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amethystfairy1 · 5 months

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hello internet stranger,

i am in love. you've infected both me and my sister with your brainrot and captivating fics, we've talked about it non-stop the past few days, so naturally we have some questions.

But first, i want to ask what your boundaries are w/ fanart and writing. i've already drawn a couple pieces, are you alright with me posting them, and what should i tag them with? Also, i'm feeling very inspired to write more zed and tango for the travelling thieves au, is that alright if i take your ideas and just yoink them? Im not planning to post whatever i write at this point :P

anyways, moving on, i have a few world-building questions for you, starting w/ traveling thieves:

how does the mercenary guild and hits system work? Can anyone put a hit out on anyone, or do they have to be a wanted criminal? also, how does gem choose her targets? i like to believe she has some sort of moral compass in picking, but knowing the world they live in, i can't be certain

this is less of a question, but i don't see how the world can be resolved. For ttsbc, the obvious solution to the undercity folk living freely is that they overthrow the overcity government or just remove the laws keeping them banned. Sure, it'd be difficult, but from what we've seen, most people don't actually have strong prejudices against the undercity, they just vaguely believe they're evil, which can be very easily disproved. For traveling thieves, it's completely different, because not only is the discrimination in the government, it's in the people themselves; merely changing the laws would not change how people see hybrids, so how can that be fixed? My best solution to them all getting a happy ending is that they run away and found their own civilization where all hybrids can be free, but it doesnt seem like a likely scenario

again, not really a question, but I'm so so so happy in the latest fh piece that they looted the bodies of their attackers. the first time i read it through, i was practically screaming at the screen, telling them to grab the loot and weapons before they continued

next, ttsbc:

4. how do the mobs work? do they act like any normal animal, in that they just kinda exist and happen to be very hostile, or do they follow minecraft mob mechanics and spawn into existence from nothing when the conditions are right? could they theoretically all be exterminated? do all of them dislike light, like the zombies in the cleo bdubs fic? if they do, why are they making their way to the overcity?

5. how did the undercity become a thing? Was it just always there, or was it manmade? did hybrids and mutants always live underground? are the pits really bottomless? and if so, is the world a globe, or is it flat? i understand you might not have thought very deeply about these things before jumping in, but my sister and i were theorizing about different answers. i figured the undercity isnt manmade just like the grand canyon isnt manmade, it just came about through natural processes, and mutants and hybrids just evolved(?) seperately from humans, underground, which is a whole other can of worms with the science behind that. an idea about the "bottomless" pits has to do with physics. at the center of the earth (if it were hollow), you wouldn't feel gravity because it would pull on you equally in all directions. so maybe the bottomless pit really just leads to the center of the earth, and you're not really falling forever, you're just suspended in the center forever lol. not falling, but not hitting the bottom, either

anyways, this was a really long ask (i hope thats ok), and i still have more to say, but i'll leave it there for now. again, i love the angst, and have a wonderful day. im gonna try to get some work done, but it probs wont happen with all the brainrot XD

Hello hello! ✨

I'm so honored that you and your sister are enjoying my AUs and fics so much! That you've been talking about them and theorizing over them is so awesome to hear! Knowing that they've become something fueling discussion is super cool!

I LOVE IT ALL! Fanart/fanworks/fanfic I wanna see all of it! I would absolutely love it if you would post your fanart! Please use either the (#traveling thieves au) or (#through the sky blue cracks) depending on which AU it is for and mention me in the post (@amethystfairy1) so I can see it! And of course you are welcome to write fics based in my AU or using my characterizations, in fact I'd love it if you did! It's the best thing to hear that my writing has inspired someone else to get creative! I know you said you had no intentions of posting it, but if you ever do, please use the same hashtags here if on tumblr, or if you use A03 list the appropriate fic/series as inspiration and please credit me in the notes if you don't mind! I'm looking forward to seeing anything either fanart/fanfic related that you've created!

ONTO THE QUESTIONS 🏃‍♀️

The mercenary guild is basically like the underground/illegal version of the adventurer guild, and they'll take any jobs that the adventurer guild won't. Blackmail, assassination, smuggling, you name it. Gem has something of a moral compass, but it isn't exactly the strictest thing in the world. We learn when she meets Mumbo in Grian's wing preening fic that she is on her way to assassinate a noblemans son, and while that is a bit of a wink wink nudge nudge if you can figure out who that son is, exactly, it's still Gem agreeing to kill a teenager who is guilty of little more than pissing off the wrong person. Cruel world and all.

Perhaps that's exactly point? 😌 With Traveling Thieves, I did not set out to make a world that could be resolved or escaped from...the whole point is that it is cruel and inescapable, and the best you can do is continue to protect yourself and those you care about...and even then, you might fail to do that. You might be set up to fail in a sick system that would never give you a chance in the first place. And the best you can do is try to put the pieces back together in the aftermath. I don't want Traveling Thieves to resolve in any traditional sense of the word...for where that'll lead all our various characters, well, you'll have to wait and see. 🤔

Loot that body LOOT THAT BODY NOW 💃

They're like your typical minecraft mobs, they spawn in places with low light levels! We've also got some homebrew monsters that I've come up with, such as the bird-men, that we will be meeting as time goes on. Certain monsters such as zombies do avoid light, but there are plenty of monsters will go above bedrock just like certain monsters in minecraft can survive in the sun, like creepers and endermen. No, they can never be exterminated because of how they spawn!

The pits aren't bottomless, we've seen the bottom after all, where Pearl, Jimmy, and Grian were in the Depths! It is a natural chasm beneath the bedrock, and the various caves and tunnels stretch are incredibly huge and diverse, so while everything connects back to the main cavern of the under-city that's so huge, there are also other caves and tunnels where other groups live that we will be learning about eventually, such as the blaze-born pyres or where Cub is from in the Deep Dark!

It is completely totally 100% ok! I love getting long asks like this that give me the chance to develop and worldbuild the AUs and mention some details that might never really show up within the fics themselves! So by all means send more questions and thoughts! And I'd also love to see the fanarts you mentioned if you still are up to posting them, I can't draw so anything anyone draws that has anything to do with my AUs makes me incredibly happy! 😆

Thanks so much for coming by! 💖

#traveling thieves au #through the sky blue cracks #fanfic #ao3 fanfic #hermitcraft #traffic smp #worldbuilding #life series #hermitshipping #trafficshipping #empires smp #pearlescentmoon #grian #jimmy solidarity #cubfan135 #flower husbands #scott smajor

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your-local-multi-geek · 7 months

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The Basics: He/Him, straight, you can call me Jörmungander or Jörm for short, I am a minor so yeah. If you even care to know I'm Irish+Scottish+some other stuff, but I embrace being Scottish the most

Fandoms/Enjoyed content

-Marvel

-Star Wars

-Book of Life

-Greek/Norse mythology

-Steven Universe (Show, Movie, and Future)

-Kotlc

-High Class Homos

-Baby Tyrant

-Loving Reaper

-Live with Yourself

-Just Pancakes

-Homesick

-The D!ckheads

-Bluechair

-Don't read this

-Adventures of God

-Pixie and Brutus

GoofyGodsComics

-Mafia Nanny

-A Spell for a Smith

-(More webtoons to come hopefully, I will take recommendations)

-A Lot of Kids Shows that I don't feel like listing, just ask me one and I'll say yes/no (also do this if you want to know if im reading a webtoon, I tend to forget and not list a couple)

-MHA but I haven't watched in a long time :(

-A little bit of Harry Potter

-I enjoy science and finding out how things work

-Psych2go, It's a YT channel I enjoy

-I can put Xbox here I guess

You could call me a theater kid though I absolutely despise public speaking, I keep to myself a lot unless I'm a close friend, (which is barley anyone). I absolutely love any animal that doesnt try to kill me. Key word there is try, I'll still give a gator belly rubs as long as it doesn't try to consume me for nutrients. I enjoy a bunch of random music ranging from I Will Survie to Heavens on Fire even to You've got a Friend in me on Piano. Nothing too special about me, just an average kid pretty much. (HEADS UP: expect occasional/possible vents at random points in time)

My tags: #couch time with jörm(more to come)

Irl frens: @iam1withthepeggy @queenpiranhadon @labaguetteisdabest @cinematics06 @expvalorant

Mutuals: @swans-chirping-in-the-distance @that-multi-fandom-hijabi @ch1ckpeapancake

I am also the public test reader of Star Crossed Haters which is being written by my wonderful pals, Kae (@queenpiranhadon ) and Nyota (@labaguetteisdabest )! I will reblog all the chapters Kae posts and Ny posts wattpad links on their blogs so you have plenty of options to check out their book which I am really loving

Farewell to all who set out for travel and welcome to those who come for a rest

#couch time with jörm

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dailyfigures · 8 months

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putting slashes in front of tags make them useless for people trying to block tags unless they have that specific variant block so "#suggestive //" doesnt block it for almost everyone who would not want to see it

theres so many variants of tags that its very hard to block all of them because people keep making more (like "#// suggestive" "#cw suggestive" "#cw suggestive//") and even a change in spaces (suggestive // vs suggestive// ) will make it a whole diffrent tag that needs blocked

when taggi g things please make sure to include a plain version of just the tag itself or a cw and then the content "cw suggestive" for simplicity and accessibility

those tags are useless to the people who want to block that content if they have to block over 20 variations per tag

i hope this doesnt come across as aggressive. im just trying to give a good explanation as why the // in tags is not good or helpful and defeats the purpose of it. sorry for any typos.

ah yes ofcourse, that makes sense! i used to always use the // in the tags on my personal blogs in the past and it worked fine back then because i would read all my new mutuals' about pages and dm them like "hey is it cool if i tag your trigger like [trigger //]". obviously i run a different style blog now but since i've been using tags with // for so long i honestly never thought about it. i'll go back and make sure to update my past posts with just the tag "suggestive" too! thanks for bringing it to my attention!!!

#anon #ask #non figure

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enchantedlandcoffee · 11 months

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unrelated but how do you as a writer like REALLY get in ur element and focus, because im pretty sure i have adhd and it makes it hard to focus and everything i try besides classical music (sometimes) doesnt work

and my second question how do you get people to view your work/participate in it, i've been writing for 3 years in the fandom and a few people notice, and i know im supposed 2 be writing just for myself and i am, but i wanted it to kind of be a whole family thing like everyone being excited for updates and its a whole thing... idk if maybe no one cares anymore or no one really knows me

anyways sorry for my REALLY long winded ask, tysm if you read it

also here's this larry gif for you're troubles

all the love, louiscarrotsxoxo

hey!

thank you for reaching out and asking me this! I'm going to try my hardest to answer the best that I can (I thought I'd answer it before I left so I could help <3)

Getting focused and into the element

So I have ADHD as well and I know that getting focused can be tricky. Things that I do/have to help keep me focused are:

Writing Sprints - I sprint in Discord Servers with my friends and we all keep each other motivated and encourage each other

Discord Servers - So I'm in some really wonderful servers where we're all happy to cheer each other on writing wise (I'm going to link them in another part)

Inspiration- So, for most of my fics, I have a playlist that suits the theme and I try my hardest to make moodboards for them to get the feel of the fic. I'll also plan dialogue or even the layouts of flats/houses so I feel inspired to write about them.

I asked some friends in my Discord Server for help as well and this was their responss:

@chai-hat-tea said:

I don’t know about others, but usually having a deadline freaks me out enough to make me wanna complete my fic, even if it’s on the day of posting. And for that, I join fic fests. How that also helps me is because I also tend to tell myself that I owe it to the mod to complete the fic or else they’ll feel disappointed (and not tell me), so for their sake I need to complete fics. Joining fic fests also helps in the viewership of your fic, so once you have participated in a few fests, you might find it easier to build a somewhat decent enough crowd that enjoy your writing and want to read your stories. So once that happens, you can plan a long chaptered fic and then post chapters as and when you’re done and ready. So then you can guilt trip yourself by saying that now you have those people who are waiting for your story and you delaying is just making them wait longer and feel more disappointed lol

@loveislarryislove added:

Yeah I think a lot of it is building community, to pump you up or keep you accountable or help circulate things etc.

Getting people to view your work/participate in it

The first thing I'd like to say here is that you shouldn't define your work by statistics/interactions (a bit like what you said). Having said that, there are a few ways to try and increase your circle:

Make mutuals - There are some amazing people on this site who go out of their way to support each other. Try and get to know new people and interact with them.

Join Discord Servers - The servers I am currently in are amazing servers. My two main ones are @1d-library (ran by @larrysballetslippers and @larry-hiatus ) and @new-writers-discord (ran by me, @red-pandaaa @larrysballetslippers @hellolovers13 @babyhoneyheslt and @rockstarlwt28 ). 1D Library is a place for readers and writers to hangout, discuss fics, writing or day to day life. The New Writers Discord is a recent Discord server where we have New Writers, Writers and Mentors who write all types of stories (fics, original works, etc.). We have sprinting parties, workshops and are always there to help if need be.

Tagging Systems - this post contains all the tracked 1D tags where certain accounts will reblog posts with those tags. This is extremely useful for people who make things in the fandom.

Have fun - Try and enjoy yourself in the process. Interact with new people and make friends, create things for yourself as well as others.

I really hope this helps! I am not going to be online after today, but if you do have any more questions, feel free to email me on [email protected].

(and I love that gif 💕)

Ash <3

#asks #answered #advice

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twistedtummies2 · 2 years

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if you run a kink/fetish blog you really shouldnt be putting stuff in the main tags. the main tags are not an 18+ space, theyre for minors and adults alike, and kink stuff doesnt belong there. i havent reported you yet because i want to give you a chance to reflect and change your behavior, but if i keep seeing you in the main/character tags, i will flag the posts and your blog as sensetive content. as someone who was affected by seeing a lot of fetish stuff at a young age bc of irresponsible fandoms, im very passionate about this topic. i dont care if you publish this or not.

I was never aware that the tags apparently are "age managed." Plenty of people do things of this nature without having to worry about stuff like this. I also was not (and am not) aware of what "main tags" are. So I sincerely do not know what you are referring to, specifically. And if you wish to call me out and claim I'm playing dumb...no, I'm not playing, I sincerely have no clue. I honestly have never seen any reason or known of any reason to monitor my tags, so I have not done so for that reason above all else. IF, from the way you're speaking, this is some sort of unspoken rule on Tumblr, or if I perhaps missed something way, way back when I joined the site, then I apologize and I am perfectly willing to "change my behavior," as you put it, because the last thing I want is to scar young innocent people for life, the way you claim happened to you. However, having said that, I would like to say two more things. One, there is no reason to threaten me with reporting like this. One other person came to me some time ago to tell me that, evidently, the "g/t" tag is one that is meant for all ages, so I shouldn't use it. I thanked them, apologized, and I no longer use that tag. They, in turn, thanked me, apologized in case they seemed rude, and then moved on with their life. Like I said, I am totally willing to change my practices if that is something that HAS to happen; I do not like breaking the rules. But your rudeness is not appreciated, by seemingly assuming that I am doing this maliciously. A simple "you shouldn't use these specific tags" would have been well and good, then I'd know to either change how I manage that matter, or stop wielding them altogether. Two, and most importantly...if this stuff offends you and bothers you so much, then you have no reason to look at my page. And I do not believe my little kink blog is some blight upon whatever taglines you're referring to; if by "main tags" you're referring to things like my more analytical pieces that have nothing to do with kinks, there's not much I can do there, especially since those AREN'T kink-based. As far as I can perceive, those are doing no harm. If by "main tags" you're referring to character names or whatever...I can search a character name and find tons upon tons of stuff that has nothing to do with kinks long before I run into anything related to my interests. I know, I've tried. My work and others doesn't really pop up too often, UNLESS I'm specifically looking for the kink in conjunction. Also, I should think that anyone reading it will realize it's not for them and turn away.

I appreciate your concern, and I understand it...but do not dictate things like this to me as if you run the website, or have the right to decide what people will or will not post. If you would care to discuss this in a civil and polite manner, please feel free to contact me via PM, so we can engage in such discourse. Until then, I will continue to tag things the way I always have, not because I am trying to hurt anyone, but because it simply the most obvious way I know how. If that bothers you so much, then tell me how to fix it, don't simply say "stop it or I'll report you" when I'm not even really sure what I'm doing wrong. There are many others like me. We are not animals. We are not monsters. And we are not out to hurt anyone. We just want to write our silly, kinky nonsense and keep to ourselves. Do not engage in witch hunts as if we are some hideous plague upon the universe. Most of us are just lonely geeks who want a place to express our darker side. Thank you.

#ask #answer #q&a #response #serious time

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himbos-hotline · 1 year

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what'cha writing?

This ask just gives me an excuse to write more infomation about my WIPS and AUS! All of which are open for asks, I love talking about my writing and my little gremlin OC Jay and the polycule!

Till death do us part, please keep breaking my heart ['Til it ceases to beat, please be mine.]: My hungbucks fic that is currently leaning towards more romantic hangmatt and platonic hangnick. However I am currently unsure what way it is going to go. A look at the Bucks and Hangers relationship just after Hanger wins the AEW world title and Kennny disappears. Its highly implied that Kenny had a relationship with both Hanger and the Bucks because he totally did. Can you read it? Yes the first two chapters are currently up on AO3]

Writing Requests: Yes, I take writing requests! I have one that im currently working on but my requests are open so ive any of my followers or just people who see my tumblr advertised on AO3 [I sometimes mention it in my notes] and gone "damn I wish you would write X thing" drop it into my askbox and maybe I will, I mostly unsprisingly wrie for AEW/WWE at the moment and I will not write X readers but if you ever want that, I can suggest some people who do write fantastic X reader fics! Can I read it?: Yes I also post my requests on AO3 as well as my matherlist

The ghost story would be over: Taking place during and after AEW full gear where Regal betrays the BCC. I thought about how Jay would react to it as not just only as a member of the BCC but also as a Regals grandchild. A look at how close Jay and the BCC are with added connections to the Elite. Currently its a look at Jay's found family with the BCC and romance with Wheeler as well as just as how close she is with the bucks as brothers and Kenny as his beloved. A queer look at found family and betrayal with a distinct human touch. Can I read it?: Yes, please do its my favourite thing im working on so far! The first two chapters are currently on AO3

And I'll be in denyal for just a little while [What about the plans we made?]: A fic that looks at Jays canon story. From working on NXT as a mixed tag team with adam cole, to their blossoming relationship barely hidden as fuck-buddies, to betrayal and loss. Follow Jay through her transformation from Jayden Orton, still stuck behind her cousins shadow to Jay Orton, the poly genderqueer bisexual. A journey which is incredibly always linked with one beloved baybay with blue eyes. Can I read it?: Not yet, Currently I am half way through the first chapter but I promise you can soon!

Turn you on when I need you: Adam loves Kenny. Kenny doesnt love Adam. At least, not the way Adam wants him too. hes there for a quick fuck whenever Kenny is stressed. and its not like he doesnt LIKE adam, Kenny does. He just doesnt Love him..until Adam gets another boyfriend sometime later and Kenny realises that his heart longs for the cowboy. Can I read it?: Not yet, it is currently in the stages of just being an idea. Ya know spoken about in discord messages and linked in other stories.

And now for AUS!

The step-by-step franchise! Have you ever questioned about what wrestlers would be like as kids? what about as stupid middle school children? high school? college?! well now you dont have to wonder. as we're writing it! [me and my big sibling @itsnoosetome] a four part series following a collection of wwe/aew wrestlers as well as like three OCs! Can I read it?: No, at the moment its' currently being writen but theres ideas and asks are always appreciated!

The soulmate actor Au A look at Jay [OC] and their boyfriends and girlfriend through the lense of them all being soulmates. None of them wrestle. Wheeler and Jay work in a theatre, Kenny is an artist, Hanger is a western actor star and Cole is an a-list trans femme superstar who the elite happen to just use to fuck.

I love the taste of his pretty red lipstick [I love the taste of his pretty red tongue] The Stripper au! Your favourite aew stars strip for a living featuring a whole load of flirting and unresolved trauma. Lots of trans characters too! becuase we cannot be stopped! Can I read it? Eventually maybe.

What baking can do The bakery au! Mostly planned. but more non-wrestling AUS. Four chapters are planned. Follow Jay [again, look he has a fun veiw of the world] through the little bakery town that all the wrestlers live in!

#mouse has pals #aus #fics

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catty-words · 1 year

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"i think the disconnect comes from the way fandom uses words like 'racist' to build cases about how it's Objectively Wrong for anyone to like a certain character" YES omg people say it like its an essentialist part of a character, like they did something shitty?? well that means they are a literal devil spawn and if you like them you are TRASH!!! but like is actually mostly an action (like you said, a BEHAVIOR)???? that people CAN get better and do better??

"giving the time of day to people who aren't engaging sincerely with the text" this is a great definition of what so many people do, i will definitely snuggle with my kitty in my echo-chamber in guilty-free now, thanks

"forced me to sit with that disappointment for over a year." yeah, i supposed i would feel similarly had i watched one season at the time too. personally because besides devi lack of agency, ben is just so off. paxton was the highlight, besides nirmala and aneesa, that made the season worth it, but like... i feel like season 2 ben is just there to suffer from beginning to end, if at least he was less of a victim of devi's cheating and more of a cunt about it i wouldnt feel so sad, but like you said, its like he had no defects that season and i'm like 😭😭 wheres my little shit from season 1? i dont know if i would survive sitting with season 2 ben for a year tbh you are so strong and resilient babe

"you may already know that i'm writing a long-form follow-up with 'bitty spark' acting as the prologue since it sounds like you picked through my blog a bit" i actually didnt cuz i tend to avoid wip fics like the plague unless i'm close friends with the author cuz then if they abandon the work i can just ask where they planned to go with and satiate my curiosity aksjwkajai but now that i know its the continuation of my fave fic of yours i went through the whole tag and i'm like. DESPERATELY NEEDING IT. like you've been working on it for ages frr you poor thing :(( but simultaneously i'm like IF SHE DOESNT POST LIKE ASAP IM FLYING OUT THERE AND PULLING HER FEET AT NIGHT 😡😡

"thank you for fueling my vanity and for stopping by my askbox in the first place!" no thank you for answering my question it was eating me alive, i just wanted to contextualize and make sure you knew i wasnt like a ben apologist who see him as someone who cant do no wrong but when you had questions of your own i just had to answer them pakspksosk and i love to fuel people's vanity!!! you deserve to be vain, you are giving great stories for nothing besides the shits and giggles!!! i have a hard time interacting in tumblr bc of some dumb insecurities but i just really had to answer you, i thought you would just politely and objectively answer my question but instead you gave me an opportunity to sing you praises without all my tumblr-ity baggage so... thank YOU.

this is a great definition of what so many people do, i will definitely snuggle with my kitty in my echo-chamber in guilty-free now, thanks - perfect. give your kitty a kiss on their perfect little head for me.

yeah, i supposed i would feel similarly had i watched one season at the time too. - mm-hmm, and most people i'm friends with in the fandom have similarly been in it since the beginning, hence my curiosity about your own experience. i'll never know what it's like to take in the series as a whole, it very much is divided up into Eras for me, and it excited/excites me greatly to hear someone else's perspective on the shifting tone.

i feel like season 2 ben is just there to suffer from beginning to end, if at least he was less of a victim of devi's cheating and more of a cunt about it i wouldnt feel so sad, but like you said, its like he had no defects that season and i'm like 😭😭 wheres my little shit from season 1? - dkjsbg exactly!!! 'where's my little shit from season 1', SUCH an important question to be asking!!!

i don't know if you read 'start, acceleration' (my fic where ben teaches devi how to drive), but i was in a scramble to finish it before season 2 dropped and, in retrospect, it's so important that i did (literally posted it the night before) because i can't imagine trying to complete it with s2 ben's characterization in my head. i would have been Distraught.

i dont know if i would survive sitting with season 2 ben for a year tbh you are so strong and resilient babe - and like, thank you. i needed this. 😇

but now that i know its the continuation of my fave fic of yours i went through the whole tag and i'm like. DESPERATELY NEEDING IT. like you've been working on it for ages frr you poor thing :(( but simultaneously i'm like IF SHE DOESNT POST LIKE ASAP IM FLYING OUT THERE AND PULLING HER FEET AT NIGHT 😡😡 - motivation!!! this + plus us knowing the season 3 release date - i'm determined to be posting it by then. like, truly no one is more excited to be sharing this fic than me i've worked so hard on it and it is pretty epic tbh......

no thank you for answering my question it was eating me alive, i just wanted to contextualize and make sure you knew i wasnt like a ben apologist who see him as someone who cant do no wrong - definitely no worries there. clearly you have taste because you miss cunt ben when he's gone!! plus, i obviously love discussing this show, so. your ask was a gift.

you deserve to be vain, you are giving great stories for nothing besides the shits and giggles!!! - 😳🥰🥺 thank you

#anon #replies #never have i ever

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siriuslythatbitch · 1 year

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I posted 3,175 times in 2022

That's 2,697 more posts than 2021!

140 posts created (4%)

3,035 posts reblogged (96%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@fuckboyregulus

@elder-millennial-trash

@dontbeanassbutt

@zackisontumblr

@classicdaisycalico

I tagged 265 of my posts in 2022

#sirius black - 91 posts

#remus lupin - 90 posts

#wolfstar - 87 posts

#marauders - 58 posts

#thank you for the ask! - 55 posts

#hp marauders - 51 posts

#remus x sirius - 44 posts

#marauders era - 35 posts

#my friends are so talented - 33 posts

#james potter - 28 posts

Longest Tag: 77 characters

#i came out to have a good time and i'm honestly feeling so attacked right now

My Top Posts in 2022:

I see it's time for our semi regular 'hey minors could you fucking not' chat. So Miss B is gonna have to school you again apparently.

JUST BECAUSE YOU DONT LIKE SOMETHING DOESNT MAKE IT BAD

Read that, repeat it, internalize it, fucking live it. You do not get to dictate an authors right to write what they want. That is not your prerogative and quite frankly it's disgusting for you to do. You wouldn't pull this shit with a GoT book. You don't care about the fact that there is teenage rape in that and teen pregnancy and incest. But because these authors are 'accessable' you decide to attack them. No that's not gonna work bud.

Fun fact teenagers fuck. I fucked as a teenager and I damn well know my friends did. It's not a secret and I wish to fuck there had been someone to write a queer sex experience when I was growing up. You should be bowing down to these authors for providing you with something we never had at your age instead of trying to shame us into not writing.

Now I know it's hard for you to understand but life doesn't just end when you become a parent or turn 30. We have liked this series our entire lives. You weren't even a twinkle in your parent's eyes when this Fandom started. You do not get to claim it as yours. This is our baby. We nurtured and tended to it until it became what it is today and like fuck are you going to take it from us.

Speaking of being an adult an adult is an adult period. The age doesn't matter. You are 18 congrats you're and adult now. You're 45 or 89 or 19 it doesn't fucking matter. You are an adult. And funny thing, adults fuck other adults. That's how the world works. As long as it is consensual it's none of your concern how "adult" you think they are or aren't.

Honestly for every whiney post I see about an age gap im adding a year to the gap in my next fic between the pairing. Just fucking try me bitches. I am so done with your filtering bullshit. Fight me I promise I'll win.

29 notes - Posted August 25, 2022

Send Up a Signal, I’ll Throw You a Line

https://archiveofourown.org/works/37354114

It was three on a Tuesday and Sirius was near comatose at the counter. They’d had one customer in the shop all day, a fifty-something bloke looking for a Jefferson Starship record. Once found he proceeded to lecture Sirius on classic rock for the better part of an hour. Apparently, the man thought him completely ignorant of any bands at all. Despite the fact that he was wearing an Eagles t-shirt and worked at a bloody record shop. Not that he was surprised. Every man over thirty-five came in to see a man in his mid-twenties and assumed he must know nothing but Green Day and Foo Fighters. At this point, he was used to it, but that didn’t mean it made his exasperation with it all lessen.

“How’s it going down there, Black Dog?” His uncle called down from the upstairs that doubled as the man’s apartment and employee break room. Sirius couldn’t keep from grinning at the familiar nickname. Alphard had been the one to introduce him to classic rock in the first place. When his parents had been too busy to deal with him and his brother they’d come to the record store to spend time with their uncle.

He couldn’t have been more than four when he began grabbing records from the man’s collection upstairs, choosing them by the pretty art at first. The blond man, who he later learned was his uncle’s partner Nicholas, was always all too happy to man the shop for a while as he indulged his nephew’s newfound love for the music of their youth.

Nick had always found the fact that they were all named after constellations fascinating. It was that connection and Sirius’ particular fondness for Led Zeppelin that had dubbed him Black Dog. A name that stuck well through his teens and into adulthood. Black Dog was as much his name as Sirius at this point. It never failed to make him smile.

“I’ve seen legislation passed faster.” He groaned. The other man laughed at his joke. It was well known that their family had a distaste for both his and his Uncle’s career choices. Blacks were known for going into politics or becoming solicitors at the very least. His mother, father, and brother were all involved with it in one way or another. Fortunately, the idea of having a son without a uni degree compelled his parents to pay for it regardless.

Sirius didn’t regret his choice in the slightest. Music had always been his passion, and one his uncle had always indulged. Alphard was peering at him from the stairs. He’d moved just low enough to keep him in his line of sight.

“Nick is whipping up a batch of cinnamon scones now. I’ll bring you a few when they’re done.” In his younger years, his partner had been the pastry chef at multiple Michelin star restaurants. They often benefited from his penchant for baking when bored.

“Life may be worth living,” Sirius responded, completely missing the tinkling of the bell from the front of the shop. His uncle hadn’t. A sly smile crossed his face as he glanced across the room. Eyes flicking back to his nephew he replied.

“Perhaps there’ll be another soon enough.” The man winked, familiar grey eyes shining with mischief before disappearing back upstairs.

“Wha?” He tried to ask, shaking his head at his uncle before turning back to the store.

Sirius wasn’t sure what he might have expected to find when he glanced across the space, but this wasn’t it. A man in a dark brown cardigan had his back to him. His hair hung in sandy brown half curls that looked soft in the warm light. Even from across the store he could tell the man was a virtual giant. Sure, Sirius was shorter than your average bloke, a fact his best friend James loved reminding him of, but this man had to be well over six foot tall. He wanted to get a closer look though. It took him far too long to remember he worked at the bloody store and had every reason to approach the man.

“So… Do you come here often?” Sirius said, mentally berating himself for the cliché pickup line.

“Uh no, actually.” The other man laughed. His head was still downturned, long tan fingers rifling through the albums in the centre rack. The dexterity with which he did so did very unfortunate things to Sirius. Especially since he was at work, in the record shop, where his uncle was currently upstairs and well within earshot. “I had a friend tell me about this place, and I thought I’d check it out.” Finally, the man turned to glance at him. Sirius’ eyes went wide at the sight.

His lips were plush and a deep pink, one corner cocked up in amusement. His nose was almost button and utterly too adorable for Sirius’ good. The silvery band of a scar that ran across it just added to the urge to know this man inside and out. It was his eyes that were the real knockout. They were a shade of dark green, the kind of green that reminded him of warm summers spent in the countryside or his favourite jumper. He couldn’t be sure, but he thought he saw flecks of gold or perhaps amber filtering through them. It was as if they glowed in the light and Sirius was desperate to lean in and examine them closer. Swallowing hard he attempted to cover his instant attraction to this man.

“Is there something I can help you find?” Sirius could tell his voice was a bit strained. Fortunately, the other man didn’t seem to notice, or perhaps he didn’t care. Sure, he had no doubts that he was attractive, but there was no guarantee this guy was into blokes. He prayed to deities he had never been certain existed, that he was though.

“Yeah, actually.” Fuck. He’d been so distracted by the man’s appearance that he hadn’t really registered his voice. It was a smooth baritone that flooded his senses in the way that Alphard’s records had when he was a child.”I was looking for a Steve Miller Band record.” He had the faintest Welsh accent, the vowels leaving his tongue like music. Sirius was reminded of a much fitter Tom Jones.

“Oh, yeah, no, you’re in the completely wrong place for that.” He said, whipping around and making his way deeper into the store. “That’s where we keep all of the newer albums, anything from the naughties onwards.”

“Ah, well that would make sense.” He laughed behind him. The sound sent shivers up his spine, and he was glad he could play it off while walking.

“This is the section you want.” Sirius came to a stop in front of an enormous back wall. There were framed and signed classic rock records hung above a multi-tiered record holder. It ran from the staircase to the wall, wrapping around toward the counter. They truly did have the best collection in all of London, a fact his Uncle, and okay maybe Sirius too, was proud of.

“Woah.” The man’s eyes went huge as he took the setup in. “That’s quite the inventory you have here.”

“This isn’t even all of them.” Sirius laughed, thinking of the storage room where they kept the particularly expensive records. It took Sirius by surprise when the other man smiled at him. Not the half-smirk before, but an actual grin. His abdomen fluttered in a way he decidedly was not letting happen. Instead, he did his actual job “So do you want a specific album, or..?”

“Oh, yeah, sure.” He could have sworn he’d seen a slight flush to the man’s cheeks, but put that down to wishful thinking. “I was hoping you’d have a copy of “The Joker”.”

“I know we have at least one copy, but my uncle stocked it so we may have to dig for a bit.” Sirius fought a smile at having an excuse to spend more time with the mystery man. “You take that line, and I’ll look through this one.”

“Sounds like a plan.” He put on a jokingly solemn expression that had Sirius laughing despite himself. The other man let out an amused huff but turned toward his stack of records.

Unfortunately, or if he was honest with himself, which he steadfastly attempted never to be, quite fortunately, the two lines of records were quite close together. It was great for someone browsing alone. For two, however, it was close quarters. The cardigan covered arm of the other man brushed lightly against his bare one. At first, he’d assumed it was an accident, but then it happened again, this time staying in contact in some way. He bit his lip trying to keep his focus on the records and not the slide of the other man’s arm against his. Even through the garment, he could feel the radiating body heat and Sirius wanted to roll around in it like the dog his uncles had nicknamed him. This close he could smell the woodsy scent rolling off him. There was a faint hint of books, but the exceptionally old kind his parents had kept in the library of his childhood home. Somehow for once, the reminder didn’t make him want to bolt for the nearest exit. Contrarily, it made him want to press as close as possible, to claim the smell as his own. Christ, maybe he was a dog.

Sirius concentrated on the records instead, flicking past the Sex Pistols, The Smiths, and Stereophonics. At least he was at the st’s.

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Wolfstar

Accidentally married

Intimate Artistry

You spoil me so, Marigoals! I'll make this EXTRA special for you, babby<3

Remus opens up a tattoo parlor in Diagon Alley. He's done some research on basic charming for the designs, but has some he doesn't want to try out on his regular clients just incase. Sirius loves being his tester, which has resulted in quite a few tattoos (That Remus would love to trace with his fingers, tongue, and well anything Sirius would let him really). It's great, but it also means he's running out of room. Remus has come across some odd runes that he is pretty sure are meant to make the tattoo guaranteed not to fade, but he's not positive. Sirius decides he wants a wolf and dog baying at the moon on his hip, which means he has to take off his pants and use towel to try and cover. There's a lot of fumbling trying to keep from touching Sirius' cock, which just so happens to be making itself more obvious with each touch of the needle. (What can I say, he's a masochist and it's Remus afterall.) Both men are panting by the time he finally finishes tracing the last rune in invisible ink, but it doesn't have the effect either thought. A quick burst of pain has him gripping his own hip, working down his bottoms just enough to see the top of the very same tattoo he's just inlaid in Sirius' pale skin. Sirius, who has always been better at runes than Remus looks over the book and realizes the tattoo wasn't bound to his skin permanently but bound them to each other. And well, was that really so bad?

36 notes - Posted February 26, 2022

Innocent Physical Contact and I Didn’t Mean to Turn You On Perciver (Percy Weasley/Oliver Wood)

Ooookay. First time thinking about this ship, but I'm excited so let's go. It's their 5th or 6th year and they've been the only two sharing their dorm just them since their first year, but things have gotten tense. Percy has tried to stay out of the dorm as much as possible and Oliver can't figure out why. He comes back from quidditch practice one day early because there was some issue or another and surprises Percy who had memorized his schedule. Percy has gay panic and makes to leave but Oliver stops him in the doorway with his hand on his chest. He demands that Percy tell him what's going on and after some very intense yelling Percy finally admits that he's pretty sure that he has a crush on him and the sight of him in that Quidditch uniform does things to him. Oliver definitely didn't think about what his uniform might do, but is very pleased with this revelation so takes it as a win and just kisses him. There's delightful frottage, Percy makes him keep the uniform on while he blows him (Because it's hot that's why) and it's just a lovely smutty time.

50 notes - Posted February 27, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Okay we're gonna have a fun time today because I am fucking enraged. It's clear that people have no clue what polyamory actually is or how a HEALTHY poly relationship works. I'm not just talking a triad, because outside of fiction those are fairly rare. Since apparently the cishets control the narrative I think it's about time I cleared some shit up. The key to polyamory is communication. THAT DOES NOT MEAN CHEATING AND SAYING IT'S FINE BECAUSE "Hey I'm poly"! There's a certain fic that tries to excuse this behavior and honestly I'm disgusted that it's so fucking glorified. That is NOT polyamory. That is cheating, plain and simple. If you want to write that that's fine, but call a spade a fucking spade. Don't you dare use a healthy and valid relationship choice to excuse your character's bad choices.

As a member of the queer community you should fucking know better. You wouldn't say being Bi or Pan is a reason to allow cheating, and if you would get the fuck out. I am tired of putting up with bi and pan phobia in the queer community. The hets fuck us over enough as it is, why the hell would you add to it?

I am polyamorous. I am in healthy and consenting relationships. I am fucking valid and am not a cheater or greedy or any of the bullshit that you all seem to perpetrate. I am so fucking done with you using my life as an excuse for your shitty writing. Don't pit partners against each other, don't make them keep from working out their normal feelings so it's healthy, and for fuckssake DON'T TRY AND COVER INFIDELITY WITH POLYAMORY!

Have a fan-fucking-tastic day, and think about what you say before you say it next time.

81 notes - Posted September 11, 2022

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superheroshippinq-archive · 4 years

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*slides in on my heelies* okay quill, gush time. Scream about anything and everything with your f/os. No holding back —Nic

@me-myself-and-my-fos you're so gonna regret giving me this ask but THANK YOU TGTGSHSGS

putting it under a cut bc its just a big gush dump abt literally all my f/os but to anyone who does read it all thank you and srsly i love u so much i hope u know that i would die for u 🥺🥰 💕

// literally like. where do i start my mind is EVERYWHERE and im having a CRISIS i just love them all ?? sm ?? yknow ??

// i think mainly i’ve been thinking abt mon and winn like .... omg. theres this thing mon el does in c*non where he was reading romeo and juliet and underlining lines that reminded him of kara and I WANT HIM TO DO THAT FOR ME SO SO BAD ........... like that is so soft and usually i dont like taking ideas from c*non ships but oh my god that one is so good .......... 💕💕

// i had a not so good dream last night so i was thinking abt winn comforting me after a nightmare ( and not letting me have coffee at like 2 am to keep myself awake bc he wants me to get some sleep ). and him staying up to help me fall asleep again even tho he’s tired. like. wow he would so do that for me 🥺🥺

// winn is just so cute like hes such a good soft boy and hes so awkward but silly and so CUTE like .... he has a very cute face yknow ?? like a puppy ?? i just ???? i adore him i ADORE HIM and every time i see him im like. sir. sir give me a KISS.

// also i cannot stop thinking abt .... reunions with both of them yknow .... bc theyre both in the 31st century rn and it literally does NOT help that cw keeps teasing them coming back this season like i am so impatient let me see my BOYS AND GIVE THEM BIG SMOOCHES !!!!!!!!!!!! 😤😤

// ok OK BUT ALSO OFC after the last supergirl ive been thinking abt brainy but more specifically female brainy like ......... GOD SHES SO PRETTY. LOOK AT HER.

// wow that is my WIFE RIGHT THERE THAT IS HER MY WIFE A LITERAL GODDESS I LOVE HER SM. shes so badass and stoic too and you already KNOW thats my type just LOOK at kate and jessica. my brain refuses to be on straight activity today i am SO bi. should i make a new tag for her or should i just keep her under brainy’s tag ??? IDK BUT SHES THE GREATEST. pls. marry me

// and speaking of my wife .... like ,,, wow. kate ,,, she is just. i SWEAR 90% of what she did in last nights ep was stand around in her suit but oh my god i love her so much i was in AWE. luke wasn’t on her comms when she went on missions in that episode so i kept imagining myself taking his place ( since hes my brother ) and being in her ear during missions and wow ..... we’re a power couple aren’t we .....

// also. she was just standing around letting those teenagers take selfies with her bc she cant say no lmfao shes adorable.

// I’D GUSH ABT ⭐ BUT I LEGIT DONT TRUST MYSELF WITH KEEPING HIM A SECRET BUT KNOW I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND I SAW HIM YESTERDAY IN A RANDOM AD AND I SQUEALED

// ok ok thinking abt mon again bc he helps so much with my anxiety like ..... i can easily think of so many soft scenarios with him and they really help distract me when i get upset or anxious. i think of so much angst with him too but its GOOD ANGST and it still makes me really happy to think abt if that makes sense ??? i just wanna hug him and be in his arms and have soft domestic moments with him .......................... is that so bad ?? i love him so so much ???

// WINN TOO I GET TO SEE EVIL WINN IN THE NEXT EP AND THATS LOWKEY ( HIGHKEY ) SO SO EXCITING .... TOYMAKER WINN OH MY GOD

// its kinda funny that a lot of the time i cant think abt mon without thinking abt winn what does that MEAN

// literally just putting this here bc i started thinking abt female brainy again. miss dox. i’d be so lovestruck the first time i meet her i swear. like. i’d be pining so hard alex would tell me to just go home bc im not getting any work done LMFAO. she is literally the DIRECTOR OF THE DEO WHERE SHES FROM OH MY GOD. she is so powerful and knows it i love her. help.

// yknow .... ive been thinking abt the last ep of crisis and how much more cheerful/happy barry seemed and its just so good to see that again. it feels SO GOOD to see that again. all ive wanted this past like 4 MONTHS is for him to be happy again and its happened finally and gosh i am the big heart eyes @ him because im so happy and proud of him ................. i got lost in pics of him on pinterest this morning i SWEAR hes such a big comfort for me that i just go to him even when i dont need comfort tgbtrhgshg. barry sir i cannot wait to marry you. look how far we’ve come

// tomorrow is a new legends ep and i get new nate content .... like ... i love my historian boy i do not give him enough love but i adore him with all my heart. he’s actually one of my longest kept f/os since i’ve been shipping with him WAY before i even made that blog and i think thats pretty great of us 😤👌 im just hoping he gets a lot of screen time !!!!

// *points to conner and jessica* I DONT HAVE MUCH TO SAY ABT YALL RN BUT I THINK ABT YALL EVERY DAY AND I LOVE YALL SO MUCH AND IM NOT NEGLECTING U I SWEAR

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mentally-ill-and-nd-culture-is · 2 years

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(first of all, im so sorry for using this blog as a place to post this kind of thing. on my main blog, posts like these wouldnt get much attention. this blog, however, has over 2,000 followers and a lot more people who are willing to give input! so, i use this blog for this kind of thing as well. if you dont want to see this content, ill be tagging all posts similar to this as "not culture" in future. i know this is not the kind of blog you'd expect to see content like this, and im sorry, but it's the only place i can think of to ask with a fairly good idea that someone might respond.)

okay so i had this idea to write down a list of what i think might be my "autistic symptoms". im writing this down both to help myself and to ask the people who see this if it seems possible that autism might be worth looking into and talking to a professional about.

obviously im not asking anyone on here to diagnose me, or tell me i do have it. but i am asking autistics to provide input, if theyre willing, to give an indicator on whether it seems like something worth looking into for me, if they relate etc. thank you! the info and symptoms will be under the cut.

its going to be very very long so i'll be impressed if anyone actually reads it haha

first of all, i also do suspect that i have adhd, so keep that in mind as you look through this that some of these might just be adhd symptoms.

1. i have always found it very hard to make friends, and have a skewed idea of what a friend is. for me, introducing myself to people and talking to them feels like a huge task. all my current friends have been introduced to my by first friend that i met at my school, and barely any of them i made myself. when talking to a person, especially the first few times, i feel immense pressure to form the right facial expressions and laugh at the right things. i often have to pay a lot of attention to smiling at the right times and nodding to show im listening.

as for having a skewed idea of what a friend is, i often have a lot of trouble figuring out what friend means. for example, i sit next to this girl in my art class. we talk sometimes, because we are often told to work together on projects. she's nice, and talking to her isnt wildly unpleasant, although i do feel that pressure to smile, laugh, and nod at the right times even though it doesnt come naturally to me. and she does tend to speak in a way that is difficult for my auditory processing issues, but other than that she's pretty nice. however, i wouldnt consider her a friend because well, my standard of a friend involves a lot more than just talking a few times in one class! however, when i talked about how i dont really have any friends in my classes, she seemed offended and asked "what about me?" as if i was supposed to know we were friends. i mean, she never told me, and we've not talked a huge amount. so it kind of confused me why she considered us friends and expected me to know that even without telling me that was how she saw our relationship!

2. i have "samefoods". i heard of this person describing a phenomonon often experienced by autistics, and they called it samefoods. it basically means eating the same food for sensory or routine purposes over and over and over for a prolonged period of time. my most prevalent example of this would be cheese sandwiches. i ate a cheese sandwich every day for the first eight years that i was in school. every single day, the same sandwich. i didnt get sick of it until somewhere during sixth grade, in which i became utterly repulsed by it and ive refused to touch a cheese sandwich ever since. i think it came from the comfort of it being the exact same thing every time. it was part of my routine, and its sameness comforted my sensory issues. i do this with a lot of foods over time, however none have lasted quite that long.

3. related to the last point, "pickiness in eating". i have always, always, always been labelled as a picky eater. i used to think i really just was picky. however ive come to understand that it might not just be that? its possible its due to routine reasons and sensory issues!

4. just??? not understanding social things??? until VERY recently i did not realise that rolling your eyes did not mean literally rolling your eyes in a circle, it is just looking up and then back down??? thats what NTs call eye rolling?? what??? suddenly it makes so much sense why people call me rude when i look at the ceiling so i dont have to make eye contact. anyway, aside from that, i often struggle to grasp why the hell social norms are what they are, and what the point of them existing is. other people seem to understand the norms almost instinctively. however i dont know they exist until someone tells me explicitly, or i learn by trial and error of me making a social mistake multiple times and them getting angry at me for it.

5. my raads-r scoring seemed. well. very indicative of autism. it was, if i recall correctly, 187 points. it was definitely above 180 points but i dont remember exactly.

6. i always wear a sweater??? i dont know if this is to do with Sensory Stuff but i feel like it might be to do with routine. im always wearing one, even if its super hot out. i constantly am asked "its 40 degrees (celsius) why are you still wearing a sweater??", like all the time, and its unexplainable. im just wearing it and i cant take it off because that feels awful. like im sweating to death but idc

7. masking. so, ive always felt like i have to kind of force myself to have appropriate reactions to things and act normal, as mentioned in #1. however... it doesnt feel as exhausting as it seemed to feel to other ND people. like, its so tiring, and a lot of the time at the end of the day i come home and do nothing because i have no energy just from masking all day! but it seems to be more distressing to other people than it is to me so idk

8. so i heard hyperlexia is a commonly associated autism trait and idk how early i learned to read n shit, but from a pretty young age i was very good at reading and writing etc, dunno if it was hyperlexia or not tho

9. stimming!!! i stim so much. its almost constant. often its kind of swaying from side to side while standing, wiggling my toes, bouncing my foot, etc. my favourite one to do while watching youtube is twist around my earphones cord, make one bit into a circle and push another bit through it.

10. bfrbs i think are also common in autistics or nd people in general. i skin pick, rip off my nails, bite the inside of my cheeks until they bleed, etc. its to the point where people notice and make comments sometimes.

11. sensory issues in general. along with my food issues, i have texture issues too!! and auditory issues. my worst auditory one is when people rub their hands together. it literally feels like someone is grating my ears and it makes me want to rip my ears out or scream. i often stim and get very upset when people rub their hands together around me, which sucks especially in winter when all people are doing is rubbing their hands together to warm up. with texture, theres just certain things ill touch and immedietely feel repulsed by, to the point where im trying to wipe the feeling off on my clothes. another issue i have is dry skin- sometimes, touching my skin to other parts of my skin feels unbearable. right now it feels so awful when i touch my fingers together which is making it hard to type this. sometimes this is a full body experience.

12. however i only have small routines. i mean, i love planning and stuff, it makes me brain happy to follow plans and make schedules etc but (i think its the adhd) i dont often have the patience to follow through with them which can be upsetting and frustrating and sometimes it makes me feel a bit gross

13. i get really upset when changes are made to the plans i already have. when i have a plan for the day, and somebody tells me they can't make it/we have to do something else/cant do certain thing etc it makes me so frustrated and upset to the point of crying. to avoid that i make back up plans for every activity i plan, so that if something goes wrong ill have a backup idea i can still do so that i wont get as upset, since that thing was already pre-planned and part of my day.

14. not sure if this is an autistic trait, but i struggle with following instructions. if someone tells me "clean your room, take out the trash and wash the dishes", it gets very confusing because "which one do i do first?" "how throughly do they want me to clean my room?" "do they want me to take out the trash and then put a new bin bag in or not?" "should i dry the dishes too?" "which dishes need cleaning?" etc. theres so many variables. i need clear instruction to do tasks or i wont be able to do them. furthermore, when i ask my parents for food and they say yes, i often have to ask exactly how much im allowed because if they don't tell me how much im allowed, what do i eat? and theyll often just say "well, just take a reasonable amount! you know what a normal amount is!" and i dont know that, so i just dont eat.

15. echolalia! i think i experience it, at least. i'll repeat phrases ive heard before over and over, or make random noises many times, maybe as stimming?

16. i heard that autistic people often have a weird gait and posture! well, this could be a result of my scoliosis, but my posture is very strange. and as with my gait, my podiatrist let me know i have a weird way of walking as well

17. i love and hate rules. rules are great because it means i know what to do and what not to do, and its even better if the rules are super complete so i understand exactly what's required. rules also suck, though, because they often dont make much sense or feel ridiculous.

18. my emotions feel super intense sometimes, and super muted in other times

19. sometimes, especially recently, ive had trouble discerning when im hungry. its felt like hunger is the same kind of hurt as when im too full, or just a regular stomach ache. i cant tell the difference.

20. i rehearse conversations often, which might be scripting. i constantly think about questions people could ask me (even if its very unlikely/weird) and come up with a good response so that if i am ever in that situation i can answer them. even mundane conversations i script.

21. its difficult to interpret peoples facial expressions- what i think is anger could actually be amusement, etc

22. i experience shutdowns, i think. i have no energy to write about what they feel like so do with that what you will

this is not nearly all of them, but this list is already so long and i doubt people will read to the end so! here we are, im ending it early. um, congrats if you read most/all of this and thank you! i would appreciate any input at all <3

#autism #autistic #asd #asdfghj im so sorry for this!!!#im kind of embarassed about posting this ngl?#im not sure why #theres just sm embarassment i feel when i post stuff asking for help with things i should be able to figure out myself #but this blog has a great autistic community in it and i figured this post would get more attention here #not culture #< make sure to block the not culture tag if you wish not to see this kind of post@#love yall!

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melody-of-lost-souls · 2 years

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Heloo! Uh.. So, I literally love your blog and have been stalking it for months now.. (Pls don't think of me as creepy, that's just how I work ;-;)

So uhh.. I am one of the most extreme SNS supporters you will ever meet. I could rant for as long as possible to explain to you why I personally think that Sasuke and Naruto are soulmates. I would also rant for as long as possible to justify the reason as to why the Naruto ending is the worse ending EVER. But at the same time, I have really low self esteem so I always take criticism the wrong way. So it's pretty easy for me to shut off.. Um anyway.. I'm pretty sure you know the amount of harrassment we get from SS/NH stans only because we're shipping "brothers" according to their logic.. I'm kind of new to this fandom and I have never seen any chemistry between Sasuke and Sakura, or Naruto and Hinata, so I never really took interest in SS/NH fandoms. Please, I have better things to do than lie and delude myself on the daily basis. But I'll tell you that I brainrot and fantasize about Sasuke and Naruto married and having a healthy relationship where they both respect their space and have amazing kids who don't grow up in sketchy environments and train to fight off aliens. Anyways, while trying to enjoy fanarts of the characters and stuff I always find SS/NH fanarts around the corner. And boy does it tick me off. Anyway... My opinion isn't real popular, I don't think, but I generally prefer anything that's SNS honestly.. Wether it be one of them being a girl, Naruto being dominant or Sasuke. Whatever that includes 🍅🍥 bring together I don't mind. ANYWAYS... I cannot count the amount of headaches and frustrations I've had just by reading and finding SS/NH things (SS is what I see more often).. I understand they want to enjoy their ship, I mean don't we all?? But I mean, you don't need to twist your brain backwards just for your ship to make sense. They call us delusional, but by what means?? Do they call us delusional because we go for reality?? If they get to ship crappy ships why don't they mind their business and let us ship what we'd like to ship,?? Why does drama always have to occur.? I've seen so many people, not just SNS shippers but other Naruto shippers aswell literally being harrassed for disliking SS. It honestly scares me that people like that exists. It's gotten to the point where I can't even properly enjoy SNS because I'm afraid of being attacked.

I just wanted to know how do you cope with of these attacks and harrassments because I would do anything, and I mean anything just to keep SNS close to my heart... And also what are some tips to help ignore all of those negativities..

Thanks!

Hello Anon! Your ask made me smile, thank you so much <3 :)

Regarding to your question...At first time, when i started shipping them like "full time"(?) i mean putting all my attention to them, i also encountered myself with the negativity of SS and NH, and it was very stressing. My first post of why dont Boruto children make sense, got a lot of SS and NH insulting me and that made me very anxious at that moment. Must admit i tagged it wrong but anyway, they were FACTS not my opinion, but still they got mad and insulted me because of course they will behing their anonymity.

The only thing they can do, and they are good at it that must say, is fighting because they know well that the canon doesnt support them at all, so they have to do the hard job instead. I dont tend to get into discussions with them because it has no point. They "reign" on twitter instagram and youtube so i suggest you to not get into debates in there, because they tend to even call their friends and make cancel your account. So, i suggest you to stay away from them. If you get into a debate, let it be in a safe SNS account of twitter or instagram, because it will hypocrite to go to their accounts of their ships and say things (which can be true) because...yeah let them enjoy their ship. On instagram you can follow Sasunaru and Narusasu tags :) and accounts of them of course. Negative comments will appear always, not just from SS or NH but from dudebros who get annoyed to see reality, so we must cope with that. Just ignore them, do not try to read comments maybe on youtube because its full of them there. And on instagram, sometimes they put SNS tags for SS pictures (must say some SNS do the same, i hate that. the good is not that many just saw one) so you can encounter them even in some SNS tags, but just press the option button and say its spam Keep enjoying this beautiful ship, and at first their comments can be very hurtful, they are insulting you after all, but just remember they are some assholes from the internet who know nothing about you.

After all The strength of their grievance demonstrates the weakness of their argument.

#sasunaru #narusasu #antiss #antinh #sns naruto

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MONEY ANON HERE Ive thought it over 🚶we need to know abt billy from the adams that mf gives me such pure neurodivergent vibes it's insane.

im so sorry but he's got one of the most traumatic histories out of his entire family prepare to read some upsetting stuff. i'll put CWs around paragraph(s) where the darker, heavier subjects are mentioned/described, though. red indicates where triggering subjects start, and blue marks where they end. also its a long post and im on mobile so i forgot how to do the read more thing sorrryyy 😭😭😭

i kinda went more into his entire life story than explaining how he is and his personality but it generally does not change too much unless specifically mentioned/pointed out. personalities r harder to describe than certain behaviors - i prefer show not tell as a way of deacribing personalities qnd i hope thats present in what ive written here. otherwise you can probably pick up what oind of person he os based on tagged posts oops

HEAVY SUBJECT MATTER AHEAD SUCH AS: (MENTIONS OF) SUICIDE/IDEATION, INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS, SELF HARM, CHILD HARM, STALKING, AND BULLYING

William (Billy) Benedict Adams

bisexual 💛

b. April 17 1976

diagnosed w/ autism, depression, and C-PTSD

he's the youngest of three siblings (mick, beth, billy) and looks the most like his father colbert, taking after him in a lot of ways aside from appearance, including a terrible immune system - when he was little he would get sick a lot during flu-season but gradually was able to fight it off faster as he grew older. his middle name came from his paternal great-grandfather benedict marlowe adams.

billy's pretty hyperactive and chatty. he occasionally goes through periods of being nonverbal, but his attitude and energy remain about the same. he learned how to swear when he was 9 and hasn't stopped since much to his parents' chagrin. he loves horror movies and halloween is his favorite holiday. he's modeled after young eddie kaspbrak in the 2017/2019 IT movies, both in some appearance aspects and just how he behaves in general. he talks a lot and doesnt really have a filter, and uses sarcasm and humor even if sometimes it goes over his head when others use it.

like both of his parents and his sister, he is autistic. it's more visible than it was with his parents before him, as they spent their lives masking, while allowing their kids to "be as weird as they want to be", especially at home. a lot of their kids' behaviors were just like "oh yeah i / your uncle richie / (other relative) did that too thats normal" so they didnt think anything of it. unfortunately, billy was an easy target at school and had been bullied for not masking as well as his parents and other autistic kids his age, and being very sensitive to that same teasing.

some of his special interests include stuffed animals (especially bears), generally just toys he grew up with and even stuff from before his time, and vampires just to name a few. he also likes wearing the same colors and owns a lot of black / gray sweaters and monochromatic button-ups and khakis/jeans and short variants. he also has one specific salmon-pink colored shirt that he calls The Exception. he has some issues with his motor skills

being the youngest of three in a healing marriage had certainly put a slight rift between him and his siblings. he was the baby of the family and - while not being infantilized on purpose - was given a lot of attention from his parents, especially his mother. beth hardly noticed a difference, while mick was definitely a little jealous but he kept it to himself. aside from that, billy has a pretty close knit relationship with his older siblings and likes to hang out with them and when playing together, he'd always treat their toys gently and would freak out if he accidentally broke one.

billy also idolized his father a lot, part of it coming from family members saying he looked so much like colbert. this idolization even got him intereted in his father's work and would always beg his dad to let him come with him to wilderness pizza on the weekends. he loved that place a lot. while it could get overstimulating at times given its popularity, he felt very free there. all three of his siblings liked spending time there, but mick grew older so it was just the youngest two, and beth was on her way to other interests as well when she started to get closer to her 13th birthday.

speaking of, that interest in his father's work was entirely shattered on may 22nd, 1987. beth's 13th birthday.

(CW: CHILD HARM . i tried not to go too graphic but some information is necessary to understand where his injuries and trauma came from.)

this information is currently exclusive to my personal oc universe - while events mirror CBM, there are alterations made.)

james summers, a vindictive, jealous, unstable man , former friend of colbert's and a current employee of wilderness pizza, had let his envy ans anger take hold of him as he held in years worth of vitriol and hate towards colbert and made an impulse decision to just go all out, seeing as summers's life and marriage was collapsing in on itself and he "had nothing to lose".

he chose bethany's birthday to let loose, as he had the day off and it's where two of the most precious things colbert had would be. billy and beth, his youngest biological children. beth had suffered an injury to her leg, but managed to get away and hide before anything worse could happen. billy on the other hand wasnt so lucky - given it was very dark and his already poor-hand coordination, he'd found something sharp to defend himself with and had unintentionally cut his hands with it. summers attacked him and while struggling, the kid had lost an eye, cuts on his arms and hands, and suffered some blunt force trauma which knocked a tooth out and chipped three others. scott barnet came to his rescue and billy was able to escape and find his sister hiding in the rafters above the little play area tube things. by that point he was running on pure adrenaline.

their father found them and was in the process of helping them down when beth slipped from where she was (again, it was dark) and done severe damage to her spine when crash-landing on a table. summers was approaching too fast for colbert and billy to retrieve her, the two making a run for it and hiding in a janitor's closet. while billy felt safe in the cramped room, his claustrophobic father did not and it was very visible. by the time police arrived, billy's adrenaline was starting to crash and his injuries were catching up to him. he does not remember anything after entering the closet and before waking up in the hospital the the second time.

(CW END)

billy spent a lot of time in the hospital recovering and suffered from nightmares, panic attacks, and other PTSD symptoms for years afterwards. his love for his father's work had crashed and burned, but that didn't mean their relationship had gotten worse. in fact, it only strengthened their bond. whether it was a healthy attachment or not is unclear and varies depending on who asks. he'd also been recieving counseling and therapy afterwards given the severity of his trauma.

(CW: STALKING, SELF HARM, SUICIDAL IDEATION)

during that period, though, the family was starting to struggle financially with WP being closed, hospital + counseling bills piling up alongside utilities and food and other necessities. his mother finally got a job and his father was suffering from the hard losses that came with summers's attempt on their lives. bethany was also adjusting to being almost entirely unable to walk, and mick had stepped up as a caretaker in place of their father. it was very hard on the entire family and billy felt like he was a burden. not because anybody said anything, but because he could see how much his caretakers were trying to provide for them given the financial circumstances. he didn't feel like he was worth the trouble and his feelings were overwhelming and he'd often hit himself or scratch at his face during meltdowns or panic attacks. he was only 11 when he first experienced intrusive thoughts and suicidal ideation. it was never active at this point - he was deathly terrified of pain,so he never brought it up as it wasn't an active problem.

summers wasnt done, though, and had been stalking the family for months until his sudden, unexplained murder on november 1st, 1987. it had left the family paranoid and untrusting of phone calls and mail they recieved and billy wasn't allowed to go anywhere without supervision of some kind. that left him with even more anxiety and what was later re-diagnosed as c-ptsd.

(CW END)

once the family began to recover, his mood and mental health had stabilized. he was still bullied sometimes in school but it was much... different. it was in the way you wouldnt notice until years afterwards. there was a lot of pitying and infantilism that he faced from peers and teachers to the point where it was uncomfortable, but if he spoke up to them about it they wouldn't listen. he resorred to being a class clown to make up for his "weird" behavior, and didn't make too many new friends. his best friends growinf up were jupiter summers and suzie mason, as they were in his age group and also went through the same thing as him, albeit they both came out with minimal injuries, if any at all. they were also "weird" kids and he felt at home with them. other friends in school were the espenson twins (family friends who were a few years older than him and beth), his cousin cassidy miller (see previous), jaiden summers (beth's age, also attended the party), and of course his sister bethany.

graduation was hard for billy as school was a constant for him, despite the bullying and other hardships he went through. it had structure. structure he wasn't confident he could keep if he ever got a job. he lived at home for a few years after graduation and worked at blockbuster video. he got officially diagnosed with autism around this time as well.

i havent decided if he should go to any further education like college or technical schools, so thats a big fat ??? though in the meantime he and his friends would often frequent haunted houses or walkthrough horror attractions set up at farms or old houses given his love of horror and halloween. despite his mother's concern he continuously went through with it because he knew it was a controlled environment and that he could leave at any time. plus, years of therapy had helped him learn to manage triggers and readjust to certain smells, imagery, and places. wit( that in mind, hed started coming around to things like pizza, arcades, clowns, rabbits, and animatronic characters, and later his father's business as a whole. he worked odd jobs there every so often once he felt comfortable enough being in the building again.

in 1999, a classmate from high school named kelly hotchkiss had approached him with romantic intent (and a bit of an ableist savior complex) and the two hit it off pretty well. they dated for a few monrhs, got married, and had their first child davis in 2000, followed by their middle child millie in 2002, and their youngest child alexander in 2006. their marriage was alright. his wife was the primary breadwinner, but billy confinued to work at blockbuster until it shut down in 2013, a year before shit really hit the fan. (he found another similar job elsewhere, though.)

over the years he'd been a victim of his wife's weird ableism and coddling. yes, he needed help with things, but he wasn't totally helpless or socially inept. there also came an issue with her transphobia towards their oldest son davis (ftm) and middle child millie (transmasc nonbinary). lex, like his father before him, is also autistic himself and it presented much more visibly through him having a lot of the most recognizable traits of it and also was on the receiving end of his mother's ableism.

(SUICIDAL IDEATION TW)

billy decided that he'd had and seen enough, and began the long, grueling divorce + custody battle. with help from a lawyer and emotional support from friends and family, the divorce went through and billy had full custody of his children. however, as with most major changes in his life, is threw him into a spiral of despair and anxiety. change was hard to adjust for, especially now thst he had three kids to provide for on his own. he fell into a heavy decline as he wondered if it was really worth it all, going so far as to regretting the divorce entirely and considering suicide. it got to the point where his children were affected by his bad mood and millie began to resent him for not being there emotionally, especially since lex was very attached to billy and needed his support and attention.

one night, billy was up at 3 am. and he realized something, and called his brother mick and told him "i need to get help." his brother-in-law jeremy had been through something very similar, and so billy sought out their help in getting him admitted to a hospital and arranged for billy's kids to stay with their uncles until he was stable enough to leave. it personally helped him tremendously and billy'sfamily had been reunited again. after staying in their home temporarily, billy, jeremy, and mick all agreed to billy's family staying there indefinitely, seeing as they have the money and room to accommodate them. billy still works and provides finances of his own, but he doesn't feel like he's constantly in the red anymore. he cant be fully independent and that's okay, and hes learned over his life that he absolutely has the right to lean on others for help when he cant do something on his own.

(END TW)

he's very close with all his kids and loves them all dearly, doing his best to understand what theyre going through individually and doing what he can to accommodate for them. he's very active and present in their interests and lives. like sending memes in the family group chat. he would make tiktoks for funsies. billy is very tech-savvy with modern technology - he and his cousin cassidy got really into making personal webpages and web design (they looked absolutely atrocious back in the day. partly on purpose just for fun, partly bcuz billy just had no fucking clue what he was doing)

he's also very open about the fact he's been through so much because of how actively it affects him throughout his daily life. for example: he can't drive. both because he physically cannot and out of a personal choice. he doesnt feel comfortable enough, he's physically disabled (half blind), and his motor skills lag just enough that he doesn't feel safe being behind the wheel in case has to make a quick decision on the road. while those who are half-blind can learn how to drive just fine, he personally decided it's not within his abilities. it took him years but he doesn't believe there's any shame in things like that, and there shouldn't be. he's not a public figure by any means, at least not to the extent his older brother and father are, but he does have a small platform where he talks about his personal journey through life and how he's gotten through everything because he hopes that it can help anyone going through a tough time of their own!

then there's an entirely different site/platorm where he does stuff more catered to his interests. being a young adult in the 90s-2000s kickstarted his relationship with the internet and he personally really enjoys the little spaces he's carved for himself. i think hed have a youtube channel where its him sitting in frint of a webcam reviewing horror media and old toys he got his hands on either from family, his own personal collection, or from secondhand sites and storesblike ebay or goodwill. he's very passionate about these things and its a bit of a funny contrast .

tl;dr: billy adams grew up dealing with mental illness and disabilities and the symptoms of such which made life very hard for him. despite it all, he learned how to grow around it and that it was okay to rely on others and ask for help whenever he needed it. he's curious and a bit snarky, but all-around a very kind and warm person with interests in shitty web design, horror, vampires, and toys from his generation and older.

#my ocs #billy adams #cw child harm #suicide ment #sui ment #stalking mention #sh mention #ask to tag #long post #he has a lot of good moments through his life there's years worth of good memories despite the shit hes gone thru #if i need to tag anything else lmk plz but i think i covered everything

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