lucky to have been able to celebrate my birthday a few days before they decided to close my state down. at first i was still able to go to my dojang with smaller classes and different format of classes that respected health guidelines, but eventually everything was moved online. during that week of limited classes, i got to hang out with friend members and instructors for what would be, unbeknownst to me, one of the last times. one night after (6 feet no contact) starring, me, 2 friend members who also went very frequently and an instructor had a beer on the mats just talking and chilling. we said that we would do it again the week after. and then the state decided to shut down small businesses. i was helping the dojang transfer their classes to an online format with another student for a week (we two were the members with the highest attendance in the recent times), but then the instructors decided they should not let students come in anymore.

i was angry, i was sad, i was devastated. it was the sound solution to take and all these closings are essential and needed for public health safety, but emotionally i was not ready to let go of the dojang. i was angry at the circumstances for taking away the one thing that i truly loved and kept me going all those months of less than ideal job situation and lost of existential questions. the dojang had been my challenge, my rock, my family. i was especially angry because i had to mourn the loss of it a lot earlier than i wanted; i was already supposed to leave in june of this year. the closer june came the more teary eyed i got when i thought of leaving the dojang, but after the news i had to stop going now... i broke down. i cried so hard and loudly, alone in my room. i realize now it was the first time in my life that i cried because of love. pure, unaltered love. i thought to myself ‘how lucky is it that i felt this amount of love for something and some people’. ive moved a lot in my life but rarely felt sad when leaving a place; i often had made my goodbyes and knew it was just time to go. there were few or no things keeping me back, or i knew i would find those things somewhere else. it was also the first time i had let myself fall in love with something and people only for me. i love studying and learning for example, but when i started doing it it was mostly to make my mom and family happy, not for me. i didn’t feel like i had had a passion that i completely gave in into, a truly ‘me’ thing no one asked me or expected me to do but i just did not to have a better resume or be perceived better by society. until tkd.

now, i am still following online classes but mostly have my own training routine because it’s still hard to deal with the emotional stuff; i dont really do to live classes cause it hurts. it probably sounds strange but ive already done the emotional work of distancing myself to make the leaving less difficult. i also didnt really like the the idea of practicing in my room in front of the camera. seeing the other students on zoom would also make me feel v sad. im slowly getting out of that state of mind though and might start taking online classes again in a bit when i can’t do my regular training routine. im not sure when things will go back to normal but before i leave i will definitely send them gifts and goodbye messages, probably by mail. but yeah as of now i mostly follow my dojang’s videos, do my practice routine, and scroll through tkd tricking videos on instagram to keep motivated.

it’s kind of a sad note to end on but my tkd story does not end here. wherever im headed next I will find another dojang where i will continue to practice. i can only hope it is half as good as the family i found here. and of course now I have this blog! and will continue nerding out about kicking endlessly hahaha.

thanks for reading if you made it this far! you can ask me questions if you’d like! also tell me your tkd story!! its so cool to hear how life lead people to kicking.

#tkd #taekwondo #life story #story #martial arts #kicking #sports #tkd story #me #mind #origin story #lol #taekwondo story #martial arts story #budoblr

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chaekkung · 6 years

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what's ur fave hyungwon day mine is that one day from fighter era where he was wearing that blue sweater and he was like literally deliriously tired and he rapped sober by big bang what a day he didn't even know what he was doin he was so tired n happy

KASDHFDS THE ICONIQUE (neck)STRIPED BLU LONG ASS TURTLENECK YESAJSDFGHDJS THAT MADE ME SO HAPPIE HE WAS HAVING THE TIME OF HIS LIFE BEING A DORK .asdfjk. omg. he was so into it i was smiling so hard ‘idk what im doing here but imma have a good time’ mc chae never disappoints jjljajdfj ended all rappers tbh nd not to be lame but every single day that man breathes is my fave day his existence just makes me the most blessed and happiest person in this world !!!

but, imma still list a few from the top of my head:

his counseling session!! :( god i never talk about this but honestly it helped me through a lot.. what he said about finding happiness really spoke to me?? like thats really how i look at life now. he said that even a little thing can give us so much happiness in life and a reason to live nd hes right :/ stop looking for a reason nd just wait !! happiness will come 2 u. and for me my happiness is him did he kno that :/ and the entire session just made me smile so much… he’s such a straightforward and honest person, and he can joke so cutely too!! hyungwon is the simple type who just views and takes things as they are and its really reassuring :-( hes such a genuine person, someone you just want to be around because you’ll feel so at ease… his good nature and heart is such a blessing to the people around him. they’re so lucky to have someone like him in their life who you can always count on for anything :(( hyungwon’s actually a really mature person when it comes to life values nd like.. serious topics and i think its rlly attractive and this session just showed his honesty and ability to communicate w everyone & sugarcoating stuff gufhdf god i really love that about him. he isnt afraid to speak his mind when he can, and he’s become more confident in speaking in general,, i kno hes trying his best and its really endearing to see.. he really tries his best in everything,, ok i digress but yeah this made me love him even more,,, i rewatch this more times than u’d think :////

ok so 170722 when he finally showed after his injury nd was at the airport by himself,, and all his fansites were there to welcome him back :(( i was crying like a lil btch that day even more than when i cried the day i found out about his injury… it was 2 whole ass weeks and we didnt hear anything about him or his condition and i was so stressed it was the worse two weeks of my life i was so depressed and it was a Bad Time. it really felt like two years it was the worst… and when he came back looking all soft w his white tee and black pants and soft hair i just mclost it wtf!!! i was so fucking happy nd seeing him all better and just seeing his face,,, god i could have won The Happiest Person in The World award bc i fking was . ill never forget that day :-(

also… every single h.one day. especially for mix and the city.. bitrhds i nutted 50 gallons that day holy dfucdfj btich when he drank from the champagne glass i fucking lost it again it was so h*t and also he sang on stage i rlly fucking cried i wa-ssk a mess that day.. he looked so hot in all black hoyksffuck he was just having a good time i was happie :((( god :((( when he DJs and licks his lips and shit it rlly shaves 66 years off my lifespan. also not to get emo now but im rlly proud as fuck like it hasnt even been a year and my boy is racking up these solo schedules like nothing nd for world dome korea icb he was rlly in the same fking venue as marshmello nd martin garrix liek hoyl sfuck who did that?? hyungwon did that. :/

also nimble… god he was having so much fun :( i’ve watch those episodes like 500 times each and i never get tired of it,,, and mxray… the entirety of it… esp the nail salon ep he rlly Let Himself Go asdfjdks it was so cute… and his vlives… all 3( kinda 3..) solo lives.. i…. wanted to die watching it every single time bc hes so fucking cute and soft and bf hes….. my Soul

and 170701,,, pretty much the most important and best day in my entire 20 years of life….. when i saw him in person :( listen like my entire universe made a 180 i really rebirthed as a new person that day. hes even more beautiful and wonderful and perfect in real life if thats even possible…. god i cried nonstop in a starbucks after it and ill never forget it :/ …. listen i screamed so much and professed my love im sure he heard me one of those times and he waved at me too ok i swear at that moment my heart rlly shot outta my eyes thru his eye socket and into his chest cavity,, and it was then i realized wow… bitch u were rlly born to love this man and this man only

ok let me shut up now yeah this was suppose to end when i said every day is my fave day but i felt stupid for saying that so,, ,there im sorrie this is a lot nobody asked but…. u guys kno im rlly Extra 4 hyungwon :/

#replies #long post #now im emo im gonna go watch his vlives again #theres probs a million typos in this...#im sleep deprived :-(

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empathetic-cowboy · 4 years

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I honestly want to read all of your answer for those asks. 1-40? Or those you like the most c:

UHM HONESTLY THIS IS MY FAVOURITE ASK EVER !!!!!

Because I don’t have time to answer all 40, I’m going to give you TEN randomly picked questions from the list and answer below ~!

(thank you random number picker!!!!)

AND BE WARNED – THIS WILL PROBABLY GET LENGTHY.

40. Do you think the movies did the books justice?

Yes and no. I will stand forever and die on the Catherine-Hardwicke-Did-It-Best hill. Above them all, I’d say that Catherine captured the essence of the books the most accurately. Maybe it’s the blue filter, I don’t know, but she got that creepy/sad/romantic Forks vibe that drew me into the series in the first place. She really got the perfect balance of romance, action, fantasy, high school, the whole thing. So yeah, I think she did a great job with the books. Chris Weitz did alright with New Moon – I love the brownish, jacob-y vibe, I think they adapted the script well and did a fan-fucking-tastic job on the soundtrack too, so that one would be my second favourite book-to-movie. The other two? Eh. I think they lost something that the books had. Eclipse WAS my favourite when it first came out but watching them now, I feel like the last three movies are just missing something wonderful that the first two movies and the first three books (sorry bd) had.

28. How would you personally rewrite Twilight?

For those of you who haven’t seen it, I have a bit up on my personal twilight rewrite idea up here! It’s a little bare bones in terms of what I’d do with breaking dawn, but I can elaborate on that here!

Going with the rest of my switch-new-moon-and-eclipse-au, I’d have Bella changed and conflicted starting in BD. I think it would be SUPER interesting to have the main conflict be something to do with the volturi and the shape shifters. Maybe the clan and the pack finally join forces bc Bella is changed but still loves her Jake, but out in the world shapeshifters are showing up dead at the volturi’s hand or something ??????? and they need to band together to save the wolves and Jake before the volturi eliminate the species altogether.

Could be interesting, IDK. There’s a lot less renesmess and an opportunity still for Jake to meet Benjamin so I’m all for it.

37. What’s your perspective on Twilight now compared to when you first read it?

I think about this all the fucking time.When I first read Twilight, it was just before the first movie came out in 2008. I was almost twelve years old, and dumber than most twelve year olds, lbr. I didn’t see any issues in the book. I thought it was novel (pun intended), and romantic, and Hell, come Breaking Dawn I was even all aboard the Nessie train. I was SM brainwashed, kind of. I trusted our author. Coming back to Twilight in 2019 was a literal fucking shock to the system. I watched the movies for the first time in like five years, and was utterly shocked by the ample fucking problematic shit I noticed in every fucking scene. What hurt the most? Realizing my favourite character was the worst fucking show of racist propaganda in the entire goddamn series. I got angry when I watched the series again for the first time. I didn’t want anything to do with it. I felt ashamed, honestly. I felt bad looking at the piece of media, and seeing how twisted and disgusting and wrong so many parts of it were. But then I went online. I knew Twilight was becoming a thing again, and I didnt understand how such problematic media worked in this day in age, so I was curious to see what the discourse was like. Guys, I’m so fucking glad I did. There’s something so nice about being able to clearly see and discuss issues in this saga, while still appreciating that it digs into your nostalgia and has the opportunity to be so much bigger and better than SM ever intended. I love signing on here and seeing someone discuss our HCs – seeing how people take these characters and stretch and shift and mold them to embody what the world looks like today. I love coming here to read about favourites portrayed as characters of colour, or how said characters could be portrayed as trans, or nb, or gay, or how this character could be better shown as A, B, C – you catch my drift. It’s not just that, either. It’s not just the changes that I appreciate, either.

There’s something about acknowledging the things that can’t be changed within the original text – starting conversations about the treatment of native characters, discussing the portrayal of females presenting characters, working through SM’s religious biases – that not only helps me appreciate what this text should have been / can be now, but seriously, has helped me learn a lot along the way. I’m a very faulty white girl. Coming here and learning new perspectives from people who are impacted by specific biases / choices made in this series has been one of the most eye opening experiences I’ve had online. And that’s another thing – I’ve never once been criticized for still having so much to learn, un-learn, or understand from a different perspective. The people in this fandom (so far – I feel very lucky) have been more than open in discussing their criticisms, concerns, and understandings in a way that makes me feel welcome, and encouraged to learn/understand more. It’s a super inclusive fandom – freakin’ rare to see – but it’s also the kind of fandom that isn’t afraid to see its own faults – that’s even more rare. We’re all aware of our fandom’s problems, and we aren’t afraid to talk about them, or acknowledge the fact that SM’s beliefs aren’t a reflection of US. It’s special. It’s amazing. It’s why I’ve stuck around for almost a year now.

3. Fave headcanon brotps?

Oh, dude. Seth / Edward Jake / Emmett Emmett / Paul Charlie / Billy Bella / Emmett Rose / Leah Carlisle / Sam Alice / Jake

30. Which characters do you wish had their own spinoffs?

Oof. I think it would be SUPER interesting to have a whole spin-off series just on the wolves, actually! Not one in particular, but I think the whole world of shapeshifters could and SHOULD be explored more deeply!!!!!In terms of specific characters: Alice (duh), Carlisle (take me back to the 1800s or some shit show me his life in the volturi!!!!!), Leah Clearwater (she’d be my wolf-pack-spin-off main character).

15. Top 5 fave vampires?

IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER:

Alice, Jasper, Esme, Emmett, Rose.Yeah, they’re all Cullens. Suck my Olympic-sized dick.

9. Astrology sign headcanons for the Cullens?

YEEEEEEEES. I am very stuck in my opinions for these, and I’m not sure why. It’s pointless, but I care VERY DEEPLY. Carlisle: Capricorn Esme: Pisces Edward: Gemini / Cancer cusp is perfect for this S.O.B.Bella: VirgoRosalie: ScorpioEmmett: Sagittarius Alice: Aries Jasper: Taurus (but I go back and forth on Jasper daily so ask me again tomorrow)

13. Hogwarts house sorting headcanons for the wolf pack?

I’ve never considered this before, so this is first-instinct. Sam: Slytherin Paul: SlytherinEmbry: Gryffindor Quil: GryffindorJake: Gryffinpuff?? the man is brave, but he’s loyal to a GD fault. I think that might just be the wolfy traits comin’ through though. Leah: RavenclawSeth: Hufflepuff(just doin’ these guys to keep it simple)

20. Pick a character you wish deserved a better fate (that wasn’t death).

Bree. Fucking. Tanner.

Any chance I get to write something, I add in a redemptive arc for Bree Tanner because I can’t for the life of me understand out of all the characters why fucking SM decided to kill the one that DEFINITELY deserved a fucking soft and perfect life.

Fuck you SM, Bree is alive and well.

1. Fave wlw ships?

!!! YAY !!! Leah / Angela Bella / Rosalie Carmen / Esme AND THEN JUST BECAUSE I CAN: Edythe / Bella Jessamine / Alice Carmine / Esme Julie / Leah Julie / Bella

#holy shit anon this was SOMETHING #honestly I love you ????/#please strangers come read and comment on my personal opinions tell me I'm right #bETTER TELL ME I'm WRONG LET'S DISCUSS IT #answered #twi asks #Anonymous

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queenreginascontour · 7 years

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Any tips for being homesick at college? It's been a month and I'm having kind of a hard time

ya totally !!!! i’m always happy to help but i just want u to know that idk ur situation, but i personally don’t go to college too far away from my home (it’s out of state, but about a two hour train ride back). so, i’m not sure how good my advice will be if u life across the country, but i hope it still helps !!!! i’m a freshman and i’ve also been in school for about a month, just for context. gonna put this under the cut bc it might get long.

my number one tip would be to wait at least a month before going home. i knew this going in, but still went home about two weeks in. i’m a pretty independent person, i’m not too attached to my hometown, and i’ve been away from my family for long periods of time before college, so i thought it’d be no biggie. but, going home that weekend was the first time i’d felt homesick. being home made me homesick- it was weird to live out of a suitcase in my own home. i locked myself in my room and started sobbing as soon as i walked inside. don’t get me wrong, i love my college and had by no means been having a bad time, but i think that it was so early that i had not had enough time to adjust to college life yet, and coming home just reminded me of all the things i was missing- my dog, sleeping in a room with just myself, having alone time, driving, food, a sink that had knobs and didn’t need to have a hand constantly waved in front of it to release water. the week after that weekend was kind of a disaster- for example, i was off campus one day and went to the maps app to put in directions for something. u kno how it always shows how long it would take to get home from ur current location ? since arriving to college, that banner had always read something along the lines of “2 hours to get home.” that day, i noticed that it said “38 minutes to get home,” was greatly confused, and realized that maps had begun to recognize my campus as “home.” i deadass had a panic attack bc of that shit. that being said, i’m actually home for columbus (ew) day weekend right now, and i’m having a totally different experience. i’ve had adequate time to adjust and i actually kind of miss college right now. so, if you’re in the position where you can go home readily, wait at least a month. also, remember that your home will always be your home, no matter what apple maps says. your home is your home, but college can become home too.

i also want to stress the importance of keeping busy and going off campus. i kind of blacked out and signed up for like half the shit at the club fair. i obviously didn’t stick w all of them, but some good did come out of it- for example, i’m writing for an (actual) blog and i got a job “teaching” a class at the high school across the street from my campus. these two things in particular have kept me pretty busy, and i think it’s really good to have things to occupy urself other than schoolwork. i’m also p shy around new ppl and have never made the first move in any kind of friendship or relationship, but those things and clubs have helped me meet a lot of cool ppl, and it’s deffo important to have people to talk to to help w homesickness !! holing urself up in ur room will have the opposite effect and just worsen ur homesickness. sidebar: if u want another post abt being an introvert in college, i can deffo make one.

go off campus !!! im lucky (or unlucky, depending on the person) enough to go to school in a big city, so i can literally go on the subway, get off at a random stop, and find something to do. even if ur in a smaller town, go out and explore ! not only will it keep u from feeling trapped in ur campus, it will help u make ur college town ur second home. find a restaurant that u love and can confidently recommend to people when they visit, become a regular at a coffee shop. also, find little hidden nooks and crannies- off campus or on- that can become ur “spot.” going to school in a big city, i really wanted to find some undiscovered gems where i could just go to chill for a bit and get out of all the noise and the pervasive smell of halal, roasting nuts and sewage. i wandered around one saturday and found some places to call my own, and it’s really helped make college feel more like my second home.

eat !! im still working on this one tbh. im getting better, but for most of my days in school, ive consumed less than 1000 calories per day as a result of being too lazy to go get food, not wantjng dining hall food, and not having anyone to eat with. this is not healthy !!!!! ive had terrible headaches and had trouble focusing in classes. it made me feel shitty about college in general. it’s not high school anymore- it’s perfectly acceptable to eat alone. it can even be kind of nice after being around people constantly. try to establish a routine, at least for dinner, so it feels more homey.

decorate ur room !! u wont feel at home in a white shoebox. put up posters, pics of ur fam and friends, pics of ur pets.

if you have one/some, bring a stuffed animal !! i have a stuffed rabbit that i’ve had since i was a baby, and i brought him. i kind of hid him at first, but i eventually noticed that my roommate and a lot of other ppl have one too and we had a good laugh about it. there’s no shame in it ! everybody wants a little comfort.

if u want to, don’t be afraid to call/facetime ur parent(s)/guardian(s)/hometown friends/siblings/anyone u love !!! i didnt at first bc i didnt want to look weak. but there’s no shame in it- literally everyone does it or wants to. plus, hearing from u would make ur people’s day, i promise !

remember, whether they show it or not, everyone feels a little homesick and out of place in college. sometimes, it goes away in the first week, but for others it could last for both semesters. it’s ok to feel how ur feeling. i know these are kind of generic tips, but i hope this helps !!! i love u, and im always here if u want to talk !!!!! good luck b !!

#ask #i hope this helps i might add more idk ????#college #mayb ill do more college posts if yall need them ??????

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cosmochasm · 7 years

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tell us about sa !!!

OKAY SO this ended up being way longer than i ever expected because i couldn’t stop talking about it and i have a lot of #thoughts tbh

@kt-bergs

first things first, it was a very small community theater production, the entire theater was pretty small, the stage and everything, and also it was the closing performance and so. Emotions were high for a lot ofit

secondly, the stage design was ?? so great. like i’ve watched a lot of productions of sa on yt and stuff, local and broadway, and i’ve never seen a stage designed like this. basically, the front of the stage was just basic, like wood that you walked on and it never really changed but most of the stage was built over a shallow pool of water with panels of differing sizes they could move and make it look like different locations and stuff etc, where the water would be visible sometimes and other times, like at the very beginning, you don’t even realize it’s not a normal stage. all of the panels could stack up on top of each other too to create like. higher parts of the stage?

also they had branches all throughout the top of the stage and hanging down off of the front over the audience. the aisles were used a l o t because this was a small theater. i sat right next to wear they came from back stage to go up/down the aisles with a big shit eating grin on my face for most of it, im sure most of them saw me lmao.

oh and they had people playing bobby maler/greta as well

i guess i’ll just do? a song by song rundown bc idk how else to do it tbh

mama who bore me wasn’t spectacular. it wasn’t bad, just nothing new tbh but wendla was fantastic

all that’s known and the scene leading up to it really didn’t have anything new either. moritz was good but since when do i think a moritz is bad tbh. melchior is really angry tbh. bobby brings him a mic on a stand instead of him pulling it out of his jacket

the bitch of living was so good tbh it all went dark except for moritz, who had a purple spotlight on him, and then as the rest of the boys joined they had rainbow spotlights. they pulled mics out of their jacket so im not sure why melchi didn’t in all that’s known but im ok with it. the spotlights were solid colored at first, but then they switched back and forth between being grungy-textured (i really dont know how to explain this tbh but it was like dotted shapes and stuff) and solid colors and thats mostly what i focused on lmao.

when melchior joined in, they had lined up all their school chairs on the right side of the stage in a diagonal and faced him as they sang. they mention bobby maler and the guy who’s credited as bobby barely even reacted like they could have done more if they were going to bother casting a bobby.

my junk was pretty average too, except georg didnt have a piano and he just mimed playing piano on a table, but this is also where u see the first panel move bc of the water and i didn’t realize it was water at first, i just thought there was an opening in the stage tbh but then they removed a second panel at the end so there was like,,, a split in the center of the stage and u could see the reflectiveness of the water

the scene before touch me was so good tbh. when moritz talks about the “labia majora” (he didn’t pronounce it wrong which bothers me but its a character choice i guess so w/e) and frau gabor walks in he doesn’t notice at first and keeps going until he finally sees her, jumps a foot in the air and quickly sits on it. when he starts talking about the essay again after she leaves, he takes it out and dramatically checks to make sure she’s not coming back (like he leaned all the way back in his over his chair to check backstage)

moritz and melchior’s dance in touch me isn’t super gay at first. melchi just leans over the table and touches moritz’s hand while he’s feeling himself (as he does) and then moritz leaves. but when moritz comes back, he’s on the other side of the water divide and he and melchi grab each others arms over it and dance. pretty gay.

also in the scene where moritz is like “i passed!” he runs up the aisles and when he gets to the stage he leans up against the wall and it was really cute im still not over it but then when georg is like “are you sure”(i dont know if that’s the exact line but i have no memory ur lucky i remember this much) he does this like. weird tone of voice and when moritz says “yes im sure” he makes a face at georg and mocks his tone of voice. which is also cute and im still not over

the word of your body was pretty stationary tbh, but instead of having some chairs be a tree, they used a spotlight outlined like a tree

during the dark i know well, martha played acoustic guitar and it was so good im

(also by this point the stage was returned to just being a stage, like without the water parts) the beating scene was pretty typical as far as i remember. nobody laughed (thank god)

during moritz and his father’s scene, i’ve noticed a lot of productions don’t make it seem as serious as it could/should be but here it definitely was. moritz was audibly slapped multiple times and slams moritz down into a chair in the front of the stage.

frau gabor is brought out with a table and a chair across from him and he angrily sings and then there were none directly at her. the boys don’t come out and surround him, u just hear their voices but it highlights his thoughts and how he’s isolated

they didn’t have a hanging platform for mirror blue night. but the choreo made up for it tbh like it was still weird choreo but the boys are more incorporated liked they picked melchior up and held him above their heads and then when they put him down, they grabbed him until he shoved them off. idk it was cool but hard to describe.

i believe was typical as far as i remember tbh. they had chairs stacked up in the center and my mom was like “what’s that for” and i was like “i have no idea” but we guessed that maybe it was a hay bale to represent the hayloft. melchior put off more rapey vibes to me here than in some productions. also they didn’t unbutton wendla’s shirt but melchior ripped his off and underneath he was jacked and tbh i wasn’t ready i was sh ook and its all i thought about for most of intermission.

the guilty ones: the stage now has platforms moved so there’s a space of water on each side and a raised platform following it. the middle of the stage is normal level so it’s like there’s a step on each side. melchior and wendla were in the front and center, and interspersed throughout the stage were all the boys and girls paired off into four groups.

two groups of 2 girls + 1 boy, a group of a girl and a boy, and a group of two boys (but im like? pretty sure it wasn’t hernst so idk. i think i was georg and bobby but i? couldn’t see their faces very well). all the groups were like feeling each other up and kissing while they sang.

moritz comes in and i don’t do sadness starts out pretty typically. but when he stomps you can feel it bc the space is small so angst x10. when ilse comes on she looks like she’s just wondering through town, she pauses and looks at moritz for a sec and then she’s like “moritz??” and moritz runs all the way across the stage to hide from her on the steps so she can’t see the gun. he also moves her standing mic on stage when he comes back on.

he and ilse sit in the center part and interact before she sings blue wind. the whole time she’s singing blue wind, moritz stays sitting and looks super conflicted but mostly like he’s about to just lose it crying. then they both sing. while they’re singing u know they both typically face forward and they do that some but they also ran at one another and sang directly at each other, holding their hands out towards each other but not touching.

then as he’s telling ilse bye again, his voice is cracking like he really really wants to go with her but he’s just... done. ilse storms off and the suicide monologue is awful bc moritz’s voice is cracking the whole time and im dying in the theater. after moritz shoots himself, he runs off stage right.

martha and melchior come out and are upper stage left. martha has a guitar and is sitting on the ground. her guitar case is sitting in front of her. melchior has a standing mic. moritz’s dad is upper stage right and is reading a letter, getting progressively more upset.

and moritz is in the center, on a raised platform in front of square of water. he’s got his school notebook and is writing in it and he’s in a pool of white light and he looks happy. as they bring their flowers up, each person stops and looks at moritz, some reaching out for him, before walking up in front of martha to drop their flower in her guitar case. as more people come up, moritz starts laughing and playing in the water, splashing it at first and then jumping in (the water is super shallow like feet deep) and he starts throwing the water on himself and washing his face with it and stuff.

then eventually moritz leaves. when he does, otto and georg take the platform and set it on top of the water he was playing in, like. sealing his grave. (and there’s me, in the theater, REALLY dying)

at the end of left behind everyone lined up on the back wall with their backs facing the audience and then melchior comes out blah blah and then it gets lit like honestly it was so GOOD. everyone was angrily jumping around (which you could hear and FEEL) and getting up in the front rows face tbh (i was not front row smh) and the spotlights went crazy over the audience, first white and then rainbow colors. there were pillars near the front row and ernst and another boy jumped on them and like humped the air idk. melchior’s facial expressions were great. he was p sarcastic tbh. it was 1 of the best totally fucked’s ive ever seen imo

the vineyard scene was great. people laughed at it but im pretty sure it’s just because a lot of them knew the actors tbh? there was an opening of water and ernst (who was so small im) sat on the platform behind it and played in the water while he talked about being a pastor. hanschen stood across the stage. when hanschen kisses ernst he like. gently lays him down and their kisses are long like rip my gay heart. as they leave they’re holding hands and hanschen pulls ernst’s hand really close to his heart and i died

during whispering, melchior stands behind wendla in a blue light with his hand on her shoulders and sings like... not echos of whispering but different lyrics that i unfortunately can’t remember but i do remember that they sounded threatening tbh

the reformatory boys were good and my mom was shook af about the circle jerk scene she looked at me like ?!? and then later she was like “i do not remember that”(from the boot i showed her) i was like idk maybe if ud paid attention

during those you’ve known the entire stage was water except the front lip and 3 platforms, one for moritz, melchi, and wendla. melchior mostly walks/sits on the front lip until like almost the end of the song. moritz and wendla stand on two of the platforms from the beginning (with 1 platform in between them) and they’re stock still, like. statues. melchior pauses in front of moritz when he says moritz’s line. then he walks over in front of wendla. when moritz starts singing he like... jumps to like and looks around for a second and then looks at melchior and kneels. same with wendla. then it’s typical those you’ve known until melchior moves to the center platform and pulls moritz and wendla off their platforms and to his when he pulls them close. moritz and wendla look like they’re about to cry and im not sure if that’s bc it was closing night or if they actually were supposed to look like it tbh

now for the best part. the song of purple summer. the stage is entirely water now. some of the actors come up from the aisles as ilse sings and some come from back stage. they’re all in their costumes. ilse pulls off her shirt and underneath she’s wearing a bathing suit. they all strip down into bathing suits and they play in the water with each other, like slinging it at each other, smiling and laughing and hugging and crying and im emotional. at the end they all reached into the water and did like some movement but basically they slung water towards the audience rip

anyway the show was fantastic. i really dug the water stage a lot? like ive never seen anything like it and it was such a good idea?? and i know i didn’t explain it that well but t b h

also i spoke to the actor of moritz briefly after the show and he was crying and hugging all of his friends and when we went up to him to tell him that it was good he was like “oh my god thank you im sorry im crying but oh my god it means a lot” and it was really cute okay

anyway thanks for listening to me ramble on sorryy

#like really thanks i havent stopped thinking about this production #i wonder if they'll ever have a filmed version but somehow i doubt it #spring awakening #sa #wyatt.txt #rainboboy

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everything you didnt already answer!

flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?earlier while working on memorizing the next song i wanna cover ;)))

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?i guess i’d like to know around when my mental health starts to get a lot better

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?i don’t know, but a really proud moment for me was when my guitar teacher called me his star guitar student :’)

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?singing the song i wrote about jay to him

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?i have genuinely no idea

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?1) die…… im kIdding i don’t have one lol

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.i’m pretty sure dirty blonde hair, but that’s just from my memory and my memory is terrible. blue eyes, freckles, which she hates but i think they’re what makes her her. she’s so pretty honestly, i don’t think she believes me when i tell her. she’s tall and probably my favorite person to hug because of her height. she tries her best to stay happy and positive constantly, even when she’s struggling and hurting, we’re very similar in that way. i really appreciate it. she helps me feel calm when she’s being idiotic, she’s just so wonderful and i’m so lucky to have her close, since she has many friends. she’s my beautiful best friend and i don’t think she realizes how much we all admire her. i cried writing this. it’s about kylee. gosh i love her. (also she was just the first to come to my head)

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?for the most part, yes

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?wednesday

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.jay; i mean, he’s my boyfriend. and my tag for him is ‘my stars’. and stars calm me, he calms me. i love the stars, i love him. there’s similarities between the two and it would just be lovely.

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?nope nope nope

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?i’d probably tell jay how much i love him and how great he is. that’s really tough gosh.

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?they’re so beautiful. something about them, they’re just stunning.

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.i genuinely can’t think of any quotes that mean something to me

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?visit jay. go on some kind of trip with him and my 3 close friends

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?i am. there’s a person who i forgave so many times and i regret it. so much. i wish i weren’t as forgiving

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.i dont remember enough about my 12 year old self to do this

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.tattoos are cool, piercings are cool. i would never get many myself but there so cool on other people

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?nope, i don’t where any. don’t think it suits me

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.dodie has helped me a lot in accepting who i am and just her music calming me and such

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.calm down, be quiet and kind.

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.5sos; at the time, it was great because i really loved them, but know the memory’s just kinda meh.dodie, tessa, rusty, jesse; the best night of my life. all four are so talented. i’m so glad i was able to go. meeting dodie was a great experience.

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?probably jay but i don’t really know what i’d like it to say. i don’t know.

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?i don’t have one, sadly.

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine?take meds, take out contacts, lay in bed until i’m tired enough to sleep

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?i’d dye it pastel pink!! just bc it’s my fav color

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?well i’d go with jay, riley, kylee, anahi, and ariel (my step-sister) but im so indecisive idk where we’d go

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.1; to be with jay. all the time. constantly. because it’s tough not being with him now, although we haven’t met, and i don’t want to just meet him, you know? because then it’ll be even harder.2; for people to stop assuming genders/making jokes about gender/just accept everyone. i’m tired of people assuming and being rude about it all.3; to meet all the phetuses. we’re literally like a family and it would be so cool to just hang with them all.

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?i’ve never gotten drunk or high and i never will get drunk or high

storms: you can only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?song; i can’t handle only being able to see one person. i would go insane. you don’t have to constantly listen to the song, but it’s either being alone, or with that one person and i’m sure it would get kind of frustrating?

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love.i have. it’s like. a flower blooming inside of you; coming to life. absorbing the sunlight that seemingly radiates off the person you love, and it feels like you have a part or the person with you. all the time.

clouds: as a person, would you rock nail polish? or short hair? (i changed this one bc it had EXTREME gender roles smh.)yes and yes. i paint my nails all the time. i have short hair.

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?i don’t go to starbucks

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?probably the stuff i’ll be sending jay. it’s weird but it’s very important to me.

#this was long sorry for cloggin your dash #also game; how many times do i mention jay #asks #anonymous #long #death mention /

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so should i reply in tiny font or just regular font?

hybe should do better in spreading out the comebacks of the groups under them :/ they're already at a huge advantage, might as well use it strategically. AHA streaming mvs is so convenient for a multi. the filler vids i could use in between could be mvs from the other groups that i stan. also you know what, i still haven't watched a single final performance bc im waiting for a friend to watch with me :D

i have a chinese movie recommendation in case you want something to cry over. i still love its ost and it's been months since i watched it. i'm not sure if you watched it already but more than blue. i've never cried over a movie as much as i cried for that one. the angst *chef's kiss*. i'd do anything to wipe my memory of it and watch it again for the first time.

also sungchan is mc-ing in inkigayo every sunday! and honestly, what the hell is nct hollywood :D but a part of me thinks it's just going to be a bunch of asians living in america like johnny that'll be a part of it. just a hunch tho. imagine having all 4 units coming back in a year with like 1 unit per quarter of the year. i'm not sure if sm even has the money to do this, especially when they filed bankruptcy recently.

and i've seen a lot of twitter memes saying taro's ghosted stans T_T alexa play ghosting by txt T_T sm come on give him smth to do, you're wasting talent.

the mall didn't burn down entirely (like from the outside it looked fine). the ventilation system caught fire so it was more internal—ceilings and all that. covered things with soot(?) and ashes so the entire mall was closed for nearly 2 years. and hey, i've experienced a school fire too back when i was younger. i, too, thought it was nothing but a fire drill until i saw the charred remains of the buildings behind our school : D thankfully, no one died.

the new nct track is for a samsung commercial AHAHA it's funny because nearly everyone uses apple TT_TT and the mv screams neo culture tech tho (well as it should lmao). yes, i was talking about that part in hot sauce but yes, it grew on me too.

ateez really know how to do a performance. they put the standard so high for me when it came to performing. their facial expressions and overall stage presence just impresses me. it's been a while since i've seen idols draw me to them by those standards.

ah, the long stan list! good luck in getting through it and i hope you do have fun as you go :] (also you can check out aurora by ateez and whiplash by tbz. the songs popped up in my head as i was typing this reply, you might like them)

ohhhh, what was the pd48 scandal? i don't watch survival shows so i don't know any of the stuff going on. would you care to elaborate? about their disbandment :(( i hope you're okay now tho! are the other girls still debuting in new groups? anyone eyeing an acting career instead of being an idol?

YES, A PATTERN IN THE BIASES (if you count an analysis of two ppl as a pattern, that is.) because it's the same pattern i have for my biaswreckers :D jake & seungmin, not only do they have the same animal to represent them, they have the same 'golden retriever' type of personality that just makes you go all soft. ygwim ;n; i wish i could elaborate but both boys just devastate me in the same level and my friends pointed out that they were quite similar in some aspects.

jaemin used to send really long bbl messages :< like if there was anything he loved most it was nctzens and it was obv in his messages. speaking of dream, album repackage news today! idk what to feel bc my hot sauce albums haven't even arrived yet :D + i'm dead br0ke.

how do you even manage to read 30k TT__TT i cant handle long fics bc of my attention span :D also, yes, i found the user now, i'll check if i'll like their works soon. <33

YES YOU SHOULDVE BEEN THERE T_T what a day that was. i think seungmin is still sweet and active in bbl. not a single cent goes to waste with him. also i think i'll post the drabble some time this month.

and oml seungmin vs jake :o let's see how that goes O.O XDD

clickity-clackity AHAH do you have a mechanical keyboard? :c i wanted one too but i haven't got around to saving up for one. but yes indeed, typing asmr v relaxing \m/

sunny hyuck day, fullsun sunday, fullsunday T_T feels were very strong that day. i kept seeing edits on my twt tl and i would just s o b : D i've only stanned nct for a year but i've seen him grow so much i just wanted to crie i love him sm :') yk my mom didn't cook spaghetti for my birthday, but she cooked for hyuck's? : D

and i checked ur recs blog and indeed, full of nct T_T

also have i mentioned that your desktop thing amuses me so much HAHAH i got confused for a sec if i had twt opened or tumblr. plus, i've been wanting to mention that i noticed that our mobile themes are opposites. black and red, white and blue. it's cute XDD <3

help, people have been telling me that our asks are long but i highkey love it. i added a ‘keep reading’ for the mobile users though, sorry in advance hh.

honestly, both works. tiny font saves space but regular font does more justice for my poor eyes haha. its your call!

hybe comebacks :( yeah enhypen got lucky because they came back right before cb season so they got three wins (yay)! on the bright side, txt just got their first win and bts has six wins, so it all works out i guess. omg yes, the streaming thing is perfect. i stan like 20 groups so i have a never-ending cycle of filler mvs and its always so helpful. ooh for the final performances - you wont regret watching any of them! literally wild, kingdom's budget and talent are wild.

ooh, I don't watch any cdramas lmao. i want to but i can barely finish kdramas. if its a movie ill watch it! ive never heard of more than blue but ill check it out <3 where can i watch it?

yes yes i have just realized that sungchan is yujin's co-mc! i watched their special stage (which is literally adorable) and was today years old when i realized that the dude is sungchan pls. nct hollywood was so unexpected and i still have mixed feelings about it now. LMAO JUST ASIANS LIVING IN AMERICA...help. that would be interesting (?) but the concept reminds me of those horrendous awesomeness tv shows. lets hope sm pulls this off well and proves me wrong. lmao all 4 units coming back would probably happen, but i hope none of them get overworked :( i constantly feel like mork lee has four clones :'( also...sm filed bankcruptcy??? dang, what happened?

ugh omg yeah shotaros talent is seriously being wasted in the basement right now. as for fires, scary T-T i wasnt that fazed by them until the australia wildfires happened, and i learned about the consequences of fire and got really scared. its good that the entire mall didnt burn down though! although its weird that no one is opening it :( schools really need to tell us the difference between drills though, it might be dangerous for those rebellious kids.

yeah i just realized that the nct track is an endorsement which partly explains why i cant listen to it. the mv's visuals are stunning!! the set and people are so gorgeous aa i cant

oh yeah im not an atiny but i have acknowledged since 2020 that they have one of the best, if not the best stage presence and expressions on stage for 4th gen. i think their only worthy competitor would be stray kids actually. theyre truly one of a kind and all of them are cute especially that yeosang guy. i will definitely check out your song recommendations though!

oof the pd48 scandal is extremely complicated. to condense it in a few statements: all of the girls' rankings have been rigged since the very beginning and it was rumored that they already had their end group before the show even started. it was like this for pf48 and pdx101 (group x1) which was why x1 disbanded within a month of debuting, and izone were on hiatus for like 4 months. im not the best at explaining stuff like this haha, but i think you get it. you can check out yt or search up 'pd48 scandal', a ton of articles and videos. as for new groups, nothing has been made clear yet. theyve only made instagram handles for now and appeared on variety shows haha. as for acting career, hyewon was supposed to do acting but was forced to join pd48 so maybe she'll continue acting afterwards? nothing is confirmed yet!

lmao two similarities, its okay it counts. ah, true, i can see their similarities now that youve mentioned it, as well as how jeno is kind of like that. however, i am currently attached to jaemin so we'll see what happens from there hehe. i swerve easily.

jaemin on bubble grr, that would be a whole experience. from the bare minimum of vidoes ive seen for him wbk jaemin is so whipped for czennies. ah yes repackage! i saw the post on instagram and went to the comments to see everything screaming ‘iM bROke!’ and it was lowkey hilarious lmao. kpop is really trying to suck our money T-T.

ope the longest fic ive read is like...40k words i think? and it was by jeonginks. ill read anything eiko produces lmao, theres always so much substance in her work. ooh, tell me what you think of luvdsc’s stuff, i just finished binging their entire masterlist lmao.

seungmin vs jake yeah, i havent been catching up on skz enha content because im still obsessing over the dreamies but when that saga is over then im going to focus on my ults lmao (which might include dream soon, hehe).

yes yes i have a mechanical bluetooth keyboard that i use to connect to my computer! it literally sounds amazing lmao, its only 10am here but i feel like im going to doze off from the clickity clackitys already. i cant wait for you to get one! tell me when you do, we can match hehe.

hyuck is an aodrable brat please. hes like the best comedian of nct at this point, so hilarious and filled with variety i love him. he rose up my bias list pretty fast too. LMAO YOUR MOM IS SO COOL I LOVE HER ALREADY. if only my mom would cook for my ults’ borndays.

yes my rec blog is a mess right now, ill organize it soon haha.

omg thank you and yes my website theme is one-of-a-kind. even i get confused when i open it or edit it, and i constantly get comments about it. also i just realized our opposing theme colors and i love it! its adorable.

#long post #also im listening to love song right now haha i love it so much #also sorry for not answering yesterday hhh i got busy last night #「 asks 」#moots — [♡] ;#toffee — [♡] ;#neo-shitty

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